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theserlingbucket · 13 days

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He definitely called Kiyo ‘Hanako’ by accident on multiple occasions, right

#tanjiro kamado #tanjirou kamado #hanako kamado #kiyo terauchi #kny #kimetsu no yaiba #demon slayer #I love angst #art #but I always make myself upset

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loosethreadsofyoursoul · 1 month

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this pic is all silly goofy haha angel getting drunk until you remember the reason he’s drinking is because he just lost his kid after tfw tried so hard to save him but were let down over and over again until all they could do was watch him die, helpless to do anything to stop it, so the only thing left to do is try to numb the pain.

#and then cas makes his deal with the empty to get him back so #it gets even worse #but like i always forget the context of this pic and then i watch s14 and i’m like oh. yeah.#i upset myself with this dw #my poor bff #castiel #castiel spn #jack kline #cas and jack #spn #supernatural #spn season 14 #spn 14x08 #em saying things

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hellinhawkins · 18 days

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#you know i’ve always sort of seen it to be that she’d be a bit upset #i mean #he had this alternate version of himself that pretended to love her like that #i don’t know about you but i’d be pretty pissed off whether i loved him back or not (would make me a hypocrite)#but i don’t see her as being super angry- and if she is it won’t be for very long #and i don’t think that she would have seen it coming #as much as i love that trope in fanfiction #i really don’t see it as believable #i’m a true believer that no one in the party would have had any idea that will and mike are more than friends #all that considered is why i myself believe in “fine with it- she didn’t see it coming” 😶#byler #stranger things #stranger things 5 #byler endgame #the duffer brothers #mike wheeler #will byers #polls

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oceanwithouthermoon · 2 months

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ive been unhealthily fixated on kubosai for the past few weeks, i just have no idea how to put it into words. kuboyasu aren and saiki kusuo are in love btw

#they are.#been thinking a lot about t*rusai and k*bosai and all three of them together #(really long rant in these tags that shouldve been a rant post but im not changing it soz i got carried away LMAO->)#see the thing is that k*bosai is my absolute favorite ship ever. but i get genuinely pissed when people smack talk t*rusai #idk like i get why people wouldnt ship kbs and i really dont care. and i also get that a lot of people have differing opinions and-#wont ship trsai. i honestly cant wrap my head around why (other than people who just hate teruhashi and are misogynistic) but im okay with-#agreeing to disagree and i dont care yk??#but people so often make these long discussion posts just yapping and yapping and making up shit about how trsa 'wouldnt work'#and its always just... actual complete bullshit. like unreadable word vomit.#sorry. but its true.#thats why it gets me so mad #i cant think of a single reason why you would feel the need to do that #why cant you be normal and just. not like a ship. just dont like it. hate it even. but dont make up shit just to shit on it #its so dumb i have to force myself to just scroll past them every time i encounter one #usually on tiktok or tumblr #if i read them i wont be able to stop myself from making the most concerned and upset noises ever cuz what is actually wrong with you #theyre always the biggest dumbest stretches ever and they ignore their actual development and pretend it didnt happen #it just makes me wonder why people are so okay with making fun of that ship but get mad if anyone even dislikes theirs #and then they complain about people 'shitting on their opinion'#LIKE ?? NOBODY CARES THAT U HATE THE SHIP. I CERTAINLY DONT GAF.#but ur in the main tags advertising ur hatred for it and sounding stupid as shit for no reason? UR SHITTING ON PEOPLES SHIP ON PURPOSE #AND THEN GETTING MAD AT ANYONE WHO EVEN SAYS 'i disagree actually' IM LAUGHING SO HARD STOP IM KILLING MYSELF #the one time i ever talked in that much detail about why i disliked a ship was bevause somebody specifically asked me #and yk what ?? i have literally gotten death threats over it. im not allowed to hate that ship but everyone else can do whatever i guess #okay sorry. rant over.#is that controversial i cant tell. i dont really care and im not tagging anyway #meows post

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dennisboobs · 1 year

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It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia

↳ Dennis + grabbing / squeezing his fingers

#iasip #it's always sunny in philadelphia #dennis reynolds #autistic dennis reynolds #ada's gifs #ada speaks #self soothing dennis my beloved #its always squeezing. always.#whether it's fingertips or knuckles or his palms #the more manic and uncomfortable he is the more aggressively he massages.#i think it says a lot that half of these were so predictably occurring i went straight to find them and wasn't disappointed #this is basically his default for when he's nervous or uncomfortable or upset. unless he's holding a beer or something else in his hands #anger/rage tends to have him doing more bombastic hand gestures or putting his hands on his hips defiantly #this hand wringing though. he's hunching. making himself smaller. effectively displaying an instinctual weakness while trying to soothe #he does the hand flapping a lot in nightman cometh too when he's dealing with his stage fright #i know there are a shitton more but if i sit on this any longer i will drive myself insane.#dennisisms

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lunarharp · 7 months

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"Found out" set in kind of a made-up chapter where the girls are in trouble, or something.

#witch hat tag #orufrey #i hate having a strong cinematic image in your mind for months..working hours on it..& at the end looking you have to be like “Sure. :/"#i'm especially unsatisfied with the beginning and the end and how i can't get eyebrows to work as i want #but i dont care any more... this is probably the comic that has given me the most trouble ever i just dont care #i barely even care whatsoever if anyone even sees this..Ugh..but at least i can move on to the next era now #i'm just annoyed i cant get out good enough my image of qifrey flinching bc he thinks oru will hit him but then he is not hit #i feel like sensei will do something along these lines. i want to see what she will do.#there are also other variations i have in my mind. i just want to know #i just don't want it to happen with qifrey on his deathbed or something. but it possibly will. I DONT EVEN KNOW.#i have another very cinematic image in my mind for something sort of along those lines which i will do soon. it never ends...#btw after this is probably my fics. yeah.... i think it has to be my fics. jasmine sort of goes along these lines #i need that space for dialogue. look - i'm a writer. this is HARD for me. so i am really glad i had the space and freedom of words #to process all the feelings. but i tried to get something out in a quick visual space too. <- me defending myself to myself at cai court #anyway going along the lines of 'Jasmine' - they talk this out and argue and cry and oru pushes the hat at him and tells him #why not just erase every memory i have of you then. That would be easier for us all wouldn't it?#they kiss and sob and kiss and lie outside in the flowers for many hours in that one. and then there's 'Deep End' where it turns out #way way way way more time and words is needed for this actually and that's upsetting for everyone.#the destruction of the hat is certainly another path to take. Can you make this work without that hat going up in flames?#something you have always had and have been clinging to will have to be destroyed. You have to lose something now. This is the crux qifrey #I CANT GET IT OUT IN ONE COMIC!!! I CANT DRAW IT OUT!!!! I NEEDED THOSE FICS!!!! PRAISE WORDS!!!! whatever im going to have dinner now

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oysters-aint-for-me · 7 months

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i will always love bojack horseman for having diane nguyen visibly gain weight after taking antidepressants and having her take them anyway and be better for it

#tw weight gain #seriously she's the only thing making me feel ok abt the weight gain right now #except she didn't have to buy a whole new wardrobe DX #i feel like a bad person for being upset that i'm gaining weight on these new meds. it shouldn't matter! but i guess it's always weird when #your body changes drastically in a short amount of time #so i'm trying to forgive myself

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deoidesign · 6 months

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I'm sorry if what I say is wrong in any way, I don't mean to offend you, it's just something I'm not completely sure about. Does Adam use he/they or they/them pronouns? I think I saw a post of yours where you said that Adam uses he/they, but it was a while ago and now I'm not completely sure (and I don't want to use the wrong pronouns)

I know you don't mean anything by it, but I am sad that so many of the asks I get start with people saying "I'm sorry, I don't want to offend you" or some variation thereof, followed by completely normal questions. I think I may have been responding too harshly to too many things and given the impression that I'll jump at people for being wrong...

But asking clarifying questions is always okay. I mean, it's also okay to be wrong and even offensive. What matters is if you learn from it when someone points out that it was wrong or offensive. I won't stop telling people they're saying something hurtful if they are, but I don't want that to lead people to be scared of me or something.

Correcting people is always just about correcting them, not hurting them. It's okay to need to be corrected, were all learning new things every day.

Anyways Adam uses he/they, you remembered correctly

#i dont like when people pry about personal things #especially not when it's accusatory. I'm admittedly sensitive to a lifetime of people denying my identity #people saying i dont count as bi. or nonbinary. or disabled.#and so i tend to take questions around these as people trying to 'sus me out' as a fake or something...#and I'm always going to try to explain. generally gently... how these things are hurtful to me personally #or in the case of my characters how certain things can (in my opinion) be harmful mindsets to have #but i dont carry them with me and im not mad #im just 26 and kinda tired of making myself small to make other people more comfortable.#so. if im uncomfortable ill just say jt!#and ill do my best to explain why so people can maybe learn from it #but as someone who. i talked about this recently elsewhere. as someone who has anger management issues #and unfortunately has had to deal with people i care deeply about being scared of me...#it just makes me sad to see anons being scared of me.#that's all #im not upset or anything. just trying to be a better person.#I'm learning everyday too #asks #anon

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savage-rhi · 2 months

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Magenta 😥

#imposter syndrome is bad today #anyone have tips or words of encouragement?#i got triggered by the scores on the platform #im at a 96 which isn't bad that's actually pretty fucking good #i need to stay above 85% to keep my contract #but i checked to see what areas that dipped and one of them I'm kinda going wtf?#about maintaining boundaries #im really huge on that shit and always let people know if they get uncomfortable with a topic subject or need to change the convo #we absolutely can always do that #so im kinda sitting here going “Okay where can i improve? where is this coming from? were they having a bad day? did i say something off?”#i know too you can't appease everyone and there are some clients that just won't like you for whatever reason and will answer the surveys to #dip your scores cause of resentment #logically i know these are things #im struggling with not having closure cause if i am doing anything wrong i want to correct that and i want to be told what it is #cause i can't change unless im given some direction #my mentor encouraged me to be myself show up authentic and I've been doing that #seeing the dip is making me second guess everything #and i know i shouldn't be upset cause again im at a 96 fucking percent!#but man I'm just kicking my own ass #magenta #magenta is my vent word

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bunnihearted · 2 months

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i cant fully control my emotions during a breakdown and then i come out of it and im like oh fuck........ ._.

#bpd #like i dont mean to hurt anyone else with having my breakdown on my vent blog on tumblr...#like the stuff i say isnt aimed at anyone in particular #and it's abt MY feelings which are so confusing i get a headache #my thoughts is my enemy and im such a broken and confused little girl inside fr T-T #but like yeah im sorry for upsetting ppl???#but really i feel so suffocated bc im constantly terrified of saying smth that will upset this or that person #or reblogging the wrong thing and making someone im attached to hate me #like idk.... genuinely my blog is supposed to be a vessel? a tool? smth for me to be able to put my emotions and thoughts down #and try to make sense of them. even when i cant. it really only concerns me. i dont mean to attack or hurt anyone else :/#but i mean i really shouldnt and i shouldve learned this lesson so long ago....#being confused and broken and mentally ill and not knowing or understanding things and being messy and #saying the wrong things or phrasing it incorrectly or anything like that #or like sometimes i have one thought tied to a certain emotion but it's only there in that moment #like when i feel so lonely i could die.. yes i do have kidnapping fantasies. bc i dont.: whatever i dont owe anyone a psychoanalys of mysel #but that doesnt mean i want want to be kidnapped by a stranger who doesnt care abt me... i know that would be awful and traumatizing and no #what i *want*. bc what i desire is love #but like i feel so much pain and just venting abt it or reblogging a post helps me solidify my overwhelming emotions #idk what to say like..... ☹️☹️☹️☹️#i cant even fucking blog or do tumblr right im worthless. and yeah i know i have a victim complex.. sorry 🥲#hmmm. yeah idk what to say like when i have breakdowns i have to get myself thru them without any support #and i dont mean that to attack anyone else.: we're all alone i know.#but idk how to deal w it so i just type it out. its not to attack anyone else its to try to make sense of my emptions i dont understand ☹️#anyway.. maybe i should just accept that im too fucked up and too contradictory for anyone to actually like me #there will always be smth that will make everyone not like me anymore. thats that.#thank u for the time u do give me tho i always appreciate thay #and im sorry i really truly dont want to hurt anyone else #i just dont have .. idk it doesnt matter im sorry for what its worth and if anyone even reads this #i hope not bc i dont want anyone to perceive me and stuff like i dont wanna exist to anyone #and im not on tumblr or post stuff for attention. im just in pain and have nowehrre to put it. im sorry if im lashinf out and hurting other

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slutdge · 8 months

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Not to get deep here or anything but i really think i dont want to have a relationship with my sister anymore and ive been reflecting on that a lot. like sure she didnt abuse me or really do anything to directly traumatize me, but she voted against me having human rights because im queer, as well as voting for a party that wants to harm first nations people despite both of us being first nations i just.... i dont think i can forgive her for that. weve had laughs and good times together but i find myself unable to forgive her for her politics. i wouldn't tolerate bigotry from anyone else, i shouldnt tolerate it from someone just cause theyre family.

#can anyone provide me guidance on this? ill bring it up with my therapist but i dont see her for another week #anyways im making myself cry late at night whats new lol ive been processing a lot this week #ok eta: and theyll always make you feel bad for this!!!!!#theyll be like ''ok so everyone has to bend to your commie regime to have a relationship with you 🙄''#like yeah actually you do #if you really loved me like you claim to you wouldnt be FUCKING VOTING FOR THE PEOPLE WHO WANT TO TAKE MY RIGHTS AWAY #yes you do have to respect my rights if you want to have a relationship with me that is completely reasonable #whats ACTUALLY unreasonable is you asking me to ''just get over'' the fact that yall support people who think i shouldnt have human rights #right wingers will try to gaslight you into believing basic human decency is an unattainable and torturous request #then when you get upset theyll be like ''god the left is so emotional 🙄''#like yeah. i am. and you should be emotional too about human rights violations. the fact that youre not is pure evil.#anyways ill go cry myself to sleep like a faggot now #it just breaks my heart that i dont have any immediate family members who dont blatantly hate me for being queer/first nations

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brainfilehasstoppedworking · 1 month

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Amy Rose, I love you. You're just like me. They could never make me hate you 🫶🫶

#sam's talky talks #She's the one of the many female characters I feel incredibly comfortable with being relatable to #Like. With how I feel sometimes kinda #She feels like a sorta representation of my feminine side and all the girly things I enjoy #And her emotions and things remind me of myself in some ways #And I've grown to admire her #That she is who she is. A kind person with so much passion and love #She's who I wanna be ya know #She's who I feel close to compared to all of the Sonic characters #She's always been one of my favorite characters. There was a period of time where I hated girly characters–#–but I always loved Amy in some ways or another pertaining to being my favorite character #There is so much to her character that I believe people forget and it upsets me #Anyways. I love Amy Rose she's always gonna be my favorite character #Nobody. And I mean nobody. Could make me hate her no matter how shit they write her #Just rambling in the tags don't mind meeeeee #amy rose

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taakitz · 5 months

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sorry this is random as fuck but. does any1 have any advice (or reading recs) for drawing with less expectations/pressure on yourself? like. advice on how to just enjoying the act of making art vs. drawing with the final product in mind?? how do i enjoy art again.

#i haven’t drawn in a month maybe two #i just get so Scared (for lack of a better word) over something i should Enjoy #i have been talking to my therapist about this and it helps for suresies but i feel i need insight from ppl who have Been Thru This #being an artist is such an integral part of my identity and i hate that i’ve put all of these expectations onto myself cause of it ):#i don’t know how to love making art if the art isn’t a perfect finished piece.#i know people always say ‘make bad art!!!!!’ but i don’t know how to learn to enjoy making bad art?#and i can’t slog through smth i don’t enjoy at least a little (adhd)#and i just. i want to love making art again.#like when i was in elementary and middle school just drawing in a lined notebook no expectations just drawin pokemon and animals #idk. i’m not that upset i just needed to get these thoughts out before i go to work #‘i’m not that upset’ (<<< he is lying)

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mellotronmkll · 29 days

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I need to stop having one weird reaction with someone and then letting the anxiety decide in my head that the friendship is doomed because I ruined it like it's my absolute worst trait and I just have to move past it but it's hard

#i have to operate under the assumption that if people have an issue they will tell me but unfortunately this isnt true .#and it has happened to me in the past that i thought everything was ok because people were giving signals i wasnt picking up on #due to the autism so now im paranoid and constantly looking for signs i did something wrong and people are mad #and then i find them where they arent there which perversely does more to ruin a friendship than almost anything else #like the constant Are you mad at me... so i try to force myself not to do that and just #try to again assume that people arent however. im so worried about being blindsided Also of course i naturally dont want to make people #upset so if i am doing something wrong i want to change my behavior. however the fact its nuanced like #where you have to only do that a little bit and then take people at their word most of the time #fucking sucks like you actually are required in relationships to read peoples unspoken signals but you cant do that Too much #and if you misinterpet them its bad... but you cant ask for feedback too much because thats bad too. IT DOES MY HEAD IN actually like #it makes it so hard for me to interact with people because im just worried All of the time . and i have to be constantly like #ok check the facts and adjust behavior. check the facts and adjust behavior. make sure the facts are facts and not jumping to conclusions.#ok how do i do that . ok when do i ask directly. also people dont always tell the truth when you Do ask directly .#and then this is why my whole life i have mostly kept to myself and im trying to stop doing that but its hard because talking to others is a #puzzle for me that stresses me out more than anything else. man this sucksssssss can i just BE NORMAL!!!!!!#i know like Everyone has this problem its a common issue with relationships Communication but it feels especislly difficult for me .i #like cant fathom how other people manage very large numbers of friendships like even being able to count my close friends #on one hand i feel like im barely managing everything and im letting everyone down constantly but again i think thatsnonly my perception/#worry and not even true. god

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seventh-district · 4 months

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not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go

(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)

#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill #well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst #like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc.#so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made #bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you #but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings #and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste #there's no accounting for several things actually. taste‚ bias‚ lore-knowledge‚ differing levels of chronic-online-ness‚ etc #so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously)#but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything #if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is #which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose #anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate.#and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic!#if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it.#like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages #or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing #i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know #it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess #as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence #the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education #i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i said‚ being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is-#writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl-#will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneck™ stereotype #sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen #there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions #like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of-#'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity #like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem #but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.

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dreamwinged · 1 month

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i need to stop trying to be so hyperaware of if im hurting others to the point that i hurt myself by making myself smaller and smaller every day

#.mei’s chatter ˚༘⋆ ๋࣭ ࣪ ˖#don’t get me wrong i think it’s great to be thoughtful #but i put myself in such a box all in the name of people pleasing for ppl who will never even know i’m doing it……#u can’t anticipate everyone’s moves and reactions and then be upset when they don’t do the same for u #i know my behavior only breeds resentment and half the time i’m not even right but. sigh #i just want everyone to be happy always but i also don’t want to hate myself or make my own happiness inconsequential ->#<- because im so determined not to disturb anyone else #it’s no way to live . . . 😢

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