#because i was a ball of anxiety about this

[alphashley14]

I’M SCREAMING!!! PACING CRYING BARKING DIRECTLY AT IT!

I’ve been staring at this for an hour grinning. I can’t stop looking at it. Look at my BOIIIISSSS!!! 😭😭😭🥹

The body swap bros all together in one pic!!! And in @slimeysodaa’s art style too?! It’s so cuddly I want to HUG IT! And I want to hug YOU for drawing it @slimeysodaa! 🤗🥰🥹 I want to hang it on my wall!!! Obsessed obsessed obsessed!!!

I had actually been feeling kind of down about my fic because I didn’t get much response when I posted the most recent chapter. I’ve only gotten one comment. So seriously. You have no idea how much seeing this means to me. It couldn’t have come at a more perfect time. 🥹

I absolutely adore how you drew each of them. With the eyes showing who each of them really are. Arthur looks so thoughtful and he has to be the clever one in their situation. While the other two just look like balls of anxiety hanging on by a thread. Bless their hearts. I love them. And all of those fidgets are totally canon now! You even got Ricky/Shaggy wearing the jacket Daphne gave him! And Shaggy/Arthur looks like a tangerine ray of sunshine! ☀️🥰 He’s as sweet as an orange creamsicle! I love him! (And the detail of him staring at his (Arthur’s) missing arm because he has to get used to being an amputee is so good.

THE SITTING ROOM REST STOP DRAWING HAS MY ENTIRE HEART I LOVE THEM! Just having a little time to talk, to laugh, and to be together as they truly are. 😍 It’s exactly as I imagined it!!! ❤️

THE DRAWING OF RICKY(Arthur) BEAT UP MADE ME SQUEAL AND KICK MY FEET!!! He IS our princess he’s so PRETTY!!! 🤩😍 Does it tug on my heartstrings? Absolutely. But it also makes me go:

(Actually this whole thing does that to me but this. This particularly.)

(Petition for more SDMI Artists to draw Ricky bruised and bloody. I mean- just- he’s so beautiful.)

And Marcie looking after him! 😭 It’s so perfect! (And yes - Ricky is going to freak out when he sees that. But we’re not there in the story yet. 🤫)

As for Brad, Judy, and Pericles? Two whole dollars? As tempting as that is… I have plans for them that are going to take a bit longer than asap but if you stick with my silly fic long enough for that, your patience shall be rewarded. 😈

this fic has consumed my thoughts

for context, this fic (made by @alphashley14 , check em out) is a sdmi/mystery skulls crossover fanfic, where Shaggy, Arthur and Mr E/Ricky switch bodies. angst and chaos ensues. I cannot do justice just how good this fic is, so if you want, pls read it for yourself, it's so fun while also being equally heartwrenching.

some of these are sketches of scenes from the story, while others are just silly things i WISH would happen (let my guys relax for two seconds please). The first one tho is just a silly thought i had of "what kind of nervous ticks do these dweebs got" and i did that.

plus i really wanted to draw Ricky (or in this case Arthur) twilring his hair bc its sillyyy, he's my pretty princess

[kleinesmanuskript]

Imagine studying at the same college with Mhin

modern AU

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⟢ Coming across each other only during breaks because you both study at different faculties. Mhin once thought about transferring into your group, and they would gladly do that but unfortunately your professions differ drastically. 

⟢ Noticing each other from far corners of the hall and nodding; some kind of succinct gesture, bearing the meaning of mutual greeting and silent way of conveying “sure, we are tired but fuck it, we ball”. 

⟢ Marking the way their frown and discontent on their face is gradually replaced by a soft smile as they approach you. 

⟢ Quickly reaching the nearest coffee shop during said breaks, but only for your sake. Mhin is not a big fan of take-outs, but they won’t cease the opportunity to spare you a moment while waiting for your order and briefly talking about everything that happened over the period of your short “parting”, caused by curriculum and different class/lecture-rooms. 

⟢ Suggesting that you both take aesthetically pleasing notes to add some colours to your routine; writing out ornate letters with brush pens, decorating pages with cute stickers and vivid patterns. But failing the attempt as Mhin prefers comfort and practicality (the most they can do is using pens of different colours and highlighting topics from time to time). They are convinced that all this ✨study aesthetic✨ doesn’t suit them at all and there are two reasons why – firstly, the nature of their specialisation, and secondly, the insane amount of shortened words and strikethroughs in their notes (also add here the margins of their notebooks filled with neurotic scribbles, little crosses that are outlined numerous times, doodles and tiny rough sketches). As they say, usage of cute stationery won’t help them at all, let alone enhancing their notes. “It will eventually cause even more mess”. 

⟢ Constantly checking each other’s class schedule and receiving messages from them like “are you done yet”, “where are you”, “should i wait for you” as well sending those to them yourself (but knowing that you’ll both wait until one of you finishes classes no matter how long it takes). 

⟢ Hastily walking under streetlights, barely hearing each other over the noise of the street and crowd, and agreeing on “these people are so weird and stupid, thanks god we are normal”. Listening to their complaints and subconsciously adorning the way snow flickers on their silver hair, bleached strands sticking out from the hood. And how amusing are their attempts to hide themselves from biting cold when they bury their lips and nose in the collar of their jacket. 

⟢ Standing in a crowded bus and exchanging meaningful looks with them, discussing the environment solely with glances – driver’s rudeness, someone’s pungent cologne, a deliberately loud conversation, contents of a stranger’s phone—“damn, we shouldn’t have looked at his screen, gross!” 

⟢ Helping each other with homework by mere presence; finishing your own tasks while lying on their bed and listening to the rustle of pages as Mhin sits at the desk and thoughtfully writes something. Heavy darkness of a late evening changes the bluish hues, and radiance from a table lamp, blanketing Mhin’s silhouette and reflecting in the window, feels undeniably warm and cozy. 

⟢ Getting advice from them on how to cope with exam stress along with a list of light herbal sedatives which can help in dealing with anxiety. Definitely will explain their effects in detail and respond to your “professional deformation, huh?” with a sarcastic chuckle.  

⟢ Trying to get to know them better; it is genuinely hard to lure anything out of them—though if you listen to them carefully, you may effortlessly catch some trivias about them or their interests. So in brief moments of silence—or when they read something attentively on the laptop, biting their lips—you look around their room and its sparse decor. Remember, Mhin advocates for practicality, it’s only natural that their books are placed in perfect order on the table and shelves, no posters on the walls (if you don’t count prints from anatomical atlases as ones), and there is a cute cat-shaped lamp on their nightstand, illuminating soft glow. 

⟢ Accepting their offer to walk you home when it gets too late and dark. Hugging them goodbye when you get to your place and watching them till they disappear into the darkness of the winter night. Tomorrow awaits another day and new attempts to get closer to this whimsical lil’ fella, who is seemingly the only one worth knowing in the asylum you have to call your college. 

[crescenthistory]

Hi, sorry for bothering you but I just wanted to ask if you could share your thoughts and headcanons about the Marauders and how they interact with the other groups? I honestly liked how you write about the Valkyries and Slytherin Skittles and you can just ignore this. Have a nice day 🤗

my love!! please do not apologise; you could never bother me by dropping into my inbox, especially when you're being so sweet<33 thank you for your love, i hope you have an even better day actually !! i'm sorry for getting this to you so late, but i hope it provides a good guide of sorts

note: i am going to try to write this without any romantic ships in mind because i'm a multishipper at heart lmao

how the marauders interact with each other & folks in general

in crescenthistory canon, i generally don't tend to go with "oh they were these super popular bullies" narrative, simply because that doesn't spark joy for me and i write to have fun

instead, i kind of view them as being more infamous in their chaos, a group of four boys who were jovially unhinged in each their way in a very noticeable manner

it got them loads of friends and perhaps a few rivals and enemies along the way

james and peter are childhood friends as they both grew up in the "good" pureblood families (aka the chill ones, often labelled blood traitors)

james helps peter get out of his shell and make new friends while peter grounds james and was one of the first people through which he learned how to show consideration and empathy

i believe james, peter and sirius met on the train and really hit it off, making sirius excited about his time at hogwarts

but then when both james and peter got placed in gryffindor ahead of sirius in line, his heart sank in his chest because he had it drilled into him that gryffindor equals bad, don't make friends with gryffindors

he thought he lost his new friends

until the hat was placed on his head and almost immediately called out "GRYFFINDOR", to sirius' initial deep seated horror

... but it did mean he didn't lose his friends. just his family, eventually, but friends do make for good family.

his situation tied sirius all that much tighter to the other marauders, particularly james as he was the first one to jostle sirius onto the gryffindor table and welcome him loudly and proudly

james kept his hand on sirius' back for the rest of the evening, sensing that he needed it

together, they worked it all out over the years

as for remus, i believe he locked himself in the bathroom on the hogwarts express and didn't exit before he made it to the castle

this boy was shaking in his boots, an actual ball of anxiety that was torn apart by utter disbelief at even being allowed into hogwarts and guilt for accepting it

hope (and lyall, though i don't always hc him as coming around) had tried their best at accepting him, but i think they always underlined how dangerous remus was and how careful he had to be

that cemented itself in his head as "don't make any friends ever, you would put them in danger"

he hid away in corners all the way up until the point he walked into his dorm and was immediately crushed in a bear hug by james potter while being eyed curiously and anxiously by a very rattled sirius and rather overwhelmed peter

no matter how hard remus was set on being invisible, james refused not to see him and sirius was instantly captivated by remus (whether it's platonically or romantically is up to you, but their connection is undeniable)

together, their little dorm became family that increasingly found their entertainment in each other and in raising havoc and living their teenage years to the fullest

i think in the beginning, they were known as "potter and those others" until sirius gained his footing and became equally as loud as james

from then on, they were referred to as the "boys from dorm 4" (or whatever their dorm number was)

as remus grew into himself (grew out his hair, learned to carry his height instead of crouching) and peter went from hiding behind james' metaphorical skirts to just standing a little bit towards the back but still grinning as loud as the others – well, then they were the marauders

and the marauders were marauding, let me tell you

no one could either fully hate or fully love them; everyone has had a bad experience as a consequence of the marauders' various doings, but everyone have always been made to laugh until they're in stitches by one of them too

i think most studious students found them rather tedious, but oftentimes their pranks did give them breaks they sorely needed

and while more nervous/shy students might be rather rattled by their presence, i think the marauders had unique abilities to empower and care for others

after all, that's what they did to each other

in crescenthistory universe, the marauders were painfully kind, in each their separate way

james' smile was like the actual sun and he never denied anyone it unless they had been exceptionally terrible – even as he hassled snape for mistreating lily, he was often grinning

he is the type to pick up people if he accidentally tramples them (as he runs from or towards trouble) and flash them an apologetic grin before taking off again

sirius' kindness was often laden with flirtation or some other barrier to his vulnerable self to ensure that any rejection of said kindness wouldn't feel as heartbreaking

he had more to shield himself from than james, but he had just as much to give, and tried his best to do so

to begin with, i think he tried to copy james, but found that the grins he flashed were often not taken in the same way as james'. instead he started with his own, more smug smiles, pats on the back and the likes

sirius is the type to ask questions – "y'alright?", "what's goin' on with you, hm?", "we bothering you?"

and he actually listens

whereas remus is more quiet in his kindness, truly an acts of service and quality time type of man

he will pick up your things if you drop them, even if it makes his knees ache, he will hold the door, he will warn you that it's cold outside or a prank playing out down the corridor if he passes you in the hallway

when james picks you up after barreling you down, remus is the one who will dust off your back

when sirius asks if they're bothering you, remus is already apologising for being bothersome

peter is the type who shows kindness in private after-the-fact

he is much more comfortable being vulnerable and showcasing himself with you when you're alone, when he can help dissect and calm you down

he is so down to talk shit about someone if that's what you need – something that's perhaps a bit bad, but done kindly

the marauders don't have time to be best friends with everyone and know all about them, but they try to see everyone they are around at any given moment

they're menaces in the castle, sure, but also sweethearts

how the marauders are with the valkyries

true besties. i genuinley believe that these friend groups are highly entangled, because i can't really picture them being all that hung up on having one group of "boys" and one of "girls" (in my non-misogyny, non-homophobia, non-transphobia view of the wizarding world)

they're all gryffindors in the same year so they're like this 🤞 though with unique dynamics of course

marlene, coming from another of the "good" pureblood families, grew up with james and peter and was already close friends with them

i personally imagine marlene as too impatient to handle peter's extreme shyness to begin with, as i believe her to have a rather short temper and attention span, especially with men

james and marlene however, are genuinely like siblings to me

i think they would have a Proper Sibling relationship with each other too, including sibling brawls and squabbles, the long hugs/cuddles and family dinners

james didn't have any biological siblings while marlene had five, so they very easily just brought james into the mix and he adored it

which also means he is predisposed to understanding sibling relationships, which helps enormously when he has to navigate the whole sirius/regulus thing

it is james, marlene and peter that provided the original link connecting the marauders and the valkyries as james ran into her dorm that first day to show off his new friends and meet her new friends

mary and lily were both rather shy to begin with as muggleborns freshly introduced to the wizarding world, but in each their way and i don't think they were introverted per say

lily doesn't want to say something before knowing she's right, so she spends her time studying and observing before speaking

this means she'll stare at you with intense big green eyes in silence (which is how james/mary/marlene/sirius/whoever falls in love with her from day one lmao)

whereas mary is mostly just So Overwhelmed by everything and bridling with excitement she doesn't know how to communicate, so she just comes off as a bit awkward

but marlene instantly connected with both of them, and that was enough for james and thus the other marauders

when they get their schedules, they compare what classes they have at what times all holed up in the girls' dorm and from then on they are rather intertwined into each other's lives

for the first hogsmeade trip they all go together, they eat most of their meals together, they hang out together in the common room all the time – they're one big happy friend group

as lily and mary grow more into the hogwarts atmosphere and themselves, they start displaying their personalities more comfortably, which only made the marauders like them more

the valkyries frequently roll their eyes at the marauders' antics and mischief – but when they're invited in on it, they rarely say no

only lily ever really say no, but when marylene join in, she always covers for them

some specific friendship dynamics:

sirius + marlene are the same person different fonts and they KNOW it. they bark laughters at each other, they compete, they match their outfits, they learn guitar and bass together, they cry as they hug when they're getting pissed

sirius + mary have very similar silly humour and often banter off of each other, sometimes perhaps in a rather flirtaious manner. i think sirius becomes very comfortable with mary quickly because they think in rather similar ways but she's more reserved than marlene to begin with, so she felt safer to be around when he was still feeling rather raw

sirius + lily's dynamic depends partly on what i ship tbh, but i always see them as faux frenemies (they're actually friends but pretend to have some rivalry going on) that would die for each other

same with james + lily – i think she always finds him a bit tedious and rolls her eyes at him, but grows undeniably fond of him and enjoys his boisterous personality

james + mary is perhaps one of the friendships i have explored the least, maybe because i think they're some of the least close people in the group? he knows her mostly as lily's best friend first and foremost, but winds up having the occasional deep convo with her and goes "damn macdonald, you always have these thoughts up in there?"

remus + lily are KINDRED fucking spirits. they bond so fast, in a rather similar fashion as sirius and james. they just connect, their minds work in the same way and they have the same reservations and fears. i think that because of that, they can often enable each other to not better their ways – but similarly, if one improves, the other is pushed to do the same

remus + mary have an unspoken form of friendship where they just support each other constantly

i'm talking they will randomly back each other up in situations where they think it's funny. mary can be having a completely irrelevant argument with sirius and remus will instantly just be like "i agree with mary"

started one of those never ending card games in first year and keeps playing just the two of them until graduation. everyone has tried to join at some point and are very butthurt that they don't let them.

remus + marlene is often similar to wolfstar dynamics, but more focused on grounding each other. while james and sirius rile marlene up, remus helps bring her down. similarly, while others may comfort remus a bit tentatively, marlene would smack some shit into him like "of course you're worthy of love, you're remus blood lupin, for merlin's sake"

i think they're just what each other need, especially during hard times

i think peter with all of the girls is someone they will curl up into a windowsill with and unpack the most complex and confusing situations they're in and together they will mouse their way out of it

overall, the marauders and valkyries are a friendship coloured by poking fun and stumbling over one's own feet as they navigate coming of age

while there for sure are spats and complicated feelings, periods where they talk more and periods where they talk less, they are always family

how the marauders are with the slytherin skittles

the relationship between the marauders and the slytherin skittles/emeralds is one characterised much more by rivalry and tension – though i'm a firm believer that they are "frenemies" more so than enemies

every one of the emeralds have some reason to have certain hostilities towards the marauders;

regulus has tension with his brother after he was sorted into gryffindor, the rosier twins were raised with a lot of blood racism and isolationism that they need time to shake, barty is predisposed against gryffindors and dorcas is on guard with everyone after her foster-care childhood

but they all also have reasons to not hate or completely disregard them;

again, sirius is regulus' brother who he endlessly looked up to through childhood, the rosier twins much enjoy various marauders individually, barty is actually really similar to them and enjoys their chaos and dorcas falls in love with (one of) the valkyries

exactly what their relationship is depends on what fic i am writing or what lens i am looking at it through

but trust there is ALWAYS significant banter between them – it's just the intensity and subtext of it that varies from fic to fic for me

barty and sirius often go toe-to-toe with bantering and bickering as they are both experts at volleying arguments back and forth and able to match each other's energy – and have the most reason to bicker, that reason usually being regulus

james and evan i think have great conversations but when it's prongsfoot vs rosekiller, i don't think james holds back in any capacity

in a modern au, i think james and evan would be gym bros that are totally aligned in the gym, but occasionally throw hands outside of it for the sake of their (boy)friends

i would say it's 80% goodnatured banter, 20% genuine tension/hostilities

comments made in the passing in hallways, the occasional meal spiced up by one emerald sitting with the marauders or vice versa, stumbling upon each other in the library or hogsmeade, etc.

it is when certain members start falling properly in love that the emeralds start fully merging with the marauders and valkyries

these can be jegulus, dorlene, moonwater, pandalily, bitchkiller, sunkiller, you name it, i love it

either way, they get involved – and whoever is not part of the relationship, WILL make loud and brazen protests

we're talking barty loudly complaining about regulus being defiled by james (much to both jegulus and sirius' chagrin), regulus moaning and groaning about having to spend time with his pesky older brother when dorcas and marlene start shagging, etc.

eventually, the merging of the friend groups would lead to sirius and regulus having a proper settlement of difficulties as well, if it hasn't happened already

i think the marauders and emeralds are able to open each other's eyes in ways they painfully need

the marauders can shower them in the type of comfort and security they need to overcome their family situations and poor wiring, while the emeralds can teach them a good lesson about open-mindedness and nuance

when they join forces, there is grumbling, but eventually any and all complaint is faux and for comedic effect

they thoroughly enjoy each other lmao

[opalwatch]

posting just some of my feitan headcanons to put off my anxiety about an impending zoom meeting

-he's autistic and has sensory issues. i fear this is common sense

-he can't stand loud noises. that's why he talks so quietly. the mask he wears helps to muffle loud noises, but if it's not enough, he has noise canceling headphones

-the only loud noises he can stand are the screams of people he tortures (fbi look away)

-he has two safe foods. the first is monster energy. he prefers the original flavor but any other flavor will do (except zero sugar). it's too bubbly for him (sensory issue) so he stirs out some of the bubbles but not all of them

-his other safe food is french fries, but from mcdonalds. he wont give that company money tho so he steals them

-when he's anxious/overstimulated, he'll knead biscuits into his thighs with his retractable claws (he has them because he's a zoldyck). if he's around other people, he'll try to hide it.

-said this in my pt music post but he listens to vocaloid and heavy metal. he likes poppy's latest albums. he likes maretu.

-he only listens to the same music over and over. he doesn't like discovering new music.

-he drinks extra monster when he's out on missions with the troupe because he has trouble sleeping in new places. change is hard for him.

-at his home, his bed is just a giant mound of pillows and blankets and soft things. he has to sleep curled up into a ball.

-when he's extremely anxious, he crochets. he either crochets matching sweaters for all the troupe members or voodoo dolls for torture. there is no in-between

-his english(? or whatever language is common in hxh) skills aren't too great because when he was growing up (critical period for language acquisition AAAAA I love being a psych major i love developmental psychology), his social anxiety was so bad that he didn't get to practice conversationally with others.

-machi saw him being a bundle of anxiety and didn't want him to be alone, but she saw that talking to him made him anxious. so instead of trying to play with him, she would just play on her own next to him. (sorry i didnt mean to make this about machi)

-again his special interest is monster energy. he collects every can he drinks and makes them into intricate towers. the other troupe members know not to make the tower fall because it'll cause him to lose it. that's how phinks found out what rising sun was

-last one for now i have to join my zoom meeting. the other troupe members sometimes help him build the monster can towers and shit. feitan doesn't really like it all too much because he likes to think it's his own special thing, but he doesn't say anything because he doesn't want to hurt anyone's feelings

-when hisoka was in the troupe, though, he offered to use bungee gum to secure more cans together. feitan did NOT allow this.

[dirkjader]

I'm stay with the idea that both Dirk and Jade are, deep down, a walking ball of anxiety, although sometimes they can be very distant or put up big barriers between themselves and the people they love, or that they also both try to pretend that everything is fine.

So imagine two people with complicated love lives trying to find and maintain a connection with someone even if they both feel afraid of being hurt.

I like to imagine that Jade was once married in a relationship that didn't last very long (and really every Jade I draw has that past unless she says otherwise), so now she's divorced trying to enjoy her life but still hoping to find someone who will actually stay, even if at the same time she's afraid that eventually this person will leave too.

While Dirk was so in love and infatuated with one person for years that the idea of ​​finding a new love or partner is a difficult idea for him (and because he still has a lot of insecurities about himself), but he just wants to find someone who can see and accept him and at the same time he's afraid of this connection.

Just imagine both of them having communication problems, learning to solve problems together, to improve on the things that made their past relationships fail.

Or maybe it's just me who likes to pair characters with a fear of loneliness.

[astriiformes]

WORLD'S BIGGEST SIGH OF RELIEF

Professors say they can still write my letters of rec even though I got them my application materials fairly late. Folks I really thought I'd dug my own grave here.

[daily-hanamura]

[seagull-scribbles]

*Aggressively throws this at your head*

[bucketfullofstrawberries]

BREAKING NEWS: STUPIDEST MAN ALIVE (ME) SAVES HIMSELF FROM NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE (GETTING HACKED ON DISCORD) BY MANAGING TO SNUFF OUT A SCAM PRODDER BEFORE FRIENDING A POTENTIAL WEIRDO AND GETTING MY SHIT FUCKED!!!!!!!!!!!! HUZZAH!!!!!!!!!!!! I LIVE ANOTHER DAY!!!!!!!!

[bogkeep]

is it really plausible that i, a bundle of neuroses barely held together with duct tape, could have Anxiety for real

[wekillitwithfire]

truly something so empowering in just saying ‘fuck it we ball’. what a life changing mentality

[sailforvalinor]

!!

[biohazard-inevitable]

I think I’m going to explode I can only babysit so many anxiety spirals at a time universe why do you test me so

[bleakfated]

might do some dash lurking after i make dinner. slowly chipping away at drafts and asks in the background.

also heads up that i may archive if my ask box doesnt start behaving after i empty it because it is indeed still eating things and spitting them out months later

[akkivee]

the reason ichiro’s under the impression people just text their feelings at each other is because that’s how kuukou love mailed him all the time lmao

[mythcaels-a]

i always want to get into finding some way to do graphics commissions but still not knowing where to start or if my graphics are even good enough for it.