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fangaminghell · 6 months ago

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Erin: Hey Flynn-

Flynn: ( jumps a little) O-oh! E-Erin! Hey!

Erin: ..... Actually, nevermind-

Flynn: Oh, no, wait wait wait- d-did you need something,I'm sorry-

Erin: Stop apologizing, you- ( sighs) You're still so jumpy around me. If you don't want to be around me, just say it.

Flynn: N-no! That's- that's not what's going on at all!

Erin: Then what? We've known each other since we were kids-

Flynn: A-and that's what makes it so weird!

Erin: .....What.

Flynn: Y-you can't tell me all of this is weird, right? We- we used t-to just exist a-around each other! W-we never really talked o-or anything or really knew each other and-

Flynn: A-and now we're in this new space where we- we a-aren't the same a-as we used to be you know? E-everything has c-changed so quickly...I'm still reeling....

Erin: .....

Erin: ( turns away) So you want to go back to how things were. Is that what you're saying?

Flynn: .....I don't know. Being brave....is so hard. E-even now but- ( she takes a deep breath) I-I want to be a person who can at least try to be! S-so.....so!

Flynn: ( takes a step toward, taking Erin's hand) I want to get to know you, Erin!

Erin: ?!

Flynn: I-I always thought that- that being your friend was just some far off dream.

Erin: ....You really thought that?

Flynn: Y-yeah! Y-you were always so cool....a-and a little scary but....you were still always there. I-I would imagine t-talking to you, b-but never had the courage too.

Erin: ( shrugs) Eh. No offense, but I doubt I'd let you in, back then ( looks down at her hand in Flynn's) ......You really want to know me?

Flynn: ( nods, eyes brimming with determination) Y-yes!

Erin: .....Heh.( takes Flynn's hand, and grips it a little tighter. She smiles a little) The name's Erin. Nice to meet you.

Flynn: ( smiles with confidence that she thought would never exist) My name is Flynn! I hope we get along well!

#HGVHVGVGVCG HI THIS WAS MADE ON A WHIM #okay context: flynn and erin basically knew each other since they were kids.#as in they were always aware of their presence bc their frequent trips to the library #but they never really talked. like. at all.#flynn was far too shy and erin was honestly pretty closed off.#so they simply existed around each other #and enter the present: they're both different people than who they used to be #and Flynn is still kinda. getting used to that.#of everyone erin is both the person she feels comfortable around.....but also not.#since again they've both changed and Flynn doesn't know what to do #but! the yearning for friendship is still there!#flynn just has to be brave and she is!#okay that's all lol #oc: flynn 🌺#should i main tag this #this is kinda cringe-#.... okay i will for now #pokemon rejuvenation #pokemon rejuvenation erin

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helpallthenamesaretaken · 21 days ago

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i hate how sometimes people make out rachel to be this tragic heartbroken mess. WELL FRIENDLY REMINDER THAT

she was the one who dumped percy in the first place

and the scene after that she said "I don't have to tell you what you have to do now, right?" with the next scene being percy confessing to annabeth

she genuinely CHOSE to be the oracle, if she was really serious about percy she would have not have gone along with the whole thing without being a tiny bit sad about not dating percy

she flat out admitted percy was just a vehicle for her to be involved with the greek world

she is not august by taylor swift. she is not driver's license by olivia rodrigo. she did not care less about percy once he didn't reciprocate pls 😭

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kiisaes · 2 years ago

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u ever just have some time to urself to think about bkdk (ur first mistake, bc u are now spiraling) and how it's the "[A] fell first [B] fell harder" trope and how that's like. more or less canon now. perhaps not romantically but how else are u gonna describe bkg's whole ... thing

#man has realized his feelings for deku and it has changed him so dramatically that he DIED #u know how it goes. deku falls first during childhood where he admires and fawns over bkg from afar #always happy to see him happy and viewing him as the image of victory from the beginning #then shit happens and now bkg is left yearning endlessly upon realizing how his mistakes growing up ruined their friendship #and he doesnt see himself as quite worthy of deku's forgiveness but he tries anyway and he is SADDLED with UNNECESSARY FEELINGS #and then he DIES and literally while he dies he is STILL YEARNING #and for what? TO HOLD DEKU'S HAND????????? 😭😭😭😭😭#these bitches are awful i hate them sm #bakudeku #bkdk #becki rambles about stuff

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napping-sapphic · 1 year ago

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I talk so much about how i want to fall in love for all the things i could do for someone and all the things someone could do for me but deep down, if i’m being honest, i want to fall in love because i just so desperately need to know that love is actually real and that there are people out there capable of truly loving me

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #just like growing up and losing so many relationships #friendship and family relationships all of it #it’s hard to remember that there are people out there who can love you and that that love will stay #regardless of whether or not you can give them something #idk all the love in my life just feels gone and i don’t really think there’s anything i love anymore sometimes #but then i remember the world is big and i should stop worrying so much for now #i dont know my life is a mess lately #and it’s 5 am and i haven’t slept #and im still grieving things #and hope and patience are so hard sometimes #and there’s something about the ugly side of the whole idea of ‘yearning’ that i think about a lot #because so much of my yearning ISN’T pretty or wistful #it’s achingly desperate and lonely and uncertain #i dont know #i dont know if any of this is worded right #or if it’s all nonsense and i should just be quiet and go to sleep #idk

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amadelii · 3 months ago

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In another world--

That one scene from Pride (tee hee) and Prejudice but its um... Them.

More versions under the cut!

I couldn't decide which frame style I liked so here's a bunch!

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hauntingblue · 9 months ago

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making a collection

making another collection with a threatening aura

#davy back fightbpart 3 letsgo #HOW do the three big guns get wasted on the eating contest... horrible plan.... luffy is fine bc well... but not sanji and zoro like damn.#luffy DOESNT WANNA EAT??? CALL THE NAVY!!!!#what was i saying.... bad idea putting the three beasts there #FRANKY FRANKY FRANKY!!!! they captured the two princesses :(#one sided beef squashed between luffy and foxy. friendship ended with random ex marine guy. now luffy is my best friend #usopp and franky bonding time hell yeah. throw usopp by the head once more pelase #nami with zoros swords just like holding them looks so cool like she should get a few swords too... nami three sword style oda drawing pls #i think this man underestimates nami and luffys power together he doesnt know about shiki #luffy saying he knows its a trap and sorry for being late.... lets go on an adventure all nine of us.... usopp yes anding his lie..... omg #cant believe nami isnt there yet. she could take this guy. oh there she is!!!!! she does look cool with the swords and jumping to get luffy #zoro screaming in agony from luffy getting shot omg THIS FUCKING GUY OF COURSE!!! this looks like its so over #zoro and sanji must feel so useless rn. they didnt even get the chance to fight like damn #komei-kakka??? more like come caca. boom #luffy face down dead on the floor akdjkaa chopper have you tried looking at the wound to see if it harmed him idk #it hit the face akdjskn usopp that was coom also #was robin flirting with the other guy and zoro caught her and she told hum to shut up???#'your friends got the best of me but you are still in my arms an-' 'HEAT EGG!! ALSO YOU'RE ON FIRE!'#flare maneauver that was so slay also luffy and nami in the same frame so twins of them. my children. birthed them one right after the othe #zoro and sanji fighting back to back. back to back to back to you i dont wanna fall right back to us maybe you should run right back to her #that is such a bop song. also post wano zosan. and post wci. see the recurrent theme #fighting in water.... being on top of the sword that was a slay... red hawk ace i will never forget you it seems #foxy liking his jolly roger omg nami fooled him ahdhsjs i think they should have pirate game event every year they yearn for contests #now since this experience foxy should make monthly multitudinary pirate games olympics hoping the strawhats join them a la gatsby #the faces at the mushroom akdhaksjs #talking tag #watching one piece #watching one piece movies #kinda loved how robin betted on franky against usopp.... i will take the crumbs

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aroaessidhe · 2 months ago

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2024 reads / storygraph

At The Feet Of The Sun

book 2 in a slow paced high fantasy duology*

the right hand of the emperor (who is off searching for an heir) struggles with what to do after passing on his responsibilities and also discovering various pieces of information that are mindblowing to him, personally,

after adventure is thrust upon him, he travels to find His Radiancy and they go on some otherworldly adventures while growing closer and figuring out the nature of their friendship

(*there’s extra novellas & i think another book coming? duology adjacent, currently,)

#At The Feet Of The Sun #lays of the heart-fire #aroaessidhe 2024 reads #giggling and kicking my feet. and also crying #bro the yearning….the yearning #I can definitely see why this loses people - it’s so long and very self indulgent #(listen. i enjoy it a lot . but does it need to be THAT long (i just checked. 375k? lord))#but it is easy to read and also very funny. it felt less repetitive than the first book to me #I did find it hard to keep track of some of the side characters though #The first world-travelling stuff caught me off guard initially - I feel like all the weird magic was more background in book 1?#or maybe I just didn't pay attention.#taking a step back it is a bit like - kip sure does achieve everything and then some and just continues to achieve everything huh #and it gets to a point where it's like.....okay yes I get he's so talented at this etc etc.#but I guess it’s a nice change of pace from the kingly swordfighting fantasy protagonist who’s perfect and wins everything -#someone whose skill is people and negotiation in a humble way is a bit more interesting. still. it maybe felt less grounded after a while?#the deep exploration of platonic yearning and desire for strong friendship and fear over that person just wanting romance/sex #when that’s Not what you want out of the relationship………#not to mention his complex feelings over meeting two people who were like his platonic soulmate rolemodels #and then finding out they just used that term because gay relationships weren’t accepted and trying to not be disappointed #(because gay is also good!) but also like. so lonely in feeling like nobody understands his desire for a platonic soulmate #to be treated equally as romantic relationships are. oof #I am a little baffled to see people interpret it as a romantic asexual relationship?#I feel like that does such a disservice to the . everything that has been set up in what 600k words of books #like the implication of that is that you think other romantic rships w/o sex are unheard of in this world. I find that hard to believe idk #(I mean - a bit romantic on fitzroy’s end; and in the nebulous queerplatonic area between friendship and romance; sure #but like a straight up romantic relationship just without sex - I don’t understand how it could be interpreted that way lol?)#(anyway other people’s interpretations don’t matter)#I do have questions about the telepathic dinosaur soulmates. you can’t just mention that and now show me them #also. kip being like 'wait there were sirens? i wonder if i can hire them' kshfkjsgkf #asexual books

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glassdilbong · 5 months ago

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I am a mosaic of everyone I have ever met, but the parts of me that come from you will always ache the most

#wlw #lesbian #yearning #homoerotic friendship survivor #I would still drop everything for her now…#I am also very drepressed x

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grimark · 7 days ago

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"i don't even know why i'm crying. why do i keep doing that now?" "i don't know. maybe you're trying to impress me." "yes. probably some devious plan. that sounds about right." "well, the alternative would be much worse. the alternative is that this is for real." god what if i just went and threw my laptop in the creek.

#dw #I'M. SUFFERRRINNNNNNGGGGGGG.#i do love the ambiguity/plausible deniability over whether missy is faking her 'redemption'#and just showing the doctor what she thinks he wants to see #bc like. i do think a lot of it IS calculated but it's still so fucking real when it counts.#it's outright confirmed that she could probably have escaped the vault if she REALLY wanted to #but she's choosing to hang around and indulge this little experiment for her own inscrutable reasons (friendship‚ gay yearning etc)#and that DOES count for something. it's not a lot but it's something!!!#and then in the finale she. well. well‚ in the finale‚ she

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fellhellion · 1 year ago

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The way Touga and Saionji have a measure of closeness and understanding only once Saionji is brought into the fold of Akio’s grooming the way Touga has been this whole time…something something the inherent isolation of abuse

#and they can’t even articulate why. they can’t even acknowledge what’s happening is abuse GOD #they can only yearn for and feel warmth about a past that doesn’t exist #hell for touga one that stopped existing far earlier than it did for Saionji #just. goddddddd.#csa mention #tunes talks utena #all this time Saionji wondered why he can’t bridge the gap between him and touga #why he’s ‘special’ and ‘favoured’ and Saionji isn’t #why he can’t understand Touga anymore (if he ever truly did even as a kid)#and now he does. and now he looks at all of that and despairs - realises he still thinks of touga as a friend #KNOWS deep down the discomfort of what is happening to him (otherwise he wouldn’t be so despairing imo) but there’s nowhere to go #there’s only the place where eternity dwells and the prince and a small taste of true friendship at the end of it all #and a fool who can’t desert it #TWO fools to Saionji if his words @ Utena are any indication

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visdiefje · 1 year ago

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It's so wild and refreshing to me to want to be HERE. In my country. In my general area. Where I am

#for years I've yearned for people from the screens in other countries and always wanted to be elsewhere and it gets hard #especially being left untethered after relationships break or friendships fade #I still have friendships but this is my place right now and whatever I need to find next I have to find it where I am #trying to bond with people locally feels like I'm in school again. super worried it won't work yet so happy when it does #there's an uncertainty to it and it's. different #but also last few times I was with people I didn't feel the need to be on my phone at all save from showing the person something #which is. foreign to me #idk. something is changing and shifting towards what I've been searching for. just a bit #the steps have been small. and are still small. it's like climbing up a spiral staircase #been going on forever. long way come and nowhere near the top #but it's like I just passed a window and noticed the view is really nice out #this was brought to you by: upstairs neighbour woke me up at 4 again #bien rambles

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wlw-venting-blog · 7 months ago

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Unrequired sapphic culture is writing a whole movie script about the horrible homophobic girl who neglected your friendship and never accepted you as gay because you're in love with her and you hate her and- *whisper* wait, that's just me?!

Fuck

#wlw #lesbian #wlw yearning #wlw ramble #wlw blog #this is a wlw post #sapphic #unrequited love #unrequited feelings #tw toxic relationship #tw toxic friendship #toxic friends #for the record: i still love my girlfriend. i just also have very strong feelings for this person who's been in my life forever and #who has hurt me more than anyone else; and like she is an AWFUL person - but she was still my first friend and crush

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jtbb · 2 years ago

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google am i on the aro spectrum or am i just a teenager

#ideal partner: someone i can flirt with and do romantic things with but most importantly we just hang out and talk about our hyperfixations #ik a lot of ppl say that your partner should also be your best friend but idk i just dont want the whole established relationship aspect #boy asks me do u love me and im like hell yeah bro we r good buddies . boy asks are you in love w me and i short circuit #google help i am yearning so bad but i dont want a partner i just want to meet someone my age who i actually enjoy the company of #we can do Romance Things for fun but thats not the point. the point is reblogging each others posts on tumblr #i think this is just a result of my elementary school years being so lonely like i never had a friend for more than a year #and even the friends i did have we were never close at all #the longest real friend ive had and consistently talked to ive still only known for like almost 2 years #which is a lot. for me. but the concept of just . any sort of commitment even just in friendship is still so foreign to me #and yeah it would help if ive ever actually had a serious crush on someone that i was sure wasnt just a hyperfixation #but that hasnt happened yet and idk at what age i should finally just label myself and stop waiting for it to happen

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arsonist-tittyfuck · 11 months ago

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More people need to notice that it isn't always the writing that makes something good but if it can provoke thought

Because holy shit I just read a fic that writing wise I've read better but it got me thinking so much. Like that's now a good fic in my book it got me thinking so much about the character the fic was centered about. The author clearly understood this character and their relationships with the other memebers of casts.

There's parts I wish were excuted differently BUT it wasn't my fic and honestly when I THOUGHT on those things it made sense.

LIKE THAT'S THE THING this fic got me thinking so much. Even with parts I didn't exactly agree on they still provoked a lot of thought

#it was a PMMM fic btw #it was also a crossover #but I'm mainly going over how much this got me thinking about Homura #and for a character so commonly misunderstood by the fandom she was written so good #listen I'm already normally insane about the relationships within the Holy Quintet #but this got me thinking so much about them #especially Homura's yearning to be happy with everyone again but knowing there's too much at stake #the fic takes place in one of the timeline #so I knew #I knew from the start this fic would end FUCKED UP #it did #it ends with a reset and Homura waking up in her hospital bed #but like the fic sets up this sense of hope #like Sayaka doesnt witch out (she still dies but)#Mami lives longer #Mami and Kyoko rekindle their friendship #or at least start to #Madoka hasn't contracted #but then againist Walpurgisnacht everything goes to shit #Mami starts to witch out and Homura has to shoot her #Homura has very complicated thoughts about killing her mentor as previous timelines it's never been her to directly kill her #then Kyoko is slowing dying #and then Madoka contracts #and then reset #there was so much hope #just to be swept under the rug #Homura had hope again in this fic that this would be the final timeline just for everything to fall a part last minute #LIKE I HAVE MORE THOUGHTS BEHIND THIS #but I only have two tags left

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wormtiddies · 2 years ago

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no i dont want to fall in love but yes i want to be someones person. yknow.

#maybe we can kiss platonically but i refuse to fall in love #just give me a qpp TBfuckingH #idk w therapy and w healing im more focused on finding community rather than 'the one' bc i already tried that and that left me w trauma #& also the idea that a lover is going to fix all my problems? not accurate. life wont get better just bc of a lover. it should only add #like the things that i have yearned for in a lover besides the actual like kissing & sex part can be found in friendship #i just need some good friends. good close and true friends which is something im still ultimately searching for #i just want a friend group man :/ people to belong to :/#freys babble

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drifting-knightjar · 16 days ago

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ok but SOMETIMES you will meet somebody who's on the exact same adhd wavelength as you, and you both know what each other's sentences will be without needing to finish them, usually only a couple words in, and you start having all your conversations ping-ponging off each other at light speed, on a whole other level of communication impenetrable to anyone else like

#and sometimes you fall in love with them but theyre in love with someone else #And they start dating and youre at least happy you get to see them happy but then they move away #And youre still friends you still talk every day but you know you cant keep pining for them #So you try to just be friends but it's impossible to unfall for someone you get along with so well who's so beautiful and kind #So you deliberately taper off your replies and lose even their friendship in order to force yourself to move on #and break your own heart and lose your friend for nothing but a vague hope of someone else #But youre terrified that youll never find someone who understands you so well again.#And it's been years now and youre still scared and you so badly want to reconnect as friends #Bc you're lonely and you need friends and you KNOW he'd be so happy to hear from you but you know you'll fall all over again if you do #It's a terrible idea and you won't do it #but in the quiet of the late dark nights you sit with yourself and face the hole left behind and you yearn #Not based on true events.

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