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[orchidyoonkook]

I wish you would write a fic where: UTWT Yoongi and Reader were cuddling while it was raining outside. 🥰

(This is just for that post you shared - although I would be over the moon if you did do this. But you do whatever your heart desires!!)

You're the best and I hope you have a lovely week. 💕

Rainfall Brings Tomorrow | MYG

Pairing: UTWT Badboy! Min Yoongi x (F)!Reader

Genre // Rating: (T) | fluff, touch of angst, some self reflection

Summary: You leave tomorrow, and there's one thing you need to say goodbye too.

Warnings: none! I think. Reader just thinks a lot.

Word Count: 923

Release Date: October 19, 2023, 3:00PM

A/N: Well I wrote this from 2am to 6:14am. I didn't even see this ask until about 1:30am and then I couldn't stop thinking about it. So I hope it lives up to your expectations, dearest Anon.

A/N 1.5: This was written in 3 hours and then only edited twice. I think it's coherent but if there are mistakes, please forgive.

The soft patter of rainfall falls around you, filling your ears with earthsong. His soft breaths flow in a steady rhythm to its beat, and the patio umbrella you shoved into the ground is doing its job well, keeping your resting forms dry from the delicate cadence of an afternoon shower. 

Your pond vibrates in its own little symphony of ripples, ducks hidden away in their nests while it plays. The boughs and branches of your home away from home rustle in its light wind, their tune mixing in beautifully with the rest. 

It’s cold and overcast out, but his body keeps you warm, as yours keeps his. He sits in your usual spot, back against the years worn wooden truck, while you sit against his chest, both covered by his leather jacket, preserving the heat you two were just beginning to learn to share with one another. 

It’s the day before you leave.

The day before you say ‘fuck you and goodnight’ to everyone and everything in your town, hop on the back of a motorcycle and never look back. 

But you needed to have one last visit to the place that brought you and Yoongi together for the first time, plus all the times after. And you wanted him here with you when you did. 

To say goodbye. To the one thing you would miss more than anything else.

Your willow tree. 

Yoongi’s arms circle your waist as you lean your head back against his shoulder. His touch still sends sparks anywhere it lands on your skin, and you hope that it never goes away. Hope it never dulls or fades. Because you’re learning way too fast that it’s becoming one of your favourite things, and you don’t even want to think of what you’d do if you lost it. 

A gentle kiss at your exposed neck, under your ear, lets you know he’s finished the page. But you still have a couple sentences to go as you hold The Mysterious Island open with a hand through the jacket sleeve for both of you to read.

You found it suiting, to truly bring this chapter in your lives a full three hundred and sixty degrees before closing it forever. And that’s what you need more than anything, you think. 

Closure. 

Because as much as you hate it here, and as much as you can’t wait to go, it’s all you’ve ever known. And while this change is good and needed and necessary, it’s also incredibly scary. 

You hate that a very small part of you doesn’t want to go, for the sake of familiarity. It’s safe here. You know what to expect. You know what will happen, when it will happen, what to do, where to go, who you’ll become. There’s a guideline written into your future by your past here. One you’ve never wanted to follow and always wanted to change.

But there are the absolutely terrifying ‘what if’s’ that comes with big change. What if you leave and it’s no better than where you were? What if you somehow mess all of it up? What if nothing goes to plan, everything goes to shit, and you’re forced to come back?

That’s your biggest nightmare, and it could very easily become your reality. 

But it’s not enough to change your mind. 

You’re going. Tomorrow morning, you’re leaving, come hell or high water or…maybe rain water if this keeps up. And you’re taking the man currently drawing you closer into him with you. 

He takes a quiet inhale of your hair, happily drowning in your scent. Yoongi’s still settling into the fact that the woman he’s holding is his. At least for now. The one that always caught his eye. The one that he never knew he could want so badly. The one who reads with him on a rainy afternoon in their shared space so she can say goodbye to the only thing that was kind to her, with him here to support her.

He’ll support you however you need, forever if he can.

His girl.

Pulling your legs up to rest the book on, you flip the page though your focus wavers, and you stare out into the shower blurred haze of your favourite place. 

This is the last time you’ll ever be here, so you take in every detail you can. The way the grass feels underneath you, the shape of the pond and the colour of its water. You commit the height of the tree and the ebb and flow of its leaves to memory as best you can. You take in the feeling of Yoongi behind you, remembering how he used to sit a foot away from you.

How every day, whether you realized it or not, he got just a little bit closer.

And before you can stop it, a silent tear slides down your face. You wipe it away but Yoongi catches it, and gives you a reassuring squeeze.

“You okay?” he asks. 

You are.

It’s just finally hitting you that your years of pain and loneliness and misery are ending. You’re finally taking control of your life like you’ve always planned, and better yet, you aren’t doing it alone. You have someone now. 

You can’t remember the last time you had that. 

“Yeah,” you say, lifting your chin to look at him. “I think I’m going to be just fine.”

Holding the book back up, you see you’ve reached the final chapter. And somehow you know, it’s the first chapter of your own.

A/N 2: Thanks for reading, loves. Xoxo, Yoon <3

[orchidyoonkook]

I adore your stories. I literally keep going back to them, they're that good! You're easily one of my favorite fic writers on Tumblr.

I was wondering if I could ask for some writing advice?

I used to write fics, and I have a ton of ideas that I'm wanting to write out. I'm even wanting to pick up and re-write an old fic. My issue is I have no clue where to start again.

How do you get motivated to write?

And do you ever look at your work and feel blah about it, like it doesn't seem to be good to you?

I am so happy this ask caught me on a catch up day. I've literally spent all day catching up on missed asks I can asnwer and reviews and messages. It's honestly like a little reward and for that I wanna say such a big thank you.

Onto!:

(note from future yoon: omg this is so long im so sorry)

I adore your stories. I literally keep going back to them, they're that good! You're easily one of my favorite fic writers on Tumblr.

Well I guess I'm starting this off in tears?? This is the sweetest thing literally ever and I cannot thank you enough for giving my stories a chance. I'm sure you know as a writer yourself but this is the most any writer could ask for in terms of feedback and I literally just wanna hug you.

Thank you so much for reading.

And the fact that I'm one of literally anyone's favourite fic writers is actually insane. Take that highschool english teacher! But in all seriousness I will actually cry this is so kind thank you thank you thank you. 😭😭😭♥♥♥♥♥

I was wondering if I could ask for some writing advice?

Absolutely, always. But idk how good it'll be XD

I used to write fics, and I have a ton of ideas that I'm wanting to write out. I'm even wanting to pick up and re-write an old fic. My issue is I have no clue where to start again.

literal story of my life my god how i relate to this.

How do you get motivated to write?

I don't. That's the thing. When I'm motivated it's like a fluke. (jsyk this is gunna be long because I cant shut up)

TWWWBAATTA was a complete and total fluke. I'd had a dream, it was the first act of the story. I loved the idea so much that when I woke up I wrote the spark notes of it in my notes app. And then I sat on it for two weeks. I hadn't written anything in maybe 4 years, let alone fic, let alone a BTS fic. I'd only ever written one thing prior that wasn't for my education so I had no idea what the hell I was going to do.

The idea kept pounding at the door of my brain, begging to be let in and explore every freaking nook and crany it could. So i let it. and after two weeks, I had a very VERY rough plot. I kept the ideas in either my notes app or a google doc, and i just let them flow. Anything and everything. And soon enough TWWWBAATTA was born.

UTWT came from a writing prompts list. I saw a prompt for "First kiss" and then thought "wouldn't it be cool if it was under a willow tree like the one in my hometown?" and literally 2 days later UTWT was written. -> Rainfall Brings Tomorrow came from an ask, it hit me out of freaking nowhere. I just wanted something short and sweet and ask fulfilling and RBT worked perfectly for that.

TDWV was the first thing I actively sat down and told myself to write. Halloween is my favourite holiday, and I wanted to do something for it last year. I'd had the title written down in my idea's note, and built it up from there. I went to pinterest, I looked at old and new "story ideas" on there and on tumblr lists. I essentially just pick and chose pieces of prompts and stuff from my own ideas and built it up from there. I had a general goal: spooky, yoongi, first attempt at writing smut -> because I always put a challenge in the stories for myself, whether that be writing something I never have or exploring a new topic or following specific tropes <- and then I chose a setting. And literally just built up the story as I went.

Most recently with PG, I'd been in such a writing rut, still am. But I wanted to write SOMETHING. and PG -> Pretty Girl was another thing I'd had in my ideas note. So I took that and then decided in order to just write, I'd write something easy and took a lot of my favourite tropes and decided to write off those. In this case it was older brothers best friend, age gap, forbidden love, yearning, possessive male lead, overprotective older brother and head strong female lead. And went wild with it. I didn't know the member I was writing at first, but then when I went to go write the vibe of the male lead, I realised it was Tae.

Once I have a general idea of the overall story I can usually just channel the rest. As in I can just write the story as it plays out. But sometimes it doesnt work like that and I get stuck, like with a Joon fic I've half started. I have the overall vibe, and I can feel what I want to happen, but I'm missing some key points or I can't see them yet so it's still vibing in my drafts.

So you can see I don't really get motivation so more of a it finds me and then I work on it. Sometimes I have to just make it from thin air. The thing that helps me most tho is I have to remember that I enjoy writing. I like doing it. I like telling stories even if no one else will like them. I like experiencing them with the characters, as the characters, as the settings and their props, i enjoy character creation and giving them their quirks and hobbies and backstories. It's not a chore to write their stories, it's a priviledge they chose me to tell it.

It's so hard to explain, but if you're having a tough time with the stories you're wanting to tell, it probably means they need just a touch more shelf time, or at least so is the case for me.

My advice would be to weave a fic into something you love. My female characters are often in the arts because I love art and creating it. I wove PG from tropes I'm a sucker for. I wove UTWT from a single idea and a tree from my hometown I've always adored. Little itty bitty things like this can drive story ideas and motivation because you can always go back and realise why you were writing it in the first place.

One of the most important things for me is to remember that somebody else has already done your idea. But you haven't. It's never been done your way. And idk about you, but I can absolutely say I've never said "Oh no! not ANOTHER forbidden romance fic! there's just too many of them" because there's not. I will happily read the same exact fic with slight variations a hundred times over. And so will other people, so don't worry about it being like others.

Motivation is something people think they need in order to to the big overall arcing task. But you dont. All you have to do is set aside an hour or three (I use 9pm-midnight) for the thing you want to do. If i write or plot or idea come up with for three hours a night, seven days a week, thats 21 hours of writing time. I could get out 2 sentences or 20k words in that time. But all that matters is that I did SOMETHING.

You don't have to do it all in one go. You don't even have to do it over the course of a set period of time. I started TWWWBAATTA in August of 2022 and I only have 8(?) chapters out. I work on it when I can, but I don't push it because writing is meant to be a hobby I enjoy.

As for where to start. Start somewhere new or somewhere familiar. Pick an idea or a previously written scene and write it or update it to match your current writing style. I cannot begin to tell you the amount of times I've picked up and put down a chapter of TWWWBAATTA because it wasn't what I wanted or I hated the direction it was going. But I always came back and either added or edited, and sooner or later an idea would strike or I'd figure it out through the repitition. Having multiple stories to bounce between has also helped me when I'm stuck. I try to keep three on hand, but two works just as well. Just to get a variation. Like I had PG going at the same time as the previously mentioned Joon fic another Yoongi fic on the go. All differernt genres, all wildly different plots and directions, and just being able to go between the three when one wasn't working to give my brain a breather helped a lot.

is that sufficient? I feel like I've just been ranting about my process versus answering the question, but it's through my process that I answer the question, does that make sense? If not, feel free to ask again or more specifically in exactly what you'd like to know, I'm literally always happy to talk anyones ear off.

And do you ever look at your work and feel blah about it, like it doesn't seem to be good to you?

A L W A Y S. alwayssss. All of the goddamn time. But I see it as a good thing because that means I'm improving.

Writing is one of those things that you will never reach the top skill level off because it doesn't exist. You can always get better, be better, write more, write better, write differently. It's a constantly evolving internal staircase that you will never reach the top of. Which is both extremely relieving because that means you can always improve, and yet incredibly frustrating because you will constantly be looking back on previous works like "what the hell was I thinking' because your style has evolved with the progress you've made.

I used to be so goddamn proud of the first chapter of TWWWBAATTA. I loved it. I thought it was the perfect opening chapter to this huge story in my head. It set up everything, I was just really pleased with it and excited to post it. But I reread it a while ago and my literal thoughts were "This, THIS, is what I was so proud of?? It needs literally so much work oh my god"

And then I remember that I wrote that two years ago, I have two years more of experience than I did before I wrote it. So of course it's not going to be as good as I could do now. But it was as good as I could do then. And that's okay. I'm still proud of 2 years ago me, and I'm happy she was really pleased with her work. She was excited and eager and happy to write. That's the feeling I try to chase with writing, not how good the writing is, but the feeling I get when I do it.

okay rant over, thank you for sending this ask in it was so much fun to talk shop!! I barely do it nowadays with new folks and all my friends are probably sick to death of me talking process XD.

I hope your writing goals are met and your ideas flow. But even if they dont, try writing something completely different. Try to describe a colour without using it's name, or a season without using it's key descriptive points. My favourite is taking cliche lines and reworking them into something different and more creative (ex: "My heart was racing" into something like "My heart threatened to break free from it's prison with nothing more than it's quick thundering beats" you get the gist). Or set a goal for yourself. Write four sentences everyday. They could all be one word. They could all be filled with commas and semi colons and take up half the page when your done.

My point, I guess, is to just write. Whether it's good or bad, doesnt matter, you can always fix it later. Editing is the easy part, you just gotta get the ideas down first, and then refine from there.

[orchidyoonkook]

Tumblr did that to me too. All of a sudden I have 100 less followers what happening!

Oh I’m so glad I’m not alone!! I saw by accident by going to answer and just got jump scared (in a small way). It’s slightly discouraging because like. I don’t know who they were. What if they were moots or my darling anons. I don’t know who was taken from me!! And I check every account that’s followed me so I know it wasn’t p.rn bots or anything like that.

I care WAY too much but like. Knowing I’m not alone is very relieving.

[orchidyoonkook]

Hey babes how you doing,

just wanted to check in on you.☺️☺️ you popped up in my mind and i had to stop by.

I'm doing good!! I finally have a bit of a spare moment for the first time in a while so I'm trying to make the most of it while balancing rest into it as well.

My month's been a touch crazy between going to a Con, 3 concerts, seeing Ateez(!!!!!!!), hosting guests for multiple days, meeting online friends and being able to hang out with them for multiple days(!!!!) after 3 year long online friendships, going out with childhood friends I almost never get to see, going to a bar for the first time in my adult life outside of a work function, going to my in laws for a weekend, and working a fulltime job on top of regular shit like house work and getting groceries XD.

This is why writing and being online hasn't been a super huge priority as I've always preached one's IRL life must come first. I try my best to write here and there, edit as well, and then come on here and talk to folks and post a bit before life becomes life again. I'm hoping things calm down a bit towards the fall and winter. Ya girly is AuDHD and so I also have to rest more than average person to recover, and I can tell I need it XD.

I hope you're doing well too!! I'm not sure who this is but my well wishes remain the same. Thanks for letting me chat and catch you up on the crazy that's my life rn. I appreciate you very very much <<<33

[orchidyoonkook]

hello miss yoon. im here to ask your opinion on mr. lilmeowmeows scandal 🎤

-✨

Hello Mx Star ♥️♥️♥️♥️

I think he’s a grown man who’s not perfect and will make mistakes.

I think he should’ve known better.

I think it should’ve been a private matter that no one should’ve been made aware of and handled privately.

He’s human. His mistakes will happen. But I don’t think they should’ve been publicized the way they were. It’s none of my business what a stranger does on his days off. And that’s just how I think we should all see it. But he’s a celebrity and a very famous one at that. So people will be fast to tear him down and build him up. And it’s sad.

If he was my friend I would’ve been the person to curse him out when he was sober because I care. But I also would’ve been the person to pay his bail and get him outta the metaphorical jail cell at 4am. Because that’s who I am.

[orchidyoonkook]

Hey orchid! I'm going to Ateez tonight too! Hope you have an amazing time!

Omg babe I hope you had the absolute BEST TIME EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[orchidyoonkook]

https://www.instagram.com/p/C11dEjBLbMB/?igsh=NzN4dnFoZjNtcDAz

i'm gonna share this here cuz i've seen that remmy is shocked too 😭 (helloooo remmy) but thing is that they didn't specifically said that is was tae but everyone says that it's him and they also tagged celine so 👀

-✨

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MY GOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDDDDD

I’m going to literally combust if we get blue tae back.

COMBUST.

[orchidyoonkook]

Raise your hand if you too have a lot of feelings about Jungkook, like this is not fair, he inspires a shocking level of clinginess and fondness in me sometimes, even when he's being objectively exasperating?? I don't fully understand it. -🦕

🤚🏻🤚🏻🤚🏻And it’s especially bad because he knows his power. He KNOWSSS how much control he has over us and he abuses it.

Because we love him when he’s cute. And hot. And sexy. And being annoying ASF! We love that giant ass dork who sings karaoke at 3am for hours just to spend some time with us.

I can’t blame you. I really can’t. He’s soft and hard and everything in between.

[orchidyoonkook]

I really mis low res tour cryptid Yoongi ngl

But mom I love him!!

[orchidyoonkook]

What phone do you have that camera quality on the flower photos is delicious.😭

I'm trying to get a new phone with a good camera

iPhone 15!! Just the normal one. I’m a big photo taker so I really wanted a good quality camera. It’s pricier (cuz Apple) but I personally find it worth it.

Here’s some others I took with this camera as well as a video using the cinematic feature:

[orchidyoonkook]

I'm the anonymous person from before..

I won't get into too much details about my personal conditions so I'm only giving enough details for you to know my remedies for migraines that might help. But, some remedies, you have already done by now.

So I severe from migraines a lot. And because I'm autistic, I've always had many migraines because of sensory overload type situations that would last days and even a week. Depends on the situations though.

Some of these are my "remedies" for my migraines.

Laying, even sleeping if that sleeps, in the darkest room you have so I would suggest covering your windows if you need to darken the room to make it less bright. Laying with an eye mask might help with that.

Ice. I recently got this icepack that's like wearing an eye mask, and it's giving enough pressure to your whole head (without hurting you) that tends to seem relaxing. But I don't think you have that. So you ice, ice packs, on your head and neck. Wearing the ice around your ice would be more effective than one your head from my personal experiences.

Drinking water. Coconut water, if you could actually be able to drink it since not everyone enjoys the flavor, is the real water that actually will help hydrate you faster. Mineral waters like fiji could help since lots of those waters have electrolytes. Maybe consume salty foods like soup or chips, or even a pinch of salt on your tongue, just to keep the water in your body. Since not everyone knows salt retains the water in body.

Ibuprofen. Or whichever medicine you usually take.. I would have said to try taking turmeric? Turmeric helps with head and body pains if it's a more holistic approach. Maybe add to your food? Supplements?

Bathing. Warm, or even hot, baths and showers. A hot salt water bath could help? Or just a regular hot shower. Not everyone knows a warm water may actually help with migraines. Since showers and baths are considered to be forms of heat therapy for migraines. They say that among other heat-related remedies, a warm shower has the power to stop pain signals from traveling to the brain and increase blood flow, which can help soothe muscles.

Eating. Because sometimes lack of eating causes migraines too.

Don't know if I missed anything? I was trying to think of my remedies.

Let me just say that I love you so much. I’ve only started getting migraines in the last 5-7 years so it’s still “new” to me.

Just wanted to start off saying thank you thank you thank you. I’m currently undiagnosed but very likely to be autistic as well and it’s only really presented itself fully in the last few years, meaning I’ve always had it, obvi, but I only recently started unmasking. So just learning that that could be a cause is something new and so super useful.

As for the dark room and laying down. I spent about 70% of the last two days sleeping and lying down hoping it would help. And it did a little bit.

The dark room is usually what I do for my severe migraines. I lock myself in my bathrooms and put a towel at the bottom of the door.

Ice is something I never thought about! I’ll have to go get some ice packs!!! I have a heat pad but no ice packs.

If I plug my nose I can drink coconut water but I’ve been guzzling all weekend I can promise you that ♥️.

I don’t have ibuprofen on hand but I did take a shit ton of acetaminophen and it unfortunately did nothing. however I’ve never tried tumeric so I will have to keep that on hand as well!!

And a shower was actually one of the first things I tried because I know it always helps. And it did. But I can’t stay in the shower for 48 hours :(. Stupid being a land mammal and the powers that be charging for a fundamental human right.

I had a really yummy dinner last night that my partner made me for eating. It was a big helping of chicken pasta Alfredo. I want to think it helped but I honestly couldn’t have told cause I felt a little nausea every time I took a bite. But it was so so good.

Hon if you’re missing anything I can’t say anything but thank you for the things that you did remember. I’m gunna keep this ask for later when I inevitably get another one because this has been so incredibly helpful.

Thank you thank you thank you so much truly ♥️♥️. You’re a good human. I hope you know that.

[orchidyoonkook]

hold on im fighting them for you 🤺🤺

-✨

Star I love you

[orchidyoonkook]

Yoongi is probably secretly judging you for using IPhones instead of Samsung technology. Realistically, he wouldn't care which products anyone uses. Until he's taking pictures and recording videos on other Samsung phones. (Now I'm so happy to be a Samsung brand user.)

He can judge away 🤷🏻‍♀️

While I love him to bits, Yoongi’s just some stranger on the other side of the planet, my dude. I’m not going to choose the device I use chronically every day based on some guys opinion because he likes it or is contractually obligated too.

I like iPhones. I don’t like Samsungs. They’re not for me. And that’s okay.

I’ll live if he doesn’t approve.

[orchidyoonkook]

no stop cuz apparently "lost" was filmed fucking 45 mins away from my house and i had no clue....

-✨

STAR SHUT UP NO WAY

Omg I wish (this is not me asking I’m just saying for the sake of excitement. please don’t tell people where you live) I knew where you were so I could come visit and we could go see the location together ♥️♥️♥️♥️.

Visit for me maybe? 😂😂 I’ll live vicariously through you!!!

[orchidyoonkook]

Im so happy you had a good time <3 (totally not feeling jealous while Im stuck at home studying for exams)

~ Lucky ducky anon

THE WAY I THOUGHT I REPLIED TO THIS IM SO SORRY—

Thank you so much!! I had such a blast in truly so so grateful to the kpop gods for allowing me to go.

(Totally understand you here I was in this exact same (similar) boat during the DDAY tour. I wanted to go so bad but didn’t have a passport so I couldn’t)

[orchidyoonkook]

alright min yoongi......

but like debut min yoongi......

-✨

YES

THE VERY ONE