#but also like maybe i dont want to make other people sick??

[paperstreetlocal]

what are some actions tyler/narrator would do that conveys "I love you" without them actually saying it

man this hurts me. why are you making me think about this (their lack of communication) sniffs...hmm

well for a start, i think the narrators love language is acts of service (this is so fucking difficult im wincing just thinking about it) and i think hes a very self centered guy (not necessarily on purpose, just mostly gets lost in himself and his thoughts) so i feel like intentionally going out of his way to make and prepare shit for another person is like. a completely insane thing for him

besides making tylers coffee how he likes it, adjusting his clothes and keeping the house somewhat liveable in i think the main thing is just the fact he listens. half the time he doesnt understand what the fuck tylers talking about but hes intrigued . he could talk about literally anything and he would indulge him with a smile on his face. maybe not always because he cares, its more about him trying to appeal more to tyler (and its working. tyler wants nothing more than some other freak adding onto his bullshit) boy has a thirst for knowledge and he has a hunk providing him with it in a trivia-esque manner.theyre both so fucking into it

ehmm this isnt showing love per se and i dont think hes ever given any to tyler but i do think hes written love poems/haikus about him. thinly veiled so if you read them you wouldnt really know if it was a personal thing or a metaphor for something else. cryptic in a way thats basically just the narrator projecting his feelings towards tyler on random objects or (more normalized) pairings

as for tyler im not reaaally sure? i dont think hes obsessed with the narrator in the way the narrator is with him, and i view him as aromantic to a degree so his bond with the narrator is more sexual & platonic rather than romantic (but he has his moments)

he has no issues being handsy or in somebodys space, hell he would be gripping somebodys hand real hard even if they just met but thats more about the fact he just gets off on pissing people off and making them uncomfortable. its also like that with the narrator with the addition that he just likes doing it because hes so easy to wrap & push around without any protest really. i think he also does that thing where he puts his hand on/wraps it around his nape when theyre next to each other. dog&owner motif if you squint

tylers whole extreme anti-capitalist shtick falls apart a bit with the narrator. in the book he takes him out to dinner. even the narrator was shitting bricks when this happened, tyler spending money on him seemed unfathomable (yes it was to shut him up or whatever, but still nonetheless insane) and i think its. whatever your view on romance is i think its sweet hes still willing to go against his morals just to have a cheesy moment with the narrator. carnivals. stores. trips. he would

i think he also calls him while hes at work . seemingly without a reason --hes bored for the most part, and he knows what hes doing for obvious reasons but. dare i say he misses him a twinge, since during work days the narrators home at like 5pm and tyler sleeps through the morning (that deleted scene of him rolling his eyes at the narrator for going to work.... theyre both so bad they both suck. horrible)

euhhghh...eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeughh oh god theyre so gross im going to be sick

[tendebill]

update: i am becoming more and more sick as we speak

[andiv3r]

Having to block everyone who has "wincest dni" in their bio not because I ship wincest (because I have come to the conclusion that I actually don't) but because I do think it'd be fun to poke around at the very real weirdness of their relationship that I've noticed in the show so far. And I'm 99% sure that my poking around will get seen as shipping.

[sovaharbor]

my mom constantly complains that i'm really hard to buy presents for and it's like......am i though. am i really. i don't think i am... i think if she paid literally any attention to me/the things i like it'd be really easy, actually. but what do i know man...

[radiopixelctive]

idk just felt like drawing smth with Papuzzles (again)

[pezpenser205]

the main reason i know im not femme in the slightest is bc i cant comprehend why anyone would Ever want to be feminine. i can understand neutral leaning fem, but the idea that people are born wanting to be feminine is appalling to me personally because femininity always felt like imprisonment and torture. it was and still is a restraint. a training weight i was forced to bear. i cant fully empathize or understand anyone who wants to be more feminine because i have never and will never want to be more feminine out of anything other than pressure or insecurity. im most comfortable being gender neutral, hairy and disgusting in old gym shorts and stained tshirts no matter how much insecurity it causes me. i dont care. im never dressing up all pretty for anyone elses benefit ever again. and i assume this is how people who want to be feminine feel about masculinity to some extent. if thats the case im super glad we could trade because holy moly

[shatterthefragments]

Ugh not to be like it’s been 5 years: LET IT GO.

But. It’s been FIVE YEARS. And we’ve been friends but the only thing you talk about is that conference we attended together that I can’t even remember anything but seeing bunnies on campus and that it was my first time taking a taxi alone.

I’ve moved on. I can’t remember it anymore to hold these grudges. I can’t hold onto those extra grudges that I’m not part of. I can’t remember what they did until you rehash it. (Also omg LISTING OUT NAMES?!? I don’t even remember almost half these names at all)

[icewindandboringhorror]

[itsalwaysdark]

the difficulty of trying 2 explain to ppl that im Not being self deprecating or belittling my mental illnesses when i say something that could be perceived as overly critical towards myself but that thise things actually r true abt me. ppl did die.

[lilowoof]

Time to be whimsical on a sunday night.

But I've been thinking about my upcoming bday (mainly what I wanna do for it/where to eat lmao). But something else that has been on my mind is that in a few years I will be entering my 30s. And I am strangely excited for it??

The mid to late 20's have been really hard on me and honestly, I wasn't expecting to still be around to ever reach my 30s. But here I am! I finished my main schooling!!! And while I am suffering with some sort of mental boo boos, I am slowly learning more about myself and slowly trying to let go of all the past demons. It's taking time but eventually I will be ok again.

I have the power to get out there to meet new ppl, and ppl who are around the same cycle of life as I am. And it's exciting to think about! While I would love to devote most of my time to salmon running, I've lately come to realize that I wanna put my time more into my life on top of that. Meet someone who I can actually connect and grow with. Where I can still salmon run and game but also experience more in the life ahead of me! (and perhaps some couple gaming? I've always liked that in past relationships hehhe)

Do I wanna get married? IDK! But damn do I want to get proposed to. And I wanna go to more events in the city!!! And more P!nk concerts (tho it's getting to be a bit too expensive now hahah...)

LIKE. Life ain't perfect and I am anticipating some hard upcoming struggles. I am still dealing with financial abuse and repairing my savings after those issues. BUT LIKE. LIFE is still going, and I can try my best to make it the best it can be!!!!

[chillllii]

when the audhd is fun until you become "i really really really have to give my input/side/idea and i dont give a fuck who's talking or what everyone was initially talking about" and before this site's illiteracy kicks in i'm certain we're all guilty of this to some extent

[sugaroto]

Tiktok realized I was feeling off with my friend before I did

[pygmi-says-hi]

STOP DOING THIS IN INJURY FICS!!

Bleeding:

Blood is warm. if blood is cold, you’re really fucking feverish or the person is dead. it’s only sticky after it coagulates.

It smells! like iron, obv, but very metallic. heavy blood loss has a really potent smell, someone will notice.

Unless in a state of shock or fight-flight mode, a character will know they’re bleeding. stop with the ‘i didn’t even feel it’ yeah you did. drowsiness, confusion, pale complexion, nausea, clumsiness, and memory loss are symptoms to include.

blood flow ebbs. sometimes it’s really gushin’, other times it’s a trickle. could be the same wound at different points.

it’s slow. use this to your advantage! more sad writer times hehehe.

Stab wounds:

I have been mildly impaled with rebar on an occasion, so let me explain from experience. being stabbed is bizarre af. your body is soft. you can squish it, feel it jiggle when you move. whatever just stabbed you? not jiggly. it feels stiff and numb after the pain fades. often, stab wounds lead to nerve damage. hands, arms, feet, neck, all have more motor nerve clusters than the torso. fingers may go numb or useless if a tendon is nicked.

also, bleeding takes FOREVER to stop, as mentioned above.

if the wound has an exit wound, like a bullet clean through or a spear through the whole limb, DONT REMOVE THE OBJECT. character will die. leave it, bandage around it. could be a good opportunity for some touchy touchy :)

whump writers - good opportunity for caretaker angst and fluff w/ trying to manhandle whumpee into a good position to access both sites

Concussion:

despite the amnesia and confusion, people ain’t that articulate. even if they’re mumbling about how much they love (person) - if that’s ur trope - or a secret, it’s gonna make no sense. garbled nonsense, no full sentences, just a coupla words here and there.

if the concussion is mild, they’re gonna feel fine. until….bam! out like a light. kinda funny to witness, but also a good time for some caretaking fluff.

Fever:

you die at 110F. no 'oh no his fever is 120F!! ahhh!“ no his fever is 0F because he’s fucking dead. you lose consciousness around 103, sometimes less if it’s a child. brain damage occurs at over 104.

ACTUAL SYMPTOMS:

sluggishness

seizures (severe)

inability to speak clearly

feeling chilly/shivering

nausea

pain

delirium

symptoms increase as fever rises. slow build that secret sickness! feverish people can be irritable, maybe a bit of sass followed by some hurt/comfort. never hurt anybody.

ALSO about fevers - they absolutely can cause hallucinations. Sometimes these alter memory and future memory processing. they're scary shit guys.

fevers are a big deal! bad shit can happen! milk that till its dry (chill out) and get some good hurt/comfort whumpee shit.

keep writing u sadistic nerds xox love you

ALSO I FORGOT LEMME ADD ON:

YOU DIE AT 85F

sorry I forgot. at that point for a sustained period of time you're too cold to survive.

pt 2

also please stop traumadumping in the notes/tags, that's not the point of this post. it's really upsetting to see on my feed, so i'm muting the notifs for this post. if you have a question about this post, dm me, but i don't want a constant influx of traumatic stories. xox

[guinevereslancelot]

currently hating and killing myself for leaving work early even tho i literally threw up within a minute of walking in the door when i got home

[playingonedchess]

like i tend to hate every fandom cause its always annoying some way or other but theres actually so much i literally bloody despise about the ace attorney fandom and all that random fanon they made up without even realising it has absolutely nothing to do with the games. it isnt even good fanon if that could even exist most of it is total utter rubbish

[fortunately-bi]

...... If I went on a hiatus for who knows how long again would y'all hate me....... 👉👈