#but anyways im also glad im almost done with it because i want to start playing other stuff now

[celticwoman]

just realised im almost done with my da2 replay 😞

[smolsaltypan]

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[kimsmuse]

yandere dilf !!

this was written in gaps, so im not that confident about it?? but here goes nothing. also i fucking love dilfs god. get me a dilf please.

also this was inspired by this one man i saw on my way to my uni admissions and he was there for his daughter 💀 put me in jail fr

the dilf here is in 40s something and the reader in early 20s n i think she switched universities to do her master’s (if you do not like this type of thing please look away <3)

gender neutral!reader (it might be implied femal but the pronouns are they/them) 1.7k words. warnings for age gap yandere behavior, kidnapping, manipulation, obsessive behaviour? dilf is a delusional yandere fr.

yandere!dilf who is (clichè i know, please look away but this is the best thing i can think of) your father’s friend, but not best friend or anything because he lives in another city, but oh you’re moving there for uni and your parents can’t think of anybody else to contact so they call him up !!

but he’s busy when you’re moving so he can’t help :(( oh but did i tell you he was the one who chose that apartment for you to move into?? it was so close to him and his friend said to keep an eye on you so he chose the one which wasn’t even like 5 minutes away. and he wants to be of help to his friend so bad but these board meetings and stuff ://

best believe that when he’s free he’s at your apartment with a bunch of new home essentials, a few groceries that you might need, and this man is ringing up your door. now neither of you had seen each other, heard about the other from the common point that was your father, yes. but to open the door and be in the presence of a man that is that gorgeous?? and he’s just wearing sweatpants and a tshirt?? god.

not to mention a thin chain around his neck that leads to inside his shirt…. kill me really.

anyway, but he’s equally taken back because um, this was his friend’s kid. literal kid. he shouldn’t be thinking about how alluring your appearance was, get your head straight, he tells himself, as you invite him. aren’t the shorts too short….

if sexual tension could have been visible, man would your apartment be full of it.

but he’s nothing but resisting, it’s how he has been single for so long, it’s not that he doesn’t like commitment, but… he likes to tell everyone that he just hasn’t found his The One yet.

“the apartment has come together nicely,” he says as he looks around and it is, you’ve done a great job at it and it reflects the type of person that he assumes you are.

you ask him if he wants something to drink? and he politely rejects your offer, he does not want this thing to escalate because knowing his track record, he can’t stand a minute more near the kitchen island and not think about bending you over, and that was normal for him but god, snap out of it, this is half your own age, he thinks to himself.

and you want him to stay, but again, it is quite fucked up to think about being fucked by your father’s friend and someone your father’s age.

“here,” he gives you all the stuff he brought with and kept it. “that’s all, i have some work i need to do so i’ll take your leave now,” he starts to leave when he looks back again “and, um, my number,”

to which you blush, but remind yourself, it’s only like an authority figure, nothing else. and he tells you his own address, in case there’s ever an emergency.

that is how it begins, and your father leaves a message for him, “please take care of them,” and he acts like it’s a burden but he’s overjoyed inside, he has an excuse…

anyway, fast forward to you starting university, getting a social circle, and he visits you weekly, awkward and short visits but you’re just glad he can grace your apartment like that, you even light up your special candles around for him to notice, and he does, but you don’t know how hard he’s just trying so hard to not snap.

when it’s been almost an year or something, he finally thinks he should sit down or you’ll catch on to him or something (little does he know that all you though of it was the fact that men like him are always busy.)

“so you’ve settled in okay?” he asks, as if the cctv installed outside your door doesn’t already tell him that you bring a steady flow of people home, friends.. un-friends and people he was genuinely jealous of. he was jealous of your friends too, because he desperately wanted to stay platonic with you and he didn’t know how they did that.

the conversation flows from one point to other and suddenly you ask him, “are you married?” and he looks startled at the question so quickly begin to apologise, you did not mean to overstep any boundaries.

“uh, i don’t know, i just haven’t found someone who i would like that much, i guess,” if the tension before was a lot, this was the worst it could get.

he leaves abruptly again, and you watch from your balcony as he pulls his car out of the parking and out, wishing he stayed sometime.

what you did not know though was the fact that the yandere was fully invested in your life, your friends, your daily errands. but this was what taking care of you meant, right?

the last straw came to him when you were at a party, frustrated by the lack of response that older man was giving you, you were desperate to get laid today even if you would end up being upset over the fact that it wasn’t him. but unknown to the fact that the yandere just had this.. odd feeling today? that he has to follow you and when he got to know it was a party? parties are never good news.

and he’s almost dozing off 2 hours later in his car, parked safely at a distance when he think he hears your voice. and sure enough when he takes a peek out, across the street is you, and wait, is that a guy following you.

“i was just kidding i really don’t want to go home with anybody tonight.”

he gets out of the car silently, and the guy who is insistent on getting his dick wet by specifically you, a statement which makes his blood boil, is too busy persuading you to notice the punch that the dilf throws at him from behind. the yandere doesn’t think about what you’ll ask about how he got there and stuff, this was serious and it only reaffirms his ideals that yes, he had to make sure you were safe and he had to follow you, god knows what would have happened if he wasn’t there.

as soon as the guy is knocked out, he looks at you and you look up at him surprised, your mouth forming an ‘o’ but noticing the haze in your eyes, he can feel relief inside.

“you’re here!” you exclaim and you are drunk, he concludes as you hug him. he might actually burst but he feels euphoric right now, as if he could cry, it was like he had this actual fear, what would he do if something happened to you? it was no longer the responsibility or the feeling of being answerable to your dad.

don’t worry after that, he drives you home, but his home. he has to make sure you’re safe at all times, right? what if someone decided to rob your place? or… the guy from earlier? what if he got your address from one of your friends? he couldn’t imagine it.

so there might be a change in plans, you don’t need to tell your dad yet though, or anybody. in fact, you might not need to go out at all. he made more than enough to sustain, and keep you safe, take care of you, like your dad asked, and he is nothing but a loyal friend, isn’t he?

now let's dive into little specifics, shall we?

yandere dilf is completely smitten, he was the first moment he saw you but right now you're at his mercy, and it gave me a hysterical kind of high. 

and he is so so convinced that he's doing what he can to protect you and this is allthat can be done, there's no other way!

he brings you bits and pieces of news that are the most terrible of them all - murders, rapes, all of the worst stuff, so you realize how much of a favour the yandere is doing you by protecting you.

and your dad? as far as he's concerned, you're still going about your daily routine, there’s nothing wrong with it. he makes you call him because he doesn't want to deal with his friend, not yet.

yandere dilf is caring but he's also really short tempered, if he brings you food and you eat it silently without saying anything, he'll snap :(( because you should have said the food was good or you were happy that he brough you that, right?

but he realizes his fault quite soon, he was mature, he shouldn’t act this way with you. and he apologises, someone tell this man an apology means you would try not to do it again. because he does, he keeps on repeating the cycle.

at first you were completely opposed to whatever this weird idea was, but slowly you gave in, when you realized the heights he had thought all of this through to, all you could hope was someone to notice that this wasn't normal and help you. well, someone to notice and try to help you and not be bought off by the money that the yandere dilf gave them.

yandere dilf coddles you; at first this is how he got to break your shell, he patted your head when you did something good, something like eating, drinking water. and you loved it, as much as you hated to admit it, sometimes it felt like you put in so much efforts in your daily life to get people to love you, that it felt like a relief that here he was praising you for doing the smallest of tasks.

yandere dilf does not fuck you. he keeps himself in control, he does not even touch you if you're angry or upset at him, but he knows a few ways and he's bringing you around slowly to the idea of a you and him together creating an us.. he's getting there slowly and surely.

just… please.. don't try to escape or anything, that would really set the process back… or would it accelerate it…?

[volturiprincess]

Better than a cup of coffee

Alec Volturi x human mate Warnings: Just pure fluff A/N: This one is short and sweet, i apologize to anyone who does not drink coffee but as I was writing this I was drinking coffee and I'm a coffee person anyways. I wasn't sure if I was going to work on this today but I needed some fluff and well here is it. There will be a second A/N in the end. Enjoy 🤗

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(My love🖤)

I have never been a morning person, just the thought of having to wake up early makes me want to cry. I applaud the people who wake up early. But when I meet my mate Alec, mornings have officially become my favorite part of the day. What makes it so special, is Alec wakes me up with a fresh cup of coffee that he made just for me. I'm not sure how he picked up on how to make coffee or how to make it how I like it but I guess he really does pay attention to my every move in the mornings.  I have told him before that for me to function as a human I need a cup of coffee or else I will not be a delightful person to be around.

He unfortunately witnessed that side of me and has made it his mission to have that cup of coffee ready for me when I wake up. But that's not what makes it special, when he wakes me up, the first thing I see is his face. He has this small smile and his eyes are full of warmth and love that makes me feel like i'm in a dream still. He's like my personal fallen angel that I have the honor to call mine. 

This morning did not start any differently, the sunlight was gazing on me with its million mini rays hitting my face. I heard a small thud hit my nightstand, and I opened my eyes slightly to be blessed by the sight of my stunning mate looking at me already with his face slightly having that unhuman sparkle. His burgundy eyes also already having that intense but loving look he gives me whenever he looks at me, even if I probably look like crap he never fails to lose that look. 

With his small warming smile already on his face, he again blesses me with his soothing voice “Good morning sunshine, the earth says hello”

I make “grabby hands” toward him and he comes closer to lay on top of me with laying his face on my chest. I bury my face into his hair and mumble groggily 

“Someone’s been paying attention to the movies I make them watch”

“Always my love”

He tilted his head up and gave my neck multiple kisses, the temperature difference between his cold lips and my warm skin made me feel that familiar feeling of butterflies fluttering in my stomach. Being like this with him makes me forget there is a real world out there, almost makes me feel like we are the only two people on this planet. These small moments we share I hold dearly to my heart because I am the only person that gets to see Alec in such a vulnerable and relaxed form, not even Jane has seen him like this, the honor I have. While he continues to give me now soft kisses instead of multiple, I run my hands through his dark locks. I'm glad he has kind of long hair so I am able to run my hands through his hair. So soft and silky, makes me slightly jealous he has nicer hair than me but he tells me it's a vampire thing. The way his soft kisses leave me in a state of bliss that makes me mumble nonsense 

“Better than a cup of coffee”

He lifts his face to looks up at me with a pure astonish look and exclaims 

“Are you serious? But you said you always need a cup of coffee to be human”

I pull him into a deep gentle kiss that he reciprocates, I pull away and say with a small sleepy smile 

‘Your my cup of coffee now”

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A/N: So cuteeee. I like how I did a little reference of "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory" (2005), its actually my alarm sound 🤭. I just wanted to say that Im working on a Caius one-shot, this one is taking a bit longer to get done because its longer than my usual ones and I was thinking of doing a 2 part to it. But also I have my finals this week so I wont be posting to often, I may have part one of my Caius one-shot out this week but I been having some small difficulties with it and I keep changing my mind in how to write it plus studying keeps me occupied the majority of my day. But I.m happy to have gotten this one out in the open because its so sweet and adorable, I almost made it a Carlisle one-shot but as I kept thinking about this it just screamed Alec.

[awoogayanderes]

TAKING CARE OF THEM WHEN THEY’RE DRUNK

➪ request : “hi’ Can i request taking care of Dazai, Jouno and Tecchou when they’re drunk (I imagine drunk dazai like when he ate the poisonous mushrooms)” - anonymous

➪ other notes : i’ve been getting so many tecchou requests lately, and im glad they did him justice in the anime to look so gorgeous, anyways this was really fun writing, i also wrote this at like 3 am, so i’m sorry if it’s shitty

➪ warnings : dazai being a suicidal bastard, alcohol obv

Osamu Dazai :

- dazai drinks often, that’s no surprise to anyone, but he doesn’t actually get drunk

- but when he does, prepare to even carry this man home with him whining of course

- even when dazai is drunk, he does have some control over himself but as every drunk person, they lose that control once it’s tipped over with another shot of alcohol

- i think he acts a little less extreme than when he ate poisonous mushrooms, mainly because well, they’re very different things

- once you come and get him, he stares up at you with doe eyes, giggling to himself as his cheeks puffen up

- it takes a lot of convincing to let you take care of him, and throughout that he makes a lot of double suicide remarks

- “ahh i’ll let you take me home if you promise to commit suicide with me,” he confidently says as you stare at him with narrow eyes

- once you finally get him home, you lay him on your bed, sighing as you try to take his work clothes off into something more comfortable

- of course, this comes with a suggestive remark of his, still not having sobered up

- even before you’re done changing him, he passes out, loud snores filling the silent air

- surprisingly dazai remembers everything from the previous night, will he admit it? no

- though he’s thankful he has you to take care of him when vulnerable, even if he’s being difficult with you, he’s glad to have you

Saigiku Jouno :

- it’s so rare to see jouno drunk, and if he ever is, it’s in the confinement of your home

- i can’t see any occasion where jouno would actually drink, i think he even looks down upon it but who am i to say

- i think jouno becomes more snarkier but at the same time more softer, depending on what’s happening

- at first jouno acts the same, you almost don’t realize he’s been drinking until you hear him hiccuping with his cheeks tinted red

- his tone seems softer even with his strong remarks, was it condescending, was it loving? who knows, he doesn’t even know

- he insists that he doesn’t need your help even though he almost trips over air twice

- “i can handle myself, don’t you worry your pretty little head over it,” he says to you despite you basically holding him up

- maybe he makes a few remarks on how desperate you are for him, nothing new that he hasn’t said to you before

- i don’t think he’d be able to fall asleep, mainly because he doesn’t want to be unconscious and intoxicated, deeming it not very safe

- so this leads to both of you talking, even if he doesn’t know what the hell he’s saying

- the next day, he’ll tease you for being so worried about him, even though he appreciates the little things you do

- he never thought he’d reach that level of comfort and trust with someone, luckily you filled that spot, and that’s something he can’t complain about

Tecchou Suehiro :

- i don’t think this man drinks at all, not because he hates it but because he doesn’t really see a reason for it

- and because of this, he gets extremely drunk extremely easy, and boy oh boy

- he’d cling to you almost immediately when he sees you, even if you’re at a formal party, he won’t hesitate to lean his body on you

- i don’t think he’ll even realize he’s drunk at all, only wanting to seek you for some reason

- it’s not often that tecchou is publicly affectionate so you almost automatically assume there’s something wrong

- only to see your droopy eyed boyfriend clinging to you as if his life depended on it ( in his eyes it did )

- he questions you when you start to help him, curiosity invading his blurry mind as you try to sober him up slowly

- “oy what are you doing? is something wrong?” he asks confusedly as he sips the water you gave him, savoring it dearly

- he’d only be able to sleep if you’re next to him, putting his body weight on you as his head droops over

- hope you can stay like that for a good while, or else he’d wake up cranky and annoyed that you aren’t next to him

- the next day he’ll be so shocked when you tell him about his experience, not remembering a single thing that had happened, only the headache that ensued afterwards

- it’s a miracle to him that you can tolerate him for so long all the time, even doing it when he doesn’t even know what’s happening, he feels calm and relieved when he’s with you

[anne20055]

i just finished watching Date Night With Dan And Phil for like the 5th time and now that we’ve all had the time to ponder and digest it, i’m going to give my thoughts

im not even going to touch on the title. they’ve clickbaited worse.

Firstly, despite this going against everything i say on here, id like to address the “this was an incredible video; they looked so happy” vs. “they were so uncomfortable; Relatable should have never made them do that” discourse, cause i haven’t really seen anyone have the same take as i do

i think that for at least the beginning of the video, they seemed a bit uncomfortable, and got better as they went on, but not for the same reason as everyone else. i also think this uncomfortability was mixed in with excitement, kind of like the incoherent videos, especially the first one, but going a bit deeper than just that. i think they felt a bit weird at the start cause they’ve never directly used the words “couple” or “partner” in a video before. they’ve gotten close several times, like dan saying “…and this is the divorce” in one of the stereo livestreams (i forgot which one) as well as the “Phivorce” segment in “Top Dan Memes of 2022”, and dan saying “his and hises joint shitties” then phil saying “ours actually face each other” in the “Dan and Phil React to Phan Memes 2”, but they’ve never said any words about each other that give absolutely no plausible deniability, even if they were just reading the game box/cards, which can obviously make them a bit uncomfortable.

there’s two main times that kind of jump out that they might be a little out of their comfort zone, both at the very beginning, both coming from dan, which is kinda suprising, given the fact that he’s always been a bit more open than phil has ever since they came out, but that’s a conversation for another day.

the first one was when after phil said his signature “Hello Dan And Phil Games ____!”, dan said “Here, at dan and phil games….”, and it almost sounded like a disclaimer. (it also reminded me of the “apology” which was i loved). as well as that, dan seemed to be laughing at himself and shaking his head while phil was doing the intro phrase, as if to hype himself up with what was to come. THAT BEING SAID, i’m really glad they kept this part in, cause it was hilarious, and even though they seemed a little weird, they also seemed excited.

the second and probably more obvious time, was when dan was reading the box, “‘The Ultimate Date Night Game: For Couples’”, specifically during the “For Couples” part, dan was blinking, laughing, and was looking at the camera in a way that was like “yeah, i know exactly how that sounded”. BUT AGAIN, this is not a bad thing. they were just as happy to be doing this as they were scared.

i think the initial weirdness wore off pretty quickly and they got to just having fun, but i think the reason why so many people were saying that it was like that the whole time was because it was at the very beginning, so they just assumed it’d be the vibe the whole way through and didn’t think much of it.

despite the slight uncomfortableness at the beginning, i think that the people who are saying that Relatable was forcing them to do it are kind of underestimating dan and phil’s ability to say no. i understand that in the past they’ve done stuff they haven’t wanted to before and were forced into things that they didn’t want to do, but this is the new era. they’re old. they’re gay. phil can say fuck. they’ve got no more fucks to give. i doubt they’d have trouble saying no. yes, relatable gave them the game to play, but i garantee you, if they didn’t want to play it on at least some level, they wouldn’t have played it. it’s not like relatable is that big of a brand for them anyway. it’s big, sure, but we all know nord vpn and dragon city will always be first. even during the second incoherent video, dan says “we have so much to lose…and very little to gain for filming this video”, and while of course it was a joke, it’s still that little bit saying that yeah we’re sponsored by these people, but it’s really not that big of a deal.

next up, the thumbnail. it is rare when a thumbnail change makes me happy instead of just annoyed. i’m not saying i don’t like that they (phil) changes the thumbnail a lot, but id just…rather not.

but this change could not have been better. i genuinely do not know of a single recent, or even non recent video thumbnail that has absolutely 0 editing. the muckbang doesn’t really look edited, but they very clearly posed, and i wouldn’t be suprised if they did something to it. but even if they didn’t, it’s still clear that this thumbnail was different.

it’s so chilled out and relaxed compared to anything they’ve done before. it was almost like a snapshot of an actual date. it reminds me of a thumbnail that a “third wheeling dan and phil moments” compilation video would use and i love it so so so much. it’s such a nice change of pace and i really hope they keep this vibe going

i think that’s about everything; if anyone agrees or disagrees with me, please tell me!! i’d love to have a conversation :) any kind of “controversial” dnp related opinion that anyone might have is always open to share with me!! even if i don’t completely agree, i will never discourage you for thinking one way or another. this is a safe place for everyone’s thoughts and i’d love for anyone to talk, no matter if you are on marriage hill, or if you think they’re platonic, please tell me! the only thing i will not accept is people bringing down other people’s opinions. they are not hurting you, so you should not be hurting them.

if you’ve read this far, i’m actually in love with you ❤️❤️

[luvanniiee]

Chill and Unwind .

non-idol!felix x gn/afab reader

synopsis : you come home from a hard day of work , feeling overwhelmed by everything , your bf felix helps you relax and forget about everything thats troubling you .

warnings : smut mdni , established relationship , sub!reader , softdom!felix , unprotected sex (wrap it or it falls off) , sensual massaging , reader has a vagina , oral (f & m receiving) , cunnilingus , oils , vanilla sex , everything is soft here , breeding , multiple orgasms , overstimulation , slight edging , pet names like baby , princess and things like that. lmk if i missed anything:)

a/n : hii its annie here and uh this is my first story on this app , so be nice ! also i got this inspo from a porn vid 💀 . dont ask , anyways enjoy !! lowercase intended

wrd cnt : 200 +

story under cut !! ;)

9:23 pm

youre driving home from work , tired as usual . the boss always gives you a hard time . what do you expect when theres a deadline coming up ? but today , he was a little rougher this time . he was so pushy . do this y/n , he would say , or get this done , he would add . it was too much. everyone moving around fast , it made you feel overwhelmed . you just couldnt wait until you were home with your loving boyfriend .

and now youre pulling in the driveway to the house you shared with him . lee felix , he sure was a catch . hes so beautiful in all aspects , sometimes you would dread bringing him along to the stores , people would stare a little too hard at him sometimes . it made you feel proud that you were the only one lucky enough to be with him . but it also made you feel jealous because of those men and women eye fucking whats yours .

hey baby , someone said snapping you out of your thoughts . you hadnt even realized you walked in the house . oh ! hey felix , you said . you set your keys down and gave him a hug and kiss . you must not have realized that you were almost clinging on to him . when he tried to back up , you would only hold him closer . hard day baby ? he said . yeah , my boss was being a cunt again, rushing everyone for a stupid deadline .

oh , my poor baby . im glad i ran your bath , go on and get in it baby , and when you get out , daddy will give you a nice massage to help you chill and relax , okay ? he said . you nodded and went upstairs to take that bath .

11:14 pm

you’ve finished your shower and felix was sitting on the bed waiting for you . you smiled at him softly and made your way over to the bed . since you were only in your towel , felix took it off of you and laid you face down on the bed . ready? he asked . you nodded , and felix got up , grabbed the vanilla scented oil and poured it into his hand .

he rubbed his hands together and laid them on your skin . you shivered at the contrast of his warm hands vs the cold air , forming goosebumps on your skin . feel alright princess ? he asked before he massaged you . you hummed in agreement . and he started his massage .

you felt his hands moving down your lower back , towards your ass . the way his hands gently gripped and soothed your muscles really turned you on . do you like it honey ? he asked . yes felix , your hands feel nice . you say lifting your head to speak . he chuckled lightly at your response . and you smiled to yourself .

11:35 pm

felix has you on your back now , so youre facing him . his lips are on yours , kissing you passionately , lovingly , making you forget about everything that worried you . you felt safe in this moment , you felt vulnerable being naked in front of him . his hands massage your boobs , while kissing you . you grind your hips upwards to ease the tension you felt down there . you needed friction , he was more than willing to give it to you . but he wanted to take his time .

as his hands traveled down your body , his mouth traveled down as well . kissing and sucking on each nipple . taking his time to appreciate you . his efforts to make you feel better made you really hot . as his hands travel from your stomach to your lower body , he stops just above your pussy . not touching it , but enough to make you need him more . i know you need me here , your love juice is coming out a lot . he said. i wont keep you waiting my love , i know you want me to make you feel good . he added.

so he took two fingers , and slowly played with your clit . it wasnt much , but it was enough to make you whine for more . please felix i need it so bad . you said . he gave you what you wanted by speeding up . he took his thumb and circled your clit with it while his middle and pointer fingers were deep inside you . aw fuck d..daddy it feels s’good . you moaned out . that only fueled his desire for you . so he leaned down and replaced his thumb with his mouth .

the feeling of his mouth gently sucking on your clit , was too much for you . in a matter of seconds , felix had you moaning and panting as you released . your eyes rolling back , and back lifting up off the bed . the more you were coming down , the more you realized that felix was still sucking at your clit . the overstimulation quick to set in . s . stop i already came . you moaned as you tried to push him away . he got up and took his fingers out slowly . he brought them to his mouth and sucked on them . moaning at the flavor .

he looked at you , with his fingers still in his mouth , and fingers wet with your cum and his spit . he took his fingers from his mouth and kissed you on your lips . you moaned at both the flavor and the fact that his boner was pushing against your sensitive clit . he grinded himself into you , seeking a slight relief from how hard he was .

baby , can you help daddy out ? he asked . he sounded a bit needy , so you couldnt keep him waiting . he leaned back on his knees and you sat forward . you wasted no time taking his pants off , revealing his erection . it slapped against his lower abdomen , causing a slight noise . he moaned as you took him in your hand . his precum leaking out from his tip . you gave him kitten licks causing him to whine . stop teasing me baby , put it in your mouth now . he groaned . you obeyed him .

thinking about the times where you teased too much and he ended up punishing you , you took him in your mouth as soon as he finished his sentence . his hips stuttered due to his sensitivity , as you were sliding him down your throat , he grabbed some of your hair and pushed himself more in your mouth . you gagged because of his size and how far he was down your throat . it sent pleasure waves down to your pussy making you drip on the bed . although you were still a little sensitive from the mind blowing orgasm he gave you , you wouldnt mind going again .

fuck y/n … you..youre mouth is s’good . he moaned . his moans always turned you on . you subconsciously moaned , making him thrust his hips forward , pushing himself down your throat even more . fuck stop … stop i dont want to cum yet . he groaned forcing himself out of your mouth . with a pop , his dick was out of your mouth . you caught your breath and wiped your mouth clean from the spit .

he kissed you and laid you back down . he spread your legs and put them on both sides of him. he looked at you , desperation , lust , love , need in his eyes . you gave him a nod and with that , he slowly pushed himself into you . both of you moaned at the stretch . although you guys have had sex before , you werent quite used to him yet .

he pushed himself all the way until your pubic areas were meeting . he sat there for a few minutes , letting you adjust to him . and also keeping himself from ending it all by cumming . move now daddy , you moaned as you grind your hips into him . okay baby . was all he said before thrusting slowly into .

his size was so incredible , always making you feel full of him . you whined as he kept pushing himself deep and slowly into you . i..ah…i want more daddy please . you begged him , you wanted him to speed up , which is what he did . he fucked himself into . both of you moaning loud . it was almost like a competition of who can moan loudest . mmgh fuck…fuck me babe , so tight an..nngh..and good for me . he moaned out , the last part coming out as a whisper .

his praise compared to how deeply and fast he was fucking you , had your head spinning . you felt yourself getting closer and closer each snap of his hips . fel…fuck daddy im gonna cum ! you moaned loudly . he brought his hand down to rub your clit , pushing you over your limit . you came with a loud cry of his name . fuck felix ! you screamed. he slowed down enough to help you through your orgasm .

soon as your breathing slowed , he sped back up . chasing his own high . you could tell he was close . his breathing was uneven , his eyes closed tightly , biting his lip , his hips sloppily thrusting into you . fuck fuck fuck y/n i… aw fuck im cumming i..m cu… he came with a loud moan of your name . he stills his hips and releases his cum into .

as if his cock wasnt filling enough , his cum filled the tiny space his cock wasnt touching . he shakes with each sharp thrust , gasping as each rope of cum shoots out . his eyes roll back and his head falls back . then his head falls forward looking at the mess hes made . he slowly pulls himself out , and watches as some of his cum leaks out .

he pushes it back in you , not wanting to waste it . you twitch a little from the aftershocks , and he looks up and smiles at you . let me clean you up , and then we can talk more about that day you had . he spoke up . how could anyone have energy after that ?

he drew the bath , and yall cleaned up . as soon as you hit the bed , your eyes start to close . now about that day … he said but then realized that you had fallen asleep . he kissed your cheek and turned off the light .

i hope that you guys enjoyed this ! i hope it was good for the first time ! ill be making more soo put in some recs !!

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[justcallmenikki7]

Hi, it’s Nikki.

I’m writing this to give you all, the ones who are still here even tho I’ve been basically hiatus for a while now, with some posts here and there. You probably all, also, saw this coming, but I’m sadly done writing.

God, im crying lmao.

Anyways, I realized after constantly trying to write something, outline, everything, I couldn’t write anymore. Maybe it’s because I went through a severe abusive relationship at the beginning of April 2022 to the end of November of 2022, and it completely changed me as a person. I lost a lot of love, likes, whatever you may call it, from that relationship. It changed me, and one of the things it changed in me was my love for writing. My spark isn’t here anymore, and I’ve been trying to hold on for the last possible year and a half for you guys, but it hasn’t happened. I’m afraid of change, I’m afraid of letting go, and have a bad time of accepting the fact that i mayve grown out of a phase, you know? My love for the boys will always be there, always.

What has also caused me lots of stress, and is a sign of losing my spark, has been trying to write and come up with ideas, and creat stories for those who have messaged me privately, and I feel terrible for not being able to do that, and I hate breaking promises/not keeping my word because I wanted to make you guys happy, and I’ve failed those individuals. I’m sorry for not finishing those requests, and I’m sorry that I never actually started them because I didn’t know what to do. I wanted to make you happy, but I couldn’t get anything out and so I sat for the longest time, trying to get a good paragraph, or in a general a sentence out, but i couldn’t and I didn’t.

And I’ve sadly relapsed the other night after almost 2 years of being clean from s/h. My depression has been in the dumps, and even tho I have so many positives going on in my life and such amazing people, and an amazing partner, my mental health is deteriorating and I need to focus on myself.

I know I’ve once done a short hiatus before and came back because sometimes a small break is good to have, but sometimes all things must come to an end, and I’m officially closing my chapter with tumblr and writing for good.

I’ve made a couple of friends on here, and those friends I want to address real quickly and say my peace.

@wickizer , girl you know everything and ily

@minniepetals . My gosh, I remember reading your story String of Fate when it first came out, and I swore up and down, still today I do, that it’ll be published in the hall of fame. Despite it being on its hiatus, it’s still the best story so far. You deserve an award for your writing, and your story Cry Me A River is such an amazing masterpiece. I’ve been meaning to read it all, but life has gotten in the way and I’m so proud of you. Even tho we haven’t talked in the longest time, I’m still cheering you on, on here and outside of tumblr.

@aft3rhrs . Love, you’re amazing and I hope you take care of yourself and take time for yourself. Self love and self kindness is a priority and make yourself a priority. Your writing is beautiful and I’m glad we befriended each other. I’m cheering you on, and always will. Thank you for being a kind person.

And every other writer that I bonded with on here, I love you and will be a huge cheerleader for you. To those who I reached out to when I was still new for advice, or for me to fangirl to, thank you for being kind and helpful.

And to my followers, the ones who cheered me on to keep writing when I first joined tumblr, thank you for being kind and supportive. I love each and every single one of you. You made this place a safe place for the longest time, and I’m thankful for all of you.

I’m sorry for the longest apology and me basically dumping my issues on here, I just needed to be honest with you all. I didn’t want this to sound like a ‘poor me’ ‘feel sorry for me’ but I needed to, like I said before, be honest with you.

This is scary for me, but this is me saying goodbye.

Love forever and always, justcallmenikki7.

[imagine-that-100]

Will We Talk | Part 4 ~ Teaser

A/N: I'm hella sorry that it's not the full part besties, I truly am. But I'm giving you a good chunk of it to give you something to look forward to. I'm aiming to post the full thing before the end of the month. I've just checked im up to 10.9k words, and this tease is 2.3k of it for you xxx Thank you for sticking with me and I hope you enjoyyyyy x

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I need to speak to you 

You text the singer as you’re walking home from Katie’s. You thought about just leaving it but you know if you keep what you're feeling bottled in it will just make you go back into your shell when you’re around him, and that’s the last thing either of you want. 

Thankfully those thoughts don’t have enough time to fester because about 2 minutes later Alex texts you back. 

Christ

Am I in trouble? x

His response makes you roll your eyes as you can practically hear him asking you. You know for a fact he will have snorted when he got the message through and when he typed that one back to you. So you keep him in limbo for a bit. 

You’re not funny 

Phone me when you’re free. 

Thankfully you’re not waiting for ages for the call. Your phone starts ringing as you turn the corner and head down your road. It’s a little embarrassing how excited you are to get back in your house for a bit and just relax until the party later. 

After greeting him, Alex gets straight to the point, “What’s up Y/N?”

“About this holiday,” You start, “Katie told me she wants me to come and I want to know how you feel about that before I start to spiral.”

You can already sense the panic in your chest as you feel like you’re at a bit of a stalemate. You don’t want to let Katie down but you’re also definitely not going to go if Alex wants a break from you. You don’t want to intrude on his holiday. Especially one that’s for his birthday. 

“Don’t spiral.” Alex begs, and you swear he’s also outside as you can almost hear the way he takes a drag of a cigarette before he says, “The last thing we need is you spiralling and questioning everything again.”

You can picture the smile tugging at his lips as he says that. So much so that him finding your panic amusing means that you silently want to scorn him. 

“I’m well aware of that.” You say a little bit too bluntly, so you attempt to soften the blow when you follow up with a rhetorical, “Why do you think I asked you to call me?”

Alex definitely mutes a laugh, covering it by him pretending to clear his throat. To make sure he doesn’t get himself into trouble he distracts you by asking, “What’s panicking you now?”

“The holiday.” You take a deep breath before you start to vent your worries, “Apparently it’s for your birthday, I don’t know if you want me there with what’s going on with us. The fact that you’re apparently paying... I don’t want you paying for me if I come.”

“I did tell Katie to invite you if she wanted to.” Alex reveals. 

“That’s not the point. Do you want me there?” You ask him directly, “I don’t want to intrude on a holiday that’s for your birthday.”

Alex takes a second to answer that, not because it’s a difficult answer but mostly because he wants to know, “If we weren’t sleeping together would you come?”

You think about it for a second and realise that you probably would, but not without speaking to him and asking Katie at least 30 times if you were actually welcome. Not to mention trying not to interact with him much when you were out there. And you certainly would not be allowing him to pay for you. 

“I still would have double checked with you first, or got Katie to. But that doesn’t matter, it’s different now,” You start talking about your reality again, “The dynamic has changed.”

“Y/N, we were friends anyway,” Alex sighs and you’re glad he can’t see the way your face contorted in disagreement. “The only thing that’s different this time is that we’ve seen each other naked.” 

You almost scoff. 

You’ve done a lot more than see me naked, sir. 

Feeling flustered at the memories of him fucking you flooding back to your mind, you just get back to the point, “So, do you want me there or not?”

And you listen to his response as you unlock your front door and get into your house. Feeling the absence of the chill from outside makes the singers answer all the more bearable. 

“I just want you to do whatever you want to. You can come and have a holiday. I don’t expect anything from you if that’s what you’re worried about.” Alex says sincerely, before adding, “And I am paying.”

“I don’t want you to pay Alex,” You whine like a child not getting their own way. But you add honestly, “It makes me uncomfortable.”

And it’s not even just because you’re fucking him, although that is your main concern. It’s the fact that you’ve barely known him properly before now (and you still wouldn’t say you were all that close in any way but physically), you can’t in your right mind let him spend thousands on a skiing holiday for you.  

“Y/N, I didn’t invite you to make you feel uncomfortable.” The singer sighs, feeling like you should know this already. 

He’s not ever excluded you from something before and he’s certainly not about to start doing so now. And he’s not letting you pay for yourself when everyone else who is coming is paid for already. Christ, he doesn’t really know why this is even a conversation when everything has already been sorted and paid for in advance. 

You feel like you’re whining when you again admit, “I know that’s not the intention but I still feel it Alex.”  

“Well It’s up to you.” Alex shrugs, hoping to convey how much he’s unbothered by the fact he’s paying for a holiday, but he doesn’t want to pressure you. “You’re very welcome to come and I’m paying for everyone, not just you.”

“But-“ You start but then stop yourself. 

Alex immediately questions, “But what?”

He would rather know what’s going on in your head rather than be left guessing. He needs to know how best to reassure you otherwise you both will just regress. And he doesn’t think that wanting for your honesty is too much to ask.

You can’t bring yourself to say it. So you just leave him with silence. 

But that silence speaks volumes. 

“You worried that if I pay for you to come I’m expecting you to shag me?” A few beats of silence pass and as you don’t dismiss him entirely, he already knows it to be true. His question is entirely rhetorical, “That’s it, isn’t it?”

You can’t even confirm it for him. It’s embarrassing to admit, but that is a worry of yours. 

“Y/N.” Alex sighs, knowing he’s right because of your silence. “I don’t expect anything from you, you know that right? You can come away with us and we don’t have to do anything.”

“It’s not compulsory, even when we’re home. Y/N/N, you’re Katie’s best friend, you’ve been around for 10 years.” He backs up his point some more, “You came on the last holiday we went on, this is going to be no different to that. My birthday just happens to fall on a day whilst we’re there.” 

“You didn’t pay for me last time Al.” You argue in a slight huff, already feeling like you’re fighting a losing battle. 

“Hey, listen to me.” Alex persists, “I’m paying for everyone to come, not just you, and I’m not expecting a huge orgy all week.” 

You can help the laugh that escapes your lips at that. It’s a full giggle that the singer can’t help but grin at as he takes another drag of his cigarette. 

“There’s that laugh.” He hums, enjoying the sound even more purely because it’s him that’s caused it. 

Only after your laughter subsided, do you ask, a lot calmer now, “Are you sure you want me there?” 

“Yes, sweet.” Alex assures you. And just to convince you some more, he adds, “I need someone to entertain Mrs Cook when I pull Jamie away for a pint anyway. Think you fit the brief.” 

“Ah yeah, I think I could do that for you.” You chuckle a little, but then you’re serious in a soft tone, “I still feel bad that you’re paying though Alex. Skiing holidays are a lot of money.”

“I have a lot of money that I’ll never need.” The singer tells you, and you try not to think about the way anxiety in your chest dissipates when he says, “I’d rather treat my friends to a week away.”

You're his friend. Something so simple shouldn’t make your heart swell. Especially when the other night he tongue fucked you until you came, twice. 

“Well I’m buying you food and drinks whilst we’re away then.” You counter, finally readying yourself to admit defeat. 

“We’re going all inclusive but thanks.” You can almost hear Alex’s smirk. 

You sigh, dropping down onto your settee and leaning back to try and get comfy, “Well I’m assuming we won’t be staying in the hotel for your birthday. They’ll be pubs and cafes I’m sure.” 

He counters, “I’ll take a drink at the airport before we go.” 

“Okay deal.” You accept but know you’ll find ways to do more than just that, “Thank you Alex. You really don’t have to do this.”

“Well I want to.” Alex smiles, and his tone is full of amusement as he says, “And I can’t have you spiralling.”

You hum in a silent laugh at that and let your eyes close as you take a deep breath. You’re about to tell him that it’s just how you are but you’re okay now you’ve spoken about it. But he takes your attention again. 

“You know that this goes both ways right, Y/N/N?” You’re about to ask him what he’s on about until he continues, “If I text you asking to come over, you can say no and I’m not going to be offended by it. I understand that it’s not going to happen every time.” 

He’s talking about fucking you. And trying to make you feel more at ease about your situationship. 

Alex finishes off by saying, “I just ask on the off chance that you’re up for it.”

“I am always up for it.” Are the words that slip from your lips, and when you realise what you’ve said, your eyes shoot open. 

Oh my god woman, you sound so needy. Backtrack now. Now!

You sit up as you begin to pathetically backtrack, “Well. I mean, I- when you say you are, I, I- usually am too.”

“Good to know you’re always up for me, sweet,” You can hear Alex's smirk then, but thankfully he doesn’t tease you more for it he just carries on to say, “It seems like I’m texting you all the time asking to come over but you can text me. You’re allowed to get horny too.” 

You try and fail not to flush at hearing him say that. Especially when you can feel the ghost of his touch as you’re sitting on the settee he had you ride him on a week ago. 

“Alex, you’re over twice a week, if not more... It’s not like I’m without relief for long.” To drive the point home you say, “It’s not a ten month wait again.”

In your little meetings you’d discussed when you’d both last been with someone else. Yours was a guy you were seeing at the beginning of the year who turned out to just not do it for you after you dated him for a few months. 

Alex’s last fling was another rebound of his after the French girl he cheated on Taylor with. Turns out Alex hadn’t been with anyone in the last 5 months which did surprise you a little. But who are you to presume he’d just become a slag after his break up? 

“Still. We started this for a reason.” Alex drives the point home, wanting you to fully understand, “You can say no and you can call me whenever you want too.” 

You nod even though he can’t see you, “I know.”

“Maybe this holiday can just be the friends you’re so persistent we’re not.” 

You frown, confused, “What?”

“Your rule, ‘no sex while we’re away’.” Alex smirks, but he’s sincere when he says, “To make you feel more comfortable. 

“I don’t wanna seem like a prude Alex I just don’t…” You fail to continue your sentence, Wanna seem like a prostitute. 

“I think of all people, I’m not the one who’s going to think of you as a prude, sweet.” The singer can't help but tease, finding himself funny. 

You take a deep breath, trying not to let your amusement or embarrassment show, “So where are we going?”

“The Alps.” The singer tells you almost smugly, “Where else?”

You decide that you may as well ask him for the details if he’s sorting everything out, “When do we go?”

“Early morning of the second, we need to be at the airport for like four.” He tells you after a moment of thought. 

You hum, finally letting the excitement for a holiday bubble in your stomach, “Okay.”

Alex is smiling already hearing you finally sound at ease about the holiday, but he can’t help but push his luck a little more, “You free tonight, sweet?”

“No and neither are you,” You almost laugh, the amusement clear in your voice, “We’ve got Katie’s New Year’s party.”

Alex is grinning as he comes back with, “I mean at like three in the morning.”

“You’re a horny fuck.” You can’t help but tell him as you shake your head. 

You’re entirely unable to stop your face from flushing, making you very grateful he can’t see you. All you hope is he’s picturing you with a completely unbothered yet 

“You’re the one that just said you’re always up for me.” Alex counters and you have to bite your tongue. 

Idiot Y/N. 

“See you later Alex.” You immediately dismiss him, not wanting his teasing right now. 

Alex laughs loudly, “See you later sweet.”

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A/N: Are they gonna make it to the end of the holiday???? Who knowwwwssssss... Also I need your helpppppp, what stuff at a bar could Alex or Sweet do that would make the other jealous? Even if its just something subtle??? Let me knowwww x (Can't promise all suggestions will go in because I need to get this out to you but any ideas are welcome, please let me knowwww xoxoxoxo)

[lemonxlimee]

YIPPEE! tw cw trigger warning (/reference) lairy (<- theyre bad they suck). unrelated im so normal about solar eclipse chonny jash :DDDD

not enough lairy asks on here. i think they should be worse :)

the kidnapper x victim dynamic is Interesting it adds an entire new level of emotional turmoil. it sucks for liam so so bad. So Bad. both ways- if it’s unrequited and if it isn’t. airy has a certain obliviousness about him that’s interesting. it definitely doesn’t absolve him of a single thing but it’s interesting. liam hesitating to actually kill airy, he wants airy alive, despite everything. characters growing to care for each other despite the baggage between them……

hm. it’s just! airy isn’t malevolent, and despite all the bad he did he Has an Excuse. an /excuse/. he needs help, definitely. needs to escape the plane, needs human connection.

liam likes seeing airy smile more and act like he’s real regardless of romantic inclinations, and hates himself for that. starts going out of his way to make airy smile in an act he would never admit to himself, never put into words. airy just needs liam’s arm around his shoulder to steady him. he just needs to sit next to airy at the computer so airy doesn’t commit atrocities, that’s all. he asks to help with the reeds to get stronger and beat airy with the axe, in the future, definitely. it’s all completely fine and normal. maybe airy notices and maybe airy tells him he’s glad liam doesn’t hate him anymore, and liam sits there, feeling so horrible about himself he’s nauseous. sits by the river and thinks (i like to think that before liam would take airy out to sit by the river and watch the sun rise and now this feels like a mockery, and now he feels lonely, no other word for it). romantic inclinations have compromised him after all. he shouldn’t be the one here.

the thing is, regardless of how liam feels about airy he’s still unfortunately forced to hang around him, even if just so he doesn’t kill people. so even if liam hates him or loves him or hates him and also loves him(- which he does, at times) he still has to watch him. eventually he works through his feelings, simply because he must.

anyway airy is completely content with liam’s existence. if liam ever gets closer he savors it. he falls for liam’s manipulation- if it exists- so easily, never questions any of it. he’s happier. he’s happier than he’s ever been in years. :(

i like to think, through slow erosion, liam gets through to airy. maybe at first it’s just ‘this would make me happy’. or just ‘if you do this i will do that’. i like to think eventually airy catches onto the idea of morals. it has to sink in. eventually it does. eventually airy realizes what he’s done. eventually he asks liam if he should let go of the contestants, and then asks liam what they should do now.

liam’s succeeded and it’s just through. being there for airy.

they probably go to san francisco and figure out how to live together and then bryce gets in touch with liam and liam accidentally slips airy lives with him now and bryce asks him if he’s a kidnapper fucker as a joke and then liam smashes his phone. you know, normal things

oh right i accidentally made them good. fuck. anyway imagine liam under the duress of airy being a kidnapper, having to deal with his attraction. there’s something about liam having to deal with his own attraction too. maybe liam starts hurting airy as a punishment for what he’s done. maybe he never stops. maybe he enjoys it. maybe he manipulates airy and finds a way past his guard to help the contestants without his knowledge and likes it, and likes how airy will let him do almost anything.

and you KNOW, you KNOW if liam hurt airy airy would soak it up, because any touch is better than nothing. at least liam wants him. if this is the only touch he will impart, airy will take what he can get. he needs the attention. he likes the way liam smiles when he’s hurt.

airy just wants people to be happy even if it’s the worst ever……

also just. airy hurting liam and liam hurting airy in an infinite cycle. airy keeps encouraging what liam does to him. and maybe liam wouldn’t have done it in any other circumstance but that’s then and this is now- and he can’t justify it further except airy deserves this, right? it’s not about whether airy likes it. (it’s not about that he likes it. it’s not about how whenever liam starts airy asks for it and he asks for it in such a way that liam can’t help but-)

airy encouraging liam’s hatred.

the way airy is in general it’d suck for liam so bad……

anyway airy eroding liam so that they’re perfect for each other (derogatory)

Holynshit /pos

It's beautiful

Youve captured them perfectly to me

(Unrelated but,,, is solar eclipse a ship name....... becaus)

[foolsocracy]

i wanna know how you learned how to render, it's so yum 😞💔

thank you!!! I'm glad u like it. I can try my best to explain my process but its very much a 'feel it with my heart' experience. This is gonna be long and incomprehensible but I'm gonna try:

If we're talking about the (above) garth & baby arthur jr pic or the bloody pete pic, I'd say i started to actually render like that in maybe high school art class (they were much worse then ofc because i have years more practice now)? Obviously my process now is different than it was back then, but before I actually started physically painting canvases with acrylics I usually just did line art and color without the blending-painting pizzazz.

Thats actually where I get my weird random interspersed colors in my coloring as well. Acrylics dry super fast and a high school art class is like 45 minutes so I'd have to totally mix a new pallet the next day. Not that I couldn't color match, but its annoying and having variations with colors or just mixing something up to fill in gaps looks neat if you get it right. If it looks bad just paint over it, but its worth it to try.

My process with these is almost exactly like my non painterly rendered ones, just with steps after. Also, you can get away with a lot when not fully rendering, but when i do render PHOTO REFERENCE is to die for. Specifically for the lighting. I can't emphasize this enough. By the time i'm done with a drawing my search history should be like "knees. Knees sitting. Knee anatomy. Harsh light photography. Curly hair. baby. J. C. Leyendecker new year baby" + 8 pictures of u doing whatever pose you're trying to do.

Anyway, the process for me is usually: vague sketch > carve out the lines/neater sketch > flat colors > basic shading/rendering > color adjusting sketch lines (usually from black to dark red) > collapse everything into one layer & get to WORK

I know the 1 layer thing is scary, but thats life. Its easiest to adjust things that way (for me). No need to worry about layers and blending modes cause its all right there. I usually duplicate the layer the drawing is in before I start on something crazy just to reassure myself that if I fuck it up I can go back. So a lot of the time my layers in procreate are progressively more rendered stages of the piece lol.

Now that Im here trying to explain this im blanking on how to actually express it. Lets see. I can run through some general stuff:

For both of those artworks (baby & pete) they're 100% made with HB pencil on procreate (a default brush! I've never downloaded any new brushes cause im lazy). I actually made a brush explanation for someone a few months ago I can put that right here:

hopefully those are readable. sometimes tumblr flops lmk if my writing is illegible

the eraser tool is your BEST FRIEND!!!! The way I get my lines and shapes and whatnot is by making big ass strokes and then erasing until whatever I'm looking for reveals itself. Here's a video of that process from the aquababy pic. Ignore the jerky pauses lol. also there's the reference photo!:

rendering itself is really hard to describe. Basically just throw color at it until it works out. (just tried to add a video but tumblr says only 1 video allowed

I hope this is helpful somehow! Just threw a ton of stuff at you. If you want anything more or the actual video or smth just let me know!

[azenpal]

A movie night and a bad, worse, not-so-bad night

– aaron hotchner x coworker!female reader  

summary | a different version of the ending scene in criminal minds 7x02 that ends in a confession

warnings | some self-deprecating thoughts because it’s Hotch, aside from that none i think, fluff attack

word count | 5600

a/n | hi, this is my first fic and this is just also me trying to give hotch a happy ending. im glad to be sharing this (finally), so if you have any comments, tips, or reactions for me, that would be greatly appreciated! 

Working in the BAU has its ups and downs. There’s never a way to predict what will come next. Something will always catch you by surprise whenever you think that maybe you’ve seen it all. Not that you’re complaining, you love this job and the additional family you have now. But with the cases you wish aren’t true, you made it a task to find a way to pull yourself up when it gets too deep. Something that will remind you that everything will be okay; you’ve done well. Even though there are millions of other ways an easy or a rough case could’ve gone, something to be thankful for is that you and the team are safe in your homes; you still would be able to make a difference tomorrow.

However, after a few cases, you find it challenging to find something that will always cheer you up. Shopping only works if you need something. Going out isn’t an option since you only want to go to clubs when the team decides to celebrate. So then, it started to get on your nerves when you couldn’t find anything permanent. So after racking your brain and searching on google for “relaxing ways to treat yourself,” you realize that doing what you already like is the easiest way to relax. And what better way it is to treat yourself than getting in your comfiest sleepwear with food while watching? None, right? It gives you a sense of normalcy and comfort that things will be better, no matter how hopeless your situation is, and that is precisely why this specific routine is essential for you. Or what the team calls your after-a-case-special-treat. It’s just your thing. 

Through your routine, you have also realized that having one thing constant in your life helps you be grounded and away from going crazy. It’s nothing excessive anyway; a simple meal you’ve been craving or a take-out food you’ve been eyeing matched with a movie you’ve heard from Pen is how most of it goes. But sometimes, when there’s a case that plays with your head, you take an extra step by searching for new restaurants near your area or finding new recipes you can recreate to even discussing with Pen the food and movie pairing that you have in your mind to ask for her opinion. So it’s good to say that you look forward to it after every case; it gives you a way to compartmentalize till you’re ready to face the more serious aspect of life. 

Drinking all the coffee left in your cup, you start to fix your things when you hear footsteps that emit sunshine all over the floor. 

“How is my favorite profiler?” Penelope asked in a sing-song voice while sitting in front of your desk and taking your notebook filled with notes about your after-a-case-special-treat. 

“Hey, hey, baby girl, I thought I was your favorite profiler.” Derek intruded, or as Pen calls him, his chocolate thunder intruded. 

“You know you are,” Pen answered with that flirty voice that made you remember that time she almost got herself in trouble when Strauss was on the receiving end of a phone call. Smiling at the memory your mind played, you continued to fix your things to go home while letting the two continue their banter. Doing a mental checklist in your head, you looked around and noticed that the air isn’t suffocating or solemn, and no one seems stressed, which is good. Although you wouldn’t describe the case as easy as there was some trouble with the local police, nothing new, but thankfully, no one got hurt during the entire period, and the unsub was caught earlier than the team expected. Finishing the case yesterday night and opting to stay and just fly early as everyone had their own room this time. 

After grabbing your notebook that Pen was looking at until Derek distracted her, you looked up. You saw that even Emily is arranging her things, looking excited to go home to Sergio and Rossi walking into Hotch’s room, probably to bother him. At the same time, Pen and Derek still continue their banter- Spencer, of course, already left hours ago, being the first to finish his reports. 

“Wait! Where are you going? The Oracle of Quantico is not finished with you yet.” Pen shouted at you, crossing her arms in front of her while Derek stared at you with a playful expression before speaking, “Yes, you insensitive subject, how could you dare go when my Goddess is not done with you yet?” 

Squinting your eyes at Derek and scoffing at him, you turn to Pen to do a curtsy, “I apologize for my mistake. I thought I was interfering and decided to remove myself.” Unknowingly, Emily stopped to look at the childishness the three of you were displaying while Hotch, Rossi, and JJ, who all stepped out of their office, looked with amusement at the play you guys were showcasing. 

“Hand me over that notebook. I shall look to see if your film and comestible pairs well and if it satisfies me so I would not be disappointed if I ever decide to crash your night later.” Pen asserted while taking your notebook out of your bag. 

“I’d be happy if you ever decide to join me. However, I must inform you that I do not plan on having my usual occasion tonight as I have planned to clean my home and do it tomorrow.” You answered while doing yet another curtsy that brought a smile to your other team members, that are now invested in whatever the hell you three are doing. 

Taking advantage of the still early Friday night, you decided to move your routine tomorrow so you could pretend to be a college student relaxing on a Saturday night as you pick another movie in the list that Pen and you made whenever you have free time or when she sees an exciting trailer. 

“Well, you have another room for one?” Derek asked, looking at the Pen and you, asking for your permission. 

“Ohh! Ohhh! A movie night with moi chocolate six-pack. I love it! We have room for another one, right right?” Pen looked at you intently while trying her best at puppy eyes- which is working. Debating whether to say yes since you considered you will be doing a general cleaning today, so technically it would be presentable tomorrow for other people. 

“I promise I won’t steal anything.” Morgan playfully told you while raising his eyebrows which you returned with another glare. But looking at Pen with hopeful eyes, guess you’re gonna invite- 

“How about I host movie night tomorrow?” Rossi asked, well, more like announced, gathering the attention of the three of you and Emily, who was now sitting at her table. 

“Now that’s more I like it, movie night with the team and at a mansion? Count. Me. In.” Garcia answered in a heartbeat while returning your notebook to your bag and running to her cave. “But still dibs on picking the movie!”

Looking around to see some cars and silhouettes inside the house meant that the other members were already inside. You expected that anyway as you chose to walk. It felt like your plans of relaxing at home were replaced by a better one, like an economy seat getting upgraded to a suite one as you walk near the door of Rossi’s mansion. Pressing the doorbell and taking one final deep breath as you smile to yourself, excited about where the night would take you, a miscalculation that you did not look forward to has entered your mind as you see your Unit Chief opening the door wearing casual clothes and homely and just so— handsome. Oh, dear. Imagine coming home to that every day. 

“Hey, the others are all in the kitchen. Rossi is teaching everyone the right way to make pasta.” He said. While smiling. And looking at you. Why would he do that? Why would he smile and look you in the eye and be handsome? 

“Hey, you okay?” No. I am not okay. 

“Yeah, didn’t think I was gonna be late for a Rossi special class.” Yeah, that was smooth. Good thing your hearing is still intact while admiring him. Good job, self. You can do this. Just enjoy the night. How hard can this be? 

The answer is: it’s extremely hard. Not even ten minutes have passed, and your thoughts are already focused on your boss only as you find yourself seated beside him while trying to entice yourself into Rossi’s cooking. But it’s also hard when Pen is looking at you from the other side of the table, trying to send you a message using her eyebrows. Does she know about your tiny massive crush on your boss? What exactly is she trying to do by wriggling her eyebrows at you and looking at Aaron as if the man isn’t beside you? And why are you calling him Aaron? 

“And that’s how you make yourself a great pasta. Here, have a taste.” Oh. Rossi is already done with his lesson, and you understood nothing spiraling about your boss. Oh no. You are in deep trouble, you like like Hotch, as in truly like him, you see him as a man you could date, and he’s not just a boss to you, he’s- 

“Hey, are you sure you’re alright?” Hotch whispers to you. He whispered to you, and you could feel him at your neck, and oh, that feels so-stop. 

“Yeah, yeah, just feeling a bit tired. I kinda cleaned some stuff before coming here, so yeah.” Yeah, that’s a good excuse. Cleaning some stuff, ’cause you were cleaning stuff yesterday. Why did you say stuff? What kind of stuff is there to be cleaned? Oh, why did you say that? How is he so near? He has really nice eyes, sort of calming now that he’s up close to you and- 

“If you two are done gazing at each other’s eyes, you can raise your glass now.” Forcing yourself back at the table, you now see the team looking at you and smiling suspiciously, and even Spencer eyeing you weirdly while Pen continues to wriggle her eyebrows at you, and oh no. Everyone knows your crush for Hotch, don’t they? 

“To more successful case, to family, and even more.” This is gonna be a bad night. 

Helping Rossi clean the plates with Emily seems a proving task to get your mind straight as they both eye you, waiting for you to talk. The only question is, would you take the bait? With all the embarrassing actions and stiffness you’ve exhibited today, you are 100% sure that they know your not-so-secretive secret. Hence, there’s no more reason for you to indulge them and embarrass yourself further. Nevertheless, not knowing when they’ve been suspicious of you is also bugging you, and this seems to be a perfect chance to ask them how foolish you’ve been looking while you think you were secretly admiring your boss all this time. 

“Should I ask the question, or will you talk?” Emily looks at you expectantly with the glint of mischievousness not leaving her eyes. 

“Or maybe we should just let her eye the boss more and pretend we don’t see it. We’ve been doing it for months anyway.” Rossi instigated while smiling. 

“You know what, you’re right. Let’s just leave her be. She can do this on her own. Not very well, since we all know it, but she’s still doing it.” 

Interrupting their banter you asked, “Is it safe to assume that everyone in the team knows I have a crush on, you know—him?” Even if Penelope is not a profiler, you think that she knows with the look she spared you earlier and all the eyebrow wriggling she did. But did Hotch know? 

“Yes, the team knows. Stop spiraling in your head alone. It’s just the three of us here. Might as well voice everything out.” Okay. That’s great. Let’s just do that. 

“Do you guys think if maybe, there’s a chance that you know, Hotch also knows?” Asking this might be stupid, but it’s not easy to not stare at him and just enjoy it. I mean, he’s very very pleasing in the eyes. 

“Well, he’s a profiler and our boss, so I think it’s also safe to say that everyone does know.” Well duh. Of course, he knows. You probably did a lot of stupid stuff while ogling him, and he’s a great profiler, so yeah, he must know it. 

“But then again, he’s also a man older than you with a son. We all know how Aaron’s mind runs. Even if he puts on a brave front, he’s still cautious and afraid of some things. Does he feel you staring at him every day? Sure, it’s not that hard to miss, you know. But would he conclude that you like him? Maybe. No. We don’t know. The only way to find that out is if someone truly asks him.” Yeah, Rossi has a point. Maybe you can nudge Pen to ask Hotch if he thinks you staring at him is bothersome, or just ask him about his opinion of you. 

“And by someone, I mean you.” 

“Ah- what? I just- I can’t just ask him if he knows that I like him that like you know that would be the same as confessing to him.” 

“Mia cara, I know you think there’s no chance of being more with him. But you are incredible and bright, and that’s just some of the reasons why we love you.” 

“But he’s Hotch. He’s more than incredible. He’s amazing and more than me in all aspects. He’s one of the best profilers, a supportive and loving father to Jack, a great, reliable friend, and just a— stopping yourself to find the word to describe him, you stare at him both before concluding —great man.”   

Humming before chuckling, Emily intervened, “Well, that’s the kind of stuff you should be telling him, not us. As much as I enjoyed you two’s heart-to-heart talk, you should be saying those in front of him. I know it’s scary, and you have some doubts, but that’s how it is. But you should know that we’re not pushing you to failure.” 

Eyeing her questioningly, you followed her as she put the remaining dishes on the drying rack. “What do you mean by that?” 

“Hmmm? By what?” You could see Rossi smirking as you tried to pursue Emily. 

“You said you’re not pushing me to failure.” 

Looking back and straight at your eyes, “Look, it’s just that we sometimes notice things too. Even if we did say “no profiling” each other, just sometimes, you know, we can see that Hotch also looks at you.” 

“Do you mean like he looks at me the way I look at him, or he looks at me like he thinks I like him, or is he just looking at me because I’m weirding him out or-” 

“Okay, that’s enough cleaning for me, how about we go join the others now.” 

“What, you can’t just drop that info on me and leave, you- Rossi?” Staring at the older man, asking for help or any clarification at the bomb that just dropped on you. 

“No comment.” 

“But you also said-” 

“Hey guys, Em is already seated, so I came to pick you up! Come on, popcorn and movie are ready to go!” Penelope held your hand and dragged you to the seat next to her in the living room as she gave you another bowl of popcorn, smiling widely for your comfort. “Here are your share and your partner’s share. To divide the popcorn equally, Dr. Reid has weighed and advised us to pair so he can equally and easily divide the popcorn.” 

“Partner? Where did you even get a scale to weigh the popcorn?” 

“It’s better not to ask so we can start the movie now.” A new voice answered you from your right, making you shiver. 

“Hotchy, where did you go?” Garcia asked as Hotch took the seat to your right, which is beside you, which is very close to you— again. Oh-like really close, you can actually feel him-oh no. Pen dragged you so you would sit beside her and beside Hotch. 

“Just called Jack to say goodnight to him.” You can feel yourself shivering. Again. Why would Pen do that? Why is he your popcorn partner? Is Pen up to something? Is the team on it? Oh, but if you guys share popcorn, your hands would accidentally touch and- 

“Hey, you okay? You’ve been spacing out. Are you sure you’re okay to continue? If you need to rest, I can drive you home.” 

Why is he so caring and so close? Look at his eyes and- no, stop, answer him.

“Yeah, I’m awesome. Let’s watch!” I’m awesome? Who says that? How many times am I gonna embarrass myself in front of him? Wow, this night is just gonna go from bad to worst.

Pen picked a movie starring people and a dinosaur. There could be more you can describe in the film if you were actually watching it, but that only happens under normal circumstances. Now, however, you can only seem to focus on the man beside you. All of your senses seem to hyperfixate on him as you swallow your saliva for what appears to be the 12th time while thinking of a way how you can focus on the movie when the man you just admitted to two of your teammates that you like is sitting beside you. And it doesn’t help that every time he eats popcorn, he keeps offering it to you, and you stupidly keep accepting it. Maybe that’s the reason you keep swallowing? Water should fix that, right? It’s totally not because you can smell him so much that you keep fantasizing about him and swallowing your saliva; not at all. Just subtlety check for water and maybe catch your breath in the bathroom- 

“I know I keep asking you this tonight, but I’m gonna ask it again, are you alright?” No. When you’re this close to me and looking at me with those eyes and that face is just- oh- his lips look great like great kissable.

“Just parched, ya know, with all the popcorn and stuff.” No, no, no, no. Stop saying stuff, please. What stuff are you even talking about? 

“Okay, let me get you-” “Ahhhhh! He’s gonna eat him! That something saurus is gonna eat him!” 

“Babygirl, calm down. He’s one of the main characters. I’m sure he’s not going to die this early.” 

Looking at the screen and your teammates, you notice that everyone is engaged in the chase between a man and a dinosaur, while you’re the only one distracted and absorbed with Hotch. Shifting in your seat and examining the screen, you see a man running for his life, and you realize that it’s the most confusing moment of the day because you don’t know what the plot is about. So you stare at the man, try to root for him, and wish that he also doesn’t die because you don’t even know his character name yet. Sitting straighter and focusing on the film, you tell him to run faster in your mind, and when he doesn’t, you unconsciously clench your fists, irritated that the man seems to be running plainly without any plan. Forgetting the interaction and shame you felt earlier, you lose yourself in the movie’s events, annoyed at the continuous dumb decision the man keeps making. 

“Oh! Come on! He should’ve tried to hide behind all that big stupid rocks!” 

“Yeah-” voicing out your agreement with Pen, when suddenly another dinosaur joined the chase, you hold the first thing your hand came in contact with and tried to use it as a shield for your eyes when you felt cotton and immediately went to bury your face in it for comfort. But instead of being comforted, your forehead hurts now, and you find the cotton too sturdy- or rather hard? 

“It’s gone. You can look now, sweetheart. But I really don’t mind if you wanna use me again as an eye shield.” Your cotton said. Wait- grabbing what seems to be a mounted- oh, that’s a chest. Your hard cotton is Hotch, and he’s staring at you— warmly?

“And suddenly he can kill a dinosaur?” Hearing Pen’s voice took you out of your daydreaming state. You hurriedly let go of Hotch or rather Hotch’s chest and find yourself swallowing nothing again and trying to fix your hair, hoping it would get rid of the mix of shame and fluttery you’re feeling right now.  

Gazing at the tv with no thought, every event of what happened since you entered Rossi’s mansion seems to play in your head on repeat. You try to process everything that happened today and try to tie it with what Hotch just said to you. The events of this day seem to be overworking your brain as you can’t stop overthinking what Emily said. It doesn’t help that his last comment made your heart flutter and gave you a spur of confidence; maybe you could hint that you like him? Flirt with him a bit? Well, speaking realistically, it’s hard to do that to your boss, and oh, all the possibilities it could go wrong. Maybe it’s better to leave this matter be and ask for a girl’s night so you can plan better.

“I never knew you were interested in movie credits. Are you also planning on emailing the director some of your thoughts just like Garcia?” 

“Credits?” Your eyes widened, and as you looked at the screen, you saw the names of people rolling. 

“Yup, yeah, I think I have some thoughts for the next film.” Lies. You don’t even know what the movie really is about. Let’s just hope the no profiling rule doesn’t fail you now. 

“Well, should we go now so you can start with your email?” 

“Sure-wait, what about the others?” How could you only notice that now? The mess on the floor and couch are evident, but you can’t see o hear anyone. Even Rossi is nowhere to be seen. Did he go to his bed already? Oh no, they really planned something, didn’t they? The room seems to be void of people but you and Hotch only. 

“Morgan offered to drive Garcia and JJ while Reid and Prentiss went out talking about a Russian film.” Hotch quipped. 

“Oh, uhm, thanks for offering to drive me home.” You whispered, scared that your voice might betray you if you spoke any louder. 

As he stood up, you heard your heartbeat getting louder. Standing up to follow him to his car like you’ve been entranced. He waited for you at Rossi’s door, holding it open and smiling at you as he did earlier. Smiling at him to say thanks, you notice his expression mirroring you, yet the feeling of warmness spreads inside your chest like wildfire. Does he also perhaps feel the same when you smile at him? Is there a chance that he feels something for you? Something different than the comfort a friend or a coworker brings. 

“I know it’s just a 10-minute drive, so if you wanna go get anything, you can tell me. Jack is at Jess tonight, and I’ll be seeing them both tomorrow for Jack’s soccer game.” Nodding slowly, you try to think of a place you wanna go. But you don’t even like going out unless it’s necessary. Why would he even ask that of you? You try to fight the urge to ask him as you get seated in the passenger seat. But what if he’s the one who wants to go somewhere, and he’s deflecting the question to you? Maybe he wanna spend more time with you? 

“If you wanna pick a song, feel free to do so. But the choices might be limited to mine and Jack’s preference, so just don’t put them on shuffle.” He tells you as the car goes out of Rossi’s driveway. Driving to your home, he seems more relaxed while you get frustrated. Why are your thoughts suddenly getting bolder than the previous one? Why didn’t Em nor Pen tell you about how obvious you were? What does Hotch think of you? If he knows, why isn’t he saying anything? Does he think less of you? How could he look this good when he’s just driving? Does he also think of you the way you think of him? The sudden song change made you realize how fast you guys are going with almost no people on the streets, but most importantly, you realize that you haven’t said a thing since you’ve left Rossi’s house. 

As you see the silhouette of your house, your hands start fidgeting unconsciously as your mind can’ pick a topic to focus on. You continue to make up questions about almost everything. You try to think of ways to thank him properly and how to act without being odd about it. But most importantly, you can’t seem to decide whether to confess to him and possibly destroy the night and your life or just simply say thank you and leave things as it is. As the car slowly stops in front of your house, you take a deep breath and glance at him. 

Parking the car, he looked at you and smiled, “See you on Monday?” Opening your mouth to say yes and find the words to say what you’re feeling, you freeze as a part of your mind tells you to run inside to stop embarrassing yourself.

“Is there something that concerns you? You can tell me, you know, we’re out of the office now. I’m just Aaron right now.” Aaron. Ugh, how you wanna call him that. 

“No, nothing. I think I just need to sleep. Thanks for the ride, Hotch I-” 

“Aaron, you know you can call me Aaron, right?” Why would he say that while staring at you straight in the eye? This isn’t fair. Your heart is experiencing too much today; it might really explode. Why is he even looking at you like that? It’s like he wants to talk to you more. Stop. You’re reading too much about the situation. 

Flustered, you answer him, “Aaron, thank you for the ride.” 

“You’re welcome, and thank you for believing in me.” Confused, you look at him, waiting for an explanation at the sudden thanks. 

“Hmm?” 

“Uh, I know it isn’t right to eavesdrop in a conversation, but uh, thanks for believing that I’m doing good as a profiler and as a father.” 

Oh

Oh   

He meant that. 

Oh no 

Oh no 

There’s no way you can escape this situation now. You should’ve said thanks and ran. Now it’s too late. This is gonna go down as the worst night of your life. Oh no, no, no, I am not in the right mental capacity to be turned down. Oh! Say something first, ignore what he said- play dumb, say thanks- then run. 

“Hmm, I don’t know what you’re talking about. But thanks for the ride, Hotch.” Nice! Unfasten the seatbelt fast. Now escape! Yes- no, the door won’t open. Why is it not opening? 

“Right now, it’s Aaron. And no, I haven’t unlocked the door because I need you to listen to me. If I don’t do this now, I don’t know when I’ll get the courage to say this. So please, just— listen to me.” God, please don’t have the courage, I truly don’t, please help me, and I promise to be good. Cowering in your seat, you prepare your heart for the rejection while slowly turning to face him and the truth that will shatter all of your fantasies of him- and a possible relationship with him. 

“I’m not that incredible at all. I try my best to handle the team and be present at all times with Jack. But most of the time, I think I’m still lacking, and I don’t know how to fix that. I try my best to take it one step at a time, but I get frustrated when things don’t progress as I want.” That’s not the truth you were expecting. Why does he look so sad? That’s normal. Everyone’s like that. 

“I’m not that great. And I didn’t think I deserved your kind words— or any love anymore with everything.” No. False. That’s not the truth that you want him to believe and hold. Your heart aches, and the beating starts to continue, but now you feel a different frustration. Why would he think like that? Why doesn’t he realize how amazing he is? Why does he think he can decide what you deserve? 

And before you realize it, your body urged you to hold and kiss him. To stop his thoughts once and for all, to comfort him, and for you to state the obvious and your truth. You want him. You need him. And if he wants you too, he has you. Forever, if he would like. This is what you deserve, and his only option is to accept it. You channel all the frustration you felt into the kiss. Holding his cheeks with both hands, you feel him touch your right hand to tangle his hands with yours. Slowing the kiss yet deepening it, he holds your neck as he dominates the kiss, leaving you almost breathless yet yearning for more. But as he slows down and breaks it, his forehead lays softly against yours. It’s quite funny how your heart is now calm. Too calm compared to all the times you imagined yourself kissing him or just simply the idea of him. But it feels perfect, just right. And in that all-consuming kiss, you wished it rid him of all his fears and insecurities, as it did yours. 

Without saying anything, the both of you hold each other. Allowing yourselves to bask at the moment. But you’re greedy, or maybe overconfident at the moment. You want to see him and tell him how much he truly means to you, so you break the spell you both are in. Grasping his hands once again, you pick up the courage to say the words you’ve buried deep down. 

“I like you. I can’t tell you exactly how I feel because this is the first time I’ve felt strongly for someone. I like you for so many reasons but what you’ve heard is just the tip of it. I think you’re more than great, and with everything, you deserve to love the most. And it would make me the happiest if you give me a chance to do so.” Looking at him while pouring your heart out, you feel like a burden is lifted from you. 

Waiting for him to answer, you see him give a smile that makes your heart burst again. “It should be me saying that, but I’m glad we feel the same because I want you as well. Thank you for believing and liking me and giving me a chance.” 

You’re now sure you can hear your heartbeat with all the excitement you can’t contain. Tearing your hands away from him to engulf him in a hug, you feel both his arms hold your waist as one of your hands gently cupped his hair, one of your dreams come true. You feel him turn his head and kiss your cheek as he asks you, 

“Would you like to come to Jack’s game? I know it’s not an ideal first date, but we could see each other tomorrow and-” 

“Any date with you is an ideal one” Cutting him fast to face him once more as you smile at him, feeling your heart getting fuller if that’s even possible.   

You both stare at each other for a few more minutes, afraid to say goodbye and end your moment even if you’ll be seeing each other in a few hours. He starts, 

“I’ll pick you up later.” 

Smiling even wider, you answer him, “And I’ll be waiting. I’ll see you later, Aaron.” 

“I’ll see you later, sweetheart.” He answered as he kissed your hand goodbye and finally unlocked the car. Opening the door, you took one last look at him and kissed him on his cheek, “See you later.” 

Exiting the car, you wave him goodbye and walk to your door with an extra spring in your step. Taking out your keys, you turn and wave goodbye to him. Smiling at you and waving back, you take that as your cue to open the door and get inside, knowing that he won’t go unless he sees you inside. 

As you closed your door, your phone vibrated in your pocket. When you scoped it to see a text from him, Goodnight. Can’t wait to see you again. You text him a simple goodnight with an overly smiling emoji, knowing fully that you won’t even get a wink of sleep with the excitement you’re feeling right now, but you also tell him that the feelings are the same. As you open your window curtain, you see his car gets further, and with that, you hurry to your closet to plan for another day. Wishing that this feeling would also be part of a new routine that you have and share with him. Turns out, this night wasn’t so bad at all.   

Endnote | thank you for reading! i also have some more hotch fic that i would be posting and hopefully some more next so if you wanna chat do feel free to drop by! 

+ also that gif took me too long to make because i have no idea how to but i like that i got it done

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OBEY ME BROS ACTING LIKE ANIMALS PART 2

AFTER SEVERAL MONTHS ITS DONE!!!!!

NOTE: The dialogue bubbles are a little awkward and confusing to read because my placement isnt good. And sometimes the artstyle may switch a lot. This is because I finsihed the first 2 pages and started the sketch back in may before my semester ended (this and the Lucifer comic were done in photoshop which I do not own but my school has.) And I wanted to tet this comic done asap to get it out of my mind/focus on other important things. Also note the artstyle will likely change when I do the rest of the bros since I cant find an exact toggle opacity version and brush shape in clipstudio (even if it's such a basic brush/function i cant find the equivalent:') )

ANYWAYS NOTE OVER, OBEY ME BROS ACTING LIKE ANIMALS PART 2 IS UP AND IM SO HAPPY THIS WAS SO FUN TO DO AND LIKE YOU MAY BE THINKING (OR MAY MOT IDK) BUT IF YOU ARE TOU MAY BE THINKING WTF THATS DIGUSTING YESSS!!! MAMMON IS MY FAVORUITE AND HES SO STUPID AND I LOVE HIM AND SO I HAD TO MAKE THIS THE DUMBEST WEIDEST SHIT POSSIBLE ALSO WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT THING ABOUT CROWS/ANTING I HAD TO DRAW IT

Maybe one day I'll redraw all the comics once my artstyle gets better and format them differently and maybe colour them but yeah, if it's hard to read zoom in and I apologise again

Edit: Part 3!

[mellarkably]

ur so right abt the way that scene between ben and devi was shot because every single moment when we see devi making out with someone (or about to have s*x) is so driven by her “horny side” only, for paxton and des she just wanted to have s*x and get over with it and with ethan she just was on her horny and active rush which is good but the ben/devi scene, yes it was framed with a sense of urgency between them but also so much care and love. the lighting, the touches, the hands, smiling at each other and just everything about it was beautiful.

and call me crazy but i am happy the show didn’t do the typical “devi only has s*x with ben” narrative because i was about sure they wouldn’t have her have s*x with ethan and they did and was surprised because most shows don’t do that. ben and devi lost their virginity together and that’s already special but they didn’t have devi pondering around waiting for ben. she got to experience a little bit of fun and discover her preferences and be comfortable with it (and maybe ben did so too with margot) and then they get to make love to each other and know what it means and the differences in that and now they can start a relationship when there’s some level of experience and they can just explore what they both want.

some shows tend to do the opposite for “romanticism” so i am glad they did not.

OH ANON HOW I LOVE YOU FOR THIS BECAUSE CAN. WE. TALK ABOUT IT!

i already predicted a while ago that the show would have ben and devi make love again but this time it would be much more natural and easy for them:

i agree with you. i think it was important to show benvi's first time as being awkward, and having it pale in comparison to her next time with ethan, who is far more experienced. it allowed devi to have fun (and im assuming its almost certain ben also had sex with margot) while embodying the whole, fun time NOT a long time thing. im sure they both learned a lot about their preferences like you said during those respective relationships.

but going back to what i loved most about 410's sex redo - how it was the ONLY sex scene in the show that wasn't shot like a high school steamy fling type of deal.

of course, there's that big damn kiss that's been building up for four years with more steam needed to be released than pati's rice cooker, BUT, the lighting. the song, the actors' natural chemistry. the tone itself already feels so much more serious than any other romantic scene in the show.

i honestly thought it would end here, so imagine my surprise when they continued - and i think this second part is what sets it apart from all the other intimate scenes in the show.

henna shot. i fucking died. ive talked enough about this on twitter and im sure other people are talking about this but it is just so symbolic for devi as an individual, her relationship with her culture and how she doesn't have to separate that from her romantic endeavours because she is desirable as she is! s1 devi would faint! she absolutely would!

and now this shot, which is what the tags you're referring to were about, has me still going cuckoo bananas like. pulling away to smile at each other. they're literally in fucking love. this is love. this is not the show trying to gain an audience using steamy scenes, or devi being horny - not that there is anything wrong with that either - but she is so visibly content and comfortable and happy and you can see it in her smile. both of their smiles in fact.

that small moment is what makes this scene for me.

anyway sorry for the huge rant. if you couldn't tell already i really love this scene! it was very well done.

[lcs-library]

ello bestie im glad i didn't go to sleep just yet bc i saw your recent post 👁️👁️ i'd like an order of earl grey & coffee for my fave man banri settsu pretty please, if you haven't done those for him already~ ty ily queen 🩷 /p

Hihi Sara!!! Tysm for the request ehehe I always love writing Banri for u :3 also ily2!!! /p

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Coffee: answered here!(it’s a lil short!)

Earl Grey Tea: How did they court their s/o?

🍂 He’s quite subtle!

🍂 Okay, not subtle subtle, but he won’t outwardly flirt with you as much as if he didn’t have feelings for you.

🍂 For example, he’d always be doing small things for you, like carrying your bags or buying you something if you didn’t have the funds. Just a bunch of small deeds that start to stack, almost to the point where you want to start refusing because of just how much he is willing to do.

🍂 Bro will treat you like the royalty you are frfr<3

🍂 The thing is, his easy mode usually applies to romance. He knows what works to get a partner and what doesn’t. He is able to analyze how to get anyone he wants and knows what to do to get their heart, but you? Just when he thinks he’s connected all the dots, you shatter his entire perception of you, sending him back to square one.

🍂 These little deeds are the only reliable thing he can count on, because, even if he can’t get a good read, he knows that this will at least make you smile a bit for him.

🍂 I think you’re gonna have to confess first, though.

🍂 That said, I think Banri’s the type to do a whole song and dance to get you to confess first anyway, but, in this case, he’s genuinely not sure if your feelings are mutual.

🍂 But once you confess your feelings, it’s all over. I mean seriously, it’s all over.

🍂 He will just up his affection in every field. You have some free time? His schedule’s clear now. You had a bad day? He’s here with a hug and a warm mug of your drink of choice. You’re full of energy? He’ll flirt with you until you’re exhausted.

🍂 Seriously, if his courtship was a level ten of affection, his relationship with you is a level 100.

🍂 And honestly, that’s not too bad<3

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THE PREGNANCY HEADCANONS AHHHH I LOVED THEM!! They were soo good babes like you really know how to write for the boys 😭 also loved the jk kink slip in lol 🤭

But since we’re on the topic of pregnancy I’m gonna write out how many kids I think BTS would have cause that came into my head while reading lol

Seokjin: 3. Now for Jin his first would be a girl period. Jin gives such dad girl vibes idc idc but with Jin I see him having one boy that would end up being the middle child you know?? And I think he’d try for one more and end up with another girl because like I said Jin radiates girl dad vibes ✨

Yoongi: 3. NOW I WANT TO CLEAR SOMETHING UP, there was an interview back in the day where the boys talked about how many kids they wanted and everybody said Yoongi said he only wanted one but that was a mistranslation he said he wanted at least “one boy”. So in my imagination Yoongi ends up being a girl dad and has two girls first 🤭 and then he tries for one more and ends up with a boy ✨

Hoseok: 2 to 3. Now with Jhope I see him as a boy dad idk why but I feel his first would be a boy. And since he has a sister he would want his son to have a sibling and then the next baby would be a boy. Now I say two to three cause in my head I imagine Jhope wanting at least both a girl and a boy so when he ends up with just two boys I think his decision on another baby would be up-to the mother of his boys. If he did have another his youngest would obviously be a girl 🤭

Namjoon: 3. A boy and a girl as his first in that order is what I picture Namjoon with. And I know you’re asking so why the 3? Well i’m glad you asked because the answer is… ✨an oops baby✨ his last baby would be an oops baby 🤭 i am taking no counter arguments to this because it would happen to him and I’d bet my left toe on it 😭 so with Namjoon his oops baby would be a boy, idk why I see him having only one daughter but thats what i came up with lol

Jimin: 4. Jimin is one out of two of the members who is having a bit of a bigger family, to me in my head. For him I see him having and even number of both boys and girls but he has two girls first and two boys last. Now idk why but I can absolutely see Jimin having twins 🥺 specifically twin girls 🤭

Taehyung: 5. Now… we all knew this was the answer for this man lmfaoo but truly he’s gonna have the biggest family out of all the members. I see him having more girls than boys but his first child would be a boy and his last would be a girl; so overall three girls and two boys ✨

Jungkook: 3. SOMETHING ABOUT JK RADIATES TWIN ENERGY. Like his partners first pregnancy is gonna be twins like boy and girl twins 🥺. And he’s gonna think he’s done and doesn’t want anymore but before his twins hit school age he’s gonna realize he misses the baby phase and is gonna want one more, and its gonna be a girl 🤭

Ok im done, and I just want to preface that this is all delusion in my head that came up as I was reading the pregnancy headcanons, I simply just wrote this for fun and nothing more lol ❤️ I’d love to hear y’alls thoughts tho

WHEW CHILE YOU GOT ME SHAKING SHIVERING AND QUIVERING LIKE THEM IS SOME BIG NUMBERS LIKE DESPITE WHATEVER BANGTAN CHILD KICK I BEEN ON THE PAST COUPLE MONTHS ION WANT NONE OF THEM THINGS

my womb started caving in on itself good lord like you started off with my man and then 3 kids and i saw my life flash before my eyes good god anyway this is 100% a topic worth exploring and imma divide them up into 3 sections that you were touching on

girl dad

seokjin: i almost said seokjin would be a boy dad but nah he's def girl dad like i can 100% see you coming home from work or the gym or something and you walk past your daughter room and seokjin in there with 2 ponytails complete with the bows like when he dressed up as the squid game doll at that one ptd concert he'd have that hair and a tutu on playing some kind of princess damsel in distress rescue game and you'd walk past the room make eye contact with him and he's just got this 'i actually need you to save me from this' look on his face and all you do is pull out your phone snap a pic and keep going so you can start on dinner i think he'd definitely have 2 kids the first one gon need someone to play with and it simply can't be both of y'all forever so he'd probably have a boy and a girl

yoongi: yoongi is a girl dad through and through i don't make the rules it just is what it is like it don't matter how many kids he end up with they're all gonna be girls but you know what for some reason i'm feeling like he's either gonna have 1 or like 4 like either the one is gonna be enough and your tubes getting tied or like you're just gonna keep popping em out like tostino's pizza rolls

jimin: you know what i really can see jimin ending up with 4 kids and i would give em to him too 😩🤞i think i can see him with 3 girls and a boy and i just have this image of all of them clinging and hanging off of him like newborn cats and idk why he would be a girl dad but he just would like he's so silly and goofy the girls would just absolutely love him and that's fine bc my son would be all up under me 😒

boy dad

joonie: why i feel like all of joon chilren gon be "oops" babies on that kanye west "how you start a family the condom slipped up" type beat kslksksld and for some reason 3 really does feel right for him not for me but for him and i think there'd be a bit of an age gap too like i can see him having one little boy and he's gonna be so freaking cute like i got this picture in my head of joonie and the baby matching like he would get him little gray joggers and he'd have on a white onesie and cute tiny white nike airforce's to match joon and they'd be at the store and the baby would be holding on to his finger walking beside him and they'd have on the same fit and when y'all take the baby on an outing he'd put him on a little sweater vest and one of them newsboy hats oh my heart yeah <\3 anyway the age gap like y'all would have the first little boy and then 8-10 years of nothing and then y'all would end up having 2 back to back a girl then another boy

jk: tbh i just have this really strong image of jk roughhousing wit his son like throwing the kid around like a paper airplane and the kid would love it too be giggling and laughing don't even know his life is in peril he'd put him in lil track suits be real cute wit it and he would look just like him too big ole nose even bigger eyes would look somewhere between a blobfish and an anime character super adorable would take the kid to the park every weekend as long as the weather wasn't too inclement and play on the slides and swings and soccer with him like they'd just be so freaking active it's crazy you'd be tired enough for all 3 of y'all tho but anyway i feel like once the kid was old enough to go to school and jk couldn't pester him all day he'd pester you until you agreed to another one and i think it'd be a lil girl and he'd be the exact opposite with her 💀 all sweet and gentle acting like she could break at any second and would love dressing her up in fluffy glittery dresses and putting bows all over her but then she'd end up being just as rowdy as your first kid and he'd just about have a heart attack bc of it he'd still try to coax another one out of you once your daughter started school tho and that's when you'd have to ask him to go back to the park and find his mind bc you think he lost it

boffum

tae: now whew chile i know you said you can see him wit 5 kids but lemme tell you rn he ain't gettin em outta me he must gon have 2-3 baby mamas or sumn bc i do not have child rearing hips or god bless the woman that's gon produce his litter bc it ain't gon be me but frfr i can see him only having 1 like he seem like he would think he want a school bus full of kids but then gets the first one and is like "😀 let's never do this again" LOL and it really wouldn't matter whether it was a boy or girl i just know for sure that tae gon have that kid wit more hobbies than a little bit and it would drive you insane like one day the kid's a painter then they wanna play piano then guitar then violin then they're gonna wanna be a fashion designer and ask for a sewing machine then a pro golfer a pro gamer a fencer and tae gon be right there beside the kid taking the lessons with them like you not gonna be able to get either of them to settle down

hobi: i can see hobi with either one or two kids like i feel like he'd plan to have 2 kids but then he'd want to wait for the right time to have the second one but then the right time never really comes or y'all will discuss it every now and again and you'll have the one and both be like ehhh idk it's a lot of work should we do it again naahhh but maybe 👁️ and then just never have another OR you'd have twins OR you'd have the two kids separately but they'd be like minimum five years apart bc you just want to make sure your they got the best of y'all EITHER WAY it really doesn't matter if it's a boy or a girl or whatever combination bc hobi just gonna turn the child into a mini version of him decked out in designer always crazy patterns always layered up carrying lil acorn bags and a nice hat kids gonna love taking a pic for sure like it'll be a lil ball of personality for sure but also very disciplined like why hobi seem like he'd be kinda strict with it like the way he pushes himself he would definitely push his kids too not too much they would never feel too pressured or like they weren't good enough but he'd always make sure they'd be doing their best

a/n: i clearly got carried away here 🤠 also i really don't know why i would have 4 kids wit jimin and not the rest of em like i cannot explain logically the difference but the feeling is just there