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for the abused children life is just being tortured and broken for most inane things like being sad or needing attention or making a face someone doesn't like, and then when you despite all efforts grow up, you're supposed to suddenly know how to stand up for yourself?? you're supposed to negotiate your salary?? tell people OFF?? without feeling like you will be crushed to the inch of your life if you even look at someone wrong?? what on the gods good earth
#child abuse#cptsd#avoiding confrontation#getting triggered by everything#tw mention of torture#abusive parents#aftermath of abuse
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Coach beard waiting till the literal plane door closes to avoid confrontation is literally me.
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The Art of Confrontation: Resolving Conflict Through Direct Communication
Introduction:
The idea of confrontation is frequently seen as unpleasant and threatening, conjuring up images of contentious debates and strained relationships. Confrontation has a particular significance in the context of mental therapy. It turns into a crucial instrument for development, self-awareness, and recovery. The art of confrontation in therapy involves deftly handling challenging discussions with empathy and candour, producing dramatic results for people seeking mental wellbeing. In this essay, we'll examine the effectiveness of therapeutic conflict and how it can foster growth and emotional healing.
Therapeutic Confrontation: An Understanding
Confrontation is the process of openly addressing and debating delicate subjects or troubling behaviours that impede human development in the context of mental treatment. It gives the therapist the chance to help the patient gain a deeper comprehension of their feelings, thoughts, and behavioural patterns. Instead of placing blame or passing judgement, therapeutic confrontation aims to create a secure environment where the client and therapist can both explore their vulnerabilities and collaborate on effective change.
The advantages of conflict:
Confrontation exposes blind spots and helps people recognise and accept elements of themselves that they might have previously avoided or ignored. This promotes self-awareness. Clients can better understand their emotions, motivations, and underlying problems causing their mental health troubles by addressing uncomfortable realities.
Overcoming defence mechanisms: To protect themselves from emotional suffering, many people adopt defence mechanisms. However, these techniques frequently prevent real interactions and personal development. These obstacles can be broken down by skillful confrontation, allowing clients to explore their vulnerabilities and create more effective coping mechanisms.
promoting emotional development: By confronting unhelpful behaviours, mental patterns, and belief systems, confrontation can promote significant emotional development. People can develop new ways of thinking, feeling, and reacting to life's obstacles by looking at the causes of these patterns and working through them.
Confrontation can initially be uncomfortable, but it ultimately enhances the therapeutic partnership between the client and the therapist. Building trust and making clients feel supported on their path to recovery through open and honest communication. The therapeutic relationship transforms into a secure setting where people can communicate their worries, annoyances, and aspirations without worrying about being judged.
The Practise of Effective Confrontation:
Competence, sensitivity, and respect for the client's particular experiences are necessary for effective therapeutic confrontation. Here are some important factors to think about:
Making a safe space: Confrontations that are beneficial require the creation of a safe, judgment-free atmosphere. Throughout the process, clients must feel listened, understood, and appreciated.
Therapy staff members need to actively listen to their patients, picking up on both verbal and nonverbal clues. This enables them to comprehend the client's viewpoint more thoroughly and adjust their strategy as a result.
Empathy and compassion: It's crucial to approach conflict with empathy and compassion. It fosters an atmosphere where clients can explore their vulnerabilities without worrying about rejection or criticism by making them feel supported and understood.
Pacing and timing: Confrontation should be handled delicately and at the appropriate time. While delaying confrontation may impede growth, rushing into difficult subjects can overwhelm customers. Based on each person's level of readiness, skilled therapists decide when and how quickly to have a confrontation.
Conclusion:
In mental therapy, the art of confrontation is a potent instrument for personal growth, healing, and self-discovery. Therapists help people build healthier coping mechanisms, self-awareness, and emotional growth by deftly tackling difficult topics. Clients can explore their vulnerabilities in a secure environment during therapeutic confrontation, which also strengthens the therapeutic partnership and challenges dysfunctional patterns. As people master the art of conflict, they start a transforming process.
#psych-k#couple counseling#marriage counseling#marriage psych#couple therapy#avoiding confrontation#marriage and family therapist
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[Abandoned by the Lightners, his heart became cracked with hatred.]
Hitting a lil' too close to home?
#junie art post#ink sans#error sans#utmv#errorink#implied. but yea not the focus#this has been turning around in my mind for quite some time. im glad to finish it lmao idk if my ramblings make sense even.#so like listen. do you ever think about how similar the function of the utmv is to the dark worlds in deltarune.#in a meta narrative to fandom sense? idk the word#we are making exaggerated expanded worlds of the ordinary tools and entertainment of the real world and make it into something more#isnt that very very interesting?#and we explore every sort of possibility in that creation. both good and bad#and when all is said and done. every possibility found and the entertainment and secrets has all run out#we put it away. abandon and leave it behind#what is left? what happens to the world and characters we have created? can it sustain without us?#what of the ones left in the dark?#idk if yall saw me a few months ago but i reblogged comyet's old post of ink begging us not to leave him alone and to keep creating#yea that never left me#and seeing exactly THAT SCENARIO in deltarune made my brain iTCH#imagine an ink in King's position.... wait isnt that just underverse#mmmmmmm. darkner ink.....#also error is here too. not just for errorink or that i can't separate these two to save my life#but error is also one of the few people to be able to GET IT?? he can hear the creators too. ink cant#but hes pretty much programmed himself to avoid having a mental break down to this via reboot memory loss.#and ink has his own internal coping mechanism (hooray for short term memory loss)#these two idiots will do anything but confront truths lmfao#ahhh my favorite idiots. never change#mmmmm#deltarune
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HOW NOT TO GET A BLACK EYE AT A BIKER BAR **FULL VIDEO**
#BIKER #BIKERBAR #MOTORCYCLESWe’ve all known those people who come into a biker bar that you know are out of place. They are the same people who try to act like something they’re not by trying to fit in. Problem is these new bikers make a ton of mistakes that could land them into getting a black eye. This video is about HOW NOT TO GET A BLACK EYE AT A BIKER BAR 00:00 Yes we’ve all seen this type…
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#act like yourself#avoiding confrontation#bar#biker#biker bar#Biker News#bikers#fight#harley davidson#how not to#how to#how to avoid a fight#insane throttle#motorcycle bar#motorcycles
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(The rest is under the readmore!)
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#breaking news: local man is confronted with the fact that if he uses dumb contests as an excuse to avoid emotional vulnerability —#then his partner is going to do the exact same thing lol#also covid update: I had a bit of a relapse and have been completely stuck in bed again the last couple days#am still definitely doing better than before but remain very very fatigued#apparently changing my bedsheets was a little much for me lol#anyway thank you to the people who have sent in asks the last couple days!! I am very excited to get to them#I just had to get this self indulgent comic out of my system first lololol#bsd#bsd dazai#bsd chuuya#soukoku#skk#bungou stray dogs#my art
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pmd2 darkrai is funny to me why is he like that
#ik pmd2 darkrai might not literally be purple but its convenient to make them look different lol#also his eyes are greenish. i colour picked from the in-game portrait to check#i havent played other spinoffs but ik in the mainline games and anime/movies darkrai tends to be neutral or good#meanwhile in pmd2 gfsdfjshg i can't take him seriously he's so comically evil and it's so stupid and tbh i love it#it's said he avoids confrontation but also he clearly loves bragging about how hes soooo evil its so funny to me#bro thinks hes sooooo cool what a loser (affectionate)#pokemon#pokemon mystery dungeon#pmd2#pmd eos#darkrai#anirritant art
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"I still love ya"
#gay art#gravity falls#stanley pines#fiddleford mcgucket#fiddlestan#I didnt expect to draw fiddlestan ever#it seemed to fluffy for me#not that thats a bad thing#but then I remember Fidds in the series is a cult leader#who is known to wipe the memories of people to keep secrets and avoid confrontation#even people he's close to#and then I got invested#must say something about me when the only yaoi I like is toxic
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zero's pressure
#running out of gas. running out of money. out of time. out of energy. i'm running out of everything#and ofc my solution is to. avoid it. ignore it. do nothing productive.#zero's pressure turns into zero pressure#i'm trying to be kind to myself. i really have been trying. but it's hard when youre still headed to 0 on everything with no solution#because of yourself#i cant get a job. my art doesnt bring enough. i cant keep producing new products on the regular. i cant finish major comms on time#what CAN i do?#vent#just some adhd things#and maybe anxiety. and bad stress management#sorry for being so raw on main. its therapeutic even if it doesnt really lead to anything. it does force me to confront my feelings ig#i tend to get a burst of motivation after hitting a low like this but its a constant cycle that in the longterm really doesnt improve.#ill probably get some products done and do some quick comms. just one of those alone can cover gas for me#anyway some positivity to toot my own horn: i love the palette of this piece. went harder than i thought
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the lies white people tell themselves to escape accountability and a real adult conversation on race, racism and history is just so sad smfh
#racism#white supremacy#historical revisionism#african american history#slavery#accountability#race relations#america's racial history#denying responsibility#white guilt#racial injustice#truth about slavery#escaping accountability#discussing race#confronting racism#avoiding guilt#historical lies#american slavery#race discussion avoidance
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You ever just see a Mouthwashing take that makes you want to bang your head into a wall? I literally just saw someone claim Curly couldn't have been emotionally abused by Jimmy before the crash because he was in a higher position of power than Jimmy.
-Shrimp Anon
The mouthwashing fandom has shown me that people genuinely do believe that certain types of abuse are not as detrimental as other types especially when they deem those immune/resistant, ergo, believing one is objectively worse no matter how it affects the person nor the intersections of power, history and dynamics at play.
Get ready cause this is a yap session:
Cause like it's heavily implied that Curly and Jimmy's friendship was toxic and abusive, pointedly in the direction of how Jimmy uses Curly's belief/comfort in him. Curly wasn't forced to enable Jimmy but he was emotional and mentally on edge around him in almost every scene in some way. Mental and emotional abuse are not contingent on what positions you have at work. Yeah, he's Jimmy's boss but he was Jimmy's friend first and it's like getting into Psych discussion to talk about how social power tends to overshadow any perceived organizational power in the human mind. People are concerned about their jobs ofc but they tend to hang onto and put more value/investment into their personal relationships, hence why there tends to be laws and restrictions around mixing the two.
I always see the sentiments that "Curly is a grown ass man", "Curly is bigger than Jimmy", "Curly is Jimmy's boss", "He just needed a backbone" as criticisms of Curly and while I do agree that on the surface level all of these to be true and viable ways Curly could've taken more control of the situation, I often look at the parallels of Anya and Curly as victims of Jimmy pre/post crash.
The way Jimmy talks to Anya post crash is how he talked to Curly in the pre-crash segments. It's hard to pin-point mainly because we know he hates and wants nothing to do with Anya compared to his contrary but similarly handled obsessions with Curly. It's a weird sort of "honey-moon" effect of abuse Jimmy does in terms of emotional and mental victimization. He is always horrid to Anya, always talking down or questioning her abilities and thoughts in a situation, this of course includes the harassment and assault. However, he has a moment of attempted gentleness/conditioning when he question her about the mouthwash when she's contemplating drinking it at the table. The key difference is he has no personal investment in Jimmy outside wanting nothing to do with him, meaning there is no sort of romanticized version of him that he can condition her off of. He knows this, hence, why he always reverts to trying to make her to scared to oppose him.
This sort of give and take of "kindness" doesn't work on her because she knows he is just doing it to take more from her than whatever he could possibly give but it reflects even the "softer" scenes between him and Curly where he always rewords or rephrases Curly's sentiments and concerns to sound more shallow. He is feigning a deeper understanding by reworking Curly's emotions into something bad and needing to be hidden. Everything is laced with envy and resentment, an outburst just around the corner, I mean he even slams the table in the birthday party scene, a tactic in emotional manipulation to set the victim on edge and cloud their ability to respond. Even if Curly knows Jimmy won't get physical in that moment, the physical actions is intended to make him back down in the confrontation in case it does. This is something that is just not person specific. It ingrains itself into how you interact with the world and life and it shows in major and minor ways with Curly.
Post-crash, the abusive nature is more in tandem to the physical victimization Anya went through and the stripping of voice and autonomy we see take place. Like the parasite in HFIM, Jimmy speaks for Curly most of the time and puts words in his mouth, similarly to how he takes Anya's plans as his own. He very commonly, with the both of them mind you, supplements the worst aspects of himself into them; pettiness, selfishness, lack of understanding... And tries to cover himself with their best qualities; kindness, planning, initiative, etc...
These parallel are just to say that positional power has little to do with if a person can be abused and how it can even be flipped to further the abuse. There is no doubt that Curly could've picked up on Jimmy's envy of his position hence another reason he never confronted him as a Captain but as a friend as doing so would immediately put Jimmy in a space to be confrontational/combative.
I think the disdain some people have when they talk about the heavily implied if not implicitly stated emotional/mental abuse Curly experienced being Jimmy's friend is when treating it as an excuse to why he didn't do more. I can understand that completely because it is not an excuse to why he didn't do more but is a very real reason people in his position in these scenarios can experience whether in the context of a work or social environment. However, I also think the way people talk about it really does demonstrate a bigger problem when talking about abuse when somehow who is/was abused is either part of the issue or enabled it.
Harkening back to the sentiments about Curly's inaction regarding Jimmy, I think the exact phrases I used/have seen show how there is an inherent belief that it is easier to overpower the effects of emotional/mental abuse that go in tandem with the perception of Curly as someone who should be able to. There is not an age you suddenly stop being susceptible to abuse nor a set point or low where you realize how it has affected you. You don't suddenly know to stand up or put a face on to face your abuser nor admit that you inadvertently enabled them to subjugate someone else to the same treatment. Maybe it's my psych brain but their is this growing belief that direct action is somehow easy or always the best method with the game shows you instances where it is not always the case. In real life that rings true too. He should have done more, but it's not impossible to see why he struggled to find a way or didn't even if it makes us mad.
It's not easy to suddenly gain a "back-bone". You don't immediately want to resort to aggression, especially if it mirrors the type you were a victim to. You don't want to believe you allowed yourself to be treated this bad, let it get that bad or allowed something bad to happen to someone else. It is easy to be in denial, to retreat to your thoughts or make excuses to avoid the painful truth. It's frustrating but in a way we know is relatable. It why we both hate and love Curly for it. We know we'd be better, we think we'd be better, we like to think we wouldn't falter in the same ways but it's always easier to say that from the outside looking in. It's easy to see what he was doing wrong because we are seeing it, not him, but the game really does make you picture what you would do if this was your raw reality and it's why this debate about Curly seems so never ending/contradictory. We can all say what we'd do but bottom line is that's much different when you're in the moment with all the emotions and human feelings attached.
I personally think Mouthwashing tackles the themes of rape culture, enabling, toxic masculinity, types of abuse and patriarchy in ways that are meant to deconstruct the typical straightforward views we mostly have of these concepts and how little subtilities of them are just as, if not more, detrimental than the overt/obvious parts. The game deals with the idea of little details and bigger picture in a way to show that sometimes the bigger picture is not the issue but the little details that make it up. It's why I have a personal dislike of depictions of Jimmy as the typical horrible person who would of course do something like this because the game is about noticing the little warning signs, the foreshadowing and foresight.
It's why I dislike the typical discussion of "bro code" and "boys will be boys" for the game because the game makes a point to avoid the standard depictions of such. It is about the type of men who still enable despite not condoning, agreeing or even perpetuating harmful beliefs because they can't see the little details or the ways it seeps into their everyday. The severity is not obvious to them as it was not obvious to Curly, Swansea or even Daisuke the way it was to a woman like Anya. There are little details about Jimmy that should ring alarms but if you are too naive like Daisuke, too distant like Swansea or too conditioned like Curly, they are just off markers.
There is 100% more constructive/concise ways to say "Curly was a victim of Jimmy's abuse on an emotional and mental aspect that clouded his judgements and perceptions in the scenario" while also critiquing on the side of "Curly still had a responsibility to protect Anya as a crew mate and Captain that he failed to do due to biases and stigma's he failed to surpass" without the weird condemnation people give him about should've knowing better than to let himself be manipulated by a person he considered a close, if not family/best-friend and had his own reasons to trust initially. Also stop being weird about victims of abuse in general with this fandom, like sorry not everyone has a like social epiphany the moment someone's nasty to them. People are treating it like you immediately know when you are in a toxic relationship immediately or comprehend when a person is actively dangerous and either it's your fault for not knowing how to leave/cut them off or you deserve it. Like the hypocrisy of people believing how certain fans treat the story reflect their irl views but not their own is crazy.
End statement is: I honestly don't even know man, I've been writing this too long and just like no man on that ship was perfect or really helped Anya when it mattered and I feel like pitting them against each other in discussion on who did the least or most or how it was justified sucks cause in the end Anya always did the most and best thing for herself.
#i also think it is because mouthwashing is first and foremost a game about rape culture and the patriarchy especially in work spaces#regarding women and centering conversation around Curly a man rubs people wrong because it does overshadow that commentary#but it still mixes other topics into its initial theming and message on how abuse conditions you to accept certain things that are harmful#and how getting used to a culture/enviornment does not mean you are happy healthy or most importantly safe in it. I personally like to#explore those aspects where it mixes all the themes so we can discuss the ways you have to watch out for things because there is a differen#in the idea Curly enabled Jimmy just because they were bros and because he was an example of another man afraid to step out from what#is a still oppressive system that does try to punish those who act against it even if they fall in the category of those who would benefit#from it as Jimmy and PE 100% represent that sort of misogynistic system where men that would be “good” are altered until they follow line#in a way both on the personal and professional level as PE is the corporate lock out and Jimmy represents the social and its just the issue#that the discussion of it sounds like “in defense of men” when I am more so trying to discuss how it is much deeper than men being scared t#upset other men but complacency is rewarded by not becoming another person subjugated hence as all the moments Curly does try to do#something we can tie it back to how Jimmy reacts and a possible penality from PE where we now need to address the ways to combat those#two concepts so we dont get cases like Curly or Daisuke or Swansea where male avoidance of the issue is considered neutral or even good.#i think most of this boils down the perfect victim mentality to where if someone who underwent or is being abused is not a perfect example#or accpetible type than their abuse can not be considered a valid or substantial reason for effects on their behavior compounded with the#fact that Anya's abuse at the hands of Jimmy is a systematic issue that Curly is a part of even if unwillingly and was more physically#violating and topical cause sometimes i have to remind myself that all media is still critiqued through the lens of the culture it came out#in cause i do think about what if this game came out inlike 2014 like the conversations would be sooooooo different could you imagine it?#but back the before statement Curly isn't perfect but I feel like boiling it down if hes a good person or man is not the point of the game#but more so good people can still be part of the problem and the idea of condemning a person for one act creates a false sense of#rightouesness and justice that does not aid the victim and in fact aids the abusers in escaping blame for their mulitple behaviors as we se#how the men on the ship tend to blame Jimmy for just one act against them including himself while there is a plethora of things Anya is#concerned about with Jimmy#and its not that Curly just made one mistake with Jimmy but more so we consider his actions more damning because he didn't stop Jimmy#instead of focusing on the fact Jimmy did what he did regardless of Curly and the consequence because we already know he's bad n maladjuste#which is problem in the conversation where the individuals are blamed but the system and perputrator are overlooked in a sense of acceptiab#complacency as we know how they are and the lack of tangibility to personally affect them on a larger scale like I should just make a post#on like cutting out the face when it comes it confronting systems of oppression rather than tag talking but just ask me to clarify if#you want that like im jus trying to say we avoid talking about Jimmy and PE so much cause it is obvious what they do wrong that we make#the initial and inherent problem out to be one aspect someone in this case Curly does and the the constraints they use to force actions
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What is the one thing that bothers each other on their lover?
Not huge icks, but small bothers?
Vasco can be forgetful and a bit irresponsible. And even if he means well, he sometimes comes across inconsiderate, he just doesn't always think things through. He's usually very sure of himself, stubborn and resistant to accepting advice if he thinks he knows what he's doing. Occasionally he misreads the situation and his attempts to lighten the mood misfire so severely, it's like he's incapable taking things seriously.
Machete has a nitpicky control freak side to him that gets more pronounced when he's stressed. He's prone to bottling up his emotions and then feeling misunderstood when people can't read his mind. He finds a way to blame himself for everything and is a chronic over-apologizer.
#answered#anonymous#none of these are dealbreakers and over time they balance each other out#but like in every relationship between two people sometimes they get on each others nerves a little#they don't have a lot of dramatic fights#mostly because it's very hard to get Vasco to a point where he's truly and visibly angry#and Machete doesn't know how to argue constructively so he avoids confrontation even if he's a little peeved#neither of them enjoy fights so they're generally very willing to meet the other halfway to prevent escalation#Vaschete lore
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The way BG3 approaches revenge is so interesting. It never says anyone is wrong to kill someone who's done them harm, but it does say that doing so alone won't fix the trauma.
Aylin just feels empty after killing Lorroakan. Astarion admits killing Cazador didn't feel how he expected it would either; he feels numb for a while and it changes his perspective on things. Karlach kills Gortash and it isn't satisfying, because he never felt sorry for the life he took from her and now she has to grapple with how little she has left.
Again, they weren't wrong to crave that catharsis and the safety it brings them. But revenge is never the end of healing. It's only the beginning. Choosing to live again is maybe the best revenge there is.
#bg3#baldur's gate iii#baldur's gate 3#bg3 spoilers#counselor plays video game#killing is pretty normalized in their world but like as far as i know you can't tell your companions to just forgive their abusers#you can tell them to avoid direct confrontation and run but they remind you they'll never be safe if they do that#in fact taking that choice that catharsis by for example killing cazador without astarion is framed as a bad option#a betrayal of his trust and autonomy. which it is even with good intentions
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Katniss is the kind of person to invite Peeta over for dinner and tell no one (except maybe Prim) then get pissed off when someone asks why he’s here. (Because she invited him, dummy 🤬)
Eventually people just stop asking why Peeta’s following her around like a puppy in fear of retaliation. Even when he comes stumbling out from her bedroom in the morning and continues to do so for the next thirty years.
#Peeta’s smart he won’t question it himself and is just along for the ride#don’t ruin a good thing#I know girlie would jump through all the hoops she can to avoid confrontation about her and Peeta’s relationship LOLOL#everlark#katniss everdeen#peeta mellark#the hunger games#thg#they’d get married without telling anyone#and would only drop the news after they have their first kid lmaoo
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911: Lone Star | Carlos "I Don't Avoid" Reyes
#911 lone star#911lsedit#carlos reyes#tk strand#andrea reyes#full disclosure the andrea laughing gif is out of context. she doesnt laugh in response to that line. even tho she should have 100%#its more-so a representation of ME laughing uncontrollably while making this set#this set is me lovingly dragging his ass because that line was out of control hilarious given *gestures wildly above*#honestly there are probs some other ones I could have included somehow I just couldn't find a way to make them work smoothly#we love one (1) insanely repressed man who avoids all confrontation outside of his work and its carlos reyes#my gifs#911ls parallel#episode: s04e12 swipe left#episode: s02e02 2100°#episode: s02e04 friends with benefits#episode: s03e11 prince albert in a can#episode: s03e13 riddle of the sphynx#episode: s04e01 the new hotness#my faves
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soapghost circus au
ghost’s an extreme motorcycle stunt performer - globe of death, riding on his back wheel along tightropes, that sort of thing
soap’s a fire breather/dancer. he’s a roaming performer; he just finds empty spaces or bored people and starts twirling
he pretends not to notice the way he always wanders towards a certain tent every night to watch a certain masked daredevil defy gravity. he thinks he's slick and that ghost won't notice him in the crowd, completely forgetting that he's carrying something that happens to be on fire
ghost couldn't miss him if he tried
one day off, soap's trialing fire whips; he loves the loud crack and the way the flame licks through the air and maybe he's a little too impatient to practice with non flaming whips first, even though he's never used one before
he's covered in soot and fine welts where the tip of the whip keeps flicking back up at him, cutting through his shirt and stinging his skin but he doesn't let that stop him. it starts to stick to him, damp with sweat and blood and he's quick to strip it off; throwing it to the side to keep practicing
when soap finally gets a few good cracks in a row and breaks to celebrate, he almost jumps out of his skin when he sees the masked rider leaning against a trailer watching him
of all the times he's wanted ghost to talk to him, this is not one of them
he wanted to impress him, dance for him with his flaming batons and be mesmerised by his fluidity and skill
not catch him filthy and struggling with something as basic as a whip
he's ready for ghost to ream him out for not having control over the whip - he's known throughout the circuit for expecting utter perfection in his routines - but when ghost finally does speak, it's only to ask if he's done for the day
soap falters for a moment. he wanted to get some consistency with the whip before he stopped, but he's starting to feel the hours of practice; muscles aching and skin blistered with minor burns
he says he is and ghost pushes off the trailer, nodding his head to make soap follow. he brings him back to his trailer and tells him to clean up then takes out his personal med kit to treat the grazes on soap's skin
soap's shocked; for all that he loves to watch ghost perform, they've never really talked before
part of why he joined the circus was so he wouldn't be a burden on anyone, the oldest in a family with too many mouths to feed and not even time to nurture, and here he is taking up ghost's valuable practice time bc he wasn't good enough to handle his own discipline. he tries to brush him off, downplaying the burns and tries to leave before half them can be treated but ghost just glares and orders him to sit back down
ghost does expect perfection from himself but it isn’t out of any malice or ego; it's bc he knows if he isn't perfect, he could very easily die. he’s picked a dangerous profession and he gives it the respect it deserves. there isn't any shame in being a novice or failing at something; he thinks there's a lot of beauty in having the courage to get back up again and again
so every day he watches soap practice and bullies him into his trailer to put him back together bc he knows he won't do it by himself
and every night soap wanders over to ghost's section of the fair grounds, in awe of his skill and wishing he could be worthy of the care he gives him
#have i posted this before? yes but it has an actual idea behind it now#anyway back on my ‘soap pushes himself too hard to meet expectations only he is holding him to’ bullshit#price is obviously the ring master and id say gaz is probably trapeze#ghost used to work for robas circus who kept pushing him to do more and more dangerous stunts with less and less safety measures in place#and for a long time he thought thats how it was supposed to be#he was supposed to court death every night. supposed to limp back to his trailer and take care of his own injuries#and its only when price comes to one of his shows to scope out roba as competition and confronts him afterwards abt the conditions#that he realises something might be wrong#so seeing his past staring back at him in the form of soap hurts something deep within him and he has to make it right#he doesnt want soap to have to live with the same deep pains that he does#injuries that couldve been avoided if hed just gone easier on himself#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#we’re a team. ghost team#soapghost#ghostsoap#ghoap#john soap mactavish#soap cod#simon ghost riley#ghost cod#save post
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