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napping-sapphic · 3 months ago

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god im going to be such a handful to someone some day @ anyone who decides to love me in the future im so sorry im like this thank u for liking me anyway oh my god

#im a mess #im a MESSSSS #awful horrible mess #who wants to love me anyway #so dumb my brains like ‘ooohhh you don’t deserve to be loved blah blah blah’#like bitch shut UP i want to be loved anyway #like #i want someone to say they love me regardless do you understand #regardless regardless REGARDLESS #of ALL of it #love me anyway please #id love you SO much in return oh my god #sorry it’s 4am again and the yearning is overpowering the self loathing for once and im feeling a little crazy about it #😤#ignore me

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floofery · 9 months ago

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Eventually, everyone leaves.

...do I drive them away?

Some birthday art for Basil... angst .... yummy

Bonus:

Pov its ur 17th but your ever-present guilt that follows u wherever you go is still haunting you

Another version:

some speculation in tags!

#omori #omori game #omori basil #omori fanart #omori art #omori sunny #omori kel #omori aubrey #basil omori #I headcanon that hed feel like . this awful guilt from sunnys eye that #weighs over his shoulders ever time he sees Sunny #“you did it” poster but its arrows pointing to the glass eye #and aubrey sometimes turns into this. horrible mess of a monster ect from . the bullying #kel simply a smile when basil looks at him because thats all he was for four years #thank you for coming to my ted talk #my art

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junkangelic · 3 days ago

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can i write a super super super ultra angstified fucked up teenage twinyards fic or. should i keep it in my head. and write the less fucked up version. i need answers please

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lunian · 1 year ago

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I can't (actually very much can) believe I'm that person who prefers this:

over this:

#my friend doesnt understand me lmaooo #anyways its still fun to get just both messes of silly men #and wyll is there too but damn its too short pls let him be horrible flirt too #bg3 spoilers #baldur's gate #mystuff #gale is just sad there all the time aw man pls lets get lost in a weave or somethin #gale romance #astarion romance

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karaspal · 4 months ago

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don’t be fooled by my undying love for kara danvers, i hated like, half of the decisions the writers made regarding the show’s lore. i find kara to be one for the few characters who actually got better as the show progressed (which is how character development works). she started out more shy and grew into a confident, capable and a well-respected woman. she made some real change and helped a lot of people outside of her superhero suit. the show had a great balance between kara danvers and supergirl. my love is for her story and character development, and her story and character development only. oh, and alex and j’onn! they were pretty neat too!

#i love everything about kara danvers and her story and that’s about almost all i like about the show lol #obviously there are other things i like but kara is the main MAIN #supergirl #kara danvers #nia kelly and will we’re actually pretty neat too #were*#but they didn’t get enough development imo and deserved more screen time #i liked andre too but she’s in the same boat the other three #andrea*#guys sorry but i literally hated the deo #and so did kara lol she was so sick of it #she was literally glowing once j’onn and alex left #and she didn’t have to go there just so she could work with her family #shoutout to that old man who destroyed it #i also hated cat grant and catco during her time as a ceo #literally everyone after her was a better ceo #catco in s4 and s5 was PEAK #honestly cbs!supergirl was awful all around #and the rest of the show was spent fixing their mistakes #i’m actually a cbs!supergirl hater #when i say i like the show #i mean the cw one #and up till the end of s5 #but then again i don’t mess with s6 so #well 6x01 - 6x07 was fine #but anything else was like horrible and i don’t acknowledge it as canon and a part of the story

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eponadolls · 5 months ago

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Monster High: Skulltimate Secrets 5, "Garden Mysteries"

Okay, I'll admit it: Mattel may have finally gotten me to buy all of the dolls in a particular series, LOL.

I really hope none of them have poly hair, though. (tl;dr poly hair WILL eventually degrade, probably in 10-20 years. Yay microplastics!)

This does mean I'll have my... forth g3 Draculaura doll, though. That doll shelf is getting pretty damn pink.

#it'd be pinker but unfortunately I will be returning my lagoona doll #since wallyworld decided to send me one with messed up lips #still sad abbey was cursed with poly hair :(#poly doll hair is awful and WILL eventually degrade horribly #monster high #dollblr #doll collector

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hawnks · 1 year ago

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I have a soft spot for jealous leads, mcs who aren’t charming or well liked, or even necessarily nice. I bet on losing dogs type characters. Rat girls and losers. More of that in stories, please <3

#this is where ttp is heading I think #Kellan is like……#he has SO many issues #he literally let someone amputate all his limbs so they would like him more #and he obviously NOT well adjusted about his rejection sensitivity #outwardly he is so charming and almost docile; he’ll give anyone anything they ask for as long as they give him affection #but inside he’s a mess #Ada too #she is like full throttle chaos by the time chapter two hits #she USED to be sweet and kind and she still understands how to PRETEND to be that way #and she knows how to use her ditzy appearance to get what she wants #but she threatens to stab the man holding her boat hostage #she thinks about pushing several people overboard #she lets someone else take the fall for her petty thievery #their sense of right and wrong is so warped and it takes them meeting each other to remember how to be human #sorry I have to talk about them or I will explode <3 #they are my horrible little rat children I love them so much and they are awful #squawk tag

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ceruleanterrapin · 2 months ago

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All I have to say is "It's that time of year again" and my family starts fortifying the lair

#I get HORRIBLE allergies #We have to stock up on boxes and boxes of tissues solely for me each year #And my room becomes an awful mess #My snout is constantly red and I feel like I'm permanently sick for months #I'm not having a good time #➼ Blue turtle inner workings

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feelo-fick · 1 year ago

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*loud stomping noises in the distance*

YOO DOO DOODU DOO DOO DOO

#HFHRHFHF...F..FF.#I WILL RIP HIM APART BUT IN AN AFFECTIONATE WAY #also i suffered through this because i hate orange and i kept messing with the pallete trying to make me not hate it #GRGRGRGRGGRGGRGR #CHOMP.#hes terrible awful horrible i love him hes just like me fr #also im not tagging this properly because i will die of cring.e and no one is allowed to look at me

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britneyshakespeare · 5 months ago

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i cannot be judged to give an accurate review of wisdom teeth extraction surgery because i was going to be panicked anyway, right? i'm not as sensitive to anesthesia as i wish i were, and oral pain has been some of the most intense pain i've ever experienced in my life (these experiences are common in natural redheads), and i was super anxious and unwilling to do this anyway. but. BUT. one thing i can say about that particular office that did mine this morning is. i have a particular allergy to a specific medication i was prescribed once via intravenous injection when i was 9. it gave me hives. i discontinued usage of it after a couple weeks. whenever i have to fill out any medical paper work since 2008 i have known the name of this medication and been prompt with informing correctly about it. and it is not a painkiller. but. they didn't tell me this after my paperwork, or during my consultation appointment, only AFTER i started crying half-consciously during the surgery when i was aware of my teeth being pulled and instruments being moved around in my mouth. only after the surgery did they tell my mom "yeah we didn't give her the painkiller because of her allergy to (specific medication)" and like. that's not really fun

#i'm still in pain but this morning during and immediately after the surgery i was awful #it was every bit as nightmarish as i feared the experience was going to be #i was aware; everything was just black. i could hear and feel everything i just couldn't move #i was moaning almost certainly bc i heard one of the ppl say 'aw why are you crying?'#i dont know if i actually said 'stop' allowed at any point but i was thinking it multiple times #the whole damn evening and early morning leading up to that i just kept thinking fuck it ive gotta get out of here #tales from diana #technically i didnt NEED my wisdom teeth removed like all that badly. they weren't in danger of rupturing #i think the biggest danger mentioned was one of my back lower wisdom teeth was sat particularly on a nerve #that could've led to loss of feeling in my lower lip #like the teeth were fully developed and everything and that was really all that i could've had as a concern #so i kept feeling like 'i dont even fucking need this why are they doing this to me'#i was very unreasonable to kaily when i got home since i had been crying like crazy. ive apologized profusely to her #she was like 'youre all messed up from the anesthesia' yeah maybe so #i also remember feeling like the things that the oral surgeons were saying were mocking/belittling to me but they probably weren't #like i was not in a situation where i could be consoled for what was about to happen.#eventually i took ibuprofen when i got home (a really large amount) and went back to sleep but i was surprised i could do that #what a horrible morning. and i didnthave the best day yesterday either #at least i never have to do that again

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crystallinecryptid · 1 year ago

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The urge to write a silly little fanfic about the port mafia having a paintball fight and suddenly Tachihara is a horrible shot, like seriously garbage, couldn't hit the broad side of a barn, because with guns he's using magic aim assist by directing the bullets with his metal manipulation.

#bsd #tachihara bsd #bsd tachihara #like realistically I know he's really actually just a good shot #but it would be really really funny if he was using magic aim assist #fanfic idea #if a fic like this exists please tell me because I wanna read it #I will probably never write this because I do not have the confidence to write fanfic #the moment I start writing it just all feels so horribly out of character I could never show it to anyone ever #but it would be so funny guys believe me #he'd need to bullshit a reason why he's so awful at aiming now #probably say something about not being able to shoot right under pressure #and this is actually MORE stressful than a real gunfight #because if he wins or loses a REAL gunfight either he won or it's not his problem anymore #but if he messes up in a FAKE gunfight everyone will make fun of him forever #also random sidenote: during the paintball fight gin is using paintbrushes as knives.

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strangestcase · 2 years ago

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i just remembered I once drew TGS Hyde in the way Kevin O’Neill draws LXG Hyde

#messed up eyes awful teeth horrible ape like proportions etc etc you get it

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the-kipsabian · 8 months ago

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im just unhappy scratch that the more i think about it the more im just straight up miserable and dont want to be here anymore

#is there anything i can do about it? no not really i cant motivate myself to do anything that would mean anything #i dont have a job i cant apply for anything i dont want to look into schools i cant get into #i look like shit i feel like shit everythings fuck awful and im a horrible person incapable of anything worth a shit #good morning im just gonna. fuck i dont even know anymore. im fucking tired but i have to get up for some god awful reason #i just wanna rot. would be for the best #night is an absolute mess on main #and good to know more stress about money stuff when things get cut and getting your applications accepted for help is gonna get more #difficult and selective than it already was. im already barely making anything now im gonna get even less #im just. what the fuck am i supposed to do to stay alive in this economy anymore

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hauntedtrait · 1 year ago

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venting, death cw in tags

#can’t sleep #someone i knew died recently #i learned about it today #i wasnt close to them or anything like that #but he died pretty horribly (burns sustained in a fire that erupted in his apartment)#his husband and another person i know were there but survived #and i know my aunt is devastated #and i just cant stop thinking about it and i cant sleep #its just such an awful way to go its kind of messing with me #ive had burns before too i have an 18 year old scar on my leg from it i know how fucking bad it is

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kenobihater · 10 months ago

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the last remaining threads of my sanity are slipping through my fingers rn 🚬 😑

#i'm out of cigarettes i'm incredibly ill and i'm reconsidering my relationship to a certain fandom.#look i'm NOT saying i'm gonna stop the divorce proceedings but uh. fuck. i may have been re reading some of my older works and unfinished #fics and i MAY. i repeat MAY. have some tiny shred of interest posting about st*r w*rs again #motherfucker i'm SO hesitant to speak that into existence and will be absolutley APOPLECTIC if it happens bc i don't fucking WANNA like sw!#i divorced it! i took the kids (my ocs) & filed a restraining order & crossed state lines & broke all contact and yet! and fucking yet!!!!#i find myself in tags i havent visited in over two years on the archive like some beaten dog slinking back home to a shitty master #i honestly hate like. fucking ALL of the shit i've written from then that i reread and some of it was so bad i couldnt even bring myself to #click on it after reading the summary. like. UGH! i have a half baked fic idea i wrote a little for and i think it's more compelling than #any of the literal dogshit i posted back then so i MIGHT work on polishing that up and posting something that isn't actual garbage by my #current standards. all of this is still up in the air tho bc i dont know if the hyperfixation or even the bare minimum lvl of interest has #returned or if it's just fever induced delirium. i've been having INCREDIBLY fucked up bad horrible awful vivid dreams as of late so fever #induced brain fuckery isn't out of the question. sigh. i'm so mad abt this #even if i do regain some interest in the fandom i don't think i'll have any interest in new source material after the mando s2 finale &#tbo.bf sucking ass & the obi show being mid & everything with the ST. i plan on watching ando.r but after that? zero interest in anything #new from sw. so. if anyone still reading this and is getting excited abt me POSSIBLY MAYBE being interested in sw just know i still hate it #a bit and feel like i'm being dragged kicking and screaming back into this mess unwillingly. or it's due to a fever. god i need a smoke #len speaks #that's literally the longest tag rant i've ever gone on. fuck that's a BAD sign

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medicinemane · 10 months ago

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If this world is stupid and people fail to see all the corporate related issues, and brain implants get mass adopted I can tell you two things

One, I won't get one, I don't even want my fridge to have something like that, so why would I want it in my own brain?

Two, I will figure out how they're hacked and I will use this information to drop songs directly into people's brains. I will DJ for people regardless of what they want, because you can say many things about me but I do have good taste in music so I'm right to make them listen to things like Jeff Wayne's War of the Worlds

#it's also worth noting that this isn't in relation to any news that may or may not exist #(I saw a headline but we all know those can be bullshit and I just don't care about or respect this)#so this isn't about world events this is about the technology for me to do this being mass adopted #the second is that I also like very very bad music sometimes; but I'm aware that it's wretched and terrible; it just... it's interesting #like how did you make it this bad? part of me wants to try and and make just awful music... it feels like it would be hard to make #it feels like bland and not great is more common than actively horrible #like that messed up version of Take On Me on here; or Temporary Secretary; what a delightfully dreadful song #it's like that gif of Data drinking something and going Disgusting; and then saying 'Yes please' when offered more #my enjoying truly terrible music doesn't effect me having good taste in music cause I know that truly awful stuff #but bad music is like IPAs; I know it's kinda bad and an acquired taste; I'd never recommend it unless I knew someone liked it

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