#but I do not have any friends like that;; let alone one that I am willing to show my definitely not ESC RPF to lmao

[astars-things]

Hate and comfort

Lando norris x reader

Summary- where y/n joins quadrant athletes and gets hated on because people only think she got in because Lando is her boyfriend. (Mix of Insta edits, written and tweets, also please lmk if you like me adding the tweets or not, in my inbox or comments )

*I don't own any of these photos they are from pinterest

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@.Quadrant Please welcome the newest adrenaline junkie to the team Y/n. Y/n has been a part of the Nitro circus for 4 years, pulling off world-class stunts and we can't wait to see what she can bring to the team.

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@.Hater Wait so she does flips in the air and we’re calling her an athlete?? be serious.

@.hater2 Nepotism wins again 💅

@.maxfewtrell welcome to the team y/n/n

@.Hater3 I just unsubscribed

@.Y/n.L/n Thank you for signing me 💚

→ @.Hater4 SLUT

You laid in your hotel bed, tears rolling down your face as you read the comments, you have had your fair share of hate. Being a woman in a male-dominated sport you were judged, if you cried you were over sensitive, if you have male friends you're a slut, If you celebrated, you were cocky and the list goes on. But this was different.

What made it all harder was the fact that you were completely alone. Melbourne was another stop on tour with Nitro Circus, just another city, another crowd. You were 10,000 miles away from your family and friends, the people who had stood trackside in the pouring rain just to see you land your first flip. You were 8,000 miles away from Lando, the one person who could make the noise fade with just a look, the only one who knew how to hold you when the world got too loud.

Your relationship had only been going on for about a year, you both had made a decision not to go public, with all his crazy fan girls and the media, it would have just torn you two apart. Seeing all the comments on the new quadrant post made your brain go into overtime with thoughts filling your head 

Was Lando really worth the pain? Do I say anything? 

Just as your head was filling with more thoughts, you heard your phone buzz from where you had just dropped it 

Lando 🧡 Love, I know you are seeing the comments 

Lando 🧡  I wish more than anything i could be there right now just to pull the phone out of your hands and remind you who the fuck you are

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You turned your head to the side to read the clock that was beside your hotel bed, and when it read 1 am, you let out a sigh and opened up your F1 app so you could watch the Saudi Arabian race. For the first time that night, you smiled, watching Lando go from p10 to p4. You watched the podium celebration before putting your phone on charge and going to sleep, dreading what you were going to face tomorrow

That morning when you woke up your phone was just flooded with notification and it overwhelmed you, so you messaged your trainer and some of the staff letting them know you were turning off your phone, once the messages were sent you turned off your phone with a heavy sigh and got your head in the game.

You just had to get through practice tonight and the show tomorrow, and just a few more stops of the Australian leg of the tour. Then you can fly back home and be with your family and support system. The ones who didn’t question your worth or weigh your success against who you were dating.

What you didn't know was that Lando was currently on a plane to you. Rushing through the media of the Saudi Arabian Grand Prix. To then fly to Melbourne to hold you. (I know the timeline doesn't make sense, but this is fiction, not real life so just go with it)

Lando had messaged the team asking if they could help surprise you. Lando had given them a rundown of the situation and the plan of action. Luck was on Landos' side tonight, his plane landed an hour before practice was scheduled to finish, which meant he had enough time to quickly get your hotel room card from your trainer, have a shower, get some food for both of you and get some other essentials.

Lando sat on the edge of the hotel bed, waiting for you. Your trainer had sent Lando a message saying you were on your way up to the hotel room. Lando was mentally freaking out he wanted everything to be perfect, he could hear your voice from outside the door and so he stood up holding the flowers he got on his way to the hotel and stood there waiting for you to enter the room

You let out a slow breath, shoulders heavy with exhaustion, your mind already shutting down from the day. The door clicked open, and you pushed it gently, stepping inside. That's when you froze, your mouth wide open from shock, Lando is here like right in front of me, you thought, still not being able to let any words out

His voice was soft. "Hey, love." Before your mind could process what was happening, your body made its way to Lando. He held you with so much love. "I’ve got you," he whispered after a moment, lips brushing the top of your head. "I’m right here. Let it out, love."

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@.Landonorris 8,000 miles. 18-hour flight. I would do it 100 times over again just for you...when you love someone as much as I love y/n, you’ll do whatever it takes to show up. I didn't travel across the Indian Ocean just to stay quiet 🧡

We have only been dating for a year, and y/n has been doing Nitro Circus for 4 years. Y/n is not here because of me she’s here because she’s damn good at what she does and I'm happy to be her wag and show the world how amazing she is.

So, to whoever this may concern kindly fuck off with your hate comments!

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@.maxfewtrell Damn y/n you really are lucky Lando wouldn't do that for me 🥲

@.user Lando is really the definition of "if he wanted to he would"

→@.Landonorris damn right I am

@.danielricciardo mate said 🏎️🏁✈️🏃‍♂️‍➡️🫂💥

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@.Quadrant Say it louder for the haters in the back 🧡

@.McLaren Well said, Lando. We stand with Y/N always.

Lando sat in the stands, with a Nitro hoodie, black jeans, with his white Air Forces on, he had a special surprise just for you, he’d been holding onto since landing in Melbourne. He just needed the perfect moment. Before the show, the team had asked if it was alright to feature him in the crowd during your performance you replied with "yeah sure fuck it"

You had your helmet, full gear on, and adrenaline pulsing through your veins, just waiting for the signal from the staff to announce you and the rest of the dirt bike crew. Once you got the signal, you rode out of the tunnel, riding up the ramp. In one fluid motion, you launched into the air, legs stretched behind you in a perfect Superman pose, landing clean like it was second nature.

The crowd was in chaos with all the cheering. You looked up at the jumbotron to see your boyfriend Lando with his hoodie lifted up to show off the t-shirt he was wearing,

Which was a black t-shirt with "Y/ns' #1 WAG" printed on with white writing, you stopped for a moment, your cheeks going red under your helmet, and soon you let out a little laugh.

Once the show was done, you made your way to the fan zone, quickly signing as much as you could before making your way to where Lando had been standing. Lando picked you up effortlessly, you wrapped your legs around his waist, and wasted no time in pulling him into a kiss

"You were amazing out there," Lando murmured, his voice full of admiration, his arms tight around you. You pulled back just enough to meet his eyes, your lips curling into a soft smile. "Thank you for showing up", You spoke with tears welling up in your eyes

"Like I said in my Instagram post, I would do it 100 times over again just for you", Lando said with nothing but love in his eyes placing another kiss to your lips. This was where you belonged, right here, in his arms

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I think this is my favorite fic I've written so far...also, if you would like a pt2 or for me to turn this into an au in the future, please lmk in the comments or my inbox

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Hi, so I'm not really sure how to ask this idk, it feels very personal and maybe tmi, and I guess it depends on one's level of bottom dysphoria, but basically, do you (or anyone else who wants to share) have any advice or anything with how to cope with having to go through a physical exam for bottom stuff/ a pap smear for the first time?

I'm asking this as someone who has and always has had severe bottom dysphoria to the point that I've never done anything with those parts and literally never even touched myself. I've just lived painfully aware that I have that stuff but simultaneously pretending as much as possible that I don't. So just the thought of "having to" get that done, being touched there by someone etc, makes me sick and gives me anxiety and I just full on do not want to do that. Ever. But apparently I have to if I'm ever gonna get a hysto, which I really really want.

So now I just feel like it's lose/lose. Either I have to let someone touch me in a way that just thinking about me makes me sick, or I can never get a part of transition that I've been wanting forever since I was kid and learned about my anatomy.

And I just.. mentally, emotionally, physically in every way just really don't know how to deal with that.

I guess it's not that big of a deal for people who don't have bottom dysphoria or not that much of it, and honestly sometimes I feel kinda alone (and almost guilty? Like it's wrong somehow?) in how extremely uncomfortable I am with bottom stuff compared to how I've seen other people be chill with it, but yeah.. idk what to do or how to cope with this.

Don't feel bad about feeling bad -- I may like my dick, but that hole gives me panic attacks and I'm not looking forward to my own exam coming up soon. I worry every time that I am going to kick someone in the face by accident. :/

A pelvic exam/pap is not required to begin HRT, but you will need one for most hystos. Plus, it's just good preventative care. Also, if you are young enough, get your HPV vaccine (a 2 shot series, iirc) to help prevent cervical cancer.

Things that have helped me during gyn exams:

Take the entire day off, if you can. Have a treat set up for after your appointment.

Go with a friend, if possible. They may not be able to be with you in the exam room, but they can at least drive you and wait for you.

Be firm that this is hard for you and anything they can do to make it easier will be helpful.

Put your shirt back on after the breast exam. I don't take "no" for an answer here. Having an extra bit of clothing on makes me feel better.

Ask for the "pediatric" speculum -- it's smaller and won't hurt as bad. Insist on it.

Have something you can grip to take your focus off below.

If they want to do a sonogram, refuse the transvaginal one. Do it the old fashioned way, which will require drinking a lot of water. They can deal.

Don't be embarrassed if your self-care afterwards requires crying, or similar. This is an exhausting thing to do, no matter how brave a face you put on in the exam room. I usually just crawl back into bed to sleep it off.

Above all, never take comments like "just man up" or whatever from the medical team. If that happens, be mean back, or simply get up, get dressed, and leave. Find someone else if you have to.

Scripts I have used. Workshop your own and practice them:

"This is my first time. I'm worried this will be a very uncomfortable exam physically and emotionally for me and I would appreciate anything you can do to make it easier. It helps me if you explain everything as we go."

"I do not have penetrative sex, so would like to try the smallest speculum lubed up best you can."

"I am going to put my shirt back on. It will help me be calmer for the rest of the exam."

If they are rude: "You are being unkind and I will walk out of here and find another provider if this attitude continues."

If they insist on a transvag sonogram: "I will only do an external sonogram. We can schedule it another day for me to prep, or give me time to drink the necessary water." (This is hard, btw -- it is enough water to make you vomit.)

Do whatever mental larping you need to do to get through it all. It's important to psych yourself up so you can control as much as possible. Remember, you can stop things whenever you want. If they are mean, all bets are off.

If you're like me, it will suck, but please try not to put it off. But getting through it means you can tackle anything else related to transition, should you go that route. Seriously, if you can do this, you are fucking golden. Take care. <3

(Additional stories/advice are welcome from folks, being trans masc not required!)

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Okay HELLO I just want to say 1) I love your writings and 2) holy cow your sirius x snapes daughter fic has infected my mind since I read it. I never would have expected how into it I am. Would you ever consider writing a follow up for it? I cant stop thinking about them realizing that,, this is actually working out and now they have to figure how to tell remus, harry, and.....Snape himself. I just love the thought of them sneaking around and having to dodge their thoughts (Snape and legilimency YIKES) but surprisingly still getting away with it. I feel like Tonks despite (or maybe because of) her own pining would be the first to catch on. I just love the secret dating/forbidden romance trope and this is so so fun and I love the OotP timeline set up. I kept wondering too if reader would get a chance to show her defense skills and not just potioneering. If you're not up for it no worries!! But just know that you have me seated and ready, sippin my drink and entirely invested

Hi! Thank you for all the love ❤︎ ❤︎ ❤︎ This story is hitting harder than I was anticipating, but the people ask or a part 2, I give a part 2. And there will be a part 3 at some point. When? That is up to the writing gods.

Hope y'all enjoy ❤︎ ❤︎ ❤︎

Snape Spawn ii

Sirius Black x Snape!reader

part one

5k words

cw: age gap!, Y/N, sneaking around, fluff

You closed the door to Grimmauld Place quietly behind you. You had Chinese takeaway in your arms as you scanned the entry. No Remus in sight, which was good you thought. You’re not sure how you’d explain why you were here. You hadn’t gotten that far. You headed up the stairs and knocked on Sirius’ bedroom door. 

“Not feeling great, Moons. I’ll eat something later,” Sirius called through the door. 

You turned the handle, barely pushing the door open. “Would some Chinese make you feel better?” 

Within a moment, Sirius was pulling you into his room and closing the door. The containers of food landed on the desk. He held you at arms’ length, debating if it would be appropriate to hug or kiss you; frankly, he wanted to do both. 

“You’re actually here.”

You tilted your head. “We made plans, Sirius. And I figured eating here would be better than eating alone in my flat again.”

He chuckled and let his hands fall from your shoulders. 

“Did Remus see you?”

“No. Don’t think he heard me either. I tried to be quiet.”

“Didn’t set my mother’s portrait off. That’s a good sign. Although, Remus might smell our dinner… I’ll figure something out to tell him.”

Sirius gives you a smile before turning toward the containers and looking through them, seeing what you all got. 

“Wasn’t sure what you’d like so I got a few things. All things I like so take whatever and I’ll be good.” 

“Hmm… Appears you have good taste…” 

He selected a container and set of chopsticks before sitting on the floor. You mirrored him – his back was to the wall and yours to his bed. You sat in silence, eating for a minute or so.

“Tell me ‘bout yourself,” you said in between bites. 

Sirius doesn’t answer right away, opting to take another bite of his food. You supposed it was probably the first date that he’d been on in a long while, but surely he’s had to get to know people since escaping Azkaban. It wasn’t like he was alone in Grimmauld Place all the time. 

“I’m a scorpio. Like dogs and motorcycles. Used to have one, you know. Before… everything.” You nodded, encouraging him to keep going. “My best friends are dead, a traitor and probably in the sitting room. James Potter, Peter Pettigrew and Remus. We used to have such a good time together. Complemented each in ways that had McGonagall pulling her hair out.” 

“What did you do?”

“Some harmless pranks, kid stuff. Except we were all brilliant and a tad reckless.” “And something tells me some of them weren’t harmless.”

“Possibly mortifying for some? If you want to see one of the ugliest sides of me, just talk to, ahem, Severus.” 

You gave a dry laugh. “I don’t think I’m going to be asking Dad about you any time soon.” 

Sirius smiled at you. 

“Also, I like that your first thing you said was your zodiac sign,” you laughed before telling him your own. “Do you believe in sign compatibility?” 

He shrugged. “Only if ours are compatible.” 

“Good answer,” you chuckled. “Did you take Divination?”

“Merlin, no. Ancient Runes and Arithmancy. Loved Runes-” Sirius gestured to himself and his collection of rune-related tattoos. “-if that wasn’t obvious. Arithmancy, not so much.”

“Hmm. Besides your pranks, were you a good student?”

“I passed,” he said nonchalantly. “I’m good with a wand, I know my spells. Not as good at brewing as you are and I’ve killed my fair share of plants.” 

“Oh, sure, flatter me.” You shake your head slightly. 

“What? It’s true! After Severus, you’re the only other person we could ask to brew Wolfsbane.”

“I’m a part of the order,” you said, pointing your chopsticks at him. 

“Yes, but you brewed it perfectly. Even with… a distraction in the room.”

“A distraction that kissed me, mind you. That’s certainly one way to distract me more.”

“And you still brewed it perfectly.” Sirius flashed you a cocky grin. “So tell me about yourself. What do you do besides immaculate potions?”

“I mean, it does take up most of my time. My shop, you know. I live above it so I don’t have a commute. I hang out with my friends from school sometimes, but they are all pretty busy with their jobs. We still find time to get a drink at the Leaky Cauldron from time to time. Erm… Been trying to read more lately. Some fun muggle books that I find in secondhand shops.”

“Secondhand book shops, you should suggest some to Remus. He’d appreciate it,” Sirius said with a nod. “What book are you currently reading?” 

“There’s this mystery series, Sherlock Holmes. Only four actual books, but there are so many short stories about him.”

“Oh? You’re liking it so far?”

You nodded.

“You should bring me one. I’ll read it.”

You started talking about other books you’ve read recently and Sirius listened more intently than you expected him to. What surprised you even more was when Sirius talked about the books he read in time after Hogwarts and before Azkaban – he was an avid reader. He said he missed having access to bookstores and libraries, yet another downside to being trapped in Grimmauld Place. 

After you finished eating, you moved to sit next to Sirius. You asked him what this neighborhood was like when he was growing up; he told you stories about him sneaking out to walk the streets and visit muggle stores. He didn’t like being trapped in the house back then and he still doesn’t. You rested your head on his shoulder, listening to his voice. Subconsciously, your hand found his and traced lazy shapes on the back of it. 

After a while, you yawned and said, “It’s getting late… I should probably get going.”

“You are always welcome to stay the night,” Sirius said with a hint of hopefulness in his voice.

“You know I can’t. Not yet.” You looked up at Sirius with a sweet smile. “Walk me out?”

He nodded, standing up and extending his hand to help you up. Sirius opened his bedroom door quietly, looking up and down the hallway and stairs. As you followed him out, you could tell that sneaking around his house was an old habit. It’s evident in how he moves. Only he was escaping from his parents when he was younger; now he’s hiding you from Remus. He pressed a kiss to your forehead before cautiously opening the front door for you to slip out. Grimmauld Place successfully had a visitor without anyone else knowing. 

Within the month, you were visiting Sirius multiple times a week. Sometimes you hung around Remus, just sharing dinner with other members of the Order or having tea. It was easy to brush off you being around Grimmauld Place at times, saying that you don’t want to miss anything so you’re hanging around Order Headquarters. Other times, Sirius came up with various excuses for Remus to not disturb him for the evening and then would slink out of the front door. You’d be waiting around the block, ready to apparate the two of you back to your flat. Sirius often laughed that it reminded him of being young again.

In your flat, you could do more things than you could in Sirius’ room. You cooked together, baked together, watched muggle TV and movies, listened to music, read and just about anything you could think of. It wasn’t going out to shops and restaurants where Sirius ran the risk of being recognized, but it was something. The most difficult part of it was getting Sirius to leave and go back into Grimmauld Place. You understood it the more you knew him. 

Your friends picked up that you were seeing someone, but you kept it quiet. You shared so few details about Sirius that if you hadn’t been spending so much time with him, they might not have believed he existed. He also wasn’t the greatest at putting love bites in places you could cover easily. Good thing your customers didn’t care what you looked like, as long as your product maintained its quality. It did. 

Getting to see Sirius, even if visually platonically, made Order meetings something you could look forward to. No one seemed to question your friendship with Sirius. You assumed it was because you had spent a fair amount of time during missions together at Grimmauld Place. So when Sirius greeted you with a hug before the first November meeting, it didn’t draw anyone's eyes. Except for Severus’. 

Your father frowned deeply at the sight. Like usual, you sat next to Tonks at the meeting. You avoided looking at Severus and only cast Sirius occasional glances. You didn’t want to be too obvious. Periodically throughout the meeting, you felt a presence in your brain; you immediately knew what it was. You cleared your mind and forced Severus out. You put up walls and focused on that for most of the meeting.

“Y/N, we’re going to need you for this one. You, Lupin, Tonks,” Shacklebolt said, ensuring that you three were listening.

You perked up immediately. This was going to be your first real mission and you’d be damned if you messed it up. Without looking, you knew that Sirius was smirking at you and your obvious excitement. You were finally getting in on some of the action. Your excitement only shrank slightly as Shacklebolt went into the mission’s details, but it was still something. 

You talked briefly with Tonks and Remus after the meeting. You needed to make sure you were all on the same page before the actual mission was to take place in a few days. When you turned to find Sirius, hoping to talk to him before you needed to leave, you spotted your father lingering in the hallway outside of the kitchen. You steadily walked up to him.

“Stay out of my head. If I have something to tell you, I will,” you said firmly, looking into his cold, dark eyes. You knew that if you didn’t look him in the eyes, he wouldn’t believe you. 

“Will you?” he drawled.

“Yes.”

Then you continued out the door. If you stayed any longer, Severus might have interrogated you and you’re not sure if you could have kept up a front for all of that. You just hoped that Sirius had enough common sense to go to his room and avoid your dad. Being a Snape, you had a natural ability for Legilimency and Occlumency; being Severus’ daughter, he made sure you knew how to utilize both. He didn’t predict that he would need to use it on you. Sirius, on the other hand, hadn’t been raised by Severus and wasn’t trained in Occlumency as far as you knew. If Severus tried to delve into Sirius’ mind, you weren’t sure what he’d find. 

You didn’t hear anything from Severus in the days leading up to your mission. You also didn’t see Sirius in that time. Any nerves you had about Severus finding out disappeared when you walked into Grimmauld Place to meet Remus and Tonks before your mission. Sirius winked at you before disappearing upstairs. Luckily, Remus and Tonks were chatting in the kitchen so they didn’t witness that. 

The mission, as bland as it was, ended up being a success. You went undetected and obtained the information you needed. It wasn’t great news for the Order, but it was necessary. You hated how you were disappointed that you didn’t have to defend yourself at all, but when you recounted the whole thing to Sirius the next day in his room over American takeaway, he made it feel so action-packed. Then when you told him the mission felt rather boring, he comforted you and said there would be more chances to prove yourself in the future, whether that was for better or worse. 

The week leading up to Christmas was eventful with Arthur Weasley getting attacked while patrolling the Department of Mysteries. Molly and Arthur essentially moved back into Grimmauld Place and when he was released from St. Mungo’s, you were spending more and more time at Grimmauld Place as well. You practically had a permanent potion station set up in the sitting room, ensuring that Arthur never went without a healing potion. While you reminded them that you’re not a healer, you could provide the potions that they needed. 

By the time the Weasleys, Harry and Hermione arrived for their Christmas break, you’re all but living at Grimmauld Place. Fred and George were excited about this. All of them complained about the current Defense Against the Dark Arts professor, which you’d heard things about at Order meetings. Dolores Umbridge wasn’t someone you wanted to meet. 

You tried to keep your distance from Sirius while everyone was around. This was time that Sirius could spend with his godson and you didn’t want to take any of that away from him. There was also a higher risk of someone catching you two together with so many people in the house, including the various members of the Order who popped in. 

“Y/N, can you help me with something upstairs?” Sirius asked you after dinner on Christmas Eve. 

“Erm, yeah. One second,” you replied. 

You were helping Ginny, Tonks and Molly clear the table when he asked. You finished that, wiped your hands on your jeans and followed Sirius out of the kitchen. You grabbed a small package from where you had hid it under your coat as Sirius continued up the stairs.

In the millisecond you looked away from him, he disappeared. You went up the stairs, trying to find where he went, and you wanted to laugh at yourself when you arrived at his room and the door was slightly ajar. 

“Sirius?” you asked softly, pushing the door more open. 

He pulled you into the room and closed the door behind you. On his bed was a wrapped present. 

“Happy Christmas, love” he whispered into your ear before kissing you. 

“Happy Christmas,” you mumbled, smiling into the kiss. 

You kept it brief, not knowing how long you could be hidden in Sirius’ room before people got suspicious. You broke the kiss and revealed your present for him.

“Is it okay if we exchange these up here? I, erm, didn’t get anyone else anything…”

Sirius chuckled at that. “That’s why I brought you up here. I mean, and so I could kiss you. But that’s beside the point.” 

He took the present from your hands and sat on his bed. You sat next to him, picking up the present on the bed and holding it in your lap. He tore into the paper. You watched his face light up as he flipped through a few pages of the book. 

“I wasn’t sure if you’d read it before. Shakespeare is really popular with the muggles and I’ve read this one a few times over. It’s one of his comedies.”

“A Midsummer’s Night Dream, no, I haven’t read this… Thank you,” he said. 

“It’s the same edition I have so, erm, if it’s not too cheesy, I thought we could do a little book club with it? It’s a play so we could plan to read certain scenes before we see each other and then talk about it?”

Sirius set the book down in his lap and held your face so you looked him in the eyes. “I’d love that. And I can’t wait to read it. Really, thank you.” 

You smiled as he leaned in to place a quick peck on your lips. Then he nodded at the present sitting in your lap. 

“Alright, sweetheart, open yours.”

You peeled the tape up carefully, completely different to how Sirius opened your present. There were two boxes placed on top of each other. The smaller one was a green velvet box; inside of it was a silver necklace with a small pendant with an engraved constellation. You held it up to your face to get a closer look. 

“It’s canis major…” Sirius said, sounding nervous for the first time since you’ve met him. “I was debating not giving it to you, though it might be too soon for something like that…”

“It’s beautiful, Sirius. Help me put it on?”

You gave him the necklace before lifting your hair so he could clasp it around your neck. 

“How’s it look?”

“You look perfect.”

You blushed slightly as you returned your gaze to the other box from Sirius. You took the lid off to reveal an embroidered set of dueling gloves. 

“Oh my Merlin…” you muttered as you tried on the left hand glove. “These must’ve cost a fortune!”

“They’re for when you go on more missions.”

For a moment, the two of you sat in silence. You were examining the gloves and Sirius was watching you do so. When you looked up, you pulled him into a hug and whispered thanks into his ear. 

“We should probably head back down though. We’ve been gone for a while,” you sighed. 

“Just one more thing,” Sirius said before kissing you again. 

You giggled into his lips as his hands held your waist. He smiled brightly at you when he pulled away. The book got left in his room. You put on the necklace, tucking the pendant into your shirt as the two of you descended the stairs. Sirius then went ahead to the kitchen while you hid the gloves in your jacket. No one would be any wiser that you and your boyfriend had just exchanged gifts. 

The rest of the evening went by without a hitch and soon enough you were wishing everyone a good night and heading out the door with Tonks. You made sure to give Sirius one last smile before leaving. Before you even got off the stoop, Tonks put her hand on your shoulder.

“Y/N, there something going on between you and Black?” she asked, direct and to the point.

You tilted your head, feigning confusion. Although some of the confusion wasn’t fake – how had she picked up on it when you were being so discrete?

“No? What do you mean?” 

She let her hand fall and shrugged. “Thought I saw a look between you. And he needed your help with that mystery task earlier. Neither of you said what it was.”

“If there’s any look, it’s because we’re friendly. We chat before meetings, when I’m brewing. He makes alright company. And he wanted me to help clean up around my brewing station. No biggie.” 

You really hoped that no one was asking Sirius what the task was. He would likely give them a different answer and then you’d have to explain why. You and Sirius hadn’t actually talked about when you’d tell people that you were seeing each other. You were still sneaking around, albeit part of that was because Sirius wasn’t supposed to be leaving Grimmauld Place. But you exchanged presents in the privacy of his room. That had to mean something. 

You stayed in on Christmas Day, using the day to relax and catch up on stuff around your shop. Between brewing for Arthur, spending time at Grimmauld Place in general and spending time with Sirius, you were letting your stock run lower than you usually liked. It was good for you to catch up beyond just needing to have products on your shelves. You could let your mind go blank when you brewed, or you could use the time to think. 

You did think. You decided that you needed to talk to Sirius about telling people. You couldn’t keep your relationship a secret forever, especially not if you wanted to get serious. You listed off people who would be priority: Harry, Remus, Severus. The big three. And then you’d tell your friends and so on. But those three would need to be the first you told. 

You went over to Grimmauld Place on Boxing Day, and you were greeted with a chorus of voices. You headed straight to the sitting room to brew Arthur’s potions. It didn’t take long for Sirius to find you. You knew he was listening for your arrival. 

“Hey, can we talk about something?” you asked, glancing at the door.

“Oh, um, yeah…” Sirius looked uncertain but closed the door and cast a muffling charm. “What’s wrong?” 

“Nothing’s wrong, per se,” you started slowly, “but Tonks did ask if there was something going on between us. And that got me thinking. It’s been a few months and I don’t want to sneak around forever.”

Sirius’ uncertainty melted into something softer, caring.

You continued, “I think we should tell people soon. Probably start with the Big Three.”

“The Big Three?” he asked with a smirk. He had moved to be standing next to you as you worked on the potion. 

“Yes. Remus. Harry. My dad.” You swallowed thickly. “Frankly, I have a feeling they’ll all hate it but for different reasons.”

Sirius scoffed. “So what if they hate it? They aren’t a part of this.”

“No, they aren’t. But they are large parts of our lives. They are important.”

“Darling, they can get over themselves. What they think isn’t as important as you might think.”

You shook your head, adding some mushroom stems to your cauldron. 

“I don’t want you to push away Remus and Harry for me. I know they mean the world to you. And my dad… Well, he’s family.”

“Hey, hey, hey,” Sirius said, now crouching next to you and gently reaching out to turn your chin toward him. “Remus and Harry do mean a lot to me, but what they think about us, together… It won’t change how I feel about you. And, Y/N, I love you.” 

You stared at him with wide eyes. Neither of you had said that to each other yet. You expected it to come after you told people that you were dating, certainly not before. Sirius’ eyes were searching your face for some reaction. Whether or not you said it back didn’t change how he feels about you, and it wasn’t like he was going to walk away from you. You were asking about telling people so you must’ve been happy with him.

“Love?” he asked after what felt like an eternity of your staring.

“Yeah?” you breathed.

“Are you okay?”

“Yeah… Yeah, I’m good.” Your voice came back to you. “I just wasn’t expecting… that.”

Sirius stood up and put his hands in his pockets as he watched you continue to work on the potion.

“So we’ll start telling people,” Sirius said. “Just like if it comes up or is relevant? I mean, unless you want some formal announcement?” 

“Ah… Erm, give me one second,” you said, counting out loud how many times you stirred the cauldron counterclockwise. After you hit twenty, you stood up and barreled to Sirius to hug him. “I love you too,” you murmured into his chest. 

He barely heard it, but he did. You loved him. He placed a soft kiss on the top of your head.

“So, big announcement or casual conversation, love?” 

You looked up at him, eyes sparkling. “Casual conversation and hope that people don’t talk too much.” You chuckled. “Imagine my dad hearing it from Harry or Remus… I don’t think he would ever talk to me again.” 

After that, Sirius opened the door, dissipating the muffling charm. He sat in his usual chair and watched you finish brewing the first potion. You poured it into a bottle, set it off to the side and began preparing for the second potion. Every so often, you looked up to make eye contact with Sirius. You mirrored each other’s wide grins. You were also sporting a subtle blush, that you would blame on the heat of your cauldron if asked about it.

“Oi, Snape, you up there?” George’s voice called from somewhere outside of the sitting room. 

“Yup! Brewing!” you yelled.

Within seconds, the twins entered the room, eyes briefly flicking from you to Sirius and back to you.

“We have questions for you,” Fred said. 

“Alright.” 

You saw Sirius stand up to leave the room out of the corner of your eye. When the twins didn’t acknowledge him leaving, you knew their questions weren’t about your relationship status.

“We’re looking into starting a joke shop in Diagon Alley. Got someone to showing us a few places next week before we head back to school.”

“Oh, that’s brilliant! Be nice to have some younger shopkeeps around.” 

“Yeah. We were wondering if you’d come along? Make sure the rents and such sound okay?” George asked.

“Erm, yeah. Just tell me what day and I’ll make sure I’m available.”

“And we want to pick your brain on some business plans,” George continued.

“I’m here all the time. You can pick my brain now, later, whenever. Even when you go back to school, you can write me.” 

“Fantastic,” Fred said before launching into questions about how reliable their business plan was sounding. 

You delivered the finished potions to Arthur and Molly and got roped into a game of exploding snap. You ended up staying at Grimmauld Place longer than you originally intended. They insisted you stay for dinner. And that led to several bottles of elfmade wine being drained along with you flaunting your ability to craft delicious cocktails. 

You hadn’t planned on drinking that much, but the energy of the night kept you drinking glass after glass. You hit a point where you were in no state to walk or apparate home. You tried to leave but Sirius stopped you.

“Y/N, love, you’re staying here tonight. Come on,” he muttered, face close to your ear. 

Then he helped you upstairs and to his room. You collapsed onto his bed before he could even close the door behind him. Sirius dug through his closet until he found something you could sleep in. He helped you change, despite your protests that you were now too comfy to even move, and then he tucked you under the covers. He kissed your forehead as you drifted. 

When you woke up, you were disoriented. You didn’t immediately recognize the sheets. You certainly didn’t recognize the clothes you were wearing. But you knew the arm that was draped over your middle and when you actually looked around you, it dawned on you that you were in Sirius’ room. You had spent the night. Your headache was a reminder of how much you actually drank last night. 

“Morning, beautiful,” Sirius said groggily. 

“Good morning,” you said, rolling over so you could see his face. “Hmm, this is something I could get used to…”

“What is? Waking up hungover?”

“No… Waking up next to you.”

Sirius smiled, pulling you into his chest. “I certainly don’t mind it.”

When you rolled out of bed, Sirius dug through his closet and armoire to find you something else to wear. You told him you could wear yesterday’s clothing, but he insisted on finding you fresh clothes. Once dressed, you headed downstairs for breakfast. You didn’t even consider that the rest of the house might be up. 

“Y/N? I didn’t hear you come in,” Remus said when you sat down at the table. 

“Oh, um…” You struggled to answer.

“Actually, I don’t recall you leaving last night. Did you sleep here?” Fred asked, pointing his fork at you.

“I-”

“You did!” Fred exclaimed. “You so did!” 

“Where’d you even sleep?” George asked.

Sirius’ room. Nope. You couldn’t just say that. Yes, you said that you would tell people about your relationship with Sirius. Breakfast with Remus, George, Fred, Ginny and Hermione didn’t feel like the right time.

“My room,” Sirius answered for you. “Turns out I have a very comfortable floor. Who would’ve thought?” 

“Right…” Remus said, taking in that you were wearing Sirius’ clothes.

Remus had known Sirius for too long; he knows that Sirius hates sleeping anywhere but a bed. There was no chance that Sirius slept on the floor. He let the topic drop for breakfast but made a mental note to talk to Sirius about it later. 

When everyone scattered throughout the house doing their own things, Remus found Sirius in his room with the door open. He was reading the book you got him for Christmas. Remus stepped into the room, closing the door behind him with a soft click.

“Did you shag her?” His voice was quiet but steady. 

Sirius didn’t even look up from his book. “No.”

He knew Remus meant last night – that was the only thing keeping his answer from being a lie. Remus narrowed his eyes at Sirius. He was searching for Sirius’ tells, but there weren’t any. 

“So she just slept in your bed. And you slept on the floor.” 

“I… may have been in the bed with her. But we didn’t shag.” 

Remus tutted. “She’s Snape’s kid.” 

“And?” 

“You’ve been getting close with her.”

“I have. We’re quite close. It happens when you spend a lot of time with someone,” Sirius stated, closing his book. “I’d say I’m rather close with you too.”

Remus stayed quiet for a moment as he studied Sirius. He shook his head.

“You’re not telling me something.”

“What am I not telling you?” Sirius asked, unable to prevent his smirk from forming.

“Merlin, she’s Snape’s kid!”

“Moony, what are you asking?”

“Are you… Merlin, Padfoot… Please tell me you’re not.”

Sirius barked a laugh. “We are.”

“You have to be kidding me… Fuck…” Remus ran a frustrated hand down his face, briefly turning away from Sirius. “How long has this been… a thing?”

“Few months.”

“Months?”

“Months.”

“That’s why she’s been spending so much time here.”

“Part of it, yeah.”

“Who all knows?”

“You.”

Remus choked on air. “Me? That’s it?”

“We’re getting ready to tell people. Just waiting for the right time.”

“You… You should not be so relaxed about this! I’m sorry, Pads, but I don’t see how it lasts. And, Merlin, this is Snively’s kid. You know that, right?”

“I’m very aware. She wants to be the one to tell him, so don’t go bringing it up.”

“That’s the best plan for your survival…” 

“So, you good? Or do you need to yell at me?”

“I… I… I don’t know,” Remus stuttered. “Just… ugh. I don’t know. It feels wrong.”

“Not to us.”

“That… doesn’t help.”

Remus walked out of Sirius’ room. Sirius picked up his book with a small smile playing at his lips. One person down, two to go. 

tags: @navs-bhat, @bruxa0007, @c0ldstvff, @corawithfanfiction

[addemius]

My Favorite Destiny Quotes:

Xivu Arath: "I AM THE MOUNTAIN ON WHICH ALL SWORDS SHATTER. HONE YOUR EDGE AGAINST ME."

The Speaker: "Devotion inspires bravery, bravery inspires sacrifice, sacrifice leads to death. So… feel free to kill yourself."

Calus: "I name you for the brightest star in our sky. Caiatl. My star…my…betrayer…"

Ana Bray (Translating): "I am Rasputin, guardian of all that I survey. I have no equal."

The Witness: "The universe makes us all victim and perpetrator of its infinite cruelty. You, more than any, suffer both fates. Be free."

Cayde-6: "Every story has an end, kid. This is mine."

Saint-14: "My name is Saint-14. They call me the greatest Titan who ever lived. But I would be dead if not for you. Since the day I met you, I swore I would make it my duty to follow your example.

Memory of Safiyah: Analyzing the whims of a silent god? You’ll mull those thoughts over into dust. There’s not always an answer. Let go, and rest.

Zavala: Yesterday, I was too tired to rest. Today, Safi, Hakim…I’ll find you in my dreams.

Clovis AI: "You now face godlike judgement. May it extend eternally."

Eris Morn: "QUIET! You are ALL insufferable! Save your torment for someone who gives a damn."

Drifter: Then ambushed ‘em. But we all got caught in the crossfire. My neighbor’s kid told me something that still bounces ‘round my head to this day. Right before the light went out in her tiny eyes, she whispered, “I can’t feel anything.” Yeah. I couldn’t either.

Eris Morn: "A hatred as pure and potent as sunshine, soaking through your skin."

Ghost: That's… one of those Pyramids. It can't be. That should not be here.

Ghost: No concessions? How stupid do you think I am? You and your siblings, you killed my friends! I remember Crota, and the Great Disaster! I remember Oryx, and the Taken! I remember what you did to the Awoken and the Dreaming City! I'll never forget what happened to Sagira. To Osiris. I would die before I ever chose to help the Hive.

Savathun: But you know, truth is a funny thing. Does it live in the world, or in the mind? Is it constant, or can it be bent? Who decides what is true? In this Universe of Light and Dark, there is no greater power.

Savathun: “Tell me, oh honored guest. Why would you want to escape? This Throne World is indistinguishable from my own mind, Guardian. Every step taken, every bullet fired, I keep and count them all. It’s not too late to turn around.”

Toland: Paracausality! What a trip. If you believe your weapon wants to murder all existence, then so it will. Call it a little bad juju, if you please…

Misraaks: GO! You must protect your people!

Saint-14: You ARE my people!

Sloane (Ahsa): “Thus began the witness pursuit, its campaign to impose meaning on a meaningless universe”

Dominus Ghaul: "You're not brave. You've merely forgotten the fear of death. Allow me to reacquaint you."

Oryx: Light! Give your will to me!

Ecthar: Their leaders belong to you… the rest await extermination.

Oryx: No…gather them. I will take them all.

Oryx: You… are the last hope of the Light? I have taken entire worlds! You are not worthy to face me.

Xivu Arath: SCREAMS LIKE A CHOIR AS THEIR MOUNTAINS TREMBLED. SCREAMS LIKE A CHOIR AS THEIR SEAS BOILED. I STEPPED DOWN INTO THAT WORLD, THRUST MY BLADE INTO THE HEART OF TOROBATL, AND CARVED LIES FROM TRUTH.

Fikrul: "COME, DEAD THING. COME AND DIE FOR THE LAST TIME."

Savathun: The line between Light and Dark is so very thin."

Ghost: "Guardians make their own fate."

Ghost: "Eyes up, Guardian."

Mara Sov: We fought to keep our beautiful creation safe. And now this beast has come, claiming to be King. Mara Sov bows to no one.

Xol, Will of the Thousands: "There is no Light here. You are alone. You shall drift. You shall drown in the Deep."

Rhulk, the First Disciple: "You have served your purpose. All the awaits you now is the gift of death… the darkness beyond your final days."

Osiris: When we think about controlling something powerful…it's easy to assume it takes strength. Determination. A force of will. But what I've learned…is that we cannot control every facet of nature. Instead of tightening our grip…we must open our palms. Accepting the ebb..and the flow. Letting go in the face of grief…in all its shapes. Through failure, through loss…we can overcome the impossible.

Nezarec: "In your calmest moments, your deepest slumber, you will remember me guardians"

Rhulk: "Drown in the deep, or rise from it"

The Witness: We have seen enough. The children of Sol cry out for salvation. You promised them life, but deliver only death, as you have for so many before. Enough. Enough death. Enough life. You have no pieces left to place. The game is over. Do not be afraid. Your pale heart holds the key. This time… There is no escape."

The Crow: I told myself a story about who you were: a villain strung together from whispers of the things you'd done. But you're right. I'm scared. I'm scared that our… nature might make my friends dangerous to me. Or me to them. We all have parts we wish weren't there. But acknowledging them can make us stronger.

---

The Crow: I'll always be balancing on the edge of something terrible, but now I have someone to pull me back.

Memory of Uldren: Who?

The Crow: You. I can learn from your mistakes.

Memory of Uldren: My triumphs too.

The Crow: Yeah. You point out the pitfalls; I'll fill them in. We'll right your wrongs together. See you around.

----

Dominus Ghaul: "Look upon me. Dominus of the Red Legion. Annihilator of Suns. Razer of a thousands worlds! Slayer of gods and conqueror of the Light! I AM GHAUL! And I have become legend."

Zavala: A hollow man… leading others to die… for a silent god…

Rasputin: “Humanity has no more need of a Warmind. Not when you have each other.”

Asher Mir: “Summon the Genesis Mind. Destroy it. Make it suffer. And it is not a metaphor!”

Asher Mir: “Bring me its arm, I wish to hang it in a place of honor. If it's been destroyed, bring me the ashes. I have constructed an urn for them.”

The Witness: "We are not your friend. We are not your enemy. We are your…salvation."

Osiris: "When did Hope cease to require Risk?"

Savathun: "Hello old friend, I've chased you for a long time. First as an enemy, then as a collector, and finally, now … A supplicant. What is it the guardians say? "Devotion inspires bravery, bravery inspires sacrifice, and sacrifice… "(Violent coughs) Here we are. Wouldn't it be clever of you… If after everything, you simply let me die? Oh, what a trick. Elegant. Is that it? If there is an answer, I don't hear it. Because now the world begins to fade…"

Clovis Bray: Artificial Intelligence activated. Enjoying yourselves, intruders? It’s worth knowing the cataclysmic damage you will be responsible for today. Do not fool yourselves. This facility is not simply the fruitless work of some pathetic scientist. This house was built by the genius Clovis Bray I himself. Within lies humanity’s salvation. La fontaine de jouvence. Made possible by Clarity Control. Magnificent, wasn’t it? An entity from beyond our own dimension. And the answer to humanity’s eternal struggle: mortality. Were it to fall intro the wrong hands, humanity, and the universe, would be utterly doomed. I have no reason to believe you are anything other than “the wrong hands.” You now face godlike judgment. May it extend externally.

Xol: You shall drift. You shall drown in the Deep.

Fikrul: "We are alike… Trapped in death, a neverending dance…"

The Witness: The universe makes us all victim and perpetrator of its infinite cruelty. You, more than any, suffer both fates. Be free.

[smallestapplin]

Not really a request, just curious for your opinion

On a scale of least-to-most likely to be jealous, what order do you think the Rescue Bots would be in?

I think it’d be:

Boulder - Chase - Blades - Heatwave

Chase and Blades have both been canonically jealous

Chase over Charlie calling the jalopy the “best car ever”

Blades over Dani riding in other helicopters, that episode where Bumblebee came to find that artefact but Dani had her helicopter license temporarily revoked, and that episode where she and Blurr competed in that race

Boulder doesn’t strike me as someone who’d be jealous, Chase seems like he’d be more jealous over his partner being interested in other vehicles rather than being jealous over other people, Blades gets jealous over Dani simply riding in other vehicles so he would DEFINITELY be a jealous partner, and Heatwave is Heatwave

I agree with these 100% but allow me expand on them.

Boulder doesn’t get insecure, he’s very self assured and healthily confident in himself and your relationship, even if he does feel jealous of anything he will go to you first and communicate that in hopes of talking it out.

Maybe reassuring him, and both of you working through it to see what can help from preventing something like it in the future.

Chase gets jealous, but never of you talking to anyone else, no no, he only gets jealous when it’s another car, if you ever go “oh wow that’s a pretty car.” He’s sulking and asking “am I not pretty in my vehicle mode?”

It gets worse if you actually have your own car, he’s already a little upset you’re driving another car, let alone praise it??? This is a crime in his optics. He’s not good at expressing it either, but he will manage to tell you at any given point he is the better car.

Blades…oh Blades, he’s jealous of other vehicles AND people, you could be best friends with Dani too and want to just hang out with her and catch up, and suddenly you’ll come back to the firehouse to Blades eating energon, watching a chick flick, crying as if he just got dumped.

But with other vehicles he gets sassy and passive aggressive, “oh. Why don’t you go ask that other plane you flew around in, since you love him so much!” When the plane is an Earth plane, not even sentient, but he’s acting like it is. Huffing, pouting, and turning his nose up.

Heatwave, as you said, is Heatwave, and he’s the one I will admit has a problem. Much like Blades, he gets jealous of other people and vehicles, but he will give you the cold shoulder with his classic angry grumble.

Cannot for the life of him open up about it, but makes comments like “why not ask me for a ride? I’m better than some scrap heap car.”

With people it’s another story especially if he’s nearby, any time the person you’re talking to opens their mouth his siren will just start blaring until their close their mouth. He actively gets between you or other people, or even scares people away, cause you’re his human and he will be DAMNED if he’s sharing

[thewardenisonthecase]

Anneliese Cousland as a Companion

from the @fromthedaswithlove questions. Also, for this, I am assuming that Anneliese did NOT become a warden, ok. And also most answers will assume that the Warden is at least friends with her.

ALSO this. is. L O N G. So I'm putting it under the cut.

also i got really insprised by this and i'm thinking a lot about how she would act in game if she was a companion and not a warden.

How would you recruit them?

Recruitment: Much like Zevran's, it's a random encounter. While on the road, you you'll see a single woman alone fighting a lot of rogues. She'll cry for help and you'll join the fight. Once its over, you'll have a dialogue where you can ask what has happened. The woman will introduce herself as Anneliese, and say that she is being hunted. You have the option to ask why and she'll reveal she's the last of the Couslands but won't say more than that. She asks about who you are and once its revealed its the Warden, she'll ask to join the party, saying that she needs to find hide for a time and says that she is a very capable warrior and could help them with the blight. It's then you have the option to recruit or turn her down.

What would their personal quest look like?

Once you reach high enough approval, she'll reveal what has happened to her - Howe's betrayal, how her family was slaughtered and that she only just barely escaped. On your next dialogue with her, she'll say she believes her brother might still be alive and will ask the Warden to go to the Kocari Wilds with her to search for him. If questioned why they should help, one of the arguments she uses is that her brother, now the rightful heir to Highever, would be a big political ally for the civil war.

If the Warden agrees to it, a space next to Ostagar opens and they can now go to the Kocari Wilds again, after searching and having some minor battles, Anneliese eventually finds scraps of Fergus's armor and blood and she comes to the conclusion he truly is dead. When returning to camp, Anneliese will thank the warden for being there, and say that since Fergus is dead, she's the Teyrna of Highever, and she will side with the Warden in any future political troubles (aka the Landsmeet)

How would their approval raise? What would make it drop?

She'll give approval to any actions that involve helping people, or being kind to others. She also approves of the Warden taking charge and being proactive. She'll disaprove of being dismissive and uncessesarily rude, or refusing to do anything.

During dialogue, being kind and supportive of her while she's grieving will net a lot of approval, and depending on dialogue, answering her with something light hearted will also raise approval. You can also question her about mabaris and she'll be happy to answer.

Approval Greetings: Low/Medium/High/Romanced

Low: (In a very cold, stern tone, like she's tired of you) Let me guess, you need help with something.

Medium: How can I help you?

High: Happy to help.

Romanced: Yes, love?

What would their iconic lines be?

"It's going to take more than a few men to take me down."

"It matters that you cared."

"I have faced monsters your worst nightmares couldn't even conceive. I shan't break a sweat to deal with you."

"Carrying this burden is easier when you share it with someone else, don't you think?."

"You have changed my life. I will not forget it."

"The elves are as Ferelden as I or anyone else born here. They should be treated as such."

Do they have location specific dialogue?

She would have on location specific dialogue on Redcliffe and Denerim, since those are places she has visited in the past and has more knowledge on the political side of things. She'll also have dialogue specific if she is brought to the Circle, but especifically AFTER the Fade, she'll say "Maker, if that's what mages deal with all the time, I'm starting to understand them a lot better." and if she's in the active party while fighting werewolves in the Brecillian forest she'll say "One of my ancestors fought werewolves too." (much like sten, you'll later be able to ask her about that)

What would their party banters look like?

I don't have time to write it all out so here's a breakdown.

She's gonna have some flirtatious banter with most companions.

With Leliana and Zevran, some banter will bring up her past relationships and the fact that she's bisexual too.

She'll ask Leliana about the Chantry, and the two will have some small discussions about the Maker.

With Zevran, she'll ask about Antiva, and share the knowledge she has due to her sister in law. She'll also be curious about his experience as a city elf and a crow.

With Wynne, she'll have banters asking about mage life in the circle, and through it, you see her becoming more and more interested in helping mages.

With Alistair, they'll have banters bonding over the recent losses they had. She'll also try to give him some political advice.

With Sten, famous 'how are you a woman' banter. They'll also have banters where she questions him about the qun and the qunari, and also they'll share warrior techniques.

With Oghren, she'll mostly disapprove of his drinking habits, tho from time to time, they'll have some semi-flirtatious/funny banters which indicates she's warming up to him, and also, they'll also talk warrior stuff.

With Shale, she'll ask about how's it like to be a golem, and maybe some stuff about being a woman and Shale's memories.

With Loghain, those are going to be the most HOSTILE banters she has. She'll question on how he could turn on his people, how could he ally himself with Howe, and its just BAD dont bring them along.

What would their preferred gifts be?

SWORDS! You'll often find a few swords during the journey that are gifts and she'll give a big approval boost. If you give her an embroidery kit, it'll trigger a special scene, where she says she's surprised the warden remembered it and that she's happy to do something she hasnt done in a long while.

I like the idea of maybe there being a special sword you can give her and that also triggering another scene.

Reaction if they are told about Morrigan’s Ritual

"That she hid this from you this whole time (head shake)...but I won't blame you if you do it. After all you've been through, it wouldn't be fair to end in your death, my friend. Do what you think is right, and I'll support you."

If romanced: "I won't lie. The thought of you laying with another brings a sour taste to my mouth. But I'd rather you live...I...I do not know, love. But whatever you choose to do, I'll stand by it."

Reaction if they are told about the fate of the Warden

If the warden is alive and unromanced, she'll be happy they are still alive. If they're alive and she was romanced, she'll express relief.

If the warden dies and unromanced, she'll express sadness over the death of a friend. if romanced, she'll frown heavily, say something very quiet and ask for a moment alone.

Their farewell lines

If brought to the last battle: "The time has come. All the work you've done amounted to this. Whatever the outcome, you have already won. I'm proud to call you friend."

If told to stay at the city gates: "Shame that I won't see the beast up close, but I trust your judgment. You have done more for me and this country than I'll ever be able to repay you for. Good battle, my friend."

If romanced and brought to the last battle: "I won't lie and say I am not scared. If you dare die, I'll shall go to the Void itself and bring you back. Let us finish this together."

If romanced and told to stay at the city gates: "I wish you would bring me with you, but I understand your decision. Be careful out there, love. I'll be here when you return."

What does their Epilogue slide say?

Ok so, for this, I think Fergus could be alive or dead depending on a lot of things. The thing is, I want to keep the queen cousland choice but as a like, other option for the Anora&Alistair option. So the idea is if Anneliese becomes queen, Fergus is alive, if she doesnt become queen, Fergus is dead.

With that in mind, here's the epilogue slides:

1 - Anneliese not queen, personal quest completed: After the Archdemon was slain, Anneliese returned to Highever, now its Teynra. Her return was met with praise and the morale soon turned up. It took a few years for Highever to recover from Howe's treachery, but Anneliese has ruled with a fair and just hand. She was a controversial figure in court as she decided to improve the lives of the elves on her land and to protect Highever's alienage, claiming that the city elves were just as Ferelden as any of us. She was also an outspoken supporter of mages. True to her word, she remained forever loyal to the Wardens, offering support to the order.

2 - Anneliese not queen, personal quest not completed: Anneliese would keep the search for her brother, with little to no success. She forever mourned her family, and a statue containing the names of all the lives lost during Howe's treachety was raised in the center of Highever.

3 - Anneliese not queen, romanced and the warden survived: The Teyrna of Highever was frequently seen with the Hero of Ferelden and a popular rumor began that the two were romantically involved. If they were true or not, will forever be a mystery to all but the two of them.

4 - Anneliese not queen, romanced and the warden died: The Teyrna raised a statue of her beloved warden in Highever, and she was frequently seen putting flowers on it. To this day, she only wears black and refuses to marry.

5 - Anneliese queen: Anneliese's crowning took place on the same day as her wedding to King Alistair. The royal couple toured the nation, becoming quite popular with the people. Together, they brought stability to Ferelden, while also reforming the nation, by giving the elves more lands, sovereignty to the mages and turning the Denerim alienage into a Bann. Though their actions were considered controversial, that did not deter them. Although initially only friends, over the years, Anneliese and Alistair grew fond of one another, as one complemented what the other lacked.

The Queen continued her search for her brother, and eventually, Fergus was found, restoring the Cousland line to Highever.

6 - Anneliese queen, romanced and the Warden survived: There was a rumor among the nobility that the queen and king, though friends, did not share each other's bed. In fact, many believed that Her Majesty's friendship with the Hero of Ferelden was deeper than that, and that hero's constant visits in court had other meanings.

7 - Anneliese queen, romanced and the Warden died: The Hero of Ferelden's death deeply affected the queen, and years later, she would still mourn their death. She erected a statue in the middle of Denerim in their homage, and she would frequently be seen visinting it.

Where are they during Inquisition? What would their War Table mission say? Would they be the Warden contact instead of Stroud/Alistair/Loghain?

If Anneliese is Queen, she'll be besides Alistair if In Hushed Whispers is completed. If she is the Teyrna, she's going to fulfill Fergus's role and provide some war table missions. If the warden is alive and you complete the 'contact the hero of ferelden' mission, if anneliese was romanced, they mention her in their letter - either they'll say to keep Ferelden safe so that they might return to the Queen's side, or they'll mention another letter attached, this one for Leliana to send to her, saying that they'll soon return.

Anneliese is not a warden in this so she would not be a contact.

[chidoroki]

Wind Breaker S2EP4

aka: i'm literally on cloud nine right now

Every boy in this darn class is adorable.

RIP to that one dude caught in Anzai’s headlock for like two straight minutes.

“He said he came from out of town, so I thought he’d live a but further. I guess him entering school and his family moving coincided?” “Well, we’ll know when we get there.” The fact we’re at 177 chapters and still dunno the full story about Sakura’s family situation is kinda wild.

Nirei’s panicked screams would be loud enough to wake up anyone.

Pfftt stooppp, Suo’s little surprised face upon seeing Sakura appear is hilarious.

Damn, the anime does real well showing how dark and dreary Sakura’s place looks. I never got that kinda feeling in the manga with how it lacks color.

“I’ve always dealt with crap like this on my own. I’ll get better once I sleep it off. It’s not a big deal.” Aw baby, noooooo! That’s not a good thing!

I love how gentle Suo looks, like you know he desperately wants to help Sakura but he wouldn’t push him to accept it.

Oh, I like how they reflected Suo in Nirei’s phone like that so we could see that brief smile.

The queen has arrived.. lord help me I am not ready for the scenes to come.

Our boy really has such a great groups of friends the way they all bought something for him to help him feel better and take care of that fever.

Why did they go for such horror movie vibes with how Kotoha shows up at his door with the weird first pov and that scream?? My god, his shocked face is priceless!!

Oh thank god he does have working lights in this place at least.

Fffucckk man, I love all of this and ch57, like all Sakura wanted to do when Nirei & Suo came by was to curl up in bed and pass out, but with Kotoha he’s actually engaging in conversation and eating. Yeah he perked up because she brought over a hot meal and our boy loves to eat but as manga!Suo says “while he’s weak right now, he can’t use his mental or physical strength to handle anything that’s not normal for him,” and this entire scene with Kotoha is nothing but normal for him. Sakura’s always been alone so having friends suddenly start caring for him is weird and he shies away from it all, and even though he and Kotoha act all friendly, all the advice and meals she constantly gives him is just status quo at this point for their interactions. He’s used to it and doesn’t feel pressured to act any certain way nor does he feel a need to act strong around her all the time unlike everyone else, which is why I think Suo let her visit Sakura because he knew that too. I doubt he would allow anyone bother or overwhelm Sakura when he’s supposed to be resting despite their desire to help him, such as their entire class, and Sakura’s not even mad that she’s here now and I just really really love this whole scene between them okay?? I love these two. Fuck it, I ship ‘em. I doubt any kind of romantic love is gonna come out of this manga but this trusting and respectable relationship they got going on is precious to me alright. Let me have this because god knows my girl doesn't show up nearly as much as I'd want her to.

Just wanna let y’all know that while I was rambling I had the ep paused on Kotoha slapping the cool patch on Sakura’s head. Fun little frame to pause at.

“Worried about the, ‘I like my buddies now so my body freezes up’ issue?” I shall never get tired of the way she teases him nor those faces she makes when doing so!!

Mmmmmkay, girl, why must you be pretty at every angle.. I swear.

“So why don’t you think of a way to get around it?” “A way to get around it?” “Like delegating the people around you who can act in your behalf.” I feel all weak and soft that he takes her suggestions so seriously. Lift your head up and properly look at people? Done. Learn and use people’s names? Done. Now onto the next step of becoming a good friend and leader.

“There are only so many things one human can do in a limited amount of time.” I really love this line from her too.

“Well, even then.. relying on others, or asking favors from them, may be a bit scary at first.” *shakes manga* Tell me her full story!! Why does she say this?? What has my girl gone through to become so wise?? I know it's all about Sakura's growth and the boys fighting all the time but give me more of our best girl too!!

It feels kinda unfair calling Kotoha best girl when she's literally the only one who shows up frequently and matters but screw it! She's more than earned the title! Aaaahhh!

Teeheee, Kaji’s face when Sakura requests to see him.

A flustered Kaji is an adorable sight to behold.

I love his strange way of trying to explain stuff to Sakura with the coffee and fake ghost.

Kaji being the best senpai!

Not the triple cut on Kaji punching Umemiya smack dab in the face.. HAAHAA!!!

His quick run away too!! God I love this boy so much!!

Aww the flashback of Hiragi taking Kaji to the rooftop to chat.. my boy really learned from the best.

Goddamn, why must the chillest ep be my favorite? I feel so giddy.

[clown-demon]

"I think he is believing a 'mercy' kill for ability users.. To 'erase' their sins as he views having an ability as a 'sin.' But-- I honestly don't know for certain... I am not heavy religious while Fyodor is. While we are alike-- we are vastly different as well. Such as the fact he views no one as an ally, that he has been alone his entire life. I have friends, allies, people to depend on... Sometimes I wonder if he ever accepted a friend, if he'd be any different. But I don't know his history. All I know is he's ancient and has lived for a very long time..."

Sometimes, having a friend is all you need to change... That's what happened to Dazai. He used to view no one as a friend, until he met Oda.. And after Oda died, the promise he made-- the words his single friend spoke to him in his dying breath, had put Dazai on another path... The same with Nikolai, he has stated after meeting Fyodor his life had vastly changed...

"Huh? Why would I want a mansion? Those are too big! I don't like big spaces at all or big homes. Besides, I'd rather die pain free asap! I don't want to die rich or anything. I just want to die loved by a beautiful woman," he shared with a grin.

Dazai's smile turned to a firm line, looking over to his ramen he had not touched yet. "Who is to say what would happen if the book ever got destroyed... It can transform reality.. What would happen to the world if it was destroyed? If the pages burned-- would the burn too? It's not something to mess with in that way..." the detective pointed out to Matt.

"While what is written in it comes true, there's no telling what something that can alter reality would do if messed with.. Or even IF it could be destroyed..." He didn't want to chance destroying the very fabric of space and time by destroying the book...

Dazai sighed and pushed the ramen towards Matt. "Eh, I'm full from the chicken skewer you let me have," the one he didn't even finish, "I'm not hungry anymore."

"I don't know...it sounds pretty malicious to me. Killing ability users for having abilities is just going a bit far, isn't it? It's more of self-hatred. Ability users being born is part of the world, whether you like it or not."

Matt is eating his ramen, listening to Dazai. If Dazai had the book, it was something that Matt didn't expect the detective to use it for. He looks completely dumbfounded before letting out a snort, then he laughs out loud.

"Hahahahahahaha!" Matt laughs, slaps his hand on the counter, "Seriously...that's what you're going to write? Die with someone you love in a pain-free suicide?" He asked. "Hey! I'm not bashing your fairytale. I thought you would use it for something more grand, like getting a mansion, then get a beautiful woman, then die with her."

"But seriously though...why not destroy the book?" He asked. "It could go for a long way if the book doesn't exist. Heck, I am willing to say that I have the book to get people come over to my place. And oh! Eat your ramen, it's getting cold." He reminds Dazai.

[nightbornfeyre]

A Court of Silver Flames – A Rant Disguised as Constructive Criticism

Let’s get real: Nesta’s arc could have been one of the most powerful redemption stories in the ACOTAR universe, but it fell completely flat because of how it was framed—and more importantly, how it was resolved.

1. Missed Opportunity: Nesta as “Mean But Ready to Change”

Nesta didn’t need to be traumatized to justify her actions. There are people who are just mean, bitter, or jealous—not because of a tragic past, but because of who they are. That doesn’t make them evil—it makes them human. And the most powerful redemption arcs come not from trauma-rescue stories, but from the realization:

> “I am losing everyone I love because of how I treat them. I don’t want to die alone. I want to change.”

Nesta could’ve admitted she was jealous of Feyre, resentful of her courage and ability to move forward. She could’ve screamed, “I hated you because you had everything I couldn’t be.” That would’ve hit so hard. The emotional impact would’ve been unforgettable. But instead, the book avoided those raw, ugly truths and replaced them with a shortcut—a vague “I love you” and a life-saving moment like that fixes everything. Spoiler: it doesn’t.

2. She Never Apologized

Nesta never gave Feyre the apology she deserved. She treated her like garbage for years—pushing her away, mocking her, watching her struggle and doing nothing. And what do we get? A life-saving moment and that’s it? No breakdown, no real confrontation, no accountability. Just… forgiveness by default.

3. The Convenient New Friends

The book introduces Gwyn and Emerie—new friends who were never harmed by Nesta’s cruelty. Of course they accept her. They weren’t there for the years of humiliation, bitterness, and emotional neglect. These friendships felt safe, but they also let Nesta “heal” without ever having to make amends with the ones she actually hurt. That’s not growth. That’s a narrative detour.

4. Sex & Stairs = Healing?

Most of the book is just… sex, walking up and down stairs, and making friendship bracelets. That’s not healing—that’s filler. Nesta uses sex as a coping mechanism to numb herself. She doesn’t confront her pain—she escapes it. Yet the book frames this like empowerment. It’s not. Healing is hard. It’s ugly. And none of that was explored.

5. Pacing & Plot: What Plot?

There is barely any plot in Silver Flames. The pacing is all over the place. Important moments are rushed or skipped. Emotional growth is summarized instead of shown. You’re telling me an entire redemption arc happened in between leg days and sex scenes? Come on.

6. World-Building Flaws That Make You Squint

Oh, don’t get me started:

•A healer can see through a womb and detect tiny fetus wings at 2.5 months? In real life, we can’t even know the baby’s sex at that point. What kind of Night Court ultrasound tech is that?

•Nesta and her friends find each other through magical friendship bracelets that work like emotional GPS? Really? Since when did Velaris have WiFi-enabled jewelry?

•Cassian knows what lactic acid is? Did this 500-year-old war general take a crash course in human biology at Velaris Community College?

It’s giving fanfiction—but not in the fun way.

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Conclusion: Nesta’s arc could’ve been revolutionary. But instead of a character reckoning with her own flaws and choosing to become better—not because of trauma, but because she realizes how deeply she’s hurt others—we got trauma-dumping, friendship bracelets, and cardio.

Healing is messy. Redemption takes guts. Nesta deserved a better arc—and honestly? So did we.

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I was never a big fan of Nesta, but I was neutral toward her in the beginning of the series. I accepted that she was mean—because, well, there are mean people in the world, and I figured, what can I do about it? But then her book came along, and instead of making me sympathize with her or understand her better, it actually made me dislike her even more. And honestly, I can't help but blame Sarah J. Maas for that. The way Nesta’s arc was framed—showing how calculated and sharp her words could be, how she knew exactly how to hurt people and let her blood sing when she did—it didn’t feel like growth. She didn’t seem to truly regret her actions until the pregnancy plotline with Feyre. That was her supposed turning point.

I could’ve loved Nesta, I really could’ve, but SJM made it hard. And now I’m genuinely worried about what’s coming in Elain’s book. I can only hope it’s going to be different, because it genuinely feels like Sarah knows Elain and Feyre better than she ever knew Nesta. When she was asked what she loved about each sister, she gave thoughtful, poetic answers about Feyre’s compassion and Elain’s hopefulness—how Elain sees the world through hope rather than bitterness, and how Feyre still feels for others even in her darkest moments. But when it came to Nesta? She went with “her smutty books.” Really? That alone shows she didn’t want to dive deeper into Nesta’s complexity, and it makes it all the more clear why Nesta’s arc ended up feeling so surface-level, underwhelming, and ultimately disappointing.

Sometimes I think to myself just how truly terrible ACOSF was. I’m not talking about the writing. I’m talking about the storyline.

I’m glad that Nesta learned to heal but like … it could have been SOOO much better. I absolutely skimmed the blood rite chapter’s because they were torturous, I found their friendship stuff extremely annoying and cringy as well as a certain character. There was barely any Cassian and we got literally nothing about his background or any of his past issues were resolved. I know SJM says that the MMC’s take a backseat to the FMC’s in ACOTAR but Cassian REALLY got nothing.

It was such a difficult book for me to get through and I do honestly wish I DNF’d instead of forcing myself through finishing it because it really ended up being completely bland. It was just training and walking up and down steps. That’s it.

[impostorsshow]

I'm actually so obsessed with him it's not even funny if i'm not listening to a TikTok or music directly related to him I can't focus free me free me

This is @/cherubpuppet's OC for a object show [au? pitch? wip show? How do I categorize this] and I've been destroyed by the fact that ruler art is infinitely superior [and 10x longer] and i don't have a good enough grasp on lip gloss's personality to make fanfiction so I am frozen in "want make fanart but fanart takes effort :["

[tazzmanian-devil]

im so scared of the future. i dont know what im going to do with myself. i am not mentally capable of working enough hours to support myself without killing myself. i truly believe that if i lived alone i would burn my house down. i cant work jobs that require a lot of standing or interacting with others. i dont have the autism that makes me good with computers to do something online. i have no idea what im good for. i dont even draw well or often enough to do commissions, and i feel too guilty about not being in a difficult financial situation to even offer them.

i dont know how to apply for disability or what it would even grant me besides tax benefits. one of the questions on the website is for employment status, and the two options are employed and unemployed/seeking employment. i do not think i am capable of working a regular job, and i have no idea what IRregular jobs there might be. i tried reaching out to my school's employment coordinator, and her ONLY advice was to sell my work. i am trying!

maybe it would be different if i felt more direct and specific pressure of a problem to solve and less general pressure to do what im supposed to without knowing what that is. im living with my grandfather and aunt right now, so im not feeling housing pressure. my parents are paying for my education, so im not feeling pressure to pay that back. why do i need that? what is it for? what is my goal? i dont know. i have money from student loans in my bank account paying for my groceries.

i feel like a horse whose ass has been spanked. something is driving me forward, but i dont know what or which direction to run. i have no idea whats coming, and its horrible. i dont know what i want or what i should be doing next, except for 'get a job' which is such a vague instruction that its leaving me spinning my wheels.

i should get a job so i can live alone...but i dont want to live alone. i dont think i CAN live alone, unsupported. what is any of this for??? i start taking steps forward, and im haulted each time by myself asking why? why am i doing this? whats the point? what do i want from this? nothing? i want nothing? im only doing this to satisfy external pressures? then whats the point? cant i just watch movies all day instead? whats the point?

[tildeath-douspart]

I wonder if they think of me

[eff-exor]

something smells like shit, and it ain’t me buddy

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

thinkbing about. him

[johndonneswife]

someone really should be talking about how difficult it is to plan a wedding - a gay wedding - when both of your families fucking suck

[manasurge]

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