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#polinsated#mygifs*#bridgerton#bridgerton spoilers#polin spoilers#bridgerton 3x06#colin bridgerton#penelope featherington#colin x penelope#polin#polin church scene#polinedit#userjamiec#....#(idk why these gifs look so bad) (might delete idk)#is so soft i cannot handle it#but at the same time i wanna live here
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chat if i may speak
#marvel cinematic universe#mcu#xmen#x2 xmen united#xmen the last stand#xmen dofp#magneto#erik lehnsherr#snap sketches#i love the old people !!!!!!#highkey though old people are prob my fave subjects to draw ..#theres just so much line definition- i feel more confident drawing them and saying 'yeah that looks like them'#tho i also feel this way with people/characters who have really defined features and shapes ..... most curious !!!#anyways. i gave him extensions vjalkjlkaejAELJ#long-hair erik is important to me and i simply Had To See with ian mckellens face#at the same time something isnt right ... i cant explain it... im not gonna sit on this any longer tho this just a quick thing vjlkalk#when i inevitably draw older movie erik again ill prob go back to his short hair but i may be subjected to a treat. just this once#i dont wanna drive. totally unrelated. im going home for the weekend and i live so FAR from my dorm i hate it here (no i dont)#i just hate driving VJELAVJAE#whatever its the weekend which means more time for xmen brainrot#i just started S3 of 92 !!!!! in theory im halfway done with the series but S3 is also 26 episodes compared to the previous 13 vjeALVKEJ#OH WELL. im gonna go now i have to start driving at some point i GUESS#i just wanted to leave the people with a silly thing </3 ok bye bye#i have a silly comic planned with younger cherik so heres to hoping i do that !!! it's stupid but funny. i hope#ok bye bye now Truly
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i really, really do think the contrast between mona and barbeloth's character & primary motifs is so beautiful and important story-wise; and is something that should be talked about WAYYY more; just because it sets such heavy a basis and set of implications for the rest of the hexenladies & their successors/ and also it makes me incredibly miserable.
like if we were to JUST take these two, as examples, both of them embody the two different perceptions of how fate works in teyvat and !!! its so sick and demented !!!
Mona symbolizes the idea of fate not being definite, or confining ; birds are the entity ! most associated with freedom in this game ! – that fact alone shows the idea of her, existing as bird, seeing herself as free in her existence, and not confined or defined by whatever the stars may tell her . Although such a fate may exist for her, she still has the whole freedom in regards to deciding how she arrives at that fate . SHE EMBODIES THE FREEDOM THAT FOUND IS FATE !!!!
Barbeloth encapsulates the entirety of the other side of the spectrum, in that regard, too !!!! Her being a music box dancer symbolizes and implies that concept of being stuck. She was made, and invented, with a sole purpose, and she retains no freedom in how she may reach or obtain that purpose. She has no chance to move, or explore, or try different avenues in terms of reaching her "fate" – HER EXISTENCE IS CONFINED TO HER FATE !!! SHE HAS NO FREEDOM IN IT !!!!
like im not even sure if im so insane that im making up all these connections/parellels in my head. but the fact it so, so, so clear that they embody such distinctive, and different, perspectives of fate – despite the fact mona has learned all she knows from barbeloth, – is so. AWUUUHHHHHGGHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#can you tell i love them so much.#if anybody wants to hear me write about this same concepts of alice & klee / rhine & albedo ill be here same time next week.#LAFMFAHOSFHO#KIDDING. i dont wanna get shot#we live in a scary scary fandom#hexenzirkel#barbeloth#mona#barbeloth & mona
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i finished thesis, won an award, and have graduated.. hello 👋🥸
#i'm not coming back but :') hello#i forgot i even had tumblr still on my phone djdkdkdkdk#i just opened it for the first time in ??? 5 months or smth i think idk for sure#life is weird :')#remember when i said i wanna drop out every day of my life :') bc i suck at design#welp i won an award for my design thesis :')#jsjdjdkdkdkdj#turns out having friends kinda changes your life 🫂#having friends at school has actually :') made me a happier more normal person lol#i haven't been miserable?? i haven't wanted to kms ... i have been so happy and yes school was shitty but i wanted to go and try hard bc#my friends motivated me to stay and try and that's crazy :') idk#felt really loved and like i belonged somewhere for the first time in my life 🫨 like woah ppl like me and wanna be my friend? me??#:') i'm really happy... isn't that weird#i used to want to kms every other day hsjdndkdkdks lol 😭#now i'm like 😭 every day i look forward to waking up bc i'm happy and i have ppl who love me and i wanna see them again and i wanna spend#time with them again and play games with them again :')#literally stayed up till ??? 4 am yesterday talking to one of them like#😭#god jm djjdkdkdkd idk :')#my life is good...#???? IM NOT MISERABLE IDK GUYS#wild af#even winning the award was such a shock like 🥲 damn . who ? me?#ppl from like :') this big design thing in toronto we're praising it too like djdjdodjdkdj#:') it's kinda crazy.. i was super !#man.. i cant believe how 5 months ago i was gonna kms 🥸👆 and now i'm like erm actually maybe we do need to live#:') anyway#i hope ppl on here are doing good 🫨🔨#it is sad to not be here as much but also 👋😌 i'm happy to be free at the same time so ✨
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i know i just got here, but seeing all of the laughably bad takes from both sides of the spectrum is convincing me that no, i don’t actually need to be on social media again.
#this is about mdzs fandom discourse#this is a jc/jiggy support blog#but#they did bad things and made bad choices and i love that about them#i can acknowledge their bad choices and their flaws and still like them#but hooooooly fuck#the jc/jiggy/XICHEN antis drive me fucking banana nut bonkers#there are valid reasons to dislike all 3 of those characters and somehow you have created ones that are so far from reality i cannot believe#that we read the same book#or watched the same shows#1. get some reading comprehension i beg you#2. for the love of fucking god please like. find some god damn joy in your lives and stop giving a fuck about characters you don’t like#2.5 and people who like characters you don’t like#2.75 and i know that’s kind of blasse of me to say in the tags of a post griping abt people griping abt characters they don’t like#3. just??? go find joy? touch grass?? not everything is about you and your terrible reading comprehension#4. stop assuming that your way is the right way#5. the puritanical bullshit of protagonist inherently good is really getting old#i am begging you to do any modicum of research into the concept of antiheroes#it will broaden your horizons i prommy#not everything is about blorbos being all good all the time#your blorbo is not free of sin#(unless it’s sizhui. sizhui is always free of sin)#anyway i think imma delete tumblr. the algorithm keeps showing me anti posts and im old and tired#no discourse here pls and thanks#moots dm for discord if u wanna
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woke up feeling so homesick today. but instead of being homesick for one place i’m just homesick for my family
#my uncle who lives in belgium my other uncle who lives in jordan my mom’s relatives who live in california etc etc#my belgian uncle especially is like a father figure to me but in the typical iraqi experience this is all scattered family#ofc they all lived together in iraq at some point but that was before my time#we’ve had very rare family reunions but i never got to experience the whole extended family in one place thing many times. life is busy#i got the chance to visit my uncle very frequently as a child but it’s not the same anymore#i miss him i miss him. i rly wanna visit him but i have so many things im juggling here all the time#theoretically i could visit my mom’s relatives in cali for a few days but i already go there during the summertime anyways#& frankly no one comes close to my uncle. its him i wanna see the most#p
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i am once again thinking about The Boy
not the movie lol
#give it up for day 13#how has it just been 13 days since my first time seeing him in so long#🙈💕 i like how i haven't had A Crush in a sec and the last person it was on was him lol.#there's a lot of little stuff that's changed since then abt myself and between us ig but good lord i have never been more attracted to him#than i am now 😵💫😵💫 seeing him in sweats and a sleeveless turtleneck that first day has just had him in my head every day since#like HELP he's hot 😭 but then like... so am i omg (｡ﾉω＼｡) actually cleaning my place finally so i can have him over lol#i know I'm hot but at the same time i forget ykwim.. until i look in a mirror or see a picture and I'm like oh right i exist.#anyways ms ma'am is getting better at talking to her friends abt these kinds of things ʕ ꈍᴥꈍʔ ♡#i say that there's nothing I'd do for a lover that i wouldn't do for a friend and that i just love ppl fundamentally#and i know this is my true self‚ but I'm somewhat new to living that in practice and on purpose.#I'm a little clumsy i think but no one's seemed to mind 🙈💕 i am happy that I'm learning and i am happy to deepen my friendship#and i look forward to how much easier this will be to navigate a yr from now ^.^ I've been polyamorous for a year and a half ig#and i feel like I've found my comfort zone yk? :3 ♡ what being polyamorous Means To Me#it's good to be here.. i look forward to the friends i will make after i move and i wish i was more forward w the boy sooner omg#but it's okay. he won't be Too far away it's just a bit of a trip. i wanna have him over a couple times before i leave tho and hopefully#many more at the next place ૮ ᴖﻌᴖა ♡ but i will visit him too hehe his family's rly nice
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Hnngg
#im so stressed ughhhhh#this divorce is gonna end me man though im probably stressing out over nothing AGAIN#like tomorrow my dad's bringing some expert to the house to put a price on the house#and i literally have no idea whatever that's gonna be how we are gonna pay that shit lmaoo#also i just really don't wanna be there or be with them in the same house god i hate it when they're near each other#i am..... going through it more than i probably should since I'm an adult now n stuff but whatever#it's not like i can just stop feeling all this distress and grief n shit especially since he's already found a girlfriend#with kids and stuff and they've already been going to my grandparents ughhh i feel thrown away you know#it hasn't even been a year it's pissing me off so badly#i feel like killing myself every time i think about tomorrow and then I feel even worse when i think about later ughhh#i shouldn't be so distressed i really shouldn't#especially since I've been living my life on an incredible streak of luck so.#whateverrrrr#uhh like comment and subscribe#vent#i just gotta. cause there isn't anyone here i can really talk to since#everyone sees this so much more differently and sis is just always telling me im making it into something bigger than it is#but it's really stressing me out#idk i fear this is not gonna end nicely I don't even see him anymore#and it literally hasn't even been a year but he's not really talking to me but at the same time i don't really#feel like talking to him either so who knows uhh..
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can somebody please convince me that i haven't made a horrible mistake
#speak friend and enter#this isn't what i thought it would be. i think im just homesick for the moment but i just feel really bad#i know im hungry and haven't slept well and that's a large part of the problem#but i miss my family a lot. and my pets. and my old job.#i know if i don't go through with this and stick it out just for a little while i'll be disappointed in myself and wonder what could've bee#but at the same time i just wanna go home. i know it's largely culture shock and stress but i feel so out of place here.#i just want to call my mom and tell her i want to come home. i'm afraid i can't afford to live here and that i won't find a job i like#i just want to go back to my old job. i loved my old job. and im not sure this is worth it.#but i feel obligated to stick it out for at least a month or so so that i feel like ive gotten at least some of my moneys worth.#but im just really lonely.
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man. i hate getting older this sucks. Not cause old is bad, but cause everyone disappears in your life #572946 i hate being aroace and unable to love in ways people consider future securing i want to keep my friends forever i'll do anything i swear please please please please pleas please please pl
#shosh#i rant about this every other week i hate it here#i hate not being prioritized by most people i would prioritize. I'll get swept aside all the time#i'm just like on the floor#i don't wanna do thisssssss it doesn't look like it gets better i just wanna talk about ocs all day bro#yes i'm the same as i was when i was 5 and km just as fucking sad about it except i'm living through it#kms i swear to god it's mercy please my life should stay being 15 years old
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#just want to apologize to anyone who has tried to reach out lately#just like I texted my friend I’ll tell you guys the same#haven’t been talking to a lot of people lately tbh#pretty sure I’ve mentioned php a few times by now#monday was my last day#and I was feeling on top of the world on Monday#I don’t remember the last time I was so genuinely happy#figured it was the med change or something#so I was feeling pretty optimistic#I’m in between programs now#and today was not the best#not as bad as some of my days#but definitely not even near the day I had on Monday#I just wish I could feel that every single day#I’m working on it but still#waiting to start ‘adult day treatment’ and case management#and I think case management will help me find a place??? I’m not sure exactly but that’s kinda what I was getting#which honestly? I know I’ve bitched about how badly I need to move#but while I was in php I realized I don’t think I’ll truly be able to heal while I’m living here… and that’s a scary thought#idk there’s a lot more deeper things that I don’t wanna talk about#but the fact I don’t have space and I don’t feel safe and comfortable here is hard….#my ‘safe’ space was my car but now that I’m trying to quit smoking my car isn’t the best place for me#I’ve been kinda getting used to my room and I’m finally trying to move a few things around#(now that I have a little energy again)#it’s just……. my arachnophobia is KILLING me here#in the past week I don’t even know how many spiders I’ve seen and killed#they haven’t been crazy and I recognize I don’t live in Australia or places where the spiders are as big as fucking cars#I came home and I was in a good mood until I saw a spider in my room 🙃🙃🙃 tried to vacuum it but not sure if I got it……..#so guess im sleeping on the couch….. again…. but can’t help think if out here is any better…#shut up rosie
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I honestly just don’t get how people default to thinking southern accents are like unserious and unintelligent, I know I live in a bubble and I’ve never been outside of the south so like my world view is skewed but like idk I can’t like conceptualize hearing someone’s accent and going “your accent is too stupid and silly for you to have a brain” like ???
#deity dialogue#sorry I’m rlly half asleep#obvs my worldview is different cause I’m southern I’m surrounded by southern ppl I hear the accent all the time#so it’s like normal obvs but idk it still baffles me#idk if I ever go north are y’all gonna be mean to me cause I talk in a way that y’all perceive as stupid and lesser than how you do??#I’ve already mentioned that even here we aren’t safe from the ‘haha youre a dumbass southern hick’ statements#which is rich cause like bitch who are you to be talking you live here too I don’t wanna hear you call me a red neck cause you’ve been here#for a long ass time to and I’m sure if you went up north they’d be on your ass the same way they’d be on mine#like what gives you the right?#like I will say also that I do make fun of the accent but in the way that lexi and I will be heatedly talking and get more southern with#each word and that amuses and delights us like idk it’s fun to look at someone who just said one word in a more extreme southern accent on#accident and repeat it back to them#but like at the end of the day we like being southern we don’t think there’s anything wrong with it or like inherently worth mocking#plus there’s a difference between two friends being silly and strangers telling you you’re a stupid redneck hick :)#this is also coming from someone who compared to other southern ppl doesn’t have the most strong southern accent (it’s there onvs but ya#know) and I still have to deal with this shit :/#sorry I need to go to bed and shut up no one caressss
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think ive finally figured out a building process i dont despise. still got a LONGGG way to go improvement wise (a whole lifetime even) but the process occurs regardless :3
#danny phantom#fentonworks#background art#lineless art#drawing process#my art#fan art#ignore the lack of sign btw i forgor :skull:#VERY messy in places but! im reaching a point where i can bust out something like this kinda quickly :)#which is good because i really dont have the focus for cool week-long pieces most of the time#so if i can get fast enough at making shit that looks ok? thatd b so awesome.#btw expect some ops center concepts soon because im not happy w how restrained i made it#like it looks fine. but i want it to look like the abomination cobbled together over the last 20 years it is#like i wanna feel the same emotion looking at this thing that i feel looking at the pathologic polyhedron#i think thatll both be cooler and more accurate to the show fentonwork's vibe#i also wanna explore the modern industrial thing i had in mind w that giant window#think i could do better w a few more iterations. i like it as a starting point though!#anyways my wifi is really slow so im just gonna ramble while the video uploads ok? :3#So! im starting to write out some worldbuilding for my rewrite#basing shit off of ohio mostly because i live here#but also personally i hc amity park being around where/in the place of cincinnati#tho i have way more experience in the northern part of the state#because lake eries a daytrip whereas a wisconsin trip needed a sleep break#like i doubt theres an Official Location in a meta sense due to all the inconsistencies#like id genuinly b suprised if they even had like “midwest” written down#but its more fun to work w a solid base so :p!!!#ANYWAYS rewrite ideas#1) major change. im fusing amity w elmerton#because im a hater but also because i like the idea of east/west clevland applied to amity so im doing that.#although cincinnati is north/south...
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it's amazing to have hyperfixations just not when you sit in front of your laptop staring blankly at it trying to figure out which one of your fics you wanna continue. bc NONE CUZ THE FIXATION ISN'T ABOUT ANY OF THEM
i'm having intense thoughts and feelings yet i can't let them out
it's basically painful
#i have such stupid ideas i can't#it's so funny to be european and living in a smaller country having it's own culture bc said culture is hilarious in the concept of a show#- that has absolutely nothing to do with it#like i imagine scenarios with the hexsquad dressed in folk costume and it's just so genius yet so stupid at the same time#i also have a scenario in mind which is pretty specific but so funny too#but sadly it's just funny to me and those who live here bc it just doesn't happen everywhere#and it's a running joke here#but yk what i wanna make that comic bc i just HAVE TO share it-#gotta make that while i'm still inspired#so ig i can take another day off from writing#but that's not the only thing on mind#i found such a cool au which i can't stop thinking about for 2 days now
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That hug 🥺💜
#illustration#my fanart#bts#bts fanart#jhope#jung hoseok#kim taehyung#v#hobi#vhope#I DON’T WANNA SLEEP 😭😭😭#I DON’t want to miss hobi’s live 😩#i will miss you my everything but i’ll wait for you 🥺#i wanted to make this fanart but at the same time i didn’t 🥺 my hearttttt#tae looks tiny here
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*feeding the obsession* what exactly is hypmic anyway?
oh lord
sorry if this is bad synopsis i'm bad at writing thoughts out and sleepyy (<- fell asleep in the middle of writing this last night)
it's a multimedia project and the main story is told through drama tracks but there's a manga adaptation, anime, rhythm game with insane non canon side stories, and a stage play!!
So after wwiii killed like 1/5 of the world, a political party made up of all women took over the japanese government, established an all female district, and banned all weapons except for hypnosis microphones. The microphones can like attack people's nervous systems via lyrics. They also start up the division rap battles where teams of rappers from each of the divisions fight for supremacy over the others.
There's 6 division groups made of 3 members each and they're all insane in their own unique ways!! The divisions are:
Buster Bros!!! -> Ikebukuro Division
MAD TRIGGER CREW -> Yokohama Division
Fling Posse -> Shibuya Division
Matenro -> Shinjuku Division (the one hifumi is in ^^)
after the first division rap battle 2 more divisions were added:
Dotsuitare Hompo -> Osaka Division
Bad Ass Temple -> Nagoya Division
Lots of them have like history with each other ranging from brothers, ex group members (lots of those), childhood friends, parent/ child, ex manzai partners, uhh weird homeless guy that one of them dragged back to his campsite and feeds occasionally?
The characters are kinda all over the place and I adore it!! I saw a review of the anime that said 'we’re watching working professionals stuck in the rap circuit.' and yea,, there's a bunch of adult men with mostly normal jobs (couple teenagers too). But yea let's throw a doctor, lawyer, author, ex- soldier, monk, teacher, fashion designer, vkei musician, salaryman, yakuza, comedian, whatever it is that ichiro does, conman, host, corrupt cop, and gambler (not a job) at each other and make them rap and just see what happens 乁[ ◕ ᴥ ◕ ]ㄏ
The story is kinda insane but i love when a story makes me feel like i'm going crazy! i find it a little corny sometimes but i'm having lots of fun with it!!
currently they're releasing eps for each group with solo songs and a drama track on them leading up to the 3rd division rap battle!!!
these men are doing something to my brain and i can't fucking stop it
women my beloved,,,
#i needed another music based thing for me to get into soo bad since i fell off love live (and it makes me kinda sad now that the game's dead#i failed at getting into enstars and ended up here somehow#i still really wanna get into it i'm just stupid#adrian speaks#it took me 5 years to get into hypmic and i'm a little sad i didn't get into it earlier#i had a friend in 2019 that was into it and recommended it to me and i just kept putting off listening to it for 5 fucking years#i have to keep telling myself if i got into it back then i might not have played your turn to die bc i played it around the same time i-#would've gotten into hypmic
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