#bts sick ish

[katiesdailystruggle]

if yall get me - these first two eps of AYS have me in the TRENCHES 😭😭🫠

[fearlessword]

I’ll meet you in my dreams - Chapter 4

Summary: You dreamed of the boy who played piano before you knew who he was. Humming the melodies you heard in your sleep brought BTS into your life and you thought it was just meant to be.When you finally have the chance to see him perform live, you realize that the dreams you have are more than a coincidence. You hope he dreams of you too.

Slow burn/ Slow build/ canon divergence/ d-day tour / soulmate- ish

Pairing: Idol! Min Yoongi x Reader

Ongoing

Masterlist

Author’s note: I am alive! After the longest time, I am finally updating this! Chapters 1-7 are available on AO3. So many things have happened in my life in the past few months, even more during November and December, I hope to come here soon with more updates. Thank you so much for reading.

“You smile that beautiful smile and all the girls in the front row scream your name”

There was no sound and no light in the hotel Min Yoongi was staying in that night. Still, despite the lack of any outside interference, he was tossing and turning for the last two hours. He didn’t know where his body was taking all of this energy from in order to stay awake like that when was so exhausted.

He felt the quite familiar tingly sensation at the bottom of his stomach. He felt like his heart was literally cold, he felt like he couldn’t breathe and that made him feel a little desperate too. Logically, he knew it would be just another show, another tour. He performed for thousands of people, he gave hundreds of interviews and promoted so many albums before. He knew all of it, that should help him sleep. Just another show. He is a professional, he wrote the songs, they are all about his story. He can do it. He should be able to do it. It’s a challenge of course, being alone, but he performed on a stage alone before. His members were backstage, he knows, but he sure did. He can handle a tour by himself. Right?!

But he’s sick. His throat is sore and his body hurts because of a cold that came at the wrong time. The doctor said he should take more care of himself. The hectic work routine wasn’t a problem, after so many years, he should be used to it, so it’s obvious that he was frustrated with the situation. He needed sleep to make sure the first concert was successful, to make sure his voice was good enough, to have energy to see ARMY after such a long time.

Yoongi groans. He didn’t want to be worried about it. He just wants to have a great time before he has to leave. He wants to focus on the lyrics he himself wrote and that what’s to come is going to be okay. He moves around some more. He walks around the room, he drinks a bit of water, pulls his hair up, stares at his face in the bathroom mirror. 

“Get. It. Together.”

He doesn’t dare to get his yellow notepad. He knows he won’t be able to stop working until the morning if he decides to do so. He tosses and turns some more and almost cries in annoyance. He does breathing exercises to calm the monster in his brain that tells him something will go wrong. Yoongi does all of that until his tired body wins the battle against his anxious mind and he falls into deep sleep.

🪷🪷🪷

The second you opened your eyes in your dreams you felt your clothes heavy and your shoes squeaking due to the amount of water in them. Really? Again?

The storm was worse than last time, too. Bright lightning bolts painted the dark sky and the powerful thunders made you feel like the whole world around you was shaking. The amount of water falling all over your face made it difficult to keep your eyes open, but you could see the warm light coming from the same house of stone from your previous dream, and that’s the direction you ran to.

As you open the maroon door, the welcoming scent of the house envelops you. You immediately take your shoes and socks off and run up the stairs to the attic, in hopes that a certain someone was there again. You find nothing but the film reels and pillows.

You try not to wilt too much. You know it’s a dream, and you hoped you could talk to that version of Yoongi that your brain created. After all, that is the closest you’ll ever get to talk to him, even if it’s not real. You check each and every door on your way down to the living room, in hopes of finding perhaps a change of clothes, but all of the doors are locked. You reach the living room leaving behind you a path of water droplets that will probably stain the hardwood floor.

Shivers surround your entire body and you can’t help but feel annoyed by the situation. Is this some personal test to see how you need to practice patience?

You look around and stare at the logs piled up beside the fireplace, then, you stare at the kitchen cabinets and suddenly feel the gears in your brain making up a plan.

“Imaginary coffee in the middle of the night won’t make me stay awake if I’m already sleeping, right?” You reassure yourself out loud before making your way to the kitchen.

“Brain, I wish for coffee, and maybe an espresso pot, or something” you say as the sound of the doors of the cabinets opening and closing echoed around the room. You analyze the cabinet space, finding some pots and pans. You search for coffee on the overhead cabinets, but, besides mugs and plates, you find a single box of tea. 

“Chamomile tea?! Ha ha very funny”

That would have to do. 

You get one of the pots to boil water and go back to the living room just stare at the pile of firewood and try to strategize a way to light the fireplace up. It must be a simple thing of course, but it’s not like you’ve ever done it before. You get some of the pieces of wood and try to put them in the fireplace, trying to organize them in the right way before finding out how it actually works.

“Ugh! Why is the weather here always like this?” You let out a loud groan. You don’t remember feeling that cold last time you’ve dreamed about this place, quite the opposite, but you were also too distracted by someone last time to pay attention to the state of your clothes or your body temperature.

“How many times have you been here again?” The deep voice that comes from the front door makes you jump. Air escapes through your mouth as you put your hand over your chest in an attempt to calm your heart. You already know whose voice is that, hell, by now you could recognize it anywhere.

“It’s only the second time, but It’s been uncomfortable enough” you turn your face to answer the question and there he is in all his glory. Suddenly, the shivers are gone and you feel your cheeks burning and your heart tight. Min Yoongi combs his long wet hair with his fingers in a way that makes you feel so thankful for your imagination because it’s such a heavenly sight you could die. He takes his shoes off, and tries to loosen up the oversized black T-shirt, just so it could stick to his torso and his arms again. You are about to gasp loudly when he speaks.

“Need help?”

Yoongi’s hands grab the other edge of the piece of wood you’re holding and he’s suddenly right in front of you. Safe distance but so close. You wonder if he looks like this in real life or if the glowy skin and wet hair is just some sort of fantasy of the deepest and most delusional part of your subconscious. Under the golden light of the living room he looks ethereal, and you don’t understand how someone like him could exist in the real world. Before your casual look turns into staring, you answer him.

“Yep, that’d be great”

“Right” 

He kneels in front of the fireplace, takes a close look at it and starts talking to himself in Korean while rearranging what you tried to organize before. Then, he asks you for whatever you used to turn the stove on (a matchbox that you promptly grab and give to him). 

As he works on the fire, you pour water into two mugs and add the bags of chamomile tea in them, observing how Yoongi lights up the fireplace in a matter of seconds.

“Wow, that was fast!”

“It is actually a gas fireplace, so I just needed to find the switch. It was quite simple.”

Okay. Now you feel a little dumb.

“Well, Thank you, Yoongi.” You walk in his direction and offer him one of the mugs, which he grabs gladly.

“It’s Chamomile” you say.

“Huh” he looks at the mug amused.

“What?”

���Just ironic”

“Well, took me a while to sleep because I am too anxious for tomorrow, but my brain found a way to quiet my anxiety in dreamland”

“Guess I should thank your brain then”

“Anxious too?”

“I didn’t know performing by myself would make me that nervous, feels like I’m a rookie all of a sudden”

“You’ll be fine” you say as if you’re talking to your bias for real. “Look at everything you did… All of those singles, and the videos for ARMY,the documentary and the album, of course.That album is everything and more, you just write better and better songs every time it’s not even fair to all of the other artists out there.” You look at him just to find a shy grin on his lips. “ And your fans simply adore you, I know I can’t wait to see you tomorrow”

“Wait, are you going tomorrow?” 

“Are you kidding me?! I’ve been dreaming, quite literally, about the day I’ll see you, or real you play. I wouldn’t miss it for the world. Why do you think I’m so nervous about tomorrow?”

“I don’t know, tests to grade?”

“And here I thought my dreams were a safe place away from teacher responsibilities” you massage your temples, wishing your subconscious would give you a break “ But no, I will miss school to see Min Yoongi"

“You mean, you’ll miss school to see me?!” He smirks.

“Well, the actual you, yes, unfortunately the you I’m talking to right now is just a figment of my imagination”

“I could say the same about you” he murmurs and takes a sip of his tea.

“I don’t know what that’s supposed to mean” your eyes scam his face.

“I’m not sure if I know it either” he shrugs, then asks “Did you get good seats to the show?” 

“I’ve got soundcheck, so the view will depend on the time I arrive. I know it will be great regardless, I’ve been waiting for this concert for such a long time.”

“You’ve been now?”

“I thought it would be BTS, but it’s my bias, so I’m excited, of course”

“I hope I can be an artist that can make you proud, even if I am performing without the members.” And you give him a proud smile. This is such a Yoongi thing to say.

“I’m already proud. We all are. The MV today? It shredded my heart to pieces, although I had deja vu because I feel like it was exactly like what I saw last time I was here. I don’t think you understand how proud I am, and happy I can have songs like this to relate to. He, or you… I don’t even know anymore, will do well”

“You are feeding my ego, ________”

“But it’s true”

“Thank you”

“And I’ll be there, probably crying my heart out to ‘People’, that song probably saved my life. Oh God, I hope it’s on the setlist”

“That I can’t say, but I can ask you which song from the album you liked the most”

“Well, it’s too early to say, but SDL is stuck in my head”

“Funny you mention that” he says, and you arch your eyebrows in a question. “That one was written about you”.

And you sip your tea smile fondly at him, finding it comical how your brain created this scene of exactly what you’d like to hear the most from a certain someone.

🪷🪷🪷

The next morning, you wake up before your alarm clock goes off, but you don’t feel tired at all. Instead, you jump out of bed and go straight to the shower, ready to start the most unusual Wednesday of your adult life. You hum the songs as you braid the top of your hair on both sides to let it out of your face, and let the rest of your curls down.

Energy is buzzing through you while you get dressed with your best version of the Daechwita outfit that you love so much. You hope that the army green jacket is enough to keep you warm on this spring day, at least while you’re out of the venue.

You go to the kitchen to fix your breakfast and find a sleepy Camila brewing her morning coffee.

“How come you are awake and ready before me?” She asks with a hoarse voice.

“I woke up before my alarm and had everything ready for once”

“What’s with the three hundred chains on your neck?”

“It’s a costume, Cami.” you reply,  pointing to your whole outfit.

“Oh. Oh! I know what this costume is! But…Where’s the scar?”

“I practiced doing it multiple times in the last couple of days, but it didn’t look good. I’m afraid I’ll ruin the rest of my makeup if I do it right now.”

“Today is the day. Maybe you’ll have more luck if you try it one more time. I can help you”

“No worries. You've got to leave for school and I need to leave too.”

“When does this concert start again?”

“I guess around 8. Gates will open at 3”

“8 p.m.?! You are ready at this time in the morning for a concert that starts at 8 p.m?! You’ve gone mad!”

“You forgot the fact that we are talking about BTS fans, right now. People are camping! I’m already late.”

“This is insane! Completely insane!” 

“You gotta do what you gotta do”

“I would never!”

“I’ve also said that once… Look at me now.”

“Well” she stands up with her coffee mug. “I have to get ready for work. You have fun with your man”

“You say it like this isn’t just a concert!” You let out an exasperated huff.

“You say it like you don’t dream about this guy all the time and this is the first time you’ll actually see him. Also, he will be there, you’ll be there. You’re gonna have fun together at the same space”

“You should stop nurturing delusional me”

“You’re not delusional. Dreams can mean many things and I just know there’s something there. As you know, I’m always right.” Cami tosses her messy morning hair and walks away. “Enjoy, amiga!” 

“I will!” You yell from the kitchen table.

You finish your coffee and feel even more energy buzzing through your veins, you have no time to lose, so you just quickly get your concert bag, your ARMY Bomb, wear your sneakers and take a quick look in the mirror.

Your roommate was, in fact, right: The scar was missing. So you do it. Carefully, thinking about what that symbol meant to him, and what you made it mean to you. You look again in the mirror and, this time, it actually looked good, not perfect, but also not terrible. Feeling ready to celebrate the music (and the artist) that helped you so much, you walk out the door, excited to feel all of the emotions only a concert can bring you.

As it turns out, getting to the venue was not an easy feat for a Brooklyn resident. You’d have to take 3 trains and a bus and it would take you almost two hours to get there anyways. You were also supposed to take the bus with your concert buddy, after all, you had to get the VIP package together, but she was running late, which meant that, after more than one hour inside of the trains, you had to wait at least 25 more minutes to meet up with your friend. It made you arrive at the place way later than what you would have liked.

Now, you don’t know what you expected of an event with ARMYs, but you sure did not expect to spend most of your day in a line. You knew many people would camp, you knew many people would arrive before the time you woke up, but the amount of people in front of you in that line? That was just crazy. By the first 40 minutes, your poor lower back was already crying for help, and it was only past midday when you could actually get your pink bracelet with your number on it. Behind a thousand people, it was clear that the barricade was not feasible, still, you hoped you’d have a great view of the stage. Besides that, it was fun to go around with your tour lanyard and write messages on the pavement with chalk, and see so many people with flags of so many different countries. 

“I feel like this is a dream.” you hear Natalie beside you.

“Doesn’t it feel a bit weird that all of these people are here because they like the same thing we do?” you say.

“It does feel crazy when you actually see it!”

“I wonder how we will react when we see him for the first time…”

“I feel like crying just thinking about that!”

“I just can’t wait! "You jump excitedly.

“Well, we’ll have to…” Natalie points to the door “ There’s another gigantic line coming our way.”

The line that took over the one of the parking lots of UBS Arena gave place to multiple lines inside of the venue, for merch, for food, and to enter the arena for the soundcheck, of course. The moment you stepped inside of that place, you felt different. Your skin was tingling all over and your heart was beating faster than ever before. This is it. It’s real and happening so soon.

The fans were singing to the Agust D songs being played and you couldn’t wait to actually hear him. Natalie and you find the line you’re supposed to be at and sit on the floor, just singing and waiting for the soundcheck.

“We are actually going to be the first people to hear some of these songs live!” your friend squeals in joy by your side.

“If he performs ‘People’ in front of me, please tell my family that I died happy, it’s my favorite…”

You stop speaking the moment the music suddenly stops and you hear a deep voice saying something you don’t understand, just to laugh right after. All of the fans around you roar in excitement and that’s when you realize these songs are not recordings. It's him. It’s his rehearsal. He’s here and he’s laughing and you just heard Yoongi laugh and you will see him in a while and he’s real. This is not a dream at all.

You’ll really die a happy death.

“Okay, everybody! May I have your attention please?!” A member of the staff yells to both your group and the other line. “We will start letting you guys in, remember, no pushing, no running, be respectful and please, no photos or videos during the soundcheck. We will take you out of the venue if you don’t follow these instructions. I don’t want to call any of your parents to tell them you got hurt. It’s all for your safety. Are we clear?”

You hear hums in agreement and a single scoff behind you.

“Call my parents? I’m the parent, hell, I might even be the grandma”

Both you and Natalie turn in the direction of the voices and your eyes find a trio of women who might be a little older than your parents. You giggle a little and decide to interact with them. After all, what are concerts for?

“Well, I’m pretty sure some of my students are here, so I can say that I’m a professional at being a responsible adult”

“If they see you and something goes wrong, I’m sure there will be parents popping up to say that you should’ve done something. You see everything these days” the lady with the short dark hair says. 

“I even saw some ARMYs fighting and getting physical outside. I’ve never seen something like this before. This is not the ARMY I know, this is not spreading the BTS love.” The short lady with the silver, pink and purple hair adds.

“Have you gone to multiple BTS concerts?” Natalie asks the trio.

“So many!” The third woman answers. “We went to Busan last year and to PTD - LA”

“PTD in LA was phenomenal, we got front row seats. The guys must have been weirded out by these three crazy grandmas screaming their names” the colorful haired woman says. “Is Yoongi your bias?”

“He is!” you say “It’s actually my first time seeing one of them!”

“Oh my! It will be amazing!” She exclaims. “He is my bias as well! I was in the same elevator as him once… On one of our trips to Korea. Poor boy! He was so tiny in the corner, all because I held the elevator and entered. I couldn’t say a word, of course! I wouldn’t. I was just dying inside, and didn’t want to make him uncomfortable.” She laughs “It was one of those moments of pure luck. What are the odds? I always say there was life before Min Yoongi and life after Min Yoongi. I hope you feel the same way tonight”

“Wow” you say “And here I am, barely holding up after hearing his voice and knowing we are in the same place, you are a strong soldier!”

“I had to be! The poor boy would feel even more uncomfortable. It’s not easy being that famous! He has to worry about safety all the time, not all ARMYs will just pretend they are not around. You know how there’s always someone to stalk and show up armed around them. It’s so sad.”

Both Natalie and you kept talking to the three nice ladies until the line started to move and you finally saw the stage from the entrance. You try to speak, but a shriek leaves your mouth, your friend holds your hand and you go together to the left side of the stage. With so many people in front of you in line, you thought your view of the stage would be bad, but it seems okay. You are far from the barricade, but can see the stage well. Natalie isn’t pleased, being shorter than you are, even with her platform shoes. 

“I’ll try to squeeze my way to the front, or at least in front of the tall people”

“Go ahead, Nat”

And as she goes, not so far from your vision. You move in your own place waiting for the soundcheck to start and to finally see Yoongi perform. It takes a while. You step side to side, you shake your arms and legs multiple times, like a dance routine that you practice over and over again, for 10, 20, 30 minutes, until you feel it again, only this time, stronger. The tingling embraced you whole body, and your vision blur, you felt your neck and face hot and, for a millisecond, the only sound you could hear was your heartbeat, rapidly substituted by the thousands of voices screaming his name. People push you to the front to get closer to the stage and you try to regain your balance before looking up.

What you see looks more like a mirage than a person. The air seems to get lost on the way to your lungs and you are so overwhelmed that it makes you want to cry. You don’t, too focused on the man on the stage, and how he smiles and glows as all of his fans scream his name.

How can a man be this beautiful? You ask yourself. It's unfair.

He tests the microphone and the beat of ‘People’ fills the arena. Your heart skips another beat, and you get your ARMY Bomb and sing the lyrics of your comfort song with him. Happy is an understatement, what you feel can’t be described. You can’t stop looking at Yoongi, and when he comes closer to your side, scanning the crowd while rapping, you almost melt. You wonder if he can see the faces in the crowd and if he sees yours, even with the lightsticks shining so bright. The soundcheck keeps going with ‘People pt. 2’ and you have so much fun singing and dancing to the song.

“Are you having fun?!” Yoongi asks the crowd.

You scream and jump in excitement, just like the other ARMYs.

When ‘SDL’ starts, your mind takes you back to your dream. You try not to think about it, because dreams aren’t real and you can’t think about dreams and forget about reality. But when he comes close once again and points at your direction changing the key when singing “I’m thinking ‘bout you”, you can’t help but be a little delusional, even when you know it’s wrong. Later in the song, he comes close to the edge of the stage. Fans in the barricade go insane when he pulls his shiny hair back while singing the chorus one more time. You can’t stop looking at him, and admiring how he shines, when he points to your direction in the crowd again and ends the song.

“See you tonight!” he says, waving as he walks away.

The colors around you suddenly seem dull and the air feels so cold around your warm body. The screen that once showed Yoongi with his orange glasses and shiny black hair gave place for a video of rain falling fast, the sound of the raindrops weirdly comforting. You sit on the floor,  not believing in what actually happened in front of you, but sure that the actual concert will be bigger and better than anything you’ve ever seen. Now, all you have to do is wait.

[the-amazing-wonderss]

Waste it on me

A/N: ...OKAY SO NOT TWICE BUT BTS THIS TIME DONT@ME ABT MY SONG CHOICES 🤡‼️ Also my first time writing for Sakura because Mod 👻 wanted me to so i'm sorry if she sounds OOC, same with the others !! ⎯☠️

Content: Fluff, No gender specified for reader other than the terms 'lady/gentleman' used in Natsuhiko's part, yandere-ish behavior on Tsukasa's part, rushed and not proofread/edited. Summary: In which you are an anti romantic that's persistent to deny your feelings to them but they notice.

Characters: Sakura, Natsuhiko, Tsukasa

You say love is messed up, you say that it don't work. You don't wanna try, no, no (you don't wanna try, no, no) ⎯ From pushing and pushing, you don't seem to budge from where you stand. Instead you're waiting there for me. Waiting for my answer that you've already predicated. Am I that obvious? Or did you predict this as well?

It's actually hard for you to even notice that she knows. With her stoic expression and all, as well as her unbothered attitude, you never would've found out about her knowing until you had eventually confess.

But before that can even occur, SAKURA would remain silent and resilient to whatever nonsense you had to say about love. How it's foolish, silly, a lie, etc.

However one thing she does notice when you start talking about it is how each time you mention something different about it, there's always a distant look in your eyes.

Whether it's mentioning the way some couples act sickly sweet to each other or how they'd bring their significant other to some place special, there was always this... Longing expression that you yourself might've not noticed, but she did.

The way you stared afar for a while, making it quite easy for her to admire the look on your face. It makes her a bit sadden to see how you weren't honest with your feelings, but also understand why you weren't so open about it.

That's why she doesn't speak up about it, or try to approach you on the topic. She's the type to wait for your answer, and if you still weren't willing to? Well one way or another she'll eventually draw the answer out of you sooner or later.

I don't know your secrets but I'll pick up the pieces. Pull you close to me now ⎯ Why don't you leave me alone? Why are you such a thorn to my side? Can't you see that I hate you? That you make me sick? Just looking at you makes my stomach churn, so what's with that dumb look on your face for?

Oh he knows. He knows and he fucking loves it so much. Basking at even knowing but still chasing after your love is so exciting for him, especially when you kept trying to push him away and deny it all, he just keeps coming back.

NATSUHIKO as we all know him very well, is a romantic at heart ⎯ he'd go far and beyond to show his love for you, heck, even showing it off despite your counters against it.

And although he might not say it out loud for you or anyone to hear, he is a bit ... Hurt? For you, seeing as you weren't honest with your feelings and kept pushing it down, was it because of his previous acts of flirting to others that made you feel as if he'd toy with yours? Or was it perhaps a past relationship that made you see things the way they are now?

He didn't know, he wants to know but he didn't want to drag you into saying it.

So instead, he awaits for whatever your reason or answer might be while also still trying to court you in the best ways possibles for a lady/gentleman such as yourself.

Treat me like a comma, I'll take you to a new phrase. Yeah, come just eat me and throw me away ⎯ I don't understand what's so special about me that makes you act like this, so childish yet so loving... Is this some kind of joke to you? Are you pulling on the strings of my heart simply because it's funny? You're cruel to make me fall for you even more.

He knows and he's pestering you about it. Upset that you're trying to keep it from him while also finding it so entertaining, especially about the little comments you make on love.

Why did it upset you? Why are you denying it? It's interesting to see how you shy away from his touches due to not 'wanting to be in love' but at the same time, looking like a love stricken fool.

TSUKASA doesn't necessarily take too kindly if you keep up with this act though, as it soon becomes more irritating than interesting for him. So if you aren't admitting to your feelings by the time he starts switching up, you might be in a lot of trouble and find some of your classmates going missing.

He sees no point keeping them around if you aren't willing to have him either.

But...if you do end up confessing to him before all of that could happen, he would be so overjoyed! Bouncing around and clinging onto you as if he hadn't just threatened demanded for your answer earlier!

It did came out as forceful... Maybe even a bit worrying from how he made you get straight to the point rather than beat around the bush for too long ⎯ but in the end, you did end up getting what you wanted, right? You have him now and he has you.

(Gonna add this extra part here just in case some readers aren't a big fan of yandere endings: But Sakura would talk to Tsukasa at one point about it and let him know of your feelings before you even got the chance to. Instead, having him confront you about it rather than the other way around ⎯ so that he could take the initiative and put the end to this cat and mouse chase.)

[xoxiu]

twinkle - ot7 x reader

chapter 11 table of contents masterlist

summary: she had just wanted attention, that’s why she kept texting the strange number, updating him on everything in her life. little did she know how dangerous this relationship actually was. it had been jimin’s idea to kidnap the girl, but the ability to travel across the world to actually do it had been all hoseok’s doing. convenient how some things work, right? they knew that they were destined to have their baby with them, whether she wanted it or not.

tags/warnings: kidnapping, forced age regression, spanking, noncon, mafia au, drug use, stockholm syndrome, caregiver!bts, little!reader, nonsexual, diapers, panic attacks, fluff and angst, sickfic, referenced child abuse, unrequited love

Namjoon came home to a dark, silent house- an experience he hadn't felt in what seemed like decades. Ophelia had yet to fully settle in, so coming home to one of his housemates fruitlessly attempting to put her to bed was a common occurrence. He tip-toed up the steps (if he was the one who woke Lia up, his friends would not let him see the light of day. Lia tended to be a heavy sleeper, however, so there wasn't much need to be overly quiet) and to the nursery. Peering in, Namjoon blinked once, twice in confusion when he noticed the empty crib. His mind blanked, and he rushed to his bedroom to get Jin.

The bedside lamp's gentle light illuminated the room just enough for Namjoon to see his boyfriend reading on their bed with Lia resting on his chest. Namjoon's heart rate quickly evened out, and a smile crept onto his face at the loving sight. He softly closed the door behind him, causing Jin to focus his attention from his novel to the new presence in the room. Namjoon saw the stress and worry on the elder's face, his smile faltering in response. "What's wrong?" He asked, perching himself on the edge of the bed.

"Lia's sick," Jin whispered, stroking the girl in question's pink hair. Namjoon frowned and laid on the bed next to Jin- he moved Lia's hair slightly to see her pale, sleeping face. She felt hot to the touch; Namjoon could tell she had a high fever before Jin could even mention it.

"She must have injured her anal cavity from refusing to use her diapers. Almost immediately after that, she started spiking a fever and puking." Jin chuckled out of exhaustion, "Long and rough day; Hobi looked ready to faint until I made him leave."

Namjoon's heart hurt at the thought of his baby suffering. Even in her sleep, she looked distressed. While he was slightly offended Jin didn't bother to call or even text him about Lia, it didn't feel right to bring that up when there were bigger issues to deal with. Maybe in the morning, everything will have magically fixed themselves, and Namjoon would finally have his happy little baby. 

Nothing felt right to Henry. Nothing felt real. His sister disappeared without a trace and it felt like nobody was trying to find her. He stared up at his blue ceiling- he took down all the glow-in-the-dark stars a week after Ophelia left. It was her idea to put them up there, and it felt wrong for them to be there when she wasn't.

"I used to have a bunch of these things in my bedroom when I was little," she said with that signature Ophelia smile- wide and genuine, a smile that gave Henry a sense of home.

"They're gay," Henry quickly dismissed such a baby-ish decoration, but his big sister didn't take any offense. Every time Henry invaded her room he was infatuated with those small stars. It was obviously just an act- his way of saying 'I'm 12 now and I can't admit I like things.'

It's been a month. Ophelia left- no, she was kidnapped. Ophelia was kidnapped March 14. She turned 18 on April 7. Her senior prom was next week- April 19. 

Henry somehow got more depressed at that thought- Opehlia was so excited about prom. After school one day- two weeks before she was kidnapped- Ophelia took Henry dress shopping. He begged and pleaded to be dropped off at home before she went to the dress shop, to which Ophelia whined that all the good dresses would be taken in that short time frame. And so, Henry sat in the boutique for what felt like hours watching his sister try on dress after dress. "You don't even have a date," Henry complained.

Ophelia, the ever kind and caring Ophelia, simply turned around and smiled at her younger brother. "That doesn't matter. Do you want to go with me? They have a chocolate fountain that I know you'll love!"

"Ew!" Henry was disgusted at the thought of being his sister's date. Looking back now, he realized she only did it out of love. She could have gotten mad at Henry for pointing out her single status, but instead invited him to join her. From the movies he watched, most older sisters would be disgusted to have their little brother tag along to any event, better yet prom. Yet here Ophelia was, thinking of Henry's own interests above her own.

God, he did not deserve her. 

The front door opened, quickly followed by hushed voices and a baby's squeal. Henry's heart stopped for a moment until he remembered that it couldn't be his parents (it couldn't be Ophelia, either). Quickly after Ophelia disappeared, their parents ran off. Ophelia's older friends volunteered to watch over both him and Rose so they wouldn't get thrown into foster care. To Henry, it seemed like everything tied to Ophelia was full of goodness. 

The squeaking of his door made Henry flip over to face whoever was entering. The sudden light from the hall made him squint- had he really hidden away for that long? Grace stood in the doorframe, Rose on her hip and her own daughter, Ashley, holding onto her hand. Or, well, finger.

Henry knew little Ashley well; before Rose was born, he would tag along with Ophelia every time she went to visit Grace and Ashley. It shocked him how big she has gotten, being nearly two years old now. The thought of baby Rose ever becoming sentient kind of scared him.

Henry remembered how much joy Ashley brought both Grace and Ophelia, with Grace dubbing Ophelia "Auntie Lia." The two had been friends since they were little, and Henry knew Grace basically all his life. A little over a year ago, Grace brought the two siblings on a vacation over spring break.

"I got a sugar daddy, so don't worry about money or anything."

"Tell him to hit me up sometime," Ophelia gave Grace a playful wink. Grace gasped and softly hit her younger friend in the arm.

Their dynamic was sisterly and close, and Henry almost felt like an intruder when around them. The hotel room they stayed in that week was almost like a mini apartment, with a living room and a separate room for the beds. After exploring the rest of the hotel by himself, Henry returned back only to find the living space empty and soft voices coming from the 'bedroom.' He sat in front of the door, doing what most little brothers did and eavesdropped. 

"It's weird to think of how much you and Henry have grown up," Grace's voice hit Henry's ear first.

"Stop acting like you're ancient- you're only three years older than me," The familiar playfulness in Ophelia's voice made Henry feel at ease.

"I know, but I still you the two of you as the little kids from across the street." There was a pause until Grace continued speaking, "Am I doing this right?"

"What right?" Ophelia asked.

"This," Grace replied, referring to the sleeping baby lying between the two of them, "I have no idea what is right when it comes to parenting. Do I breastfeed? Do I use cloth diapers? When do I introduce solid foods? Do I co-sleep?"

"Shut up, you're doing fine," Ophelia gave her reassurance through the teasing way only best friends can do. "And for the record, aren't we kind of co-sleeping with Ash right now?"

Grace snorted, "Only because we couldn't get her to nap in her pack and whatever it's called. I'm just terrified I'm going to kill her or something."

"Don't say that! Both of you survived for six months so far, just keep it up for another six months, and then maybe a few more after that."

Both the girls laughed but kept it quiet as to not wake the sleeping child. A peaceful quiet filled the hotel room after that, and Henry nearly rose from the floor until Grace spoke up.

"I really do love you, Lia."

The now two-year-old Ashley climbing on his bed snapped Henry back to reality. Through his teary eyes (although he'd never admit he cried), he saw the hopeful expression on Grace's face. Once their eyes met, her smile only grew larger.

"We got a lead."

[spiceberrie]

7, 8, 11, 16, EIGHTEEN, 19, 23. yes we have discussed many of these before. yes i listed like 20% of the questions

so dark-sided that i'm shielding both of us like WE KNOW WHAT WE THINK.... whatever!

7 - what character hockey player did you begin to hate not because of canon but because how how the fandom acts about them?

technically they ARE characters in ficdom i just hate them outside of it too. i think ... maybe ... i soured on matthew tkachuk for a bit there because i can't stand when men are infantilized to that point. unsufferable. also zegras. just coddling and cognitive dissonance so in a way i have whoregate/zegras whole... season closing week to thank for some things.

8 - common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

i don't think i have controversial opinions like . mars and sasha themselves always (75% ish) agree with me so it's like if anything i'm with the common folk. maybe. there isn't much difference between sc87 and cm97 i think when you put in context very very different narratives + cmd coming later means everything he does can't stand in isolation. but still. sc87 is only as interesting as what you make of him.

11 - number of fandom-related words you've filtered

i can't even remember. jack hughes x r/eader nhl im/agines hockey player im/agines hockey player x re/ader. i don't really know LOL ted lasso ateez mattdrai 2919 drarry bts imagine bts s/cenarios bts ships destiel exo sc/enarios johnlock reddie richie sf9 stony taevin the rookie tkasaitil tokyo revengers twd imag/ine twd fanf/iction... honestly i don't even hate most of these anymore i just got sick and tired of it clogging up the searches LOL

16 - you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)

well 🙂. for all my hating i do understand the mattdrai hype i just don't understand common characterizations or i do understand them and i hate them anyway. i like mattdrai kinda so let's think about something else. i don't understand people who are still widowing over ty smith let it gooooooooooo. or ty jost. or tyson barrie. sensing a pattern

tropes that i hate are too many i can't even think of one. at one point i tried to mute "gay panic" and "confident gay" @ ao3 my tolerance is too low

18 - it's absolutely criminal that the fandom has been sleeping on...

my underrated flop poor meow meow underdog understated fave connor mcdavid.... LOL but really and truly: mattias ekholm has such good interviews and i enjoy the way he speaks. there's a new story to be written ruled

19 - you're mad/ashamed/horrified you actually kind of like...

also connor mcdavid. AND our problematic prosecuted fave brady tkachuk. i actually have enjoyed some mattdrai fics that are the magnum ops of the entire fandom fandom it's just that when it's bad it's bad lmao. i actually like sc87 and 8771/8728. i've been starting to enjoy mceichel too. honestly trevor zegras can be fun when he doesn't mean to be fun. the leafs minch cinematic universe are enjoyable when it's MINCHHHHHHHHH hours. and mars sold me on 1997 <3

23 - ship you've unwillingly come around to

this is where the previously mentioned 1997 comes around. i just don't get dylan strome on a personality level. pisces men astound me. i came around to 2919 at first and then i went back to my hater stance. mceichel because it's connor. 1634 because of minch and eversincewefellapart fic. 8771 after i read... i don't even remember what it was... and 8728 after mars also sold it to me and i love CLAUDE GIROUX now.

this was so fun thank yew

[orchidyoonkook]

You know I love to play games. ☺️

Let's do #3 and #28. One from the kpop questions and one from the random questions.

Do you wanna play a gaaame ;)

Hi Katy!!!! Thank you for asking 😘🫰🏻

Okay so!

3. who got you into kpop?

I have two answers for this? One that doesn’t count and one that does.

First is Gangnam Style, that was my unofficial start. But it was for a lot of people so I don’t count it.

And then I’d heard BTS songs (specifically DNA) before via social media but I didn’t know they were kpop or BTS at the time.

So when I watched Carpool karaoke to see what all the commotion with ‘this BTS band I keep seeing everywhere’ because I’m a don’t knock it till you try it person, I then did a deep dive on them and here we are 4 years later.

One of the best decisions I’ve ever made.

28. what did you do as a teenager that makes you cringe now?

Well aside from everything. I was very much a trend hater, and would ironically use trends to make fun of them and then it would stop being ironic.

My best example is for some reason during 2013 (ish) the word Boss was popular.

“That’s so boss” “they’re boss” “that was boss”

basically another word for words like ‘cool, sick, awesome, badass, etc’

And I look back on myself and just. *shivers in cringe*

Be yourself everyone. Don’t fall prey to trends. You will regret them as you age and mature.

[softpine]

i’ve been so busy lately and then i get extremely sick and i’ve been in a haze from all the pain meds the past 2 weeks so if i already answered any of these asks or if i forgot any, please forgive me 😩 i really have no memory at the moment jfksjds

awww thank you :’) i have such a soft spot for those moments where a character who isn’t normally vulnerable opens up (but only for one special person). and so does elaine!!

@lullabysimblr​ omg thank you so much!!! reading my story from the beginning is a herculean task fjskjds i really appreciate it 💖 i looove giving my characters flaws, it’s one of my favorite aspects of writing!

technically they all have iphones because i just use the same phone accessory so that i can reuse poses and just quickly recolor the screen depending on the scene :/ but i honestly can’t imagine any of my characters dick riding for any corporations fjksjds

 @alltimefail​ fksdjskj words have never been casper’s strong suit but it’s always fun to write dialogue for him!! and i’m so happy you like reading the bts posts because i feel like a self absorbed weirdo if i post them without someone prompting me first lmao so i’ll definitely post one for you!! i know i already sent you a dm but yeah i plan to combine the last 3-ish posts into one behind the scenes post because i can barely remember what i’ve already said or didn’t say 😭

so let me just say that it’s been a while since i watched season 1 and i haven’t started season 2 yet, so some of this might not be accurate. but!! i had the same gripes when i watched it but i eventually changed my own mind. the shrooms scene is definitely not a realistic portrayal of what shrooms would make a normal person act like, but these aren’t normal people. they’re teenagers who have been removed from society, are starving, scared, beginning to think they’ll never go home again, combined with alcohol, and they don’t even know they’ve been drugged (that can make you feel real crazy REAL quick). the madness was already started to take hold in them while they were sober, the shrooms were just the gentlest little push they needed to give into it. personally i dislike how media treats shrooms in general (or like any hallucinogen) because it’s never realistic, but i don’t think yellowjackets was any more unrealistic than any other trip scene i’ve seen on tv. i agree that it was a cop-out and nothing more than a plot device which is pretty disappointing. i would’ve rather seen them descend into madness more gradually.

as for jackie’s death... if i remember correctly, all the girls had just fallen asleep outside the previous night and it was only a bit chilly, not dangerously cold. no one had reason to believe they were sending jackie to her death that night by making her sleep outside. and i live in an area where the weather fluctuates rapidly especially in the fall or spring, where one day i can be wearing a t-shirt outside but within a couple hours we’ll get 6 inches of snow. homeless people tragically die all the time in my city if they’re not able to take shelter when this kind of weather hits, because it happens so suddenly that you might not even wake up in time to realize that you’re freezing (or you’re half awake but your body is in shock and you become delirious). so i don’t find that part to be unrealistic at all. i can’t really remember where nat and travis were at the time so i can’t say why they would ignore jackie, but if it hadn’t started snowing yet, they probably just weren’t concerned. same with ben, he’s a voice of reason but he’s not really good at putting his foot down. taissa didn’t want to disagree with shauna and she didn’t think jackie would die, so she didn’t say anything. that’s all just my interpretation obviously but i’ve seen a lot of people call jackie’s death unrealistic and i just don’t agree

i don’t even know what the bed glitch is, i’m sorry :( is it not the same glitch you can fix with an s4s batch fix?

thank you so much for the advice! now that the weather is warming up i’ve been able to spend more time outside which has helped a lot. i’m sorry about your grandparents, i’m sending you & your family all the peace and love ♥

i believe they’re still these eyes but i’ve customized so much of my main sims cc that i can’t say it’ll look the same. i also edited their eyes in that post to make stevie look like she’d been crying and to make elaine’s eyes more dramatic!

i think they’re these ones :)

[cripticbite]

"Waiter, my spaghetti is cold!" Game Design breakdown and BTS!

Hello, dear reader! Welcome to the nonsensical ramblings of an excited vn dev.

Here, I'll be pretending to know what I'm talking about; trying to break down the design process of my vn game, and how I went about creating my O2A2 Jam assets.

Spoiler warning for the story!

^^ pixel cat gifted by the lovely spiderpunkss on twitter!!♡

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Index:

1) Starting a game is tough (early doodles)

2) The chicken or the egg? (developing a background that influenced the game's genre)

3) Just who, exactly, is Sean? (developing the love interest)

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1) Starting a game is tough :

While the thought of creating a game excited me, the thought of writing, programming or creating multiple expressions for a sprite sounded tedious.

Getting over the dread of starting was possibly the most challenging thing I had to overcome, but once O2A2 popped up I thought, "Ten days and less than a thousand words? That sounds simple enough."

So I sat down and, without much thought, started doodling different waiters. Why were they waiters? No specific reason, really. O2A2 being a short jam meant I didn't have to stress about the story too much- I was aiming to have fun while experimenting, which the jam encouraged.

While doodling, a quote surfaced: "He isn't picking up the phone. Even worse, your pasta is cold! Unacceptable!". It sounded fun, even though I wasn't sure what to do with it.

But the more I thought about it, the more I wanted to form a concept surrounding this quote, and to bring it to life.

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^^ Sean's earliest doodles. To this day I still can't decide on his age. He seems to be around his early twenties, and holds onto a dream.

^^ This silly doodle inspired the final design the most. "His big forehead is somewhat charming." - friend peeking over shoulder at my doodles.

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2) The chicken or the egg? :

So- which came first, the genre or the background?

Typically, picking out a genre makes it easier to decide on your game assets and story, but I had a revelation midway that changed everything.

The quote I had gave me rom-com vibes, so I was thinking about ways to achieve that. Would the MC initiate the talk? Would the love interest be cocky? Would it just end up with the MC accidentally choking on a ring that was hidden in the spaghetti by the love interest because both parties have difficulty in expressing their feelings outright?

Worried about the time limit (for absolutely no reason, I still had 9 days left) I decided on the rom-com genre for the time being.

Set on a theme for my background, I pulled up some references I took IRL and got to forming the diner one chair at a time. After I was satisfied with the model, I started editing it and drew in small details that gave the background 'life', such as a board and some blinds (as seen in the in-game menu illustration- consistency is key!).

Then I was messing around with the hues when...

oh...

I really liked the purple-hued night edit.

It didn't really 'give' rom-com, but it looked really cool when compared to the morning edit. It just felt right, so I had finally decided on the genre based on the background: this game was going to take a romance/drama/mystery-ish path.

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^^ I was getting quite sick of chairs. And yes, I was considering adding a logo, but was worried about the time limit so decided against it.

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3) Just who, exactly, is Sean? :

Good question, me-that's-pretending-to-be-the-reader-that-asks-a-specific-question.

Even after having a doodle I wanted to base Sean off of, I had no idea what his personality was like; as in, who he really was. Creating a character that people could connect to or have the faintest interest in made me pause for a moment and ponder.

What makes a mysterious-and-lovable character? How mysterious is too mysterious to the point the player has difficulty in connecting with the character / it acts as an annoyance? How do I naturally reveal certain aspects without overwhelming the player or seeming too on-the-nose? What should I prioritise in mentioning within the 1000-word limit?

Honestly, planning this beforehand would have been the smart thing to do, and would have saved me a lot of time. But when throwing questions around wasn't getting me anywhere, I decided to finally sit down and just write the damn script.

I kept writing, hoping to reach somewhere, while trying not to overwhelm the player with too much info and stay under the 1000 word limit. When I got to something that resembled an ending I could work with (Ending A in-game), I looked through the script and realised, oh!

"So that's Sean."

It's like he blossomed out of the dialogue and flicked my forehead for forgetting to outline the story, in order to understand the characters and their motivations, like the dumb-ass I sometimes am.

We live and learn, folks.

So here's the gist of it: After figuring out he was the right-hand-man of Oscar (the supposed antagonist that relied on Sean to get people to talk through intimidation / usually front-and-centre of their operations / mostly 'on the field' .etc) his design came more naturally. Finally having a script also helped in figuring out his expressions / reactions, so that worked out as well.

It was also fun playing around with shapes in his character design. While squares can be found in his form such as his physique and apron (typically represents someone strong, reliable) he also had triangles sprinkled in his hair (typically represents something sharp, someone 'menacing' and unpredictable). The rules, of course, are general and can be bent; and the shapes can be mixed to convey different things, but that's a ramble for another time.

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^^ Some expressions I was trying out. Not everything made the cut o(>< )o

^^ The concept art helped me visualise the placement and size of the sprite within the game.

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And that brings us to the end of my nonsensical rambling.

I do hope you enjoyed, dear reader, and if you're thinking of starting out I hope I was able to help in some way, by lifting the curtain and revealing some of the magic.

You can do it, and your story will resonate with someone out there!!! Don't be afraid to take your first game as a learning experience, and have fun!

Until next time!

( ´ ω ` )ノﾞ

[katiesdailystruggle]

So I just watched the seven interview thingy for the first time today where jungkook talks about his struggle to fall asleep most nights due to his rhinitis.

I didn’t know this existed? Was anyone gonna tell me??? Lmao he’s so cute. Talking about how his nose keeps stuffing up so he can’t get comfortable to fully fall asleep.

Also pls get this man a proper pillow to support his neck lol. Anyways writing inspo is flowing now 🙌🏻

But he 🥹

[writingmochi]

lissie love ~

i apologize for my absence, i have been resting well these past few days…

oh no, i am sorry to hear that social media has such a strong effect on you… i know that there are so many platforms and so many people. it is almost overwhelming, seeing that humans as creatures are not meant to interact with so many people at once…

that is actually very clever on your part. there is a reason for everything ~

i agree wholeheartedly. it works very similarly in both cases. and that is an interesting quote, worded somewhat quirkily, but true nonetheless. everyone has that interest where they dedicate themselves entirely and i think it is rather neat that way. we all share that in some small way ~

it is especially true in k-pop, considering how complicated the lore can get these days. i myself am still not very good at understanding k-pop lore… the stories get too complicated for me and i need it explained secondhand to truly grasp it… do you have a favorite storyline from a k-pop group?

signed, 🩻

lissie: i'm sorry for the late reply, x-ray!

yeah... i've spoken about this with smiles when i did my anon reveal so I'll try reiterate it here. since i used social media from when i was 6 years old (my mom made me a facebook page so i could play games), it's been a part of my life that just makes me sick, especially with the so-called "innovation" that is just tech companies copying each other. i tried to erase my real identity from the internet as best as i could and let my internet persona/brand flourish instead. reasons as to why can be summarized into: i'm tired of seeing too much information and i don't wanna compare myself to others. building boundaries and quitting some social media that i use helps me to heal in a way...

aww thanks for that actually! i'll try my best to structure my stories in the most optimal way!

about the "everyone is a nerd of something" comment, i just think that it is much more fascinating when you try to plunge into the fandom yourself. but in order to do that, you have to have an open mindset too of course before you decide if you wanna join or not. i used to be in toxic fandoms before usually in kpop fandoms and i realizes that i like my position better as a casual listener sometimes fan in certain situations, like me with txt in a way where i don't follow each of their activities, watch their vlogs, etc and just be there for the music, to do, and live performance if it's worth it for me to go

i thought about it that way because i used to have a parasocial relationship with kpop idols (i think i still have the residue of it too right now) but it is not as strong as years ago because, ngl, i'm sick of being known as the kpop girl. and at the right time, kpop is introduced to a younger audience who, i'm sorry to say this, is much more susceptible to the toxicity of both the fandom sphere and the internet (possessiveness, parasocial relationship, ddos attacks, defensive behavior that might be too much, etc). because of that, i realized it is my time to actually venture out of the kpop bubble and ignite more interests. that's why i've been most attracted to geeky stuff like dungeons and dragons, indie video games, and even cinema where i found out about festival films that are much more exciting than blockbusters playing in the theater.

i would say that my favorite kpop storyline as of recently is ateez's. i like how creative it is with the theme of struggling people turned musical pirates turned revolutionary anarchists with the theme of music being the thing that set them free. for clean storytelling, i would also say bts hyyh storyline that spans from 2015-2019-ish i forgot. it's the first "mainstream" kpop storyline because, before them, most groups have an interesting concept that doesn't have any storyline (exo with superpowers and b.a.p as aliens coming to earth) and bts universe is pretty grounded if you remove the time travelling stuff. loona's lore is another one that i love because it connects member's concept and sound, subunits' concept and sound, and then the whole group's and its combination. other notable ones are onf, billlie, and nct 2018 & 2020

kpop lore is a double-edged sword in my opinion. you could make it right and make it connected to the group concept and each of their releases while sometimes you might do it too much that it actually turns people off. for this i use ateez and enhypen as examples. i always think that ateez's pirate/anarchist concept is blend so much into the branding of ateez like music video, merch, promotion, and it blends in well that it lets the group experiment with genres that could be implemented into the concept. while in enhypen's case, i think the addition of the storyline is too jarring in a way. we knew they're orphaned/runaway vampires based on given-taken but then why did they go to supernatural school for drunk-dazed and tamed-dashed to then abandoned that to make them be a rebellious vampire group for blessed-cursed and future perfect before returning back to their more vampiric twilight-esque concept for bite me? it doesn't flow well at all if we compare it to ateez's treasure, fever, and the world series

other than that, the concept of enhypen's storyline is not as blurry as ateez because the company is making intellectual property out of this. that makes it feel disconnected from the group instead of making the group inherit it. enhypen doesn't fully capitalized on the vampire concept because hybe is too ambitious by making ips out of their groups (bts with hyyh n chako, txt with star seekers, enhypen and &team with dark blood, le sserafim with crimson heart). i now know that hybe sees their groups as cash cows while kq sees ateez as an investment. also, you don't hear people utter the words "enhypen is the vampires of kpop" like how people say "ateez is the pirates of kpop"...

[zalrb]

YES!! Omg when he was giving Billy shit and like holding him accountable (which I do feel bad about ragging on Billy so much because he *is* an addict but he’s also an entitled asshole in general so like lol) I was HERE FOR IT! But his band mates are always like YES BILLY/YES DAISY which is so fucking annoying 😒 so it makes Eddie look like the odd asshole out for being sick of Billy’s shit. Ugh. It was cute when he called him back to sing his song tho 🤭 I would welcome chaos! The 70s were messy as hell. But nah, Camila is Good being his wife and having her little secret and taking the BTS photo of Daisy and Billy ~passionately arguing that ends up their album cover. Yeah. Sure.

The thing with Billy is what redemptive qualities does he have? Like all I'm seeing is the entitled asshole who cheats on his wife, I'm not seeing the "complexity" of his character or of Daisy's because it just seems like complex is becoming increasingly synonymous with shitty and I'm totally fine with a show that's just full of shitty characters *cough* Succession *cough* but I'm supposed to be seeing the humanity and the struggle and the difficulty of these characters and their situations along with the fact that they can be harmful and having a sad-ish backstory and a problem with addiction isn't enough for me to be sympathetic to the characters. I have my issues with This Is Us but I could sympathize with Jack and his addictions or Annalise and her addictions or Fiona/Lip and their addictions because they were fleshed out characters with nuanced situations and backgrounds, Billy is just a dick to me.

And yeah when I was going through the episodes I was like, lol I honestly stand by my original statement where I would just like to see a show about Fleetwood Mac because that messiness was messy or even a show about The Fugees though that was the 90s for the same kind of messiness.

But it would be fun to see Camila just be petty a bit and have Billy suffer. I am not here for resolutions I am here for mess.

[katiesdailystruggle]

I noticed this too

♡ the coughs :(

[starjumpingpanda]

I've started this not so accurate timeline of what we have coming up on The Rookie.

All dates are approximate - feel free to come at me with more exact information

September 10th Eric's IG vid - Bradford & Thorsen in car (heatwave, hence the shorts 😆) clothing seems to match the 5x07 promo

September 8th - 5x08 is called "The Collar" as Robert Bella's IG post

September 10th - Melissa's IG vid with Eric mentions Lucy dealing with a man with a "bomb strapped around his neck" (in a later BTS vid from set we see Tim & Lucy and stunt doubles on location)

30th September (ish) - Melissa's IG vid possibly Lucy in a black flower top and perhaps "waiting for Eric" can be heard in the background.

October 1st (ish) - Melissa & Eric on set doing S5 promo work. Lucy in a pink tee (does it say "HAPPY :)" on it?) & Tim in grey henley (looks the same as the 5x07 one?)

October 1st - Eric reading car plate 😂 on location. Big black armored police car behind. Source = Melissa's twitter

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October 5th - The 3 musketeers (source Melissa's IG) and "Bradford & Thorson" with some real cops photo/s (source Eric's IG) on location. Same car and street as October 1st.

October 2nd - Lucy in black top and jeans with her RING on her right hand. And Chris. What episode are we up to here? 🤷‍♀️ (Source = Melissa's IG)

October 12th - Melissa's "when you hear a sneak peek of what's to come #chenford" tweet 🤪

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October 29th - Melissa's "May or may not have shot content related to this tweet yesterday" (see October 12th) What ep would this be? 5x11? 5x12? 🤷‍♀️

October 13th - Robert Bella says they are shooting the last scene of 5x10 and waiting for the sun to set on location & Eric playing pranks on set 🤣

October 14th - Melissa's IG photo of her getting makeup done at what could be behind the railings of a sports/school baseball location & possibly?? a BTS baseball pic??? (I've got no clue where that baseball photo came from. Anyone?)

October 15th (ish) Melissa's IG vid - Lucy in white tee and denim jacket/shirt going to location.

October 25th/26th - Melissa's IG, Lucy all banged up & Thorsen covered in debris with bruises and cuts. What has happened here? And where is Tim in all of this? 🤔

I'm putting these two sets of photos in one collage below, coz Tumblr is dumb and has a 10 pic limit :/ EDIT: annnnd just including Melissa looking gorgeous even though she's sick...

October 28th - just a reminder that Melissa's "content related to this tweet" with "this tweet" being the 😲 of what's to come for Chenford 👆 would sit here date wise.

October 29th - As per Melissa's IG and a tweet saying she's "sick and bed ridden." Wonder how this fits in filming/scene wise? Or if they'll just work around it?

That's me done. I've probably missed stuff 🙈 and got dates wrong 🙈🙈 but it puts some of the BTS and SM in to some kind of order. Hopefully 🤞

[7darkshadows]

bts fic recs: part four

heavy smut - pwp, pure filth, one way ticket to hell lmao

romance - fluff, romcom, angst, may contain smut but mainly plot focused

poly/multi - reader x multiple members/ot7, usually contains mxm, basically everyone x everyone bc we love everybody hehe

note: reader/oc is female and uses she/her pronouns

🌹= favorite

heavy smut

New Guy 🌹

fuckboi!knj x org pres!reader (uni!au, e2l??? – TENSIONNN UGH, JOON IS SO HOT OMFG)

Reflection

sub!pjm x dom!reader (warnings: mommy kink, strap-on)

Please

sub!jjk x softdom!reader (mommy kink again hehe, whiny jk, lots of begging)

Kill to kiss you

mafia!jjk x prostitute!reader (mafia!au, warnings: guns, violence, YANDERE JK – the ending is so sick and i love it👀 why am i like this)

Satan on Strip

satan!jjk x reader

Prowl

vampire!jjk x vampire!reader

poly/multi

REC.

client!ksj x escort!reader x cameraman!jjk (softdom!ksj, switch!reader, sub!jjk, warnings: rimming (f receiving) – just really filthy ;))

romance

Love to hate (series) 🌹

CEO!jjk x CEO!reader (ceo!au, slow burn?, the e2l+fuck buddies combo✨ – the pining is honestly killing me and that's exactly why i like it, u already know it's good when it's written by shanna <3)

Puddle of Love (series)

rocker!jjk x artist!reader (f2l, slow burn, really angsty, they're both musicians)

Dead of the night (series)

demon!jjk x doc?reader (jk fell from the sky mc took care of him – im not sure if reader is a nurse or a doc im sorry lol)

Waking up in Vegas

jjk x reader (pwp with feels and it's just cute and funny – got drunk and accidentally got married in vegas)

Falling, falling, gone

campuscrush!kth x reader (uni!au, soccer team captain tae, f2l – they're both idiots and oblivious trope)

Absolute

fuckboi!jjk x tutor!reader (fuckbuddies2lovers – based on 'boyfriend' by ariana)

All the Good Girls Go to Hell 🌹

devil!jjk x reader (mc's parents are too *protective* so she rebels ;))

Nephalem

demon!jjk x angel!reader (established relationship, daughter of gabriel & son of lucifer)

Hotter Than Hell (series) 🌹

fallenlucifer!jjk x reader (e2l – the tensionnn, it's ongoing still waiting for the final chapter!!)

L'amour fou 🌹

serialkiller!jjk x psychiatrist!oc (oc named iris, thriller!au, very yandere jk – VERY WELL WRITTEN IT SHOULD BE PUBLISHED LIKEE, the whole concept is crazy and sick obviously perfect for psychothriller, got goosebumps)

Raven Unit (series)

jjk x reader (political!au, taskforce!au, jjk was assigned to protect the daughter of the president mc)

Ride or Die (ongoing drabble series) 🌹

mafia!jjk x reader ft. knj (mafia!au, exes!au angst – warning: drug usage, toxic relationship, kindaaa yandere-ish? behavior ig)

Broken Codes (ongoing series) 🌹

mafia!jjk x mafia!reader (mafia!au, e2l, one night stand – im a sucker for mafia aus especially when oc is also a baddie)

Flesh and Blood (series)🌹

zombie!jjk x reader (sci-fi, post-apocalyptic, crack lmao bff joon is hilarious – inspired by warm bodies!! i fucking love that movie)

Love Lockdown (ongoing series) 🌹

myg x reader (zombie apocalypse!au, E2L YESSS, my new fav ongoing fic)

Wasteland, baby! 🌹

myg x reader (post-apocalyptic!au, depression – angsty i actually cried i really recommend listening to the song(by hozier with the same title) while reading)

Wanderlust 🌹

writer!myg x reader (angst, fluff, strangers2lover – traveling together with yoongi and it's just very wholesome)

No choice (next to you)

fratboy!myg x reader (college!au, neighbors!au, frat party, fluff, angst bc they're both idiots – i feel like I've sinned enough that day i had to take a break from all that smutty shit💀 this cute romcom is perfect it cleansed my soul)

Shades of Wrong

slytherin!pjm x gryffindor!reader (hogwarts!au, e2l, quidditch – of course jimin is the slytherinest slytherin)

poly/multi

Getting Back into the Swing of Things (series)

ot7 x reader (FLUFF, rich ceo bts, bangtan are boyfriends, mc is joon's ex – they all fell in love yey)

drabbles/imagines/established relationship

in the soop | collection - jjk

again most of them are jungkook fics🙈

[katiesdailystruggle]

Also just saw that silent night(s) broke 21k on archive. Thank you sm beauties for supporting my indulgence lmao

[bts-hyperfixation]

Another Failed Pregnancy Test.

Warning: This is a reaction to Y/N struggling to conceive. I have added the majority under the cut as I know it can be triggering.

BTS reactions to you finding it difficult to get pregnant

Namjoon

You've been trying to conceive pretty much since your honeymoon… 2 years ago

He is smiling and trying to reassure you

The smile doesn't reach his eyes anymore

The doctor can't find anything wrong making it even more frustrating

The next night you come home to a perfectly catered date night flower petals, non pregnancy-oriented food, cocktails, and a movie set up on the projector facing the hot tub

You try to talk about your options but namjoon shushes shipped every time tonight is a night to let go

A few days later you research fostering can't hurt to help and love more kids while you keep trying

The more the merrier in your home

Seokjin

 You had decided to wait

BTS were the height of their careers when you got married and he still had military service left fulfil

A decision you regret as you stand hands entwined together in your bathroom 6 years into your marriage and another white stick showing a negative result

The doctors told you it be difficult but not impossible and that little shining thread was keeping you going

He pulls you in close and whispers the same affirmations as last time and the time before

He mostly just holds you so you can't see the tears in his eyes despite the fact you know they’re there

Yoongi

Baby number one came so easily

Your perfect little honeymoon baby born nine months to the day after your wedding

Around his 2nd birthday he asked for a baby brother or sister. You and Yoongi agreed it would be the right time to try again

But then his third birthday rolls around

Then his 4th

And his fifth

Still no joy

Luckily as he gained more friends he stopped asking but it didn't make you any less sad

Eventually doctors managed to find a complication they must have missed from your original pregnancy referring you to IVF or surrogacy

It hurts a little too much to think of someone else carrying your baby right now.

Hoseok

Hobi is the best at hiding his sad feelings

The first year and a half didn't even seem to dent him

Ever the optimist

He doesn't let you see the panic as he holds you close

You find the facility letter hidden in his desk while searching for a pen

It’s late when he comes home from practise you shower him with affection making him laugh and try to hold you at bay

He takes off his shoes and lets you lead him to his study

“Why didn't you tell me?”

“I didn't want to worry you”

“In sickness and in health Hobi.”

You open the letter together.

Jimin

Every negative is a challenge to Jimin

More research

New exercises

Food from old wives tales

Anything that could possibly have any effect

You draw a line at ice baths whole lemons trying to talk him down

It's only been 12 months and you’re young

You have time

You force him to relax.

You hide his books from him and turn the Wi-Fi off when he gets that look in his eyes.

Taehyung

Tae wants an army of his own

His own Vonn Trapp family production

And slowly he took you from two kids to four

Problem was you were struggling with one

The longer the negatives went on the more worried you got about not being able to give tae the only thing he'd ever asked you for

Your heart broke more every time he squeezed your hand and told you that you could just try again

You went to get checked without him

But he picked up the phone when they called with the results

He cried for a long time when you realised you were scared to tell him how worried you were

He spent ages reassuring you that just you are enough for him, and there were other options to have kids if you’re open to them, but he is happy staying just the two of you.

He was so busy trying to make you feel better, it slipped his mind for a little too long the doctor said you were medically fine.

Jungkook

Funny thing is for the first test you had been hoping for a negative result

You had been dating for two years and it was just after a world tour, and you’d forgotten to be careful.

It was the longest 2 minutes of your life but when it was over you weren't relieved

You turn to find JK with the same confused disappointment written all over his face

It's a long night of serious conversations that follows

Somehow landing on the decision that a mini you running around wouldn't be the worst idea

Sadly, the world had other plans

A year later you're engaged but still without child this was the last try before you went back onto birth control in order to set a wedding date that you could enjoy without pregnancy ruining the day

More than a little dismayed not to have your own little flower girl or page boy.

Tomorrow-ish Part 2

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