#bless my brother for doing a snack run lol

[softasawhisper]

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[anne-i-write]

moriarty the patriot headcannons pt. 1

| requested by anon: Can you write about all male characters in moriarty has a same look of their  children and hpw many children they want? |

william x reader; louis x reader; albert x reader; sebastian x reader; fred x reader

word count: 2397

pt. 2: 221b boys

a/n: I DONT KNOW WHY I DIDNT WRITE THIS EARLIER IM SO SORRY THIS REQUEST HAS LITERALLY BEEN IN MY INBOX FOR SO LONG I AM SO SORRY I HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS

william: 487 words

with his whole plan to clean the world of the filthy nobles, william never really stopped to think about having children

well, until he met you

you both were in town one day and he saw you fondly watching a child speak with her mother

“i think two children would be nice”

“i didn’t even ask”

“i know, but the look you gave that mother was telling enough”

n e ways he is a simp and he did eventually give you what you wanted

fast forward a few years, you have two children: a boy and a girl

and they look exactly like their father

like,, it lowkey pains you how much they physically take after their father

you wanted to be like “oh they have your personality, but they look just like me!”

no

granted, your son took after you in an emotional sense but your daughter was a daddy’s girl through and through

like she looks like him, she acts like him, speaks like him, she even EATS like him

ok but the men w your children

fred is a freaking sweetheart ok

like he’ll watch over the kids when no one has the time and they love him too so they’ll help out in the garden which you are SO thankful for

tbh they only like uncle albert bc he brings them lil trinkets from when he gets back from london LMAO

louis doesn’t show it, but he absolutely adores your children and makes extra snacks for them at tea time

you caught onto this at one point bc for some REASON your kids would not stop bouncing off of the walls before bed and they told you uncle louis gave them chocolate

and sebastian loves messing w your kids bc,,, sebastian

but he accidentally made your son cry ONCE and he was at the mercy of every adult in the moriarty estate including the boy’s younger sister

needless to say, he watched his actions and words around your children after that

now, william

i’m just gonna say this straight out: most of the men never really thought about having kids (save john and albert)

but when you finally had kids, william had a different outlook on life

like fr,, this man works overtime now trying to get rid of the filth that is called nobles

he doesn’t want his kids to be raised in a world where just because you have more money than another means you get to look down on them

you still instill in them those good morals ofc

he also tries to be very present in their lives since he and his brother were raised as orphans

when he was younger, he didn’t mind it all much

but now that he had this small family and a brighter future, he did everything in his power to make sure they’re happy and grow up in a cleaner and kinder world

louis: 320 words

it took you a week to get him to at LEAST humor you

“if you could, how many kids do you want?”

“none”

like, this guy is so dedicated to his brother and his cause it is a WONDER you somehow wormed your way into his heart

but you did and honestly, the brothers are actually very happy that you’re with them

william especially

louis rarely emotes but when you came into their lives, you got louis pissed at one point and everyone was like,,,, wtf?? he has emotions???

anyways, his answer is one kid LMAO

and when you get that one kid, he looks just like louis

yall already KNOW that he’s ready to die for that child as soon as louis holds him in his arms

the only kid sebastian wouldnt even try to mess with

he can deal with william’s albert’s or fred’s kids but louis lowkey intimidates him so he’s as nice as he can be

that being said, louis teaches his kid how to properly handle stuff around the house

you want to cry bc ur son is just so??? the little kid just loves helping out no matter how small the task and he’s just so cute it hurts

even sebastian’s kinda like,, “aight he’s the only kid i will tolerate”

louis grew up with only his brothers so he also wants to give his son a shot at a normal family

is actually aware at how he thinks he’s indispensable for william’s cause and he doesn’t want his son to end up like him

he also teaches his son some badass fighting moves

oh and louis smiles a lot more too

cried bc his son saw the scar he got on his cheek, rubbed some dirt on his lil face and said “i have daddy’s cool scar now”

all in all his son is the best thing to happen to all of you

albert: 505 words

same as louis in the fact that it takes him a week to answer

“you know you haven’t even answered my question”

“i’m sorry, what did you say?”

“how many kids do you want?”

genuinely takes time to ponder that question

he hadn’t thought of that since his family adopted william and louis

but with you?

“i think two darling girls who take after their mother is enough for me”

pls he’d be so sweet 🥺🥺🥺

you two end up having a girl and a boy, who look just like their father

and tbh, you’re not even mad

you love them so much so when albert comes back north, the three of you are ecstatic

the happiness was short lived for albert tho

he found his son spending time with william and there’s nothing bad right????

“where’s your sister?”

“she’s with mr. moran”

his heart DROPPED

out of all the people in the manor

HIM

he sees the two running around the garden

it all happened as soon as albert’s daughter went up to sebastian and said “you’re very pretty! you’re my knight now!”

he decided to “adopt” the little girl and now he’s lowkey whipped

you found albert staring at sebastian playing with his daughter and updated him about everything going on

“but him??”

“he’s just a big softie for her let it go”

isn’t really surprised when he finds out they can fight a little

actually glad that they can hold their own, God forbid anything happens to them

otherwise mi6 has to deal w family matters lmao

“albert, she only tripped”

“you shouldve seen the fear in her eyes as she fell”

“IT WAS A STRAY COBBLESTONE”

would raise hell if anyone even THOUGHT ill of his kids

william and louis are the doting uncles

william more so than louis bc your kids have never seen louis smile

now they’re on a mission to make uncle louis smile

louis was on child duty one day and they managed to slip away

omyGOD he was stressed but also,, extremely worried

so when he found them he had the most genuine smile on his face

your daughter was like (・∀・)

she loves uncle louis

ofc your son adores his dad like,,, who else wouldn't feel awesome at the age of 10 if you found out your dad was a high ranking general

feels superior to sebastian bc of his dad

lmao this 4’5 kid thinks he can rule sebastian for some odd reason

the house is always dirty bc him and sebastian always prank each other

your daughter is trying to catch a butterfly but she can’t so fred helps

instantly loves fred

“is that what heartbreak is”

“i guess that’s what happens when you try to get close to my kids colonel”

albert is kind of afraid of turning into his dad but he has you and everyone else to remind him that: no you are not your father, you are so much better than him

loves your family with his entire being

sebastian: 844 words

“i see you looking at those kids and the answer is none”

lmao you’ll get so pouty around him bc you want kids dammit

that and he spoils you to no end so that's why you’re pouty lol

“fine we’ll only do one kid and bc one kid is all i can tolerate”

bruh

this man gives you three in four years LMFAO

two boys a year apart and a girl in the fourth year

you wanted to smack sebastian

when the two boys grew up, it was obvious they were already taking after their father in the physical sense

it was terrifying

they genuinely look like mini sebastians and you know everyone in the manor is afraid that you two birthed satan

and the satan was your eldest one

he’s just a feral sebastian moran in a tiny body

your second son, god bless him, looked just like his father but with fred’s temperament

and see, you were fine with your sons looking like their father

it was FINE right

you prayed to God that your third child would have at least some physical resemblance to you

your daughter was birthed, she grew up

and you cried

“HOW DO THEY ALL LOOK LIKE YOU”

“i’ve got some strong genetics, baby”

you sulk for a lil bit

but you accept it anyway because you love your goddamn kids

thankfully, your second and youngest child are both soft spoken and it's only your husband and his tiny clone bringing hell to earth

smacking sebastian bc all of your children suddenly started swearing up a storm at each other

“WHYD YOU HIT ME”

“YOURE THE ONLY ONE WHO SWEARS AROUND THE KIDS”

finally sitting down and trying to convince them to stop swearing

“father does it!”

“your father’s stupid”

speaking of your daughter

she’s his little princess and no he will not take criticism

spoils her more than he spoils you

did she glance at a toy at a passing store?

he buys more toys than he should from said store

you have to physically hide some of his money bc there is only so much you can buy

and her older brothers are so caring you want to sob

if a person accidentally shoved her over bc she was tiny and they couldn’t see her

oh boy

get ready to restrain them like chihuahuas

“little sister will be protected at all costs”

since his second son is so different from him, sebastian actively makes time to talk about what the little boy is doing and what he’s getting from it

doesn’t want to be pushy and suffocating like his dad was so when his younger kid does want to be left alone to his devices, sebastian does so

but honestly loves that your second son is so literate

lddhsajdsfk what yall dont know is that they’re all in cahoots

kinda funny to see them all together bc they all take after their father so much it's like having three tiny sebastians go around town

anyways,,,, yall know the promised neverland right

you got ray, norman, and emma

granted one of them wasn’t as smart as ray but he definitely knew what stealth was

regular sibling rivalry was still a thing but if they could smell the pudding from the kitchen, they know they have to work together

sebastian caught his eldest smuggling biscuits into a small bag

he had half a mind to scold him

but then he ended up giving tips TO ALL HIS CHILDREN on how not to get caught next time—

bc of this they beg him to tell them some stories from afghanistan bc “there’s no way a man as old as dad knows this many stealth tactics”

louis is so fed up lmao

albert is in london most of the time so he just thanks the lord that he doesn’t have to deal w the propaganda that sebastian feeds his children about how “mr. albert is a bad man”

william is fine w it as long as they don’t trash the library

your younger ones love the library so they would cry at the thought of one of the books losing any of the pages

your second and your daughter are definitely the moriartys’ favorites

they don’t show it, but you just KNOW

your eldest could care less about that though

as long as you and his father still love him

and of course you both do

and fred is definitely your youngers favorite

they like to hang out in the garden

ok they still fight all the time though

just because your second child is soft spoken doesn't mean he’s afraid to throw hands

their sister likes to join in for the hell of it

but if someone wrongs any of the children

just because the younger ones are the moriartys’ favorite, doesn’t mean that they’re not gonna hunt someone down if they even think about trying to hurt the eldest too

yeah,,, good luck to them and their families

they got the entire moriarty estate coming after them

fred: 241 words

cmon yall are like,, young

but you did ask him bc you were curious if he thought about it

he wants one

and when yall do have the kid, you guys actually do have one kid and its a girl

since you both are young, you can immediately see a resemblance between her and her father

everyone who meets her would die for her

ABSOLUTE CUTIE

especially when she walks around the garden w her hand in her dad’s and he’s showing her all the plants and telling her how to take care of them

needless to say she grows up loving plants

any type of plant

the boys love giving her flowers or anything from bc she has the biggest smile every single time

no matter if it’s just a single rose or a rock

this was found out one time when sebastian gave her a rock bc everyone else had given her like,, two roses each

was afraid she was gonna cry

“thank you so much mr. moran! i will treasure this until i get old!”

she was like 4 at the time

and had the widest smile you’ve ever seen on her

guys u don’t understand she smiles a lot but this was like,, genuine happiness

but everyone was just,, i will destroy the world and myself if anything happens to her

fr it’s just sunshines and rainbows every single time she’s around

everyone just loves her ok

moriarty the patriot general taglist: @zoehanji

[kcatta-wodahs]

Babe! I hope your requests are open... (i didn't check omg)

anyway I am soft and I want to request your beautiful brain

The brothers' reaction to GN MC falling asleep on their lap! I thought it was adorable, how do you think they'd react? You can also do Dia, Barbatos, Simeon, and Solomon if you'd like! No pressure though!

Love you!

the soff? the soff. Time for soff. i love you too!!!!!

I wrote these from the point of view that MC already snuggles with them a lot so that part isn’t unusual. I might write the Undateables later if I get inspired!

Demon Bros Ahead!

Lucifer

Most often, you’d lay your head in his lap when he still had work to do

You know. like... always.

Since Lucifer always had work to do, it’s hard to find time to spend together, even if he really wants to.

This is a perfect in between. You can lay on his lap, playing games or reading books, or whatever you wish to do, and he doesn’t have to feel like he’s missing work.

It’s when he asks you a question and you don’t respond that he notices you’ve fallen asleep this time.

And oh, his heart melts. 

The idea that you trust him enough to completely fall asleep with him there?

He scoops you into his arms and carries you to your bed.

He leaves you the smallest kiss on your forehead before he leaves.

But he definitely hopes that someday.. he might be able to hold you all night.

Mammon

You two are just hanging like normal, watching a movie that you’ve seen a million times

Mammon has a lot of comfort movies like that. Ones you know by heart but still love watching because they’re your special thing with him now.

You swap places most of the time. One night he’ll be laying in your lap, the other it’ll be you in his.

After all, having your hair played with feel soooooo good okay you gotta split the feeling evenly.

When Mammon realizes you fell asleep he doesn’t know if he should be offended that he isn’t entertaining enough or #blessed because oh my god you’re asleep on HIS lap oh myg0

He may think about it way too much and turn himself into a blushing mess.

He lets you sleep as long as you need to, and stays right there, even if its hours.

And he completely denies that he stayed there for you when you wake up.

Leviathan

Snuggles happen during anime binge nights or when Leviathan is too fixated on a game to put it down.

You’re more than happy to just watch him play on those days, being the company he needs so that he doesn’t completely lose track of reality.

It’s so cute to watch him get excited too!

This is one of those days.

But when Leviathan lets out a cheer when he finally passes the level, he hears a little disturbed mumble from you.

He looks down and sees you asleep and oh man he’s never been so red.

Oh no, he couldn’t wake you up either! What to.. do??

You are asleep in his lap???

He has forgotten all about his game at this point, torn between waking you up so you could get more comfy, and just.. letting this be.

After a while, he convinces himself to wake you up, but it doesn’t work like he planned. Now you’re just hug-snuggling him while you sleep.

Guess... it’s bed time?

Satan

The soft sound of something landing on the carpet alerts him

He almost jumps as the silence between you two is broken, and when he looks down he sees that you’ve dropped your book.

A second later and he realizes you’re asleep.

He feels gentle and soft just looking at you. Like all of his troubles have melted away.

He can’t help but run his fingers through your hair, over your forehead, and to brush your cheek lightly.

He is more than happy to keep reading until you wake up.

If it reaches bed time and you’re still asleep? Well... he might just fall asleep right there too.

Being able to spend such time with you is more precious to him than all the world.

Asmodeus

Oh! Snuggle times are his favorite!

He loves telling you all about his latest fashion design, or the strange demons he met at the fall while you lay in his lap and listen to his stories.

Sometimes, that’s how he does manicures for you, since he really likes to have his hands moving while he talks.

He feels how tired you are this time, though. He teases you about it a little, but encourages you that he won’t be offended if you doze off.

He knows his voice is soothing after all.

He will happily continue the manicure while your responses to him get sleepier and sleepier.

And once you’ve fallen asleep and he’s finished your nails? He will just straight up watch you and your beautiful face while you sleep.

He loves this, and like Lucifer, he’s honored that you trust him enough to completely let down your guard around him.

He loves you so much.

Beelzebub

Another movie night!!

You two have snacks galore, a whole mountain of them ready for marathoning BBQ Life together!

Beel loves loves loves *loves* cuddling, so he’s more than happy to be the one to put his shoulder over you first, and he doesn’t mind at all when you laid in his lap.

He’s happily snacking away and chatting with you about the recipies on the show, and how it would be amazing if TVs could share smells as well as images.

He gets super enthralled in this one recipe and pauses for a while, and when he speaks again, you don’t respond.

When he shuffles and looks down at you, you snuggle into his leg a little and he is smitten. You can stay there as long as you want. He loves this.

One of the other brothers will walk into the living room to find him staring at them with pleading eyes. He can’t get up because that would wake you but he ran out of snacks!!! Please save him brother!! No, not by waking MC up!!!

Belphegor

Buddyo this happens like every day.

Like, usually it’s him falling asleep in your lap but still.

He can work with this. He likes watching you sleep anyway.

It feels... restful. Like he’s the only one in the world who’s awake anymore, and there’s almost a magical feeling to it.

Time feels like it’s slowed down, and like the only sound in the world is the sound of your peaceful breaths.

He could stay like this forever, even if it meant being awake.

He may or may not peek in on your dreams to see if you’re thinking about him.

He really hopes you are.

It’s not long before he’s fallen asleep with you, though. He got jealous of you napping when he wasn’t lol

[ray-ray-writings]

Awesome okay so like personally, I hc that c!Punz and c!Sapnap are actually brothers so like consider,,,,brotherly rivalry where they get jealous of each other like,,,,,

That scene were Karl was trapped in the corner by Punz and Sap was getting jealous so he started throwing hands???? Pls let me have that with reader where they and Sap have a running gag that everyone's in on where they act like a couple but Punz takes the chance to mess with his little brother and starts hitting on the reader; they're basically melting and Sap's warning him like "Punz leave them alone they're MINE" and the reader sticks their tongue out and are like "Yeah, I'm his!!!" And Punz steps towards them and basically corners them with a stupidly handsome smirk and is like "Yeah??? Then why are you so flustered by me just being this close?"

Hhhhh I'm such a simp for them pls feel free to add on

Anon… Anon… Your brain is so freaking big. Thank you so much for blessing me with this. (You can find a part two here lol)

Yes, I completely agree that they are brothers. Before my sister was super into Mcyts with me I would describe them too her and I told her that Punz and Sapnap are the same person, just different fonts and I stand by that 100% and this headcanon just further backs that in my mind. 

So yes, you and Sapnap are like the best friends ever that are so comfortable with each other. So you two do everything together. Like it is so rare that you see one of you without the other. You two are so close and so touchy with each other that when new people join the server they assume your dating. The new person would then ask someone else about it and they would get laughed at and then it would be explained to them and they would be in on the running joke. Everyone always jokes around with you two about “When are you guys going to admit that you love each other and just make out already?” and you two look at the person in confusion and look at each other, “You mean we haven’t done that already? Damn Y/N why didn’t you tell me?” “I didn’t know that either bb, come here and let me kiss you!” And you two do that thing where you lean in really close to each other and then start laughing right before your lips touch and pull away to giggle. The person in front of you rolls their eyes and laughs too. 

The person that teases you the most about it though is Sapnap’s older brother, Punz. Punz is probably the only person that really whole heartily believes you two when you say you’re not in love with each other, mostly because he can read his brother like a book, but that doesn’t stop him from teasing the hell out of you two. Like he’ll walk into the room and see you two cuddled up on the couch and he rolls his eyes and is like, “are you sure you’re not in love with each other?” and you giggle but ignore him and Sapnap rolls his eyes and flips him off. Punz walks over to the couch and ruffles his brother’s hair before ruffling yours as well and is like, “well okay. But I mean damn, my baby brother literally has the person he’s in love with on his lap and he still can’t get any.” And then you’re thrown off of Sapnap’s lap and now they’re chasing each other around the house. Sapnap gets a hold of him and the two wrestle on the ground for a while before Punz is like “Fine! I give up, you’re together or whatever” and then Sapnap smacks him once more before prancing over to you and cuddling into you once more. 

One day you would be over at Sapnap’s house in the kitchen making yourself a snack waiting for Sapnap to wake up when suddenly there’s a pressure against the back and you’re being pinned to the counter. You know it’s not Sapnap because you would recognize his touch anywhere. There is only one other person that has a key to his house. “Punz?” You question, frozen in place. And his deep chuckle rumbles through your body, because he’s against you, and he’s like, “How’d you know baby” and you flush at the words because you know that cliche of ‘I’m in love with my best friend’s brother’? Well it kind of sort of applies to you. I mean you wouldn’t say that you’re in love with him, but your heart skips a beat every time he walks in the room. But he doesn’t need to know that. But you shake the thoughts out of your head and are like “I knew it wasn’t Sapnap and you’re the only person that is always welcome in his house without knocking” you answer as steady as you can. Punz chuckles again, “Fair enough” he claims, but still not moving. You wait for a moment before “Punz… What are you doing?” You ask, your voice shaking ever so slightly. “What? Are you uncomfortable?” he questions. You don’t have to look at him to know he’s smirking. “Did I say that? No, I just asked what you were doing.” Another chuckle, “Oh. Well I was going to make myself a snack,” and suddenly there are hands on your waist and you’re being turned around to face him, “Imagine my surprise when I find one already out.” He casually reaches out and places his hands on the counter behind you. You two are standing so close that you can feel his breath on your face. You try to will down the heat in your cheeks but fail, causing Punz to smirk even harder. “I’m not-- you can’t--- why would you--” You stutter out, trying desperately to get out a full sentence but you just can’t. “Can’t what? Call you baby? Call you a snack? Why not? It’s completely true,” he mutters, his eyes raking up and down your body causing you to literally melt. 

Footsteps pounding down the hallway snap you back to reality and suddenly Sapnap appears, saving your sanity, “Punz! What are you doing?” He questions, moving further into the kitchen, stopping right beside the two of you, his arms crossing over his chest. Punz’s eyes barely leave you as he glances at his brother, “Nothing, just flirting with Y/N here.” Sapnap scoffs angrily and responds with a “You can’t do that! They’re mine, remember?” and you, completely back to reality are like “Yeah, I’m his!” You claim, looking over to Sapnap, both relieved and little disappointed. And Punz simply leans forward just a little more, pressing you even further into the counter behind you and drops his head to your ear and murmurs “Yeah? Then why are so so fluster by me doing this?” and once again you’re a fish out of water, mouth opening and closing no noise coming out and your face full of heat once more. Sapnap, ever the observant best friend, sees this, huffs, gets red in the face, and tackle his brother off of you… Like deadass. Full on body tackles him off of you screaming “Get off of them,” and once again the two brothers are on the floor wrestling each other. You take this time to just take some deep breaths to collect yourself before you turn around, collect your snack and step over the two boys physically fighting on the ground. Once your clear you take a look at the boys as they fight and you decide to take a risky move, “Winner gets to cuddle me on the couch.” The boys’ heads snap to you for a moment, soaking in the words, before going back to the fight, this time both fighting to actually win. 

[shirtlesssammy]

10x03: Soul Survivor

A priest blesses a whole blood bank of blood before Doctor Sam loads up on supplies. 

Back at the bunker, Sam heads to the dungeon and a trussed up Demon!Dean. Let the blood cleansing begin! 

Dean tells Sam to just let him. He doesn’t want this. He has the Mark of Cain. Sam throws holy water on him and shoots him with his first vial of blood. 

Cas and Hannah are road tripping in the Pimpmobile. Hannah wonders how Cas is doing. “Fine.” Narrator: He was not fine. Cas explains to Hannah it’s a very human thing to do --to say you’re fine, but you’re really not, so you avoid talking about things. Well, fling me off a cliff because Cas gets Dean SO WELL but just rolls with his inability to talk because it’s the human way. 

Profile Porn Alert:

Hannah can’t believe that Cas agreed to head back to the bunker to help Sam --or that Sam would ask that considering Cas’s failing grace. Cas admits that Sam doesn’t know, and he’ll need Cas’s help to deal with Dean. If the sanctified blood cure doesn’t work, then Dean is gone and they’ll have to deal with the demon. HIIISSSS. Cas just accepts his role but he’s doing it for Dean. 

Dean, meanwhile, mocks Sam’s efforts and the Winchester Way™. Dean compares who he is now to Sam, and what Sam did to find him. “Which one of us is really the monster?” 

Flashback to Sam talking with a down on his luck dude at a bar. 

His wife kicked him out, and she’s been cheating on him. He wants revenge. Sam tells him he could get payback, if he wants. Sam helps the poor schlub to make a demon deal. Lester makes the deal, and Sam traps the demon to find out where Crowley and Dean are. 

In real time, Dean continues to mock Sam for being worse than him. Lester lost his life and soul. Sam injects him with more blood. 

In Crowley-land, he’s taking care of Hell business when a demon gives him an update on Castiel. His grace is fading. The demon suggests now would be a good time to eliminate the angel. Crowley tells him to tail him and keep him up to date on his decline. 

Crowley takes a moment to relive his summer of love with Dean. It’s hard saying goodbye to an ex, Crowley. Super awkward when you’re caught dissociating while ruling Hell though. The demon that interrupted Crowley offers himself as a companion. 

“You’ll see what I’m worth,” he insists. Crowley snaps him into dust. C’est la vie. 

Cas is getting worse. He will not take more grace from another angel, and he doesn’t want to beg Metatron for his own grace. Hannah insists that he needs to be here to help Dean, to get the angels under control. Cas, taking a book from his drama llama boyfriend, insists that Hannah continues on without him.

Cas gets a call from Sam checking in. Dean’s in pain going through this cleansing. Sam could be killing his brother. Cas makes it clear that they need to stay the course. The purified blood ritual is their only known option. 

Once off the phone, Sam notices that Dean’s passed out. He rouses him, only for Dean to continue trying to put a wedge between them, to stop Sam from trying to save him. “You don’t get to quit on this family.” I appreciate the sentiment, Sam. Sam injects Dean with more blood and walks away. 

Crowley’s busy laying out death sentences to demons in Hell. A demon wonders why they should be loyal to him now, after flirting with being human and running off with his “boy toy”. The demon isn’t going to live in Crowley’s Hell, and sets himself on fire.

At a gas station Cas and Hannah have a forthright conversation. Lol, jk, Cas talks about “dangerous roads” and “no detours.” Hannah begs for him to speak outside of metaphor. But it’s HARD! They need total focus on the saving-Dean and/or finding-angels missions. 

“I’ve been around humans long enough to see how easily distractions occur,” Cas tells Hannah, who gives him some exasperated bitchface in return. “Emotions. Feelings. They’re dangerous temptations,” he warns. CAS, for fuck’s sake, you should never learn emotional management from a Winchester. 

Hannah declares that she’s super clear on Castiel’s priorities, and whirls off into the gas station. Inside, there are snacks and a dead station attendant with his eyes burned out. Urg. Cas follows, only to discover the angel Adina (previously of Daniel and Adina fame) holding Hannah captive. Cas struggles to haul out his blade, and Adina starts tearing into him. He suggests that she kill him and let Hannah go. CAAAAS BBY. Adina’s not in a forgiving mood and she’d like to kill him slowly, villain speech, villain speech. 

Sam heads into Dean’s bedroom during his break and discovers many token Dean identifiers worthy of a fanfic. There’s porn on the bench seat and a pie container nearby with just a few meaningfully unfinished bites left. Slipped in a hunting notepad are old family photos. Sam sifts through the photos, to mournful music.

At the gas station, a pair of expensive shoes approaches. Crowley’s attached to them. He smiles down at a severely injured Castiel. 

Sam heads back to finish demon detox only to discover…

I don’t know why the dramatic zoom in on the chair makes me laugh but...had to include it. Sam discovers his brother is missing! As the kids say, dun dun DUN! 

Adina torments Hannah, eager for her suffering in retribution for the loss of Daniel. Crowley arrives in a cloud of snark, slices Adina’s grace out of her, and then stabs her dead while Hannah glares at him. 

In the bunker, Sam looks for his brother. Dean does the same, except there be REDRUM in them thar eyes. Dean grabs a hammer, and Sam grabs a ring of old keys.

Crowley offers up Adina’s grace to Cas, declaring that the kill was done to save Hannah’s life and that Cas’s “hands are clean.” 

“You’re useless to me dead,” Crowley says lovingly as he pours Adina’s grace into Cas. Light suffuses Cas and restores him to strength and health. Crowley suggests that one good turn deserves another. Dean Winchester has turned out to be a real pill to manage, so if Cas could just take his newfound strength and take care of the Dean problem that would be greeeaaat. Cas warns that he may have to kill Dean. “I’m not sentimental,” Crowley lies. 

Sam and Dean continue to play murder hide and seek. Sam heads into the electrical room and shuts down the bunker so that Dean can’t escape out the doors. Dean reveals that he doesn’t want to leave! Why would he leave when a lovely MURDER PARTY is about to begin? 

Dean indulges in a little exposition while he’s stalking Sam through the bunker. The demon cure was working, making him just human enough to be able to slip out of his bonds and out of the devil’s trap. Sam manages to trap Dean into the electrical room, but Dean starts to break through the door with his hammer. “You act like I wanna be cured,” Dean shouts at him. “Personally, I like the disease.”

Sam scolds him for busting up the bunker and threatens to use the demon blade on him. Oh Sam. Suuuuure you will. Dean’s cool with this turn of events, as he’s feeling ready to murder immediately. Dean manages to sneak up on Sam, but Sam Fucking Winchester has the reflexes of a cat and immediately gets the knife to Dean’s throat.��

It’s looking pretty unfortunate for our heroes when Cas catches hold of Dean. “It’s over,” Castiel says firmly. VERY firmly. Wink wink.

For The Gag Reel Can Never Be Unseen Science:

A little while later, Dean’s back in the chair bearing another hit of sanctified blood. Sam and Cas look on, fretting over Dean. Castiel muses that only humans can feel real joy. Or such profound pain. No wonder why Dean struggles away from his humanity. 

Dean wakes up and black recedes from his eyes. He shakes his head a few times. “You look worried, fellas,” he says in a wry tone and then weathers Sam’s holy water splash. He’s cured!

In the library, Sam and Cas talk over the evening. Cas rains all over Sam’s happy parade: Dean still bears the Mark of Cain and things could still get bad. Sam chooses to ignore this and head out to buy junk food for Dean. 

In his bedroom, Dean sorts through family pictures. When Cas stops by, he greets him with “You look terrible.” Dean accepts this as his due, and notes that Cas is looking good. REAL GOOD.

Cas very poorly explains his current situation. “Crowley. Stolen grace. There’s a female outside in the car.” CAS PLZ. Dean moves past this confusing word salad and asks if Sam has forgiven him. Cas assures him that Sam would forgive him anything, including attempted murder-by-hammer. Cas suggests to Dean that he take some time off. It’s quiet out there, after all.

In a fancy hotel room, blood drips from the ceiling onto a red haired witch. The blood falls from two hotel employees and the witch is….ROWENA!

Will You Be My Quote? Check YES or NO:

Sammy, you know I hate shots

That line that we thought was so clear between us and the things that we hunted, ain’t so clear is it?

I, too, love to party. And I do love the ladies. And the classic rock-and-roll

Sometimes enough is whatever you have

You act like I want to be cured. Personally I like the disease

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[hanniiesuckle17]

i would like to bless your followers and dash, sooo can you give me a crash course in noir 😊😊

OMG YES OFCCCCCC💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

OKAY SO HERE IS THE DEAL

NOIR is a nine-member boy group under Luk Factory

(Not really pleased with how they are promoting my boys but imma get over it one day!)

Our fan name is Lumiere (or Lumi) and we don’t have any official colors or a lightstick yet.

Noir debuted on April 9th of 2018. With the mini-album Twenty’s Noir. Their title debut song was Gansta (SUCHA GOOD VIDEO) 

They also had a predebut song called As a Star and it makes me so soft.

Their next comeback is on the 27th (THIS MONDAY!!!!!!) The album is called Up the Sky and the title track is called Lucifer

IM SO FUCKING EXCITED YOU HAVE NO IDEA

MEMBERS 

Shin Seunghoon

Shin Seunghoon is our precious leader!!!! 

(He was what got me into Noir. I saw a video about the best leaders in kpop and I was like)

He is 27 years old. His birthday is May 30th, 1993 (He is a Gemini)

Boy is tallllllllllllllllllllll

like he’s 5′10.

but in pictures by himself he for real looks like he is 6′2

istg he is like 65% legs.

ALSO MAN AS A RIPPED CHEST SORRY BACK TO REGULARLY SCHEDULED NOIRING

He is the leader, main rapper, and also sometimes a vocalist (but the rappers in this group pretty much fo everything)

HE SPITS FIRE when he wants to. 

Really good at freestyling 

He makes mixtapes on youtube on Noir’s channel. (I think he has 5 out now)

He is a college-educated man!!!! (He went to Korean National Open University

He took taekwondo when he was younger

The man trained for 8 years

He and Hoyeon compose and format a lot of their songs with a team of producers from LUK

(I often think he and Chan from skz are really similar.)

Seunghoon is legit a father of 8 soft crackhead kids. istg he is so done with them most of the time

We call him our koala because he looks like one <3

Seunghoon is obsessed with accessories and wearing them to the point where stylists literally have to take them off of him. (I have never not seen picture of him not wearing jewelry. )

he is actually in the military right now and i miss him so fricking much TT

All in all hot boy on screen and soft dad in real life

Kim Yeonkuk

this boy I cant

Kim Yeonkuk. Damn.

he was on Produce 101 season 2

he was eliminated on ep.5 :(

He is the lead dancer and a vocalist

Yeonkuk is 25 years old. His birthday is February 8, 1995 (An Aquarius)

is totally the aegyo king but denies it

he seems cold at first but has a big ass bright personality its so freakin adorable

my personal favorite clip of him is and the boys dancing around on vlive to big bang and him saying fantastic baby (its sounds so cute when he says it)

He is also a 5′10 tall boy

he trained for 3 years

THIS BOY IS SO FREAKING SKINNY SOMEONE PLEASE EGIVE HIM A HAMBURGER OR SOMETHING TAKE HIM TO TACO BELL

not kidding

his waist is so fucking small its scary.

Yeonkuk=stringbean

literally a walking meme.

pause in any interview and he is pretty much gonna give you a memeable face

this boy is so loveable and goofy 

also if this boy doesn't post like 8 photos of him doing something on insta im convinced he thinks that it just didn’t happen

he never posts just one photo its always like 6-8

also I was highkey afraid he was gonna go bald last comeback when they legit turned his hair into smurfs pubes

Lee Junyong

Lee Junyong. When i say i love this man with my whole heart

also 25 years old

his birthday is March 1st 1995 (Pisces)

another 5′10 king

Main vocalist.

he is a former member of INX

his brother is Seungyong from N.CUS

he trained for 4 years

THIS MAN IS TOO ATTRACTIVE FOR THIS EARTH

vocals for days. VOCALS.FOR.DAYS.

Did a cover of BTS’s The Truth Untold with Siha and literally gives me chills.

He has little crooked front teeth so when he sings he has this tiny little breath in some of the words so his voice is even more distinct

BUT LIKE JUNYONG HAS THE CUTEST SMILE EVER (I love his teeth in that's a weird thing to say but i think they are so cute)

he is 1/2 of the Highnote Belting Club

talks. all. the. freaking. time.

he goes live alot

boy is obsessed with Yunsung someone save yunsung from him

total crackhead when not doing real interviews

never fails to make me smile

he is said to be the moodmaker of the group

APPARENTLY HE WAS IN ONE EPISODE OF MY FAVORITE DRAMA AND I HAD NO IDEA

he was in episode 6 of The Liar and His Lover

overall he is just so sweet and funny and its so easy to love him

Nam Yunsung

Yunsung is the Lead vocalist and Visual

24 years old His birthday is August 29, 1996

He is a virgooo

MAN IS 6FT EVEN

lead vocalist and LOOKS IT

he is the king of intense eye contact with the camera 

he looks like legit prince charming

2/2 of Highnote Belting Club

weird af

istg he is the biggest crackhead

very extra. (as you can see in gif)

he calls himself a vampire because of his super pale skin

he trained for 4 years

he raps part time

HE ACTUALLY ENJOYS EXCERCISE

he hides snack between his bed and the wall but apparently daewon and junyong steal them

I think he rooms with junyong? not sure

Someone save him from junyong. boy is going to be smothered to death

ngl their relationship is really cute

he was also in Produce 101 S2 but left bc of health issues.

cutest thing ever and then turns into a devil onstage

a literal puppy

he is big fan of ateez and he and another member actually went to the groups first concert in korea

he is just so precious and weird 

Kim Siheon

oml this smol bean

Kim Siheon god damn

He is 23 years old

Birthday is December 23, 1997 (Capricorn like meeeee)

also 5′10 babyy

Vocalist but also a rapper (he rapped suga’s part in their remix of BTS Fake Love)

LIKES TO BIAS WREKC FREAKING EVERYONE

Beware the Siheon

He has a hot older sister, Hanbit, from a group called Hot Place (Their debut song is called TMI and its pretty good.)

HOTNESS RUNS IN HIS FAMILY

he trained for 5 months

he really likes drawing and does caricatures of his members

he is the eyebrow king

idk his eyesbrows are just.... 

stylists do things to his eyebrows anf it just fucks everyone up

high key has the best fashion sense

others boys willshow up to vlive in like hoodies and he is wearing a freakin casual suit

BOY PLAYS TO WIN’

he is like a boss at every kind of game

claims himself to be sweet like “Heonie”

“Hi! I’m siheon! Heonie Heonie Siheonie!”

he is a litter quieter than the other guys 

BUT he is so funny 

he doesn't like spice on his food for some reason

yeah he's crazy

he trained for 5 years

he's just precious and hot and hot and really hot

Ryu Hoyeon

THIS MAN HAS GIVEN ME SO MANY PROBLEMS

Ryu Hoyeon.

So he is my bias wrecker. Boy climbed up my bias list so freaking fast

He is the main dancer, vocalist, and a rapper (he also composes and arranges with Seunghoon)

He is 22 years old

His birthday is February 6, 1998 (Aquarius)

anontherrrrr 5′10 babbyyyy

cheekkkkkbooonnneeeessss

SHARK BOYY

He says he looks like a shark and i agree

HE HAS A NICE FUCKING TORSO

There was a predebut photo of him half shirtless it was awesome

he was also on Produce 101 S2 

eliminated on ep.5 :(

he trained for 2 years

He, yeonkuk, and seunghoon were in the Japanese tour of the musical Altar Boyz with Teen top’s Niel,2PM’s Chansung, and many others

he has a semi viral video of him

when he was a trainee / on produce 101 he was dancing to nct127 cherry bomb and had an unfortunate but quite hilarious accident (just look it up its funny)

sucks ass at games. every game. ever.

he is a low-key crackhead. he is a calm crackhead lol

VERY ATTRACTIVE

he used to have a youtube channel

you can still see his insta (leaderyoo) its so freaking cute and has predebut stuff of all the boys

he made their entire remix of fake love

he choreographed their song Diamond and also their cover of Taki Taki (which was very hot)

becomes a beast when dancing

he has an original chore to WEight in Gold that is very.......(insert eyebrow wiggle here)

has that dorito torso

(tiny waist and broad shoulders)

also thighs god damn

He is also a HUGE Vixx fanboy

Alter ego is DJ Ironman

He is very close with Siha, Siheon, and Yeonkuk

they turned him into a traffic cone for the Doom Doom comeback

he speaks a little bit of English (just a little bit)

all in all I'm completely in love with this man

Yang Siha 

THIS MAN IS SO FINEEEEEEE (he's my bias btw I have never been so in love with a man other than jisung)

Yang Siha is just uugghghhh god damn

22 year old babyyyy

Birthday is March 9, 1998 (Pisces)

Lil baby is 5′7″ oml i love him

MAIN VOCALIST AND DESERVES IT

he likes watching youtube videos and anime

He trained for 1 year and 1/2

looks good in every freaking hair color

his voice does NOT MATHC HIS FACE 

but not like in a Felix level way

He says his most attractive features are his “feminine features” (he says his unpronounced Adams apple and his small noes and doe eyes

HE HAS SMOL EARSSSS and i lovethem

close with Hoyeon and Siheon

but like his voice though

its so freaking pretty

it gives me chills

everything about him is perfect

he has tiny lips lol

he can play guitar

legit i swear his entire closet is black he rarely wears color

legit EVERYONE LOVES HIM

if someone is hugging anyone in a vlive or something

its siha

its always siha

everyone cuddles siha

i wanna cuddle siha. fuck.

for some reason I've just noticed this

the boy likes to wear long sleeves idk why

he also always seems to wear this one necklace Idk why but its so pretty and i really love that he does idk

he says his favorite song by NOIR is Travel (its also my favorite. its on their debut album and omg his part <3)

he is just so pure oml everything he posts on insta just makes me so soft

he is just so freakin cute and makes me switch lanes so fast

Kim Minhyuk

ooooof this cutie

Kim Minhyuk is something else

i just don't know what he is lol

Lead rapper and lead dancer

22 years old

His birthday is March 18th, 1998 (Pisces)

5′11 boy yes sir

ALSO A COLLEGE EDUCATED MAN

He went to Seoul Arts College

he has an older brother

apparently he cooks in the dorms

he trained for 1 year

he likes to play basketball

he really loves taking photos on his camera

he HATES bugs. its kind of funny ngl

he also is deathly afraid of balloons (i will not apologize for laughing at this one)

He and yunsung loooove ateez. they went to their first concert.

HE SERVES LOOOOKKKSSS

I think he is the most versatile member (look wise) because sometimes its hard to recognize him with each comeback because they change his style

he has these really cute big circle glasses he wear and just uwu

he kinda looks like Simon or Theodore from Alvin in the chipmunks in the best way.

he has a thing about jumping

like whenever he gets excited or happy he just starts jumping

he smiles like sunshineeeeee

even though he is the second youngest a lot of the members say that they go to him for advice 

(probably cause he has permanent hold of one of the 3 braincells noir has)

he looooves girl group dances 

especially twice 

TIKTOK KING 

He owns Noir’s tiktok pretty much. also their insta

he's a precious chipmunk

Kim Daewon

Thhis baby oml

Kim Daewon is the cutest thing since that fluffy little dog whose name i cant remember

20 years old 

Birthday is April 18th, 2000 (Aries)

Lead Dancer, vocalist, maknae

PROTEC THIS BABY BOY

In pictures he looks tall af

actually...

5′7″ but looks like 5′4″

the cutest thing everrrrr

HIS CHEEEKS

the biggest fluffiest cutest cheeks

everything about him is smol except for them thighssss

trained for 1 year

he has one older sister

THE BOY NEEDS MORE LINESSSS LUK FACTORY GIVE HIM MORE LINESSSSSS

he goes off in the chorus of their b-side track “Between” though like fuuuuuuucccckkkk (lowkey one of my favorite songs by them)

literally one of the funniest people you will ever see

extra crackhead energy

makes all the boys laugh

he loves chicken and snacks (gotta keep those cheeks in top shape)

literally the softest boy

he's good at everything i swear

he likes to shimmy.

has a cute butt lol

he talks in tiny

literally the cutest maknae ever oml

I hope this helped guys!!!!! I really hope you can stan noir and support them in their comeback this Monday! I hope this helped @distrikt9 if you need videos or anything feel free to ask! I love sharing my boys. They really are so underrated. I did this so fast ngl. I've never typed so fast

[revelaare]

Shit said in the Crimson Discord & VC, taken out of context part 2, (the sequel)

Big NSFW warning, probably

his meat slid off and then slid right back on

[PRONOUN] can punch me in my uterus and make a hammock out of my ovaries

it’s one of the worst fucking things i’ve ever heard, and i’ve heard someone literally shit their pants

they tagged me and my ass clenched

this man just said “I want to eat ur ass and then kiss you” ok buddy

a man with a plan

my grandpa is texting his hoes from his flip phone

god my lawyer was a hit but idk if she will be the chosen one or not

hello give me your toenails

i'll touch you in a non-weird way

he was in that movie with the people, he was the human.

i want her to brush my hair

If we have dick glasses they have to be of the highest quality for the best experience

i don't wanna watch that white nonsense

i would throat him like a fine wine

these millenials can't live without ac? back in my day we lived on the sun

yall better put those goats on a wheel, tell them to start running

he looks like a bitch

yes or no, u wud punch the light bulb out of thomas edisons wrinkly pruned hand and asked him if he believed in god

still has skin and a working body

i needed to wait until my voice changes

you thought i was snacking on joe biden’s savory meat stick

barack guckin oglizzy, oguckma, barack osugma, Joe choden, OglchnnngggHHHYynnUUUnnghhma

why did i have a dream that i was taking the lid off my car

false gods require wine, real gods require coochiefice

fettucine wet ass pussy

that was all you sent me. the picture of a raccoon and then nothing

it isn’t hate, it is ‘continuously let down by’.

i never went to school who science

i’m gunna go peer pressure my mum into a shot

thank you for furthering my career at hot topic

i will suck the ingrown hair off of him

it has huge jackman in it

i chomped on this eggshell, got my calcium in for the day

i will take you to touch the mango

i want to see all the big things

[PRONOUN] has collar bones so deep you could hook a clothing hanger into it

no asscheeks in fucking family chat you animals

he will eat you alive and suck out your intestines like its a spaghetti noodle

[NAMES]’s Tiggle Biddie’s

dropped acid, cried the whole night.

my stomach is hooping and hollering, i’m about to eat some sleep

you want my throatsac ??

please dont know me as the toenail eater

you have to keep the skin on one side while you eat the other, thats basic mango physics

i mean he is some good sasuage

calm down dick Hannibal

respectfully, what the fuck is this

tbf i only eat my steaks where they need tampons

you committed acts of culinary terrorism

does your refrigerator whimper and cower in the corner when you approach it. that's your fridge trying to use echo location to locate a safe space

thundercuck

i almost met Jesus, I almost got an autograph. Almost got a greatest hits signed album.

respectfully, are you smoking fucking crack?

my left testicle could play better than you

i’ll eat him with ketchup

son of a biscuit eating bulldog!

now it’s back to me sucking, all is right in the world.

holy fuck weasels.

holy fuck, weasels!

why does the bad guy look like the Statue of Liberty?

this is a man that sometimes willingly dresses like a lumberjack

and me, being an emotional cripple, must make jokes about this.

hey my name is [NAME] i'm **definitely** who i say i am

[NAME OR PRONOUN] offered a back massage by calling it the “tickle thing”

i love a man who puts his parents in a nursing home.

my brain is going to take a hot shower

wait have u seen steve harvey's coochie

if it were me i would simply not be pregnant

look im not about to be out here saying i love [NAME OR PRONOUN] feet, but i am about to be out here saying that their feet are some of the nicest feet i've seen in a long time

i named my cloyster renesmee

[NAME] was texting me from the bathtub

you’re pregnant? That’s unfortunate.

do I say dumb shit? Perhaps. Do I take ownership? Perhaps.

i pay for things in blissful ignorance

i am an emotional vagrant

i am an emotional fragrance

to make a long motherfucking story short...

this enchilada tastes like asshole and sadness

you are not an ugly bitch, you’re just a bitch

that’s not a nut shot, buddy.

i’m sad because i sucked the meat off of this pumpkin spice latte

i want to make a blanket out of his eyebrows

what are you disgracing my Christian eyes for?

he be looking at that dick like why does it go so much to the left?

I want her to record an audio book for me so I can fall asleep listening to her voice.

Can I lick you like an ice cream cone? Asking for science.

like you're out to lunch with your bromie and you're eating some rubens or something and you wistfully look over the rim of your sunglasses and just: You ever buss 2 fast

my accent is flaccid

timotay chalamaymay’s sweet ass

on the bright side mcallister’s gave me 3 pickle spears. Almost enough to make a whole pickle.

you think they came from the same mommy pickle?

HIS DOODLE IS OUT

i thot that meant [NAME] wanted to...doodle his noodle

i don’t use commas, i don't respect u enough, fuck ur reading comprehension.

does australia have seasons

i want someone to embalm my body with mcdonalds sprite

his hermione grangina

purrrr my last email

its lore locked beneath 30 layers. u can only understand it if uve had a near death experience

LET'S GET FUCKY

i wanna have the heart of a stoner

his man titties look like little tattooed pillows

SWIGGITY SWOOTY COMIN FOR THAT BOOTY

there were no cheeks to shake. nothing to clap. no noise to be had from her literal slices of wonderbread

u ever just fuck around and ur tits fart

put a lil mint leaf on it for authenticity

alright brother god bless may u be fertile

i feel like im being advocated for something i shouldnt be advocating for

and i am adam with my fat pendulous balls lol

i’m making whuppie with whoopie godberg

theodore tits fart rex

yeah man do u also have the third toe on ur shoulder

the green spaghetti monster is coming for me and i can't blame him

today i learned starfish do not poop

that was nothing compared to some other things I saw

listen I'd willingly watch [NAME/PRONOUN] in a cell for 24 hours. Imagine that sounded less creepy

i'd lick a dirty flip flop off her abs

i’m tempted to show you all the gravity defining boobs, maybe tomorrow

my brain is on vacation

good morning! i ate breakfast and im ready to go to bed

tape the titty in

ive unironically had nightmares with [NAME] in them

the peanut in the auditory canal

so far this feel all comfortable, does this all make sense?

i know it's kind of a schlep to get through

nail polish or no nail polish for the shower?

and then he saw those big tt honkerz... and it all went down hill from there

can y’all stop chanting curses in the chat my furniture is stuck on the ceiling

EH?! CIAO? HELLO??

in Russia this is not ok 

i can’t buy pants here on Sunday either

IT'S LIKE TWELVE THOUSAND DOLLARS TO EAT ON A SOGGY PANCAKE

imagine me going up to [NAME/PRONOUN] and being like i love the way ur flesh smells

in a supermarket. The sickly blue light where humans congregate. Animal human masses. Nameless faces. Whole lives boiled into generalized categories like "asshole who definitely does need 4 boxes of cheerios". Yout hink and realize while stabding in line u didnt grab the bag of frozen peas...but its 2 late

its truly the only picture that gives me pure joy

are weasels real

my work mum just messaged me the phrase "use your booty call wisely" with no context

"let's bring u to the mustache chair"

If you’re not doing coke under the coke sign what is the point?

[seekingthestars]

sarah watches the untamed: liveblogging adventures, part thirty the untamed boys

(aka: oh ho ho you thought we were done, did you? [she did too.])

uhhhh. yeah. oops? no one will care about these but i.love.them. so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

the untamed boys, ep 1:

ji li complaining about waiting forever lol

and cyc complaining about being hungry bc he had to wait so long for ji li XD

fanxing is like…not even paying attention, he’s just playing on his phone HAHAHA

ji li “how about THIS i’ll cut yu bin’s hair doing a handstand, i want to cut his yellow hair” he is truly chaos

yu bin and fanxing just lounging all over each other is adorable, i love this uncle and nephew

bowen LOL “bring it on, who cares.”

“Stop talking about me!” /ZOOMS AWAY — WHY IS FANXING SO CUTE I ADORE THIS MARSHMALLOW

fanxing pouting and clinging onto yu bin and yu bin just letting him and hugging him back, fanxing is a koala and stupidly adorable

ji li sliiiiiiding around XDD

“This is our cultivation process” JI LI ILU

jiyang’s FACE when he says he’s lost a lot of hair already fjeaoiwfjw

[ it’s time for Ji Li’s nonsense ] OH GOOD :D :D :D

“can you control your child please?!” NO BOWEN, NO ONE CAN CONTAN JI LI

JIYANG IS SO CUTE IN THE RECORDING STUDIO ;n;

jiyang in this pink and white striped sweater is Peak Softness

the choreographer being grumpy at fanxing makes me ;;;;;;;;;;;;;; yu bin going to pat him makes me ;u;

zfx saying he wanted to give up and pull out so he would stop dragging the rest down makes me ;AAAA;

when fanxing goes “i forgot my actions just now” and puts his hands to his head it is VERY cute but also i just wanna wrap him up in fifteen blankets and tuck him in bed and give him his preferred bedtime drink and tell him he’s doing amazing TINY BABY ;;

AWWWW they got a Halloween cake!!

you’re ALL doing great my lil beans, i proud of youuuu

the untamed boys, episode 2:

dammit all, xiao zhan is so pretty

GOD SONG JIYANG IS SO CUTE UGH

cyc with his hair all pinned up out of his face so he can get his makeup done is freaking adorable

zheng fanxing is so small and cute i will protect this bean

i appreciate that ji li’s jacket says “Maniac” on the back bc.....yeah. i know it’s part of the brand, but STILL. appropriate. such a good boy though, saying he wants to walk around and put everyone in good spirits for the show

fanxing eating his banana CUTIE

i love xiao zhan’s little hat omg

wyb “I don’t think you have ever beaten me before” LOL SASSY

BOWEN BREAKING THE LITTLE TOY CAR THING AND THEN JUST GIVING UP HAHAHA

xz talking about how hard his solo song is to sing but he does such a great job of it, i love his solo song ;~~~~;

good god yu bin saying they rehearsed for 13 hours and slept for like 1-2, how the heck were any of them alive enough to do the show dang

POOR LITTLE FANXING LOOKING SO LOST AND CONFUSED XD

ji li in the audience cute cute

yibo 😭❤️

jiyang’s fan dance!!!! i love jiyang’s fan dance!!!!

FANXING T______T he’s crying so much he’s shaking omg baby omg now i’m gonna cry ;;;;;;;;;;

cyc is so pretty ugh

god every time fanxing cries i just want to wrap him up in a million blankets and rub his back until he feels better

them all saying goodbye to their characters is so EMOTIONAL, and they’re all emotional and xz’s voice cracked and i lost it ;AAAAAAA;

xz and wyb closing it out, my heart ;~~~~~~;

the untamed boys, episode 3: I’m so freaking excited about this chaos oh my god

THE LITTLE FOX PIN THING ON ZANJIN’S SWEATER. CUUUUUTE. also i like that sweater, do want

they get in the van and ji li IMMEDIATELY starting his chaos by yelling at zanjin omg i am living

them pretending to see Disney omg they’re all so dumb

they look so COOOOLD little penguins

fanxing shielding zanjin’s eyes from the sun like the sweet little bb he is

yu bin with his famous poem he’s such a DORK

fanxing time! “i think the boxes are where our staff is” LOL big brain energy from the small boy

ji li and zzj together!

DUMB AND DUMBER BROTHERS “We 2 are crazy” AT LEAST YOU ADMIT IT HAHAHAHA

FINALLY!!!!!! THE LINE!!!!!! “I DON’T FEEL LIKE USING MY BRAIN OUT HERE TODAY!” ZANJIN, IT IS ICONIC

Bowen’s little baby hop to reach the box fjewiaofawe he’s so TALL

“Why!!!!” omg he’s found two and can’t get anything open XDDD

YU BIN’S CACKLE WHEN HE FOUND THE BOX HAHAHAHA and he got it open! such an easy question, he’s so pleased hahaha

“Wow this game really makes people confused” poor Bowen with the empty brain XD “WHAT.” “HOW MANY CHICKENS DID HE STEAL.” i’m dying HAHAHAHA

fanxing found a box!! so smart, this one, he has much knowledge

JI LI AND ZZJ TRYING TO CLIMB THE POLE OMG DUMB DUMB DUMB

oh my god cyc and he peng tormenting ji li and zanjin is hysterical, they’re so chaotic

YU BIN’S DUMBASS LAUGHTER FJEIOWFJWE

ji li changing what was in the box L O L and STUFFING THE CLUE IN HIS SHOE L O L

bowen is so sweet “i need to hurry up and find a box for fanxing!!!!!” but fanXING ALREADY HAS ONE XD

oh nooo zanjin found a box but it’s the one fanxing already opened XDD

CYC’S DUMB LAUGH OMG

FANXING’S VOICE IS SO SOFT every time he speaks i’m just like FJEWIOF WAIT

he is a BABY

calling fanxing “little a-yuan” look i am weak and i am soft

i love how so far everyone’s been eliminated for just attacking the wrong person lol their web of lies and deception is so deep

why is yu bin stroking bowen’s face lol

omg it’s yu bin’s gross marshmallow time

did they just stick entire unpeeled bananas on the grill 

ji li singing XDDD

yu bin using the eggplant as a mic for bowen XD

cute bunch of boys c:

the untamed boys, episode 4:

(How drop-dead gorgeous they are!) -- Correct caption is very correct

ALL HUDDLED TOGETHER LIKE LITTLE PENGUINS AGAIN :D

“Can we have something to eat inside?” “Or anything to drink~?” PLS JIYANG AND FANXING TOO CUTE

LOL THIS FACE JIYANG

JI LI’S “NO~”

cyc: “HE LIKES SLEEPING NAKED” fanxing: slowly covers ears  XDDDDD

yu bin’s guess of “he talks with a doll before going to sleep” omg i’m dying

jiyang’s like “when did i act cute” and then poUTS AT THE CAMERA fjewioafjawe

them guessing all of jiyang’s before he can even pick a person LOLOL

ji li going “yu bin sent me a message once and i replied 14 days later” LOL I RELATE i have legit done that, not on purpose, i just forget, i’m really bad at forgetting to reply if i don’t see the message/notification constantly, i have goldfish memory

ji li “I quit, I don’t wanna compliment him anymore” XDDDD

fanxing is so small and cute pls he’s like four someone get him a juice box

jiyang, bowen, yu bin VS fanxing, ji li, yuchen!

YUCHEN DANG but also fanxing going “OHHH!!!” and clapping and hopping along in excitement jfeiowafw

fanxing with the big paw gloves omg

yuchen is so good at this

ji li: “it hurts!!” fanxing: runs up to him and cups ji li’s cheeks in his giant paw gloves all concerned SO. CUTE.

them all being dumb and dancing around during halftime fjeiowaf

fanxing sneaking a snack in XD

fanxing trying to grab the ball and just falling over with it PLS SOMEONE PROTECT HIM HE IS SO SMALL

cyc and ji li are both surprisingly good at this, esp. cyc

and then he whacked ji li in the face feioawjfawe POOR JI LI

yu bin’s hat falls off “THIS IS MY LIFE WHICH CAN’T BE LOST” XD

the untamed boys, episode 5: dinner party time! /chants WZC WZC WZC :D :D :D

WZC WZC!!!!!! “I’m just hungry” LOL

AND GUO CHENG!! :D

nom nom eat up hungry boys!!

ohhhh everyone got hidden tasks oh fun!

yu bin just singing omg fjiewoafjwaeo; XDD

everyone in this cast in their own brand of chaotic, it’s so great 

the interview part with cyc in that suit and those glasses HEART EYES

jiyang’s drawing is cute!

wzc about yu bin: “he’s the fish who loves singing in my heart!” XDDD

yu bin’s scribbles of ji li BLESS IT “I usually don’t get what he means, just like this drawing that’s not understandable.”

“what about the lost arm????” “HE DID LOSE IT AT THE END!!!!!!” ilovejili

omg they’re gonna be baristas omg so CUTE, the coffee shop AU of everyone’s dreams thank you 🙏

ji li’s face when he tries the drink HE made XDDD and fanxing consistently refusing to try it XD

fanxing and yu bin duo is the CUTEST and fanxing’s constant little pouty faces when they can’t get anyone to agree to coffee jfieowajfawe

ji li and yi zhou are doing no better XDD 

bowen seeing the puppy and immediately stopping what he’s doing to run after it screaming “OHHHH!!!!!” is such a mood

bowen is so chaotic, chasing puppies, screaming at people in boats XD

fanxing chasing down the foreigner omg lol

they made such a mess of the cup lol but they’re so CUTE i would forgive them if they were my baristas

nie bros got a customer!

“I’m the wiiiiiinner, sorry!” JI LI THAT WAS STUPIDLY CUTE SHUT UP

“What winner, you’re the waiter.” LOLOLOL YU BIN

BOWEN GIVING HIS COAT TO THE GUY HAHAHA

literally the coffee shop of my dreams, pls, all the cute waiters

yu bin just swooping over and shoving ji li out of the way to talk to the lady XDD

fanxing talking to the lady washing dishes and about his mom and all the part time jobs he had and he is such a soft sweet little bean

and we did it! that’s a wrap on The Untamed Boys! (er, the show anyway lol) that was fun, I enjoyed myself and laughed a lot bc they’re dumb and adorable :’)

[queen-of-the-vampires]

sweet but a psycho

characters: kol mikaelson x reader, minor characters

word count: 1,256

warnings: a mixture of angst and fluff

request: Can you do a Kol imagine with Sweet But Psycho by Ava Max?

summary: you are a fucking psycho but is the sweetest that kol will ever come across. he loves you for you.

beta: she wants to remain anonymous but i promise i have one lol

author’s note: this is based on the song sweet but a psycho but ava max. if you have any requests, please send them in!

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Being alive for a thousand years really does things to a person’s mind. There was nothing that you can survive only because you had been through so much shit during that period not to train your brain to handle it. It’s a blessing to be alive for that long, but it’s also a curse because a thousand years have passed and so will another and another and another until you’re all alone with no one but the Mikaelsons by your side to watch the world burn.

She'll make you curse, but she a blessing She'll rip your shirt within a second You'll be coming back, back for seconds With your plate, you just can't help it

Kol knew what you had done to his house before even stepping on the property. He knew what you were capable of, and when you got pissed, things broke. Not just random stuff you would find on your way home from a walk, but his things. Your scent was fading fast, and he knew you were here not too long ago. Whatever you had been feeling, he hoped you got it out on his property before you hurt someone who didn't deserve it.

He walked into the house and was appalled at what was before him. Furniture was smashed into pieces, glass shattered everywhere, his clothes were ripped to shred, and even with all this mess, it still didn’t amount up to your worst day. Someone had pissed you off, and this is what you did to let off steam.

“Shit,” he cursed, stepping over the broken glass to reach the middle of the room where a letter was.

I’ll be back and underneath your handwriting was a lipstick print of your lips where you had kissed it. He couldn’t help but smile at that gesture. You were sweet enough for people to let their guard down around you, then you were psycho enough to tear those walls apart so that they couldn’t be repaired.

“I don’t know what you did,” Klaus said as he peeked his head in the room, “but you better run, brother.”

“Nah, she was just having a bad day,” he excused your behavior. He knew how you could get, this was nothing.

No, no, you'll play along Let her lead you on, on, on You'll be saying, "No, no" Then saying, "Yes, yes, yes" 'Cause she messin' with your head

“Kol, come over. I miss you,” you said seductively over the phone. Sprawled across your bed, you toyed with the small strings attached to your short pajama bottoms.

“I can’t. I have a busy day tomorrow,” he lied. Lately, men have been throwing themselves at you, but they weren't the ones you wanted. The man you wanted was probably alone, sitting by the fire and drinking whiskey.

“Liar. Come on, Kol, I’ll make it worth your while,” you smirked. He knew you were stringing him along. It’s what you’ve been doing the past thousand years. He’d be the one you go to whenever you were bored until someone new came along. When you got bored with them, you’d come crawling back to him, and he’d accept you every single time.

Well, not this time.

“Not this time, darling. I’m sorry.”

“Fine, but before I hang up, I just want to tell you I’m wearing your favorite pajama shorts. You know the ones that barely cover my ass,” you grinned when you heard him groan. “And guess what I have underneath them. Nothing.”

“I’m on my way.”

See, someone said, "Don't drink her potions" She'll kiss your neck with no emotion When she's mean, you know you love it 'Cause she tastes so sweet, don't sugarcoat it

“That bitch has been staring at you ever since we got here,” you growled lowly, tightening your grip on his hand as the two of you danced. His family was hosting a ball to cover up some crime they needed to keep a secret, so the whole town was invited to give them a bit of privacy. You and Kol continued to dance through the night trying not to make anything look suspicious for the rest of the family.

“Darling, ignore her. I am,” he said softly, catching your gaze.

“I guess some women just don’t know when to stop,” you whispered, sliding your gaze to the woman who just couldn’t seem to stop staring at your man. Well, if she wasn’t going to take the hint, you needed to show her just who’s boss.

“I’m glad I’m here with you,” you grinned, leaning in as if you were going to kiss him. However, you diverted course and went for his neck, keeping your eyes trained on the woman who suddenly became uncomfortable. Leaving soft kisses on his neck, you watched as the woman tried to look away but found that she couldn’t.

With no emotion, you licked his neck before showing the veins underneath your eyes. The woman saw this and gasped, quickly leaving her spot to get some air. Grinning, you pulled away just as your veins disappeared.

“Was that really necessary?” he asked once he saw the scared woman.

“You’re mine, Mikaelson. Everyone needs to know that,” you said before placing your head on his chest. He couldn’t help but smile at that.

You're just like me, you're out your mind I know it's strange, we're both the crazy kind You're tellin' me that I'm insane Boy, don't pretend that you don't love the pain

“If I see you looking at him that way again, I’ll have more than just the snack table to munch on,” you threatened the woman after the party was over. Before coming outside, you had a blood bag and made sure to leave a little around your mouth to show her just who she was messing with.

“Sorry,” she squeaked out, taking the first chance she got and ran away. Laughing, you turned to go back inside when Kol blocked your path.

“You have got to stop this, Y/N,” he sighed.

“Relax, Kol,” you swiped the area around your mouth, gathering the blood on your thumb before sticking it in your mouth to suck on. “Admit it, you love this. You love how insane I am because deep down, you’re just like me. We’re both the crazy kind.”

Grinning, you winked at him and left his side, going back inside to help clean up. Kol watched you leave, and once again, he could not stop the smile that formed on his face.

Oh, she's sweet but a psycho A little bit psycho At night she's screamin' "I'm-ma-ma-ma out my mind" Oh, she's hot but a psycho So left but she's right though At night she's screamin' "I'm-ma-ma-ma out my mind"

“I don’t get it, Kol,” Rebekah started with a sigh. “Why do you like her if she’s brought you nothing but stress? She’s been with the family from the beginning, but that doesn’t give her the right to take control of your life.”

Kol has thought about this question for a millenia. Every time you went off the rails, he asks himself why he sticks around, why he keeps going back to you. Yes, you were a fucking psycho, but you were the sweetest person he’s ever met. You held so much compassion and protection for the ones you loved. They can’t see it, but it didn't matter because they weren't in love with you.

Shit.

“What can I say, Bekah? You can’t help who you fall in love with, yeah?”

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[sailorshadzter]

alright so here’s going to be my thoughts / breakdown of the new trailer. im actually really excited to do this because ive not done a game of thrones trailer before!! 

so i hope you guys enjoy.

also, shoutout to everyone who has taken the time to gif this trailer, i hope no one minds me using their gifs (with the proper credit of course!) 

anyways, under the cut for SPOILERS and length :)

we immediately cut to arya running off, her breathing heavy, she even makes a frightened sound as she takes off. we watch her run, looking over her shoulder, true fear in her eyes and on her face. but i dont think this is fear for herself. i can only assume that these opening seconds are post battle with the ww/nk because she’s covered in blood (also WHO’S blood?) and sweat. something or someone (jon  👀) has sent arya back to winterfell and we all know what the reason is: sansa fucking stark. 

something has struck fear into jon or arya for their beloved sister/cousin and arya is 100% going after sansa. because she looks over her shoulder, i imagine she’s running away from whatever has come for sansa- she’s leading it away, perhaps in hopes that it will give chase to her and give sansa a chance to escape. maybe not, maybe the look over her shoulder is at someone else chasing after her to rescue sansa (jon? the hound? brienne?). either way... this is true fear we see on arya’s face. she’s terrified that something has happened to sansa. 

worse yet... what if she’s running from someone who she loves that’s been turned into a white walker? i hate the thought of that but wow that could be something else, huh. 

what i find really interesting throughout this scene (besides arya’s voice over) is the three bell tolls. they say death comes in threes. the three bell tolls could signify the deaths of the characters we see as they chime (davos, varys, and arya herself / whoever she’s speaking to). i will literally lose my mind if davos dies, i cant even THINK about that. but, its definitely a very real possibility as we move into this final battle. 

arya’s voice over is chilling... i know death... it’s got many faces... i look forward to seeing this one. What i LOVE about this is its all voice over until that final line. she’s saying that to someone on her list. she’s clean in that moment, meaning its before or after the opening moments. my guess is its after and she’s speaking to cersei. cersei has been on her list from the beginning and it’s absolutely without a doubt that arya will rush off to king’s landing to rescue sansa. if cersei doesnt die in childbirth like i think (we’ll talk about that later) it would be arya to get the kill. and i know, the old witch told cersei it would be her brother that killed her... but let’s talk about that for a second

it’s going to be tyrion. he’s going to get them into king’s landing without cersei knowing and he’s going to be the reason they’re able to take cersei out. so really, he’s her undoing. he causes her death. this also feeds into my thought that tyrion won’t stay loyal to dany. if dany lives past the fight with the night king, something tells me she wont want to rush into king’s landing just to rescue sansa. she wont view her as important any longer and wont want to risk harm to herself or her dragons by immediately leaving one fight for the other. not for sansa stark. that will be tyrions breaking point. 

these are a few of the shots we get while bran’s voice over plays. everything that you did brought you to where you are now... where you belong. home.  we also see king’s landing & sam looking over his shoulder with bran in the background. the moment bran says home we’re hit with a shot of dany’s army marching towards winter fell, of course with jon and dany on horseback coming up at the rear? the middle? im not sure but i also dont think it matters much.

i think its obvious this is bran speaking to jon. he’s reminding him that despite this reveal of who his parents really were... he’s still a stark. he’s still home there at winterfell, in the north. he’s still got a family. everything jon has done up until this point has been for the north or for sansa. he went to war with the boltons to take winterfell back, to avenge what happened to sansa, to protect what family he had left. 

next is cersei, she’s clearly overlooking a ship coming into the harbor or someone riding up on horseback / in a wagon. i wont lie, im not versed enough in the ins and outs of king’s landing to know, or if you can even travel from winterfell to king’s landing... but i would assume there’s a way considering the golden company is most likely sailing there from king’s landing???

anyways

i think cersei is watching sansa being brought to her. she’s smirking because she think she’s won. she thinks she’s going to be the queen on the throne in the end of this fight. she’s untouchable. she’s pregnant with the future heir to the iron throne and she has who she believes to be her son’s murderer almost in her grasp. not just that- this is sansa stark, the key to the north. her “brother” is king in the north (well kind of) and now she has leverage against him. her life for something. i cant imagine word of jon’s parentage would have traveled to cersei yet (although... who knows) so she cant use sansa as leverage for jon to give up his claim to the throne. maybe sansa for dany? give up the dragon queen and ill give you back your sister, type thing. im not sure. i truly believe at this point, cersei still hasnt let go her belief that sansa helped poison joffrey & i think that’s the biggest motive for her here. everything else is just gravy. especially if she DOES learn the truth about jon while she’s in her keep. 

yeah so here we have dany and jon riding into winterfell, looking very much like a king / queen riding into battle. i dont have much to say about this moment other than they both look very stoic, not that is surprising for jon. dany seems to be just ahead of him, as if to remind everyone she’s the queen. i do like the contrast of her white outfit compared to the darkness of the dothraki and jon. but those blood red gloves? girl. talk about having blood on your hands.

now this is the part im LIVING FOR

MY GIRL HOLY SHIT.

the shot continues with sansa taking a few steps towards the other side of the walkway, her eyes never leaving the dragons. first of all, can we talk about how all the men in got have reacted to the dragons? THEY COWERED. THEY RAN. THEY FLUNG THEMSELVES ONTO THE GROUND. jon literally threw himself on the ground out of fear and shock. but not this girl. not my stark sisters. they literally show no fear as the dragons fly overhead. 

sansa is wearing the same gown here as she is when she meets with jon and dany. i definitely think this is her watching the arrival of the army and dany. the dragons arent hard to miss and im sure someone alerted her of them being sighted. she’s up there watching their arrival, knowing any moment jon would be back in winterfell where he belonged.

im sure she’s thinking about hundreds of things. how am i to feed all these people without the north starving? how are the dragons to feed without starving us all? why has jon brought her back with him? why do they ride side by side like husband and wife?  part of me wants to believe that this is all planned out ahead of time, but i know it isnt. if jon wants this political agenda to go through the right way he has to make every last detail seem believable. he knows sansa cant lie for shit (bless her heart) and if he doesnt make even her believe he’s with dany, then this whole thing will fall apart. 

he’s doing this for her, after all.

next we see jon already in the crypts and daenerys coming to join him. we have jon’s voice over as she walks they’re coming, our enemy doesn’t tire.   what’s interesting to me is the placement of jon’s words over this particular scene. it pans in to dany looking upset as she approaches jon (who looks downright miserable) as if she means to console him. it’s here that jon says the enemy never tires. are we to take this literally as dany is the enemy? its a trailer so its hard to say. we can only infer things at this point. i definitely believe dark!dany is coming whether this trailer did this or not, so i cant really use it as proof of anything. 

i just find it odd that jon is NEVER smiling or happy (it seems) when he’s with dany. now this post isnt about a ship war (but if you follow me, you already know where i stand) but i find it odd that for the couple we’re supposed to think is end game... they never seem happy. if jon’s in love with dany, why doesnt he show it? in his past relationships we see him smile and laugh. yes, i know, jon is definitely the brooding type but we KNOW he can smile, we’ve seen it before with sansa & ygritte. so why not with dany? that alone is proof enough for me that jon and dany are NEVER going to end up together. 

anyways moving on before the stans come for me  👀

doesnt stop, doesnt feel... Jon’s voice over continues as we flash to Gendy (looking like a whole ass snack, hello) Jorah riding into battle, and Grey Worm with Missandei sharing a kiss. also i think its important that we’re shown them kissing as jon says dont feel, implying that only the living can of course feel, while the night king feels absolutely nothing at all. their kiss is a reminder that happiness can be found even in the darkest of moments (thanks for the quote, albus) and its bittersweet too because this very well could be the last time they see each other. 

(credit to @vavaharrison for this gif as well) 

we cut then to a battle scene with brienne and jaime. i love the background of this scene- all fire and ash, brienne slicing through a white walker (i hope lol) as intense as ever. it cuts to jaime shouting for bronn which has me SHOOK because does that mean something has happened to bronn? is jaime trying to get his attention BEFORE something happens? just needs his attention so he can send him elsewhere on the battlefield? its hard to say. 

looking very closely, jaime is wearing northern armor here, the same set he was wearing in the one set of hbo stills. there’s been a lot of speculation that it’s robb’s armor he’s wearing and i love that idea. 

the scene switches immediately after this and we get something INSANE and AMAZING all at the same time.

without a doubt, that’s sansa there in king’s landing, standing before cersei. i think its safe to assume the person next to her is the commander of the golden company, the uniform he’s wearing is pretty spot on, at least from the distance of the shot. 

obviously they did this for a reason. they dont want us to be 100% but we know. but you cant miss sansa’s frame or the way she styles her hair. even in such a small, far off shot you can tell it’s sansa standing there. you can even just barely make our her fur wrap around her shoulders, the black cloak she wears a dark contrast to the room. 

now, i touched on this earlier... the kidnapping plot. 

i’ve been a big believer in this since i first heard of it. it makes sense, it falls perfectly into the plot.. it works. i wont repeat myself (much) from what i said earlier, but sansa has been brought here because she’s the key to the north & the whole joffrey getting poisoned at his own wedding. cersei blamed tyrion and by default sansa too... because besides sansa, who else could want him dead THAT MUCH? i mean to us, the answer is a LOT of people, but to cersei... sansa is the only answer. she was mistreated by joffrey from the start and he had cut of her father’s head right before her very eyes. of course sansa would want him dead. 

and its so easy to blame her. poor little sansa stark. she’s jealous of sansa, i’ve always thought so. a beautiful girl, well loved by her family and everyone around her. even at king’s landing people were drawn to her. she was a shining example of what a lady was supposed to be, untainted by the darkness like cersei. she was pure, like myrcella was. she would grow to have a nice life eventually, even if it meant she remained married to tyrion. and her own son, evil as he was, he was still hers, he would grow cold in the dirt. cersei needed someone to lash out at, someone to blame. and there was no one better than sansa stark. 

the shot of the hall is followed by that one of cersei, looking teary-eyed and drinking wine.  we already knew she was pregnant (or was she? now im not sure what to think!!) and avoided the wine when talking with tyrion. but here she’s drinking again. we know how much cersei loves her wine. i suppose its safe to assume there’s no more pregnancy, there’s to be no heir to follow after her for the iron throne. and now that jaime is gone from her... there’s no one left in this world that she loves or loves her. that child was her one last chance to start over, to be a good mother, and rule the seven kingdoms. now its all gone. its like she’s asking herself here what’s the point now? why continue? she’s wearing what looks to be a dressing robe, so i can only assume this is after she’s been cleaned up from her miscarriage. maybe she’s even brought sansa in and is talking with her, a call back to the conversations they used to have in the earlier seasons. 

i think we’ll get a lot of drama from this- everyone is going to witness jon losing his mind over sansa’s kidnapping. blaming himself, arya blaming herself, and probably brienne too. let me tell you... i live for that. i think this will be the moment where people realize just how deeply jon feels for her. this will be where the political plot unravels. 

*cue the dramatic music*

we get a shot of the dragons, a repeat of arya seeing the dragons, grey worm putting his helmet on, and an amazing shot of jon in the godswood (which ill talk about below) all while jaime has a voice over i promised to fight for the living... i intend to keep that promise! just like with arya, it starts out as a voice over, but the last line is him actually saying the line to whomever he’s speaking to. i believe this is part of his speech as he pledges himself to sansa / house stark. 

ive read a few posts about this moment- some speculating that there’s someone sitting there that we can’t see, others saying we’re seeing this in the POV of someone walking towards jon. im more inclined to believe the latter. its almost like jon’s waiting there for someone. i think we’d still get a glimpse of skirts if it was sansa or silver hair over his shoulder if it was dany. i guess you could argue it could be arya who’s so small he would obscure her or bran even, but again, i think its most likely this is the pov of someone walking towards jon.

but who?

i think its sansa. my little shipper heart would LOVE to believe this is a secret wedding or the moment they’ll confess their feelings, but its a long shot i know. anyways. if its not sansa... then i dont know. at this point, im assuming this is after jon’s parentage reveal. he’s struggling with who he is. all along he’s wanted to be a stark, not just the stark bastard. now he’s a targaryen? who’s the one person who told him he was a stark when no one else would? Sansa. im not a stark, you are to me. jon doesnt have the stark name, but i do. together, they are house stark. if he married her, he could claim the name he always wanted. it would be an amazing call back to ned & cat under the godswood back in season 1 if we had jon and sansa here as well.

all i can think about when i see these scenes are something i mentioned above: how are the dragons going to feed without putting the whole north into starvation? originally id been worried about the army dany was bringing with her but this... this is the real problem. look at all the bones jon and dany have to cross to get to her dragons. how much livestock and wild animals have died to feed these things? how many more innocent children / people have been killed already in wintertown? that livestock / animals could be feeding the people, but they arent. 

this leads me to this next moment

wow my girl looks so sad here :(

im having a LOT of mixed feelings about what’s got sansa so down. she’s in a new dress entirely (note the neckline) so im not sure where to place this in the timeline of everything. i could refer this moment to SO MANY THINGS. is she watching jon and dany? a new thought that has come to me is... have the dragons burned someone? is this her reacting to someone crying over a dead child / loved one? im having a lot of flash backs to how dany looked when the father brought her his daughter’s charred corpse. 

her lips are parting like she means to say something but cant find her voice. she’s standing in winterfell’s courtyard, so who else is around her? we’re not privy to anyone in the background or before her, so again, we can only infer from what the trailer is giving us. 

is she watching jon and dany as they walk away to visit the dragons? have she and jon just argued? is she watching HIM walk away to brood in the godswood, feeling down himself after learning who his parents were? it could literally be anything that’s making her look this sad. im leaning towards it being jon related, but wow if it were something to do with the dragons burning someone... wow. 

i feel like this is where im going to end.

the rest of the trailer are quick glimpses of scenes and faces. arya fighting with the same background as brienne, tyrion looking hella depressed, drogon hitting us with a fire blast, the dothraki & brienne/jaime/ ect in line to fight, and of course the epic moment where we see the first glimpse of a white walker.

overall, this trailer was great. 

it gave us just enough without being TOO much. i thought id be let down once we did get a trailer only because we’ve been waiting so long!! but it’s amped me up and got me even more excited for the season to come!!

if you’ve made it this far... thanks for reading! lets chat about all things game of thrones! my ask box is always open~! :)

[solesurvivorkat]

OC Interview: Nora Taylor

Rules:

1. Choose an OC 2. Answer as that OC 3. Tag 5 people to do the same!  ((It’s been so long since I’ve been tagged, I say feel free to do this if you’d like! :D ))

Tagged by @the-dubstep-strawberry, @scorpio-skies, and @lothrilzul - all awesome ladies that I am blessed to know, thank you so much for thinking of me and I apologize 1,000 times over for the delay!  <3

Interview done with my Fallout 4/’Shadow of Steel’/female Sole Survivor OC, Nora Taylor! (And once again, I swear to you that my Fallout 4 fanfic is not dead - I am just very, very behind. Eep.)

((...I really need to find/get a good reference pic of poor Nora sometime, lol))

1. What is your name?  Nora Taylor. I was Nora Delaney for a period of time, but... not any more.

2. Do you know why are you named that? I was named after my great-grandmother. I never knew her, but my mom liked the name.

3. Are you single or taken? Widowed. ...And... currently seeing someone now.

4. Have any abilities or powers? Let’s see... I’m pretty good with computers (I can usually hack into them better than my friend Nick), pretty good at being empathetic and using the power of speech, and... not to toot my own horn or anything, but since joining the Brotherhood of Steel, I’ve gotten pretty handy with a gun too (particularly my laser rifle).

5. Stop being a Mary Sue. ::blinks::  ...A what? A ‘Mary Sue’? ...I’m not sure what that means, but if that’s some snark about me acting like I’m perfect or something- ::laughs:: -then you obviously don’t know me very well, because I am far from perfect. Just ask my friends. ...Not Brooks, though. Anything he tells you about me is a filthy lie. ...And maybe not Womack, either.

6. What’s your eye color? Green.

7. How about your hair color? Darker blonde, maybe a ‘honey blonde’ color.

8. Have any family members? ....... ..........My family is long gone. My parents, brothers, sister... they all died a long time ago. At least, I’m pretty sure they did. I have no idea if they made it to any vaults before the bombs hit, but... I’m not betting on it. Even if - by some miracle - they did survive the bombs, there’s pretty much no way they’d still be alive now. Not unless those a- creeps from Vault-Tec froze more people in cryopods. 

My husband Nate... he died a while back too.

I’m searching for my only family left - my son, Shaun. I’ve been trying to hang onto hope that he’s alive and well (albeit older than when I last held him in my arms)...

For now, I have Codsworth, Dogmeat, and my ‘brothers and sisters in steel’ in the Brotherhood, who have become like a new family to me. My other friends are very dear to my heart as well.

9. Oh? How about pets? Dogmeat! He’s just the best boy, so loyal, and always there for me when I need him. 

10. That’s cool, I guess. Now tell me something you don’t like? Urgh, deathclaws are the worst. I have the scars to prove it. Raiders and Gunners are almost as bad... maybe worse, actually. Deathclaws are deadly, but they’re just doing what any wild animal of that size and stature would do. Raiders and Gunners... they can be stupid, cruel, sadistic, greedy... I could go on and on.

11. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do? I don’t really have a lot of spare time, between being a Brotherhood Knight and leader of the Minutemen (which I’m still trying to convince Preston to become). However, I do enjoy cooking from time to time (as members of the Brotherhood also seem to enjoy, haha), working on modding my power armor and weaponry (with Danse’s dutiful supervision), helping the settlers of the Wasteland, and cuddling with Dogmeat and a good book (and maybe a certain gruff Brotherhood leader on occasion...  ;-)  ).

12. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before? ...Maybe. Not intentionally, anyway (that I can remember). If I have, I’m sure I had my reasons. I make mistakes like anyone else.

13. Ever… killed anyone before? .....No one that didn’t deserve it, in my eyes. I make it a point to never hurt the innocent or helpless. And even when defending myself, I try to use sound judgement. If I’m blatantly attempting to kill someone... there’s definitely a reason behind it.

14. What kind of animal are you? Hmm... not sure. .....  ::smiles softly::  .....Nate once said I’m like a shark when defending those I feel need it.

15. Name your worst habits? I... can be quite stubborn, unfortunately. I think with my heart a little more than my head. That may sound like a good thing, but it’s gotten me into trouble before. And... once in a while, I can be a little impetuous.

16. Do you look up to anyone at all? Danse. He’s someone I admire a lot. And Preston too, actually. They do the things they do because they want to help those that rely on them, putting others before themselves frequently. Arthur is like that too. He’s... often misunderstood by many, when he’s really sacrificed so much to try and be what everyone else wants or needs him to be.

17. Are you gay, straight or bisexual? ...Does it matter? Straight, if you need to know.

18. Do you go to school? Not currently. I graduated law school to be a lawyer. That was... a very long time ago.

19. Ever want to marry and have kids one day? ...I did, once. My husband Nate was... taken away from me. Shaun too. In the future? ...I don’t know... I can’t really think about myself and the distant future when one can’t really determine what tomorrow will bring in this world now.

20. Do you have any fangirls/fanboys? ...I think there’s some people that look up to me (like Preston), but I feel undeserving of their praise. I’m just doing what any good person would try and do for others.

21. What are you most afraid of? ...Never seeing my son again. Or... reuniting with him, but him not wanting anything to do with me any more. I think that would hurt me more. Also, after what happened in Vault 111, I tend to panic in enclosed spaces (it took me a while to get used to wearing power armor regularly). I definitely don’t like the cold, either.

22. What do you usually wear? Usually power armor and my Brotherhood uniform. Preston prefers me in a Minuteman uniform when I’m helping him out, but... I don’t know... it just seems kind of goofy to me, running around in seventeenth century garb. Hey, it looks fine on him and Hancock, but I just don’t think it’s for me.

23. What’s one food that tempts you? Danse got me liking Fancy Lad Snack Cakes, but I’ve always had a bit of a sweet tooth. God, I miss decent chocolate. If someone had something like that, I’d definitely go a bit weak in the knees.

24. Am I annoying to you? ...No..... but this is quite a few questions...

25. Well, it’s still not over! Phew... you’re more tenacious than Piper.

26. What class are you (low/middle/high)? Before the ‘Great War’, Nate and I were middle. Now...  ::shrug::  ...not sure. Definitely not high, though. Just as well too, those people are nuts. We’re all trying to survive in this Wasteland, and they’re just concerned with their clothes/how they look and what possessions they have. It really is ridiculous.

27. How many friends do you have? Let’s see... Preston, Sturges, Nick, Piper, Hancock... MacCready and I are getting there, I think... Haylen, Knights Womack & Petris, of course Brooks... and absolutely Danse. He and I are about as close friends as you can get.

28. What are your thoughts on pie? Pre-war pie was something special. Granted, I was more of a ‘cake, brownies, and cookies’ kind of girl, but still... there just isn’t quite anything like that nowadays. I don’t have the courage to try that vending machine pie I see around the Wasteland...

29. Favorite drink? Nuka-Cola. Sparkling cider used to be one of my faves too, but I haven’t had that in- well, a long time.

30. What’s your favorite place? Hmm... I used to prefer being around Sanctuary Hills, but home is where the heart is (as they say), and not being around the Prydwen for any length of time really makes me blue...

31. Are you interested in anyone? ::coughs::  Well... there is a certain Brotherhood member that’s caught my eye... ::blushes:: ...no, it’s not Danse!

32. That was a stupid question… Well hey, you asked it. We try to be subtle, but... come on, the guy is the leader of the whole freakin’ Brotherhood. You try being discreet when everyone is always watching you. .........I mean, er......

33. Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean? I used to love going to the beach and swimming in the ocean. Now I can’t even get close to the water without incurring some radiation. Kinda depresses me for what used to be.  :-(

34. What’s your type? ...I tend to go for military guys. Big, strong, responsible ad trustworthy... but I prefer it if they can also make me smile and laugh, as well. A sense of humor is definitely important to me.

35. Any fetishes? ::blushes::  ...That’s kind of personal, isn’t it?  ::scowl::

36. Camping or outdoors? Hmm... the two options really aren’t that far away from each other, don’t you think? I do like being outdoors and enjoying nature (safely), but I can’t say I enjoy camping in the rain (which I’ve had to do with Danse a couple times).

[trialsofaninvisbleillness-blog]

Fibromyalgia and a Hysterectomy

Having fibromyalgia is difficult enough. Having cancer makes life even more difficult. Dealing with just fibromyalgia will be a piece of cake after this. Until that time comes I am currently recuperating from a complete hysterectomy. Both ovaries, fallopian tubes, uterus and cervix were removed 5 days ago. I am allergic to most pain medications so I'm just using kratom for pain control and Tylenol.

On the day of surgery I was so blessed to have my sister-in-law with me. I was definitely getting nervous, just second guessing everything, and she made the ordeal more pleasant.

Before surgery all females with a uterus are tested to make sure they aren't pregnant. So while I was doing thay my sister-in-law started filling out information on the board. She gave our correct names than she decided to get creative and wrote out that I speak Swahili. I don't. Than she asked me what I wanted to be called besides my name, like a stage name. So I came up with Sprinkles Unicorn, Sprinkles for short. The nurse came in and started talking than she saw the board and asked if I did speak Swahili, told her fluent but English is good, too. Than she asked if I really wanted to be called Sprinkles, of course. I told her I am a black Swahili speaking unicorn, that is how I feel inside. She thought it was great and wrote in the notes to call me Sprinkles. The anesthesiologist poked her head in and asked if I was sprinkles. It was hilarious. As she was pushing me back to the operating room we came up with the perfect story line to be a character on My Pony? I don't have children so I don't know the name of the show. Anyway, we decided I love fairy dust but am allergic to rainbows. The surgeon was laughing as she heard this story and the other nurses thought it waa great. Unfortunately I was knocked out and couldn't finish my story. Oh well. Didn't want to take up too much time and make the surgeon run late since I was the first patient of the morning for her.

When I woke up I heard my surgery went well and that I never was able to get pregnant because I had endometriosis. At least I know now. In reality I didn't want to pass on my genes but I so would have loved having a child with my husband.

My sister-in-law, her husband, and one of my brother-in-laws brought me home after surgery. The morphine wasn't working and I just wanted to get into my own clothes and on my own couch so I coukd start taking kratom.

I can't lift over 10 pounds for 6 weeks. I'm having a difficult time eating much. It's more snacking on light foods because eating too much makes me cramp really bad. Everything makes me cramp bad. I am getting up to move around every few hours like Im suppose to but by the evening time I am so sore and feeling like I was just cut open. Oh right, I was. Lol.

The most difficult part of the healing process is watching what having fibromyalgia and cancer is doing to my husband. And also hearing all about it. It has me so depressed and I wish now I would have ignored the lump in my breast and not gotten tested for the cancer genes. That way I'd die and he could have the life he wants. But I didn't and now I am so depressed because the last thing anyone wants to do is hurt the person they love. Well, I don't want to. Can't speak for others. Anyway, that is a whole different story.

Back to my amazing in-laws. I'd be in bad shape if it wasn't for them. I am very blessed that they brought me into their fold. They are the ones who are helping and supporting me through this ordeal. My father-in-law just lost his wife but he has still been hete for me. That is family.

Hopefully I won't need any surgeries for a couple years. I'll need some work on my breasts than but I'm hoping the rest of my cancer tests will come up negative. Here's hoping.

[toukenra]

The saniwa buys an electric piano for her to play when she's not doing anything. How would her secretary: Kotegiri, Tomoegata, Kasen, Kashuu and Horikawa react to their saniwa and her rad piano skills? Like she can play almost any song and can impromptu compose songs.

Hi there everyone!

I apologize for going MIA! I apologize for not getting to your requests ASAP due to the lack of time due to midterms. Anyways, Here is your request! I hope you’ll enjoy them! 

(Underneath the cut due to being quite lengthy.)

-Mod Catharia.

KASHUU

• He caught you sitting in front of a table-like instrument you called a ‘piano’ reading a small pamphlet in your hands as he walked down the enegawa• He was about to call out to you and to show off his newly painted nails• The brunette stopped when you played a rather short melody using only one hand while glancing down at the small book• He stands there quietly, leaning on the door, enjoying the music you were making and even closed his eyes• Stop hovering at the door, Kashuu…”• He jolts and almost misses the doorway he has been leaning on when you call his name.• “What can I help you with?”• You chuckle and motion him to move closer as you turn back to play a bit more• “A-ah I just wanted to say hello, Aruji. But then I heard you playing…"• You feel the Uchigatana move closer, leaning over your shoulder as your hands fly through the keys• He admires the way your hands move and the beautiful music you were creating• He stays until you finish playing and gives an applause, you humour the handsome young man by getting up and giving him a curtsy.• He grabs a hold of your hand and squeezes it gently, looking quite impressed with you• “That was wonderful, Aruji! Not only are you pretty but you’re also talented! You’re 100 times cuter than usual!”• Kashuu is such a precious darling !!!(//ω//)• He ends up staying skipping his chores and you let him with you playing and teaching him some songs

tHE ITsY BItSY sPIDder WeNT Up thE waTEr SPouTdOwN cAMe ThE rAIn AnD WasHed ThE spIdER OuT

• You teach him the hand motions and he does it with no embarrassment whatsoever

• It’s honestly the cutest sh*t you have ever seen it SHOULD be illegal

• A few days later, you hear him forcing teaching a rather disgruntled Yamatonokami the songs he learned from you…Yamatonokami does it anyway… LOL! What a team player!!!

KOTEGIRI

• When he heard that you arrived he left his current task and went to receive you • “Welcome home, Aruji.” He greeted you with a smile• …It’s so rare you get to be greeted by a Megane…What did you did you do in your past life to  receive such reward!?• His eyes drift towards the rather large package that you were standing beside• “Aruji, what’s that beside you?”• “Oh! This? It’s a surprise!”• He gives you a look that said ’this better be something that is actually useful…’• Last time you brought home a pack of those colourful spinning contraptions used to keep people from fidgeting around and Mutsunokami, bless his pure and curious soul, thought they were a new type of  equipment•  …and flung them around like shurikens.•  …Let’s just say a few swords with lower mobility got a couple bruises from being unable to dodge quick enough• RIP Ishikimaru and Jirotachi• Poor Mutsu apologized quickly after learning that the toys were actually for the Tantous• You didn’t have the heart to reprimand him for borrowing the presents but instead patted his head• Anyway, Kotegiri realized you tended to buy things you didn’t really need.• What do you mean!? You don’t trust me!? How cruel, Kou-chii~!• You ask him to help you move the box to your study and set up whatever item you had purchased• Once you two finish setting everything up, he decides to go get some snacks from the kitchens• When he returns he hears this sweet melody drifting down the hallway from your study• He peeks in and sees your play, slightly mesmerized• The bespectacled man slowly and quietly walks in, placing the plate down at a near by table before continuing to listen in• Once you finish, you jolt when you hear clapping from behind• You’re greeted by Kou-chii who’s clapping enthusiastically with a smile on his face.• “That was wonderful, Aruji-sama! Won’t you teach me?”• Of course my precious boy~!!• Eventually Kotegiri regularly comes to your study to practice and occasionally plays for you when you’re working• One time you caught him making renditions of some pretty modern songs from Sam Smith to Boys2Men• You almost DIED in the hallway when you heard him playing “I’ll make love to you” and it totally caught you off-guard (#ﾟﾛﾟ#)• dOEs HE EveN KNOw WHAT H'Es SINgIng AbOUt!?!  ( /)u(\ )• You can’t even look him in the eye for a year week day during dinner time• “Hmm? What’s the matter, Aruji?”• NOTHING! I-IT’S NOTHING! THERE’S NOTHING WRONG ABOUT DEVELOPING A CRUSH ON A MEGANE WHO CAN SING AND TAKE GOOD CARE OF ME!

HORIKAWA

• He came across you wiping what looked to be a rectangular black table with buttons all over it in the common room • “Sorry, Aruji, but may I ask what you are doing right now?” He knocked on the door, not wishing to scare you• “Oh, Horikawa-san…I was just checking the wires for my piano.”• “Piano?”• You explain that it was an instrument used to make music and you missed playing it• You quickly move underneath the keyboard to quickly try and fix the cords while Hori waits there, making sure it wont fall on you• Because whenever they leave you, something happens…○ Like you getting pinned down by a stack of equipment in the training hall shortly after breakfast causing Hasebe to have a little meltdown○ Or accidentally opening the Toushirou’s closet door by accident and getting buried by a mountain of futons and Yagen had to pull you out before his younger brothers begun to lie down on top of it• You just can’t be left alone because sh*t happens…• The raven-haired Wakizashi waits patiently until you finish setting up• “Done!” You quickly sit on the bench and wipe down the keyboard again before inviting to sit beside you• “Are you sure, Aruji?”• He gave a rather unsure look that clearly says ‘Umm…That bench doesn’t look that stable, Aruji….please think about this again…’• “Oh come now, Hori!” You pat the rather small space beside you with a big smile. “Sit!”• He finally accepts and sits down beside you• You finally turned towards the piano and place your hands on the keys before starting to play a soft melody• Horikawa watches you play, looking quite impressed as the soft music traveled through the common room.• Once you finish the rather short song he gives you a smile.• “That was wonderful, Aruji. Did you compose it?”• “Yes. Although, I don’t have a name for it yet.”• Without even turning your head, you can feel, Hori’s gaze• He’s staring isn’t he…• You feel the young man beside you shift a little bit closer, shoulders touching WAAAAHH!! (/ω＼)• “Thank you for letting me hear it first hand, Master. I really enjoyed listening to you playing.”• (〃 ω 〃) HORI IS A SWEET BEAN~• “…Maybe next time we can invite Kane-san as well…??”• Oh Hori….You never change do you…(^ ∇ ^lll)

TOMOEGATA

• Tomoe caught you using that ‘magical’ black ball you claimed to help you make decisions after asking it a question and shaking it furiously • “Should I get back at Tsurumaru for pranking me this morning?”…Yes • “Should I even do my paperwork today?”… No • "Will I get a boyfriend this year”…Perhaps • "Should I purchase a piano”…Yes • "Is it too late to call in sick–”• "Good Morning, Aruji.”• You jolt and throw the Magic 8 ball into your drawer before greeting the spectacled man• “M-morning Tomoe! You’re here early!”• You didn’t even notice him standing in the doorway, holding today’s stack of paperwork  • “Of course, Aruji. It’s good to start early and get everything done early as well.”• He walks over, placing a small stack of papers on your desk Signalling that it was time for you to start work• You send him a pleading look but he avoids looking at your little pout• He’s not Hasebe, dear….Tomoe is resistant to most tricks… • One time you convinced him that it was a vacation day and ran off to play with the Tantous •  He also heard from Kotegiri that you tend to spend your allowance on things you don’t really need like fidget spinners or glow sticks• He kept a close eye on you until the work day finally ended and he announced that you were free to relax for the rest of the day• You excitedly run off to plan your revenge on Tsurumaru while thanking him for his hard work• …• The very next day, after successfully getting back at Tsurumaru by wrapping his doorway with Saran wrap• You were stopped by Tomoe who was carrying a rather large box• “Good Morni-”• “What did you order, Aruji.” Teal-haired warrior interrupted•   “Ehmm…A piano…?" (◕▿◕)???• You explain to him what it is and tug at his sleeve to help you set up so you can show him• A Within half an hour, the electric piano was up and you quickly take a seat• "How do you use it, Aruji?”• “I’ll show you. Have a seat.”• You start playing a rather fast but fun melody catching a few people’s attention as they passed by while Tome watches in fascination• As soon as you finish playing, you turn to Tomoe who watches you with a rather stoic expression• Wait, Did he not like it? ∑(ﾟ∇ﾟ|||)• Ah…I shouldn’t have forced him to listen  (´；ω；`)• “Um-”• “That was done wonderfully, Aruji.” The large man praised you quietly as he placed a hand on your own. •Awweee…Tomoe…You’re scary-looking but you’re so kind and caring (⸝⸝ᵕᴗᵕ⸝⸝)• “I like listening to you playing and it was a lovely piece.”• “D-do you really?” You give him a bright smile and squeeze his hand happily.• “Yes.”• That sweet little moment was broken when Hasebe threw the doors open• “What do you think you’re doing, Naginata!? And what did you buy this time, Aruji!?”

KASEN

• He was practicing his calligraphy when he heard you playing It sounded quite good and he could not help but wander towards where it was originating from• He peeks into your study and sees your playing a piece from Chopin • He opens the sliding door a little bit more to listen intently, curiosity getting the best of him• You abruptly stop when you hear the door sliding open and turn your head towards him making him jolt• “Good Morning, Kasen.”• "A-ah, apologies, Aruji. I did not mean to interrupt you." • "No, no. It’s alright. Come sit.” You give him a bright smile and invited him to sit down beside you. “I’m sorry did I disturb your work?”•“No, not at all…What is object called?”• “Ah, it’s called a piano.” You motion for him to try and press a key•He presses the said key and you accompany the key with a calming melody, silently encouraging him to press it repeatedly.• The Citadel’s poet watches with strong interest as you finally end the song.•“That was rather quite beautiful, Master…”•“…Who are you  and what did you do to Kasen?” You poke his shoulder jokingly. •“How rude, Master.” The Uchigatana laughed as he pinched your cheek gently. “Perhaps are you fishing for compliments?”• “Maybe~”• The two of you share a few chuckles as you sit side by side, comfortable• “You know music may help inspire you while writing poems.”• “…Is that an invitation?”• You just tsk and poke his shoulder again, urging him to go get his things so he can keep you company.“…Just go get your things, Kasen.”• You receive a pat on the head before the Uchigatana leaves to retrieve his writing tools.• Once he returns, he settles down close by and starts writing while you continue playing a few tunes• A few times you caught Kasen sitting in front of the piano, trying to learn how to play it• “It’s not as elegant as a Koto….it’s simply too bulky. And the keys are cannot be reached as easily and sitting on the bench is quite uncomfortable–”• …Don’t think I don’t see you imitating me when I’m not looking (•- _ -•)• But you knew he was interested since you found him taking one of your music books from your office in the pretense of borrowing a book about gardening.

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8.8.17

so the reason im not posting this on the correct day is because our power is out right now. I completely forgot, but our powers supposed to be out from 8pm to 3pm which is completely stupid because the sun goes down right at 8 so that’s when I would need to start using it. I mean, they could have done it at around midnight when all reasonable people are asleep, or at least ten, when people are usually done eating and theyre just hanging out. You know? Also Im using word for this so that’s why things are being autocorrected

so, my day. Trash galore, folks.

I turned off my alarm last night because I didn’t think it was doing me any good and I was getting worried that I was just making myself sleep deprived for when school starts, so I went to bed around 3 or maybe even 4 (cant even fucking remember why at this point, I didn’t have shit to do) and then I woke up at 1145. Could have been worse but also could have been a lot better. So I wasn’t that tired bc I hadn’t been woken up 120000 times and I managed to actually be awake for a while. I fucked around on the computer for an hour and then made some pasta because apparently I cant eat anything else anymore. My appetite is shit

I ate like… only half of my food before I had to get ready to leave bc my mom was having a showing of the house and that means I have to leave. So I decided I was just going to go to the gym oh but I forgot something happened while I was going downstairs to cook

I made a short textpost about this already but I ran into my mom (who was in my brothers bathroom and I therefore thought she wasn’t home) and she told me that my dad had cancelled the flight he had for when I go back to school. So basically he was going to come out with me and help me move in even though I told him I wouldn’t really need that much help this time, since I already have all of my stuff and my new place is furnished. But when I had just gotten home, he insisted, and so he booked a flight with me. Also my parents told me that my car should be low on gas when I put it in storage so it was and it turns out that’s completely wrong so he was going to help me with my car also. It needs to go to the shop too just for like oil and stuff

Um so yeah apparently hes the biggest baby ever and my mom still wanted me to apologize to him and I think I did a good job of telling her that no, I should not apologize for my tiny bad thing (telling my dad several times to be quiet in increasingly sarcastic ways, bc I was watching jeopardy and he would not stop talking and I cant hear it when hes talking bc bad ears) when he wont even apologize for calling me a piece of shit and running away upstairs and banging things around and making me scared. That’s not acceptable and even though I recognize that I could have handled it better, I think that my response of annoyance (after days upon days of him doing this same thing while I try to tell him to not) was reasonable and honestly the things I said caused no harm. I wasn’t making fun of him. I was ONLY making jokes that had to do with the clues and turning them into ways of telling him to be quiet because I cant hear. I did tell him more nicely to be quiet in the beginning though. I really did. But he just wont stop with this shit and I don’t have infinite patience, even though it’s a lot better than I used to be

Um so yeah. Ok I wrote that for the last paragraph, interesting. But I mean im not mad about him not going, its not like I wanted him there anyway and I knew it would make me very uncomfortable and he would have to get a hotel bc theres nowhere for him to sleep, but its still a bit jarring and frankly just awful that he did that instead of either telling me okay and being quiet or I don’t know, saying im gonna leave the room while you watch it then bc I cant be quiet. Either of those would have been fine but instead of thinking internally about the things he was doing, he projected stuff onto me and just called me a piece of shit. I don’t really know how you can do that as a parent. I cant help but critique him, but at least im not just insulting him. You know? Is that reasonable? Ugh. But anyway, turns out theres a 711 right next to the storage place so if my car is out of gas I can either use the tiny bit that’s left to get it over to 711 or just like get gas from there and bring it to my car. Either way it is possible. I also just need someone to pick me up from the airport but my mom said she would figure that out. So, really, im fine. It’s the circumstance that is just very upsetting, you know. Its just not something that needed to happen and now im mad/scared of him for the rest of the time im here and im just over it as hell

Ok… so I ate lunch and then got ready for the gym bc that’s where I was going. So I went and then I actually went to target first bc I was out of soap, so I got better smelling soap than the one I had last and some more conditioner bc I was also out and I got a pair of comfy shorts that are a little too small for my ass but ill make due because I need more than one pair of shorts. And those other shorts really don’t fit me, I cannot wear them out lol. Then I went to the gym bc it was arm day and that went pretty well and I did it pretty quick so it was tiring for sure. And I came back and had a nice shower and sang against me! Songs really loud because I got tickets to see them in October that Im really psyched about and I just want to listen to them more. Oh man I love laura jane grace she is just so wonderful omg I am so glad to have her in the community its wonderful

So after all of that I went downstairs to get the rest of my pasta that I had put in the fridge, and it was like 6pm and I realized I probably didn’t want to be downstairs tonight so I also got some crackers and cheese and fruits snacks and extra water because I wasn’t sure if I was going to get to eat again (I probably only ate 500 calories today im upset L). So then I went upstairs to eat and I watched the great british bake off which is really nice and I quite like it a lot. Its calming and fun. After that I did a reply because dex replied to two of my threads today so I got one out for him since I want to get that thread going, aaaand about thirty minutes after that the power went off at eight. I had seriously forgotten about that so I don’t know, I kind of just accepted my fate

Im not really sure what exactly happened there, because I felt like I was fine before (was legit browsing dildos online lmfao like I was just bored yknow) but when the power was out I got kind of upset and just… took my plush cow and sat on my bed as the sun went down and just. Stared. Catherine, bless her fucking heart, texted me after like 30 minutes out of the blue so I luckily I had her to talk to for at least a little while. I was feeling shitty before yeah now that I think about it, after my shower I was upset and felt like I was gonna cry but I didn’t and I just sent james some snaps and he said he was gonna text me but he didn’t and that’s ok I think he went to bed because he didn’t open my other snaps. Its ok. He doesn’t need to contact me every minute for me to know that he cares. I love him so much and I sent him a quick text just to tell him that because I always do that when I feel bad just because eventually he replies and it always makes me feel good.

Ok so I cried like two times between eight and nine thirty when I was just sitting there, laying on my bed and texting Catherine about when school starts. I just felt really down because I remember having to turn the lights off around ten and it doesn’t really get a lot darker than it does in the summer at eight (I mean ten during schooltime when I was younger) and I just remember not having any light and no one to talk to or text and I couldn’t read and my parents would lock my computer out at ten so I couldn’t talk to anyone and I just remember being very very lonely and feeling like no one cared about me and not being able to talk to the people that I felt like truly did care about me. So I remember doing a lot of crying in bed in the evenings when I was like 12-16 and its just really sad, you know? i would cry myself to sleep a lot and all I could do was lay there and listen to music because ive always been really bad at sleeping so it would never come at ten even if I really wanted to sleep then. It just didn’t happen. So sitting there in my bed tonight just made me feel like this little kid trapped in this room and I cant go downstairs because im scared of people being bad to me and I cant go out and in my room I have to sit in the dark and its just all very bad. I forgot about all of that. Im an adult now and I can have the lights on when I want but I guess its upsetting for me to not be in control of that

Come to think of it, its also very upsetting when people tell me to go to bed. I talked to this one girl in my rp a lot (she doesn’t talk to me that much now, she talks to another person, I don’t know why and I do feel lonelier now but I guess she wasn’t that nice to talk to anyway so im alright) and if I was up when she woke up (8hhr time difference) she would spam me messages telling me to go to bed and I already knew my schedule but she wouldn’t shut up. I don’t know, that’s just something

Also I hate hearing people say my name. it makes me flinch every time and I think someones going to scream at me. I think that’s half the reason I wanted to change my name when I was going through gender stuff. I just didn’t want to hear that name anymore. Which is sad. Because I do love it, and maybe its not so bad when im not in this house bc its just my parents voices saying my name that really bothers me

So after 930 I went downstairs and got a candle and brought it up and I did a bit of drawing but it got annoying after about half an hour. At some point my dad came to my door and said something that I didn’t understand, so I didn’t say anything and he went away. Then I read catcher in the rye for about an hour (only got through like 35 pages) and now im writing this entry on whats left of my computer battery. Im charging my phone off of this just so it has power, since it was dying, and it looks like I have at least part of an episode of skam saved onto here so I guess im just going to watch that until I fall asleep because I always fall asleep to youtube videos. Im going to have to download some movie or something onto here so that I have that to fall asleep to in case if something like this happens again. Ok I know this was long but theres a lot of good stuff in there so hopefully this will help in therapy or something later. Things are really rough mentally right now and I just want to go home, you know. Ive wanted to go home for absolutely years, though. Idk where home is. bye