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ive been looking at so many words searching for something fitting as a name lol

i keep circling back to "woe".... edgy guy has an image to keep up LOL

mmmmm would that be too weird as a name though.....

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feeling like i really should nickname my darkrai but it's so in-character for him to refuse to be nicknamed lol

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but his lack of apologies is his own way of showing a type of respect, really. he respects others' intelligence enough to not lie to their faces just to make himself look like a good person. also it means he's openly sharing his true, unfiltered opinions for once. not trying to pretty things up or exaggerate. that's vulnerability. he thinks you should be grateful for that. (still a narcissist hehe)

mmm been thinking about what my "redeemed" darkrai would be like

i think maybe. he's still not nice. he won't insult people all the time anymore but he's not polite or respectful either. he doesn't seek forgiveness, he knows he doesn't deserve it. but not in a self pitying way. just factually, he knows he doesn't deserve forgiveness, so he's not interested in making up for anything. he doesn't even particularly feel bad for what he did. he won't give out fake sorrys.

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he looks at the soggy self-pitying mess that is anne and wants to be absolutely sure he never ever ends up looking weak like them LOLLLL

he's still a bit of a narcissistic edgy loser <3

mmm been thinking about what my "redeemed" darkrai would be like

i think maybe. he's still not nice. he won't insult people all the time anymore but he's not polite or respectful either. he doesn't seek forgiveness, he knows he doesn't deserve it. but not in a self pitying way. just factually, he knows he doesn't deserve forgiveness, so he's not interested in making up for anything. he doesn't even particularly feel bad for what he did. he won't give out fake sorrys.

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mmm been thinking about what my "redeemed" darkrai would be like

i think maybe. he's still not nice. he won't insult people all the time anymore but he's not polite or respectful either. he doesn't seek forgiveness, he knows he doesn't deserve it. but not in a self pitying way. just factually, he knows he doesn't deserve forgiveness, so he's not interested in making up for anything. he doesn't even particularly feel bad for what he did. he won't give out fake sorrys.

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time to get back on my bullshit solely to have my girl mz constantly asked if she has any connection to the team that shares her name and she gets progressively more annoyed shfjfjhfjshf

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ghdvsafhGASHD I JUST CHECKED OIUT THE POKEMON DIRECT AND GOT TO THE LEGENDS ZA INFO.........

team mz...... teAM MZ ARE YOU KIDDING ME SADHJASDKGFJASHD

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i miss my silllies................ i miss them a lot im sorry my brain shat itself auughgh

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maybe ishould try replaying pmd2 to reignite my interest but replaying story heavy games always feels like a chore to me blehhh

gghhhh there was a point in time where i was excitedly brainstorming stuff for my au day in and day out i wanna go back to that it was so fun why is my brain so empty nowww 😭😭😭

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Finally coming around the corner to present my PMD2 team!

They like Anorith a normal amount :)

Bonus doodles:

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sorry to anyone who followed me for anything, ever. you are not getting that.

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far into the future of my au it's gonna be like. darkrai finally shedding that deeply rooted persona of wanting everything and everyone to suffer. (it's gonna take a long long long while to get there lol.) and then it's like yay! problem solved! everyone's happy now! (not. mz in particular still can't forgive. he isn't entitled to her forgiveness and he won't get it.)

but anyway. cressy turns to darkrai in a moment of quiet and is like. "hey. im so happy to see you better like this. it made it all worth it. im glad everything's going to be okay now."

.. and darkrai stares in quiet sadness. "i wish i could see you get better, too."

and cressy is confused. did he imply she's not okay? but she's fine? she doesn't understand.

thus begins a new arc of cressy being the one in denial and needing to be drawn out of her own persona lol

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What About Other Pokémon Like (Legendaries and Mythicals)

Yes in fact here's one i just did

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might be a sign of the interest coming back swinging (i hope so??) but i just realised something about how ive been characterising darkrai and cressy and it's like a jimmy neutron brain blast fr

they've both let themselves become wholly identified by their powers. they've locked away any part of themselves that doesn't align with the nature of their abilities.

cressy doesn't have a selfish bone in her body bc she's a healer she helps others she's not allowed to think about herself so she doesn't. thoroughly purged it all from her personality so it doesn't even feel like acting anymore. she tells herself she's made to help, she's happy to help, forces it to be real because it's easier that way. it's not exactly a mask, it's like... mental self mutilation? but it's okay because it doesn't hurt and she's happy, really. (is it okay? is she happy? who knows anymore.)

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my brain is so fried ive forgotten where i left off ahhhh

looking at my writing wip like "where was i going???? what's going on????" helppp lol

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i am indeed thinking about the sillies again .......