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hey anon i also play regular guitar now.. and i do mixed media art? and i make realistic post apocalyptic miniatures :P

anon who lovingly warned me about carpal tunnel when i picked up crocheting must want to kill me with hammers now that i've added 2 hours of guitar hero per day into the mix

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brandi i just had a dream where we were watching the enchanted by nature trailer together and saying stuff like "well this LOOKS really fun but..." about everything gnwkfkwmdk

i exist in your subconscious mind 😳 i was about to say i haven't even watched the trailer and then i googled it and found out the pack has been out for a month omg i'm ridiculously out of the loop.... this is exactly how that would go though fjksjds

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i've actually been working on a standalone finn piece and it was almost finished but then i went through a breakup and i can't bring myself to write the comforting parts with asa because why are they so happy don't they know the world stopped spinning 😒

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btw i walked out of the concert venue sat on the ground in a clear spot and read rayrard fic while my surroundings looked like this

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seattle 🎸

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Why do I always have the feeling you're vegan or something? 🤔 so I'm not sure about the selection but my aunt and uncle went to a Mariners game I think last month as well lol and they raved about this place called Pie Bar it doesn't open until 5:30 pm what the helly you're on vacation why not grab a sweet treat after the show??

oooh i'm not usually a pie kind of person but anything peanut butter cream is my weakness.. thanks for the tip!!

(also i'm 100% vegetarian but i only dabble in veganism lol)

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Are you going to seattle just for the day?

nope it's an 8 hour plane for me, i had to make the trip worth it lol

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Hi Brandi! I was thinking about your story today at work and I had a question. Were Stevie and Elaine supposed to end up together? Why do I have that conclusion lingering in my brain did you hint at that or did I completely make it up lol

i definitely hinted at that, you didn't make it up!! but it was less about them ending together and more about them finding their way back to each other throughout their lives.

they've had a tiny crush on each other since they were kids (never forget when i thought i was being subtle by including these pictures and got an anon saying "oh you did the close-up thing so they're end game" and i was like FUCK PULL BACK PULL BACK jksjds)

actually, it's more accurate to say that stevie had a tiny crush on elaine which she wouldn't recognize as a crush until she got older, and elaine never really had a crush on anyone until she was much older

but i'm going to go more into way more detail about their relationship when i finally write my lesbian elaine thesis :')

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checking things off my bucket list at triple speed this year

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i resent you for being raised right

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I forgot if that deer demon thing meant anything?

i don't think i ever said it, but the deer creature was, in part, meant to represent asa. we find out that asa traveled back in time to warn finn about his impending death, and this is how finn described him:

he was initially scared of asa, and even started formulating a plan of attack, but quickly realized asa meant no harm.

there was no actual creature in the woods with finn the night he died, but we see him grappling with the trauma of the attack by imagining that there was. hunting makes sense to him. one animal killing another animal for sustenance makes sense. what he can't understand is why someone murdered him (or attempted to, in this universe) and left his body to rot all alone. it was pointless and unfair and so very human.

when griffin is asked to describe his attacker, he says this:

he's using hunting terminology because it's the only thing that makes sense to him. it would be difficult to mistake a deer for a coyote, but a comparison is drawn between them here. why? well...

deer have been used to represent asa's deep connection to nature and the cycle of life. specifically, deer are used to mark time passing in asa's life:

deer highlight certain aspects of asa's personality: gentle, quiet, observers of the world. but they're larger than you would think and can be vicious when their family or mate is threatened. deer in the modern world often seem to have a death wish, the way they'll look directly into oncoming traffic or the barrel of a gun and refuse to run. but it's not because they're stupid or stubborn. they've learned ways to evade capture by predators, but their usual predators never used to move at a hundred miles per hour.

(as a bonus, i'd like to point out that asa has nearly died in the way of a deer twice now: he almost got hit by a car and he got shot)

coyotes, particularly in maine where our story takes place, are known for being intelligent, curious, and highly adaptable to any living situation they find themselves in. they're monogamous and loyal to their family. and, of course, they're prolific predators. they have a reputation for being dangerous, but it's not in their nature to attack without reason, especially not humans. if we're assigning roles, finn would be the coyote.

deer and coyote couldn't be more different. in fact, coyote are known to hunt deer, despite being half their size. yet they share one major thing in common: they're both prey for humans. they're both vulnerable. in this case, they're both going to have their natural lives cut short. (there's this hauntingly beautiful image i kept coming back to; a hunter shot a deer, a coyote ate the deer, the hunter shot the coyote.)

the otherworldly creature griffin saw in the woods never existed. nor was there ever a deer or a coyote or a bear. there was only a terrified little kid who, in what could've been his final moments, thought about asa. ultimately, that's what saved him.

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and i am you, and what i see is me and do i take you by the hand and lead you through the land and help me understand the best i can?

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I've been off Tumblr since like 2021 and everything got worse on the other platforms so here I am again. I remember you first posting Isa and the start of the legacy. I have Caroline and Danny and Beth in my own game. Your stories were so important to me. I'm sorry your game is totally rotten rn, you're an amazing writer and storyteller. You should be immensely proud of what you've made.

this just made me burst into tears oh man :( thank you so much

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my game has never been more broken and it really makes me sad. my plan was always to jump in and take some screenshots whenever i felt like it and they would eventually form a story post even if it took a few months but at this point i would have to completely start my mods folder from scratch if i wanted my game to be functional again. none of my poses have preview images anymore, half my buildbuy textures are question marks, all my sims are shiny disco balls, i'm getting endless saving screens and random crashes no matter what i do and i can't place any of my gallery lots without it endlessly loading etc etc. it is well and truly over 😐

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I randomly saw two deers earlier and it made me think of Asa and you.

ohhhh that's really cute :(((

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whats your favorite dan and phil video?

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It’s the way that I dusted off this app and opened it for the first time in months just to ask you specifically if you’ve played Lost Records, and somebody beat me to it. That just goes to show that you live rent free in the mind of every little sims tumblr lesbian on earth.

On a more serious note I can’t wait until you play it and maybe share your thoughts! I think that you’ll really like it, it was so heartwarming and spooky at the same time!! Very Frozen Pines coded if you ask me

ahhh that's so sweet 🥺 i still haven't gotten around to playing it because my life is absolutely insane right now and i can't remember the last time i played a video game ughhh :( but i've been thinking about maybe recording myself playing lost records and uploading it on youtube just for my own enjoyment. i definitely can't stream it because i won't have time to play it all in one sitting but it would be fun to share the excitement with you guys in some way ;-;