#bitch im autism

[greypeachz]

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[nickelanddamned]

Hi, feel free to take my new uquiz to discover what kind of vampire you are!

[riverrunscold]

Death Note plot really is just an autistic person who's constantly masking vs an autistic person who has never masked in his life

also ryuk's there

[animucrystal]

do people really look at arthur and just go “yeah hes allistic” like that is the most autistic man ive ever seen (half joking). arthur is so driven and steadfast in his ideals so when something shakes him it shakes him Hard. its hard for him to regulate emotions well (trauma + autism). he trusts easily, which is funny because he says he doesnt when he so clearly does. hes “dense” at times and doesnt pick up on a lot of subtleties, and when he does he finds it hard to express what he wants to say (again this is both a trauma thing and an autism thing). he fidgets, especially with his mothers ring. theres alot more i could name but thats all i could think of right now

some hcs: he likes routine and this is mostly the reason why he gets annoyed at merlin whenever he unknowingly derails it, i got this one from a fic actually but i think one of his special interests is just like cataloguing and organizing things and when he was younger he liked doing that with bugs and as he grew older he had to focus his attention to more “practical” things (because of uthers insistence) so he does this with weapons as well as like utilizes this skill in directions as well, this guy hates so many textures i feel and all day everyday hes seconds away from a meltdown (which manifests into snappy anger) but he grits through it because he cares more about duty than his “weird brain problem”

i think itd be funny (and sad) to imagine arthur thinking he was probably cursed as a child, then a magic a reveal happens, then after all of that arthur asks merlin if he Is cursed and merlin is like “i think youre just. Like That. but thats okay im also kind of Like That” and arthur realizes that his manservant truly was just a little weirdo and that wasnt just his magic talking and maybe HES also a little weirdo. solidarity

[irisfixation]

im autistic so if i fuck you until you're bleeding and crying and i don't stop it's just because im bad at reading context clues and you didn't make it clear enough. so you cant get mad at me ok

[mistyscenter]

I love that this fandom doesn't understand Baxter's character, I adore how they patronize him,a whole ass adult, for facing the consequences of his actions.

I love how people make him feel like a sad little baby when he leaves mc as if that's not something he made extremely clear. I love how people treat this 19 year old as if he's not old enough to understand the consequences of his actions. I love how Baxter is aware of his flaw's but feels like he can't break them because people only see him as a tool and this fandom reinforces that.

I love how people will get mad at Nico for doing the cardinal crime of being 6 years old but will baby a 24 year old Baxter. I love how people make him this charismatic rich guy when it's shown that he's a hot mess that doesn't know what he wants. I love that Baxter's whole character arc is about his self sabotaging tendencies and how everyone ignores that. I love that people fell in love with the mask he had for most of the dlc.

I love that this fandom lacks reading comprehension skills and understanding of nuance characters, great job everyone for not understanding how writing works :)

[ravenkinnie]

so if everybody becomes somewhat of an opposite of who they were in s1, caitlyn is absolutely getting some sort of a corruption arc- you have a character who specifically refuses to be involved in those messy dark piltover politics and who now will inevitably become involved and its with NOXUS too, if she faced towards the light in s1 she will face towards the darkness now and I think this will be mostly a transformative arc for her where she will end somewhat bittersweet. but jinx is a character who has no overarching goal in s1, she works on emotional responses, she works on whims and wants and doesn't care about the bigger picture - this will likely be the reversal here where she's not going to become better but she will become DRIVEN. which will also not end well for her because it means she chooses to leave everything else behind and that includes vi and that other life she could have lived once upon a time. something something your biggest sin is that you betrayed and destroyed yourself for nothing something something

[creative-clawmarks]

Drew him on-model for once.

Then drew him off-model, to maintain the equilibrium.

[synthshenanigans]

I can't help it so I'm going on a mini rant about one singular line from Light because I'm so incredibly normal about it.

The line by Whole "This human you're being" has so much going on with it that means sm to me & I wish was discussed more.

It can mean, to Heart & Mind, that 1. you shouldn't treat the other half as something below a human being. Heart talking about how cold & uncaring Mind is. A madman thats turning whole into something he shouldn't be. Mind saying that Heart is something weaker than a human. A vile creature that should be left out or thrown away. Or how both their views on Soul are either something to control/that has control and not as a being that's a part of themselves/Whole. Not seeing it as a being with its own thoughts & identity [for the first half of Cacophony at least].

Whole stating that they're all just as important & human as the other and they shouldn't view them as something other than that.

But 2. Whole telling them that they should not only view the other as human but themselves as well.

While yes they do insult the other frequently, they also insult themself a fair bit as well. Mind viewing himself as a machine, something thats supposed to be cold & uncaring. Always having to be right about everything and never fail, otherwise he himself is a failure. Heart calling himself weak & vile. Overly emotional about everything; getting too heated in an argument, being too unhappy with life or himself in general to the point where it all seems too much care for and so he flips to becoming apathetic. Thinking those things make him fail at everything and only make things worse.

Or Soul having trouble seeing himself as something that has its own identity. His own Heart & Mind [and in turn his own head] fighting about what they should be. How they should act or deal with things and how they shouldn't. What roles they're all supposed to fit into. All to the point where Soul doesn't know what its supposed to do anymore or how to be anything which leads him to the Tridential Regicide answer.

And 3. Despite everything mentioned before, all three of them [together or apart] are being Human. That despite the Cacophony they're in, how likely it can happen again & loop back over, they'll still be human no matter what. That it just comes with being human. How they shouldn't strive to never have failures or have ups & downs or to be something others want them to be. That what they are already is enough & that they'll get outta Cacophony permanently one day and they can finally stay whole.

I frickin love Light overall but GOD that line kills me everytime I hear it. Especially when connecting heavily to the album and its characters or ideas it just hits hard & is so nice to hear.

Man I just typed 5½ paragraphs over ONE (1) singular line of a song that I've listed to for over a year and I still will never ever be normal about it.

[334iwatchshit]

season 8 makes me SICK

[toughtttz]

Recover?? I hardly know er

[yutamayo]

Is what it says on the label.

[v3ggyqu33n]

I'm back! I loved my two week app-ban and I got a lot of stuff done, but I miss my rp friends so here I am! I probs won't be on here heaps for the moment but I've had lots of ideas for oc's so we'll see how it goes <3

[gooperts-gunk]

idk how there's people that still don't understand that q!bbh has always had a disconnect in social interactions Girl that's a fallen angel/demon that has lived thousands and thousands of years He is NOT going to be able to match in a human way he is NOT HUMAN!!!!! if you TELL him he'll understand, but do NOT expect him to pick up on it!!!! *turns to intensely stare at the camera* CHAT. (not all of chat)

[mistyscenter]

So I was replaying "Siblings" recently and I love it as a moment, I think "Broadwalks" is my favorite moment for Derek DLC but "Siblings" is extremely interesting for Derek's Character.

I won't go into a deep dive about the moment but I will say that I find it so interesting that Derek goes out of his way to care for something that, the MC can or cannot care for but in a sense it makes sense, at least I can see where Derek is coming from.

When I first played the moment I thought it was pretty bad that Derek invited MC over just to see how they felt during Father's Day and see if he could make them feel during the day instead.... asking MC how they felt about it, but like...it makes sense for Derek and it makes sense for his age.

He's 13 so my main thought was "this is bad, but he still is a kid and he won't exactly know how to bring up this sorta thing without thinking he's hurting MC", but now that I'm replaying I'm also thinking "it makes sense because Derek constantly goes out of his way to make sure everyone around him is taken care of" we once again see him mention how he doesn't have to put his siblings first but feels bad if he doesn't and his parents don't force him, this is just how Derek is.

But another thing about Derek is that he also immediately feels guilty and tries to fix the issue, that is a small issue to fix compared to his whole complex but I do think it's a really smart way to show us that Derek is self aware enough to see a problem and wanting to fix, which comes in full circle for his step 4.

Obviously fixing a small assumption and fixing how you view yourself and putting yourself first is hard, but I do think it shows us he will later see the error of his ways and MC could have had a part in it depending on your choices

[faworsley]

I was tagged by the lovely @grahhams to post 9 books I’m planning to read this year so here they are! Right now I’m about halfway through the Iliad and I DO want to finish it but I’m not listing it since it doesn’t count in my heart if I started it January 31 2024 lol

1. I May Be Some Time: Ice and the English Imagination by Francis Spufford

2. Endurance: An Epic of Polar Adventure by F. A. Worsley (HEART EYES EMOJI)

3. Shackleton’s Valiant Voyage by Alfred Lansing (Skeptical it was valiant on Shackleton’s part because I’m a hater but I will enjoy anyway)

4. The Aeneid by Virgil

5. A Tale of Two Cities by Charles Dickens

6. The Odyssey by Homer

7. Cook and Peary: The Polar Controversy, Resolved by Robert M. Bryce

8. The Worst Journey in the World by Apsley Cherry-Garrard

9. The Book of Common Prayer (kind of a long story and not really a light reading type book so I’m including a bonus)

10. May We Be Spared to Meet on Earth (I’ve been trying to get my hands on this one for so long, surely I can do it if I give myself another entire year lol)

And tagging some other folks who might want to do it heart hands emoji:

@wiwaxiacorrugata @c-horses123 @averagepolarexpeditionenjoyer