something I see a lot, and feel like I have to remind myself regularly not to fall into the trap of:
It’s easy to relate to a character. It’s easy to see yourself in them, to see them as Like You. There’s power in that.
But I’ve met several people now who’ve gotten really angry and upset with me for not liking their fave, or for having a very different interpretation of the character than they do. People who relate so hard to a character, project so hard onto a character, that me not liking them, me acknowledging that the character is a villain, or me just having a different interpretation of that character’s relationships and motives, feels like an attack on them as a person—and they respond to me as such.
I’ve seen it happen enough that I try to consciously remind myself. Other’s people’s interpretations of a character are not an attack on me. I know who I am and that will not change if other people are wrong about have a different perspective on my favorite character.
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i never ever cry in front of anyone ever but there was this boy i was OBSESSED with in primary school when i was like seven years old because he was the fastest boy in the class and he had cool spiky hair and i always thought it was a crush until i came out and realised it was gender envy of some form and today my friend out of the blue told me that i look like him and we looked at his instagram together and i actually do. i look almost exactly like him. and i cried like an absolute wanker because i’ve been so miserable my whole life being perceived entirely the wrong way and i went home today and looked at myself and realised i look like the boy i always wanted to be when i was a kid. and whenever i feel bad about myself i get to remind myself that i look like him so i shouldn’t feel bad because back then i couldn’t have ever dreamed of getting to look like this. and t will only make it better and even though the idea of starting it is still so scary to me i keep having moments like this that make me realise how good it’s going to be even if some of it will suck. i always focus on all of the ways my transition has gone and will go wrong and i forget that it’s going to go right in a lot of ways too
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Just finished His Last Bow and I am feeling so emotional about it.
THANK YOU @jabbage for the tremendous gift you gave all of us this year! Reading these letters all together has been an absolute joy, and I look forward to the novels next year! 💖
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Knights Who Carry Objects Around
Arupek - “How am I able to carry it all the time?” “That’s easy~! If you like something a lot, a little pain isn’t going to stop you.”
Arupek - “But I have a department right inside my jacket! See?”
(Arupek, approaching you like a dealer in an alleyway)
Arupek - “Heheh… Would you like one of these bad boys!?”
Arupek, who opens his jacket to reveal multiple water guns!
He takes off his hat to reveal a smaller water gun...!?
He takes the card out of his sleeve...
…to reveal another water gun!?
Tuxam - “It’s retractable.”
A simple answer—as expected from an inspiring gentleman!
Chaco - “You can ride it. You can sit on it. You can even ram SEEDs with it.” “If you approach them in a certain angle… bwamnh! Skin and insides—everywhere!”
Chaco - “Bashing it senselessly into a SEED is also an option, but I don’t want to harm the painting job, no?”
Pikero - “I’ll have someone else carry it.”
Hangyon - “Lili isn’t an object~” “For your transgression, the interest rate will be 100%!”
Badobarm shares the same sentiment.
Kurode - "It's the cost of being an iPad kid." "I have to carry it around forever. It can never escape my hands."
Merold - “(Sigh) I don’t know what I was thinking—carrying around such a big baton...”
Merold - “But look at me now. Without the pains of having to carry a big ol' thing all day.”
Rimicha - "Heheh... I thought about this before~ So I added belts to my outfit!"
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i don't think kanan is good at being alone. he's someone that really greatly benefits from constantly being around other people.
he grew up in the jedi order, a whole community in the same building, he would always be around other younglings, and later on constantly with his master.
and then order 66 happens, and he's (understandably) not doing well, not helped by the fact that he's actually alone with his thoughts for the first time in his life. not that loneliness alone fucked him up but it cant have helped, and probably also created an association between being alone and literally the worst time in his life, being hunted and catastrophising that he'a going to die.
then he meets hera, and he's living in a tiny ship in close quarters with someone else, and he's not alone anymore. he sees hera's conviction to make change in the galaxy and it starts to pull him out of his alcoholism and his despondency and it makes him better. it reminds him that hey its not all terrible doom ahead of us, there are people who believe in a better world, and he wouldn't have reached that point on his own (considering a new dawn is like 7?? years after o66, he was coping he wasn't living). and then again with ezra, he grapples with inadequacy but he's not left to basically sit and brood about how much he sucks. it is partly out of necessity beacuse ezra is depending on him, but also that the expectation of him to do better does make him better, because he doesn't let himself fall into a deeper spiral and it pushes him into believing in himself, and that aids in his ability to actually do the thing and work on himself.
and after malachor, he distances himself. at the start of s3 hera talks to him like he's a stranger, almost, because he stopped opening up and stopped letting himself be part of a family and he made himself alone, and got so bad that bendu had to force an emotional realisation out of him. trauma can obviously manifest and affect people in different ways, and it is realistic that kanan is extremely emotionally affected by everything and doesn't just bounce back like nothing happened, but i do think its significant that when kanan's mental health is terrible the show makes it a point of telling us he's been isolating himself. he's deliberately separating himself from his family. it is a textbook sign of Not Doing Great, but i think it also reflects how well kanan copes when he's on his own. there are people who do perfectly fine or after prolonged periods of not really interacting with people, but i dont think that's kanan. when he's alone he's clouded, he gets lost in his emotions, and its important that other people are there; it reminds him what's important and what he's capable of.
basically i think when he gets left alone for too long it gets much easier for the self doubt to creep in, and he starts contemplating the hopelessness of existence, then he spends 5 minutes with hera and realises his last 2 days worth of brooding was decidedly Not Normal.
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