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gumpistol · 6 months ago

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me and @ferromagnetiic we're almost birthday twins, we are the same egg group, we basically shared a womb

#❝ adhd thought dump ❞ — ooc #hello good day #saro is typing my completed threads for me because typing is boring and i can't do it #but i am awake and getting coffee #and hanging here for the morning #tbd.

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skyloftian-nutcase · 3 months ago

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😒

My head is full of thoughts so I am pouring them into the tags like a pitcher of water so that I can clear out my brain please just don’t mind me 👍🏻

#Ugh #I’m so tired #but if I sleep I’ll feel useless #But if I stay awake I’m gonna stare off into the void and be miserably exhausted #Need to go out and get that bereavement card #But I need a shower #But I’m already dressed #And then there’s that training meeting tonight #But it’s on LVADs and I take care of LVAD patients on my unit so squad training for it isn’t a big feal #BUT I’d get paid to be there #But I’m tired #and then can’t have dinner with my fam #Ugh I’ve been awake since 5:45am 😩#I need to remember to pray a decade of the rosary too #And lectio divina maybe??#I wanna take a nap #but feel gross #You know what to heck with it #Coffee and shower and upbeat music let’s goooo #Is there something wrong with my head or am I just tired LOL #The daily struggle 😂#ANYWAY BYE TUMBLR I HAVE TO GET OFF MY STUPID BUTT

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beegswaz · 2 months ago

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ON DA FUCKINT GRIND 💪💪💪💪💪💪🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

#rad1oart #im going to crash SOOO hard in like an hour just watch #whatever i have a comm to finish i cant afford to crash rn #dawg my mom woke up and was like holy shit youre awake????? must be serious 😨😨#the only other times ive pulled an all nighter was to crunch the fuck out of school work (50 page horticulture assignment I DONT MISS YOU!!#the only allnighter my MOM knows of was in middle school when i had to crunch a fucking essay on the floor of my bedroom #she walked in and was like What The Fuck Dont Do That Again But Also Get That Bag #the acetaminophen is for my headaches and general body achesANIMALS BY NICKLEBACK 🔥🔥🔥🔥#gang ive been so loopy all morning the only thing keeping me together is this roadtrip playlist me and ollie made #its the rock and metal thats keeping me locked tf in. i am going to sleep in like an hour or two and i will hear the #echos of fucking sabaton in my head #also i keep hallucinating but i cant tell if i really am or if its The House Ghost #both maybe. probably both. 90% chance its both.#coffee tastes like ass btw i hate drinking this shit but i need to LOCK TF IN.#sorry im rambling i literally have barely spoken to anyoneOh Hello Millionaires Fuck Yeahanyways yeah #my dad was up working as always so i had occasional yapping with him about Whatever and then i talked to my cats and myself for #like 4 hours and then my mom and then i said hi to my brother when he audibly said Whar at me

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angelstrawbabie420 · 10 days ago

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absolutely horrific day and then i was plagued by nightmares all night i am so fucking tired i could cry.

#i want the worlds largest cup of coffee right now but alas.#yes i just woke up also my schedule has been FUCKED since my brother switched to night shift so i dont have to worry abt waking him from #housework lest he get incredibly pissed #and i just force myself awake on the days i have shit to do outside #probably horrible for me but. oh well 👍#he was so mad he was screaming and slamming doors yesterday and it was so fucking triggering holy shit #ik it is 100% my responsibility to work on the shit that makes it so triggering and i very rarely react unless he is physically assaultingme #but it sends me straight into a panic attack no matter what. even if he’s not angry at me. i instantly want to just disappear and/or kill #myself trying to make it easier on him so he WONT direct it towards me #and i am not quite sure how to escape this mindset when i live in such close quarters to him and bowing to him is literally a requirement of #my survival. el oh el. i fucking despise living <3

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heartshattering · 4 months ago

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I will be productive today ᕙ⁠(⁠⇀⁠‸⁠↼⁠‶⁠)⁠ᕗ

Let's go let's go~

#ahhhh #I'm hoping making a post about it will help me make it true haha #my brain isn't wanting to turn on so I am going to have more coffee #I've been setting daily goals for myself but the day goes by so fast??#I really hope I can get stuff done today even if it's already noon #I was having a paranoia episode where I thought I had poisoned myself even though realistically there's no way I could have #and tbh being awake is overwhelming and makes my brain hurt :')#I wonder what I'll do if I ever work outside of the house like am I always just gonna want to disappear all the time?#blegh #anyway #I am trying

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julie-su · 1 year ago

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Well; my spirits have recovered! But my stomach and body are mad at me for skipping a day of meals. I could barely eat today, but I'm slowly getting there. But at least my brain is buzzing positively~ I do not feel like such a loathesome beast. Thank you to all of you wonderful people... You all know how to make a stupid echidna feel loved <3 I was an idiot to even consider suicide. I really don't know, what threw me off the path so hard... I suppose it was brewing for all of the month that I've been here. I won't get into my PTSD, trauma, and all of the things which bubbled up to the surface, the people which have their hands on me whilst I visit here... It's not a very positive thing... But I was stupid to try to take the easy way out. I know this.

The outpouring of support, it's made me realise that everything that was bothering me, we'll get through it, slowly, together... I'm going to keep on moving.

I want to live.