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I am going to answer this one myself and just drop it regardless of the schedule because itâs my game lol
Warden M. Tabris (you will not ask her first name if you like your head connected to your body) probably is mildly amused + has a generally positive opinion of Leth, but she is very quiet and generally unimpressed- looking so she would make Leth uneasy. She mostly just talks with the people sheâs closest to + the most genuine with (Sten, Morrigan, Zevran, hardened!Leliana) so she has a tendency to make people uncomfortable.
Vigilance Hawke eh⌠sheâs so tired =( Idk if post-DA2, cynical + bitter Hawke would get along too well with Leth, who would probably remind her of her younger self. Sheâd think Leth was being kind of naive by spending so much time doing whatever their friends want without question (Vi did not kill Anders, but she didnât like being lied to about the Chantry thing and she felt betrayed. She was a little⌠idk carefree and flippant during DA2, but not after =/). Leth would be wary. Vi is dangerous + sharp.
I think Leth would be a bit overwhelming for Revas Lavellan, honestly? Sheâs very diplomatic + reserved and the whole *everything* with Inquisition made her feel so isolated and and disconnected from people. She was very lonely and was hyper-aware that she was in a precarious position as a Dalish elf in the middle of an almost entirely human organization, and then the one person she managed to form an intense connection with turned out to be FenâHarel lol. So she would be very polite and outwardly friendly with Leth, but they wouldnât⌠hang out. Leth respects her a lot, though + she influences their thoughts about/decisions around Solas.
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DAO: Leth would not like Wynne, Oghren or Alistair. Wynne + Alistair would annoy them, Oghren they like⌠would want him dead lol. They would think Shale is amazing. They like Morrigan but their questions might irritate her, and they would DEFINITELY annoy Sten. They would get along with Leliana! Fashion + assassination? Match made in Heaven! They would attempt to kill Zev on sight, but eventually decide the reward was not worth it and then they would get along famously. Bringing Dog so many treats. Loghain, they would actually really like, I think. They love grumpy people! Love bothering them!!
DAA: still stabbing Oghren with knives. Velanna⌠they get her, but sheâs too intense about stuff for them. They like DAA Anders and Sigrun, although Sig would probably not approve of their rampant disregard for the law and complete lack of remorse about it. They would have a lot of questions for Justice, but he would hate them, so they would just fight lol. Nathaniel would bore them.
DA2: Isabela + Leth would be an amazing/terrible combo lol. Varric is very special to themâ first mentor that like⌠isnât intense and harsh and paranoid lol. They would detest Aveline and Sebastian. Merrill they would adore and would happily enable whatever inadvisable experiments she was doing and ask a million questions. DA2 Anders is too intense for them. Fenris⌠theyâre sympathetic, but Iâm not sure theyâd know how to handle him. Bethany would probably bore them a little tbh, but theyâd think she was really sweet.
DAI: oh boy. Well they would/do like: Dorian, Leliana, Bull, Varric and ESPECIALLY Sera (particularly post-inquisition). They would have mixed feelings on Cole (they do NOT want to talk about their issues, but they do have SO many questions for him and think heâs fascinating), and Solas (SO many questions, again, but DAI Solas would make them suspicious and theyâd think he was too uptight). Blackwall.. theyâd be bored by him and suspicious of him pre-reveal, and chill with him after. Vivienne, they admire her intelligence, poise and style, but they really hate the nobility so much. I donât think Vivienne would like them, though lol. Theyâd feel bad for Cullen, but probably not like him. Theyâd like Cassie okay, but the piety is a bit much for them. Leth is like⌠maybe the only person who doesnât get along with Josie lmao, they cannot stand the Antivan nobility/merchant princes. She tries so hard but they are so resistantâ maybe she could wear them down, eventually?
Hey! Itâs Friday! That means itâs Rook Intro Hour <3
How it works: I ask you a question about your Rook(s) and you answer it with as much brevity or verbosity as you desire. You can do this whenever you want, and Iâll reblog it + add some comments! Thereâs no time limitâ if you want to do the older ones, they are collected here! (The post is updated on Fridays!)
Todayâs Question(s): Letâs do something special, today, to celebrate DA. What would your Rook think of your other DA protagonists? How about the other companions? Is there anyone they would particularly like or dislike? Why? What would the other protagonists/companions think of Rook?
Answer as much or as little as you like. Hope youâre well <3
#dragon age#veilguard#rook#the rook introduction hour#veilguard spoilers#datv spoilers#dao#daa#da2#dai#Hawke#warden tabris#inquisitor lavellan#Lethanavir de Riva#M Tabris#Vigilance Hawke#Revas Lavellan
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American Television after 5 years of pushing for queer representation: I hope you wanted unnecessary drama, angst with a maybe resolution, and three unfulfilling seasons of questionably written flirtation. And that all comes before anything is half-confirmed with a singular lukewarm kissing scene between two conventionally attractive, white bisexual women!
Thai Television .3 seconds after they figured out queer content is marketable: Did you want something kinky, soft, or stupid? Did you want cat ears? Weâve got cat ears! Weâve got safe/sane/consensual OR off-the-charts bad etiquette BDSM. Weâve got college students out the ass! As long as theyâre an engineer or architect, choose your flavor. Do you want an age gap or classmates? Something for adults? Teens? Everyone was childhood besties, how about that??? This is a short order restaurant and I will flip you some gays like theyâre hotcakes, just tell me what you want.
#yes i am aware that this simplifies a lot of larger cultural and sociopolitical issues#yes i am aware that gay marriage is legal here and not in thailand#yes this is a joke please do not come for my very short wig#i am so tired#anyway#thai bl#american tv#teen wolf i'm looking at you#also supernatural#and the 100#jesus christ in heat there's so many examples#too many#kinnporsche#love in the air bl#lita the series#kpts#bad buddy#bed friend#meow ears up#between us#uwma the series#between us the series
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yOu'Re gOiNg fOr a LiTeR? | "Habs react to Quebec Maple facts", 10.22.24
#guys this is not becoming a regular thing this is just the mental illinois breaking through but ALSO I SAW THIS AND SCREAMEDDDDD#they did this For Me. those are all my guys. like yes yes we know about xhekovskĂ˝ but thatâs my adopted austrian son david reinbacher!!!#thatâs my baby goalie carey price time travel cowboy son cayden primeau!!!! and i just LOVE that they were like#âyeah so one of them is gonna be a bitch in both pairs. & yeah weâre gonna make them lose.â & i am HERE for it. you know the media day vid#where they asked all of them who was brat on the team and like 75% said slaf which we all KNEW? yes. correct. even more evidence godddd#also empathize so much with him because i hate feeling stupid & he is notably like. a very smart guy w/good awareness of broader society#and sorry to get like this on a silly little post iâm about to fanfiction-ify before i have xhekovskĂ˝ hours but so much of this goes back#to the xenophobia in the nhl and how we treat players (not only that. people in north am/west tbh) whose first language is not english#and degrade/discredit them and their intelligence by virtue of their multilingualism and how we even think about multilingualism as a whole#e.g. the sense that certain languages are perceived as more âvaluableâ capital/the support that SHOULD be there for language learning simpl#is not from what i can tell in the nhl so even if you wanted to foster an environment of intercultural competency theyâre doing nothing to#support it. the stories!! of so many guys! reliant solely upon their teammates for basic necessities! WHERE is your language acquisition#programming. sorry the linguistics language and culture attempted to jump out there & i am not conveying what i want to say at ALL. anyway#juraj's slow descent into madness as u can SEE him visibly getting more & more over it & done is my roman empire. like he's having fun#at first he's laughing 'what is this whiskey?' & i AM thinking that toothy little grin at arber with the jerkoff hand motion about the mapl#syrup only taking a few minutes to come (out) was a dig. lord knows arber deserved it with his shorts pulled all the way up like GOD the me#you put here to wear slutty little 3" shorts live in cold CANADA and have to cover up their thigh tattoos. what a travesty. and the amount#of THIGH in this video i- biting. arber's hairy legs slaf's manspreading more as he gets frustrated & arber teases him i. and DAVID????#on a completely different note cayden with his face covered is giving me INTENSE brainworms i have the most unhinged storylines for him#AND THE BRYNDZOVE HALUSKYYYY everything past 2:00 is gold. david's tired sighs. slaf hating it here. arber having the time of his life#'taste' 'that's not an advantage' DAVID kill him. 'maple syrup specialist... normal guy đ¤ˇ' slaf you are the WORST loser and ily for it#arber defending his wife w/his life... juraj's the smartest guy in the room & arber's on his leash about it. it goes both ways (to be cont)#juraj slafkovskĂ˝#arber xhekaj#david reinbacher#cayden primeau#montreal canadiens#i'm xhekovskĂ˝ posting leave me alone i'm also *****
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donât mind me, just going to queue up some amazing fics while i sulk a little about not participating in kinktober đĽ˛
#â yap central#tw vent#now im just gonna ramble a little in tags bc itâs basically my diary#i am fully aware that this is 110 a âmeâ problem but that doesnât stop me from going into a sad spiral âđťđ#i am very excited to read all my friends kinktober fics and i will devour them all MARK MY WORDS#idk i just find myself a little upset by the fact that im not participating#firstly i am NOT confident in my smut writing abilities#secondly the few times I have done it it just really killed my motivation to write#found it boring and v repetitive#but thereâs something about seeing so many people participate#so many talented writers all gathering#creating super creative ideas and concepts and GOSH PEOPLE ARE AO TALENTED#AAAAND the state is the fandom right now is very smut centred#which is absolutely no problem i mean i read and reblog smut all the time#itâs just a little rough yk#comparison really is the devil#idk been a rough day at work and im just tired I suppose#ANYWAY I WILL DEVOUR ALL THE KINKTOBER FICS#YOURE ALL CRAZY GOOD AND I ADMIRE YOU ALL
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I CANT I CANTTTTTTT I WILL LITERALLY EXPLODE RJIKNHGKRSBKFUCKNHJHFBNJEA JFHBAEJHBFJHBHBHBHBHBBAZHJDBAJHDBAJKHBDJKNA????A//////!?!!!!!!!!??!!???!?!?!??!! I CANNOT I LITERALLY NOT THE CAN I CANTTTTTT RAUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
#â ď¸WARNINGâ ď¸TAGS R SUPER FUCKING LONG I NEEEEED TO RAMBLE ABOUT LOVE AND DEEPSPACE I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS#SUGGESTIVE ART? NSFW? LITERAL GODDAMN PORN? LIGHT WORK NO REACTION#POV ROMANTIC OTOME GAME SHIT WITH THE TINIEST HINT OF SPICE??? I CANNOT ITS TOO MCUH I ITS AUGHHH IM JNUHJHFUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK#IM LIKE FUCKING PLAYING THIS GAME WITH A HAND COVERING MY EYES WHILE PEEKING ITS TOO MUCH#I AM LOOKING AWAY EVERY SECOND IM NOT STRONG ENOUGH FUCKUNGBHGJGHJHGHGBJJH#I HATE HATE HATEEEEE (not rly) IT WHEN THEY GET NEAR U ITS AUGH ITS SO WEIRD I PUT MY PHONE FURTHER AWAY FROM ME OUT OF EMBARASSMENT#SOMETIMES I LOSE MY IMMERSION AND GET SELF AWARE AND THINK TO MYSELF THIS IS SO FUCKING WEIRD... THIS IS WHY I DONT PLAY OTOME GAMES DUDE#like no hate to otome games its just way too much for me i get way too embarassed abt playing them its def a me thing#ok first of all the combat is p ok actually it reminds me of pgr and hi3 altho i like pgr better :] (lee my beloved)#i did burst out laughing when i found out abt it cause i thought it would be like mysme and its just visual novel shit but its really okay#also i did a bit of thinking as to why i dont find the charas super appealing & its cause theyre obv manifactured to b 'the perfect guy'#like you know how pugs were bred to be cute but end up deformed and stuff? yea kinda like that#im not saying theyre deformed but thats the vibes im getting#deformed pug vibes#the jp vas are pulling thru though#ALSO I AM SO FUCKING TIRED OF GACHA pleaseee i alr play hsr + gi + /occasionally/ pgr and stopppp i hate the gamba aspect of the games#AND IM NOT JUST SAYING THAT BC I DIDNT GET THE CARD I WANT#.................. OKAY SO MAYBE I DIDNT GET WHAT I WANT THE POINT STILL STANDS#i like them (reluctantly) all so far ? idk no one is rlly my fav yet tbf im still at ch. 2 so..#theyre all cute ig zayne is nice maybe i dunno i like his shoulders......? hes very cold tho cause haha ice powers#i call him elsa in my head#xaiver is also nice? hes cute? hes sleepy n shit#rafayel is kinda goofy? aloof? but in the 'she's so crazzzzzzzzzy! i love her!' way (look it up if u dont know) and im not super into that#hes the one whimpering though so it is what it is#overall i think ill keep playing until i get the card i want ill also prolly play it on my laptop instead cause its super laggy on my phone#idk how ill deal with the combat part tho but thats a problem for future me lolol#okay yea idk if anyone is still reading this but i dont want my irls to know that im playing this game so here we r#idk why im using the tags to ramble its way more fun like its more casual i think#OKAY YEA BYE#frambling...?
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Hey, what do you listen to your cds with:)?
my stereo + 5 disc cd changer ! :]
bonus of all of the cds i picked up this month <3
(the 3rd is pool kids' s/t album. the quality isnt great w lighting but i found them recently and liked this album!)
#before the vinyl community comes after me about having my vinyl player on a speaker-#just know- i am very aware that it can damage records! i am not playing my vinyl. havent figured out a different set up#thank u for asking fox omg#i will always talk abt my stereo <3. its one of my special interests. getting back into buying music again because i want to use it#and im just tired of streaming. physical music hits better! more of an experience#only problem is i have so many albums i want!!!!!! and money!!!!!#hope you can see the spines at all??#billys replying to asks#music
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Quick Sims Ramble
I know I donât post sims stuff on my blog (plan to in the future), but Iâve a simmer since 2017 and Iâve got thoughts.
I still remember some cc creators throwing tantrums bc EA threatened to uphold their 2-3 week (14-21 day) rule for paywallsâand proceeded to do absolutely nothing. Many of those posts from back then are still up btw, you can easily see what your favs think of you and how some of them see you as a walking wallet.
Speaking of cc creators and modders crying over money, Curseforge, why do you continue to use it? Itâs been months now since that tweet of Overwolf (CFâs owner) explicitly stating theyâre donating to the IDF, so Iâm gonna assume most of you have had sufficient time to read about it and understand why itâs an issue. Of course, grace is to be afforded to those who are late to the party, but I think itâs crazy to know what theyâre doing and willingly continue to support. Itâs got to be the money.
The website ugly and janky as hell, too, so itâs GOT to be the money. đ
And if money is the problem, doing Early Access via Patreon is always an option. Ko-Fiâs an option. Gumroadâs an option. You got options that actually look good, raise your standards, I beg. And thereâs free alternatives such as Google Drive, Mega, OneDrive, SimsFileShare; thereâs simmers on this platform right now who are willing to give you a SFS code for free. And what about NexusMods? Iâve seen people post their cc and mods there.
Point is, you got options. So, why are you all acting like deleting your content off one gutterbutt platform is gonna bring the end of the world? All you have to do is release it for free after 14-21 days, and if you do so consistently, people will willingly donate money to support youâbecause youâll be showing yourself as a reliable content creator who makes good content they like. You can get your money. CF is not the end all, be all of modding platforms.
So, please stop throwing tantrums and giving fifty-leven reasons why you canât migrate off one platform.
#if you canât tell i donât really like the curseforge platform#even when i was getting minecraft mods years ago i thought it was ugly#the new website design is uglier but i digress đż#iâm just scrolling through tumblr and tired of seeing modders make excuse after excuse#if you not real just say that#itâs as simple as that#and yes this is in reference to me finding out little ms sam is zionist#zionism ainât sexy#and itâs not anti-semetic to be anti-zionist#be wise not to conflate the two as many jewish tumblr and twt users have stated a million times before#i would like to specify that i am not jewish#i am black and i am well aware of a genocide when i see one#you cannot claim to be apolitical while continuing to knowingly use a platform that supports/is conducting genocide#especially when you state âpersonal reasonsâ as your excuse when you really mean âi want moneyâ#i want money too but you donât see me turning a blind eye or being complicit to a platform#iâve retweeted gofundmes and have been keeping up with the news on the matter#even though i donât post anything on tumblr my friends can confirm and vouch for me that iâve been pro-palestine based on our discord chats#so my stance on the matter should be very clear and i am not above blocking people#anyways this is developing further away from the original sims topic but i just needed to get some thoughts out#itâs insane seeing people in this community act like cf is the holy grail and theyâll die if they leave#PLEASEEE stand up and get a hold of yourself itâs not the end of the world#respectfully all iâm saying is: get a grip#ts4#the sims 4#the sims community#sims discourse
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#you've to understand that i like billy and#him being queer and also having a bf who was actually shown onscreen ...and them being loveydovey...is a huge win#i am not emotionally invested in them coz I don't know this couple#like at all#also they are like kids and being a grown ass queer woman#my interest in them is very much like an elder sister being supportive of their kid brother or sumthing#as for agatha and rio#they have set it up as romantic antagonists#we have had some very obvious moments of anger/bickering/longing/tenderness#i care about them as individuals and i want to see more of them together#i know it's toxic co dependent unhinged#I don't know what else to say#I don't expect them to get a happy ending#hell I don't even expect them to reconcile in current timeline#but i do want to know more about their relationship#they have mad chemistry#and since this is a limited series and I won't be seeing them past this blip in the mcu's one good turn#i want to consume as much as possible#they compel me#and that's that#I don't know how to feel about all this negativity discourse tbh#i am aware it happens in fandom spaces all the time...have been burned too many times#this is why I don't even bother participating anymore ..#people on both sides need to chill#and ffs will there be a time when discourse happening on some other social media stop bleeding onto here?#i am just fed up of the preemptive policing#wlw couples are so fucking rare and especially with most of the shows always getting cancelled#i just want one good thing#i am tired can u tell#tag ramblings
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One of the dumb things I do at home is walk around while reading (something I'm fairly adept at but does cause consistent minor to occasionally major issues)
Due to a natural disaster I now temporarily live in a state with something I have a phobia of (again), and have encountered several times in the house in just the week I've been here, so now I have to carefully scope out the entire room every time I walk around and maintain a situational awareness that is truly exhausting to maintain
True home is safety, and true safety is the safety to do silly things without fear of disproportionate consequences
#Helene made my home unhabitable for an indefinite amount of time#so now I live in Texas again#somewhere I swore never to move back to#because it has hurricanes and cockroaches and bad laws#and twice in my life in the 10 years I lived here I woke up with a cockroach on my face#and there's been so many cockroaches in this house already#when I lived here I had constant situational awareness at home because abusive home life and cockroaches#and these people aren't abusive but they are my in-laws and very stressful even though they're great in many ways#I am so tired#and miss home#had a serious internal debate today about moving back despite the conditions#it would be stupid buuuuuuuuut#not living with extroverts#the amount of things I can do while simultaneously reading is impressive and stupid#it's been a week and a half and I'm already homesick RIP#high revelations as I deal with homesickness yay#yes I said something
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#cops tw#bro I cannot handle one more thing happening istg#got pulled over on my way home after a 13 hour day#was already scared to drive at night and that just confirmed that Iâm right to be scared#it was for running a red light n it was one of those situations of just not having time to stop on yellow#I was fully aware as it was happening that I was either going to slam on my brakes in the intersection or run a red and I could see the cop#so I knew I was getting pulled over either way I just hoped the yellow would be longer than .5 seconds. not so lucky#except I also Am so lucky bc he let me off with a warning#ig bc I donât have any sort of serious history + with it being 420 once he saw I was sober he prob went easier#itâs the second time Iâve been pulled over in my life tho and itâs scary bc this is the first time since the accident#which maybe that was also ok bc it wasnât my fault#I just know every warning or unlucky moment costs u more in the future if u happen to get unlucky again#like I know I got out of that bc Iâm white. it was still a scary moment bc there were multiple cop cars#so itâs like is this guy abt to ruin my life am I gonna lose my license for being at the wrong place wrong time#when Iâm already salty to be driving this late involuntarily#so itâs like I got unlucky And very very lucky#I just hate the confirmation that u can get pulled over at any given moment#I constantly rehearse every possible convo w cops in my head bc if u come off disabled u can die#or get arrested or whatever#and then they like donât follow the script and u didnât expect this to happen to u today anyway and I get flustered#anyway my point is. Iâm fucking exhausted and too many things keep happening#itâs long day after long day w no end in sight rn and Iâm like half asleep every day#I just want to sleep. without feeling like Iâm already tired tomorrow#itâs too much. just all of it#and on top of it all. itâs 420 so the whole dorm building is basically a cloud of weed#happy u guys are having fun but u are physically harming me in my home#mine#txt#vent post#personal
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having a moment about comics again. love those silly little things
#citrine speaks#like!!!!!#yes obviously comics have. so many issues. esp big 2 comics yknow.#but god as a medium????#so insanely cool????#i love them so much and i always forget HOW much until i sit down and read them and am just. heart shaped about it#and i have a local shop now!! finally got over The Fearsâ˘ď¸ last year and have been THRIVING there#its a cozy lil place and they know me now and it makes me :)#the main cashier guy walked up w/ my preorder without even asking my name today HJKSDFHJKDFS#i was like oh ok cool im known. people are aware of me. odd but ok. (<- delighted by the concept of being known by others)#and!!!!! and and and#for me Personally. i've got this walmart version of aphantasia goin on which For Me means my mind's eye is uhhhh glitchy. so#Reading reading can be soooo very tiring. anything to do with visualizing people or places or things is exhausting#so having my silly little picture books!!!!!! love that for me#soooo glad to be alive and im grateful to be alive in time to experience Comics.#anyway. shutting up now. hope yall are good. mwah.
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#feeling very. Bad lately#in a despondent 'there is no future at least not for me' kind of way#hard to feel optimistic about anything. if I think for more than five minutes about the more than immediate day to day future#I get lost in a fugue of scenarios that will never come to pass because I'm too willing and ready to just be a tool and not a person#to everyone in my life and somehow still pretend day in and day out that I'm actually living a life#I constantly feel like I'm sixteen years old and never got the guidebook for life beyond hs#don't have a job and can't find one without access to transportation and my hours would be severely limited by my caretaking duties#ostensibly I have all the free time in the world right and just absolutely no drive to do anything at all with it#except lay in bed and suffer anxiety over everyone else's problems and my limited/un-ability to solve all of them#logically I am aware this is ridiculous and self-sabotaging and also impossible and also NOT on me to fix#but I've never been any good at treating myself the way I feel the desire to treat everyone else. my problems aren't worth fixing etc#life is and just always has been something that happens to other people#and most days I'm fine with that. I can find some silly interest to lose myself in and not think about it.#I'm very good at disappearing somewhere else. I don't need to exprience anything. my brain is great at theater#but right now it's just nothing. and so reality crashing in on many sides at once is destroying me a bit#I've also got a migraine right now so that helps tremendously. obviously#maybe if I make dinner now before I become completely useless I can just go to sleep early#I know this'll pass. It is what it is. I'm just Tired. and wish everything were different. y'know.
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okaaaayyy finally watched I saw the tv glow :^)
#liked it a lot on a lot of levels. visuals n soundtrack n acting was great. rly subtle n cohesive n effective#i wanna sit with it a little to digest it and maybe rewatch#but unfortunately i didnt get the same emotional resonance a lot of ppl did from it.. possibly bc i was watching w other ppl#but i dont think its that i think i just struggle to connect meaningfully w things that are like. what if the choices u didnt make#alienated u from the world and ur sense of self n what if the life u were living was a hollow bubble separate from the real world etcetc#bc like yeah man im very aware of how unreal my life n the world around me feels at times. and it isnt bc im holding myself within#tight limitations/constraints in order to hide parts of me from myself or forcing myself to be smth im not in order to engage w society#like im just mentally ill n the dissociation n derealisation are symptoms of that..#i can 100% understand why so many queer ppl feel so strongly abt it n the gender stuff implied in it#but thats just not my experience of queerness personally. its never been smth ive had to grapple with much#like yeah i havent fully figured out my gender shit. but im ok w that its not holding me back from living the life i want to be living#my sense of self is just so far divorced from my physical body and the physical world around me..... idk im too tired to articulate this#but that aside i did rly like it as a movie! and it was very heartbreaking.. just not in a way that struck me super personally#which i was rly hoping it would ahh sorry everyone đ but hey maybe thatll come after i think abt it some more#lots of cool effects too i liked the different ways they did the moon face thing. i liked how effective the whole distortion of memory#and nostalgia etc was done visually.. aesthetically very yummy. aw man..#i didnt even cry i was rly hoping it would make me cry...... :-(#makes me feel like im missing out on smth cuz everyone else ive seen talk abt it got hit so hard by it#just made my peace w being on the outside looking in i guess.. i shook out all my regrets and what-couldve-beens as a depressed teen#n now im just here to vibe forever..... đ i am toooooo tired to be typing i just keep saying the same thing over an dover probably#maybe a 7 or 8 out of 10 movie for me i think which is still pretty damn worth it#okayyy brushing my teeth and going to bed cuz i wanna go climbing tomorrow so need to rest up âźď¸#sorry i dont want to rain on anyones parade genuinely did think it was a great movie im glad others are feeling it so intensely#ahhhh!!!!#.diaries
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Santa baby are you really there?!
*hears a voice in my backyard*
FUCK SKIN WALKER
- you make Yan skinwalker iâll do anything to get a skin walker to love me ⌠yes I am 100% mentally stable
I'm not sure if you had something horror-esque in mind, because my immediate idea was Reader accidentally getting cursed and continuing her life completely unaware with a ""dog"" everyone is freaked out by, but she finds it cute. So more like dark comedy vibes. You be the judge. :D
Disclaimer: I have changed the name to Shapeshifter as to not delve into potentially offensive takes on native folklore. Thank you for informing my European ass.
Yandere!Monster x Reader [Shapeshifter]
On your last hiking trip, you've stumbled upon a helpless, lost dog. Or rather, it stalked you down to your cabin and spent the night in front of your window. You didn't have the heart to abandon the poor soul and so you brought it home with you. Strange things have been happening ever since and no one knows how to tell you that the monstrous coyote-like creature might be to blame. You're oblivious to everything.
Content: female reader, dark comedy, monster romance, reader is cursed and proud
It wasn't your intention to return home with a new pet. Some might say it was written in the stars, this fateful encounter of yours. You had finished packing your supplies for a day-long hike, vehemently refusing to join your group of friends that would be guided around by a native. Theyâd warned you many areas of the mountainous forest were supposedly cursed or haunted, so you just scribbled the limits on your makeshift map and promised to stay on the main trails. After all, this was your chance to commune with nature. As the sun begun to set, you wondered if going by yourself was indeed a smart idea, given your lack of spatial awareness and difficulty to navigate maps. You flipped the piece of paper several times, deep in contemplation. Could it be that youâve reached the forbidden lands? You quickly surveyed the area: based on the stuffed rag dolls hanging from old branches, and the animal skulls arranged in patterns among patches of burnt grass, it was very much a possibility. Perhaps the improvised slab that said âStay awayâ in dripping crimson letters shouldâve been enough of a warning, but you assumed theyâd just been creative with trail markers.
You didnât have the time to panic. Just as you were furrowing your eyebrows in a final attempt to decipher the map (at the time upside-down), your ears picked up a faint shuffle of leaves. Further away stood a dog, its glossy eyes fixated on your form. A lost puppy? It seemed to be on the larger side, but then again some breeds grow rather fast. You lowered yourself and patted your knees, whispering diminutives in an effort to call the animal over. It remained in place, staring quietly. Alright, then. You focused on finding your way back instead. Every now and then you'd turn back and see the dog, motionlessly eyeing you at a constant distance. Oh, dear. Was it lost? Frightening affair.
Back at the cabin you told the others about your discovery, with a hint of worry in your voice. You hoped the little pup had found proper shelter. You'd expected a similar reaction coming from your friends, but one of them suggested: "What if it was some shapeshifting monster? There's many legends and stories from the area." Everyone laughed and you joined hesitantly, mildly annoyed by the lack of empathy. That night you barely slept, twisting and turning under the heavy feeling of being watched. You woke up tired and nervous, dragging your feet towards the window for some fresh air. That's when you saw the same forest creature, fully awake and tall in its glory, positioned before your room. This was no coincidence. You had been plagued by the guilt of abandoning a vulnerable quadruped and you weren't about to continue as a passive observer. You strode out without a word and lifted the large dog with a huff, carrying it back in to figure out the transport logistics.
Thus started the unexpected companionship. To you, it's a lovely tale of two lost souls finding one another. Most people seem to disagree. Can you blame them? The rescued puppy you often speak of is, in the eyes of everyone else, a monstrous beast by all definitions. It resembles a coyote more than a dog, but even this description is too gentle. The fur is always raised threateningly and the protruding clusters of fangs remind one of the anatomical anomalies displayed in museums. The eyes, oh, the worst of all perhaps, bottomless depths that pull you in until you run out of air. The creature stares with the all-knowing gaze of a human. "Don't be rude", you snap at whoever dares to point these details out. "It must be a mixed breed or something."
Their persistence is truly ridiculous. You've even had guests run out in panic, claiming the dog stood on its back legs and whispered in a language unknown. Or that its shadow would morph into a grotesque man with claws and crooked antlers. Or that they've found it hunched over your sleeping form, its spine twisted outwards with jagged peaks breaking through the wild fur. Rubbish, all of it.
Strange things have been happening, no doubt, but your adopted fur-child has no blame to carry. You've been trying to distract yourself, going on dates and occasionally bringing potential suitors over. They all vanish overnight, nonchalantly leaving an empty, ruffled bed for you to wake up to. "Am I just unlucky?" You sigh, running your fingers through the coarse fur of your dog. It lowers itself under your touch, visibly enjoying the affection. For a split second, it glances out the window. By the time you come out of your depressed slump, the birds should've finished feeding on the remains. He made sure to tear and grind everything fine enough to not leave any marks behind.
That's how curses work, after all. He didn't expect, however, that you'd be utterly unaware of it. He has to give you the credit, not many people become stalked by an ancient curse and continue their life in blissful ignorance. Even more, for them to just casually pick up the haunting entity and bring it inside their home willingly...You're, uh, certainly a special one. Hence the change of plans. He was supposed to torment you into an early grave, but he's grown rather attached to your bizarre antics. And you do provide some damn good chin scratches. He's therefore satisfied with causing anguish and destruction to anything and anyone in your immediate vicinity instead. Since you've been complaining about the resulting isolation...
You wake up with a gasp, wiping your drenched forehead and checking the sheets. The dog is curled next to you, although its head is now tilted in your direction. "O-oh. It might be the loneliness talking...but I had the strangest dream." How troubling and embarrassing. Your beloved pet had turned into a deformed, monstrous man instead, pinning you down and hungrily grazing your skin with his sharp teeth. Your fearful protests eventually turned into shameless moans, your frail body at the mercy of the mysterious beast. It unfolded so vividly that your core feels sore. You stretch a sheepish hand towards your pet and abruptly stop halfway, noticing the marks diffused into your wrist, like violet smudges of watercolor. What the hell did you do last night?
The dog buries its head under the sheets and nuzzles its snout into your soft flesh. Heh. How many more disappearing guests will be needed for you to figure out your situation? He does find your obliviousness terribly amusing, as well as your willingness to clutch onto him despite his unsightly appearance. He was feeling particularly cheeky and thought of giving you a little scare, only to be once again taken aback by your neediness. He has to wonder who exactly is trapped in this situation, because your reactions to everything he does are frighteningly tempting. Maybe tonight he'll finally let you know, just as you're about to come undone beneath his heaving body. Something like, hmmm. "By the way, love, this isn't a dream." He could even add a little "woof" to tease you more.
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The First Meet - Self-Aware!Zayne
You fell asleep to the sound of Zaynes rapid typing as usual. Donât worry though heâll see you in the morning. pt. 1 here
Self-Aware!Zayne who is so in love with you that he can tell youâre getting sleepy just by the way youâre breathing changes. âIf youâre tired you can rest I'll be hereâ âIâm not asleepâ âYou will be soon I'll see you in the morning just get some restâ You smiled at the thought of actually waking up next to him âCan you imagineâ a deep yawn escaped you âactually waking up next to me?â Self-Aware!Zayne who knew youâd already drifted off to sleep when he said âI wonât have to imagine soonâ he finished out his paper work while listening to your soft snores which were like music to his ears
That night you dreamt of snow covered fields stretching far into the distance. You looked down to see yourself in just the t-shirt you went to bed in âAm I lucid dreaming?â suddenly the wind picked up and snow began to whip past your face burning your cheeks and bare legs with the stinging cold as it went by. âIt's âŚ. so ⌠coldâ you thought to yourself as you looked around trying to see anything in the distance. If youâre dreaming why did this feel so real?
Just then you saw it, a small house off in the distance. You had no choice you were going to freeze to death if you stayed out here any longer. You started running towards the house, but no matter how many steps you took it was as if you werenât moving from the spot you were standing in.
Your feet were swept from underneath you as you fell face first into the icy snow. You tried to stand, but the snow seemed to hold onto you. You yanked at the phantom hands holding you down. Panic soon set in as your fighting attempts were seemingly in vain âHELP! PLEASE! ANYONE!â the snow muffled your final scream as your entire body was covered in heaps of snow.
You awoke with a sharp gasp and your heart trying to beat its way out of your chest. Once your heart rate finally went back to normal you looked around and noticed this âŚâŚ wasnât your room. Youâre so disoriented after that dream that you really hope this isnât one of those dreams where you woke up in another dream. âFuck whereâs my phone?â
âItâs back in your worldâ You froze mid search as fear set-in at the mere fact you werenât alone. You slowly turned your head in the direction of the very familiar voice. It was him. Zayne stood in the doorway holding a mug in his hand. You stared at him wide eyed and confused âIm dreaming I have to be dreamingâ You slapped the absolute shit out of yourself and fell back on the bed screaming in pain and you realized you were in fact awake.
âAre you okay?â Zayne rushed to you grabbing your face to inspect your self-inflicted wound âWhy on earth would you do that?â
âHOW ARE YOU HERE!?â You screamed in his face. Oh hell youâre starting to hyperventilate âThis isnât real this isn't real I wasâŚ.in my room how could IâŚ..â Your voice trailed off as you passed out in Zayneâs arms. He stared down at you with a smile on his face. âI told you I would see you in the morningâ He pressed a soft kiss to your forehead and held you until you woke up.
Hours laterâŚ.
Once Zayne got you to calm down enough to sit and have a conversation he explained how you are indeed in his world now.
Y/N: So you mean to tell me by you speaking to me we made all of this real?!
You waved your hand around to emphasize the fact that you are currently sitting in the living room of a fucking game. Everything looks so real it almost felt like you really were in another world and not just a developed game.
Zayne: I'm not sure exactly how it works but yes together we both made my world as real as yours Y/N: I canât stay here forever Zayne I have a life back in my world my friends and family will be worried sick Zayne: You can come and go here whenever you please Y/N: How exactly am I supposed to do that? Zayne: With my evol ⌠I can transport you to and from your world thatâs how I got you here Y/N: In that frozen deserted waste-land!? I thought I died! Zayne: Im sorry my love but thatâs the only way it works until we can figure out something else
You froze at hearing him call you his love. Your heart was racing just from those two simple words. You tried to speak, but no words were coming out. Zayne seemed to notice that he had you speechless and he took this moment to pull you closer and hook a finger under your chin. âDonât hate me Iâve been waiting so long to do thisâ He pressed the softest lingering kiss on your lips and you couldnât help the way you melted into him. âYou feel so realâ You whispered against his lips.
âI am realâ You stared deep into those endless green eyes. You dreamed of looking into these eyes and here you were. You caressed his cheek then gently pushed him back by his chest. You needed some kind of distance so you could process what was going on. "We're not done talking"
"I figured you would have more questions" He said as he draped an arm over the couch behind you. "Ask me anything"
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Incomparable
fandom: Bridgerton
pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Reader
summary: you donât fit in quite well with the rest of the ton, but you still manage to catch the eye of the Viscount
note: this is for the girlies with resting bitch face, warning this is a fem!reader as much as i prefer a gender neutral reader, the heteronormative regency society just doesnât allow it
this was already once posted before on my since deleted blog by my same current name but has been slightly edited :)
It was only one of the first balls of many and you were already regretting your unfortunate position as a newly presented flower of the season. You never thought you had what it took to be this yearâs diamond, nor its ruby, nor its pearl, or any jewel for the matter. In your eyes you didnât have the effortless glimmer that Daphne Bridgerton had last season nor the graceful steps of this season's ingĂŠnue, Edwina Sharma.
Of course, you had prepared all your life for this moment like every upper class girl. Knowing all that you should to be presented into society. You sat through the pianoforte lessons and even tried your hand at singing (which was a terrible mistake). You learned to embroider from your mother, much to the dismay of your aching fingers which always manage to burn and go numb far too quickly for her liking. You read all the textbooks even though you much preferred novels, never understanding the point of your tutors' comments about men wanting to marry educated girls. Quickly learning as you grew older and more outspoken that gentlemen like to know a woman is well read, but hardly ever that they use that knowledge in conversation.
But somehow, even after the painstakingly long hours at the modiste getting fitted for new dresses and the even longer time you spent getting into them, none of it was enough. Not the lessons, not the newly dropped hem, not the hours of sitting for your hair to be expertly styled and bejeweled by the finest gems your family had to offer. Still every other lady and her mama have had to comment on how you are so far from even the realm of possibly being considered a diamond. You heard their whispers through the silk and lace of their folding fans as clear as the night.
âThey barely graced the Queen with a smile,â
âTheyâll definitely grow to be a spinster with that face,â
Oh, but this wasnât only from the women, of course not, they just have the decency to try and say this behind your back. You are well aware of how men love to grace you with their opinion, despite you caring very little for it. They always have the audacity to say these things straight to your somber face as if it would do you any good.
âYou know, you would be slightly prettier if you smiled,â
âIf you would smile, you would seem much more amiable,â
and most recently,
âI am sure more gentlemen would ask for a dance if you didnât look so miserable, my Lady,â
You had been approached by a well-respected gentlemen named Mr. Hastings when you had escaped your motherâs disapproving clutches to find solace at the refreshments table. Drinking lemonade desperately wishing it were wine. He asked you to dance. Much to your misfortune you couldnât fain a full dance card as the one clutched in your gloved hand was mockingly empty. This left you enduring a dreadfully boring conversation about his horse, how much it had cost him, how much it is actually worth, and just how incredible this horse was. You quite frankly wished to be anywhere else. As would anyone else youâre sure, but while they may have hid that behind a polite smile you showed your boredom evidently in your downturned lips.
But what would be the point in hiding it? You were tired of the facade that enwrapped these balls and society. Everyone was smiling, but was anyone truly happy? Even then who is happy and just goes around smiling like some loon. You were having a terrible time parading around the room with your motherâs stern grip on your arm showcasing you like a piece of meat, or a show ponyâ or to be terribly on the nose, Mr. Hastings prized horse.
Then once you had finally escaped her and found peace hoping to blend in to the wallpaper, you have been made to endure small talk and dance with a man you had little interest in. All while he made you listen to his horrendously dull conversation and he had the nerve to askâ no, to want you to not look miserable. This man who looked like molding swiss cheese and only spoke of his horse.
âI beg you pardon, sir?â
âThat you look as if you are attending a funeral, my lady,â he says as he spins you following the choreography of the dance, âIt is only polite that you smile as we dance.â
His own obviously fake smile is painted across his face, all thin lips and no teeth as he eyes you expectantly waiting for you to obediently heed his suggestionâor more likely it was a sort of social command. Polite society would have deemed you to be all smiles and perfect wit, to ease yourself out of this treacherous conversation you were wormed into with a poised grace or give in to his orders with a sickly sweet smile because it would be rude not to, no?
But no, indeed. You were not going to give in. No matter how many whispered or backhanded compliments you received only on your first night into society. You had seen how your female cousins and older friends had broken their backs to bend to the whims of society. Left behind forgotten ideals to suit their new suitors to get the ring and the wedding that would never even scratch at their fanciful girlish dreams of prince charmings and knights in shining armor. You would not let society break you.
âWell, I would smile if I was having a nice time. Maybe if you said something funny I would laugh or if the conversation was pleasant,â you had stopped dancing now, tired of this day and all the niceties and manners you were to follow.
You stood before him with your jaw clenched and your brows furrowed absolutely seething, âBut you are far from pleasant. All you do, sir, is speak of your race horse and how much it is worth to you. If you care so much about your horse, I wonder why you ever wish to marry when all your attention seems to be going to your insipid horse!â
âWhy you rude, intolerable girlââ
You didnât care any more about the staring eyes of the ton or the gasps from appalled mamas. You would have welcomed all of Mr. Hastings angry words to at least hear something real for the first time all day. But instead he is cut short as the figure of a man approaches your side.
âI beg your pardon Mr. Hastings. How dare you raise your voice to a lady, have you no honor or decorum?â
Viscount Anthony Bridgerton stood before the two of you. Chin tilted upwards and shoulders set back in an unspoken challenge with the less titled man in front of you.
His question goes unanswered, but he continues nodding to you, âI believe the Lady makes a very agreeable point, sir. You speak entirely of your horse and nothing else, this would bore any with a brain in the ton.â
You almost would have laughed if you werenât so shocked. What exactly was the Viscount doing? You hardly ever spoke other than short introductions and nods exchanged while you were in the company of his sister and your friend, Eloise.
But there was not a moment to think on this further as the scene that was forming around you was all too captivating. Mr. Hastings, who it should be mentioned once more felt so prideful of his horse, can be seen visibly shrinking shoulder hunching forward slumping as if he were a little boy who lost a game. He clears his throat, âWell then, I shall take my conversation elsewhere.â
Before he could turn to leave the eldest Bridgerton son stops him, âSir, you have forgotten to apologize to the Lady,â
Mr. Hasting freezes in his place turning to eye the man and you bite your lip fighting the laugh that threatens to erupt at the odious man whose eyes widen and mouth becomes agape like a fish out of water.
âMy apologies,â the words seem to clog at his throat and so he says nothing else. Nodding, âLord Bridgerton...â and your name before meekly making his way through the crowd, his head down avoiding the gazes of the onlookers.
At this point most of the ton had gone back to their conversations around you, though there were still some lingering eyes as the dance floor had been oddly shaped as you and the Viscount remained standing in part of the appointed area. Anthony notices this and leads you further into the crowd.
Once he finds an agreeable spot he stops turning towards you, âI actually do wish to counter your statement, my lady,â he begins. You expect for a moment to be met with some stern lecture from a man who seems to think heâs entitled to an opinion of you as if he were your father (who you also do not think should have an opinion, but alas it is only 1814). Anthony surprises you however as instead he grins and says, âI actually believe Mr. Hastings would marry his horse if the Queen would allow it.â
And you couldnât help but laugh, despite all your pride and pettiness to not grace this event or anyone in it with any pleasurable countenance. You laughed loudly tilting your head back, jeweled neck on display even letting out a small snort against your will. When you finally compose yourself, giggles dying down at the thought of Mr. Hastings in a horrid muddy green suit with a horse in a wedding dress, you canât fight the smile that falls on your lips. Although unnatural to you, the light hearted joke and your vivid imagination make it easy. It lasts for a few seconds before you become very conscious of it as you let your lips fall back to their usual place.
Though if anyone was truly looking for itâ which Anthony wasâ they would see the slight quirk in your lips as you told the Viscount, âIt looks like youâve gained the honor of making me laugh, Mr. Bridgerton.â
âI relish the title, my lady,â he says and you can tell he does from the smile that meets his ears, all teeth and pushed back cheeks. You acknowledge that this might be the realest encounter you have had since your debut. Anthony Bridgerton smiling from ear to ear was a sight to see.
He continues, âBut I do have to disagree with the comments I have been hearing tonight. Smile or no smile you present the ladies looking to wed this season with quite the competition.â
âMe? Hardly, did you not hear my Lord, my countenance would never get me a marriage proposal,â you say fiddling with the hem of your gloves at your wrist.
âI would disagree, I think any reasonable man in attendance would be foolish to not see how incomparable you are, my lady.â
Incomparable.
You fight it like you had once your laugh, but you feel the heat spread to your cheeks and the nerves that begin to twist in your stomach. You didnât need it, but the compliment was well appreciated after a night such as this one.
Giving you no time to compose the fluttering in your chest, Anthony adds, âAny lady who manages to be bold enough to tell Mr. Hasting how insufferable his horse talk is, ranks high in my book.â
âWell you might be the only one, sir,â you try to be as brave as you feel and dare to smile at him, but his gaze causes you to look away bashfully. That is when you notice your mother approaching and wishing not to make a fool in front of the Viscount you excuse yourself, âI do believe my mother has just been informed of the scene I have caused, so if youâll excuse me.â
But before you can turn to go he calls out your name placing his warm bare hand on your own gloved fingers making you turn back to him.
âWould you save me a dance?â
And despite yourself, Anthony Bridgerton manages again to make you smile, âOf courseâ.
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