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When You're the Problem: On Accountability and Self-Reflection
Tired of feeling stuck? Itâs time to face the truth and unlock real growth through accountability and self-reflection. Letâs get real together. #SelfGrowth #Accountability #RealTalk
Explore how accountability and self-reflection can lead to personal growth, stronger connections, and greater self-confidence. Uncover practical steps and methods to face your fears and transform your life. Iâll admit it proudly: Iâm a Swiftie. Unless youâre living under a rock, youâve probably heard the anthem of accountability and self-reflection: Anti-Hero. Of course, this song isnât exactlyâŚ
#accountability#accountability and growth#accountability practices#authentic self#becoming your best self#behavior change#boundaries#breaking unhealthy patterns#building emotional resilience#building resilience#Building self-confidence#building self-trust#building trust#changing old habits#conflict resolution#confronting emotional patterns#confronting toxic behavior#dealing with self-doubt#developing emotional intelligence#Embracing vulnerability#Emotional awareness#emotional clarity#emotional growth#emotional healing#emotional health#emotional honesty#emotional intelligence#emotional maturity#empowerment#facing your fears
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[OLD ART ALERT] A COLLECTION OF SCENES FROM THE GILLIONS CATSCRATCH ARC THAT BROUGHT ME GREAT JOY. i love fishy chips especially when its just gillion being delirious and violent and hostile
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi riptide#jrwi riptide spoilers#JUST NOTICED A MILLION MISTAKES FUUUUUUUUCK BUT WWHATEVERRRRR IF I STARE AT THIS ANYMORE IM GONNA HHUURRRLLL#SO I REALLY LIKE FISH AND CHIPS RIGHT. IVE BEEN IN LOVE W THE SHIP EVER SINCE THAT NAT 20 KISS#BUT I THINK I SHIP IT WRONG. OR LIKE. I AM CORRECT BUT EVERYONE SHIPS THEM DIFFERENTLY#THE FISH N CHIPS I SEE EVERYWHERE ELSE IS SO FLOWERY AND SWEET AND ROMANTIC. AND THATS NICE! THAT STUFFS NEAT#but gillion and chip would NEVERRRR enter anything similar to a romantic relationship. chips too damaged and gillions too uninterested#I LIKE MY FISH N CHIPS ONE SIDED AS FUCK#bc 2 gillion chip is his best friend in the whole wide world but hes also kinduvagross little man that took him a MINUTE to really warm up2#but to CHIP gillion is this powerful and gorgeous and heroic paragon of destiny and his best friend in the whole world who will#bring about the eschaton. 'i didnt believe in destiny until i met you' until i met a champion radiating with a light thatll alter the world#OHH REMEMBER THE FIRST ICE ARENA?he was so mad.still probably shaking from the ordeal.NEVER had he felt true divine radiance CLEAVE through#his SOUL like that.do you remember that moment in the forest w the bugs. an alien from the ocean; lacerating the land w lightning#when the realization flickered in chip for a moment.that the thing standing before him was more powerful than he could ever fathom#remember when grizz mentioned that the nat20 kiss was the 'best kiss chip ever experienced'. that has nothing to do w this. where was i.#LOST MY TRAIN OF THOUGHT. BUT HEY. I THINK at the beginning chip absolutely knew that gill was smth grand n powerful n scary#when gillion revealed what exactly the prophecy was;chip got defensive and mad.sure he was sleep deprived but OOH. HES SCARED!#he believes gillion too! he believes that his destiny is to eradicate either the sea or land and that scares him!#but then he gets past it bc ultimately he trusts his bestfriend gillion so so much. he fuckin loves this dude.#he would throw himself intothe path of fire for this dude. he would boat across the ocean for this dude.he would build arenas for this dude#even if this dude will end half the world.even if this dude wields the power and the obligation to eradicate him at any second.#even if this dude is going to throw himself into harms way for his own comrades.even if this dude is just going to sacrifice himself.#one way or another one shall die for the other.these self-sacrificial bastards click so well with eachother!!#chip believes his body is best used to pave roads and gill believes his body is destined to pave prosperity.WHATEVER!!#i really love their dynamic!! they care for eachother so much!in MY heart tho. the icing on the cake here is the fantasy that chip is#just a bit more In Love w gillion than he realizes. like this powerful fish guy is HOT and PRETTY and KIND and FUNNY and LOYAL and STRONG#but gillion would never rly feel that same sort of attraction towards chip. its just not rly his thing. aroace as fuck man.#thats how it is in MY little heart atleast. and i sit here and play w my touys in my brain n i explore my silly lil one sided fish y chips.
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Iâm dead serious when I say keep the promises you make to yourself (and others) and you will transform. It builds self esteem like nothing else, but will also massively accelerate your life too. If you canât be sure youâll follow through, stop telling yourself youâll start the exercise, pick up that hobby, make that call. Be honest with yourself. Your self esteem degrades every single time you donât follow through. Your relationships tarnish every single time you donât follow through. If you make that promise Iâm sorry but you have to push yourself (within reason) to follow through. Not everything is about being comfortable at all times. Itâs okay if you have to take a bit of time after to recover from exertion. You will build character. If you only stick to one piece of self improvement advice, make it this one. Iâm dead serious!!!!!!!!!
#what I wish I knew earlier: majority of issues is from LOW SELF ESTEEM#women are made to believe low self esteem is just not liking your looks#but itâs SO MUCH MORE#if you build that foundation you will start to thrive#and OBVIOUSLY Iâm not talking about pushing yourself to negative health consequences like Iâm trusting you to take this in good faith
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Hey, I have a new radical idea!
How about we just...not be shitty to people online.
WHAT?? you might say, BUT WHAT IF I HATE THEM OR SOMETHING THEY SAID??
Then mute or block them. Report it if it's reportable.
Life is tough enough. Being shitty online is such a waste of time.
HOW WILL THEY KNOW THEY'RE WRONG you ask
Okay, A. You don't have to be shitty to tell them that. and
B. When in the history of EVER has ANYONE convinced you you're wrong by dogpiling you with shitty comments. And has it in fact made you upset enough that you don't wanna listen anymore?
Yeah.
Also, the internet loves being nasty for fun now, it's a game to find The Worst Person Online and Show them What For. Because then you've won and the World Is a Better Place.
So in a dogpile, how long you think someone's gonna play "is this person doing this in good or bad faith?" NOT FUCKING LONG
So what does being shitty really do? Make you feel better that you can't change the real problems in life? Make you feel powerful? And at what point does being shitty become your entire personality?
We know engagement is what the REAL nasties crave, the ones we DO fight.
So, block. Mute.
"so you're saying I can NEVER HATE ANYONE EVER" GOLLY no.
Hate who ever you want! Plenty of people to hate. On board with the orcas on that one. (or overboard :P)
You can be shitty about ppl in your own spaces, whateves. I'm just saying, ppl being less shitty to each other online might be nice.
And if you really wanna be shitty to the people where it counts, fight for your local libraries. Get on local councils and stand up for what's right.
There are places to direct your anger and your shittiness. And it's wasted on Frank who made a Media thing that you don't like.
Okay? Okay.
#this got longer than intended#so I put my main point and then read more for ppl who wanna#and for ppl who are gonna SO YOU'RE SAYING I CAN EVER BE SHITTY#let's just try this#for like a year#see what happens#block and muuuuute build your spaaaace#your mental health will thank you#TRUST ME#I think everyone's 20's are filled with feeling self righteous about stuff and lemme tell you#it's so much easier when you use that on important stuff
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People still being convinced that the Alicent-Rhaenyra feud was because Alicent was jealous/upset that Rhaenyra had sex makes my head hurt, honestly.
Alicent confronted Rhaenyra about the brothel because she was concerned about Rhaenyra and her position. One of their first scenes in Episode 1 was literally a precursor to the Episode 4 scene; Rhaenyra is rather flippant about her political position, not as visibly concerned as Alicent thinks she should be, whilst Alicent is visibly concerned and frustrated that Rhaenyra isn't as engaged or serious about it. It's literally copy-and-paste in terms of the same general mannerisms.
Alicent isn't frustrated or pissed that Rhaenyra had sex. She's aware of the way politics work and the prejudice and consequences that could come from what is rumoured about Rhaenyra. And she goes directly to Rhaenyra to find out the truth and to help her (she even says "I only want to help you").
I also think people forget how the confrontation ended. Rhaenyra and Alicent come to a resolve the problem and Alicent believes Rhaenyra's side of it. Heck, Alicent even verbally emphasises what we were meant to pick up - that it's about the politically ramifications of a princess being seen in a brothel being sexual with her uncle.
And the "green dress moment" is a consequence of several factors.
One, the obvious is that Rhaenyra did not tell Alicent the entire truth and the person she slept with was Criston, not Daemon. Keep in mind that Criston is a member of the Kingsguard, sworn to chastity. Two, the consequences of believing Rhaenyra were pretty steep for Alicent. Her father lost his job inadvertently because of Alicent, meaning that she is pretty much entirely alone at court.
Three, it's a matter of trust and vulnerability. Alicent cared about Rhaenyra enough to go to her and try to get the truth and to help her. She trusted what Rhaenyra said and expressed this to Viserys, taking Rhaenyra's side even when Viserys doubted Rhaenyra. And then it turns out that Rhaenyra was not telling the whole truth and that Viserys also went behind Alicent's back because he believed Rhaenyra did do something.
With her father gone, Alicent is well and truly isolated, especially since she now perceives that she cannot fully trust Rhaenyra or Viserys not to keep things from her or go behind her back.
I think it's also necessary to consider Criston. A member of the Kingsguard who broke his vows with the Princess, showing once again that Rhaenyra is rather unconcerned about the rules and laws of the land and court. I think also the fact that Criston told her the truth but Rhaenyra, someone she trusted and perceived to be a friend, did not.
All of this combined with Otto reminding her of the brutal realities of feudalism no doubt triggered anxieties for Alicent. She has children to think about now and those she thought she could trust are no longer completely trustworthy.
The "green dress" moment is a moment of strength and independence and defiance for Alicent, and a way for her to carve out an identity for herself. Alicent is politically-conscious and she knows she needs support, which is why she turns to the Hightowers in a symbolic and defiant display.
It's not about Alicent being jealous about Rhaenyra having sex or about Alicent being a raving misogynistic "tradwife". It's about trust and politics and Alicent building up a defence to protect herself and her children against any potential threat.
#hotd#house of the dragon#alicent hightower#rhaenyra targaryen#otto hightower#viserys i targaryen#alicent waging war because nyra had sex once is very sapphic of her but also a very silly take if we're being serious lol#& i think it totally misinterprets Alicent's character honestly#Alicent is concerned with the safety of her kids as well as self-preservation at this point in time (post timeskip too but most esp here)#she's building herself an invisible fortress to protect herself and her kids#& she feels a necessity to do so because she can't fully trust that Rhaenyra and Viserys would protect her & the kids
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Beneath the Surface Chapter 23: RECONCILIATION
In which Severus finally has THE talk with Minerva, and things are cleared up so he can move forward!
But this wasnât the Minerva heâd knownâthe one quick with a sly remark or an indulgent eye-roll. Now, there was a measured reserve, a subtle distance he couldnât ignore, as though recent events had carved out a side of her heâd rarely seen, and even less often been subject to.
He gripped the armrest tighter, willing himself to remain steady. But beneath his composure, there was only the old fearâthat all heâd done would be twisted and discarded, just as he had been so many times before.
âI am⌠sorry, MinervaâŚâ
He lowered his gaze, swallowing as he tried to go past the lump in his throat. He looked down at his lap, trying to form the words he so needed to say.Â
âI⌠I donât know what to say, other than I am sorry⌠for everything,â he rasped, each word pulled from him like stones sinking in the Black Lake.
There was a beat of silence between them, Severus resisted the urge to raise his gaze.Â
âYou know,â Minerva began, her voice softened, almost hesitant, âI donât know what I expected from you.â Her gaze held a mixture of disappointment and something elseâwas it concern?âbefore the edge returned to her voice. âBut this⌠what happened last year was not it. And Iâm sorry, Severus, but apologies canât undo everything.â
He heard her chair shift, and though he didnât look up, he sensed her moving around the desk to sit beside him. Silence fell, heavy and sharp between them, as Minerva's gaze bore into him, unwavering.
âTell me, then, what exactly are you apologizing for? For lying to me all that time? For making me think Iâd lost a friend to Voldemortâs influence?â
Her words were firm, though her voice softened briefly before she caught herself, and he could hear the faint, familiar gruffness of her Scottish accent slipping through. His fingers dug into his robes, gripping the fabric to anchor himself against the ache rising in his chest.
âOr,â she continued, her tone sharpening again, âfor killing someone I cared about deeply, making us all believe youâd done it out of loyalty to Voldemort? For making me mourn him, all the while thinking youâd betrayed us?â
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#fic BENEATH THE SURFACE#self rec#fanfic#severus snape#harry potter#snarry#snape#pro snape#fanfiction#forced magical bonding#fanfiction writer#fic writer#fanfic writer#severus snape fandom#snape fandom#pro severus snape#severus snape community#snapedom#severus x harry#harry x severus#snarry slowburn#slowburn#trust issues#abandonment issues#Beneath The Surface#slow build#survivor's guilt#war#memelovescaps fic#memelovescaps
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More notes for Roach conlanging. Roach has grammatical gender, in which only Male, Female, and Object are grammatical genders, whereas Worker uses feminine grammar, Queen and King use a slight variant on feminine grammar, and Drone, and Queen-Alate use masculine grammar. This is because King is derived from Queen, due to their similar positions in a colony, and Queen-Alate is derived from Drone, as both are forms of alate.
Queen is an alteration of feminine grammar that functionally just adds a handful of extra syllables to it, and King is an offsprout of Queen that uses the same grammar with different pronouns. Queen-Alate, despite the name, is derived from Drone, as they are both for referring to different types of alate ant.
Most Roach dialects are intelligible to speakers of Snakemouth Den Cordyceps Roach, but Snakemouth Den Cordyceps Roach is not entirely intelligable to speakers of Roach dialects due to a mix of the excessively specialized vocabulary caused by the specific needs of its speakers, the fact that its speakers do not necessarily have Roach mouthparts and thus may not pronounce syllables in a similar way, and due to the fact that Inanimate Object is a full grammatical gender that does not exist in any other dialect of roach and replaces a decent chunk of terminology for things that previously had Other Words For Them.
#we speak#conlang#bug fables#please excuse us if we're mangling the terminology here btw. we cannot for the life of us remember the proper terms for half of this#and every time we try to google things it winds up turning up nothing#probably because we're googling shit like âthe term for the thing where self reference is different if youre a guy or a girlâ#and like. âpart of speech that you use to refer to other people that isnt pronouns or a name that has title associationsâ#if we reread some textbooks we will probably remember but unfortunately these are not our textbook reference posts#they are our âwhat if we told you about the cool ways that we did grammar in hereâ post#god we love grammatical grammar (<guy who doesn't have a strong enough sense of gender to remember der and die properly)#(because we are the specific type of speaker where we're half operating based on what Feels Right with the word and we are)#(so fucking bad at remembering how gendering words is meant to go)#(the secret reason we hate phonetics is because we have to contend with both figuring out how mouthparts would work and like)#(Working Out A Reasonable Collection Of Sounds To Have In Our Language. which means we have to actually like. name things)#(cruel and unusual that we have to make actual words rather than loosely tossing building blocks on the floor. honestly.)#anyways snakemouth den roach is one of those dialects where it's on the verge of becoming a language on its own#where it's very debatable on if it's Actually A New Language or just a very specific dialect of an old one because. well. boxes#picture it as like. trying to speak to someone who you Think is speaking french but they have an extremely thick regional accent#and they keep using like ten-syllable words that you probably don't know but that seem to refer to things that could be referred to#way more concisely?#and also rather than just le and la they have added an entire new lu to the mix and you are unclear if its the accent or a new word entirel#(note: we are not a specialist on french as we primarily know it in the âwe've been around it long enough to vaguely know what's being said#way and are not currently caught up enough on whatever they have going on to know about any major grammar stuff going on over there)#(but we are terrible enough with remembering the grammar of the german that we do speak that we do not trust ourself to not be Worse there)
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"The Power of Small Steps: Start Your Journey Today"
"Every big achievement starts with a single small step. Todayâs small actions can create tomorrowâs giant leaps toward success. Discover the importance of beginnings and how consistency transforms dreams into reality."
"Take that small step todayâembrace the journey and watch it lead to extraordinary results!"
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#inspiration#motivational#inspirational#motivating quotes#quotes#inspiring quotes#inspirational quotes#motivation#success#quote#personal growth#small steps#achieving goals#beginnings#transformation#giant leaps#trust the process#start today#take action#future success#power of beginnings#motivational steps#habit building#self-improvement#forward motion#perseverance#mindset#daily improvement#belief in success
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this is so insanely rushed but i desperately need people to see my vision. the witch and his vigilante boyfriend augugkg its consuming me whole LOOK AT THEM !!!!
#witchwebs#i will make that a thing. trust#teen agatha all along#peter parker#spiderman#agatha all along#building this ship from the ground up singlehandedly#rarepair#marvel fanart#peter parker fanart#spiderman fanart#this is far too self indulgent i fear
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i'm a gay trans guy with a few gal kins and f/os and i love transgenderifying them and making us t4t <33 MOONY JOEL G IS TRANSMASC AND GAY FOR ME!!!! HE TOLD ME HIMSELF
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#THAT'S LITERALLY SO REAL#Dream BBQ has a whole sequence where Moony stares into the camera and says he's transmasc and is SO gay for you like#trust me I got an early build guys -đâď¸ (JUMPSCARE!! JUMPSCARE!! /J)#self ship#self shipping community#selfshipping community#selfship#self shipper#self shipping#self ship community#selfship community#f/o#f/os#âď¸đ¸ anon#geomentric guitar anon
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Been rewatching chapter 4 of SDRA2, and im
#time diary(?)#audrey/kellie's time diary#im not okay (maybe the whole entire reason why on how it also builds on yuki and shinji's relationship is because#the chapter complients shinjis character; and how he (if i remember correctly) promised someone. thats the reason for the necklace#that he has. and since from the prologue- shinji has mentally adopted yuki as a 'little brother' in a way to mentor him#about gaining confidence; to trust one self. to be better. to trust more gut feeling then to trust mood swings#and so like. i dont know if this makes any sense at all.... just rambling . cuz i love shinyuki a lot. i love their brothership)#sdra2#super danganronpa another 2#yuki maeda#shinji kasai#sdra2 yuki maeda#sdra2 shinji kasai
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Unraveling Madness: San's Dark Secrets Pt. 2
Summary: You're a brilliant psychiatrist, but you were no stranger to internal conflicts. You had accepted the task of treating Choi San, the psychiatric ward's most dangerous patient due to his violent episodes. Despite skepticism from other staff members, you believed that beneath his destructive exterior lay a vulnerable human being, yearning for understanding and acceptance.
Trigger warning: mentions of harming others, self harm, trauma
Teaser | Master list | Part 3
As Dr. Y/n entered the therapy room, she noticed Choi San sitting in one of the armchairs, his gaze fixed on the door. The air was heavy with anticipation, and she knew that today would be different. She closed the door behind her, the sound echoing through the room like a silent declaration of intent.
"Today, we're going to talk about something new," she began, taking a seat opposite him. "We're going to explore your past traumas, the events that shaped you into the person you are today."
Choi San stared at her, his face a stoic mask hiding his innermost feelings. "Why do you care so much? Everyone else has given up on me. Why should you be any different?"
Dr. Y/n paused, considering her response carefully. "Because I believe there's more to you than just the violence. I see a complex individual struggling to cope with their past." She paused, allowing her words to sink in. "It's my hope that together, we can uncover the root causes of your pain and find a way to heal them."
Choi San studied her carefully, his expression guarded but hinting at vulnerability. "You really think you can make a difference?" He asked quietly, his voice barely audible.
"Yes," she replied firmly, her resolve unwavering.
"I truly believe that we can make a difference in your life. But it all depends on you â whether you're willing to trust me enough to share your deepest fears and pains."
Choi San watched her closely, his eyes tracing every subtle movement of her face. There was something in her gaze that resonated within him, stirring long-dormant feelings of connection and understanding. It wasn't pity or sympathy he saw reflected in her eyes, but genuine empathy and a desire to help. And somehow, that small glimmer of hope reassured him that perhaps things could change.
You continued to delve deeper int Choi San's childhood, hoping to uncover more about the root causes of his violent behavior. "What's your relationship with your parents?" You asked him. Choi San hesitated for a moment before describing his father as a strict and demanding man who expected nothing short of perfection from him. "My father would often physically abuse me if I didn't meet his standards, leaving me with bruises and scars" he said looking down, clenching his fists as his voice cracks with emotion.
Despite this, Choi San still felt a sense of loyalty and duty towards his father, as if he were the only one who truly understood him. As the sessions progressed, you began to see a pattern in the way Choi San dealt with his emotions. He would internalize his pain and anger, often taking it out on himself in the form of self-harm. "Instead of harming yourself, let's try a different approach" you added. You decided to approach the subject differently. Instead of focusing on the negative aspects of his past, you encouraged Choi San to express his emotions through art therapy.
You gave him a set of paints, canvas, and other art supplies, and asked him to create something that represented how he felt inside. At first, Choi San was skeptical, but as he began to paint, he found himself pouring all of his anger and sadness onto the canvas. The more he painted, the more cathartic the experience became.
#ateez x reader#choi san#choi san x reader#choi san x you#choi san x y/n#you x choi san#atiny#childhood trauma#violence#self h@rm#trust issues#trauma#building up trust
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Physical media is forever (Patreon)
#Doodles#Helix#Max Vyer#Dexter Favin#Vent#I'm trying to remember the last time I made a fandom vent rather than my sona.... Probably Vargas-something#*continues to project onto Max* He really is just like me fr#Probably pretty obvious what this is in reference to - turned a bit more malicious and intentional here#Something something it's easier to be angry at a source of intention than to be sad about coincidental bad luck#I'm not about to be thankful for a bad thing happening but the fallout thereof Is interesting in its own right#Like how this probably wouldn't have crossed my mind elsewise - nor would I have started and finished it all in one big sprint#Not much else I could do except get some of the feelings Out#Ft. some of the thoughts I had - self arguments to try to minimize(?) the hurt#Especially of just recreating it since so much of it was my thoughts - Max's dreams are just his subconscious right? Haha#But when you build something over the course of years there's these subtle builds that divorce Then from Now#Not to mention whatever stimuli at the time - if Max's life coincided with specific dreams and both are never repeated#One thing that I think about a lot - ironically haha - is that you only get to experience A Thing for the first time Once#You are then forever changed even if just in some small way - an action that can never be unactioned#Even otherwise recreating the perfect set of circumstances just won't produce the same outcome#It all threads into my thoughts on Legacy as well - if what we leave behind ceases to be - if our butterfly wings are blown out#It could happen at any point - posthumously or while we're still here - and how much does that change in the long run?#It's an interestingly depressing thought haha#It's also part of why I double down on art so so so much - a language that cuts to the core of me#Every picture worth 1000 words - hopefully enough to make up for however many lost (I did a rough estimate and it would've been ~380k)#Somewhere in there are the feelings that lost their voice - were big and loud enough to immortalize in graphite on paper#Scanned and uploaded and maybe even downloaded elsewhere in the world - preserved fourfold in a way a single file on a single computer isn't#Even if one is destroyed it's somewhere else; the danger of only having one copy a kind of trust in program or physicality but no guarantee#Thoughts and thoughts and thoughts - also part of why I tag to tag limit so often I want them saved somewhere outside myself#Seems silly to talk about the art too but I have thoughts there as well haha - like of Madame Vyer asking for Dex's lighter#Dex holding Max back - to protect him from the damage while forcing him to confront it cruelty cruelty
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Flower husbands relationship with martyn in 3rd life? Why did they hate him so much? Why did Martyn try to get Jimmy to leave Scott that one time? Why did Scott say him and Martyn were going to sleep together once they were both dead? Many questions that plague me at night
IM STILL ON MY SCOTT 3L REWATCH THE. THAT FOURTH QUESTION???? HELLO???
(^ edit: anon clarified, ask was referring to the âI wanna cuddle together before we dieâ comment from martyn)
#IâLL. KEEP AN EYE OUT FOR A LINE LIKE THAT ON MY REWATCH . because if he said that holy shit. iâll lose it#anyways. martyn trying to split up jimmy and scott in episode 1 is a mix of concern and jealousy imo#jimmy and martyn were near inseparable in evo and this conflict builds from that (martyn directly brings up property police laterâ#in regards to this fight theyre having)#heâs upset jimmy doesnt want to come live with him instead and sees jimmyâs hesitance as a betrayal basically. and it snowballs from there#itâs. deeper than that. but im very tired. but itâs still deeper than that you have to trust me anon#you have to be able to marry the concepts of martyn splitting fh up for his own self interest AND martyn being genuinely concerned for jimm#this is how we will reach enlightenment anon#asks#I realize this is only one part of the question but yeah Iâd need to revisit the rest of this on my rewatch#my original scott 3l notes did not account for martyn
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The Promised Neverland x RC9GN
So, since I am on a temporary break from asks- I decided to go ahead and post some more coherent thoughts on the crossover literally no one except ONE person was interested in (/lh). I didn't expect the post to gain even the slightest bit of traction, so seeing someone with the same type of rotting interest actually made my day-
I actually wanted to focus on what came before Randy had even been born (aka what the deal with 'the Ninja' is because this idea barely makes an ounce of sense), so without much further ado- let's continue!
The First Ninja is meant to parallel William Minerva/James Ratri. He was a descendant of the original founders which had been involved in 'the Promise' and originally he didn't fully question their behavior, it was more so along the lines of "if I pretend everything is fine, I won't have to acknowledge how I feel about it", but as things kind of escalated- he couldn't bring himself to just sit aside and ignore it. At some point, he flat out rebelled (not that anyone was aware of what he'd begun to do-) and was leaving behind evidence to alert the farms orphanages about what was going on.
Now if you've been following my content at all, you know I talk about the Norisu 9 every so often- I like to think they were also involved and contributed in different ways to the first wave of resistance. The First Ninja is still a warrior in this crossover and I like to think he supplied weapons, things that would harm the demons but going against their leader was a lot harder than he thought it would
(The leader who, of course, is the Sorcerer)
Finja fought bravely, but as punishment for his disobedience- he was subject to watching his entire clan die before his eyes. Forced to live with the guilt, he broke off from the resistance (at least that was the agreement- he would continue working for the demons until someone else took over his role upon death) and went back to the life he held previously. However unbeknownst to the Sorcerer, Finja had left behind something important: the Nomicon.
A tome that contained tunnels and maps of the Demon World, the key to paradise. It held the bunker with a supply of weapons and arsenal, and everything- Finja had entrusted a demon known as âthe Messengerâ to hand it down, but there was one problem to this plan: who would carry on the mantle?
A decision was made for it to be left in the least likely of locations: one of the farms.
The Messenger had unique powers- allowing them to find the next âNinjaâ, someone who possessed specific traits and could carry on what Finja had started. Years came to pass, each with varying levels of success (a few managed to cause a new wave of resistance, one unfortunate kid got adopted- and the rest, well, who knows what became of them). First Ninjaâs name was forgotten over the years and the book would continue to be handed down.
The First Ninja is bound to the book- whether this makes in the original Promised Neverland canon is irrelevant, because well, I make the rules (/lh). I like to think he has the ability to communicate with the current holder of the book, but unlike the RC9GN canon- things work a little differently.
He communicates with the current âNinjaâ via dreams- sending ominous signs and continuing to hand them lessons but there isnât any âshloompingâ into the Nomicon. Things just work a little differently, if anything-
The book is eventually left in the hands of Randy, but that is a story for another day.
Finja was left with immense survivorâs guilt- knowing he had failed his siblings, he had failed the children, everyone who wanted the nightmare of the Promise to end. He lost the hope things would ever right themselves. His actions came with unfortunate consequences, and in the years leading up to his death- he isolated himself from everyone. Though his allies attempted to honor his wishes, even if he didnât know about what they had done.
(I might tie Rei Izumi into this, but weâll see-)
His legacy continues and for one particular boy, and the people he cares about, everything is going to change. Sooner than they think.
Written as a partial gift to @thesoundofmadness! Also because I am just fixated on this universe lol, but these are my thoughts for now! More will be dropped eventually, hope you enjoy the rest of your day loves!
#randy cunningham 9th grade ninja#rc9gn#rc9gn crossover#the promised neverland#tpn#the promised neverland crossover#tpn crossover#first ninja#rc9gn first ninja#rc9gn the creep#randy cunningham crossover#the crossover no one asked for#self indulgent#self indulgent shenanigans#norisu 9#norisu clan#angst#this does not have a clear ending right now#there is a lot that is still left to finalize with the promised neverland crossover but trust me youâre in for a wild ride#randy cunningham#finja has a lot of trauma holy shit#he really goes through it in this universe#lore rambles#world building#lore rant#infodump#the first ninja is supposed to be the original william minerva#you are going to hate me so much when this is over but i promise to be nice#well! eventually hahaha#good luck with this
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Thinks about arms outstretched and has to lie facedown on the ground for nine hours again
#taz#taz: balance#itâs NARRATIVELY PERFECT#like yes they hella ignored the mechanics to make it happen but on the pure improvisational level#itâs absolutely fucking NUTS to me what they pulled off in that moment#because in that moment ALL THREE OF THEM set aside their personal fears and self-doubts for the sake of their friends#Magnus who always wanted to go out in a blaze of glory#who has just lost even his revenge quest#fights so DESPERATELY HARD to STAY ALIVE and relies on his friends to rescue him#Taako âgood out hereâ Taaco who throws HIS WHOLE SOUL OUT OF HIS BODY#despite being on the verge of death already he leaves himself utterly defenseless to throw himself into danger for magnusâs sake#merle who has ALWAYS doubted his place in the group and is actively losing his powers#doesnât hesitate and doesnât question his own competence#instead he plants himself and becomes the root that anchors them and brings them home#and because right after this they reunite with Barry and start getting the reveals about the voidfish#this is functionally the climax and culmination of their arc as a trio#they found each other and learned to trust each other again and they became friends who would do anything for each other#even without their memories!!!! they did that!!!!!!!!#what happens after then gets to build onto and around that relationship#so that the finale gives us the trio whose bond has been deepened and multiplied by stolen century#but theyâre still THEM. still the trio we have grown to know and love throughout the whole podcast#bc they have something unshakeable with or without their memories#ARMS OUTSTRETCHED IS A NARRATIVELY PERFECT MOMENT AND I AM NEVER FUCKING OVER IT
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