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Wherever you are on Cybertron is where I'll be.
#tf cyberverse#transformers#transformers cyberverse#transformers fanart#cheetor#cyberverse cheetor#cheebee#you physically cannot stop me from thinking about their broken promises it's impossible
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#fucks me up that there are two whole new animals in the house that i barely know#who depend on me for everything#barely recognize me as a friend or helper#and are so incredibly incredibly fragile#i got worried for junie today because her spay incision had some swelling#and it's normal to have some and i have seen it before#but after what we just wemt through i got upset and rushed her to the vet#who said it was fine and thankfully we have free office visits#but i was so upset even though i knew it was probably normal#i look at them and i see adorable cuddly sweet TEMPORARY things and i feel like something inside me got broken somehow#and i was right all along that after it was all over i would come back but not quite as myself#i just hadn't fully understood the extent#we are keeping them and it sort of had to happen when it did but i think it was too early for me#they are so cute and when they do cuddle it's so sweet and obviously i would fight for them as hard as i would for Fancy#because that's just how the deal works and it isn't about you at all it's about how they each carry a little world inside them just as we d#and that deserves equal respect and care regardless of my personal affections#but i look at them and i see little creatures that don't belong here and are foreign in some fundamental way#and that they will be gone in just a little while and things will go back to how they were#which is impossible#we will settle in and i doubt anything i am feeling is abnormal but I'm really struggling and i feel so bad about that#i don't know#it's just a lot to deal with#and i feel very lonely and sad about it#and under it all the sick feeling of having JUST held all three lads as they passed and the VISCERAL reality of it#and knowing one day if everything goes just right i will be holding them too#dear god life is so fragile and every living thing is just as mortal as any other
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Bruce dies in the Past
So! When Bruce was sent back in Time and got stuck in the Past, he was never saved. Tim failed to bring him back to the future, and Bruce was stuck in the Past for the rest of his Natural Life.
Then he died, came back as a Ghost, and regained his Lost Memories.
He didn't really know what to do, he was stuck Millenia in the Past, his Family won't be born for Literal Ages, and most of all he is Dead. He doesn't really have alot of options.
If you go with the Idea that Batman is a Liminal, then you could say that his Obsession was Protection. And that Obsession was focused primarily on Gotham and his Family.
So what is a Ghost to do when the object of his Obsession had been ripped away from him? He breaks a little. Bruce kind of goes Insane.
He decides that if he is going to he stuck in the Ghost Zone, he may as well protect it as if it were Gotham. So, he finds the quickest way to do that...by becoming the Ghost King.
So, he finds the Castle of the Ghost King, and challenges him to Single Combat. And he manages to Win. But the King needs to choose their Title, and he doesn't think he wants to include the name of Batman in the distant Past. It may affect the Future.
So, he chooses the name, Pariah Dark.
Bruce Wayne, is Pariah Dark.
He started as a Good King, but gradually he let his Broken Obsession get to him. Becoming King did nothing to fill the void in his Core, so he fell more and more into Insanity. It didn't help that he became the King in such a vulnerable emotional state. The sudden Power Increase caused his mind to fracture even more.
The Seven Ancients didn't seal away Pariah Dark just to save the Zone, they also did it to save Pariah himself.
Then one day, Pariah's Seal is Broken and he is presented with a Portal to the Human Realm. A Human Realm where enough time has passed that Gotham finally exists again. He may have gotten a little overexcited, he'll admit.
Thankfully, Danny was there to knock some sense into him.
He took the Throne and the power associated with it from Pariah, leaving him as just Bruce Wayne again. The existence of Gotham and his Family in the present world helped mend a few of the Cracks in his Core, and for the first time in Centuries Bruce Wayne felt somewhat whole again.
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Basically, Bruce dies in the Past, goes Insane because his Liminal Obsession was broken, and becomes Pariah Dark when he takes the Throne of the Ghost Zone.
Unfortunately, his Broken Obsession was only aggravated by the sudden Influx of Power, and he went Insane. When Danny took the Throne from him, he took the power that was clouding Bruce's Mind and helped him heal a bit.
Thoughts?
#Dpxdc#Dp x dc#Dcxdp#Dc x dp#Danny Phantom#Dc#Dcu#Bruce Wayne is Pariah Dark#Tim fails to save Bruce#Bruce Wayne is a Liminal#His Obsession is Protecting Gotham and his Family#And both of those are broken when he is killed centuries in the Past#He goes Insane#Bruce steals The Ghost Kings Throne thinking he could try to fix his obsession that way but it only made it worse#The Seven Ancients sealed away Pariah Dark because he was a danger to himself#When Danny frees him he sees that his Obsession is no longer impossible to accomplish#And he starts to heal#The Seven Ancients are really happy that their good friend Bruce is back to his normal self#He is still a Ghost though#At least he's a powerful Ghost#Just imagine Constantines face when he realizes that “Known Skeptic” Batman is in fact the Ghost King from millenia ago
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Uhg I’m fucking miserable
The dialogue writer and voice actor really both performing at 1000% here. Stupid, stupid, stupid man.
His “Why couldn’t you just join us” amidst the insults and complaints, the egging you on, the insults. The fucking “he’s not angry. Not red at all. Just sad.” The fact that they had the little dark one call hostile ‘red’ since it’s the color he sees. With Pavel and the main enemy faction being reds. For the line ‘he’s not red at all. Just sad.’ Christ. Egging you on to kill him and miserably fighting to the death. Stupid, stupid man.
I hate it. His begging and calling you his friend and confused and terrified in the hell of damned souls, and begging to just be killed if you start to leave him. The using the knife he gave you when you first met and escaped together and holding it to his neck every time you fight him. The tenderness of putting the gas mask filter on him while he’s unconscious and pulling him close to look at his face and lifting and kind of sitting him up
Christ
The Pavel being saved by you when they’re going to hang him to death when you’re escaping the reich and you waking him from the ghosts to put his mask on and saving his life when you’re friends, and then putting a mask filter on his unconscious body to keep him breathing one last time, if you forgive him.
The parallel of Artyom destroying the dark ones out of love for his home and duty and fear, convinced it was the right thing in that moment, and being a mass murderer trying desperately and miserably to find some kind of redemption in Last Light, and Pavel being a red line major who betrays you and then uses a bio weapon and wipes out an entire depot of civilians out of duty and love for his home and fear, convinced it was the right thing in that moment, trying desperately and miserably to end things with you. Forgiving him, forgiving yourself, in a game about if people deserve to be forgiven or can or should or will be regardless of it. Taking care of this little baby dark one whose people you wiped out. I’m losing my mind. And that whole level leading up to it, you can or can not listen to it ask you not to kill other mutant creatures. It explaining what they’re doing and why to try and stop you from killing. And going “I don’t understand.” for the first time. “I don’t understand. He’s not red at all. Just sad.” and for the first time Artyom can so easily understand that. Because it’s a human, broken, familiar contradiction. It’s his first journal entry in the game. The sadness at being told to go kill this baby, the guilt and worry he was wrong, but going to do it anyway because of duty. Just sad.
And they set it in Dead City.
#metro last light#pavel morozov#artyom chyornyj#metro 2033#uhg I’m going to lose it. I’m so upset (positive). he’s so impossibly broken and twisted. but so are you. so is that whole world.#the awful thing about accepting someone who betrayed you truly did love you is knowing that the love didn’t stop them. and it’s unbearable.#but the precious thing about it is that it means this is a world where they really did love you.#and somehow that’s a little less awful than not knowing when love is there. maybe in another life they will love you enough to make another#choice. anyway. I’m dead
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#you know that thing about how one of the hardest parts of grief#is needing to talk about losing a person with the person you lost? and that being impossible#that but the unique horror of having to be the reassurer & the rock#of the person who you would usually talk out how everything will be okay again#had to have a little cry earlier because i think I've had to be the Emotionally Stable One for so long#that my ability to recognize my own perils and anguish is like. broken.#i don't want to be in bad times so i don't admit to being in bad times and vice versa#when in bad times i don't want to admit to joy because that means the bad times are less heavy and i have nothing to complain about#but we have to live in the world we live in and the time we live in at the same time or else there's no point#anyway anyway. bless you friends love you all
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ive been really tempted for ages to write a fic from mu qingfang's pov about how sqh's injuries gradually get more and worse. trying to subtly approach the subject, leaving certain medicines within easy stealing access. desperately trying to talk about it when he comes in one day with a dislocated shoulder, a shattered elbow, and an arm broken in two places. hes just clumsy! he fell down the stairs! nothing to worry about shidi everythings fine! he said its fine. stop. asking. questions. please.
Mu Qingfang is so worried about him, He's really only trying to help and Shang Qinghua definitely seems the type to just straight up not go to the doctors if he can help it so he probably had WAYY more injuries that he hid
Shang Qinghua definitely would just laugh it off like "I'm fine. Im fine! I do so much work I'm bound to get an injury here and there!" Except he's been continously getting injured and to such a degree it's CONCERNING
I would love to see a fic about a concerned Mu Qingfang trying his best to help the resident god that can't seem to control his shit very well
#unless this isnt a god au and Qinghua really is just somehow getting broken everyday#svsss#shang qinghua#mu qingfang#poor Qinghua tho he's glitching out and oh is that a bone outside his body haha thats not right#but he also cant fix it#mu qingfang can in ya know the nromal way#also imagine Qingfang trying to help Qinghua with his EXTREMELY abnormal injuries like#this type of injury is impossible but you somehow managed to do it and be fine#I am NOT a stem svsss person unfortunately so idk what type of injuries he can be getting#but also anon this idea is so cool!#i would LOVE TO READ IT!!!!#ask
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thejamlore: jacob on the church scene being the most memorable to film (a 4-day shoot) because it set the tone for season 1/the show, which sam agrees with:
J: that's the point where me and you [sam] were like, “this is what we're doing”
Video: Rotten Tomatoes IG Live with Sam Reid, Jacob Anderson and Bailey Bass [2022]
J: "we got sort of practice…" Oh i'm sure
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And let's not even star talking about the wrist hickey and payback hickies
#jam reiderson#i am a bit sceptical about that gossip bc i heard actors usually don't rehearsal kiss scenes#but maybe jam wanted excuses to kiss each other in a professional way#without actually admitting that they was starting to have feelings for each other#I wish I could find the original tweet to see what she tweeted and also the replies but either the tweet/account is deleted#or it still out there but now is impossible to find bc twitter serching system is all broken#quoting tweets#They turn to look at each other at the exact same time after Jacob says “the church scene” I'M OK
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essay writing hack: when i'm struggling with a long paper, i will simply convert my inquiry question into a series of smaller questions, type out the questions as like shorter-answer prompts for myself with rough guidelines as to word count (e.g. 200 words, 400 words), and then answer the prompts. it circumvents the part of my brain that is worried about formatting the essay correctly AND it allows me to get my ideas down without being daunted by the size of the task.
#m.txt#300 words is nothing so a 2500 word paper broken down into 8 questions that need 300 word answers is like. doable#whereas 2500 words is impossible
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Deku didn't sacrifice his quirk and his arms - and did all that ridiculous emotional labor to reach out to Shigaraki - for you bitches to accuse him of not caring enough or not trying hard enough.
Deku is not a mind reader. He's not a therapist. He's not a wise spiritual sage. He's just a kind, empathetic kid who wants to save people. There was no fucking way for him to fully understand Shigaraki after Shigaraki refused to explain himself beyond "Society hurt me and this is why destroying everything is good".
Deku did everything humanly possible to offer help. Shigaraki failed himself when he refused to put any effort into helping Deku understand him. He failed himself when he refused to accept help until it was too late.
"This teenage boy MUST save this grown-ass man who tormented him and his loved ones, or else he's a failure! His entire worth should be defined by how good he is at playing therapist to a brainwashed terrorist" shut the FUCK upppppppp
#and this is why i haaaated the 'we MUST save the villains from themselves!' narrative#because of its nasty implications#like how the FUCK is it fair to put THAT much impossible pressure on anyone?? let alone on KIDS?!#since when are KIDS entirely responsible for saving broken ADULTS from themselves???#i can't fucking stand shigaraki stans#it's fine to criticize the rushed and inconsistent writing#it's fine to think that hori didn't deliver on his themes#but stop acting like salvation is something that can be forcibly given to someone#shigaraki needed help but he was still responsible for his own fucking healing and in the end HE failed himself#bnha manga spoilers#shigaraki tomura#deku
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Their Very Last Page
Her lover lives only in a picture frame I know him well and share his name Their stars aligned save for the years leaving him to write a love story in tears Now broken hearted and ancient in age with sorrow he pens their very last page
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25 NOVEMBER, 2019 ✦ MAANDAG, 20:02
#wtFOCK#Skam#Zoë Loockx#Senne De Smet#Zoenne#Viktor Deruwe#Veerle Dejaeger#Nathan Naenen#Jonathan Michiels#wtFOCKEdit#SkamverseDaily#SkamRemakesEdit#1st of all giffing s3 w this lighting is H*LL! it's impossible to do a nice coloring I TRIED BUT UGH 3 gifs look good out of 27 lmao yay#now to the real important stuff...#the way Z puts her arms around herself as if she wants to cover her body when Vktr speaks to her will never not break my heart#it’s the same thing she does when he says she looks good the day she confronted him 5 months earlier 😷#IT KLLS ME I WANNA KLL HIM!!! also Senne shielding her just like he did in 2x04 when she first met Vktr :'(#yeah no I didn't gif Viktor's face as he gave his phony speech bc 1- everything he's saying is bs as Senne said + his crocodile tears irk m#but I had to gif him in the end still trying to make eye contact with Zoë so maybe he'd be able to manipulate her into feeling sorry for hi#I loathe him sm 'I hope you rot away in that light' probably the most badass line ever said in this show#ofc that after all of this they wouldn't let this end the way it should have#Z looked so so so broken throughout this whole thing ofc they'd just feel like hurting her a bit more#it wasn't Zoë's season anymore and YET her hell weeks were still going SMH#25.11.2019#s3#3x07#on a better note them dropping this clip on the international day for the elimination of violence against women was so like the wtFOCK+#I used to know and love#mad respect--even if it wasn't intentional bc who knows right--they once again delivered
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Okay this new picture confused me enough to post about it.
It's lovely, love the cat. But I'm confused, what exactly are they're going for here? I'm supposing this:
But the problem is they didn't bring Saito's arm and the cat actually in front of Okita (btw Okita's referring to this). All three of them are depthwise on different level, though Okita's finger is too perfectly close to look like he's touching the kitten's nose. Yet being on different levels they're all staring at different things!
I mean this is the supposed side view of that picture.
#hakuouki#okita souji#saito hajime#neko#cat#offical art#this picture reminds me of the impossible triangle#if I look up I see one thing#if I look down I get confused because it doesn't match#nevertheless love the kitten#as you can see I'm still lurking around :P#I finally read my hakuouki art book#I love kazuki yone's comments#and I guess now I'm even more critical of the new art than before#I'm fine with few wonky pictures but I wish they wouldn't go too ooc with them..#I forced my half broken tablet to draw this one#if I get the scanner work too I might post doodles somewhat soon#since I'm finally getting back to drawing#fan art#edit: I fixed the ladder and added some lines for okita and saito
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such a difficult life
#dogblr#sheltie#shetland sheepdog#nova#2024#y’all will never guess where i worked at for ten days#THE SLAUGHTERHOUSE#you heard that right#my friend and i need money#and i’m still looking for a job in marine biology (an impossible task)#it was absolutely horrible#the conditions the workers are put in…#the tasks…#and all of the workers are basically in majority immigrants#so obv they’re taken advantage of#i only did 10 days and yet my hands feel broken#my traps and neck and shoulders are in pain still#and on my last day i saw the turkeys be killed#and it’s not just one or two#it was twelve thousand#and seeing them alive and struggling to get away to immediately being dead was Not Good for me#i mean the only comfort i got from it is that they die on the spot#not a single one is alive after being in contact w electrified water#but still#it was Shocking#so now i want to do Something#i can’t do anything about the demand of turkeys#but maybe i can do something about the conditions people have to work in#and esp the salary#minimum wage is a slap in the face
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got to play kaveh's hangout and i understand him as a character so much better now but he's too much like me that i'm like "woah, hold it, haha wait a min-" still love him 🫶🏽
i think majority of people are like that with kaveh. hes so relatable, its interesting to see how many click with him/see bits of themselves in him
idk how to describe it but everything makes him feel so close and more human than other characters in there
(but i get it AHAHH i was the exact same with haitham bc he like me fr and i love every trait and thing about him that i used to find tiring about myself until i got tricked into self acceptance. kinda funny ending up loving a character whos like you and makes u learn things)
#ppl out there telling you youre broken and cold and impossible to love and making you believe youre the only one in the world#who is like that and then some fictional dude pops up like hey youre not im just like you and its fine. we are fine#im babbling but yes relating to some characters can be so healing and helpign#anw anw#reply
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the funniest thing about writing charden is that they can either fucknasty with approximately zero leadup or be like two opposing magnets that I'm trying to push together
#11k and theyve been fucking dancing around each other like hold on....#post 16 charden is so. theyre both so *normal* that it's impossible to blow past the stuff theyve both been coming to realizations about#it's the fact that charlie's so tired and done and so not willing to take any shit because he can see behind the curtain#they're both. past it. dennis is willing to let go of everything he's built. all the defensive walls and lies and this persona he's upheld#but it literally makes it worse because it's just like ok. what do we do with all this. it's like an open wound now#there's no hiding it but neither of them know how to stop it from bleeding all over the place#dennis has been in this place since season 12 when he finally allowed himself to acknowledge how damaged and dysfunctional things were#and charlie in s15 in a similar way. both acknowledging this fundamental brokenness due to their childhoods and guiding figures growing up#these guys don't know how to be people. they don't know how to function properly. and it becomes apparent when they Try to be better.#their default is to hurt and be hurt#instead of stitching up the wound they just inflict another on someone else hoping that they bleed out first#they can't have sex because dennis is too focused on trying to protect charlie from himself to see that he's asking charlie to hurt him#it's one or the other. the only way to oppose hurting someone you care about is by letting them hurt you.#i'm normal 👍
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rehyperfixating on a children’s game that came out in 2015, is one of the least popular entries in its series, and has minimal content, the vast majority of which i’ve seen before. the series has been dead for nearly 10 years, nothing has happened recently that would warrant anyone’s returning interest in it, very few of my friends give a shit about this specific game, and those few who played and liked it in the past have no reason to give a shit about it at all right now. i have been coasting through on a playthrough i’ve been doing with a friend who’d never seen the game before and who was kind enough to let me show it to them, but we just beat the game, and after we play the epilogue we will have nothing left to do, and on top of that they really have just been humoring me as they have their own very strong current hyperfixation they would much rather be thinking about. also i am depressed enough right now that literally nothing else except for waiting to play this game with them and playing this game with them and watching them enjoy it at least a little has been able to briefly quiet the constant cacophony in my head screaming how much of a worthless, lazy, constantly-failing miserable excuse for a living person i am and how much better everything would be, especially for myself, if i stopped existing lately. would anyone like to volunteer to 🔨💥⚒️Kill Me With Hammers🔨💥⚒️ because i would really like for someone to 🔨💥⚒️Kill Me With Hammers🔨💥⚒️ right now
#me.txt#delete ltr#and i like hearing my friends talk about and show me their interests but it isnt enoughhhh its not enough right now to make my head SHUT UP#right now the only thing that can give me energy is a hyperfixation like this#but with enough content and engagement from others to keep subsisting me without hitting a wall#SOMETHING THAT IS EXTREMELY DIFFICULT TO DO WHEN YOU CANNOT DRAW OR WRITE‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️#BECAUSE WHEN NOBODY IS MAKING ANYTHING!!!!! AND YOU CANT MAKE ANYTHING FOR YOURSELF!!!!!!!!! ALL YOU CAN DO IS CURL UP AND STARVE‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼#immmm so sick of the only thing that makes being alive feel worth it being hyperfixations theres nothing REAL tying me down i cant stand it#because i am!! too broken!!!! to ever achieve any of the things that WOULD give me a real solid tangible reason to keep living!!!!!!#like a stable job!!!! a place of my own!!! a partner whos dedicated to me above everyone else and me to them in return!!!!!!!#a LIFE that isnt just constantly failing over and over and waiting for the shoe to drop and to lose everything all over again!!!!!!!!!!!!#i dont have that!!! and i cant have that!!!!! because im too broken to be able to cultivate and maintain it!!!!!#and the only way. to fix myself enough to be able to do so.#would be to HAVE ENOUGH STABILITY THAT ID HAVE THE TIME AND ENERGY TO PUT INTO FIXING MYSELF AND HEALING#i cant fix myself without stability and freedom. and i cant get stability and freedom unless i’m fixed#so it is. literally impossible!!!!!!!#impossible to create my own concrete solid reason to be here.#impossible for me to even create anything to feed the fixations that are my backup reasons.#theres nothing!! nothing!!! i have nothing new to leap to and ive been dwindling for too long and i think i am about to drown#im just waiting for time to tick out. for me to fuck up too badly to come back from one last time and get found out and punished.#and then? theres nothing left. theres literally nothing else left for me
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