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#what if#because I like making myself sad#this will become a series of drawings and no one is ready including me#reverses your pirate captain#reverse 1999#r1999#Regulus#art#not braving the storm this time lads
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hm new year's ml season's resolution of mine should maybe be to post more. even if it's just my stupid unfiltered thoughts
#i always feel like i'm annoying when i post too many text posts#ive considered making a side blog to post my thoughts instead to take the pressure off but then what? would I NEVER post my thoughts here?#that's sad. this is my ML blog. this isnt even an art blog. why should i make it be one#anyway im fessing up about this because maybe if i say it out loud i will feel more obligated to hold myself to it
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Firefox-official vs electronicmail
Hydrogen bomb vs coughing baby
okay come up with a better idea then. firefox-official is gone asshole it’s electronicmail or nothing
#this one was hard to respond to because it elicited the usual anon rage in me#but i had to think about it anyway.#this blog has been around for less than a month and it is driving me fucking crazy#don’t you think i know?#dont you think it hurts enough already#i dont want this blog either i want my old blog back with all my stuff on it#i would like to stick around#because i loved posting#and i get that you’re just having fun#but i’m making an example of you#less than a month vs five years#‘household name’ firefox official#spent five years building that thing#and now it’s just this.#i keep forgetting#and then i’m here again#not home#i know you all feel bad enough for me already#but it’s so hard to be myself because the environment on here is SO different#we were HAPPY#WE WERE SO HAPPY#Umm… Or whatever.#guess i could go back to firefox unofficial#but that feels far too close to the sun. and i’m done with the wings i think.#i dont mean to be so serious#a total mood killer i know#i just dont know how to proceed exactly#because when i post like normal i cant help but feel sad#and when i post about being sad its just sort of obnoxious#i’m not really asking for pity i just want to explain where i am at
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so what if they had ghosts
#someone called the corny convention#drawing angst makes me cringe at myself Eugh....Like ok#but i need to post. i have to. my duty#nickel ii#balloon ii#nickloon#inanimate insanity#he watched toooo many movies!!!!!! thats not how it works!!!#i cant be sad because its 9 am
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Eloise Bridgerton being an absolute mood:
and Cressida's reaction of 'this girl is so weird, but I'm into it??? Wait am I into this??'':
#i was so sad that no one had made gifs of this moment#that i simply made one myself#i just love this almost smile cressida has here#like she can't believe eloise would just say and do this sort of thing#which kind of also adds to what she says in a later episode about eloise being courageous#she means this; eloise just being unapologetically herself without caring about whats appropriate#something cressida doesn't have the freedom to do (because she lacks the family support eloise has) but probably wishes she could#i love finding these little moments bc you can interpret so much from them even though they're only seconds long#yes i am autistic why do you ask?#eloise bridgerton#cressida cowper#creloise#bridgerton#bridgerton s3#bridgerton 3x02#gifs#my gifs#(also i don't know how to gif i did my best with what gimp can do)#bc id rather die than using something adobe makes
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So i remember an ask mentioning your mortal enemy, Felis Atra and their cats, and i thought it'd be fun to draw what Felis Atra's version of your italian dogs would be.
I think they would be called Butter Knife and Flamengo! Butter Knife is not his real name, it's an nickname given by his peers because of how harmless he is. I choose Flamengo because that's the name of Vasco's rival football team here in Brazil, so i thought that was the perfect name :)
Cat Machete was slightly inspired by the Oriental Shorthair cat because of their long noses and thin head shape.
Cat Vasco was inspired by the Scottish Fold cat, because FLOPPY EARS. I gave Flamengo longer ears and orange fur to make him more like his look-alike.
The last doodle is a reference to this ask (https://canisalbus.tumblr.com/post/728923918314946560/me-i-am-machete-ear-fan-number-1-those-ears) and contains the tumblr ask stand-in dog, whose cat version was inspired by the American Curl cat! They have round ears that are slightly floppy outwards.
Final notes: I know cardinal clothes don't come in vibrant blue, but i was ADAMANT on switching Machete's and Vasco's clothing color patterns. I would draw the rest of Butter Knife's and Flamengo's clothes, but i suck at designing cool outfits.
Speaking of outfits, for Machete's iconic void outfit, i figured it would be fun to make it more baggy for Butter Knife, in contrast to Machete's, that looks very tight-fitted. I think it's cute, it kinda looks like a sweater. Also i can't imagine a Machete doppelganger without high heels boots, so those HAD to stay.
Oh, and just to be clear, i'm not like, claiming ownership of these guys or anything. I just thought it would be a fun exercise. Hope you like them!! I love your art and your characters.
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#imagine if Vaschete but CATS and REVERSED -> Butter knife ;_; and Flamengo <3#this ask is from last year and I'm sorry I've allowed it sit in my inbox for so long ´m`#but I've been thinking about it intermittedly#the context was that someone said that somewhere out there existed my mortal enemy (felis atra = black/dark cat)#and they had frenzied cat ocs instead of melancholic dogs#first of all they both look so darling I'm getting radiation poisoning just from looking at them aaaaaa#and the fact you put so much thought and effort into this concept is making me go absolutely rabid#extremely strange seeing Machete with big pupils and Vasco with tiny pinpoints#Butter knife purring like a fluffy jackhammer is instant serotonin I love him#and yes if you turned Machete to a cat he'd probably be something resembling an oriental shorthair#especially one of those really exaggerated ones with giant bat ears and roman nose#and I keep visualizing Vasco as a scottish fold as well but it's kind of giving me sad bad feels personally#I can't look past their painful and debilitating health issues#the same mutation that causes the floppy ears also destroys the cartilage in their joints#it's such a shame because they're a terribly cute and charming breed#and in this case they really do have those similar rounded friendly shapes that Vasco does#if I ever draw them as cats myself I'll probably have to think of some other breed for him even though it would be such a perfect fit#also I think it's funny how you can swap everything else but Machete's heels have to stay :'> don't separate the crinkle and his boots#thank you so much! this was such a cool ask to receive I love how you designed their cat forms#gift art#dingergum#Machete#Vasco#own characters#Vaschete scenarios
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“It’s okay”
(Inspired by @noshirdalal describing Bode having used sign language signals with Kata)
#my art#art#illustration#star wars#sw fanart#star wars fanart#jedi suvivor spoilers#jedi survivor#bode akuna#kata akuna#cal kestis#Noshir made me sad and I solved that problem by making myself more sad like a completely rational person#still camped on the revelation of bode using sign language because that is so so cool#uncle cal#lavabean art
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Old Friends, Not Forgotten
#or what SHOULD HAVE HAPPENED in that episode#finished clone wars yesterday and GOD#i found myself yelling “HUG EACH OTHER” at my tv like 17 times every time they had a scene together#they're the found siblings ever and WE DIDN'T GET ONE HUG AT THE END. WTF MAN#so i drew this#it needed to happen#i love them so much they mean everything to me and i am so devastated because of them#i'm just so sad#ahsoka tano#anakin skywalker#star wars the clone wars#sw#digital art#star wars fanart#caccry art#GUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#if tumblr makes this blurry like my last post i'm rioting
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The only one condition, I've got the premonition, that Christmas is a vision!
HAPPY WINTERFEST!
#i LOVE christmas man#and i LOVE things with christmas adjacent holidays i can make fanart for#this drawn over the course of the most DEVASTATING dnd session#go listen to lumberjack christmas by sufjan stevens its WEIRDLY them. it gets kinda sad at the end and everything#this is unfortunately an impossible drawing. i usually love being a stickler abt canon for my rote fanart#but because of the time of year and the earring and the fools color this would be right before the bingtown embassy comes#and therefore right before the quarrels chap so#uhhh nvm dont worry abt it theyre cute theyre happy#ALSO. VERY HAPPY WITH HOW I MANAGED TO STYLIZE THAT GODDAMN EARRING#ROBIN HOBB (SHAKING FIST AT SKY) WHY DOES IT LOOK LIKE THAT ITS SO HARD TO DRAW#fitzloved#rote#realm of the elderlings#fitzchivalry farseer#the fool#beloved#rote liveblog#was thinking to myself “doesnt fitz actually kiss the fool on the forehead or smth during fool's fate? let me find that quick”#and then incurred psychic damage rereading the scene that happens in#yeah no way in hell is this non-soul-merged fitz kissing that man like this. but whatever its cute#estarriol mute this
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f,,faroe....
#faroe lester#malevolent#art#digital art#kept listening to faore's song while drawing her because i like making myself sad#faroe's*
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let me just start with....
the first word he ever heard from her with her real voice was "Baek SaEon"
the second word that she said to him was "가지마 (gajima) [don't go]"
how melancholic it is for the combine words to turns into a phrase "Baek SaEon, don't go." for someone who's life was never his since the beginning.
"did I asked for this life? stop shoving it down my throat. as I'm at the edge of throwing it all up."
"if i didn't act reckless, i have nowhere to hide. there is nowhere to hide except my back."
you don't talk about baek saeon being a red flag without understanding that he is a trauma on legs. the guy's whole life was built on lie. a lie that we currently don't know which way the writer will reveal to us. I'm not sure whether they will follow the webnovel route or their own route. from the way the story goes, maybe they'll went a different way from the webnovel regarding baek saeon's real identity.
please heejoo save this guy... you're his only salvation, the only one who can let him breathe.
"the only thing that can calm me down was the hand movement of a girl next door practicing sign language every night."
and him being protective over hee joo's hand was also because it is the same hands that always calms his down after his nightmares. the hands were precious to him probably more than she ever know.
#when the phone rings#makes me sad tonight#he was a wrecked waiting for her to regain consciousness#the whole episode was them hiding behind 406 because they both scared to face it#and they did face each other in the end#yoo yeon seok#drooling over him was definitely never in my list ever#but baek sa eon brings the yoo yeon seok that i never knew existed in him#he was just the funny and cute ajusshi that i like#now he is a dilf with sexy manly hands#ok i shall stop myself#because i had a kiss scene to rant next
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a … a gift from the talented @kruinka 🥹 thank you so much!! ദ്ദി ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ)
#🐦⬛🐕 .#彡 cherishing.#kruin …. !! you sent this a few days ago but i am still . reeling in . /pos because i cannot believe i am seeing moze ( and myself ?! ) in#your !!!! style !!! your !! adorable !!! and beautiful !! style !!! and there is a lot i have to say — i am in the chattiest mood despite my#sleepiness !! FIRST omg ): thank you ?! thank you !! THANK YOU !!! for being so kind to me and drawing out a sketch that i will treasure for#eternity really 😭 !! i will gaze at this whenever i wake up … gaze at it before i sleep …. gaze at it when im sad … when im happy ( to#amplify the happiness of course !! ) OOOOH KRUIN. kruin . words can absolutely NOT describe how much i love your style … i just cannot ?!#figure out how to put it in words ?? i can’t just say ‘i like how you do this’ ‘and this’ because it’s the literal entire thing that i love#aiwnendjdkke and ): before i get too deep into that — i must thank you another time kruin !! because i know you’ve been busy — and of#course you must be ?! im sure life becomes much more hectic during the holidays and new years like this — so i’m just so soft over the fact#that you spent time to do this for me and i :’) i really appreciate it from the bottom of my heart — i would like to say ‘you really didn’t#have to!!’ BECAUSE YOU DIDNT !!! YIU DIDNT NEED TO DO ANYTHING FOR ME — YOU DIDNT ): IM JUST SO SAPPY AND MUSHY THAT YOU CHOSE TO AND ):#and the background being pink . i love pink !!! i know exactly where this specific shade of pink will prosper ( give me a second .. when i#awake ) .. BUT OH )): thank you so much kruin … it means so much to me .. more than i could ever try to explain !!! BUT IS IT OKAY IF I TALK#ABOUT HOW YOU DREW MOZE BECAUSE . i’m dead on the floor -> x0x this is me because you made his cheeks SO squishy HIS SIGNATURE SQUISHABLE#LOOK . I WONDER HOW ARTISTS MAKE HIM LOOK SO SQUISHY ?? the squish technique ?? BECAUSE HE LOOKS SO CUTE SHJEJD ): KRUIN YOURE SUCH AN AWESO#ME ARTIST . SO TO BE ABLE TO SEE HIM IN YOUR STYLE ….. *thanks everyone for allowing me to have eyes* a wonderful day !! to have eyes !!! i#will actually risk disintegrating into evieparticles if i even so much as mention the blush on his cheeks so — instead . YOU GAVE HIM SUCH A#oh no . the look on his face T T kruin i don’t want to talk about it !!!!! but you — the look on his face !!!! must you draw him in such a#cute manner /pos i am starting to feel speechless trying to talk about how pretty he is in your style because . perhaps toopretty for me#to even make any type of comment ( instead — i sneak a glance and then turn away because if i stare too long …. IF I STARE TOO LONG .. *expl#explodes* ) kruin i think i will just cry seeing the level of detail you put into this ): like my hair ): i think i will just kneel in front#of you and cry and apologize over and over as i wipe my tears on my sleeve because my tears make it difficult to properly thank you /lh#the fact that there are sparkles T T the world is full of sparkles when mr shadow exists !!! a lovely . YOU KNOW WHAT . the sparkles are#there because KRUIN EXISTS . I LOVE YOU KRUIN. I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH ))): I DONT RVEN KNOW HOW TO DTART EXPRESSING MY GRATUTUDE#tldr - i am gobsmacked & staring at this for the next ( infinite amount of time ) thank you kruin !!! ): wishing you only the best .#aggressively wishing you only the best * aggressively turning to go O_O at anything that dares threaten a lovely day for you!!!!
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He's electric ⚡
#MANDATORY SUMMER COMEBACK HAKURYUU POST#Let's be honest this isn't my best work#Still#I like it <3#I MADE THE HAIR NO REFERENCE AND IN A MINUTE I FEEL SO PROUD OF MYSELF#I must tell everyone about that#inazuma eleven#inazuma eleven go#my art#ejhejjej I almos forgot about the tags#Eky makes backgrounds be scared#Hakuryuu#This guy really needs to get a surname#Gues s who's been listening an embarrassing amount to Oasis#(me!!!!)#Even though I made this with Gorillaz on the bg#It was this song what gave me the idea to make this drawing heheh#I MISSED TAG RANTING SO MUCH I'M HAVING MY MOMENT HERE#Hello tag veterans#I'm facing the truth that I don't know all the people in the tag anymore#That's sad because I really miss Inablr#Spotify
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One man's assumptions and the consequences of silence.
#ffxiv#sketch#zenos yae galvus#adventurer zenos#meteor survivor#or it hitting meteor all at once that adven!zenos has been working his ass off with no expectation of getting anything in return#>zenos: merely thinking hes just explaining himself after returning from a trip to the last dregs with an elpis flower#>meteor: having a full internal drk crisis in a matter of seconds#thinking of a scene like this makes me really sad#the thought of meteor desperately trying to figure out a way to show zenos that he accepts him by aggressively holding his hand makes it#a little better#also just for reference the flower colors are sorrow>acceptance>hope and friendship>joy#because I felt like giving myself emotional damage i suppose lol
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i have been a ball of depression lately as well as my physical health worsening pretty severly this past week due to stress and so my friends have been. trying so hard to get me to get out and do things and its very sweet but i feel bad because the whole time i’m just a total mess
#they say they dont mind but i need to really. stop#im stuck.#and i know it’s hard on my friends to see me like this since i’ve been doing a lot better and now am back to my old habits#but i felt bad because they took me out shopping and to dinner tonight and i just had a headache and was limping and couldnt stop talking#about the recent death in my family and all the stress from classes and socially and how lost i feel#and i just wanted so bad to just. enjoy myself but i couldnt#but my friends know about how severe my depression is and are all very used to it#its in fact more normal than not. but i was really. feeling at my best for several months so the crash back down to not eating and sleeping#and being unable to fully tidy my room and all that stuff has been. difficult for me as well as those around me#it’s been normal for me for so long to live terribly that taking care of myself for a while and then losing the drive to has been. hard#im trying to get better but i slide back down#i need to work on my constant self loathing but i keep walking around just. conviced im such a burden and being sad makes it even worse#i just. am always overcompensating for my lack of#ability to love myself with just. constantly showering everyone around me with love and its. hard for me when i dont have the energy to do#even that anymore. its hard to let people take care of me when i just want to take care of them all the time
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I think so much about wilde (rqg) post campaign humming as he does simple tasks sweeping the floor, washing dishes, brushing his hair that boy hums a silly tune as if he was casting ougggh he also did this during the timeskip and airship arc
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#do we think zolf sits watching wilde clean and grins like a idiot because wilde is humming#you know what this is my headcanon its a stim#ougggh#its 4am I'm putting myself to bed before I make up even more sad stuff#rqg wilde#rqg spoilers#rqg#eli madness
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