#anyways just a fun discussion we had
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So my friend commented how they can't relate to Tanjiro and Nezuko's relationship. They explained that they don't act that way towards their younger sister. It made me think that yeah, I can't relate either, but it got me rambling about Nezuko and Tanjiros dynamic cuz of this
I don't relate much to the "eldest child syndrome" because my family didn't quite have that, which is great for my older siblings. Sometimes it feels like the roles for me and my older sister are reversed. Our situation is just weird. Anyways, everyone's family dynamics are different. And I totally get that the eldest child syndrome is a real thing for many people, and I can see why other people could see themselves in Tanjiro too. Even if I don't relate, I still understand, or at least am trying to.
I think the reason why Nezuko and Tanjiro's relationship feels unnatural to some, is because they are suppose to be close in age, but I got the impression that Tanjiro treats Nezuko more like his daughter, but like if you look at Tanjiro's circumstances, it really makes sense. Tanjiro had to take care of his younger siblings very early on, since his dad is frail and some of his siblings like Rokuta were very young. He probably had to learn to fill in the parental role for them. The same goes for Nezuko, who was an eldest daughter. We can also see with the few snippets of human Nezuko that she was on a more equal footing with Tanjiro, since both of them have the shared responsibility of looking after their siblings.
But the circumstances of Nezuko turning into a demon, turned her into a mostly childlike state, and that makes her so vulnerable in many ways. Naturally, Tanjiro's instinct is to be a caring and parental towards her, bc Nezuko now fills in the role that used to be for their much younger siblings. Maybe it isn't the most natural dynamic for them, but their situation isn't natural to begin with.
We've also seen in the modern era, how the descendant siblings interact. They're sibling dynamic feels like something that me and my friend are more accustomed to, and I think it just goes to show that the times are different, and Nezuko and Tanjiro's dynamic was mostly that way because of their difficult circumstances.
So yeah, I guess this really just goes to show that everyone has different family dynamics due to different circumstances.
#my post#me speaks#meta#tanjiro kamado#nezuko kamado#spoilers#kny#demon slayer#kimetsu no yaiba#anyways just a fun discussion we had#oh yeah turning off reblog bc it got personal LOL but feel free to interact w me in the comments#there could be a cultural factors too and yet we say this even though me and my friend are both asian lol
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Fernando Alonso & His Relationship With Cards
I'm sure we're all familar with the cards on the back of Fernando's Vegas GP helmet by now, but did you know his relationship with cards goes a lot deeper?
I. Magic Tricks
You've probably seen or heard someone at least mention Fernando's propensity for card tricks. As far as I can tell he was doing them(publically) as far back as 2003 all the way to as recently as 2018. Even once performing a card trick, with a condom and a teddy bear(!??!?!??!!), in front of Valentino Rossi who said "How was that possible?"(x)
But how did this start? According to James Allen, "Fernando admits to having been heavily influenced by his grandfather, a mercurial figure, who taught him magic and card tricks, still one of his passions away from the race track."(x) And I'm not sure the validity of this one, because I couldn't find an actual source, but apparently he once said: "My parents are responsible for the two things I like doing most - driving and magic tricks. They bought me my first go-kart and a magician's kit."
In several interviews he described it as his hobby off track, and that he loved learning new tricks and surprising others in the garage with them! So clearly cards are pretty important to him both as a hobby but also to who he is as a person since they've been with him just as long as racing has.
II. Card Symbolism in His Helmets
This is the reason I originally made this post, but I thought I should also explain the origins of his card fascination first. As I said, we probably all remember the cards on the back of his helmet in Vegas, but did you know that wasn't the first time he had cards on the back of his helmet?
From 2008-2013, he used to have a pair of cards on the back of his helmets. The symbolisms of the cards themselves as well as the evolution of their design is really fascinating to me! Even more so with the recent development of the card choice in 2023.
Fernando said he wanted to reference his two titles in some way on the back of his helmet and after his friend sent him several ideas, he decided on having two cards(an ace of clubs and an ace of hearts, sometimes pictured with 05 and 06 on them as well), saying: "I picked the cloverleaf [the ace of clubs - Ed] to give me luck, but the only pity is that it doesn't have four leaves!"(X)
2008.
Here's the very first appearance of the cards! They're displayed flat, with the 05 and 06 clearly visible
2009.
Very similar to 2008, but with a slightly different design, and they're maybe a bit more straight with less shadow?
2010.
This is the first major change! I was sad they didn't have the years on them anymore, but then I realized they're sparkly to match with his signature lightning bolts on the top of the helmet!!
2011.
Honestly I'm still somewhat unsure if this is the actual 2011 helmet? It's pretty difficult to find clear photos of the back of helmets from older seasons. It's easiest to find them on replica sites or auction sites so I'm not 100%? But anyways, I like that this has the championship years on the underside of the cards
2012.
This is when I started getting weirdly emotional about the helmets. Do you see how they've progressed from being a centerpoint to being curled up and sad at the bottom of the helmet? Not listing the year anymore??
2013.
Same thoughts as 2012. And after this season, they cease to exist (just like his ferrari chair in the garage, WOAH CALLBACK), until cards make a reeappearance in his Vegas helmet, albeit in a different form
2013 Monaco(Honorable Mention):
For some reason 2013 helmets were easier to find proper pictures of, so I happened to witness this absolute beauty. The creativity of this helmet genuinely blows me away??? Wanting to keep the card motif, but making sure to incorporate it into the rest of the puzzle piece design?? Mwah! There was another special 2013 helmet but they didn't change the cards at all so I really applaud this one
2023 Las Vegas(The Return of The King):
The magnificent return! But look! The cards are different cards! Instead of being two aces, it's now an ace of hearts, a four of hearts(his driver number of course!) and, the, now iconic, representation of himself as a Joker. I literally could not believe my eyes when this helmet was released and I saw the Joker card, what a fucking silly old man....I really wonder if he felt nostalgic having cards on his helmet again or if he didn't think about it all and was just like, "ah cards because Vegas!!!"
III. Why Does This Matter?
*The rest of the post was factual, this is moreso my personal thoughts on the symbolism of the cards/designs
This post spawned from me recently watching the 2010 Bahrain gp and noticing "hey wait a minute...are those CARDS ON THE BACK OF HIS HELMET!?" It's a really tiny detail that's unfortunately covered up by the HANS device pretty much whenever he's wearing the helmet, so it's really difficult to spot! But I became fascinated with the fact that he had cards on his helmet before that recent helmet, and now here we are!
There's something to me about how the design of the cards evolves over the course of six seasons from the cards being front and center to being smaller, more folded up and closer to the bottom of the helmet. As I said, the 2012-2013 ones genuinely made me depressed because it feels, symbolically, like his hopes for getting another Ace are becoming more and more unlikely and falling away until they eventually fall falt and fade away entirely after 2013 and disappear for basically a decade.
But when they return? They're not the same cards! Instead of representing Fernando's championships, they now represent him as a person, displaying his driver number and his persona of being a Joker!! Though I do think it's interesting he happened to keep the Ace of Hearts, even though he talked more about the Ace of Clubs before. I'm not sure it's actually this deep in reality, but I like to think that it's him not letting his championships(and the lack thereof) define him, but rather letting who he is as a person shine and be the centerpoint instead! But on a sadder note, as @suzuki-ecstar said to me, maybe the Aces aren't there anymore because he's lost all hope for a chance at a third Ace entirely :(
#yes its finals week and im up to my eyes in coursework but instead decided to spend like 5 hours researching and writing this post#nah bcs i actually genuinely put more work into this then I think I have all semester dsfjdskjg#that thing about him using a condom and teddy bear in a magic trick genuinely had me crying with laugher. actual tears rolling down my face#<- HOW!?!? WHAT WAS THE TRICK?? its literally inconceivable to me what he did. oh if only there were pics UGH#anyways!! this post was a lot of fun to make!! i really really love the symbolism and design of helmets so this was a rly fun project#and i also went down a lot of rabbitholes while make this and saw many very weird articles from yore#i feel like i make an equal amnt of deranged posts abt seb and nando but i dont know why nando is gifted w all my well researched projects#<- i.e. chair post. that was the same level of research as this one but at least this one i could find actual sources about....#idk theres smth about the extremely long history of nando's history that evokes research posts like this KLAJSLSKDJ#theres just so much that i dont think I ever really see people discussing! so i must create.#haha what was that joke tag i wanted to make abt my researched posts? I think:#normal posts that catie normally makes in a normal fashion#<- one day ill go back and actually tag posts w that. bcs the amtn of research compared to my actual schoolwork is so unwell#fernando alonso#fa14#f1#formula 1#catie.rambling.txt#we do a little bit of f1
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sorry to keep personal posting but my day fucking SUCKED and ended with me dropping one of my brand new earrings from a set that I just finished cleaning down the drain, took the sink apart and still couldn’t find it 🙃
if y’all feel like asking a leverage/misc question for thoughts or headcanons I’d love to answer them in the morning! or even if you just want to say something about your day- I just like hearing from you guys 💖
#or ask me abt my lockwood & co hyperfixation/chat w me about the show#and how I have been egged on my a moot to pursue my cot3 hunger games au (I have never finished a longfic)#(was bored at lunch break and wrote a portion of the berry scene 👀)#boss still owes me more than 2.5k and has been gaslighting me and continues to emotionally manipulate me and my coworkers#and cause serious shit that triggers clients in a THERAPY CLINIC#and has started second guessing my work by asking other employees if my input is ‘accurate’#which caused a flare up in my skin picking AND latent SI#ugh sorry for rambling yall I just need to write this out yk#I need a fucking sugar mommy or something 😭😭😭 I need to get out of this mentally/financially abusive job#not leverage#ask me things#jackie talks#about me#mine#this is the worst place I’ve worked which doesn’t necessarily say too much because I haven’t had many jobs#but one of my former bosses was a [redacted school shooting] denier when we were literally 20 min away from where it happened#which still boils my blood to this day LIKE WDYM YOU THIBK THE GOVERNMENT PAID OFF PARENTS AS A PART OF A CONSPIRACY TO INFLUENCE GUNCONTROL#she would tell a new hire ‘J doesn’t like conspiracy theories’#NO [redacted] I CAN DISCUSS THEM FOR FUN IN CONVERSATIONS BUT URS IS FUCKING RIDICULOUS#EAT A DICK#hmmm I wonder if I still have anger about that lol#ANYWAYS I finally got my intake after waiting 8mo for the clinic I needed to get in and will be starting therapy in a few weeks#🫡🫡🫡
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Ash @ The 5SOS Show Tour Cincinnati
#i just think that Ashton Irwin's sweaty snake tattoo#5sos#5 seconds of summer#ashton#ashton irwin#the 5sos show tour Cincinnati#kh4f post#I had a whole diatribe about this pic but Tumblr deleted it so that's fun 🤨#it has now left my brain but I'm sure it had to do with the sweaty biceps and the star tattoo#the hint of exposed rib on one side snd the whisper of pit hair on the other#something something if only we could see the coin tattoo#he's pretty.#star#arm#sweat#those seem like things i probably discussed#anyways#👹 chomp 👹#the 5sos show tour
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wishing everyone who celebrates a happy easter and an even happier transgender day of visibility 🐣🪩🫶🪽
#went to church with my mom for the first time in years just because we thought it could be fun (it was!) and im thinking about. themes#resurrection and rebirth belongs to trans and nonbinary people and if i was going to pray i would thank god for making me queer !!!#the middle picture is from a disco themed university party we had on (holy) thursday where i had So much fun#(the crucifix earring was Mostly ironic and for the aesthetic)#been experiencing a lot of queer joy lately. as well as some new and complicated but Good feelings about gender. and maybe religion as well#anyway.#easter#religion#gender#tdov#trans day of visibility#lgbtq#queer#mine#💛#religion mention#christianity mention#<- just in case people dont want to see anything to do with religion in the trans tags today (or ever) !! <3 sorry if i missed something#edit: i originally also had a quote from julian k. jarboe here about humanity partaking in the act of creation#but i didnt realize the quote was from a jewish person regarding judaism so i removed it from the association with easter and christianity#the quote itself slaps and idk to what degree different religions and discussions or art about them should be kept separated !!#but im not the authority on that and ofc dont want to make anyone uncomfortable !!
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I read that same fic earlier and I just straight up muted the person so their works don't show up for me anymore lmao
there was also another one like that posted yesterday because the person was mad at something qBad did a couple of days ago while not at all in his right mind and amnesiac, it was odd (not shitting on the person just confused and slightly concerned)
yeah there’s. a lot of misconceptions around qbad rn lmao. It’s one of the reasons Im so obnoxious about him, tbh, so that it’s not JUST the negativity that gets spread. He’s a really good target for the hate rn, because he has a smaller fanbase and his pvp playstyle + lore lead him to all that antagonizing during purgatory, and that gets vented out into fics.
It’s genuinely really interesting, the dichotomy that seems to exist between tumblr and twitter regarding him. Ive heard nothing but slander about bbh from twitter (again, he is not faking his illness, that is a lie), but he’s got a solid enough foothold on tumblr that ive seen more hate towards the fans that the cc, here. which makes sense, given how we take over the tag almost ever day when he logs on. genuine o7 to people who find that obnoxious but thats one of the reasons i overtag so much, for blocking purposes.
anyway i think all the bbh mischaracterization means that we just need to write about him more >:D please this is a call for more bbh centric fics from people who do not hate him/know a little bit about his lore. blease he’s such a fun pov to write i promise
#discourse#<- discussion of it anyway#idk maybe people are spreading lies over here too but i block anyone who doesnt filter their neg/go out of their way to make bad faith#arguments.#i think ita REALLY interesting how seeing all the hate towards bad had me finding myself saltier towards other fans/creators too#so i can understand why these vent fics are being put out yknow sometimes its just really fun to hate a guy#but that’s what neg tags and bashing [character] tags on ao3 are for#on tw/itter where a lot of this gets spread you dont really. Have that#dont mind me ive just been ruminating on this a bunch the past two weeks#ive never been so active in a fandom where discourse had the opportunity to actually reach me#its been p interesting to observe how thats effected the way i say and clarify things#<- rhats the main point of my other post ig because if my gifter is someone who has been seeing nothing but bbh neg after bbh neg comes her#*here and sees me swooning about bbh’s ‘only egg protector’ and ‘no one helps him’ complexes Getting Worse during the end of purgatory#then they dont have the context that im doing so strictly for fun and not putting it on other characters/blaming them for not also swooning#we have media literacy in this house i promise#i would like more characters to have flaws and feel alone and commit incredible sins#anyway. excusez-moi im verbose when im tired and procrastinating#anonymous#shape answers
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My 1 take I can give on current bfdi/tpot "criticism" (which I don't see much of but It Exists) is that from what I've seen is that a good chunk of it can be boiled down to "It's not pre split bfb"
#i try not to post opinions like these a lot cuz#1. i rather have these discussions with my friends if anything#2. I don't use social media as much anymore so I see less discourse#but its like#it kinda baffles me how when i DO see criticism towards the show a lot is just#'its not charcter/story driven and doesnt have/finish arcs'#which. may i remind you#in pre split bfb they didnt finish or halfass them either#it was so ambitious. too much for its own good imo#and sure itd be cool if we had that but#thats just not what the show is#for the majority of its run#i feel like ppl are too postsplit poisoned idk#thats its own can of worms#maybe now that bfdia is continuing ppl See what i mean that when i say#tpot is rly just More of that era bfdi again#sorry but if you want smth more character and story driven you may just want a Different Show#cuz tpot isnt bad for that. It's just not what you want#anyway i think the show is the best it could probably be rn and im having fun#if i want smth more srs i look at other things
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leaving secondary school & no longer doing English classes has made me realise that I actually really like English Lit just the stress of a timed essay made me loose my shit so bad that I fully did not want to go to classes for 4 years.
#dyslexia#like i actually remember alot of the poems we did in the poetry unit & some of them do influence my ideas#and i do genuinly enjoy trying to understand media & characters n shit#like thats fun. i like that#i want to understand stories#just the idea of having to write an essay made me HURGH#(i did go to my classes anyway btw skipping was hard at my secondary & i was a goody two shoes)#like i remember during my yr11 i had the best english teacher ive ever had (wish id had her all 4 years)#(my teacher the year before somehow missed the memo i was dyslexic. ripped into an essay i did at parents evening-#- made me cry and then told my mum she should get me tested for dyslexia 😐)#we did 'an inspector calls' and i had so much fucking fun lmao. She'd have us all have discussions about the book - ask us what we thought#and would take our awnsers seriously! she was so fucking cool man.#ramble#i am rambling
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lmao it’s literally a dumb fucking cartoon show about hell it’s not that deep lmaoooooo- “it’s time to lose your self loathing🎶, excuse yourself, let hope in 😊” 🥺😢😞
#fuck it i’m ashamed to admit i watched and very throughly enjoyed hazbin hotel 😔 feel free to stone me in the square#everyone point and laugh and boo at me#it just had so many beautiful messages and ngl it was silly and fun too and the songs are absolute bangers#my brain just keeps hearing ‘WHAT are we even TALKING ABOUT 😡😡 some CRACKwhore 🤬 who fucked up already 🙄 HE blew his shot like the COCKS in#his mouth 😡 this discussion is senseless and petty 😡🙄💅🏼’ like absolute bangers all around#and loser baby is one of the most beautiful songs ever personally it means so much actually#omg and don’t get me started on poison#honestly the poison music video is what drew me in#i saw it on tik tok and it got me#angel dust as a character is just too real to me personally as a sa victim i find his character very accurate to how my trauma manifested#and it was great rep imo#and then the moment with husk and loser baby just 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹#ah it’s so beautiful#anyways#hazbin hotel#angel dust#loser baby
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also i need people tagging that mask post with “actually i hate masks, i’ll wear them because i have to but i need to remind everyone that i’m the specialest person around and i haaaate wearing masks” to remember that they can just: Not Participate In Posts! sometimes you are not the target demographic for a post and that is okay!
#it is SO ANNOYING.#i think discussions abt not liking masks & wearing them anyways have a time and a place but that’s not here!#also i think it’s sooo funny to be like ‘oh so nobody else here has sensory issues with masks i see!’#doubly funny because i’ve had multiple people do this to me when i make an innocent comment like ‘lmao i love not having to smile’#or ‘lol i love when ppl don’t know i have piercings’#like. yes! i do! it’s like. i have sensory issues with the seams on Almost Every Shirt I Own. i still wear shirts every day!#and many of the shirts with Bad seams are still my favorites!#i also think this is another one of those things where it’s like. these people are seeing posts from people they follow On Line#and assuming that people who just LOOOOVE wearing a mask is the default#(for reference: despite my sensory Issues i’m a person who just LOOOOVES wearing a mask)#and feel. that their experiences are not being Considered#but it’s like. hating masks is the default. actually. the world is full of those people.#outside of my friendgroup everyone i know who still wears a mask (we gotta wear them at work) whines about it#the world is full of people who think they are the exception!!!!#people who are like ‘yay masks!!!!’ are not running victory laps around you lmao. we’re just having fun.
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Fic Trope Tier List!
Tagged by @tumsa 💜
I'm so late to the party that I feel like almost everyone on my dash has been tagged! BUT if you're reading this: Tag! You're it! I want to hear everyones thoughts on fic tropes!
I also defintely did this based on how much I love the tropes themselves rather than how likley I am to read a fic with them.
Honestly, I'll read anything for good characterisation, so if an author I already loved came out with literally *anything* on the list I'd probably give it a whirl!
If you're reading this: Tag! You're it! I want to hear everyones thoughts on fic tropes!
#case in point: I'm beta reading my wife's crackfic despite it very nearly being in the bottom tier#but thats a characterisation thing because most crackfics are just seat of the pants ''wouldnt it be silly if-''#rather than literal hours of serious discussion about who would say what in the 'everybody gets a little kissie from porsche au'#my magnum opus of fic contributions was cry laughing into my cup of tea asking whether Ken knew the thai word for 'knotting'#I can't believe that made it to the chapter ajkdsljfkljer#ask meme#tag meme#magic AU's was such a broad category!! like is this fic going to be an exploration of magic powers or fae and their overlap with characters#we taking the blorbos to hogwarts to find out which ones are brave or smart or kind or racist lmao#like wdym explain#ultimately... it is still an AU. I just really love a canon world character study whether its canon divergent or not :)#I really want to find a good timeloop fic though! I know I started reading one before I had an ao3 but now its gone forever :'(#i fogor who wrote it and what it was called lol#anyway yeaG#this was so fun!#lovely lovely folowers! do this!! <3
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someone talking about the ways media and common tropes/depictions of things that are either explicitly or implicitly linked to marginalized people are demonized and presented badly is not a fucking opportunity for you to flex how you're doing it Differently And Better
#I'll rb the post but I domt want to add it on cause it feels. Not my place maybe#Anyway fun fact! You can think that all you fucking want! Close your God damn mouth about it and figure out if it actually adds to the#Conversation! Marginalized ppl don't have to hear about how you're hashtag Not Like The Others!!! TAKE IN THE INFORMATION AND CONSIDER IF#THE THINGS YOU DO TRULY DEFY STEREOTYPES OR ARE STILL IMPLICITLY INSPIRED BY THESE BIASES!!! AND DO IT QUIETLY OR WITH SOMEONE WHOS WILLING#TO LISTEN! NOT ON THE POST INFORMING YOU OF THE PROBLEMS EXISTENCE#Also I'd move this tag up but genuinely idk if I can do that atm. But I'm LITERALLY guilty of the same shit. I immediately jump to no true#Scotsman the subject because I want to defend it!!! Yes I recognize the pattern is wrong and yes I genuinely believe it isn't necessarily#Inherent! But I still have to confront the fact that it's so prominent and to many people inseparable from the subject#(That being disability and body horror). I will say: my immediate instinct was to disregard any body horror that is just like Real Shit Tha#Happens To People as body horror but that's not helpful! I can't just say well it's not body horror BECAUSE PEOPLE STILL CALL AND SEE IT AS#BODY HORROR!!! I HAVE TO STOP AND CONSIDER THE LARGER IMPLICATIONS. My PERSONAL OPINIONS do not matter and the pedantic discussion is#Something to be had with friends or used as it's own criticism of the genre not ON THE POST CALLING OUT A REAL ISSUE! Anyway just.#Both artists and consumers have to be critical of What we see as body horror/what others tell us is body horror/what we accept as body#Horror bc/what we create as body horror etc. We NEED to confront that and we can't just say I Wouldn't Do That! We need to understand that#It goes deeper than that!!! Also YOU DONT INHERENTLY KNOW WHATS POSSIBLE FOR A HUMAN TO EXPERIENCE#There's so many things that ppl can experience and Live With! There are obviously things that are fatal so u rarely hear abt them but human#Beings can survive a lot of things!!! And here's the thing: the rarer something is the shittier it feels to have it misrepresented!!!#At the very basic level: CHECK IF THE THING YOU WANT TO USE AS BODY HORROR IS A RECORDED PHENOMENON AT LEAST!!! FOR THE LOVE OF FUCK#DO THE BARE MINIMUM
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the moment i figured out i could pretend to be my mom and call myself in sick to school and they wouldn’t call my parents to let them know i was absent it was all over for me
#IT’S SO BAD. I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT. I SHOULD NOT HAVE THIS POWER#ok sorry for being dramatic i’ve literally skipped only twice ever. once bc i needed smth last minute for my halloween costume and i#genuinely didn’t have any other time i could go get the dye before the party and the other time today bc if i wrote that math test i#would’ve failed it. so i had to go study and such#IT WAS HOWEVER really funny when we were discussing skipping in english class and my teacher was like ur parents wouldn’t let you skip#anyway and dani and i made eye contact and just sorta nodded (bc i told her how to fool the system and we were planning on skipping for fun)#.txt#this post is misleading actually i’ve never called myself in sick. i’ve used doctors appt and dentist appt respectively
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Also it's soo funny to me when ppl rally against plastic surgery and then at the very end of their lil rant go "obviously I'm not talking about MEDICALLY NECESSARY surgery" like a) ur the one lumping together a wide and varied type of surgery here and b) super fun to be an afterthought in this conversation :)
#its also funny that 'small child had to get their face put back together after an accident'#is never really. considered by these types.#like theyll list off all the surgeries they consider to be medicaly necessary and never think#that some plastic surgery patients are 5 years old and going through a deeply traumatic event.#pediatric plastic surgery is a WHOLE area of medicine that is not really discussed.#ppl with plastic surgery are assumed to be adults#i was FIVE YEARS OLD. i missed my KINDERGARTEN GRADUATION for my surgery.#there is a scene of a tv show i otherwise like. where they poke fun at a facial feature i have had since i was F I V E#bc its apparently something thats common in ppl with plastic surgery. which i did not know until i watched the show.#i didnt know to be self conscious of that. i didnt know that people might look at me and know/assume something abt my medical history.#anyway. concersations abt plastic surgery NEED to have nuance. they NEED to consider all angles.#they NEED to think about the scared kindergartener getting their face put back together.#there are important conversations to be had about elective surgery and the culture that drives it im not denying that.#im just saying we need to be careful not to write off non-elective plastic surgery in the process.#we need to have compassion.
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#all of this is Throwing me down the rabbit hole again btw.#i may not . ever say a fuckign Word to him. but i sure as fuck gst to look at him#and its hard Not To. hes still the prettiest man ive ever looked at!! im still attracred to him !!#i shouldnt be !!! but i am and im allowing that . i cant keep feeling like this tho ABDIDNDJ#i . am going to get So Hurt .#i mean it shouldnt b any different to any other similar situation but UNLIKE every other time .#we actually dated ! i actually love him n have a wild history w him ! its a lot dofferent !#its fine !!!!! im . yelling internally .#and atp i need to get laid . im seriously abt to just send libra a mssg n b like#i know this is weird n u can absolutwly say no. but how do u feel abt having sex#or wtv . bc . this call of celibacy was fun n helpful . but .#eniugh is enough i need to get laid. so i can shake some od whatever the FUCK is going on internally#anyway. im going Crazy internally . i gotta talk to my coworker abt getting a 2 drink max on myself#not vc im actually a menace !!!! or anyrhung !!!!#but bx !!! i keep saying dumb shit abt ppl while theyre around . n its not shit thats like#it cant get me into trouble . itll get me a talking to occasionally#but . (im talking abt one specific thing i sakd n if i dont unravel my ahite lie Now itll look bad)#so im bookibg a sesh w my ips worker to discuss tgis bx . i Fucked Up Kinda . and . i dont know what to do abt it bc i feel guilty#a little. i needed to. like i did what i had to do in the moment . but . i twisted thw truth a little to get what i wanted#n i dont Like That :( not to my manager.#bc she batted 4 me IMMEDIATELY . n i do hate that h eis so well fucking KNOWN.
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I kinda wanna go on a rant but I honestly just think I need to sleep
#and be alone for like 24 hours#I haven’t had a day withou any plans/other people for at least three weeks#and I’ve had busy weeks before that as well#and my next week will be busy as well#it’s a lot#I’ve put in FREE in my calendar to make sure I don’t have plans then#and this weekend I was supposed to be off but it was the only week I could meet up with my cousins#it was super fun but my brother was kinda like so how did u think it went#and overall I think it went well and so did he#one of my cousins was feeling less so yesterday apparently#but once again I really think it went the best it could have been#one of my cousins fucked kinda up tho and arrived at like half past midnight bc he double booked himself#and his sister was feeling kinda bad for him that ha arrived so late and we would just head to bed so he didn’t get anything out of that day#whereas I very much felt like it was his own fucking fault#I was not gonna stay out till half past 2 when I’d been out partying the day before and I’d already felt just seeing them Saturday/Sunday#took a lot of my energy#that was kinda the rant anyway#but it was a nice discussion with my brother about it#bc I was also slightly annoyed by some of them playing Pokémon go instead of the board game the five of us was playing#but talking it out with him helped with that so it’s fine#then now as I was vacuuming I started getting annoyed at one of my cousins bc#I think it’s ridiculous that he can’t respect his trans brother (my cousin)’s new name and pronouns#so he’s got a free pass to use the old one#bc my other cousin asked bc no one ever really told her what was going on and she heard different things#and I’m still annoyed by that I find it weak as fuck#our grandmother I get but my cousin is 19 he can fucking do better#anyway at that point I realized how stupid tired I am and that’s probably not helping#but since it’s only 7 pm and I need dinner and stuff I can’t sleep yet#so here’s the rant instead I guess#me
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