#blurry as fuck and making no sense

[thattreeistoobig]

I love my girlfriend but I hate that she shoves her entire face into my underarms, it is ticklish and uncomfortable and makes me feel so gross even though I know she likes it. Like I just can't stand it. It's not a comment on scent/musk kink, it is me being physically and emotionally uncomfortable because of it. I am squicked by it. I hate it.

I also don't like how she smells and I don't know why this hurts her because she just smells like sweat. I don't get it. I don't understand why I should want to smell someone else's sweat. It doesn't smell good, doesn't remind me of her, just makes my sheets smell like sweat and not-me. It's a bad sensory input to be able to smell sweat and I don't get it.

I honestly don't understand her fascination with sweat or why she thinks I should share it. It makes no sense and I hate having to febreeze my sheets when she's gone because she doesn't wear deodorant and it just smells like weird sweat.

[wickmitz]

— THE ELECTRIC-FEVER REMEDY.

[antiendovents]

ABT THIS GUY

they commented on my post abt endos being in the actually dissociative tag saying something like " undiagnosed systems also dont belong in the tag " ( they said more but i blocked them immediately so i dont remember it )

that bugs me a lot as someone whos undiagnosed ( but trying to be ) bc a lot of systems, especially minors, are in unsafe/abusive households where they legitimately CANT get a diagnosis or even therapy. I've also heard that, in some cases, it can take 10+ years to get diagnosed.

a diagnosis is not required to say you have a disorder, a diagnosis is a privilege!!

nod, nod. People who are anti self diagnosis are often the most privileged or the most ignorant fucks. Like what do you mean you think someone who could literally be kicked out of they got a diagnosis should just get one anyways or else stay out of the community that is helping them? What?

[diamond-rings-and-gutter-bones]

The Fire does not Consume the Bush: On Charles Leclerc and Ferrari. Text from Amy Sillman in conversation with Gregg Bordowitz

[whosname]

[Id. Hijikata in his salarymen au persona. He looks very tired and has mayo hairpins on his hair; he is fidgeting with a pencil and has some nicotine patches on his chest and arm. Some messages from Kintoki on his right read "wait, the pdf looks blurry... (...) I attach the branding (it's just a logo)" End Id.]

Venting again.

[corset]

Our mental health has been in such an interestingly terrible place for the last month or so. Genuinely kind of fascinating to watch from different internal angles....like watching the ocean ebb and flow and change temperament at random sometimes based on weather or the moon or something. Like this shit is just terrible

[chrisbangs]

its 5:45 am and i just need to get this off my chest but when i see blurry pictures of chan my heart starts fucking racing smtimes like there's a very specific genre of pictures of him that get my head dizzy and my heart racing and it's always when it's kinda blurry and hazy and it makes me feel so many fucking emotions i dont know how to explain but it just drives me fucking insane like there's smth abt it smth that makes it feel so hazy and soft and dizzying in a wonderful way i don't really know how to explain it but it makes me feel sick in the head because i just . i want him

[reyolfx]

ok dude the finale (this is gonna be cringe and sappy lmao look out)

i wasn't even expecting dean's death to hit me so hard because i was so prepared for it and because it'd been almost memeified on here

but

fuck did it ever hit me. sobbed for real.

i mean that's dean

that's my character

i saw him on my screen in real time back in like '07 and was like "oh yeah that's gonna be the guy i'm gonna model my personality after" (look we can talk about how wise that was but i was 15 okay)

i started drinking my coffee black and listening to blue oyster cult and ac/dc because of dean winchester. i copied his tough as nails attitude and used it as my own shield when i was a miserable teenager.

blah blah i quit the show and moved on and then picked it back up 12 years later and i still love him. that's my guy!!! dean winchester meant a lot to me!!!

and, well. yeah. the worst possible ending. dying the way he always thought he would. it reminds me of season 8 when he told sam he was nothing but a grunt (i relate to him ugh fuck) and that was all he could expect.

but sam told him he's not just a grunt, he's a genius. we saw him talk about wanting to experience things and people in a different way or for the first time. we saw him wanting out, wanting a break, wanting to go the beach with sam and cas and feel the sand between his toes.

and he got none of it. and they treated him like the grunt he always thought he was.

and they never let him see cas again. his best friend who loved him and who told him he was so much more than what he thought of himself. that he WAS love.

they took him away and then they killed dean and we're expected to be fine with it cause he went to heaven and saw sam.

i'm tired and gutted and i saw it all coming lmao, i knew every last bit of this happened!!!! so why is seeing it in context so awful!!!! i feel sick!!!!! ha

[ayyponine]

local woman gets two consecutive weeks off work, immediately starts experiencing some type of Ailment

[tiredflowercrown]

I am going to scream

I am going to cry

[d1rlin]

System fake claimers be like

Oh you're happy about posting a disorder? you're faking

You don't show stereotypical signs of DIDOSDD whatever, you're faking

You're happy? you're faking

You know what a inner world is because of therapy? You're faking

You have x amount of alters? You're faking

You do anything? You're faking

You're making fun/poking fun at your alters? You're faking

But if we flip the uno reverse card but onto other disorders it still don't make sense. Let me put it in prospective

You're happy about posting educational content about depression, autism, literally anything else, you're faking?

You can be happy one moment or months at a time, you're obviously not depressed

You're verbal and autistic? Faking

You know grounding skills and can effectively use them? You're faking

You have a long list of diagnosis' because of childhood disability/lack of mental health consultants when growing up so now you get diagnosed because you have the recourses you need? You're faking

You go to sleep? Obviously faking any disorders

You like to poke fun at a disability that is life long and use joking as a coping mechanism? Faking.

[thattreeistoobig]

all the words make my head hurt. I don't understand what you're asking me

[daforged]

laser eye surgery is fucking wild what do you mean my right eye doesn’t need correction anymore

[blitz0hno]

I don't want to get off my phone I don't want to stay on my phone I don't want to pump gas I don't want to do deliveries I don't want to get ready for bed I don't want to write anything of substance I don't want to create I don't want to not create I don't want to be here I don't want to go anywhere I don't want to move I don't want to stay still my brain and body seem to simply want to sit here and Yearn

[femmefaggot]

a jaskier sentiment still halfsies etc typing is weird split between "styles" whatever anyway

we love trans voices so much the specific on testosterone voice sound that happens or the comforting lilt of many transfems i love you talk more speak more

[mushtoons]

i think you all are neat, and deserve compliments. unfortunately, (and for this i apologise /g) i am not the best at compliments, but i would like to offer as many cookies as wanted. 🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪 have a good day :3 /g

!!!!!!! THANK U 🥺 THIS ITSELF IS AN AWESOME COMPLEMENT AND WE ACCEPT ALL THE COOKIES