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ever since i started going back to therapy ive been getting in tune with my emotions but that also means that when i hear certain songs i get flashbacks to TheDarkEra
#vent... ig#im going to be vague asf for my comfortability#i feel like i shouldnt even be talking about this#...........................................................................................................................................#ughhhhhhh i dont wanna talk about TheDarkEra(online) to my therapist bc thats embaressing#what am i supposed to say anyways#oh i got manipulated over the internet when i was 17?#i played all my cards right and i still got 'hurt'#i wouldnt say i got 'hurt' bc i didnt get the worst of it#watch if i bring this up to my therapist shes gonna go 👁👄👁#i have an issue with discounting my trauma and maybe this is one of those things#im clearly not over it bc im talking about it now but what am i supposed to do with these feelings#besides talk about them#and i feel like its not my place to talk#i feel like my section of the story is secondary to the saga that was TheDarkEra#bro but this effected me so bad that i dont even talk about it with my sibling#like i drop bits of info to them but i never sat down and explained what happened then#oh god i am suppressing this#but what left do i have to say that my friends and i havent said to each other#im on step one of acknowledging my 'trauma' but i dont know how to even get to step two of healing#even calling what happened trauma feels disrespectful#i feel like i shouldve known better#that i shouldnt have been so trusting#i was still a kid tho#a kid who just regained hope in life and humanity#how do you even heal from internet related trauma#i want to break my walls down so badly but im scared of getting hurt even as a legally able to smoke and drink year old man#ITS CRAZY internet was my refuge growing up and then it end up hurting me#ig it also affected me career wise and a big part of why i dont want to write#oh man oh man ohman
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Can u guys tell I like setting up different interpretations of the same character together yet
I've done so with swap(he's the most obvious one) and I've done so with horror. And now dusts on that list too. I have had thought of others like ink but, maybe another time
#in a situation where they're stuck together we have. dust clinging to murder. and murder unable to understand dusts nonverbal talking#they try to kill each other multiple times but they're equal-ish in power#I don't wanna put more context bc I will actively misinterpret them thank you very much#I like using their different multiverse names to like. give them an identity even beside each other#sans au#utmv#undertale au#dust sans#murder sans#UwU#just thought about horror.#it'd be. actually honestly horror would probably just wanna be called sans... and then there's axe and either butcher or horror#depending on. well no now I'm putting too much thought into this I don't like that#it's soon spooky month. and then it's meow raid. and then it's Christmas. sighs the end of the year istg....
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Prompt 293
Jason takes a deep breath. He takes a deep breath, in for ten seconds, out for eight, and just takes a minute before looking again. Nope, there’s still the strange quartet of orbs in the box of what should be stolen weapons (What, the government had enough, honestly) that gave his workers the heebie-jeebies.
Which is not the vibe he gets from them. In fact, he’s actually kind of concerned with how much he has to beat the Pit back with how quickly it lurches to latch onto the… Well they’re not gems, and he’s a little wary about touching them at first, but the Pit does seem to settle when he does.
Alright, he can deal with this. It’s not like he has several heads in a duffel bag that needs to be delivered or a tiny assassin child back in his safehouse (Seriously Talia, why was he the preferred babysitter?) or an entire gang in Crime Alley to deal with. It’ll be fine.
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He would like to curse out his past self, because there’s now four babies in his safehouse that appeared to have fucking hatched from the orbs. Goddamnit.
#DCxDP#DPxDC#Prompts#Dad Hood#Let Jason & Damian be Brothers#De aged Dani#De aged Danny#De aged Vlad#De aged Dan#Jason just wants to do his crimelording business & finish online college dangit#He doesn’t need all these kids around#No no you can’t have them they’re his kids#Vlad absolutely loves that their caretaker is a crimelord#Jordan: Hah look I'm not the only murderously violent one in this family now#Ellie & Danny: Well at least he's not a cop so#Jason is honestly expecting Damian to be pissed but Damian? Very pleased#OLDER siblings? Meh that’s competition & people to prove oneself against#But Younger siblings & nephews & nieces? Those are Tiny People who Look Up to You#The perfect minions it’s all coming together!#”Dami please that’s not how things work… besides you’re going to go to your dad’s soon-”#Damian when he’s at the Manor: I am going to visit Akhi#”Oh Tim or Dick?”#”What are you talking about- Mother sent Akhi here months ago and I wish to visit him and my niblings-”#Cue Bat Freakout & Misunderstandings#Space core Danny#Plasma core Vlad#Moon core Ellie#Sun core Dan#Star Core Jason#Shadow Core Damian
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out of your friends which are you?! (skilltobers 13, 15, 16, 17, 18)
#my art#GODDD#disco elysium#animation#skilltober#skilltober 2024#disco elysium skills#de shivers#de half light#de endurance#de physical instrument#de electrochemistry#de fanart#high effort posting i BUSTED MY ASS FOR THIS#i never animate. which i think you can tell#i might toss the stills and animations and stuff as jpegs and gifs in a reblog later but before that some design details!#couldnt design half light exactly how i wanted but i needed him to look unsettling. Lol#he's naked. he's vulnerable. he is an exposed nerve. he is the walking talking “bite them before they bite you because they have before”#so...a little bit peeled looking lol. tall and gangly and spindly but hunched over to look animalistic and threatening#i didnt want to kill myself doing all the markings on every frame but he's got eyespots!#nature's way of mimicking something more powerful than you (generalization idgaf about peacocks)#and his bones are marked out right beside them. but dont pay attention to them just pay attention to those eyes. dont hurt this guy#idk if im getting it across in a way that makes sense#but yeah. digitigrade because he deserves it#i dont have much to say abt the others theyre pretty generic#bye bye i need to draw threshold tomorrow#fanart
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Tarot Medicos Entertainment ( 2024 )
#these are based on the previous tarot merch medicos released in 2017 btw!#haven't seen anyone talk about these on here & medicos posted some glossy jpegs of this set on twitter sooooo#i'm not really into tarot ( besides thinking the meanings & iconography are neat ) but god i'm obsessed with these illustrations#kara looks so good here....#jyushi being the lovers is the cutest thing ever i love it more than anything#oso is really cute too he's so silly i can't wait to see him fall off that cliff wile e coyote style 😊#also if i had to assign a major arcana to kuroba. it'd be wheel of fortune since it's connected to luck. the tower would fit them too#osmt#osomatsu-san#matsuno bros#osomatsu#osomatsu matsuno#karamatsu#karamatsu matsuno#choromatsu#choromatsu matsuno#ichimatsu#ichimatsu matsuno#jyushimatsu#jyushimatsu matsuno#todomatsu#todomatsu matsuno#official#tarot
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#he doesn't want to fight with you ai di, he wants to Kiss🙄💘🥺
Nat Chen as CHEN YI KISEKI: DEAR TO ME (2023)
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#chen yi x ai di#ai di x chen yi#nat chen#chen bowen#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#userspring#uservid#userrain#userspicy#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#okay i made this specifically for the 3rd gif bc chen yi's expressions are making me giggle nonstop i was doubled over in tears last night#HE JUST WANTS TO KISS!! AI DI HE LOVES YOU LET HIM HIT IJDKSKG#okay real talk though the fact that he actually gives ai di space 90% of the time. lets him hang out at the bar#like he isnt following him around or constantly dogging him about giving him an answer not does he ever rly ACCUSE ai di of anything#he uses the zhang teng excuse to keep ai di from avoiding him but he doesnt try to keep him where he can see him constantly.#he lets ai di do his own thing and just spends time connecting the dots during the moments ai di comes back of his OWN VOLITION#& he slowly puts together what ai di is refusing to admit and makes his own intentions known without putting them in words either#besides stating his observations (& watching ai di react). Every interaction between them when ai di gets out of prison is like that#gifs 1&2 vs 4&5... letting ai di pull away because he doesnt know whats going on vs pulling him back both to say hey we arent done-#& say im still here FOR YOU - to see how ai di reacts being so close to chen yi after finding him hugging his jacket in his sleep#and then once hes Figured It Out he still keeps the space!! sends gifts... he only Acts when ai di comes back to him himself!!!!#and this time he's READY. and a simp. like. PLS the last 2 gifs..........dude. he wants to kiss so bad
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hey you know what would be fun? a fic where the Royal Guard follows through with their plans to make Ichigo the new Soul King and Grimmjow promptly loses his shit because what the actual fuck Ichigo has already given these people literally everything, twice, and this is how they repay him? recruits Nel and Harribel and Urahara and Yoruichi (after Nel sits on him for a while because Jesus Christ Grimmjow you can’t storm Soul Society by yourself no matter how much you’ve powered up) and it’s the Ryoka Invasion all over again except with pissed off arrancar instead. I just think it would be neat
#king’s court#bleach#grimmichi#orihime and Chad are also there#Ishida is questionable considering the timeline and his feelings about soul society in general#I just have this perfect image in my head of Grimmjow finding out and just going to town on the shinigami over it#like ‘no one in all three fucking worlds deserves that self righteous asshole martyr#but he chooses all over you. over and over again. and for what? how many fucking times have you abandoned him?#my plans haven’t changed I’m gonna tear his throat out with my teeth#but I can’t fucking do that if he’s locked away like some fucked up fairytale princess now can I?’#Nel in the background laughing to herself because wow grimmjow nice save there definitely no one suspects you’re soft for Ichigo#other shinigami come around to help but grimmjow trusts zero of them besides Urahara and Yoruichi so. toss up if he lets them do anything#anything important anyway#okay I’m done#I haven’t read CFYOW btw I just know this is a thing that’s talked about in it#also I know a fic like this exists for ichiruki but I’m deep into my grimmichi era so
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NAT & AKILAH Yellowjackets ◆ Seasons 1-2
#nat scatorccio#natalie scatorccio#akilah yellowjackets#nat x akilah#yellowjackets#yellowjacketsedit#usercoty#yjedit#tvedit#96yellowjackets#yellowjacketssource#*#horrorwomensource#femalecharacters#akilah and nat tending to each others wounds from the beginning and then nat being right there beside her through both medical emergencies#akilah literally falling into her after the plane explosion#the way they are the Only 2 who thought to save javi. they deserved to talk about it :(#i think about them A Lot
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Trick or treat! Just looking to see if you wouldn't mind talking more about Noel's scars? 👀 I can guess at some of them like the neck wound but I was wondering if you had any specifics for the others
ohhh for sure !!! a lot of them were inflicted during his time in the dreamlands, save for a few gunshot wounds he gained under relatively normal circumstances. Some were from kiy (the wrist scars from being restrained for like months probably), and some were from other creatures he faced during his time in the desert. some of them he could go on and on about telling the most elaborate story, and others he avoids acknowledging all together.
#he’s also got some freak ass tentacle related scars on his back#most definitely from being lashed repeatedly and not in an exciting way whatsoever#not sarcasm he doesn’t like talking about it#if we’re talking ourthur- Oscar asked him about them#while laying in bed. Noel didn’t elaborate much besides saying they were just old wounds#he let Oscar slowly run his fingers down his back. he let him feel out the ridges and jagged skin#he would’ve never let anyone touch me like that. he thought he’d never be touched like that ever again. he thought he didn’t deserve it#but you can’t say no to Oscar. not after he kisses your back and says#they still seem new to me. I hope they can heal better now#or something idk man I NEED TO DRAW THEM#ask#holy ghosts#because I need to remember this
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shade they'll never make me hate you
#alek art#lego ninjago#ninjago#shade ninjago#2024#finished s10 as of queuing this. this took incredibly long for noooo reason. need to stop drawing for 6 hours straight lol#love drawing him as a mass of darkness. he can stretch and bend all weird and looks slightly different everytime.#talked to my bf about this but i think he hangs out in peoples footsteps and follows them around. just bc he can#tboy ... save me#dont have much else to put besides MY FINGERS HURT SOOOO bad drawing isnt for the week#i need to draw other elemental masters .. shld i opem rqs .. we will see
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i know there are only like five of us but i feel like garth stans really don't talk enough about how left out he feels with the titans. dick and wally are Best Friends. donna and roy are on and off again. dick and donna are too much to explain. on average, roy is close with at least one of dick's siblings. dick donna and wally all go on to be in the new teen titans. garth isn't Close with any other titans but the originals
and it's this thing where,,, it's not his Fault yknow? he's not mean or spiteful or creepy or anything that would warrant them not liking him as much. he joins in on their jokes, he risks his life, he shares his feelings, he does everything that he knows friends do. but just the virtue of him being atlantean and them being land dwellers ruins everything. he Can't spend more time with them, he doesn't understand their culture, he will always choose atlantis.
they'll always be his friends but he can never truly be with them or form deeper bonds. he'll always be the last one to know what's going on, the last one they call, a complete shadow and afterthought.
and sure there's a part of him that knows this, that feels bitter and lonely. but he can't even be that mad at them because he does the same thing. the titans are never his first thought, he never calls them first, he doesn't reach out and ask if they're okay, they're always the last ones to know what happened to him. the titans are such a huge part of his life but they're barely in it.
there's just something so inherently lonely about garth that i feel most dc writers don't understand. they just don't get it. they don't get what it's like for this boy who was all alone, never had parents or a family, suddenly being taken in and having to act like he knows how to be a son, a friend, a partner. meeting kids his own age and wanting to bond with them so bad, having to watch as they all get closer to each other and leave him behind, not being able to do anything about it. never being taken seriously, always the last choice... garth man.....
#usually i love garth thinking but sometimes he makes me too sad#i can't think about him too much or i get genuinely upset like please treat my boy better#i just.... AUGHHHHHH psychic damage from garth thinking#like i just... all of the titans have someone... Someone who is just theirs... theirs alone... someone who would choose them first#and garth doesnt... he doesnt have that with anyone#sure you could argue tula or dolphin but tula died young and he was dolphin's second choice aljhgd#and i know he doesn't hold that against her but you cant convince me that didnt sting at all#theyre also not titans!!#arthur always chooses mera or jr the titans all have their designated best friend and love interest like#he's got no one !!!!!!!!#honestly i think one of the biggest reasons for this (besides garth being Doomed) is that he never really got past the sidekick thing#like all of the titans got past that in their own right#i dont even need to explain that cause everyone knows what im talking about#but garth... i mean phil jimenez tried and i commend him for that but it just didnt happen the way it couldve or shouldve#and it happened too late#be honest do you guys think garth will ever become his own full character or will he always be in the shadow of aquaman and the titans#garth of shayeris
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the purposeful framing of this panel (and this entire scene of showing all the people who vash has met throughout the story) implies that wolfwood was AS important to vash as rem was. they both have had the greatest impact on him, so much so that their existence changes vash’s entire sense of morality. and rem and wolfwood, besides knives, are the only two people who vash really allows himself to love? people he wants to be with for as long as possible—when he’s so used to running away, used to going out of his way to avoid getting close to anyone. and it's just like idk *throws up violently*
#trigun#talking#trigun spoilers#i want to write actual analyses on trigun but i don’t think i’m strong enough#trigun meta#trimax#this is definitely not to say vash doesn’t love other people. he absolutely does#the guy is practically made of love. and there are plenty of other characters that are very important to him#but idk just the specific way he talks about ww i don’t think we really see that with anyone else#besides knives and rem. the way he truly just wants to be with them despite everything. for as long as possible
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Turtles and Tribulations
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#bonus comic#lan jingyi#ouyang zizhen#nameless red diciple#lan sizhui#a-qing#jin ling#tulu xuanwu#So the morse code thing was a bust. But I know for *certain* that girls *Love* turtles. Give her a turtle and you win at Girls.#I wish I had a better justification for this one besides “I think LSZ is the kind of kid who picks up rocks and frogs and holds on to them”#and “I wanted to draw A-qing with a turtle because I think she deserves a little pet”#btw most turtles are endangered so please do not pick them up if you see one. Let them vibe.#this fantasy turtle is very sturdy and immune to all diseases.#This whole comic today is about bonding and sharing#all that dialogue is just LJY and JL ranting about how they hate XY and they totally have a chance in a fight against him#and totally not because they are starting to like mxy/wwx now#I just picture all those juniors slowly sulking out of the building as they get told to (basically) go play outside so the adults can talk#Hopefully nothing bad happens while they're outside and in the open!#PS: there's nothing to be read into LSZ and A-Qing siting farther away from each other in the last panel. I just messed up my blocking.
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i think the thing to understand abt martha jones is that even after she leaves she is five seconds away from dropping everything and traveling with the doctor at any given time. bc that itch to blow everything up and damn her personal duty to hell in search of a higher call never leaves her. but martha is smart. and rational. and has spent a long fucking time needing to keep herself safe. (bc he comes when she calls but never before.) and so she has gotten very good at keeping herself on the right side of those five seconds. but i do think if ten was a different person (if he could acknowledge how much he needed her instead of just how much he liked her) (if he didn’t feel this righteous martyrdom when it comes to being left alone) (if he cared enough about her to beg. if he cared enough about himself.) i think that her answer no would come crumbling down pretty quickly is all.
#MARTHA JONES’ TWISTED SENSE OF DUTY YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS TO ME#there is soo much nuance to this. obviously. and it really varies depending on when exactly in his run we’re talking#but me personally. i don’t think that martha was ever satisfied with the way things ended between them. i think she made peace with it!#but i don’t think she was satisfied and i don’t think she ever could be#which is also why i have slowly come around to her and mickey. even tho i think it IS very pair the spares in a way i don’t like#i do think they make sense together. in a genuine way and also in a you’re the closest i’ll get to what i want. you’re good on your own but#- you’re also the next best thing. and we don’t need to say this out loud bc we both know and it wouldn’t ruin anything by admitting it but#- it sure as hell wouldn’t feel good either#it’s not even like. directly about the doctor/rose here is the thing. it’s about the life he let them lead with him#which i guess is the crux of this. i think martha is capable of moving on from her Feelings for the doctor. but never her feelings about him#yknow. does that make sense. if anyone knows that the doctor is a symbol it’s martha#i don’t think she’s always in love with him. i think she was. tho my opinions on that r complicated hashtag tenmartha qpr BUT#but the IDEA of him? the idea which shaped her into a completely different person? i don’t think she will ever not want that back @ her core#she’s just too loyal to everyone besides herself to admit that. 😐#ok it’s 4 am i have been rambling abt this for fifteen minutes so sorry if it doesn’t make sense but i have FEELINGS ABT HER !!#ted talks#martha jones#doctor who
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I'm just an animal looking for a home and share the same space for a minute or two, and you love me 'til my heart stops, love me 'til I'm dead.
Talking Heads — This Must Be the Place (Naive Melody)
#top gun: maverick#topgunmaverickedit#topgunedit#roosmav#tom cruise#miles teller#bradley rooster bradshaw#pete maverick mitchell#talking heads#this is probably one of the best songs i've ever heard#i mean like. that's about them.#oh i got plenty of time...#oh you got light in your eyes...#and you're standing here beside me....#I LOVE THE PASSING OF TIME... :(((#etc etc
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you ever notice that the vast majority of boba fett's friends in the expanded universe are either female, gay, or nonbinary?
#this is a completely inconsequential observation and i have no thesis statement#i was making a list of people who could arguably be called boba's ''friends'' in the expanded universe#and was like ''huh...''#my list so far:#zam‚ gar‚ ygabba‚ d'harhan‚ dengar‚ beviin‚ medrit‚ and arguably jaina#female: zam‚ ygabba‚ jaina#gay: beviin‚ medrit#nonbinary: zam (genderfluid)‚ gar#dengar is the only straight cis guy on that list#one could argue d'harhan but d'harhan is a terrifying saurian cyborg with almost no organic flesh left so... idk#oh wait! there's also gabborah (ygabba's dad)#he also briefly called lenovar his friend 🙃 but we don't talk about that#anyway: random observations that would get me drawn and quartered if i posted them anywhere besides tumblr.com#crumb post
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