#bUT I DON'T LIKE IT

[numbersareimaginary]

Oh good the voice dysphoria is back in force

[charongess]

She Said No, 2023

[sleepingnova]

Beautiful Things, A Peter Parker Thought.

Peter parker brainrot because I love him sm :( I didn't want to envision Tony dead only because I just rewatched endgame and I hated it again. I normally ignore the timeline and pretend that everything after Age of Ultron never happened just because I like my happy place. But alas :(, Tony being dead here makes sense. This just me talking through Peter. :)

As New York City’s friendly neighborhood spider-man, Peter realizes just how fast a life can be spared or taken away from someone.

He’s seen it countless times, enough to permanently stain his brain and his dreams. After seeing someone die for the first time as Spider-Man, he went to church the next day, for the first time in years. He prayed, genuinely, to whoever he thought was there to hear his inner thoughts, not for himself, but for the sake of the people around him. He was never really a religious kid, but he was raised in an actively worshiping household.

That night, as he lay in bed, he couldn’t shake the pit in his stomach, tossing and turning around in his bed. He shot up with a cold sweat, taking in gulps of the cold air in his room to calm himself down. As he tries to remember who or what he saw in his dream, he pauses. Surely this wasn’t some sort of spiritual awakening, right? As the days went by, turning into months, he realized just how much he was missing with the newfound sense of warmth in his chest. He thinks about his friends, his family, both dead and still alive, and the people he’s yet to meet. For the first time in his sixteen years, he’s truly aware of the impact his “night-time” job actually has on people. The split-second decisions he makes, how they determine whether the person he’s saving gets to see their family again or how they get to breathe and experience everything again.

He knows that death is a part of the circle of life, he just wishes it didn’t have to be so...unjust or heart-wrenching. But for now, as he takes his dog out for a walk (that his landlord doesn’t know he has), he glances up at the moon and stars around him, wondering how the hell he missed this. That feeling of peace and pure contentment with his life. Sure, he’s still broke, but he has good people in his corner. As he goes to bed that night, he shoots Tony a text, simply just saying: “miss you. Earth will always remember her greatest defender, and so will I.” 

Pepper kept Tony’s phone and saw the message before she went to bed, smiling softly at her late husband’s mentee, knowing that as long as human goodness existed, everything was going to be okay.

[blugnettabutterflies]

Gonta Gokuhara week Day 5: Trust / Self-esteem

It's a matter of trust. Trust that your friends will do the right thing. Trust that your friends will tell you the entire story. Trust that your friends will stop when you are about to cry your eyes out because you don't understand how this happened. Why did you grab the item? Why you did what you did. Why did you do such a horrible thing, what pushed you so far.

You better trust someone else when you can't trust yourself any longer.

@gontagokuhara-week

[arthallea]

recovering from trauma feels a lot like sometimes having a huge gnarly monster with large teeth next to you trying to bite at everyone around you and having to keep them on a tight leash and you gotta remind them that you appreciate the protection and know why you need it, but you can't let them bite anyone and have to grapple the monster the whole time you're having a conversation

[heretherebedork]

Damn, the show make me want to rescue Peem already and I think I'm supposed to think Phum is playful and I'm not, I just kind of want to smack him. Sigh, rich kid assholes gonna rich kid asshole until they meet their poorer counterpart who teaches them how to show love.

(I know, I know, it's lighthearted and comedic and I still want to rescue him and give Phum a whack upside the head and send him back in with a better attitude.)

[bibannana]

Echo *munching on a meiloorun*: I wish I had a knife to cut this all up.

Fives *shrugs*: I don't see why you need a knife for it.

Echo *face scrunched*: To cut it into smaller pieces.

Fives *rolls his eyes*: Uh that's why we have teeth?? Portable mouth shredders.

Echo *bland look*: Don't you ever call teeth portable mouth shredders again.

[apileofashandember]

really wish the thought of reading something didn't make me wanna fall asleep right now

[wanderingmind867]

I keep wanting to make posts, but I kept forgetting to make them. I also keep forgetting what I want to say, each time i go to make a post. Also, I kind of feel over tired or something. I've been awake for a few hours, but I still feel exhausted and tired. I don't like this feeling too much, but I'll make do. And maybe later I'll finally be alert enough to remember what i want to say and post about it later.

[aparticularbandit]

i'm starting to wonder if this is another thing that tumblr is testing out - the removal of your own posts from the dash - kind of like how they removed the activity feed updates from the dash and how they removed your own interactions with your posts from your activity feed.

if it is, i don't like it.

[killerchickadee]

The crane cam is currently zoomed in on an injured crane and two juvenile bald eagles sitting a few feet away looking for a meal.

I'm like, circle of life etc but I do NOT want to see this. Healthy ecosystems etc etc but there's a reason I don't like birds of prey.

[tearlessrain]

ironically it was randomly 80 degrees today and I feel like a polar bear languishing in a florida roadside zoo

[kyuutekyu]

[daedricly]

[exiled-on-mainline]

i'm a little surprised that no one cares abt the barbie girl remix in barbie... mattel SUED aqua for that song which lead to them BREAKING UP, said they weren't gonna use the song bc why would they, then remixed it into a shitty backtrack for mid rap :|