#bad autism

[pixierainbows]

Pixie give up . Autism people too angry refuse to stop say “going nonverbal” . refuse to listen … and Pixie just . Can not any more . Crying so much upset so much nobody care at all … just How very very different is to never be able speak … not AT ALL same as losing Mouth words sometimes .

pixie all done being talked over and ignored and yelled at and told go kill pixie self … pixie WISH could just stop exist …

pixie ALL DONE .

from now on . People who miss use actually nonverbal words, Pixie just BLOCK . not care If mean Pixie not welcome in autism community anymore , Pixie never been welcome by community pixie Never welcome by speaking autism people anyway .

is no safe place for Pixie . :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

[miss-multi45]

the angst is too good its just what I need rn

Delta who never felt at home in their own body

Delta who looked up to Omega and wanted to be like him

Delta who goes through an elemental shift

Delta whos body cant keep up with the rapid changes and intense magic

Delta who constantly feels fatigued and foggy brained

Delta who is noticeably deteriorating

Delta who constantly gets into arguments with Omega and Alpha now

Delta who doesn't feel at home in their own body and now in their own family

Delta who feels regret for what they did to themself not for how it is effecting them but for how its effecting his pack

Delta who spends hour-less nights in the archives

Delta who takes notes and journals about his experiences

Delta who wants to go home to the hellish seas

Delta who becomes more and more absent during the day, hidden away in the archives with their nose in book after book

Delta who becomes lighter by the day, the quintessence trapped in their body eating its way out

Delta who doesn't emerge from the archives for days on end

A pack who ventures down to their packmates favorite place

A fire ghoul who is baffled when the archivists say Delta is not down here

A quintessence ghoul with dread and guilt building in his stomach

A family who has to come to terms with the fact they could not help while their other half wasted away

A cold, dark library forever reeking of quintessence and sorrow

[scionsthings]

Rewatching Arcane

[cozymodeonpoint]

senshi fans: learning how to make nutritious meals for themselves

laios fans: down bad

marcille fans: lesbianism

chilchuck fans: putting that man in situations

[serial-unaliver]

screaming

[seasicksilver]

reading the Iliad is an experience

[fixing-bad-posts]

😂 be autistic today 👍

[3liza]

House MD depicts an autistic who has gotten insanely good at reading people and is just in too much pain to use it for social engineering much beyond his weird little pranks and machinations. my dad is this type of autist, i think of it as the Frasier Crane type as opposed to the Star Trek type. you know. capable of being jocular, jovial, charming, even seductive, but it requires so much bandwidth its still extremely taxing. i have been telling you on this blog for ten years that it is in your best interests to become jocular. it will stun you how much better you are at reading people than the majority of neurotypicals. there's no reason for them to get good at it when they dont even know what there is to get good at. microexpressions are real and i can see them

[pixierainbows]

what's your favorite part of animal crossing?

Everybody like Pixie and want is friends with Pixie ! is very very not-like in-person people who mostly not like pixie .

And ! Pixie can play with no help ! most other games get too complicated for Pixie to play alone …

[pixierainbows]

Pixie really having hard time, watching the children grow up and accomplish so many things … That Pixie can never learn no matter how much hard work pixie try in learning …

Having to say . sorry Pixie not can help with school work , Pixie not smart enough to help Pixies family's children any more . (especially math home work )

is right , is not at all fun .

People don’t realize just the sheer mental toll it has on you to see abled and allistic people doing things that you can’t do.

Oh nice, you have a new job? I haven’t worked for years due to my disability and maybe never will.

Oh nice, you’re moving into a new apartment independently? Sounds fun, I probably never will be able to live on my own.

The utter strain all of this puts on someone’s mental health is HARD. Being higher support needs isn’t all sunshine and rainbows folks. It isn’t fun to not be independent, to rely on others just to fucking do simple things. It’s hard, it hurts. It isn’t fun to have every aspect of your life controlled by others. It isn’t fun to be doing things that your 14 year old sister has already excelled at. It isn’t fun.

I will never ever understand people who think that being higher support needs is easy and all rainbows because we usually don’t work and “get everything handed to us” like please. Just listen to us once and awhile.

[bugtoast]

y'all don't understand how long i've been waiting for more canon content of these two being friends......... this is so big for me you don't get it.............. you don't understand................

[technicallyneon]

hello dunmeshi tumblr. is this anything? i don’t know but here it is anyway

[eggings]

happy disability pride month to anyone who has a disability from a condition that “usually isn’t a disability”. happy disability pride month to people with disabilities that aren’t often understood by able-bodied people. happy disability pride month to people who don’t have any official diagnosis yet. happy disability to people whose “labs look completely fine”. wishing you peace this july.

[genderjuicee]

hate when ppl only view being autistic/adhd/neurodivergent as a bad thing

bc yes i will have a breakdown if it is to loud or a noise is to high

but also the other day i listened to a song and it triggered the happy chemicals and spent thirty minutes jumping around my room and spinning and stimming and it was literally the happiest ive ever been in years

[1800-lemon-boy]

I’ve seen a few headcanons (especially in fics) that Will solace actually is naturally brunette but when he was claimed by Apollo his hair turned blonde (weither it’s over time due to sun bleaching or straight away).

And I just wanted to say I love this so much purely because of how heartbreaking some of the implications can be. 🤗

It’s never happened to any Apollo campers before, Will doesn’t know why it had to happen to him, his one sense of normalcy taken away so quickly, his one connection to his previous life- gone.

Will starts to pick up quite quickly he’s not like his other siblings, he’s can’t write and is average at archery. But he can heal, better than anyone else can.

He was different from the start, he was claimed differently, and his gift was different too.

And while still struggling with what to do, at the ripe age of 12 he’s now in charge of a cabin full of kids younger than him, because he was the oldest to survive.

Just imagine how the plague powers would also affect him. Apollo himself said that it seemed Will had gained all of his good qualities and none of his bad.

How would this 15 year old feel that the same hands that can heal can cause harm?

<33

[barkingwolfdog]

does anyone else feel like a coyote or wolf but like. a forcibly domesticated one. i like pets but im still liable to bite yk. domesticated but still a little off like hey i think the other dogs know i don’t belong at this park