colebegins
i haven’t met all of me yet
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˗ˏˋ COLE ˎˊ˗he/she • 20s • queertracking #tusercolemy art
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colebegins · 5 hours ago
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below the cut is various icons of Evan Buckley from 911 in a hat
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colebegins · 6 hours ago
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nobody should feel the way you feel right now. soon, you will be home, it will pass like a bad-weather front.
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colebegins · 7 hours ago
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because you were there, holding my hand.
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colebegins · 7 hours ago
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[talking about my favorite characters] okay so THESE two come in a bonded pair and if i think about them too hard i start taking poison damage
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colebegins · 8 hours ago
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colebegins · 8 hours ago
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i thought you would be happy with buck getting his oh moment and realizing his feelings for eddie but i guess you really were sucked into the bucktommy fanon created huh. Shame that you won't be able to enjoy canon buddie when it happens.
This is the only message I am going to answer about this specifically since I initially brought the topic up on my blog.
So, first of all, by definition, BuckTommy isn't fanon. Fanon is a ship or character that is completely generated by fandom. Buddie, for example, is fanon. Although they share a strong platonic bond, their relationship is not textually romantic. They do not kiss. They are not textually established romantic partners. Eddie said in the last episode that he is straight. So Buddie only exists within a fandom context. Conversely, BuckTommy is established as canon. Buck has touched mouths with that man on-screen. They were established as boyfriends and, now, ex-boyfriends. So it is, quite literally, impossible for BuckTommy to be fanon, even if fans do extrapolate, embellish, or reconstruct that relationship for their own pleasure. So, that's number one.
Number Two: According to this fandom, Buck and Eddie have had their oh moments a combined total of six times now at least (3x15, 3x03, 4x13, and 5x11, to name a few) and absolutely nothing concrete has come out of these events. The shooting is the closest we ever got, and that was four seasons ago. I don't begrudge anyone for reading that moment at the end of tonight's episode within a romantic Buddie context. Go absolutely nuts and have fun with it. But to me, that moment, such as it was, was more of the same - Buck or Eddie look at each other a certain way, or have evident (non-romantic) feelings related to the other, fandom loses their minds, they speculate, convince themselves they're right, nothing happens, rinse and repeat. I'm personally tired of the spin cycle.
I said I wanted strides toward Buddie canon to be made crystal clear and that's still true. You clearly see things differently (and that's alright), but outside the Buddie fanfiction hivemind, tonight's episode was not crystal clear. There was no discussion of Buck's feelings. He didn't vent them to Maddie or Bobby or Eddie himself. He didn't say, out loud, or indicate in any explicitly romantic way that he has feelings for Eddie. Buck having feelings about Eddie leaving is not the same as having feelings for him. They are best friends. They are family, actually. If Eddie leaves, Buck is losing the anchor to his support system and his (pseudo-)son. That's a big deal. That is an extraordinary weight to carry, especially on the heels of a significant breakup, and especially while dealing with abandonment issues. There was nothing romantic about that and, reducing that moment to a romantic reading, seems... odd. To me.
I'd like to think I'd still be able to enjoy Canon Buddie if it happens tbh. I actively write fic about those two in my spare time even though I keep my conversations about them to the DMs. But if I'm not able to enjoy it, it won't be because of the ship itself, it will be because I finally tired of the abject cruelty that's cropped up in this space. There's this unspoken rule in fandom that what happens during hiatus stays in hiatus, and we all just silently agree to move on from it when the show comes back. But I'm having a hard time with that this year because I've seen and experienced some absolutely insane things from this fandom the last few months that have stuck with me. So. Maybe I won't still enjoy it, but I hope I will.
I was really angry with the (non-Buddie related) content of this episode when you messaged me, so you probably thought or hoped I would bitch and curse you out, and we'd do this whole back and forth thing that would inevitably lead to you getting blocked. But I meant what I said - I have no interest in arguing with anyone about this show. We're not going to agree, and that's okay. I'm not your inspirational Buddie Warrior, and that's also okay. I have too much to deal with than to actively engage in internet beef. What is is what is, whether you or I or both or neither of us like it, and arguing about it isn't going to change it. So we might as will just learn to live with it and each other as best as we can.
I'm going to go watch TV now.
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colebegins · 8 hours ago
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I feel like some sort of creepy old man replying 2 my mutuals selfies. wow... ur so beautiful.... I could build u a house...
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colebegins · 9 hours ago
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#puppy play
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colebegins · 9 hours ago
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*through gritted teeth* big heartbreak is indicative of big love and love is the meaning of life
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colebegins · 9 hours ago
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Is anyone else ever genuinely shocked when you find out you have an impact on someone’s life? A coworker can be like “I’ve missed seeing you” and I’m just like “???? you?? missed me????? My presence has an effect on your daily experience???? I affect things??? W h a t ? ? ?”
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colebegins · 9 hours ago
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A Character Analysis
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colebegins · 9 hours ago
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My love, you could never be too much. I can hardly get enough of you
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colebegins · 9 hours ago
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↳ 8.08 bucktommy crumbs you ever been so down bad for a man you have to hit up your bestie for flour?
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colebegins · 9 hours ago
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I need to know more homebody homos irl cause I wanna be gay with someone but don't want to go out 😭😭
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colebegins · 9 hours ago
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im a new person dorkydiaz -> imtheiliad <3
911 will return to my blog come the new year probably, and mug eddie shall return in march :)
tagging some moots <3
@reginamillls @jewishrizahawkeye @hippolotamus @singlethread @colebegins @swiftiefirefighters @wolffnichols @theyarnmaidstale @tommyscurls @shortnsweetgf
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colebegins · 9 hours ago
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is anyone else disgusted by the enormity of their desire or is it just me & richard siken
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colebegins · 9 hours ago
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do u know what pisses me off? a lot of things where do i start
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