#btw always welcome to follow me on spotify.

[bbbrianjones]

here are my spotify playlists i think some of you would like

✭ underrated sixties - oh you know your beatles and your rolling stones and your beach boys, but how about something a little different?

✭ dancing with nigel in my living room while listening to our record player, 1979 - we'll bitch about what's on top of the pops but we still watch it and enjoy the music. when it's finished, we then grab out the record player and dance the night away, praying not to wake my parents.

✭ painting a jackson pollock no. 5 with squire - it’s the middle of the afternoon. the sun is trying so hard to peek through the english clouds. me and john are in our garden, soaking up the sun as i'm laying on the grass while he tries to finish his painting. i peer over at his work and say “it looks like a jackson pollock no. 5…"

✭ shopping in carnaby street with mr shampoo - for those time me and brian went on a shopping spree in carnaby and king's st., spending our entire paycheck on velvet, silk and satin…

✭ sunshine music - a very underrated genre. just pure happiness. what's not to love?

✭ songs from tumblr dot com - songs that you'd find rb'ed on bbbrianjones.tumblr.com <3

distant memory - songs that remind me that someday i will only be a memory in someone's mind and they might ask themselves "i wonder what emmi's doing?"

[undeadfvckgirl-base]

Welcome to my spiral into insanity!

My name is Rubik and I am introducing you to God personally but in a tea party way

I'm a Poly Frag system (The Wither System) with a lot of fictives! Anything past that is not your business if I don't give it to you first

I'm 19 turning 20 soon actually in December!

Our host is actually a J subsystem so no matter what you do there will be J on this blog and yes I do own the JcJenson Pen and it's my wife

I am currently hyperfixated on Murder Drones, Minecraft and just got into Welcome to Night Vale!

I'm Otherkin/Alterhuman collectively and individually!

Our collective kins are

Dragon Kin

Wither/Witherstorm Kin

and Cat Kin

My own kin list is short but it's primarily

Alternate kin

and Warden/Sculk kin

Some important things about me is I do not have a dni however I expect you to respect your OWN DNI and please do not follow me if you are uncomfortable by these facts about me otherwise I will just assume you don't care/don't mind as I am not a mind reader

I am Pro Endo. I have been Anti Endo and it ruined my life. If that upsets you that's not my problem

I am Pro Mspec identities and that does and will always include Bi Lesbians. Excluding these people is the same repackaged aphobia we had earlier on tumblrs life and you know it is

I really do not care what you ship. Please talk to me about your weird ships I enjoy exploring creative ideas about dynamics and relationships and moral debate on creative freedom is puritism

I. AM. A. DSMP. FAN. I do not care what you have to say about whatever content creator because I am not their fucking parent. "That guy is problematic" you've been saying that for years I just want to consume the cool art people draw about my funny minecraft men please get off my lawn

I will never shut up about how Cyn is not childcoded and you can't make me

I'm Pro Para btw (Anti-Contact however) and if that bothers you that's also not my problem. It's a disorder don't be a mental health ally if you won't be an ally for people who have "icky" disorders

I suck at intros I know I do but I think this is everything about me that's important so here are some user boxes (more to be added as I go on) and then more information/links under the cut!

Links! (More to be added later)

Spotify playlists I've made X)

[glassbubblebooks]

Hello - Welcome in my Bubble🫧✒️

|| Who am I and what is this blog about?

Hello and welcome to my blog “glassbubblebooks”, I am very happy to have you here:)!

In this very first blog post of mine, you will find an introduction of me, bubble and a small summary of what this blog will be about🤍

Name: bubble🫧

Pronouns: she/her

Sexuality: bisexual

Birthday: December 29th🎂 (I’m 18)

Country: Germany🇩🇪

Languages: German/ English

(This little character gives you an idea of my looks btw, credits to @veluv_art on Instagram, Twitter and TikTok)

Since I can remember I’ve always been obsessed with literature, escaping into different universes and I’ve always liked to draw, read and write. My favorite author is @aliceoseman and I love the Osemanverse in general. Her books have helped me so much in finding myself and they´ll always be my comfort books. I’m also very obsessed with the Harry Potter universe and my all-time favorite book series is the 'Empyrean' series, especially 'Iron Flame'. This series is hands down one of the best fantasy novels I've read so far and I love the concept of the bond between riders and dragons. This story is, so far, incredibly well thought-out and I can´t wait for the third book to be published in January. Rebecca Yarrows' universe really is a big inspiration for me. For almost five years now, I’ve been working on my own fantasy novel and the whole universe behind that.✒️📖

When it comes to books, my favorite genres are romance, coming-of-age, fantasy, and romantasy and I read books in English and German, which is my native language. I’ll try to read as often as I can, but since I’m still in school, I often lack the time. My biggest dream is to become an author one day but I still have a long way to go.💫

I thought about sharing book and writing related content for a while now and I finally decided to start this blog! From now on, I will try to take you with me every week and post about my favorite books, my current TBH my book progress and just general thoughts.🤍 I’m not entirely sure where this blog is going to lead me but I’m really hoping that you’re here to follow my journey through book stores, book reviews and outbursts of creativity✒️🤍📖

You are very welcome to follow my tumblr blog, and also take a look at my other socials for spontaneous updates about books or my life💫

I’m also very looking forward to getting to know you guys, so don’t be afraid to follow, comment and ask me questions. Do you have any writing tips or book recommendations? I’d love to hear about your interests and ideas for this blog! You’re also free to show my blog to people that you think would love to follow it!🫶🏻

I can’t wait to start this journey with you

Love, Bubble🫧

[eyesareforlosers]

Hai, Hello, Hiii !!! :3

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Welcome 2 My Intro

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finally

All the info you need to know about me is under the cut!

also...

Here's a visual representation of a lot (not all) of my interests btw ^_^ to make things just a bit easier!

Okay, well, the less time I spend dilly-dallying the quicker this'll be so...

I'm Eyesareforlosers! Or how I'm known to friends, Tommie!

I'm an artist, writer, and guitarist! I love movies, television, music, and video games!

I listen to just about every genere out there, and I'm always on the look for new bands to check out.

I have loved horror movies since I was a kid, especially the zombie kind.

I do infact write fanfic, I just solemnly post it.

I'm open to any type of ask, whether it be for art, one-shots, or even questions regarding me!

I have an insta, tiktok, ao3, spacehey, and spotify that I'm pretty active on, if ya see me anywhere else it's probably an abandoned account :,)...

I'd prefer my followers to be 15+, I'm on the older side of teenage-dom and it makes me sorta uncomfortable to have anyone below that age follow me '>_<!

I'm from Texas and am biracial!

I'm a bit of a ENTP/INTP mix, I'd call myself an ANTP if I could lol.

I have no real pronoun preference but they/he work out pretty good for me.

I have adhd+autism and tone tags r very much appreciated!

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well erm... I can't think of anything else to put down so uh, thanks for checking out my intro!

[grimmwolf]

⚠️ DNI ⚠️

DNI right off the bat cuz it’s important

🤬z••s + supporters, anti therian, anti otherkin DNI🤬

🤬hunters, trappers, taxidermists, supporters DNI🤬

🤬animal part collectors/buyers/sellers, etc. DNI🤬

🤬vulture culture, “oddity” enthusiasts, etc. DNI🤬

🤬⚠️‼️All of these things = animal abuse⚠️‼️🤬

🤬I am against all animal abuse, DNI supporters🤬

🤬There’s no such thing as “ethical”, that’s crap🤬

🤬If support/neutral, go, this is my safe space🤬

⚠️Also pro-shippers/self-shippers can go too⚠️

‼️You will be blocked if you violate the DNI‼️

……

INTRO TIME cuz everyone else has one apparently-

Asks are always open btw :)

Ps. That means ask me things :)

Helloooo my name’s Maddy or Grimm. This is my Nonhuman etc. blog. So I’ll be posting and reblogging whatever identity related stuff here, some memes maybe. Anyhow, here’s…

Some stuff about me~

• I’m 20 years old in this body, and my birthday is on the 25th of May.

• I’m a straight cis female, so she / her pronouns would do just fine.

• I’ve been awakened since about 2014 ish, and I’m a spiritual Therian, Otherkin, Alterhuman, Nonhuman, Fictionfolk / Fictionkin, however you wanna call it 😂 Meaning I believe all if not most of my identities / kintypes are rooted from alternate lives, such as: Past, Future, Parallel, and Dream lives. I also display traits of experiencing some sort of age / pet regression, but I’m not sure if I fit the label entirely. But regressors are welcome here if you follow the dni! I try to keep the place as safe and family friendly as possible 😊

• Only a handful of my identities I’ve discovered are semi psychological tho. But they are not derived from imprinting, neurodivergence, or trauma. I also prefer to use the term identity, instead of therio / kin / ficto type etc.

• The label I use most in terms of my nonhumanity, is Omninonhuman! A term I coined for myself. Meaning I identify as all animals, beings, creatures, nature, etc. Basically anything and everything that’s nonhuman! Including, but not limited to: All earthly and non-earthly animals, beings, creatures, extant, extinct, insects, dirt, grass, plants, trees, flowers, fungi, rocks, stone, metals, crystals, water, land, sky, clouds, biomes, magical, mystical, mythical, mythological, supernatural, celestial, cosmic, galactic, divine, holy, unholy, infernal, universal, etc. Though, I connect more with wolves, or just canines in general lol.

• I have depression, social anxiety, body and species dysphoria. Are name, personality and voice dysphoria a thing as well, perhaps? Lol. Also I’m a vegan for the animals :)

Some fandoms I’m in + interests of mine~

• Animals

• Anime

• Art

• Black Butler

• Canines

• Creepypasta

• Demon Slayer

• Detroit: Become Human

• Dinosaurs

• Dragons

• Dungeons and Dragons

• Fantasy

• Five Nights at Freddy’s

• Genshin Impact

• Harry Potter

• History

• Hobbit

• How to Train Your Dragon

• James Cameron’s Avatar

• Jujutsu Kaisen

• Lord of the Rings

• Marvel

• My Hero Academia

• Obey Me!

• Omegaverse

• Paleontology

• Period Pieces

• Photography

• Pokémon

• Red Dead Redemption 2

• Sci - Fi

• SCP Containment Breach

• Slenderverse

• Supernatural

• Twilight

• Wings of Fire

• Wolves

• Zoology

Some hobbies of mine~

• Adding pins on Pinterest

• Collecting Merch ( Figures, plushes, posters, etc. )

• Creating playlists on Spotify

• Drawing

• Listening to music

• Photography

• Playing video games

• Reading

• Sleeping

• Watching YouTube

• Writing

Some fun facts about me~

• I absolutely love animals. I aspire to be an Animal & Nature Conservationist / Own an animal rescue ( domestic or wild ). I am against all forms of animal abuse, agriculture, cruelty, exploitation, use, etc., as I am a true vegan through and through, and so I do not support the therian real animal part gear obsession. If you support that or other related things, do not interact with me.

• I absolutely love talking about my alternate / past lives, even though I may not know a whole bunch about them. And I would be more than happy to listen to others speak of their lives as well! Alternate / past lives in general are all very intriguing to me

• I’m a huge fan of Pewdiepie and Markiplier. I watch their videos everyday, they just make me so happy. I love to laugh, and they make me laugh more than anyone honestly. They’re my gods lol

• I have a habit of either capitalizing words that don’t abide by the laws of human grammar. Or I alphabetize every thing I list. Oh, and my favorite colors are beige, black, cream, gold, gray, lavender, tan, and white :3

……

…Did you notice it?

Anyway! As I’ve mentioned before, I’m a spiritual otherkin. Meaning I believe I’ve had past or alternate lives of my kintypes! That being said, here are…

My identities / types’~

( From first discovered to most recently discovered )

• Angel

• Fallen Angel

• Earth Angel

• Dinosaur / Paleo / Raptor Shifter

• Merfolk / Draconic - Like Sea Being

• Divine Leader / Goddess

• Spirit / Universe / Goddess / Guardian

• Demon / Unidentified Being / Other bbkin ( Black Butler )

• Canine Cryptid / Shifter / Werecanine / Werewolf / Werefolk

• Alien / Angel / Unidentified Being

• Draconic Fae / Shifter

• Standard / Traditional / European / Western Dragon / Wyvern / Shifter

• Eywa / Na’vi / Pandoran

• Night / Light Fury / Goddess / Other httydkin

• Dragon / Other ratldkin ( Raya and the Last Dragon )

• Fae

• Other Mariokin

• Other Spyrokin

• Other Kirbykin

• Blue / Sea / SeaWing / Water Dragon

• Desert / Sand Dragon / SandWing

• Forest / Green / Nature Dragon

• Celestial / Cosmic Dragon

• Abyssal / Eldritch Dragon

• Black / Darkness Dragon / NightWing

• Gold / Golden Dragon

• Fire / Red Dragon / SkyWing

• Air / Blue / Sky / Wind / White Dragon

• Ancient / Imperial / Standard / Traditional Asian / Eastern Dragon

• Other WoFkin ( Wings of Fire )

• Omni Pokémonkin / Other Pokémonkin

• Other GenshinImpactkin

• Other LionKingkin

• Other mhakin ( My Hero Academia )

• Other RDR2kin ( Red Dead Redemption 2 )

• Other Alpha&Omegakin

• Other Marvelkin

• Other Supernaturalkin

• Other Twilightkin

• Other Creepypastakin / Proxykin / Slenderversekin

• Android / Divine Cryptid / Eldritch Angel

• Machine Shifter / Omni Machine kin / Other Horizon: Zero Dawn / Frozen Wilds / Forbidden West / Burning Shores / Call of the Mountain kin

• Other Omegaversekin

• Other Howl’s Moving Castle / Studio Gibli kin

• Aquatic / Dark / Drow / High / Light / Moon / Silvan / Snow / Sun / White / Wild / Wood Elfkin

• Other dbhkin ( Detroit: Become Human )

• Conceptkin / Dimensionkin / Existencekin / Galaxykin / Levelkin / Planekin / Realitykin / Realmkin / Worldkin / Universekin / Vibrationkin

• Other Twilightkin

• Other hbkin ( Helluva Boss ) / hhkin ( Hazbin Hotel ) - ps. I do not like the shows or the creators

• Dhampir / Vampire

• Other scpcbkin ( SCP Containment Breech )

• Other FarCrykin

• All Beast / Other bnakin ( Brand New Animal )

• Other Hook / Neverland / Pan / Peter Pan / Tinkerbell kin

• Other dndkin ( Dungeons and Dragons )

• Other potckin ( Pirates of the Caribbean )

• Other fbkin ( Fantastic Beasts ) / hpkin ( Harry Potter )

• Other Hobbit / lotrkin ( Lord of the Rings ) / Medievalkin / MiddleEarthkin

• Medievalkin / Other Skyrimkin

• Other Okamikin

• Other gowkin ( God of War )

• Other Grishaversekin / snbkin ( Shadow and Bone )

• Alien / Amphibian / Dinosaurian / Draconic / Kaiju / Machine / Mecha / Pandoran / Reptilian

• Other asekin ( Ark: Survival Evolved )

• Other revkin ( Resident Evil: Village )

• Dark Fae / Other Maleficentkin

• Other fnafkin ( Five Nights at Freddy’s )

• Other dskin ( Demon Slayer )

• Other jkkin ( Jujutsu Kaisen )

• Other trkin ( Tokyo Revengers )

• Chimera / Trico / Other tlgkin ( The Last Guardian )

• Alien / Avian / Canine / Draconic / Feline / Pandoran

• AI / Alien / Android / Bot / Canine / Code / Cyber / Cyberware / Droid / Drone / Firewall / Future / Glitch / Hardware / Machine / Malware / Mech / Mecha / Program / Robot / Tech / Technology / Virus

• Other Transformerskin

• Other Cyberpunkkin

• Other ldrkin ( Love, Death & Robots )

• Other aotkin ( Attack on Titan )

• Other tgkin ( Tokyo Ghoul )

• Other gotkin ( Ghost of Tsushima )

• Other ackin ( Assassin’s Creed )

• Other twkin ( The Witcher )

• Other Nimonakin

• Lizard / Scavenger / Slugcat / Vulture / Etc. / Other rwkin ( Rain World )

• Alien / Alien Jackal / Alien Vulture / Bioraptor / Hellhound / Mud Demon / Etc. / Other Riddikkin

• Celestial / Cosmic / Divine / Galactic / Holy / Universal Creator / Deity / God / Goddess / Guardian / Saint / Planet / Solar System / Galaxy / Universe / Reality / Mother Earth / Life / Moon / Nature / Sun / Death / Light / Dark / Demeter / Gaia / Existence / Nonexistence / Etc.

• White War Wolf ( Asgardian / Marvel / Norse )

• Canine Spirit / Fox Spirit / Gumiho / Inugami / Kemonomimi / Kitsune / Komainu / Lion Dog / Magical Canine / Mythical Canine / Mythological Canine / Nine Tailed Fox / Nogitsune / Okami / Okami Spirit / Raccoon Spirit / Supernatural Canine / Tanuki Spirit / Wolf Spirit

• Child Fortune / Luck / Wealth Spirit

• Demon / Devil / Ecstasy / Emotion / Encubus / Euphoria / Feeling / Fiend / Heat / Hell / Hormone / Incarnate / Incubus / Infernal / Instinct / Love / Lust / Lust Incarnation / Pleasure / Primal / Romance / Rut / Sensation / Sex / Sexual / Sexuality / Stimulation / Succubus / Touch

• Other Spiritkin ( Spirit of the Cimarron )

• Other Elementalkin ( Disney )

• Other SlyCooperkin

• Other RiseoftheGuardianskin

• Other StrangeMagickin

• Other ObeyMe!kin

• Other MysticMessengerkin

• Other Otomekin / ShallWeDatekin / Voltagekin ( Dating Sims )

• Other KungFuPandakin

• Other Lucakin

•Other TurningRedkin

• Other Baldur’sGate3kin

• Other HotelTransylvaniakin

• Spirit / Wisp

• Other Siren’sLamentkin ( Webtoon )

• Other AnimalCrossingkin

• Other Tangledkin

• Other lolkin ( League of Legends )

• Other atkin ( Adventure Time )

• Mermaid / Selkie / Siren

• Alicorn / Hellhorse / Hippocampus / Hippalektryon / Kelpie / Magical Horse / Mythical Horse / Mythological Horse / Pegasus / Thestral / Unicorn

• Kirin / Magical Deer / Mythical Deer / Mythological Deer / Qilin / Peryton

• Centaur / Cervitaur / Faun / Satyr

• Griffin / Griffon / Gryphon / Hippogriff

• Amphiptere / Amphitere / Amphithere / Magical Avian / Mythical Avian / Mythological Avian / Phipthere / Phoenix / Quetzalcoatl

• Black Dog / Black Shuck / Canine Spirit / Church Grimm / Cu Sith / Divinehound / Fox Spirit / Enfield / Gumiho / Heavenhound / Hellhound / Inugami / Kemonomimi / Kitsune / Komainu / Lion Dog / Magical Canine / Mythical Canine / Mythological Canine / Nine Tailed Fox / Nogitsune / Okami / Okami Spirit / Raccoon Spirit / Supernatural Canine / Tanuki Spirit / Wolf Spirit

• Other twdkin ( The Walking Dead )

• ( Behemoth ) / Gorgon / ( Gorgonus ) / ( Gorgun ) / Leviathan / ( Nag ) / Naga / Quetzalcoatl

• Other hsrkin ( Honkai Starrail )

• Other WuWakin ( Wuthering Waves )

• Other zzzkin ( Zenless Zone Zero )

• AI / Android / Bot / Code / Cyber / Cyberbot / Droid / Drone / Firewall / Future / Glitch / Hardware / Machine / Malware / Mech / Mecha / Program / Robo / Robot / Tech / Technology / Virus

• Heavenhound / Divinehound

• Other mckin ( Minecraft )

As you can see from my identities listed, I have about 122 discovered identities, and most likely counting. I’d like to make it clear that I am not “adding to any kin list” or “kinning for fun”. I am completely certain and genuine about my alterhumanity and my many identities.

I have entire playlists of some of these lives on Spotify, that help me connect with them more. I figured out how to link my Spotify, give it a listen if you’d like. So here’s…

My Spotify~

……

Anywho, see ya! Also pls interact, I want friends / mutuals with similar kintypes 🥲

……

[the-kneesbees]

☃️ read before following ☃️

howdy

welcome to my blog <3

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before you follow: 

I’m a minor. adults can interact just don't be creepy <3

I will answer ask games if you send them, but I almost never send them to other people so keep that in mind. 

same with tag games, I will do them but I don’t usually tag people, nothing personal

I’m really dry sometimes I promise I think you’re interesting I’m just bad at conversations <3

I try to use tone tags but sometimes I forget, lmk if you need clarification 

^with that in mind, take everything I say as platonic and genuine unless stated otherwise (I will still clarify if you need it though)

ask me to trigger tag anything if I forget

I try to tag all rb bait but I don't usually reblog that stuff anyway. I tag reblog if posts as "reblog game" incase you don't want to see that

I won't reblog your donation post unless I know you personally, sorry

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about me:

I love art in all forms! please feel free to send me anything you create, I love to see it!

my main fandoms atm

-bbc merlin (literally the best show ever go watch it if you haven't yet)

-the outsiders (unfortunately)

-good omens

-stranger things

-It (Stephen King)

-what we do in the shadows

-red white and royal blue

-bears in trees (band)

Things I also like but am not super active in:

- the umbrella academy (one of my favorite shows I just don't really post about it)

-sk8 the infinity

-banana fish

-dead poets society

-the owl house

-the sandman

-our flag means death

-the goldfinch

- a league of their own

-young royals

-Buffy the vampire slayer

-the end of the fucking world

-i am not okay with this

plus some more that I may have forgotten

feel free to start a conversation with me about any of these things I’ll love you forever <3

I play clarinet in the school band, if you wanna talk band stuff, I'd love to :)

also my spotify is linked below if you wanna talk music (ilysm if you do)

my two favorite musical artists are bears in trees and noahfinnce I love them so much

I draw a lot and also occasionally write but I dont often post any of it on here. if you’d like to see any of my work just ask and maybe I’ll share some!

I complain a lot and also love talking about myself btw

if you want to use my ask box to vent, rant, infodump, or just chat, always feel free <3 I don't often have good advice but I'll always be here to listen :)

if you are going to vent to me though, please just let me know. I'll never say no I just need a heads up

spotify

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that’s all, ily mwah <3

(mental health resources)

having a bad day?

[smokinrat]

Pinned Post

𝚂𝚝𝚞𝚏𝚏 𝙸 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚜𝚘 𝚏𝚊𝚛

(Requests/asks are always open btw, so feel free to submit one - I don’t write for shipping of characters though, sorry)

Random shit

Things I’m interested in!

Things I’m interested in (more tags)!

Appreciation post

Saiki believes in the Dark Reunion

Repost if you’re not homophobic (Everyone is welcome on my page ❤︎)

Covid at home safety

Mike Wazowski x dreamcore

What’s your preferred writing perspective?

Sherb is having a moment (acnh)

Technoblade Petition

Why do you follow me Q&A

Links to my playlists — (Spotify & Apple Music)

Acnh HHP dilemma

My (mostly past) crushes but it gets worse

Over the Garden Wall season has returned!

Deadpool Pinball 🫶

Art

Redraw of a clown

Verosika Drawing (Helluva Boss)

Creepypasta/Marble Hornets

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1 (someone found link to original creator)

2

Tmnt

Tmnt appreciation post

ROTTMNT Leo art (reblog)

Turtles (reblog)

Tiny tordles

Baby tordles

Rise Raph/2003 Raph quote (reblog)

2012 Leo taunting Karai (reblog)

South Park

Hero designs (reblog)

Toolshed & Mysterion drawing (reblog)

South Park headcanons (reblog)

South Park headcanons pt. 2 (reblog)

I finished TFBW :)

The Outsiders

The Outsiders Headcanons

Massage (Darry x Reader)

Movie Night Headcanons

Realistic Dally & Tim (reblog)

Tim Shepard headcanons

Tim Shepard supremacy

Tim Shepard with a younger sister headcanons (reblog)

Idiot (Ponyboy x Reader)

The Outsiders behind the scenes

Pain+Gauze=Love

Ponyboy, Johnny, and Dally trio (reblog)

The Outsiders photo dump

The Outsiders photo dump pt. 2

The Outsiders photo dump pt. 3

The Outsiders photo dump pt. 4

Delinquents Forever (Curly Shepard x GN Reader)

Spooky Ghost (reblog)

Steve and Sodapop’s trauma (reblog)

Big Brothers, Big Tasks

Big Brothers, Big Tasks Pt. 2

The Gang as Animal Crossing villagers (reblog)

The Outsiders appreciation post

Two-bit loves his friends (reblog)

The outsiders: rare and unseen photos

Ponyboy Curtis

Idiot (Ponyboy x GN Reader)

Darry Curtis

Massage

Two-bit Mathews

𝙿𝚊𝚒𝚗+𝙶𝚊𝚞𝚣𝚎=𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚎

Curly Shepard

Delinquents Forever

Tim Shepard

Tim Shepard supremacy 🛐

Tim Shepard with a younger sister headcanons (reblog)

Tim Shepard Headcanons

Match Ups

Dallas & Eyeless Jack - The Outsiders & Creepypasta

Darry Curtis - The Outsiders

Johnny - The Outsiders

Darry Curtis - The Outsiders

Clockwork - Creepypasta

[doe-rose-q]

Greetings, All! 👋😍

So... I painstakingly made a transcript of Emily Kinney’s MCW podcast episode with Norman Reedus. I did it for the benefit of several Emily and Norman fans who I know in South America who can’t necessarily comprehend spoken English that well. So all they need to do now is copy/paste this script into their preferred translator app. So I figured I would share it here as well so that it can help any of you who are non-English speaking or even deaf/hearing impaired comprehend the dialogue. 😁

I made it as verbatim as possible.😉🙃☺️

This is Part 1 of the transcript. btw... Tumblr would not let me put it all into a single post since it’s so long. Part 2 and Part 3 can be found in my following two posts. Enjoy! 😁

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Emily: “All right... time to make some coffee. Oh my God. I had cinnamon rolls outside of my front door this morning from my neighbors so my next cup of coffee I’m making, I’m gonna make to go with my cinnamon rolls. I cannot wait!”

[Emily’s introduction]: “I first met Norman Reedus working on ‘The Walking Dead,’ of course. Over the course of my four seasons on our show, I got to know Norman better and better and we became good friends. And in a sort of interesting parallel, our characters’ storylines also became more intertwined within the show. Norman is so special... he seems to have endless amounts of creative energy that I find incredibly inspiring. He also has great taste in music and coffee which makes him a perfect guest for this podcast.”

*coffee making sounds* “Okay... we gotta get the filter in there...”

[Emily’s intro continued]: “Welcome back to ‘My Caffeine Withdrawal.’ I am so incredibly excited to share this episode with all of you today. Norman has so many fans and I know this to be true because every day someone in my life or someone on social media asks me—‘Hey, how was it working with Norman? What is Norman Reedus like?’

Well, now today you guys are going to get to know Norman in the same way that I know Norman. We talk about how Norman got into acting and when and why he moved to California as well as what his life was like as an artist first starting out in Los Angeles. We talk about a book he’s been writing... and he tells a lot of great stories. But first, Norman explained his current coffee set-up situation and how he’s currently weathering the quarantine from Costa Rica.”

“I’m already eating the cinnamon roll... it smells too good. They texted me and were like—“There’s some cinnamon rolls outside your door.” I literally have the nicest neighbors.”

*Podcast theme music plays*

N: “Hi, Emily!”

E: “Hi!”

N: “I just set this up because I’ve been listening to your podcast—which I really like—and I know it’s heavy on the coffee, so I brought my coffee set-up down the mountain in my backpack on the motorcycle and this is my coffee jam here... so this is what I do. Are you ready?”

E: “Yes.”

N: “Okaaay... this is my coffee—my butterfly coffee that I drink here...”

E: “It’s called Café Hermosa.”

N: “Yeah! It’s the one with the little butterfly.”

E: “Got it! Costa Rica.”

N: “And then... I mean, Costa Rica has really good coffee... so then, this is my coffee maker. So this little sack goes in this little thing—like this. And then I put my coffee in the sack, and then I put my cup here, and then I just pour it slowly.”

E: “Nice!”

N: “And I... you know I’ve gone through all the high-tech everything, and I always go back to this sock. And the dirtier the sock, the better the coffee tastes.”

E: “Okay.” *giggles*

N: “I think.”

E: “W-what do you call that? Like... just ‘the sock’...?”

N: “I mean... I have one of these in my trailer...”

E: “Okay.”

N: “... back in Georgia, then I ta-, you know, I pour the coffee in, and then I make the coffee, and then I take what’s left in the sack and I put it in compost and I hurl it into the jungle...”

E: “Mm-hm.”

N: “... with all the fruits and stuff that I haven’t eaten or whatever and then these things called pizotes—which are like raccoons, but have a long nose and they’re huge—they come and they eat all the scraps and I just... I just have a circular thing that I do.”

E: “Oh, wow! Yeah... so um... you’re also like one with nature with your coffee drinking.” *giggles*

N: “Yeah! I mean, you know... Costa Rica has the, you know... I think it has the best recycling program on the planet...

E: “Mmm...”

N: “... so if you don’t do it, I think they kick you out of here.”

E: “Oh... that’s great.”

N: “My cat’s here with me. So when I go feed the pizotes, the cat goes to the window and watches with amazement as these raccoon monsters eat my garbage.”

E: “Yeah. Do you put anything in your coffee?”

N: “I do! I put honey. There’s this honey here that is... there’s a local restaurant here called Laguna and one of the waitresses, her aunt makes this honey and it’s the best honey ever.”

E: “Mmm.”

N: “So I just scoop it in the... in the thing and I put like two scoops of honey and I, that’s all I drink [unintelligible word/phrase].”

E: “Mmm! That sounds good.”

N:”Yeah.”

E: “While you’re in Costa Rica, how do you start your day? Just with coffee first or do you do something else?”

N: “Sometimes I jump in the pool to wake up...”

E: “Mm-hm.”

N: “... and then I walk upstairs and make my coffee.”

E: “Mmm.”

N: “There’s this uh... sort of like yoga retreat place so they have a really nice gym but it has mirrors all over... the walls. And what I’ve found out with the yoga people is that they work out for like four hours at a time, then they look at themselves, and then they work out and lift weights, and then they look at themselves. And then they stretch and then they look at themselves. And because of COVID, you kinda wanna wait ‘til the gym’s kind of empty to go in it, so I end up out in front of the gym like, ‘You almost done? Are you almost done?’

And you know... and they’re doing this and they’re looking at themselves and it takes forever. So...”

E: “Yeah.”

N: “Sometimes I’ll ride the bike there and then I’ll try to work out and then I’m like, ‘Fuck it,’ and I go swimming.”

E: “I mean, I think swimming and then coffee sounds like a great morning routine.”

N: “Yeah. So I live on this mountaintop where there’s a monkey reserve. The trees are... you can’t cut down these trees because it’s a monkey trail. Sometimes I’ll be in the pool and there’s a tree that sorta overlooks the pool and there’ll be monkeys in the trees. I mean they’re literally like eight feet above me so I’ll just swim and look at the monkeys.”

E: “Awww... nice! Do they like come up to you and everything?”

N: “They don’t come up to you, uh... sometimes they’ll poop in the pool... which is kinda weird...? But there’s lots of these colorful little finch-like birds that will come down and you know... fly around me and stuff. It’s pretty magical.”

E: “Yeah, it sounds like it. What was the thing on Instagram—you posted this picture of a hummingbird. That was crazy! What made you post that?”

N: “It’s this person that I’ve become friends with. They only try to post uh... positive things and they work with people and... I didn’t realize that until after I posted it and they contacted me and we’ve been sort of having this exchange. But I think their whole vibe is to just put out positive content so they work with different artists and create positive content. And that post comes from THEIR site. So they reached out and then now we’re friends.”

E: “Yeah.”

N: “I’ve been trying to do that with posts... just post positive shit... artwork or whatever. I’m just so tired of politicians. It’s like, I’m into scientists and artists now. Like, I’m just over it. This all sorta started when EVERYBODY hit me up... they’re like: ‘Can you... can you post people to wash their hands?’

I’m like... if people don’t know how to fuckin’ wash their hands by now, like, ‘What the hell, right?’

So then... it... that went to that and then all those Twitter hashtags like #guillotine2020 and all those things happening and then everybody from the show and everybody from the network and you know everybody else that’s involved with everything was—‘Can you post this? Can you do this? Can you make a short video?’

And I was like... I will to a certain extent, but I’m kind of cut from that cloth that I don’t wanna hear celebrities tell me what to do... you know what I mean?”

E: “Yeah...”

N: “And... I’m very selective with what I do and then there’s that.”

E: “Yeah...”

N: “And you know... you have Gal Gadot singing ‘Imagine’ and I was like, ‘This is going to be a disaster!’ and it was.

You kind of just saw it all coming and happening so I’m just very selective and I just wanna put out positive stuff, you know?”

E: “No... I totally relate to that! I feel like there can be this pressure. With social media... it’s like you do have to kind of like set up your own boundaries because it IS fun and like... you’re really good at like connecting with people on social media and you know... like you said, putting up cool art, putting up cool music that you like. But then there can be this pressure to get involved in OTHER aspects of social media that maybe you just like... if you wanna show your support for a certain politician or for a certain social movement, maybe you don’t do that on Instagram ‘cause maybe Instagram...

N: “Yeah...”

E: “... for YOU is just a positive place. You get even MORE requests than I do, but similar where friends would be like—‘Aren’t you gonna post about this? Aren’t you gonna post about that?’

I think it’s great that you make those rules for yourself because I feel like I’ve gone through different... ‘Oh maybe I SHOULD be posting all the time about this thing or... but wait! Now I don’t even want to be on it anymore.’

And it used to be like a fun thing... a fun way to share my music.”

N: “You know, I’ve found out a lot of ‘em are like, ‘Oh, can you do this and make a video and mention this and then put this hashtag...?’

And then it all goes back to almost self-promotion for them.”

E: “Yeah.”

N: “You know? Like it’s like, ‘Look at... look what I did!’

And then, ‘I got all these people with all these followers to post things with all my stuff.’

And it was sort of being skewed in the wrong reasons with some of them...”

E: “Yeah!”

N: “... you know what I mean?”

E: “Sort of like a performative activism kind of thing like, ‘Oh now this problem is... is MY problem, it upsets me too!’

And become making it more about like... yourself rather than... like... trying to fix the problem.”

N:”And you know too like if you have like a lot of followers like everybody you know is like, ‘I’m doin’ a thing! Can you post for me?’

And then it comes to the point where everyone just is like...”

E: *sigh* “Yeah.”

N: “You know... ‘Can you promote me? Can you promote me? Can you promote me?’”

E: *laughs* “Yeah.”

N: “‘I’m making a brand of forks... can you promote me?’

And you’re like, ‘Goddamn!’

You know...”

E: “Yeah. It’s overwhelming. I think it’s cool though that you’re just putting out positive. Plus there’s enough negative right now. Like people need a balance... like, in the... world. You know, like we need...” *tired laugh*

N: “And I know, I know a lot of people too that are just like... with like... pitchforks that are just... ‘Get ‘em! Get ‘em! Get ‘em! Get ‘em!’

And I’m like, ‘Ugh... ENOUGH.’”

E: “You wanna hear something kind of crazy about the hummingbird thing? I don’t know if you know this about me, but I’ve definitely gotten more like... spiritual. But like, this is gonna sound crazy. I like don’t even usually talk about this stuff, but I sort of have this SIGN of when I’m like guided where I’m supposed to go and my sign has been hummingbird. And you had texted me and I randomly looked at your Instagram and saw it...”

N: “Wow.”

E: “It definitely was like one of those... like... go THERE. Maybe it was just if there is a God or if you’re just being like, ‘Oh nice... connect with your friend,’ you know like... ‘Connect with Norman,’ like...”

N: “I actually believe all that. You know, when I texted you, I was having breakfast at this place by the beach—the lady that makes the honey—I was at her place. And I was listening to your... your podcast with Lennie...”

E: “Yeah.”

N: “And I had already heard Lauren’s and I was listening to Lennie’s, and at the end of it you’re like, ‘You know what? I hope during COVID, everyone can reach out to a friend, and duh-duh-duh-duh...’

And I was like, ‘I’m just gonna text her.’ So I texted you at that moment.

I have the same thing with a bird. Like my dad... before my dad died, he was always talking about cardinals—those red cardinals. Every time I see a cardinal, I think the same thing. And THEN, the night before, Danai called me out of nowhere. I haven’t spoken to Danai in forever and she’s like, ‘What are you doing?’

And I’m like, ‘I’m sitting on my patio with all the lights off...’

And there was a meteor shower. It’s called, like, the Gideon meteor shower—some huge meteor shower that happened. And I saw twenty one shooting stars before I went to bed. I pay attention to all that shit.”

E: “Yeah!”

N: “Twenty one! And I was like talking, I’m like... ‘There’s eleven! That’s twelve!’

And they just kept going. I believe all that stuff.”

E: “I grew up Catholic, so like, I kind of like... religion in general felt like sort of overwhelming even though a prayer and stuff like that came naturally to me. And then just over like the last like five or six years or so I’ve liked really embraced it, where I’m sort of like, ‘Yup! I think these things are happening. I have little signs that tell me like... where to go.’ *giggles* I guess I don’t really talk about it with people much, but it’s just... I read about it and stuff. Yeah.”

N: “I-I believe it. I-I-I believe all of them. I’m not really religious, but I-I believe all those signs all the time.”

E: “Yeah.”

N: “I see little signs in everything... yeah.”

E: “Yeah. Like during this downtime, do you feel like you’ve been able to like be creative? Or have you just been sort of embracing a rest and just being able to sort of like be with your family and like...?”

N: “I did a BUNCH during the downtime... like...”

E: “You did.”

N: “... so what happened was... I was in, I was in New Zealand and I was shooting episodes of ‘Ride’ and Diane was doing a movie in... in California in LA so I... I flew to LA from New Zealand and I was on my way to Italy and AMC called and there was like... ‘There’s an outbreak in Italy. You’re not going to Italy.’

They’re like, ‘Just sit tight.’

So that ‘sitting tight’ thing turned into like a year, you know? I was there forever. I have a First Look production deal with AMC and me and my partner, Amanda Verdon. It gave us the opportunity to really find a lot of projects... do a lot of reading, do a lot of these Zoom calls—we did a ton of them—and we have like seven projects in development right now. But I wouldn’t have gotten to do that if I was on ‘Walking Dead’ because I have zero time, you know.”

E: “Yeah.”

N: “I wrote a novel... with a friend. So...”

E: “Oh my God! What’s it about?”

N: “There’s four different stories that happened. You know, it’s weird, because I’ll take different sections of... of my life and I’ll turn them into other things which’ll branch into other things, and so forth.”

E: “Yeah.”

N: “But in ‘Walking Dead,’ there’s my favorite answer, I guess, for the interviews is—this group of people who would’ve never known each other or gotten along or whatever, because of the circumstance, they’ve become friends and they rely on each other. And they’re people from completely different walks of life, right? And they form this bond as they sort of develop their own family, and they rely on each other, and they respect each other, and THAT’s how you get through. So... that’s always been like my go-to answer for everything ‘Walking Dead.’

*Imitates an interviewer* ‘What is [unintelligible]? What do you think it is about it? Does it mirror society?’

You know all those fuckin’ questions you get all the time. It’s kind of like that. So... it’s four different stories of people that are on the move or groups that are on the move and because they’re on the move, they’re forced to find a sense of family on the way. There is a lesson learned, there’s mistakes, there’s drama, there’s love, there’s horror... all the things. Um... you know, it kind of started... I was, I was on a plane—from Costa Rica actually—to Uruguay. I did an episode of ‘Ride’ in Costa Rica and it was SUPER dirty! Like, we were in the dirt, people broke teeth out of their face... like we were disgusting for a week here. And we were on the other side of the island, but I had to race to catch a flight to get to Uruguay from filming. So, there’s a group set up there with another bike and I just... I just immediately start filming there. So I race to get on this plane, I’m sitting there, and I’m kind of in this tiny little area of the plane, and I’m just like COVERED in dirt. Like the creases in my face have dust in them and I’m just fucking filthy and I STINK. Like... I’m GROSS. And I’m sittin’ on the plane with a dirty backpack at my feet which is full of sand. I’m like, ‘Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry...’ there’s like no getting around it.

This businessman’s sitting next to me. He’s kind of like this pudgy older guy and he’s got shorts on and he’s got a little backpack with him. And people are goin’ up and down the aisle, and they’re like, ‘Hey, can I get an autograph? Hey, can you sign this? Can you, can I get a selfie? Whatever...’

And I’m just like, ‘Yeah.’

And I’m fucking like REALLY dirty, right? And the guy’s looking at me and he’s looking at the people and after about 45 minutes, he goes—‘Who are you?’

And I said, ‘Oh, I’m on a TV show. That’s what all this is about.’

We start to talk... and this business man, he, I... I go, ‘What about you?’

‘I own one of the largest Fortune 500 companies in the world.’

And I’m like, ‘Oh!’

And I never asked him what it was ‘cause I figured, like, if he’s gonna tell me, he’ll tell me. We start this conversation... me and this stranger. He goes, ‘Last year, my mother died.’

On his mother’s death bed, she said to the guy—‘You need to just run away. Do me a favor... just run away.’

And he didn’t know what she was talkin’ about. And then THIS year, his wife died and he was left alone. Like he’s this guy that runs this huge company, has all these employees, but he has no family... it was just his mother and his wife. And he’s kind of alone. And he was thinking about what his mother said to him. So he told the other partners in the business... he said, ‘Hey, can you guys take care of things? I’m gonna go away for a little while.’

And they’re like, ‘Yeah! Take all the time you need.’

Someone would say, ‘You know what? You should go to Chile.’

And he’d go, ‘Okay!’

And he would just go to Chile, and he would wander around Chile. Or, ‘Go to Peru!’

‘Okay,’

And he was on his way to where I was headed right now. And he’s sittin’ there telling me this story like a little kid. And I’m just like listening to him, you know? He goes, ‘You know what? I spent my entire life trying to make money. I wasted my whole life’... almost with like tears in his eyes. He’s like, ‘I wasted my whole life just trying to make money.’

And so he’s trying to find this personal sense of freedom like late in his life... kind of being forced to. You know, and I’m thinking about it and I’m wondering where he’s going, and I’m kind of living that life...? I’m kind of bouncing all over the world... this experience, people with the show and so forth... with ‘Ride,’ I mean. And I expanded his story and made him a character in the book. He told me this thing too. He goes, ‘Yeah, I was in Peru...’

He was backpacking... you know, with his backpack. And he got out to the middle of this intersection and there was NO ONE around like as far as he could see. And he took out his phone and he played a Prince song, and put it on the crosswalk of the intersection, and was just dancing like crazy... all by himself. Like sort of finding this freedom, right? And uh... this strength, I guess. He was out there dancing. So there’s also in the book, there’s this group of kids that jump trains, right? And because of circumstances, they’re running from things and sort of finding this sense of family along the way with all these scary moments. But... there’s a chapter with this guy. He ends up in this situation, he ends up putting his phone on the thing and he’s dancing. And in the background there’s a train going by and there’s these kids like, watching this crazy guy dancing with himself. Like... so I sort of mix these stories together and they all kind of are on a mission and they sort of find their way. You know what I mean?”

E: “Yeah.”

N: “So that’s it. I turned it into a book. And I had help writing the book. I’m not an author by any means. But uh... it’s with the publishing house now... doing their final edit. So it’s almost done.”

E: “Yeah.”

N: “So I did that... and some other shit.”

E: “Yeah. I mean... that sounds like you’ve had a very productive quarantine. Or whatever... this coronapocalypse quarantine time.”

[twodrunkgirlspod]

Hi, welcome to the Two Drunk Girls Podcast’s Episode List! Here you will be able to find all of our episodes and even little sneak peeks at the topic/topics for the next week’s episode!

Follow us on Instagram and Twitter for all things Two Drunk Girls and an inside look on what nonsense and dumbassery we get up too while recording each episode!

Episode 1: Tyler Posey’s Jaw, this is our introduction where you’ll get to learn about how we met, what we will be discussing on upcoming episodes and most importantly you’ll learn about our cats and our concern for Tyler Posey’s jaw.

Available on: Apple Podcast, Anchor, Breaker, Spotify, Google Podcasts, RadioPublic

Episode 2: Astrology and Post Malone, this is our discussion of all things astrology from understanding your zodiac sign, how your energy effects yourself as well as others and crystals! Also this is where Sarah discusses her love for not one but two bald men.

Available on: Apple Podcast, Anchor, Breaker, Spotify, Google Podcasts, RadioPublic

Episode 3: Robert Pattinson Hates Twilight, believe it or not this is actually our fave things of the moment episode! We will let you in on what we are currently obsessing over such as books, movies, tv shows and of course drinks and we will even share a few things we are looking forward to! But as always there will be mini rants like how Twilight the movies ruined the books….

Available on: Apple Podcast, Anchor, Breaker, Spotify, Google Podcasts, RadioPublic

Episode 4:The Broken Heart’s Gallery! This is a review and just our thoughts and feelings on the amazing movie with the always amazing Billy with a booty(his name is actually Nick in the movie but it’s fine) and Lucy the CFO(chief feelings officer). 

Available on: Apple Podcast, Anchor, Breaker, Spotify, Google Podcasts, RadioPublic

Episode 5: Mental Health. This episode gets a little heavier with topics such as depression and anxiety and how we cope with them as well as discussing when we first realized we had these and other issues. This is all about our mental health journey.

Available on: Apple Podcast, Anchor, Breaker, Spotify, Google Podcasts, RadioPublic

Episode 6: Sarah touched Niall’s face (coming October 6th) this is all about our road trip seeing Niall Horan on his last three shows of his Flicker World Tour and we also talk a little about our experience at Flicker Sessons! Sarah goes into detail about what it was like meeting Niall!

Available on: Apple Podcast, Anchor, Breaker, Spotify, Google Podcasts, RadioPublic

Episode 7: Spooky Spot! This episode we discuss our travel memories! We tell you all about our favorite places as well as some we would be perfectly fine never going back to....like ever. Listen now to hear a great story involving Ciara, a slide, a skirt and few drinks. 

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Episode 8: Pia’s Big Announcement! This episode is very special as we have the amazing Pia as a special guest! Pia specializes in helping woman gain confidence while building the body they want. She is a wonderful human who has a very special announcement so you’ll want to listen!  

Available on: Apple Podcast, Anchor, Breaker, Spotify, Google Podcasts, RadioPublic

Episode 9: Love and Monsters movie review! We are once again giving you all our thoughts on this movie staring the always wonderfully adorable Dylan O’Brien! If you’re into giant man eating bugs, smart mouthed little girls, loyal dogs and guys named Joel who will travel 85 miles for a shot at love then you’ll not only love the movie but you’ll enjoy this episode as well! 

Available on: Apple Podcast, Anchor, Breaker, Spotify, Google Podcasts, RadioPublic

Episode 10: Writing! This is the episode all about writing in honor of NaNoWriMo! We discuss what we like to write, who some of our favorite authors are, our writing style, our writing process and of course we talk about if writing Fanfiction makes you a proper writer or not(btw it does). 

Available on: Apple Podcast, Anchor, Breaker, Spotify, Google Podcasts, RadioPublic

Episode 11: Billy Hargrove deserved better! This week is all about Stranger Things! Here at Two Drunk Girls we know three things for certain, mornings are for coffee and contemplation, friends never lie and Barb, Bob and Billy all deserved better. 

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Episode 12: Leave Me Malone! This is a very special episode as it’s all about Austin Richard Post aka Post Malone. We talk about our concert experiences, how friggin awesome his glow up has been(thanks Cathy), the amazing energy you feel at his shows and Sarah just blabs on about how much she loves him. Oh and we get drunk! So it’s a fun one!

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Epsiode 13: What is Dating? This episode the two drunk girls are in fact drunk! We discuss weird pickup lines, our best dates, ghosting and just how weird and confusing it is to date these days and how sometimes we just download dating apps to reassure ourselves we’ve still got it...and by it we just mean people think we are cute still.

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Episode 14: Let’s talk about sex! This week we talk all about the importance of consent, communication, unrealistic bedroom goals and much more! I mean sex is a fun topic and we get....into it on this episode! 

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[dragonslayer-5fanfiction]

My Burly Love Chapter 8

Alright ya’ll this is a little late, but you know there’s a lot going on and I’m here. I got it done. Stay positive in these times!! Also give this Spotify playlist a listen. It’s pretty fire and my writing insporation!

Chapter 7

The GIF is from giphy btw. 

https://open.spotify.com/user/spookyclouds/playlist/64KTxueNrGIn8enH7SP3kb?si=gCdkQEruTQyBNmKf6dBvPQ  

Chapter 8

We were advised by Beorn that the quickest way to get to the Lonely Mountain was to cut through the Mirkwood forest. He lent us some of his horses to get us to the forest.

“Stay on the path. Do not stray.” Gandalf advised us. He was very solemn. I stood and watched him ride off into obscurity. When I couldn't see him anymore, I turned and walked into the unknown.

When I entered everything felt off, like there was something sinister hiding deep in the wood. I’m not sure what it could be, but it gives me a bad feeling. The air is thick and the wood is sick. The smell of stale air, and infection are spread throughout the forest. The breeze is heard at the tops of the trees, although nothing is felt on the ground. 

The path is made of stone, and the line is very clear. With Thorin at our lead, we will not stray. We have been walking for what felt like forever, when I looked down and there was no path. I stopped and turned in a circle, the path was nowhere to be found!

“Excuse me, guys, but it appears that we have strayed from the path!” They all looked around. 

“Oh no where is the path?”

“We lost the path!” We scattered around for a few minutes until we finally found the path again. The stones are a welcome sight, and the slow quiet trickle of a stream was enticing. As we walked forward we saw there was a bridge, broken in the middle, a sight right out of a picture. 

“Do you not remember what Gandalf said, these waters are enchanted.”

“How are we going to get across, I don’t think swimming is a good idea.” Fog floated a few inches above the water. The water was murky and there was no telling how deep it actually was. I walked over to a huge branch that was curling off to the left of the broken bridge. I ran my hand along the bark, wondering how old this tree was, and how we were going to get across safely. The events from Beorn’s and a week ago were racing through my mind. Even just the thought of it made my stomach churn and my head swirl.

Dwalin noticed me standing off to the side and came to stand by me. I didn’t even look at him, I’m still so mad at him for walking away and refusing to talk to me about it. I think I’m more mad at me for thinking he’s interested, for embarrassing myself. But most of all, for falling for him. He’s my best friend here, and he probably thinks about me as a kid. 

“What’s going on that head of yer’s lassie?” I rolled my head to the side, to look at him.

“What do you think is running through my mind?” 

“Lass I’m not a mind reader, I don’t know.”

“Yeah, that much is clear.” I rolled my eyes and stalked away from him.

When I got back to the group, Bilbo had used some hanging vines to climb his way across the river. The rest of us would then use the vines and also cross, staying away from the water. Dwalin went last. That way he could keep an eye on everyone to make sure they were safe. Thorin went first, and the rest of us followed. We were all in a clump trying to get to the other side. It didn’t make it easy, having all us in one area at once. There were a few times I almost fell, but Fili managed to catch me. He’s always doing that. When I turned to thank Fili, I noticed Dwalin shooting daggers, into Fili’s back. 

“Uh, thanks Fili.” My eyes darted between him and Dwalin.

“I feel it. Don’t worry, he’s just jealous.” 

“I doubt it.” I muttered.

With a little help, I finally made it to the other side, landing beside Thorin. Everyone else was still trying to cross, behind me I heard some twigs snapping. I turned my head over my right shoulder, trying to see what was making the noise. I saw something white in the corner of my eye. By the time I was fully turned around there was a white stag standing in a clearing. It was the brightest thing I’ve seen since we stepped foot into the forsaken forest. Thorin readied his bow, and while we were staring at it, let his arrow fly. 

“That’s bad luck.” Bilbo whispered. 

“I don’t believe in luck. We make our own luck.” Thorin responded. Watching it run off, I started to cry. I cried for my friends losing their home, for losing his family, for my fight with Dwalin, but most of all I cried because I had lost hope. Hope that we would get out of this forest, and that we would all come out alive at the end. I heard a dull thud, and a splash. My head whirled as I wiped my tears, and there behind me was Fili. In the water behind him, was Bombur, fast asleep. We got everyone across the bridge, and then they pulled Bombur out of the water by his braid. Once he was on dry land, we got him dried off, and he woke up. Then we were on our way again. 

We had been wandering for what felt like days, and the path was getting harder and harder to follow. I lost my footing and stumbled forward. Reaching out to brace myself, I latched onto Dwalin, who willingly caught me. He held me until I was steadied enough to let go.  

“Are ya, alirgh’?” He looked at me with concern. 

“I’m fine.” I shrugged his arms off of me, and walked ahead of him. The feel of his arms wouldn’t leave me though. They were strong, and warm. Oh so warm. They were heavy with muscles, hard from years of use. They were comfortable, they felt like home. 

I looked down, to try to occupy my mind, from thinking about him. I let out a loud gasp, loud enough to stop the entire company in their tracks. “We’ve lost the pathway again!”

Everyone started to call out and look for the path, but it was nowhere to be seen. We found some of our things scattered around, and discovered that we have been going in circles for who knows how long. We couldn’t figure out what to do, and everyone was on edge. They were starting fights left and right. I watched as Bilbo climbed up a tree. 

Dwalin was on the edge of a cliff overlooking the forest. He turned and walked over to me. “Are ya okay, from the spill you took?”

I looked up at him and the sound of his voice grated against my ears.

“I’m not saying that you’re not okay, you just don’t look that good.”

“Oh, I get it. I’m not good enough for you-”

“-Lass that’s not what I meant.”

“No. No, it’s fine. That’s why you walked away from me the other day.” He opened his mouth to say something, but I held up my finger cutting him off. “Nope. It’s fine. Don’t worry.” I patted his chest and walked away. He stood there watching me. I sat next to Thorin trying to fend off the burning glare of Dwalin. I tapped Thorin on the shoulder, “Are we going to get moving any time soon?” He was about to respond, when I heard a noise somewhere in the distance. I turned to try to pinpoint where it was coming from or what was making it. I couldn’t tell what it was. 

I placed my hand on his arm, “Thorin, do you hear that?” He turned towards me. “I think-AHHH!” I was grabbed and pulled upwards. Whatever grabbed me was screeching, in a most disgusting way. I reached for my sword, and started to swing. I nicked it and it screamed louder than before, then it thumped me against a tree, and everything faded into black. 

I woke up to my name being shouted rather frantically. “Hello?!” I called out. “Hello? I’m Here!” They continued to call my name, as if they hadn’t heard me. Maybe they didn’t. Out of nowhere a sword is about two inches from my face, and dragged down my body. “AHHHH!” 

“I found Y/N!” I looked up and Bilbo was holding his hand out for me to take. I grabbed it and he pulled me up. I did a quick inventory to make sure nothing was broken. Nothing was broken. I turned around and it was chaos! There were spiders screeching and dwarves fighting and being thrown around. One of the spiders turned and locked in on me. It was big, and screeching. The fangs hanging from it’s face are terrifying. Sharp and dripping with venom, or spit I couldn’t tell. 

I lifted my sword and readied myself. Once the spider was within striking distance I rolled under and thrusted my sword up. The spider screeched and rolled off. It was angrier than before, so it turned and lunged at me with a renewed vigor. I tried to get away from it, but it was too quick. It grabbed me and it lifted me up. I couldn’t fight it off, not with the way it was holding me. I was dropped to the ground and I landed hard on my back. By the time I got up, we were surrounded by elves, who were helping us fight off the spiders. 

“Don’t think I won’t kill you dwarf. It would be my pleasure.” A tall blonde  elf said, holding an arrow at Thorin’s head throat. More appeared out of the woods. Like they had been waiting, watching, for the right time to step in. I scowled at the thought.

“Search them.” the white haired elf commanded. Thorin looked rather pissed that they were here. They started searching everyone. They pulled a locket out of Gimli’s coat. “Who is this? Your brother?” He asked. 

“That is......my wife!”

“And what is this horrid creature? A Goblin-mutant?” Man this guy is as rude as they get. 

“That's my wee lad, Gimli.” I was so lost watching the interaction, I didn’t notice that an elf came up and was getting ready to search me. This particular elf, looked in every pocket, anything he believed could hide a weapon. 

“Hey, watch where you’re putting your hands, you creep!” I pushed him away from me. He grabbed my arm, stopping me from pushing him anymore. Others heard the commotion, and tried to push through to get to me. 

“Aye! Ye better not hurt em’!” Dwalin yelled. 

“I’ll rip you to shreds if you touch a hair on their head!” Dori yelled. 

Thorin finally tore free from the elf searching him, and pushed his way to me. “That is enough.” He pushed them away from me and pulled me up to Dwalin. He deposited me there, knowing I would be safe with him. However, he is the last person I want to be around right now. I’m still angry with him. We marched towards Mirkwood. 

As we were walking I started counting everyone. I turned while I was walking, and tripped over my own two feet. Dwalin caught me. I smacked him in the arm, causing him to let go of me. “Dwalin…” I whispered, he didn’t respond. “..Dwalin, we’re missing Bilbo.” He looked confused. 

“What?”

“He’s not with us. I don’t know where he is.”

“He’s probably fine. Don’t worry.”

“Dwalin! I can’t not worry. In case you forgot, there are spiders out there.”

“Love, he’ll be fine. Please don’t worry.” I gave him a swift elbow to the gut

“What is that for?”

“For calling me love. I’m not your love, you’ve made that very clear.” I stared down at my feet, for the rest of the walk. At the command of the blonde haired elf, they seperated Thorin and me from the rest of the group. I grabbed Thorin’s hand because I was scared of falling. Who designs a walkway without railings? Who does that? They brought us before a throne that looked like it was made of branches. The same as the crown on the man’s head. Thorin squeezed my hand in reassurance as we were brought before him. 

“Some may imagine that a noble quest is at hand. A quest to reclaim a homeland and slay a dragon.” He walked down the steps, and got in Thorin’s face. “And dragged a woman with you, how did this happen?” He turned to me.

“It just happened.” I raised my eyebrows at the end.

 “A woman in the company of dwarves, I can imagine a more desirous situation for you, than this quest. Does it not bother you that you are alone amongst men? Does it not bother you that this is dangerous, and that you might die?”

“Is this because I’m a woman, because I know you don’t have an issue with that. You have a female warrior amongst you, and others seem to listen to her, so she must be high up in the ranks. So is the issue the dwarves, or just your own ignorance of my abilities?” I heard Thorin snort at my side, and squeeze my hand once again. 

“You will not address me that way, I am a king.” He roared.

“ You are not my king. Is that why you wear those twigs on your head?” He sneered at me. He turned to the guard and said something in a language I didn’t understand, and I was ripped away from Thorin. I clung to the elf rather tightly as he led me further down into the palace. Again there were no railings, although the elf said nothing to me. It was the same slim blonde haired elf, from the forest. 

“Who are you?”

“My name is Legolas.” 

“Legolas, I like that name.” 

“Thank you.” We continued to walk in silence. We finally reached the dungeons, where he opened a cell and guided me in there. My eyes were still adjusting, but I saw another figure in the cell. I reached trying to feel my way around the cell. I grabbed the tunic of whoever else was in there. 

“Who is that?” I asked patting their chest trying to get a feel of who it was. 

“It's me, lassie.” My hands froze where they were.

“Dwalin.” I breathed out. 

“Are you alright? What happened up there?” He grabbed my hands and held them down at our sides.

“We were brought before the King, and I may have done something I shouldn't have.” 

“What did you do lass?” His voice took a darker tone.

“I sassed the king, and he sent me away. I don’t think he likes me now.” He immediately pulled his hands away. 

“Lass, are ye trying to get yourself killed?! He is a fearsome warrior, not to be trifled with.” Dwalin started raising his voice at me. 

“Look Dwalin what’s done is done okay?” We sat in silence for a while before either one of us spoke. 

“Lass, why won’t you talk to me?” 

“Because Dwalin I’m angry at you.” 

“Love-” I cut him off. 

“I already told you I’m not your love.”

“So this is about the other week.”  

“Oh wow look who’s finally using their thick skull. Yes it’s about the other week. You act like you’re interested, spend time with me, look and act like you want to kiss me, then you back away at the last minute.” I walked towards him. “And do you know what the worst part of all this is?” I shook my hands at him. “I would forgive you. I would go to the ends of Middle Earth for you, even if you don’t feel the same way. Dwalin?” 

“Yeah lassie?”

“Why did you do that? I just want to know.” He took a deep breath and looked away from me. 

“I-uh. It's complicated.”

“Then uncomplicate it for me. I know you feel the same way.”

“I-I can’t. Not right now. I’m sorry.” I threw my hands up in the air. 

“Fine. Whatever. I can’t do this right now.”

Chapter 9

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My top 10 favorite openings

Yeah I know nobody asked for it, but welcome to discover new music and hopefully new animes/mangas if they catch your eye. I won't include openings of romcoms or a few slice of life stories since I should make a different list for them. I'll add the name of the band if I find it. There's a couple of songs here from animes I didn't watch. If you think there's another amazing opening that should be listened to, share!

BTW I tend to listen to music on Youtube music, if you can support the work of these artists with this app, or Spotify, iTunes, or CDs, please do it!

DURARARA!! [Uragiri no Yuuyake - Theatre Brook]

Wonderful music, I don't have much to add since I haven't watched the anime but it looks interesting. This only time I'll only share the link to the video (couldn't find an official one) since I reach the limit of linked multimedia.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M5-4eQuExgE

MOB PSYCHO 100 I [99 - Mob Choir]

I always thought this was some uninteresting anime, and well I was totally wrong. The animation is AWESOME, the story is really cool and explores some interesting perspectives about life that other shonen (or seinen?) ignore. It has a different style, it's kinda plain at times (and this might be good because it avoids unnecessary complexity) but in my opinion, much better than some popular animes of the moment. I feel it's very original, and stays as part of my top 10 manga/animes too.

FULL METAL ALCHEMIST BROTHERHOOD [Again - YUI]

This might be my favorite song. If I ever fall in a coma, try to wake me up with it, I'm sure it will work. I might be biased because this is the first anime I watched (when I didn't care about these kind of series) and I love it, and it's definitely my favorite (I was lucky to be gifted the first volume in japanese). The melody is calm and the lyrics are heart touching. FMA is a manga and anime you should add to your watch/read list without a doubt. Sharing short version of the song to find the channel of the artist.

BOKU NO HERO ACADEMIA [The day - Porno Grafitti]

I will never regret being on the bus playing this song on my phone (with headphones) being seen by people who would think something about the name of the band (like listening to anime openings almost every day wasn't already a weird thing). None of the other songs of BNHA surpassed the greatness of this song IMO.

About it, even though it gets criticism I think it's a good story, and I feel it can be incredibly creative at times - there's a reason why it's so popular after all. I should also remark that it pays attention to a lot of characters, secondary or villains have good development (something that I haven't seen in other shonen or they fail to do it, and remember BNHA has A LOT of characters).

This story is definitely going to be long, I think it's close to reach its first half, expect probably 70 volumes or so.

NARUTO [Kanashimi Wo Yasashisa Ni - Little by Little]

Wait? WHAT? Did you really pick this opening over Silhouette? I mean, no offense to Silhouette and the fantastic band KANA-BOON, but I've listened to it so many times (best memes lol), and I already didn't have it as my favorite. There are other openings that I love (Naruto Shippuden this time): 2, 3, 5, 9, 10, 14, 15 (Guren is the best one IMO), 16, 17, 20.

You didn't watch Naruto? Then what are you doing here? It's a must watch! It's a shonen with beautiful messages, inspiring characters, and this song probably embodies one positive vibe of the story - best part "the most important things are those without any shape".

PSYCHO PASS [Abnormalize - ling tosite sigure]

This anime is definitely in my favorite list, I feel it's the best seinen I've watched. Its manga is an adaptation, but the original story is the one that's animated. Some people say that season 2 and 3 aren't as good as the first and honestly it's hard to do something more brilliant than the incredible season 1, nonetheless you would miss the progress of the story and interesting characters if you only leave at the first one.

It reaches some philosophical thoughts that not all sci-fi can explore on the same way. Don't expect it to be an easy watch though - you better click pause to understand every dialogue.

SHINGEKI NO KYOJIN [Shinzou wo sasageyo - Linked Horizon]

Yeah, the first opening is AMAZING, but I might have a thing for 2nd openings. I must say that the synchronization of the scenes don't make justice for the melody of this song, though. Attack on Titan might reach the top 5 best shonen (is it shonen anyways?) anime/manga of all time.

I saw everyone talking about it and praising it, so I decided to watch the first episode and I couldn't get through it because of its disturbing art LMAO. My eye is accustomed to other kind of art, but I have to say I WAS TOTALLY WRONG. Good thing the second time I watched it I felt comfortable and discovered not only a mind-blowing story, but yeah, its animation is fantastic (take a peek at a few YT videos showing the process on the making of Levi's scenes). I only follow the manga to be updated, and I'm bad at recognizing characters, but you won't waste time or money by giving this one a chance.

THE PERFECT INSIDER [Talking - KANA BOON]

I tell you, this is a list of favorite openings, it doesn't mean I've watched all the anime, but I'm going to do it thanks to these fantastic songs, and KANA BOON deserved a mention. Also known as "Subete ga F ni Naru" this seinen anime is based on a novel.

MOB PSYCHO 100 II [99.9 - Mob Choir]

Wasn't this anime already on the list? No, no it's not (?) I mean, HOW CAN'T I INCLUDE THIS ONE. Fantastic. I thought I wouldn't be able to fall in love with the new opening but after listening to it twice I couldn't get it off my mind. There's a reason, well deserved reason, why it got chosen for the Crunchyroll awards...

NEON GENESIS EVANGELION [Zankoku na Tenshi no Te-ze - Yoko Takahashi/Hidetoshi Sato]

Starts with an angelic voice to a disco-like rhythm, and it's without a doubt a fantastic song. This might be the most famous opening of anime. Pay attention or watch twice if you want to understand the story, though.

🎹🎹🎹🎹🎹🎹🎹🎹🎹🎹🎹🎹

There is a song that's missing, don't you think so? This one can't be part of a top 10 because it's honestly so amazing that leaving it there would make it shine less, and it deserves the BEST recognition.

Special mention

TOKYO GHOUL [Unravel - TK from ling tosite sigure]

If I'm in a coma and the song Again didn't work, then this one will wake me up FOR SURE. I love how it embodies the angst of the story, the tragedy, the bad luck of the protagonist. I recommend to read the manga instead of keeping too loyal to the anime - it's no surprise that SP messed up with the storytelling of another manga... Did I say how hard it must be to play it on the piano? Or even sing it?

[horansqueen]

BabyGirl 5.0

NOTES:

♥ this is based on a concept i received a few weeks ago and ppl asked that i made a story with it. ♥ i planned 3-4 long parts but i think it’ll be 8-10 short parts ♥ 3.8k. fluff. ♥ there may be smut but i doubt it and IF it happens it wont be as explicit as my other smut works. ♥ i didn’t proofread and if you read my stuff you know i never do because im a lazy ass. ♥ i am not totally happy with this chapter, but i hope you guys like it. Thank you so so much to those of you who still read this story. It means so so much that you gave this a chance and stuck to it as readers. thank you times a million! btw im sorry this is a bit late!! ♥ if you have any questions please dont hesitate.

♥ PART 1  // PART 2 // PART 3  // PART 4

                     5.0  ♥ GUILT TRIP & FIREWORKS ♥

HIM

"Mommyyyyyy!"

The yell coming from the living room made my lips curl and I  took my hand away slowly, looking up in her eyes. She chuckled and we left everything behind to walk to Chelsea who was searching through the dvds. I glanced back, not liking the fact that we didn't clean anything, but I tried to put my attention back on my daughter as she pulled on a movie, making a few others fall on the sides. She quickly turned to us, her messy hair flying around her face, and held out the dvd to her mom who took a step closer to grab it.

"It's movie time mommy!"

I noticed her face immediately change and I frowned as she looked back up and tilted her head, clearly torn and unsure of what to say.

"We normally watch a movie on Christmas morning." she just explained without sending me a glance. "You're welcome to watch it with us, if you want."

I slipped my hands in my pockets and nodded slowly, a bit unsure of what exactly was happening. All I knew was that this whole morning had changed me. I couldn't believe what being there with them made me feel, and at the same time, I couldn't really explain it. I wanted to stay, and I was happy when she proposed me to. I walked to the couch and took a seat right before Chelsea jumped next to me, making the whole couch shake. She leaned her head against the back of it, a large smile on her lips, as she looked at her mom put the dvd in.

I looked down at her and chuckled at her excitement before I noticed her shirt again. It was an old Ramones white shirt and it made my lips curl into a fond smile, this time. I didn't even look for it, I knew exactly where it was, and i didn't mind. It was not the only thing I forgot at her place and I didn't know if she kept the rest of my stuff but knowing this particular shirt survived through the years was endearing.

I remembered it was my go-to shirt during our lazy sundays, and even if i was always the one who'd put it on in the morning, she was always the one who ended wearing it during the afternoon. The first few times were coincidences, but after a while, I did it on purpose. I loved the way she looked in my clothes, but this shirt in particular meant lazy weekend sex and although it felt a bit weird to see it on a kid, it was also an incredible memory I cherished. And it suddenly hit me. That time we actually 'made' Chelsea was probably one of these mornings and seeing her wearing it now had an even deeper meaning.

"Have you ever listened to the Ramones?" I asked my daughter, grabbing the shirt between two fingers, near her shoulder, pinching it up slightly before letting it fall back.

She looked down at her shirt and then back up in my eyes, shaking her head slightly as she stared at me. For some reason, it made my heart twist and I sent her a smile.

"I didn't know what it meant." she admitted, tilting her head.

I chuckled low and licked my lips, bending down slightly.

"It's a good band." I explained.

She stared at me a bit longer and frowned.

"Are they on spotify?" she asked, making smile more. "Mommy and I, we have a playlist with our favorite songs."

"They are." I answered with a laugh.

The movie started and we both turned to the television. Chelsea let out a loud "Yes!" and I glanced at the dvd box on the coffee table. I felt my heart skip a beat when I read the title and licked my lips as a bunch of questions appeared in my mind. "Smallfoot" was clearly visible, even upside down, and when I finally looked up, my eyes met my ex girlfriend's. She sent me a shy smile before getting up and sitting on the other side of me. I didn't know why she didn't sit next to our daughter but I was too surprised by my daughter's movie choice to ask about it.

"It's Chelsea's favorite movie." she explained in a low tone. "Louis brought her to see it at the movies and when she came back, she begged for me to buy it."

I turned to her and noticed her lips curl immediately into a fond smile. I did the same and just nodded as I heard the movie play near us. Chelsea laughed and then talked with the characters, quoting them before laughing again.

"Did you tell her..."

"No." she cut me in a whisper. "I didn't tell her that her father wrote and sang a song in it. I just... I didn't know how."

I nodded slowly, not really surprised, but kept staring at her. She was close, almost too close, and I was suddenly aware of her arm and thigh pressed against mine. I cleared my throat and swallowed, trying to think about something else.

"For someone who doesn't like getting into other people’s business, it seems like Louis gets in ours a lot." I pointed out, making her laugh.

"Tell me about it." she agreed, raising her nose up in a grimace.

"Hush you two!"

We both jumped and turned to Chelsea who sent us an annoyed look, frowning at us. We waited until she turned back to the tv and looked back at each other, holding a laugh. I couldn't believe I was laughing with my ex girlfriend after so long and I enjoyed it more than I wanted to admit to myself.

"I'm gonna go wash the dishes, you can stay here with Chelsea." She murmured, getting up.

It only took me half a second to get up too and follow her to the kitchen. I glanced at Chelsea who was singing one of the songs in the movie and looked at the screen, smiling slightly. It was making me happy that my daughter enjoyed that movie, even if she didn't know her father had something to do with it.

I grabbed a towel and started drying the dished she finished washing. We remained silent, glancing at each other from time to time and trying to ignore it whenever our fingers would touch. It still felt electric, and I started thinking that if it was not from that big fat lie she managed to keep for five years, we could have a chance. This time, I wouldn't be so stubborn. This time, I would really give her all of me. The problem was that every time I thought about telling her how I felt, I remembered the fact that she robbed me from over four years with my own daughter, and that was something hard to forgive.

"So, that's what it would be like."

I turned to her, getting out of my own thoughts, and frowned. She sent me a sorry smile and tilted her head slightly as I put the towel on the counter, moving my body to face her without really realizing it. She did the same and leaned her hip against the counter, licking her lips. Her eyes met mine again and she sighed in a sad way, making my heart twist.

"That's what it would be like to be a family." she explained in a lower tone, as if she was ashamed. "You, me, and Chelsea."

I felt myself tear up at her words but swallowed my pain quickly, my eyes roaming quickly on her face. I hadn't thought about it but it was true, that's what our life would be like if we had gone through all of this together, as a family.

"Well right now we'd probably be with my family in Ireland, and we'd have a break at being parents because my mom would definitely take care of Chelsea and entertain her for as long as we'd be in her house." I added, smiling fondly at the thought. "And I'd lock the door of my old room and make love to you lazily on Christmas morning."

I watched her as her face changed and she held her breath, probably imagining it the same way I was. It was more of a memory from a few years back but somehow, I had the feeling it would be even better than it used to be. After a few seconds, she blinked a few times and took a step back as if she was trying to push away the thoughts, and me at the same time.

"Well, I guess we'll never know." she just said, turning her back to me and putting the clean dishes in the cabinets.

I watched her for about a minute but when she walked past me, I stopped her, putting myself in front of her and holding her arms gently. She didn't dare to look at me as I let my hands slide down until her hands before finally letting her go.

"I loved you, you know."

It was extremely hurtful to admit it out loud. I had spent years trying to convince myself I didn't have those type of feelings for her, and that losing her hadn't been the hardest shit I had to go through, but here I was now, admitting to her that what we had was more than a fling or some light infatuation. It was real, and she needed to know.

I was just not sure I was telling her for the good reason. Did I want her to know she broke me and that I would have done anything for her? Or did I just want to bring her into a guilt trip she may have deserved?

"I know I ruined it, Niall." she finally apologized in a whisper. "I know it's my fault. But I promise my intentions were good, at first. I didn't want you to give your dream up, and-and I thought you would resent Chelsea and I for holding you back. I-I thought you deserved to do what you like, and to become famous. I knew you were talented, I knew you were meant to succeed. I just... I didn't want us to be what would end it all."

No matter what my intentions were, I had managed to make her feel guilty, and for a reason I ignored, it made something stir in my stomach. Her words were genuine, and although the result was horrible, I knew she didn't mean wrong.

"It still hurt, you know." I pointed out, looking away. "When you wouldn't answer my phone calls and text messages I thought.. I thought it was the only way you found to let me know you didn't care about me, that you never really loved me."

I was bitter, I knew it, but I couldn't help thinking I had every right to be.

"I loved you." she quickly confessed, shutting her eyes tight. "I was... I was in love with you. And leaving you was torture. It was probably the most hurtful thing I had to do in my whole life."

There were so many things she didn't know, and I couldn't tell her. The words were stuck in my throat and I ended up trying to swallow them.

"I'm sorry we misunderstood each other so much that it ended up this way."

We remained silent for a few minutes and I finally sighed, closing my eyes for a while and finally opening them again.

"There's some sort of funfair, for Christmas." I explained, nibbling on my bottom lip. "There are games and shows and it ends with fireworks."

It seemed to take her an incredible amount of courage but she turned her head my way and her lips curled a bit.

"Yea, it's okay, you can bring Chelsea."

My heart was heavy when we looked at each other and I licked my lips, nodding.

"Thanks, but I thought we could all go. The three of us."

HER

I was sorry too, so fucking sorry that it all ended up like this. So fucking sorry that I cheated him of so many memories and time with his daughter. So fucking sorry that I made him think I didn't love or care about him. So fucking sorry that what I thought was the right choice turned out to be a fucking big mistake.

When he proposed we'd go all together, I felt guilty and almost refused, but the way he looked at me brought into me a sensation I hadn't felt in a really long time, one I didn't think i'd ever feel again.

I wanted to be close to him, I wanted to know if he could forgive me one day, and I was ready to do anything to get it.

For once, Chelsea and I were ready on time and when the doorbell ranf on the next afternoon, we both rushed to the door. I was glad my daughter hadn't asked any question about Niall, because I wouldn't have known what to answer. I didn't want to lie to her but at the same time, I wasn't ready to tell her who he really was, and I think he wasn't ready either. Besides, i felt like he deserved to be there when she would find out

The door swung open and Niall's eyes met mine before a surprised expression appeared on his face. He looked good, his hands in his pockets and a long scarf around his neck. He was wearing a beanie and I couldn't stop my heart from skipping a beat. He was dressed casually and It made me feel better for dressing up the same.

"Wow, you guys are ready?" he asked, an amused smile appearing on his lips. "If my memory serves me good, it's not in your DNA to be on time."

I raised my nose in a grimace but sent him a smile, knowing he was right and that I clearly couldn't defend myself. Chelsea rushed to Niall and wrapped her arms around his leg. The look on his face was priceless as he looked down at her, holding his breath in. I was endeared by his reaction and I took a step back to give them more space, even if it was useless.

It was not surprising from Chelsea to hug people, but I could see Niall hadn't expected it at all. When she pulled away, he quickly crouched to her level and sent her a genuine smile that she returned.

"So, Chelsea, are you ready?"

She nodded quickly, her eyes getting bigger with excitement.

"And, is your mommy ready too?"

With a glance at me, she quickly looked back at Niall and nodded again, jumping slightly, barely containing her enthusiasm.

The car ride was quite short and we ended up walking in the streets alongside other people trying to enjoy the fair. The first thing Chelsea asked for were fries but after eating a few, she handed the rest to me and begged for a ride on a carousel.

Niall and I leaned against the fence, both of our phones out, taking pictures every time she would pass in front of us. We hadn't really talked much, and with the discussion we had the day before, I was scared it would become awkward between us.

"Chelsea really likes you." I finally just said, waving back at our daughter again.

"She's incredible." he simply answered, not looking at me. "I know It may sound crazy, but I started loving her as soon as I found out she was my daughter."

I felt my lips curl, understanding the feeling a bit too much. Niall was going to be an amazing father, and I swallowed the guilt invading me once again.

"D'you think it's crazy?" he asked, turning to me, his arms crossed on the top of the metal fence.

His eyes seemed to shine and I shook my head slightly, sending him a smile. I moved a bit closer to him and tilted my head, my hair falling on both our arms.

"No, not at all." I admitted in a whisper.

I felt his fingertips brush gently on top of my hand and hold my breath, staring back at him. These moments seemed to happen so often between us that it was starting to drive me insane. Were we cursed to feel that way around each other forever without being able to get anything more? Was I going to lose him a second time? Once again, by my fault?

"I'm amazed that we actually created... her..."

He sighed and looked down, lost in his thoughts, but all I could focus on was the shivers that ran all over my back as his fingers still grazed on my skin. I wanted to answer, but I just didn't know what to say. He looked back up in my eyes and i licked my lips.

"It's a part of you, and a part of me, and now we will always be linked, you know?" he added, this time taking my hand in his and turning his body gently in my direction.

I nodded again, trying in vain to calm the beatings of my heart. He was close again, so fucking close I could feel his warm breath on my face, and I desperately wanted him to kiss me. I wanted to find out if he tasted the same way he used to, if our lips fit together as well as they used to.

He smiled at me and sighed, finally taking a step back, and watching him back away broke my heart. I tried not to show it but it hurt more than a slap in the face. I don't know what I was expecting anyway. Niall and I have been over for years, and although we had both admitted that what we had back then was real, it didn't mean the love we both felt for each other was still alive. The fact that I lied to him probably didn't help things, and I couldn't blame him for wanting to focus on Chelsea. But I was scared. I was scared to fall in love with him again, and realize that he didn't have these feelings for me anymore. I was scared to see him with an other girl, to suffer from having him so close without being able to really be with him. I was scared I could never find someone else like him, someone I would love as hard and as deeply as I loved him.

"Mommy! It was so cool!"

We both turned to watch our daughter step down from the carousel and run to us. She grabbed my hand with both of hers and shook it hard, making me laugh.

"I want to go again! Please!"

I laughed again but Niall quickly bent down to look in her eyes and answered before me.

"There are many more rides to try, do you want to try this one?"

He pointed behind her and we both looked at the ride with hot-air balloons of different colors that seemed to fly. Chelsea's eyes got bigger and she turned back to Niall, nodding quickly and making him laugh. She grabbed his hand and pulled him with her as I followed them, eating a cold fry.

When Chelsea was sitting in the ride, Niall stood next to me, one of his hands in his pocket as he dug his free one in the punnet i was still holding, grimacing when he noticed how cold the fries were.

"She's so happy to be here." I pointed out after throwing the rest of the foor in the nearest trash can.

"I'm happy too." he pointed out. "I'm happy we're all here together."

I sent him a fond smile. He didn't have to add me, but he did, and it meant more to me than I could explain. I tried to push away the fears threatening to invade my mind again. I had to take it day by day, or else I was going to drive myself crazy.

After winning a pink unicorn for Chelsea in a game, Niall brought us near the river. I held Chelsea's hand tight in mine, a bit scared to lose her in the mob of people surrounding us. I noticed she had gripped Niall's hand too and it made me smile. I felt like things would be easier now that i knew she liked him.

Niall crouched down again and immediately, Chelsea gave him all her attention.

"The fireworks are about to start." he pointed out. "Do you want to get on my shoulders?"

I saw her lips curl and she nodded slowly, waiting for his next move. He placed his hands under her arms and pulled her up easily, moving her so she straddles his neck. She held herself on his head and it made me laugh. His hand grabbed her legs and her head moved back to look at the sky. I felt like a simple witness of a new relationship growing right in front of me and i loved it, every seconds of it. I took my phone out of my pocket and took a picture of them together just as the fireworks started. My lips parted when I looked at the picture, barely believing I got to take a picture like that, especially with a phone. I sent it to Niall quickly and started a video to keep a memory of this moment.

I had no idea how i managed to stay so far away from Niall for so long, but having him around in the past two days had made me feel happy in a way I thought I never would again, and seeing him so kind, patient and sweet with Chelsea was an incredible bonus I hadn't expected. If I could go back in time, I wouldn't hide my pregnancy to him. It brought more bad than good. Unfortunately, it was impossible to start over, and I would never find out what would have happened between Niall and I. We could still save the relationship between Niall and Chelsea, and I intended to do anything I could do to make this work. Chelsea deserved a father like Niall, and Niall deserved to be in his daughter's life. I just hoped that somehow, somewhere, there was also a place for me.

[violetbeassst]

(I forgot to post this when I finished/published it but here, the prologue of my oc x Reader, Ajal is the name of the oc being shipped with the reader)

Prologue

Hello!

Welcome to another oc x reader of mine, enjoy?

I have a playlist for this fic btw!

Same name, Murderous Love, and the same cover image, feel free to listen to it on Spotify while you read.

The playlist is still being worked on of course.

// // // //

You currently lived in Varenga, a pretty large town, popular among tourists, and a place where quite a few people live, humans and irregulars alike.

Although most people dislike irregulars, they find them revolting and don't take the fact that they were once human into consideration.

Most people won't accept the fact that irregulars are naturally stronger than normal humans, some people still believe that they are all superior compared to irregulars, seeing them as a lower being.

You on the other hand, despite being raised to hate them you believe that it is wrong to judge someone, for who they are or how they appear especially when they used to be just like you, human.

You were raised in Varenga but ended up moving away when you were a few years old, parents had work and had to move towns.

You eventually came back when you were able to pay your own bills.

You now worked in the local museum in town, it was mostly a museum that had things and information on the town's history, dating back to when the town was first built to the current day.

You found it quite interesting.

You were currently in the town's library, you didn't have a shift today so you had the day to yourself.

Most of the time you came here to read more about Irregulars, to learn more.

Hearing movement behind you, you brushed it off, you knew people came to this library pretty often just as you did so it wasn't surprising for someone to be moving around in the bookshelves behind you.

A pair of hands slammed down on your shoulders after a moment causing you to jump and quickly suck in a breath.

Turning to look at who had spooked you recognizing them as one of your friends, Amon.

He was an Irregular.

You seemed to get along better with Irregulars than with other people.

You gave a smile while he chuckled and took the seat beside you, resting his arms on his legs, his body facing towards you while he bird skull cane was leaning against his chair; he didn't necessarily need a cane he just liked having one.

"Reading up on Irregulars again huh?"

He asked, one of his long horns... Er... Ears twitched while his cat-like pupils moved a bit while they studied you.

You were never sure if those were a pair of horns or if they were a pair of long cat ears, though he did have a long demon-like tail and small wings meaning it isn't impossible for them to be horns but it didn't explain how they could move like a cat's ears.

"Yeah, just trying to learn as much as I can-"

You replied before quickly adding more to your response.

"-Not that what you tell me isn't enough! It's just that my parents weren't too fond of... Well... You... No offense. So I never got to learn much growing up."

"No offense taken Sweets."

Amon replied with a grin, exposing his lines of sharp teeth. He always called you by some kind of nickname, you found it cute.

"So, I know you didn't come here just to hang out or maybe you did, but you most likely have something to tell me."

You said after a moment of silence and he gave a simple nod to that.

"Yeah, you know that guy I was talking about?"

Amon asked followed by a slight tilt of his head.

"The guy you said is practically death himself?"

"Mhm! He finally agreed to meeting you."

He replied and you were quiet for a moment.

"But I never agreed to meeting him-"

You started but Amon interrupted you.

"Ah ah ah, I know, but you did say you wanted to meet this guy that me and the others kept talking about."

"Should I... Go home and pack my things?"

You asked about to stand up though you were pushed back down into your seat by your shoulder, Amon pulling his hand back to rest on his leg once again.

"Nope, Dugal and Sauda are packing your things for you, Sauda is packing your clothes, don't worry. Dugal is getting the things we know you would want to bring."

He replied, you gave a nod before closing your book, getting up from your seat and returning the book to its shelf before following Amon to his car; he was going to take you back to your place where Dugal and Sauda were.

//  //  //  //

First chapter er... Well just the prologue but it's better than nothing lol

[ted-hyung]

as a b1a4 supremacist, what do you think one should do to get to know them? i only recently kind of got into them because i didnt really know them until sandeul released his solo album

that’s CNU, btw, used to invent long hair before nuest ren or seventeen jeonghan.

also used to rock hipster glasses before it was cool. kang daniel the shoulder gangster? idk her. it’s CNU.

anyway.

where should i start? BUT a major note to take about B1A4 is they went from this:

(RIP FASHUN)

to this:

hallelujah. read more here.

listen, friend, i go way back with B1A4. i literally cried watching this subbed video lmaooo skip to 43:40.

it’s from MTV MATCH UP B1A4 X BLOCK B eps 8. rip me wyd. let’s talk about B1A4 and block b. they were the shits back then yo. 2011 was their debut year; two boy groups from unknown agencies tackling two different genres and images and MTV GOD BLESS MTV GAVE THEM A MATCHING VARIETY SHOW. you can watch B1A4 cuts here and you will see the legendary dread!zico tryna to win over gentle jinyoung-hyung and FAILED BIG TIME who’s crying with me.

block b will always hold a place in my heart. do you know who invented hep hap? it’s block b. their “new kids on the block”, “welcome to the block”, and “blockbuster” albums have no fault. none. but then they’re hep hap no more and i lost them.

B1A4 KOREAN DISCOGRAPHY + PERSONAL SONG REC, from latest to newest. i believe you can find the newest albums on SPOTIFY JFC why can’t day6.

LET’S FLY (2011): please listen to “only one” lmao. “only learned the bad things” was so, so, so sweet for my skinny freshman ass. i love it.

IT B1A4 (2011): lbr “beautiful target” was the best. watch them grow from you zoom zoom my heart like a rocket to CNU’s iconic everybody say la la. also “chu chu chu” was super chill. “fooool”? you’d find yourself singing along upon first listen.

IGNITION (2012): EVERYTHING IN THIS ALBUM BUT THE TITLE TRACK AKA MY HYUNG JUNG JINYOUNG’S FIRST TACKLE ON PRODUCING GEMS. also sandeul has a solo track here TITLED “CRUSH” GO FIND IT NOW.

IGNITION SPECIAL EDITION (2012): “baby goodnight” is so iconic i’m still side-eyeing newer idols who aren’t singing it to the camera while they’re preparing to go to sleep LMAOOOOOOOOO.

IN THE WIND (2012): yes they graced us BANA with 3 albums back in 2012. “TRIED TO WALK” HANDS DOWN ONE OF THEIR BEST SONGS. TOP 5. i’m the president of na honja ireoke opening line. i have a shrine for that line. the most impactful opening line of all songs, korean or not. amen. listen to all tracks please please. you’ll find the B1A4 distinct flavor on “what do you want to do”. like. go. now.

WHAT’S HAPPENING (2013): B1A4 wore fancy stuffs during this promotion. me ghosta. but DO YOU LIKE BALLAD? “good love” had me on the floor. then i read the translation and i died.

WHO AM I (2014): jesus lord and savior. this album. jesus f christ man THIS ALBUM. LISTEN TO EVERY SINGLE THING HERE PLEASE. “baby” further wow me about baro’s voice. “too much” WHICH IS SANDEUL + GONGCHAN’S DUET? fuck lmao we’re talking about heartbreak here and mine’s bleeding whenever i listen to “too much”. “DRUNK WITH MUSIC” tho. wow CNU-hyung. killed. this. concept. i can’t. you’re lying if your shoulders aren’t moving along and if your head isn’t nodding along. it’s THAT good. you’ll feel the swag. seriously.

SOLO DAY (2014): summer means “solo day”. period. it’s my summer jam. it should be YOURS. “drive” is so so so good. it has asphalt in the lyric. honestly do listen. also if you’re JYP stan do realize B1A4 had collaboration with min and suzy and in this album, sunmi. awesome.

SWEET GIRL (2015): oh my girl visual slash vocal slash handsome girl jiho is in the music video for the title track “sweet girl”. life’s good. in “wait” BARO IS SINGING I REPEAT BARO IS SINGING AND BANA prolly cried everywhere. and jinyoung wailing i can’t stop thinking about you girl everyday, everyday? LMAO BYE.

GOOD TIMING (2016): “a lie”, undoubtedly quenched BANA’s thirst after one whole year. have you watched “a lie” live on music shows? if the ‘touch my cheek tell me i’m not lying’ isn’t the best point of all dance point then idk what to trust. yes, i’m that supremacist LMAO. “crushing on you again” is so sweet, so very winter season love song aka B1A4’s very own color. they should be dubbed as winter season kings because their releases during fall/winter (in the wind, who am i, good timing) are the be(a)sts. “nightmare” paved the road for winner’s “really really” LMAO i’m joking. but not really. i mean baro and mino are practically brothers. “in dreams” sounds so fucking dreamy, like i said, totally winter season love song. “i’ll find you” makes me long for someone it shall inspire y’all. “together” is the one last song that leaves you wonder if these singing strangers are really worth our money and time and dedication and the answer is YES BECAUSE B1A4 RECORDED THIS SONG WITH KOREAN BANAS. jesus.

okay.

it’s july 2017. my bro baro is acting in a drama now. sandeul, your man, has collab with a starship kid. does it mean we’re going to have another winter season album? i’d say amen.

bonus: this is my fave pic of them.

if you’ve heard of it jinyoung is a composer. he’s well noted by other idols and important people in the industry lmao. he also acts. wow. i don’t follow girl groups, but LMAO THIS SONG? “AT THE SAME PLACE” MADE BY JINYOUNG HELPED B1A4 TO GET MORE RECOGNITION. this time i gotta thank mnet for the opportunity. and for the girls who were so sweet fangirling towards my hyung jung jinyoung.

listen to my ult oh my girl’s “one step two step” here and say yes that you can hear jinyoung’s magic there. i’ll just link to the BEST FANCAM EVER.

HERE’S THEM SINGING THE LEGENDARY SONG THEMSELVES:

AND JINYOUNG COMPOSED THE NEWEST GIRL GROUP BOP “DEEP BLUE EYES” wow my hyung shall be crowned as THE PRINCE OF GIRL GROUP BOPS. like.

i cry a lot. but promise this is the last time. i cried watching sandeul’s music video for his solo debut “stay as you are” but y kno it already. help my bro reach 1 million views before a year please.

fun fact: been with them since 2011. never got into shipping business, just here purely for the music and the people. they’re like friends that i’ve known for a long time; we don’t necessarily stay in touch but i always think of them fondly, y feel? i find new friends as i get older every year, yet i’ll always be the first to congratulate them if they reach another milestone in their respective lives y kno? moral of this story: don’t ship for a long lasting stanning TROOLOLOLOLLOLOLO.

this is comprehensive.

i hope i helped.

everyone please have a good weekend.

[leatherwhiskeycoffeeplaid]

Divas of Storytelling Challenge

To celebrate my reaching 5K / 2 year anniversary on Tumblr and @kitchenwitchsuperwhovian reaching 300 followers we’d like to host a challenge near and dear to our hearts. A music challenge featuring female artists. These women tell stories with their music and what better way to honor them but to write some Supernatural fan fiction!

Rules:

Don’t have to be following me or Sandi but it's cool if you would

The song MUST inspire the story. It CAN NOT just be playing in the background. These women are telling a story in their song, make it into a story with character/actors from the show.

1 song  2 songs per-person and no repeats. Please send an ASK to myself or Sandi with your song choice as well as a back up. (You do not have to tell us who you are writing unless you’d like to.)

Can be any character, actor, insert or ship. Go crazy, write whatever the song inspires. Angst, fluff, smut, crack, or any combo of those things are welcome. Let the song lead you, be creative, rock it!

Feel free to use with any other challenge but please do not use it in a series unless it is the first part. One shots preferred but we still want you to be creative.

No word limit but please use a keep reading over 500 words.

Use proper warnings and tags!

Please use the tag #spndivas and tag Sandi (@kitchenwitchsuperwhovian) and myself (@leatherwhiskeycoffeeplaid)

Due on October 31st That gives y’all 3 months to write. Please contact one of us if you need to pull out of the challenge.

List of 30 Diva’s and (154) their songs up for grabs below the cut! (And it was super hard to narrow down btw) Link to Spotify playlist to listen to your song.

Alanis Morissette

Head Over Feet

You Learn

Eight Easy Steps

Everything

Hand’s Clean

Amy Winehouse

You Know I’m No Good

Back to Black

Love is a Losing Game

Tears Dry on Their Own

Beyonce

Crazy in Love

Naughty Girl

Ring the Alarm

Irreplaceable

Halo

Best Thing I Never Had

Britney Spears

Where Are You Now

Everytime

Womanizer

If You Seek Amy

Lucky

Carrie Underwood

Wasted

All-American Girl

Just A Dream

I Told You So

Cher

I Found Someone

We All Sleep Alone

If I Could Turn Back Time

Just Like Jesse James

Heart of Stone

Strong Enough

Song for the Lonely

Christina Aguilera

I Turn to You

Fighter

Beautiful

The Voice Within

Ain’t No Other Man

Candyman

Hurt

Dixie Chicks

You Were Mine

Cowboy Take Me Away

Without You

Not Ready to Make Nice

En Vogue

Don’t Let Go (Love)

Whatever

Free Your Mind

My Lovin’ (You Never Gonna Get It)

Faith Hill  

Wild One

I Can’t Do That Anymore

Let Me Let Go

Cry

You’re Still here

Like We Never Loved At All

Fleetwood Mac/ Stevie Nicks

Landslide

Rhiannon

Go Your Own Way

Edge of Seventeen

Leather and Lace

Heart

Crazy on You

Barracuda

Alone

Magic Man

All I Want To Do Is Make Love To You

Janet Jackson

Control

Nasty

What Have You Done for Me Lately

That’s the Way love Goes

I Get Lonely

Jewel

Who Will Save Your Soul

You Were Meant For Me

Hands

The Shape of You

Katy Perry

Hot N Cold 

The One that Got Away

Teenage Dream

Wide Awake

Kelly Clarkson

The Trouble with Love is

Miss Independent

Since U Been Gone

Because of You

Never Again

Sober

Dark Side

Lady Gaga

Love Game

Bad Romance

Born This Way

A Million Reasons

‘Til It Happens to You

Madonna

Live to Tell

Take a Bow

This Used to Be My Playground

Frozen

Don’t Tell Me

Mariah Carey

My All

Heartbreaker

We Belong Together

Touch My Body

Thank God I Found You

Miranda Lambert

Kerosene

The House that Built Me

Mama’s Broken Heart

Over You

No Doubt/ Gwen Stefani

Don’t Speak

Ex-Girlfriend

Bathwater

Underneath it All

4 In the Morning

Used to Love You

Paramore

That’s What You Get

Misery Buisness

Crushcrushcrush

The Only Exception

We Are Broken

Pink

There You Go

Just Like A Pill

Who Knew

Sober

I Don’t Believe You

Try

True love

Rihanna

Unfaithful

Hate that I Love You

Take a Bow

Fire Bomb

California King Bed

Stay

Rude Boy

Salt N Pepa

Push It

Let’s Talk About Sex

Whatta Man

Shoop

Shakira

Underneath Your Clothes

Objection Tango

She Wolf

Beautiful Liar

Hips Don’t Lie

Shania Twain

Whose Bed Have Your Boots Been Under

From this Moment On

You’re Still The One

You’ve Got a Way

It Only Hurts When I’m Breathing

Taylor Swift

Tim McGraw

Fifteen

Back to December

I Knew You Were Trouble

Blank Space

Style

TLC

Ain’t 2 Proud 2 Beg

Read Light Special

Unpretty

Dear Lie

Damaged

Whitney Houston

I Wanna Dance With Somebody

I Will Always Love You

It’s Not Right but It’s Okay

My Love is Your Love

[dsrajawat]

Oppo F15 brandishes the conventional checklist parameters like the 48MP AI Quad Camera, VOOC Flash Charge 3.0, and an in-display fingerprint scanner. And once again OPPO reiterates style as its pitch with a “Flaunt It Your Way” tagline. However since its 2020 and the market is highly competitive where every other phone looks up to snuff, we all crave a consummate proposition. After all, if you spend money, you want the money’s worth, right?

Over the course of using the Oppo F15 as my daily driver, I have raked in some thoughts which will address this concern. So, without slacking any time, let’s get to the Oppo F15 review. By the end, you’ll hopefully know whether it packs the required punch for the price you pay.

Oppo F15 Box Contents

Inside the box, you get –

1 handset

1 charger

1 earphone

1 USB data cable

1 SIM ejector tool

1 Quick Guide

1 Safety Guide

1 Protective Case

Oppo F15 Price and Specifications

Model OPPO F15 Display 16.2cm, 2400 x 1080, 20:9, FHD+ AMOLED screen, Gorilla Glass 5 Color Lightning Black, Unicorn White Dimensions and weight 160.2mm × 73.3mm × 7.9mm172 grams Quad-Camera 48MP Quadcam: 48MP (F1.7) Main, 8MP (F2.25) 119° Ultra Wide Angle, 2MP Macro Lens, 2MP Portrait Lens Front camera 16MP, f/2.0 Core hardware RAM: 8GBROM: 128GB

3-Card Slot can support up to 512GB

Processor and OS MediaTek Helio P70 SoC with Color OS 6.1.2 OS Battery and Charging 4000mAh; 20W VOOC 3.0 Flash Charge Others In-Display Fingerprint 3.0, magnetic sensor, light sensor, distance sensor, gravity, Accelerometer, TYPE-C, USB 2.0 Price Rs. 19,990

Oppo F15 Review: Build, Design and Display

The phone comes in 2 color choices viz. Lightening Black and Unicorn White. Ours was the latter one. It looks like a block of flavored ice or marble, which elicits attention.

Due to its polycarbonate build and slim profile, it’s quite wieldy. The buttons on either side are easily reachable and they offer a good response. And it’s always pleasant to see a USB Type-C socket and a 3.5mm audio jack.

The facade is as familiar as one could get with a teeny waterdrop notch and mild margins engulfing the display. That said, I felt Oppo could’ve trimmed a little black off the chin. But overall, cheers to the design dynamics.

Coming to the display, the 6.4-inch AMOLED panel is impressive, be it in terms of color attributes, viewing angles, so on and so forth. Both in and outdoors, I enjoyed reading on this screen. A fingerprint reader sits beneath the screen which works quite well. Lastly, the phone’s DRM L1 certified which means you can immerse yourself into an ocean of high-res OTT content.

Oppo F15 Review: Performance

For some weird reason, F15 bears an antique MediaTek chip. Gee Oppo, using a chip of yore is a bore. Especially, when you can get another P70 phone for half the price or even less.

The oldie runs as you would expect, bolstered by 8GB of RAM and 128GB of UFS 2.1 storage. The experience is, even more, marred by the ColorOS. It’s still Android 9 and TBH, Oppo’s skin job on Google’s vision for Android is definitely not my taste. Can’t cut slack to late Android updates, the convoluted mess of the settings menu, and over 20 junk apps. Seriously, you would find three browsers and similar bloat, which begs the question – Why? Overall, it’s jarring, outdated and outmoded. If you’re wondering the whereabouts of ColorOS 7, sadly F15 has got no mention in the announced timeline.

Having let off so much steam, it’s time for the good things now. Yea, even with all the gripes, the Oppo F15 handled the day-to-day activities like Instagramming, Spotifying, Netflixing, and Googling with no fuzz. As for the gamers out there, this ain’t a heavy-lifter. You need not raise your hopes up. But, its Okie dokie for casual gameplay. In my sessions, PUBG and Asphalt 9 ran fine under HD settings or medium graphics.

For the number-seekers, here’s how it fares in different yardsticks –

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Oppo F15 Review: Photography

The Oppo F15 boasts a 48MP quartet as mentioned already. Its given company by an 8MP, ultrawide cum macro, 2MP monochrome, and a 2MP depth module at the fag end. Since we are talking specs, the selfie snapper is a 16MP unit.

Before we gaze at the shots, let’s skim through the camera app interface. After using several Oppo and Realme phones, I’ve got accustomed to the UI. And even a new user can easily get a hang of the app. It covers all the bases and the options are at your fingertips. The ultrawide toggle, HDR, filters, lighting, and the general settings are placed atop. To the bottom, you have the Photo, Video, Portrait, and the miscellaneous ones bundled in a hamburger menu. Mind you, there’s no dedicated 48MP mode, however. Humph!

On to the photos then –

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Timing is an essence in this and the following snap.

Kudos to snappy shutter speed on the Oppo F15

Ultrawide bestows a broader perspective

Dazzle mode makes the perspective more vivid

Dazzle off

Dazzle on

Details and sharpness are lost on the edges of an ultrawide shot

Dazzle mode off

Dazzle mode on

Normal Portrait

Portrait with background blur

Dazzle mode off

Red looks juicy whence Dazzle mode is turned on

Autofocus fails to focus on the center of the flower

Tap to focus does the trick

The Macro mode in play

Colors are natural and pleasing even indoors provided there’s good amount of light.

Dazzle mode off, but look at the details on leaves.

Dazzle mode on, have a look at the details

I can’t upload this on Instagram or WhatsApp due to the dearth of details.

In good lighting conditions, the snaps come out just fine, with a decent amount of details and natural colors. Having said that, there are issues like unnecessary artificial sharpening and a scanty dynamic range. Toggling Dazzle mode brings out brighter saturated snaps, but at the cost of the texture. The shutter speed is prompt. I wish I could say the same about autofocus. The ultrawide snapper substitutes for Macro mode too. Good! But, there is no manual toggle and when you go close-up, the auto-detection felt kinda spotty. Also, the details and sharpness are lost on the edges of ultrawide shots. Bad!

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Night Mode off

Night Mode on, look at the sky

Sharp, crisp with ample amount of details (night mode off)

Ultrawide sucks the fun, however

Night mode off

Night mode on: Bye bye shadows, welcome noise

Night mode off

Night mode on

At the end of the day, low-lit and night photography also matters. A phone camera shouldn’t stop you from soaking the moments after dusk. Using the dedicated Night mode, the photos get higher exposure at the expense of noticeable noise. But it does not add any extra life to the photos. Therefore, in most cases under sufficient lighting, I preferred point and shoot without turning on the Night mode.

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Normal Selfie

Portrait Selfie

Normal Selfie

Portrait Selfie

As for the selfies, they are softened making you appear plasticky. The portrait mode does add some details and depth to the subject with some rim blurs here and there. Even the face unlocking works alright, albeit with some lighting and angle adjustments.

In the case of videography, the primary camera lets you shoot stabilized FHD videos at 30FPS. However, don’t expect any miracle here. Tip: Ensure a good amount of light for optimum results.

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Oppo F15 Review: Battery and Audio

Let me say this forthright – the 4000mAh offers a satisfactory mileage. You see that’s a genuinely liberating feeling to have. And when the phone asks for the charge, fill the tank using the in-box 20W VOOC 3.0 Flash Charger. It takes approx half-past an hour to go full.

There’s a mono grille that does a fine job in terms of loudness. Rest, there isn’t much to speak on the sound output. BTW, Bluetooth 5.0 is an absence worth noting.

Alright, time for the conclusion then.

Oppo F15 Review Verdict: Should you Buy?

Oppo chose a dog and pony show for the F15 launch, which might have curbed some of the enthusiasm, to begin with. Look F15 is definitely dressed to kill, but the MediaTek P70 chip turns out to be a buzzkill. It seems as if while putting together the phone recipe, Oppo missed the core ingredient. If you’re particular about gaming, anything with Snapdragon 730, 730G or even MediaTek’s G90T would serve you better.

Thus, Oppo F15 misses the OPPOrtunity to be a well-rounded sub-20k phone. In light of its uneven price to performance ratio, you may consider alternatives like the Realme X2, Redmi K20, Redmi Note 8 Pro, etc instead – which are all online-first phones.

If you prefer buying from offline stores, the OPPO F15 makes a lot more sense and is worth considering.

Pros 

Versatile camera features

Pleasing design

Satisfactory battery life

Appealing AMOLED display

Cons 

Garish UI

Dated chipset

Oppo F15 Review Oppo F15 brandishes the conventional checklist parameters like the 48MP AI Quad Camera, VOOC Flash Charge 3.0, and an in-display fingerprint scanner.