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the end was very choisseung-seokryu-esque that it was satisfying. it was so mundane that just the way a light romcom drama should be. after all those "life is finite and death is inevitable" shenanigan, i was happy with how they pans out the ending for the main couple. their decision to have the wedding latter to wait for moeum and catch up with their dating life first. moeum was the biggest part of their life. she had seen them in all of their phase ignorance-denial-stupidly in love-dating, and to not have her in their wedding is unacceptable.

after all those cried I've shed for the past emotional-packed episodes, i am happy with how they end the story. i mean it could be better but I'm satisfied with how it ends. to have them fight and reconciled in 2 mins. just like how they have always been since chilhood. and the part when they walk through the neighbourhood while reminscing their childhood and teenage year. i would love to see them more in their teenage years. especially during their middle school because that was where i believe when they started realising their changes in physical and feelings. just a small wish.

but yeah the story ends with the 16th episode but it lives in our minds. thinking the possibility of their lives moving forward, as husband and wife, and later as mother and father to their children. but for now, it ends...

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sanjeok!!!!!!

omaigaddd just the way i want it. i was so angry and sad that seunghyo didn’t ate it the first time seokryu made it. it is always in the back of my mind. it was so regretful and i know that seunghyo felt the same too. he was confused at the time, he couldn’t control his feelings and emotion. so he pushed her away! i will always hate him for this. the food, it was the first korean food he ate and it was seokryu who made it happened *cries under the blanket*. and it was the first food she made after signing up for the cooking class, she wanted him to have it because of the memories but he didn't because he was being a total bitch. i was soooooo disappointed for that.

to get that as a proposal from seokryu is finally what i need from this show. yes seunghyo is good with his heartfelt confession and she is awkward with heartfelt confession and her reply to his was always short of something. i knew that seokryu love language is act of service but it always felt "not right" for the lack of better word. but to have seen it when we needed it the most! i was super glad.

it doesn’t have to be a grand declaration like what seunghyo always did but we as a viewer wanted the balance in their relationship. she has always been the one supporting him all these while but it was under her conscious mind that she had always loved him too. while seunghyo realised that early, she had belated realisation of her feelings for him. but even after they confess their love to each other, seokryu was more reserved in her love declaration while seunghyo is always open with his feelings.

finally, to have her return the gesture with her own love language is just the perfect balance that i have always waited for their relationship. in her own language, with her reference for food. as what she confessed to him the first time in that pretty sunflower field. seokryu has never been a poet and i don't expect her to be one. just wanted to see and know that seunghyo is loved by her too.

and the sanjeok/rainbow skewers is the perfect proposal and love declaration for him. it represent their relationship as a whole.

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it was such a thoughtful gesture that seungyo propose with a bracelet instead of a ring. she likes to cook and if he gave her a ring, she would have to keep taking off the ring when she is cooking especially if she wants to be a chef.

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i can only hope that I'm overthinking it and it was just nothing but a girl is anxious and her imagination is running wild

now, even the drama title makes me anxious

엄마친구아들 - mom friend's son

the way they always change each episode’s title to fit the theme, they must've prepared one for the drama's title as well

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It did feel a little fast and I love his heartfelt confessions but man we're getting Jane Austen level confessions SO many times from him and basically nothing from Seokryu. I thought in the second half we'd get more balance and see her actually show and say she cares about just as much but it's always just him and all we get from her is "me too". Something kept feeling really off to me and I think this is it it's not so much a story about their love as it is a story about his love for her...

ikr. that man had written a whole poetry for her but all we get from her is a dry response. like when are we getting seokryu POV if she said that she might have love him first. show the man more love. seokryu was all of his life but we can't even see half of it from seokryu.

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born to be a troll

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now, even the drama title makes me anxious

엄마친구아들 - mom friend's son

the way they always change each episode’s title to fit the theme, they must've prepared one for the drama's title as well

불안해 미칠것같아

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that some crazy rollercoaster episode. seunghyo and his unluckiest day ever was hilarious. i knew that the writing would go exactly this way. seokryu had mentioned previously about her health issue and how it will always be in the back of her mind. I'm just content that seunghyo was able to tell her that life is finite and everyone will face death with or without preparation. he experienced it when he had the accident and he had seen his life flashed before his eyes.

no one can ever predict what will happen in the future. our life is not written by us, and we can't see a preview of what will happen to us. the fact that seunghyo knew that and he just wanted to live with her even for just one day please enough talking about death, it really scares the shit out of me. they implying it too much, don't die on me seokryu or seunghyo. my instinct is telling me that seunghyo will

it kinda feels a bit rushed for today's episode. the way seunghyo and seokryu deliver their dialogue when they had a heart to heart talk about the proposal. it seems rushed idk whether it was just me but i feel like the pace was slightly faster than usual. it's probably one of the least fav episode for me. so that's why i had less thing to rant about about my fav couple.

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the hugs

the shaky intake of breath

the way they both were holding on to each other. hanging to the last thread to not break down and sobbing

but I'm the one sobbing for them

and seowoo is crying for him without a sound. for his sadness. for his grief. for his lost. for he can’t cry and hasn’t cry for the longest time

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do you know how hard it is to hold back my tears for seunghyo's confession to seokryu in the ending scene. he was so overwhelmed with her love. i think it will always be like this with him when she said i love you to him. he will need more of that until it finally ingrained in his mind and soul that yes she loves him and will continue to do so in the future and is no longer just a far-fetched dream.

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hah!!!!!!!!!!!! this is the moment where i told you soooooo. i just knew it they had to choose the most suspicious word from danho to asked for yeondu

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that relief sigh when seunghyo finally said his honest thought to seokryu just the perfect moment for this episode. he was frustrated and mostly hurt because he feels that seokryu didn't consider him at all before having the thought to go back to america. we can all agree that he probably having the hardest time when she had to go there the first time. because he already loves her at that time, but the way seokryu said that it's not easy for her as well and i just LOVE how they communicate properly and being honest to each other.

they argue with each other calmly and trying to understand it. seunghyo express his feeling and being honest that although he doesn't agree with hiding their relationship, he tried to understand it from her POV. but when he found out that she was researching about cooking school in america (that was suggested by her ex-fiancee) of course he would feel hurt and angry. they had just started dating and it was not easy especially for him to change their status from friend to lover. some might argue that she has full authority for her own future and seunghyo can't stop her from that. I'll just call that B.S. we are talking about the guy who had always follows her decision and tried to understand her and waits until she reciprocate his feeling in her own time. you can't do this to him, NOT HIM. go mad at someone else.

anyway....

and seokryu. instead of running away like how she always did, she told him the truth. that she feels like she is not good enough for him and eventhough he told her that he loves her not because of her achievement, she can't be satisfied with that. she had always been the best and after experiencing failure, she can't handle it. that's why she felt inferior. she wanted to stand proudly next to her boyfriend, but except from her bright and shining past, she had nothing else to be proud off in the moment.

the whole conversation was so wholesome eventhough makes my heart's ache for them. i just love seeing how healthy it is to just be honest and argue while calmly expressing their own thought and feeling

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i just feel kinda nervous that they kept mentioning death, mourning and already a few scenes of visiting cemetery. its like they're hinting us that there will be a death towards the end. just like how this same writer killed off gam-ri halmeoni in homcha. i just hope its not seokryu because i can't imagine what will happen to seunghyo if that happens.

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i just rewatch the scene when seunghyo gave seokryu his gold medal. damnnnnnnnn!!!!!

i just realised that she was going to get a new handphone if she nailed the mock exam. the same handphone that cause her to runaway from home albeit short-lived.

omaigaddd... no wonder she is the only girl for him. she went to support him wholeheartedly and she had no regrets for that. she might not reciprocate his feeling for the longest time, but she gave him more than that. she gave him everything that she can and anything that she has just to be there for him. she is selfless like that and the more reason for seunghyo to love her.

"when i look at the girl who skipped her exam to watch my tournament that even my parents didn’t come, i realised that since the first time i met bae seokryu, there has never been a moment where i didn’t like her." hits harder after getting the whole timeline.

each time i connect the dots of scenes from the drama, the more I'm amazed at their character. how they have cared for each other long before they even realised their feelings.

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that's what happen when you do bad deeds 🫣

dumb and dumber fr the shirt is buttoned wrongly 🩷

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honestly tho, when you grow up with moeum and seokryu. is there anything they haven't done yet? this is just another normal day for him. nothing ever fazed him anymore.

Seung*same shit different day*Hyo Face

He's accepted his fate he's done he's unbothered he's not surprised anymore

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Scene: friends don't kiss each other or also Choi Seunghyo being smitten and being wrap around Seok-ryu's little finger

he can’t hide his smile after the kiss. he was giddy and on cloud nine. at this point he can still function and think normally around her. he can still tease her like any other normal day. because Seok-ryu being flustered and shy was not something he always see before this. so he is fine at this moment.

he had the biggest smile on his face when he knew that she had tried to find him like a "debt collector". imagine how happy it is for someone that has always been waiting for his crush to finally noticed him and finally reciprocate his feeling, to receive the attention from the love of his life. the guy was genuinely happy that his smile makes us smile and warm inside.

the way he immediately ignore na-yun's ridiculous comeback for "it's sunbae that i like," by being nonchalant about it but also knew that it was inappropriate but to handle na-yun at that moment is not the time nor place for that. and i can see that he was scared if Seok-ryu might misunderstood that. he wanted this to happens for years and to have it crushed because of this immature girl? na-yun has been getting on my nerve since the beginning. she is so childish that seunghyo had not address this earlier because it seems harmless to him at first but when he has something that he wants to protect, it's time for him to take action. but his nervous expression when he feels that seokryu is uncomfortable and irritated with na-yun's comments had my heart's ache for a bit.

i know he felt vulnerable when na-yun and tae hui seems like the barrier between him and seokryu. i can feel his insecurity of his new relationship with seokryu. maybe they will have conflict for that if the writer decides to delve on it and honestly i would love to see it. so that he can be assured that she is not going anywhere so he need not worried and stop walking as if he is on a thin ice. because it was very obvious from seunghyo. their relationship is so fragile to him that he scared that it will break.

and i understand him so much that i want to give him a hug.

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look at his weird sitting posture. i wonder how chaotic it will be in the morning when they slept in before realising that the parents will be back very soon. i mean, dude....