#yes i am autistic why do you ask?

[theceaselessidiot]

Eloise Bridgerton being an absolute mood:

and Cressida's reaction of 'this girl is so weird, but I'm into it??? Wait am I into this??'':

[dullahandyke]

post got long whoops. tldr autism plus unmedicated adhd equals media hellscape

have recently come to the realisation that ive had a complex about art consumption for a long long time, stemming from when i was a tween watching playthroughs and reviews and never playing or watching the stuff the reviews were based on. and some of that was because i was young and didnt have a computer to play danganronpa on, but i've been pirating shows as long as i've been on the internet, yet i never watched any of the anime all the youtubers talked about because it was safer and easier to listen to them talk about it and the culture than it was to ever have to seek out something i liked, to have to have my own thoughts about it. and that's followed me for at least 7 years at this point, and like, fuck, man, i wanna get out of that, but like, it's just so easy to sink into fanon. i don't watch youtube reviews anymore, but i've gotten into more than one fandom almost solely by reading a shitton of fanfiction about it. and i (former owner of yourfavehasfewerficsthanthislamp [eimear lore, veterans discount, etc]) am well aware that fanon near-universally flattens and disregards its characters and stories, saying 'fuck canon' and often for valid reason but rarely making anything better than it, but hell, it's just something to shove down my gob. it feels like easy reading, like i don't have to have my own big thoughts about symbolism and characterisation because someone else has done it for me, and it's shitty to treat fanfiction as inherantly less meaningful, but i do it anyway because it feels like the reading equivalent of having momma bird chew my food for me, and it makes me feel guilty but it keeps me fed! and i've found that a solution for this is to get into something that i've never seen anyone talk about, that nobody knows the Right Opinions for, and blade of the immortal has been wonderful for that! it's a good manga that's so long that it deters anyone from following me down the rabbit hole on a whim, and i like having my own little pit! but then i read another manga and i post about it and someone replies with an observation on the manga, and i think to myself, 'oh god', i think, 'now the neighbours are coming over and i have to clean the living room, i have to make sure my opinions are fully-formed and my appreciation is proper and there's not any mess', and even then there's a shitty bit that feels indignant because i liked to feel special, unique, like i was the only person that knew that manga and someone else has shattered that illusion, and i know i should be happy to share it but i never quite grew out of wanting to feel cool and obscure and like things were MINE. and the thing is that the more i read only fanfiction, the more i can literally feel my braincells dwindling, and i WANT to read something more substantial, because i know that if i pick up a novel or a manga or even the base material for the fic im reading, then i'll have fun and feel intelligent, but it feels like building myself up to opening that book is a chore that opening ao3 simply isnt. i've wanted to finished batman year one, i've wanted to read the hunchback of notre dame, but what i end up reading is a 33k batfam fic that i barely even read, that i only ever skim because slowing down and appreciating things and sitting with them, even just slowing down to actually read them, feels less like the direct hit of stimulus that skimming is. and so i've decided that the logical conclusion is to 1) get into media that i have never in my life seen on tumblr, that none of you fuckers could ask me about if you tried and 2) never ever post about it or search for community around it. to allow myself to read things wrong and to not have the pressure of feeling like there's someone over my back in all this, like i'm not in fandom or criticising fandom but just existing on my lonesome. potentially even to the point of going on break from tumblr for a bit, because i love you fuckers and this is a neutral statement but fandom is unavoidable on here. and i would for sure come back to tumblr and i would maybe come back to less obscure shit once i

hold on tumblr has a text block character limit. anyway once i built up more confidence in myself and didnt feel any pressure to have the right opinions about shit, even if i never engaged in fandom again but instead just kept up with some popular stuff, like an office worker who casually watches breaking bad or whatever. and this is really what i should be doing, and maybe not now because the leaving is in *checks watch* literally a month and a half oh fuck. and i need to focus my brainpower on that (lol as if thats gonna happen) but i cant make a concerted effort towards the leaving if im working on reforming my media habits. but even in the summer i could do it and i should do it, and cut back a little now to make it easier than going cold turkey.

which is why now was THE WORST POSSIBLE TIME to get into batman via take-a-fucking-guess ding-ding-ding fanfiction osmosis, something which is both 1) undeniably mainstream enough that the odds of me meeting people in real fucking life to ask me about my Correct Opinions are higher than i would like them to be and 2) a labyrinth thats been built over the course of like 80 years, out of comics and movies and shows and games and the comics alone are a mess of timelines and reboots and crossovers and whoops-this-character-is-in-this-comic-now-better-fuck-off-over-there-if-you-want-to-find-them that wreaks absolute HELL upon my 'i wanna be sooo well informed and read all the stuff and take no shortcuts' approach that kicks in whenever i DO start actually engaging in shit instead of just the fandom.

like sigh ill muddle through it because i picture dick grayson in motivational posters nowadays to help me do shit like get out of bed and climb stairs and take out my books, and i wanna return the favour, and like im getting closer 2 figuring out how to approach it (turns out the answer is 'one step at a time'. fucking shocker) but also fucking christ. idk idk idk ill go finish batman year one and then at some point ill watch the 2022 batman movie and then ill figure out where to go from there

[uberguber89]

You were warned....

Short version, "Good" and "Evil" are bullshit.

Long version under the cut

Alignment in Dungeons & Dragons, regardless of edition, has 3 distinct parts and purposes, and any discussion on the topic must take all 3 into account:

The FICTION of the world of Dungeons & Dragons: i.e. There are Elemental Planes tm of Law and chaos, as well as multiple Heavens and Hells

The RULES of the GAME Dungeons and Dragons: i.e. the variety of creatures with weakness/resistances to certain damage types (Law, Chaos, Good, Evil, Fire, Ice, etc)

A reflection of the real world philosophy(ies) that went intuition the creation of Dungeons&Dragons:

So, while I'm far from the first person to recognize the problems with the alignment system as it stands, all of the proposed solutions i have seen thus far have neglected one or more of the above aspects so have fallen flat for me.

The most common "fix" I've seen being abolishing alignment altogether. If that works for you and your table, that works for you and your table! But, imo, that fails to address Aspect 2 and arguably aspect 1.

My proposed solution: there are 8 primary Alignments that comprise the Prime Material Plane (a.k.a. the place most D&D campaigns happen); Law, Chaos, Fire, Water, Air, Earth, and my additions, Creation and Destruction as replacement for "Good" and "Evil"....

More in future reblog

Anyone: Hey (asks about a special interest of mine)? Me: Becomes an unskippable cutscene

[myrathefarmer]

Scar and Cleo being Workout Buddies for No Reason Other Than I Wanted Them To 🏋️‍♀️🏋️‍♂️

This is an old weeklong challenge I did wayyy before limited life, but it seems relevant now :D

[wigglys-dikrats]

i did something insane and made minecraft map art of the four pulp album covers !!!

the images on the left are a bird’s eye view, and the right are the actual maps :]

more than 52 hours of work and a total of 65,536 hand placed blocks all the while listening to pulp :D (a total of seven times heehoo)

shoutout to the folks at brp for keeping me motivated and sane while working on this the past week love y’all

(please do not copy the work or repost these images ty <3)

@pulpmusicals

[url-is-url]

Headcanon: Paulina likes/liked Winx Club (past or present tense depending on if you set your fic in the 00s or move it closer to the present) and her favorite character is Bloom because a) dragons cool and b) Bloom's temper and violent streak are relatable to her. (This is the girl who sucks at the cheer part of cheerleading and this fact is SO important to me.) Secretly, her inner child still wants to be a fairy princess when she grows up. After the events with Dorothea's amulet, Paulina's inner child is very willing to settle for being a dragon when she grows up.

However. Up until now, Paulina has been conditioned to believe that being NORMAL is the key to being a cool kid. And leaning into, say, some latent dragon-themed superpowers would be cool, but it would also be objectively weird and this does not compute. Insert existential crisis here!

[foolych]

I am cringe but I am free, I am cringe but I am free, I am cringe but I am free-

Before you shun me from society please allow me to explain!

I thought it would be absolutely hilarious if out of all of the brothers, Levi somehow ended up as a father and he’s just— so bad at it. He has no idea what he’s doing but hey, at least he’s trying. Then I somehow came up with this intense lore in my brain about how demon reproduction works (don’t ask) and then… I committed the greatest crime of all.

I made Levi a fanchild oc. I apologise for my actions.

Anyway, his name is Wormwood, aka Worm. I have… way too much lore about this whole idea, but I will keep it to myself unless someone out there is just dying to hear about the BABY LORE.

Here are some sketches I did. Yes, Worm is an absolute CREATURE right now, that ties in to the lore I made up.

[annt-i]

okok really showing how mentally ill I am, but my mom watches Big Brother (Reality competition show for those who don't know) and of course my brain immediately started formatting on what kind of contestants Alex Rider characters would be. so yeah,,, enjoy.

DISCLAIMER, I personally have never watched the show, so all I know is from what my mom mentions and what I walk past when I go through the living room. Also I am operating under the idea that these characters are participating in the show out of their own free will and not for a mission or w/e

Alex: Would likely be an audience fav and would go far in athletic competitions. His personality would appeal him to the other players as he seems trustworthy. I think he'd prob make it mid-late comp but would fall victim to house politics. Would always shout out his friends in the voting room. Fans would say shit like "Alex should have won"

Yassen: If he wasn't putting on a front, he probably wouldn't be very popular with the audience. The house guests would be iffy on him, but if he wanted to, he would be able to manipulate them into liking him/not voting him out. I could see him performing equally in the competitions,,, idk. the thing about Yassen is if he would even *want* to be there. I don't see him winning bc he'd let himself get voted out or something, bc we all know if he wanted to win, he prob would. Anyway, he'd likely get Head of Household at some point and people would be *pissed*.

Tom: He'd also be liked by the audience, and while I can see him getting far bc of likeability and athleticism, he wouldn't win. He'd be funny to witness doing the competition loss punishments and would likely have a short relationship with another house guest. He'd be on the chopping block like every other week and then be saved w the power of veto or smth. He'd be like that one guy a couple of seasons ago who made friendship braclets for his alliance members lmao.

John: He'd win.

Ian: Looks really promising, but gets kicked out too early for anyone to really tell (I'm sorry lmao). Good at the more logical side of the games, likely always between different alliances and getting through by the skin of his teeth.

Jack: Could not fathom how she would do. I don't think she'd win, prob mid game. I can see her always gossiping about other people, and there are lots of scenes where it's her whispering so you have to read the subtitles they put on the screen. She'd be in a secret inner circle but then some drama would happen and it would be disbanded.

Sabina: I see her making it to the last five or even winning. People would like to see her, and she'd probably make HOH a few times. She would be head of an alliance with a secret alliance in the middle of it.

These were the only ones I really thought about and I'm not very good at analyzing characters so like, do with this what you will.

[junebugtwin]

okay so fun fact about me: I like to sort things, I like to methodically go through lists things like that. I also love pokemon, and enjoy going down through every pokemon and assigning them to people- friends, coworkers, fictional characters ect. I knew this about myself. But what I did not know is that the urge to make 'fun little themed teams' can completely take over my body like I'm being possessed and I ended up spending hours today doing so.

And thus:

[elzurxa]

when you get this, list 5 songs you like to listen to, publish. then, send this ask to the last 10 people in your notifs (positivity is cool!!)

1. She Got Sunshine - Jacob Collier

2. Little Blue - Jacob Collier

3. It Don’t Matter - Jacob Collier

4. He Won’t Hold You - Jacob Collier

5. Bridge Over Troubled Water - Jacob Collier

[lloydfrontera]

i will never stop being confused about people saying og lloyd was maltreated. like. what the fuck are you talking about. it's not maltreatment if you verbally and physically abuse and harass the people around you and then people start avoiding you and talking shit about you. that is called Consequences Of Your Actions and it's literally the least og lloyd should've gotten for the shit he pulled. like. someone very well could have decided not to take his bullshit and beaten his ass easily at any point. but they didn't. no one ever fucking did. javier is the closest we ever get to that and it was one (1) punch to get him to stop destroying someone's home and business. show me where is the maltreatment. cite your sources. tell me where can i find it. if you're gonna say something with your whole chest please tell me you've at least read the source material and aren't just explaining your headcanons as if they're facts. show me the fucking receipts ajsdhksf

[actual-changeling]

begging people to learn the difference between mental illnesses and neurodevelopmental disorders. all the traits that are a direct product of my neurodevelopmental disorders are not symptoms. i cannot fix them. they will never go away. you won't ask someone with chronic migraines to just stop feeling pain, don't ask me to learn how to do things that my brain physically cannot do.

start supporting weird people, the freaks, the ones that are too loud or too quiet, the ones that don't fit in and don't talk or move or behave the way you think they should. stop trying to expect people to fit your mold of what someone should be like, your standards are all fine and dandy but disabled people will not be able to live up to them and we shouldn't have to to be respected

[shmowder]

you put anything in a cheap plastic cup with a straw and I'm draining it under 10 minutes. Juice, milk, tea, hell even yogurt, I'll slurp it up.

I tried to replicate this phenomenon with more sustainable containers, such as reusable plastic cups, metal ones and good ol'reliable mugs. Even exclusively drank all my liquids from a margarita glass for a whole week.

But the spark never lasts. It's not as enticing, and the thrill is practically gone. I don't know why or what makes the cheap take out plastic cups so special. Maybe my brain has been puppy trained to associate them with ordering drinks and therefore anything coming out of them must be liquid gold, even as my eyes stood witness to me filling it with tap water.

And I can't just hold one cup ransom, continue to wash and reuse it for eternity; they wither with every refill as the PETE type 1 plastic inside the little triangle stares me into the eyes while leaching toxic waste into my drink until the micro plastics inside my liver are graduated to macro.

I don't indulge in them as much as I want, but with the summer heat I started buying more ice packs and sometimes they come in a cute little cheap plastic cup with a straw for you to make a fun little drink with. Who am I to resist the temptation of fun little drinks?? I'd much rather have an eventful slightly pricey but memorable beverage with a pack of fast noodles for a meal than an actual nutritious or delicious meal.

Food is so tiring, the texture is weird and not all the parts taste the same. Completely unlike the always consistent in density and flavour drinks. You have to chew so much, and if you don't do it enough then you end up choking. Drinks are clearly superior.

[irusanw4]

Ey no yaknow what fuck you *shares the super niche ideas in my brain*

For clarity: Whole is from Chonny Jash. Slayer is from Slay the Princess. Funnily enough, both are fandom-inflicted titles. This post is about if they coexisted, I don't wanna say it every time I list another thought

So for setup, I'm imagining Whole moves into the adjacent apartment to Slayer and they meet bc they're both out buying groceries at the same time and one of em is like "chat what do we think" and then they realize they're "my head is full of The Voices" buddies

During the summer, Slayer overheats super easily so sometimes he'll just shave his feathers down so he looks like these scrunchy bastards

And this is incredibly embarrassing and also he sunburns easily so he always wears a light cloak in public during the summer. If it's just Kinda Hot but not proper summer time yet he wears a dress like the Princess's for airflow.

Whole wears a skirt and tank-crop top a la 20XX but in public he gets worried about the skirt flying up or sth so he wears insulating leggings and it's even worse than just dressing normally (this idea is courtesy of my sibling who kindly indulges my ceaseless chatter)

During the winter Slayer is a little radiator so when Whole is cold he sits beside Slayer and leans against him and Slayer will wrap his wings around Whole and continue working on whatever he was doing before.

Also Slayer hates knives, daggers, basically anything around the size and shape of the pristine blade. But he gets worried about Whole getting hurt when using sharp objects, so when the two of them do cook together, Slayer usually sits nearby and watches closely and Whole does the chopping or whatever requires the sharp object. They r best friends <3

They steal apples from the local orchard but they always forget Slayer can fly so they do the stacking procedure I drew recently and then they're usually just a little too low so Slayer flaps his wings for that last bit and they kinda just. Look at each other after the fact. And process that they did it AGAIN.

Sometimes for fun they'll wrestle and Slayer has a win streak in the thousands, much to Whole's frustration. When you consider all of the possible fights Slayer can get into, he's absolutely got some strength.

[thepalerimitation]

The greatest success of my art career was me making a sentient shape creature called Goobert that got round when he was calm and pointy when he was overstimulated.

[skullsnpineapples]

I theoretically understand why dating apps are the way they are but sometimes I see someone who has such an interesting piece of info in their bio and I don’t even necessarily want to date them I just want more information about this fun fact in their bio. I just want to be able to click a button that says “I understand if you aren’t interested in dating me but can I get some more info about your quest to tour every weird museum in the country”