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the most devastating part of being an adult by far has been realizing bit by bit that Every food opinion i had when i was 13 was entirely wrong
#within the last month i have realized that i don’t hate smoothies#which was massive because i would go out of my way to Not have smoothies#overnight oats#which was also baffling cause soggy oats. no.#but aparently they’re good#believe me even i’m shocked#AND NOW#after being VIOLENTLY AGAINST THEM FOR TEN WHOLE YEARS I HAVE FOUND GOD IN AN AÇAÍ BOWL#i hate it here#having a crisis#my mom was right#and i’m mad about it#not a tag#from saph
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okay but can we talk about how ???? Lucius is with Edward? Like this man is a freak I can’t hold it in anymore. How did one episode make a man get revealed as a fucking freak in a way.
Ed has both gassed up a entire group of cops which made them fear about a poison threat he made up, held Lucius’s coworker hostage dangling over a flight of stairs, admitted to having something to do with their missing mayor via omission (not responding at all when Lucius asked him about it) broke into Lucius’s car and pointed a gun at him once Lucius got in ALL IN THE SAME DAY AND HE DOESN'T FREAK OUT ONCE???? He doesn’t freak out at all with Edward. Never once does he freak out. He stays level headed, empathetic and genuinely caring about Edward’s mental state while talking to him???? The way he’s so level headed here feels like he has a fucking screw loose in his cranium. Literally how.
Mind you Ed is a man who his first interaction with was ED ADMITTING HE HAD A MISSING COP IN HIS HOME VIA A RIDDLE. HIS SECOND INTERACTION WITH THIS MAN IS HIM MAKING HIM ANSWER FUCKING RIDDLES IN ARKHAM OR ELSE HE WILL KILL THEM BOTH WITH POISON. I KNOW HE WAS BLUFFING ABOUT THE POISON HERE AGAIN BUT GENUINELY HOW IS HE ALWAYS LEVEL HEADED WITH THIS MAN. FREAK BEHAVIOR!!!!
Also him acting like this strengthens the fact the only riddle he got right was reflection. He understands at least some part of Ed. Even though that part is small and fuzzy in his understanding, it’s still something. It’s still something that he can empathize with. Something that is worth trying to understand more of even despite their brief encounters. God do I love his weird push over ways with Ed it’s so fucking fun I wish they interacted more. This is horrific for me
#rambles#gotham#gotham fox#gotham 2014#edward nygma#lucius fox#foxma#Riddlefox#Nygmafox#lunar over analyzes two characters who barely interact with eachother for a ship post. Fork found in kitchen#I’m in a heavy explaining details I love in very fucking minor ships recently alright#I’m shocked I haven’t gotten this detailed with them before so now I gotta change that. I can’t keep holding onto my shipping thoughts that#I only let go of in fucking conversations with my mutuals in DMs. Yall gotta hear my fuckass thoughts more actually#ALSO I AM A FIRM AUTISM HAVER LUCIUS BELIEVER. IT MAKES SENSE WITH THE FUCKING REFLECTION RIDDLE NARRATIVELY#LET ME READ TOO DEEP INTO A DYNAMIC TWO CHARACTERS WHO ONLY INTERACTED FOR EACHOTHER 20 MINUTES MAX IN THE WHOLE SHOW OKAY#MY BLOG MY RULES#also I do know he technically threatened Ed in season three when it came to Ed going to the gcpd to help Oswald and his mothers statue#but like. That wasn’t fucking agitated at all. He said that calmly. To a man who has commited many crimes and used to stay at Arkham. How#why is he never truly unsettled heavily by this man it’s so funny why is he chill and even PLAYFUL WHEN THREATENING HIM????#they deserved to interact more!!!! Free me!!!!!#Character study#I guess. This is a heavily undeveloped Gotham side character lmfaoooooo
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it’s occurring to me that Frodo has had a near death experience, been near dead, or just straight up momentarily dead way too many times
#frodo baggins#‘this hobbit here is only MOSTLY dead! there’s a big difference between MOSTLY dead and ALL dead’#this is just very late stream of consciousness thoughts ignore me#you think about all the worst times that’s happened to him and it’s already too many#but then you remember the Barrow Downs and Frodo almost dying on Carahdras and so much more and it’s like.#I can’t believe his little hobbit body stayed functioning tbh. the Shelob sting totally and easily could have killed him just on its own#but the guy was operating under SO much worse I’m shocked his body didn’t jump for the chance at sweet release#even beyond the amount of physical weakening and ailing that mental distress would bring him#it is truly shocking he survived and nothing short of a miracle#that poor hobbit he returned to the Shire basically ducktaped together#I would compare him to kintsugi but unfortunately the cracks did not fill :(( hopefully that is how he became in his years across the sea
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I love the fact that, in the few days (week?) the party was gone, Tommy somehow managed to find a poncho (or made himself one) and a cowboy-esc hat and dress himself up as Shepherd. He even cut holes in the hat for horns he doesn’t have. 🥺🥺🥺
AND SHEPHERD SAYING “thats my boy” WHEN TOMMY SAID HE WOULD PROTECT THE GIRLS. I CANT.
#I want a side series where it’s literally just shepherd being a dad to Tommy#I need that. for my soul.#and if I have to make it myself by gods I’ll find some way to#also unrelated but irena makes me wanna 🤜😤#like the entire party is telling her ‘hey that letter was a forgery and you’re in grave danger’#and she’s like ‘nuh uh’. LIKE GIRL WHAT DO YOU MEAN NUH UH#‘oh she’s in shock. she doesn’t believe strahdanya is after her’ AND???#even if I didn’t believe strahdanya wanted me if the group of adventurers that have saved my ass multiple times at this point#tell me ‘hey that letter was a forgery and you’re in grave danger’ IM GONNA FUCKING BELIEVE THEM#and not tell them ‘lol no I’m not’ and fucking WANDER FHE GROUNDS AND NOT TELL THEM WHERE I AM’#she made me so mad during that entire scene that I have no idea what they’re doing in the episode at this point#something about a baby. idk.#legends of avantris#curse of strahd#curse of strahdanya#silas shepherd morgan
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one piece is fun to watch because like every time something new happens it’s like wtf???? how have i never heard about that????? and it’s so wild PLUS i then get to go tell my sister about it so she can have the exact same mindfucked reaction secondhand through my retelling
#😌😌😌#one piece shocks and astounds me in both good and bad ways#and it’s very important to share that with as many people as possible#you would not BELIEVE how many people i talk about ace’s mom sucking him back in for years too#it’s still SO funny to me and i take every opportunity i can to talk to people about it and relive that moment😤#also i took like a month or two gap where i just stopped watching it#and i really didn’t think i’d get back to it#BUT!! i turned it on again last week#and i think i’m just in a much better mental state for it because im so much more patient and happier with it now#im on dressrosa and like it isn’t even my favorite arc or anything so far#im just having a much better time watching it which is nice :)#maybe the naruto binges i did in the gap helped lol
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Man. I’m still thinking about the main lead actor in the film I just did who recognised me from a campy touring production and told me how much he enjoyed it, proceeded to say “Great job, blank!” after a scene, told me how great it was to see me on set.
I’m fine I’m really normal about being told I did a good job and being remembered by someone I talked to for like five minutes. Totally normal
#bro I nearly cried when he saw me and came over to say hi#like. you know who I am??? you remembered me??? does not compute!?!?!#you’re HAPPY to see me here? even though I’m doing very little? just sitting here? my presence brings joy?#lads I will not lie this year has been a nonstop torment nexus#I’m totally on my own I’m scared of everything but since I believe no one remembers me I go do things anyways bc what’s the worst???#and then???? this guy???? just. he fucking. he was like. Oh HI how are you doing?? your performance was hilarious I’m so glad to see you!!#*screams*#anyways I’m just posting this bc I’m in one of my depressive episodes and I need to cheer myself up bc I feel like shit#like. not eaten all day.#I’m not doing well#at all#but that made me happy (?) or seen or just kinda shocked me so much I never forgot it?#especially after the weekend I’ve had.. lost two friends.#but we ball#At dawn
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Thinks about Micolash and Laurence’s rivalry that never strays from the confines of academic snark or the occasional jab despite their shared ambition(and possibly also just accompanying a general friendship they could have had since they worked together at some point. Idk I’m a softie. Sue me.) eventually involving into a full on intellectual divorce. Cries. Explodes. 72 casualties.
#will delete#I am just having thoughts#like yeah listen I love the toxic aspects of their dynamic especially peak healing church#and I’m honestly shocked most people put Micolash in the seat of power there#if anything I think he’d be underhanded with having dirt on Laurence’s operation or his reputation#but yknow. headcanons vary#consider: they could have been soft once. they could have been#and they could have stopped each other’s descent into their respective cosmic obsession(blood and insight)#but neither can actually let the other have his way. if Micolash abandons his research and just does whatever Laurence commands him to#he’ll never be able to pursue his own interest(which could even stave off the scourge). it’d be Byrgenwerth all over#but if Laurence lets Micolash go and just do whatever his silly heart desires#not only will he legit go insane but itd happen at the worst of times. he needs to priortize the blood while they still have time#so they both just. stalemate each other to death#yadda yadda insufferable academics believing only their method must be correct to the detriment of the other#not in a ‘I personally hate you’ way but in a ‘why won’t you just listen to me’ way#I just think there’s fun to be had there. they’re both horrible.#also idk this is being prompted by Laurence being typecast into being completely helpless at the height of his power. against MICOLASH???#let’s let him be a little evil too come on now#but idk. maybe my take is wack
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remind me never to look up a kpop group on here again, i was just looking for funny text posts and memes WHY ARE YOU ALL SO FREAKY 😭😭😭😭
#all i see is unabashed freakiness#i was not prepared#also sorry for the overuse of the word freaky but it’s the only word i can come up with rn#i didn’t see even a single meme but i saw so many smutty x reader one shots HELP ME#like not to shame anyone but i was shocked#kpop#i feel like as i get older i forget what it was like to be younger#even though i’m only 20#because i see some of the stuff people are writing and i’m like “’PLEASE YOU WERE BORN IN 2008’#as if 16 year old me wasn’t all over ao3#😔✌️#but fr what do you mean you’re writing hardcore smut about a kpop idol at age 15 😭😭😭 you are braver than i am girlie#can’t believe i’m already turning into a ‘kids these days’ person I’M SORRY#i really shouldn’t be so surprised at what i found but i let my guard down#but also it’s more about the sheer number rather than the existence of that makes sense#ok rant over#i’ll be back in like 2 months lol
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hi so i just finished bridge to terabithia and now i’m unwell and my eyes are red because i’ve been crying before i’d even reached 20 minutes of it for i actually knew what was going to happen and by the time i reached an hour something something i just straight up sobbing screaming into my pillow. and now it’s 12 am and i’m still thinking about them. because god, look at them, how they were, the little world they lived in, wouldn’t you just love that, to run away, to escape, to grasp that childhood naivety and innocence that you lost a long time ago, to feel the sun in your skin and the air in your lungs and to paint fantasies and laugh and play and run hidden away from the world and find an old run down tree house and decided to make it your own little shelter and pin up canvases on the worn wood and paint and let your creativity goes wild and have someone understand you and gets you and do it with you, and wouldn’t you just love to have something so constant, so sincere, so genuine, so pure, so real, that there wasn’t anything else. if i knew i was going to cry this much, if i knew how much space this movie would make in my life, i wouldn’t have started this movie tonight. i would have been in peace on the floor of my room, not realizing how badly i actually want something like this even though i would never unironically admit this to anyone in my life or even myself when i’m outside of the familiar place of my mind, for that matters
#bridge to terabithia#how am i supposed to recover#i wasn’t planning to write a paragraph about it but yeah i kinda love this movie i guess#i needed a good cry and the universe didn’t stop me from choosing this movie i don’t know if that’s nice or simply mean#i was going to watch la la land after this but that’s not gonna happen now#i’m not reading back what i wrote otherwise i would just delete it because i’d think this movie deserves better more coherent thoughts#and i’d say that i’d just rewrite it tomorrow but then i wouldn’t#because nothing would ever beat the “everything i create has to be great or nothing” in me#and i never am proud of what i made unless it’s supposedly only for my viewing#so i actually don’t know if what i just wrote make sense but yeah#my eyes feel so weird right now#also the ending was definitely up to interpretations!! (spoiler alert* just in case)#i myself personally like to believe he dreamed up the last 30 minutes of it and didn’t even go to the museum#and so he’ll just wake up definitely shocked but then still find leslie in her house who was just about to meet him so they could go!!#and because the rope was cut off by the lightning from last night they decide to build the bridge so everyone could cross safe and sound!!#i like my ending better they really should change it#but no all and all the end was really beautiful#even though it took me maybe even an hour to get through it because i keep sobbing and have to repeat over and over to hear what they said#yeah okay anyways sorry for the rant<3#i’m not sure what this is#but glad i could get it off my chest#let’s see how to tag how to tag#movies#just#childhood#whatever <3#nadirants
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Bro,,,disrespectfully,,,what the fuck
#literally so disrespectful I cannot believe#that’s my fucking boy gege#yuuta is the love of my life. I literally only love one (1) sorcerer and this is what you fucking do to him#I’m literally seething#even gojo???#gege what the fuck#okay but out of all the things to do???#tell me you prioritize shock value over substance#jjk leaks#jjk 261#cash’s brain
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Things to make me lie down and contemplate everything. 400 ppl liking my writing enough that they want a notification when there’s something new
#one person in the comments of last sunrise also said I was their favorite renkaza writer#I. I. LIKE MAN I DUNNO#I am literally always under the assumption that people like. tolerate my creator endeavors#like maybe they’re not bad but they’re not GOOD and they’re kind of mildly annoying to everyone around me#(we can thank my family for mercilessly mocking every interest I ever had as a kid for that one)#I have had ONE person irl who has always responded v positively and passionately when I talk about my projects#(hiiiiii Lee ily for this)#and it’s like. oh. oh wow. this kinda stuff is always like whiplash to me because of it#it shocks me when ppl comment or oh my god when they ask me QUESTIONS about fics#like they WANT me to talk more about them#I’m too anxiety ridden to really even talk about them on MY dumb tumblr account cuz I worry about being annoying#because me being excited about working on something = annoying in my brain#(and like it’s never anyone else I see literally ANY other person posting about their art or ideas or processes and I’m like OMG AWESOME)#(it’s literally just me that this applies to 😭😭😭)#so yeah. ppl ask about fics. people say they’re excited about them. ppl even say they THOUGHT about them#and it baffles and confuses me and blows my mind#anyways. the point is. Ty ily I can’t believe you all like anything I made#but I’m trying to get better about getting over this mindset#and seeing physical proof in numbers that it really is ridiculous definitely helps#kaz rambles
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catch me liking all stars even though it’s objectively the worst total drama season
#Yeah I’m coming out and saying it.#jo and lightning were robbed#and lindsay felt like a throwaway character#and having Sierra obsess over Cameron instead of god forbid having character developing or having an actual friend was.. questionable#but. I love me some slop#Courtney actually managing to (probably) make Scott a better person to the point where he played completely fair and STILL made it to the#final four despite not doing much? amazing. show stopping.#Alejandro being outsmarted and outplayed by some emo kid? lovely.#(A little random but I like to believe that Scott was so shocked by knocking out Manitoba with the shovel that he decided to play fair.#“Ummm I’m never cheating again. What the fuck just happened.”)#zoey seeing Scott and Courtney argue and going “this isn’t the worst party I’ve been to” she’s hilarious I don’t even care.#Alejandro pretending his legs were asleep for half of if not most of the season even though it did not benefit him whatsoever. stupid idiot#feel free to tag your favorite all stars moments btw.. I probably forgot a bunch of stuff
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Was a lovely day/night ☀️✨❤️🔥 which is rare but it’s been great weather last week and this for here lol didn’t have money today or a chance to go hiking buttt I did sit in the back garden of my flat at a table and drew/painted, listened to music & watched stuff on my laptop, played with my dog (I made him a spot with a few couch pillows wrapped in a quilt cover next to me by the table and brought him water and snacks out lol) so I done that for hours and smoked weed and drew finished my Grace and Frankie drawing:)) 🎨 with watercolour pencils and pens (I need to buy new paint soon lol). I got high:)) 💨 it was nice ❤️🔥 wearing that big spaceship hat coz I couldn’t find my cap and my scalp burns easily so I took my mums huge hat, ironic I call her mothership and it looks like a bloody spaceship 🛸😂 lol anyway had a nice night, would rather go hiking again, but seeing this guy I’m seeing this week again,. Can’t stop thinking about our hike and picnic it was lovely :)) we keep texting he’s great
#keep thinking about the guy I’m kinda seeing how our second date was so amazing lol joke and picnic at my fave place#I wanna do that again with him…he’s super cool chill fun and honest.. never been creepy#never tried to push anything like most guys would in the woods alone by a river like#we’re going out this week again and I’m happy :)) we text all the time :)) I don’t wanna get my hopes up#but we’ve known each other months before this online and met for a few dates the second one was it for me#and him too I believe but he’s surprised I even like him! idk why I’m shocked he likes me he said he loves how weird I am in a great way#he said normal is boring and he’s not ‘normal’ as u say either I enjoy him :)) he’s also a great kisser and a gentleman lol he’s#he’s only s few months older than me too lol ok the tags rambling about my possible new bf if things go well#but was thinking of him today s he text me from work and I sat outside thinking about Thursday day/evening with him❤️#anywayyy#art#my art#actually me#my dog#dogs#max#maxxie boy#my pics#grace and frankie#fanart#i don’t think I took a pic of the completely finished drawing but it’s in another room I’m in mine rn it’s 3am I cba moving lol#rambles in tags
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ahsjkds rant/vent in the tags
#i fucking LOVE having to hug my friend as they sob bc our rights r actively being revoked#i’m literally 16 years old. i don’t even have my permit yet.#it shouldn’t be up to us kids. i shouldn’t have to tell them that we’ll fix it and make it all ok one day#it’s not that fucking hard to let trans people exist. it’s really not.#and yet#i just. ughajdnfjkw#they were sobbing. and all i could do was promise that i’d try and fix it.#i’m pissed and tired and upset and all i can do about it is hope that my emails and club speeches actually do something while i wait#there are wonderful adults who are fighting for us and i cherish them greatly#but that doesnt change the fact that the government - the very people i was raised to believe we’re there to protect me - is actively#passing laws in favor of my suicide.#and the only thing i can do about it in the meantime is comfort my friends and hope they give my email the light of day#it’ll be okay. we can fix this and save our community. i know we can.#i just wish this wasn’t something we have to do in the first place#this is gonna sound indelicate but i wish i still flinched when getting called a faggot#i’m not sure if this makes sense but it feels like i lost something when i started teaching myself to remain neutral in the face of bigotry#i want to be mad and upset but instead i’m carefully crafting how im perceived and judged at every moment#where’s the justice in me forcing myself to watch bigoted videos at the age of 14 so i wouldn’t be caught off guard or shocked when harassed#tell me where the fuck the justice is in that.#sorry for all this rambling i’m just upset
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hes clever and witty about his jokes, even if 90% stay in his head and hes quick thinking in battle while also somehow managing to mostly pass even though he misses most of the school year, so yeah hes smart as fuck
percy: *intensely watching the news, waiting to hear about something he may have caused*
piper: come on percy, come eat with us. you’ve been sitting there waiting for hours. if something happens, you’ll hear about it eventually. a watched pot never boils
percy, distractedly: yeah and an ignored one boils over
piper: that-
piper, turning to annabeth in confusion: have i been spending too much time with him or is that one of the most logical things i’ve ever heard someone say?
#smart percy isnt even a hc#if you dont believe me try reading the book#i love the thought of him shocking people with intelligent comments#because he’s actually super smart and nobdody fucking realizes it#i’m sorry for my outburst#but i do love the thought of percy always surprising piper with wise comments#percy jackson#piper mclean#annabeth chase#incorrect quotes#hoo incorrect quotes#pjo
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if you want to meet people online who feel like god spun a wheel when making them just hang out in trans sexology spaces. You will not dissapointed
#rambles#One time in the discord I was in last year someone said they believed hsts didn’t have real gender dysphoria#everyone collectively just went what on them and they didn’t really say much about that opinion hence that#Do not be me and go into those circles as a teenager though I’m shocked I wasn’t groomed FUCK I WAS SO FUCKING STUPID#btw I didn’t even believe in that shit. Like I never really did#I was only in those circles because I thought the mere concept of it was hilarious. And it is it really is
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