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hinamie · 6 months ago

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binding vow

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #megumi fushiguro #fushiguro megumi #megumi #fanart #jjk fanart #done....collapses #up until 3am last night n sitting fr another 8 hours today to finish....#g o d #the things i do fr him.....#let it no longer b said that i only do elaborate paintings rife with symbolism tht feature gojo. megu my one true muse #as is Correct and Just #real talk tho i was just sketching th things i wanted to include without giving much thought to the Themes #w the exception being the spider lilies lmao I Know What Those Mean #but i ended up with a REALLY good life/death/marriage/loyalty thing going on????#w the lotus/spider lily being purity+rebirth/death #((not 2 mention 'far from the one he loves' like HELLO?????))#also w the temari balls being associated w femininity but having him dressed in groom's attire #like???? 90% unplanned but i ended up both cooking And eating #also happy 2 report that betta fish were kinder 2 me than the koi were :) no trouble from these lil guys #in fact everything abt this piece kind of came easily beyond the initial colour swatch??#thank u fr being an easy subject megu ilysm im sorry abt all the death imagery i dont mean it pls focus instead on th Life imagery :((((#i put a ring on it so u gotta wake up.....cant leave yuuji @ th altar ....#SPEAKING OF THE RING IK ITS ON THE RIGHT HAND we've been over this and its Okay #if i read a single comment .........#sorry 2 that one person who was like 'the next binding vow better be at itfs' wedding' ik this probably wasnt what u meant #but it did inspire me smile :)#anyway i need 2 stop looking at this its been over 24 hours

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ef-1 · 4 months ago

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🍷<3

#when i got hashtag sick i was in hospital and i was doing my regularly scheduled call with my dad #and i really had no plans of telling him bc ive done that before and its not like he can scare the MS away or anything #i dont know what happened. maybe because it was such a fucking bad episode. maybe because i was so tired. maybe it was a secret 3rd thing #but one minute was like fine then i just burst into tears and i was crying so hard which is MEGA EW BC IM NOT A CRIER LIKE THAT #and my dad freaked out and he was like whats wrong and i didnt wanna tell him but I also sounded insane bc i spontaneously started sobbing #and he was getting more alarmed and i was upset that id upset him and so i just spat it out i was like 'listen king'#'its no biggie but my body is trying to kill me again and im just a little sad atm' and he replied 'baba why wouldnt you tell me?'#and this man who has a very big serious job literally dropped everything and took a 20 hr flight over #and he genuinely just grabbed one of his work suitcase because he showed up with nothing but dress shirts and his laptop #and i think maybe it healed me a little. i mean it def also made me sad too but mostly healed me #and he'd been here for a couple of weeks and he left today and i feel shit about being sad about it #again because he has a very big and very serious job and i genuinely dont understand how he even just showed up like that #so I felt guilty throughout #anyway i dont think he drinks anymore but i was like king have a sip of wine with me and he did and it was lovely #and I hope I become my fathers daughter and not my mother's child. praying to both our gods #heres to healing ❤️‍🩹

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born2b-beheaded · 16 days ago

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Can we normalize not making fun of people for their age like It is not my fault i just started highschool brother

#its a little different if theyre doing something stupid. or trying to act a different age than they are. or something #but. my mom tells my aunts that i just started hs and they start laughing and theyre like “ouhhh teenage angst” and whatnot #like ? hello ? i have done not one angsty thing today #i am smiling and laughing. because i like to laugh. dont you like to laugh ?#and laughing at me cuz i laughed and said School was draining me #“just wait till you get a job!” ok bro i get it. i know jobs are stressful I Know #i that doesnt mean that school isnt though ?#and like. atleast youre getting paid ?#i hate instantly being labeled as Stupid Angsty Teenager no matter what i do because thats just. not what im like.#it upsets me but i cant say that because then id be Angsty #thats just. not what im like ?#i mean dude. my cousin is Faaarr more “angsty” than me and is ACTUALLY ANGSTY.#but theyre an adult so nobody picks on them ?#ok. yay. I mean not that i Want anybody to #i love my cousin #theyre my favorite cousin #sigh. anyway sorry im rambling #maybe im not beating the Angsty allegations with how much i vent on here #blabbing

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b4kuch1n · 2 years ago

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I actually for real feel like my phone's scanning quality has dropped monumentally while I was away on thing so that's a fun thing to figure out now. anyways

#sk8 the infinity #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #renga #answering of ''sure'' whenever they ask ''are you gay'' strikes again #gods. genuinely at least on the export the quality of these dropped like to half. whats up with that #sorry if these are impossible to parse #anyways. scribbled these during ''holiday'' ''vacation'' ''getaway'''#sometimes it really is the simple things. hallucinating vividly about the casual life of a pair of teens to survive being in a car for 6hrs #WITH da family #so glad I picked up scribbling on paper again. I actually got stuff to do digitally today and!! literally it feels so much cleaner #like I feel like I relearned a bunch stuff doing traditional ink again for a sec #but yeah. u guys should know by now how much I think about food as a concept #took 3m off last year to write about it in fact. but now Im just microdosing by drawing langa #I'm also actually so insane about reki being a scaredy cat it's so. something. it means so much to me #this of course means koyomi is a jumpscare champion. among siblings that are close in age there must be #the one who sleeps in the lower bunk. and the one who ties a doll to a string by its neck and lower it down to be next to the others face #'why is that so specific' no further question. thank you #gods okay. I need to lay the fuck down it is now my time. to be in bed #Im onto some real exciting stuff rn! and when this piece is done I'll return to ink for a sec #so uh. ink comm maybe not this week. but the next #happy late labor day! seek and destroy. have a good night

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xxplastic-cubexx · 2 months ago

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what 93 clip are we talking abt..

Its that scene from the last episode of 92 where jeans all How Much Do You Love Charles Xavier and eriks blows up all How Dare You Ask Such A Question I Owe That Man My LIFE or w/e

#snap chats #that was the one that hooked me like chat they said the L word #ik its not meant to be romantic but still …………….. woah …….#erik funny as hell in that shit he really got so offended 😭😭😭#it wouldve been kinder to shoot him like How Dare You Question His Love For Charles Xavier #really blew up on her like bro ok we get it you love him😭😭😭😭#sorry for asking now can you help save his life ……..#anyway everyone be nice to me today today keeps getting worse #i accidentally left my computer charger at my moms and its a four hour drive to and fro 🕴#and i have an advisor meeting in like two hours 🕴#i mean my computers at full battery so i can attend BUT STILL IM SO PISSED #i can do my comm work cause Thank The Lord of my tablet but still #im mad ……. im gonna lay in bed and daydream of old man yaoi to cope before working #ILL BE FINE. once the meetings done i just go back and get my charger #say hi to my dog and cat while im there ok Might As Well #and then come back and then it’ll all be ok #im just annoyed because my break’s literally after classes tomorrow fuckin driving around so much FOR WHAT 😭😭😭😭#driving i hate you i loathe you with every fiber of my being. moving on now ….

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perilegs · 2 months ago

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i need to learn to bake something new as everyone at work already knows i'm bringing them some carrot cake on friday....

#as some of u may have heard several times this month or any time the number 22 is mentioned its my bday on friday #so im baking something to bring to work #and i can bake more than just carrot cake #i think ive brought brownies to work more often than carrot cake. and ive also dabbled in chocolate chip oat cookies #and mokkapalat.#and yet #i saw my boss today and she jokingly was like ''haha i guess we'll be getting some carrot cake on our big planning meeting on friday''#which. hold on just to preface this i actually like my boss and she has my best interests in mind and shes v nice.#anyways i didnt even tell her id be baking smh. i mean i always bake something for work when theres a special occassion but still #and howd she guess it was carrot cake. ok probably bc thats my fave but still #i know i have a complaining tone in here but i think its funny and silly #i know i'm a predictable person but sometimes it manifests in weird ways #i did not know my carrot cake baking was THAT predictable #oh. i was thinking of going to the liquor store on fri bc its a tradition of mine and they have a new #cant remember if it was white or red but anyways some type of new seasonal flavor of wine glögg #i think regular glögg is superior but man can you imagine a red wine glögg with carrot cake #cozy spices...#especially since my carrot cake recipe is very winter-y as it has cinnamon and clove in it #i usually love lighting candles and getting cozy on the sofa as soon as the days get short #but i havent done that yet this year #can u imagine. little lights and candles on. red wine glögg and carrot cake. sitting on the sofa under a blanket.#watching something on the tv.#would love to read but its not ideal in candlelight #i usually like having a big light on bc i like to see but it's nice being in a dimly lit room when its dark anyways #leevi talks

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catkin-morgs-kookaburralover · 1 year ago

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friendly reminder that self harm is lying to you

#the worst is when it promises you'll feel better and then you simply. do not. you feel worse and then you want to harm again bc surely that #will make you feel better right? THAT WOULD BE A NO. IT DOES NOT.#anyway today i went to spotlight cause i was sad cause i got the result for my 35% assignment i really struggled with. 32.5%. failure.#and at spotlight i made the foolish error of buying without knowing price. but like who makes a book a normal softcover crochet pattern boo #$55?! anyway it's a lovely book and am excited to try a few of teh patterns but the guilt is eating me alive #and also im super stressed about the assignment i have to turn in on thursday and haven't started #anyway i was literally four and a half hours away from being seven days clean #and i am just so sad right now #and i reopened one of the scars on my wrist too while on shift this morning so that's fun #not badly but it's just gonna mean it scars even more isn't it because of course #i was feeling incredibly awful for some reason i can't even remember and i kinda clawed up my arms. and no i don't count that as #breaking my streak bc it didn't cause much damage #i just. placement is so wonderful but life is so so hard #i don't know i want a hug and the assignment done and everything bad unmade #and the scars i have to look at every day on placement gone.#i want to talk to s but i haven't responded to her last message and i don't know how to respond but i need to respond to that #:((#honestly actually i think i want to talk to aunty. friend's mum. in person. and get a hug. i want a hug.#im just. So Sad. and i want my brother and Ransom and this is not helpinga nd i don't know what would if anything

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year ago

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hear me out on this one

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza series #yakuza like a dragon #yakuza 7 #jo sawashiro #snap sketches #cause i asked myself 'what if we have him more layers' i dont want to see AN OUNCE of skin from this dude #another similarity between mine and sawashiro is ive drawn tthem both in turtlenecks. lol.#funny as hell tho ever since i watched we make antiques i actually wanted to draw arakawa in a turtleneck #he always reminds me of a turtle anyway for some reason...#i mean this isnt totally off that mentality either. ttm did look cute in a turtleneck in like. Two Things #Awful tho all i thought bout when drawin the neck part was that Pencil Neck bit from p&f LMAO #omg wait rant time cause i drew this while waiting to hang with my bitchass friend #done with comm work for the morning and she taking nine years so. lets doodle #but then this bitchass friend forgot we were hanging out today even tho SKE asked to hang out today. as she did yesterday.#like UGH im not saying sawashiro is valid for bullying ichi for being late all the time but i get it.#this is legitimately the second day in a row where she forgot we were meeting and its making me explode #anyway she just texted me nw so i guess shes gonna come over soon #which means i get to be mad at her playin y7 LMAO ITS ALL FUN anyway bye

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cloudysfluffs · 10 months ago

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Don’t listen to haters, everything ever spread about Vivzie was disproven. Your art is cute.

LMAOOOOOOOO NO IT WASNT????????!!??!?!?

#WEIRD take man #first of all there are so many accusations about viv this is so unspecefic #also. no they havent?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? ive seen so much proof. i see more every single day #i mean thank you. for the compliment.#but being critical about media (even media you enjoy) is a good thing.#its important to unpack how the creators beliefs influence the work they produce #disc horse #this is the first thing i saw when i woke up today and it baffled me so much that i couldnt sleep more like i planned lol #anyway. im not saying anyone cant enjoy the show(s). obviously i do A LITTLE if im making fanart #im not saying you have to drop a media if its creators are problematic. in facf i dont like that take #just remember you are not immune to propaganda and vivzies rac/ist/anti/semetic opinions are very much influencing these characters writing #and things like her (SELF ADMITTED) ra/pe fet/ish arent helping.#sorry. this is a rant ive been wanting to say for a while bur have never got to lol #im just so confhsed by what this person even meant??? some of the bad shit shes done is IN THE SHOW. its in there #you can see it. with your eyes . help #anyway again this is literally the first thing i saw when i woke up LMAO if i completely misinterpreted this ask lemme knkw #the assumption that ive just taken the word of a few ''haters'' and havent done my own research into this topic is kind of insulting #what did you expect me to say....??? did you think id just be like 'oh ok :3' ans blindly retract all negative statements

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pepprs · 1 year ago

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ok. moving out update. today i:

talked to my beloved ex supervisor / mentor (<- SCARY!!!!!) to ask her about her experiences living by herself esp as a short woman (which is not a big deal except for how it is + how my parents think it is) and get her advice abt how to navigate that experience psychologically and practically. i asked her if we could talk abt this very impulsively on thursday after not having the courage to do it for almost a year btw (<- BRAVE!!!!!!!!) and i was still too scared / embarrassed to ask her some stuff abt safety / self defense lol but it mostly went really well!

started making a budget and determined that a) i may be getting overpaid somehow (😳) b) i may be getting double or even triple charged for my health and life insurance (😒) so now i need to call hr on monday and figure all of that out. and also c) i suck at math but we knew that. but i forced myself to figure out what i did wrong so that’s an achievement

made my first ever student loan payment 😀🔫

booked a tour of one apartment and attempted to book a tour of another (the same place i was looking at in may) but their website was glitching out and then they didn’t answer when i called to schedule it over the phone which. hm. 😒 but yeah the tour(s) will happen mid week next week and im going to ride the shuttle to the apartment complex(es) and back to campus to see what that’s like too!

posted on local subr*ddit asking for recommendations for those two apartments + other places in the area. haven’t gotten anything back bc i just made the post but 😎👍

read a bunch of old journal entries from 2021 to remind myself of what it was like to move onto campus and how i pushed through my family’s hurt and disapproval to live the way i needed to. haven’t finished reading it all yet but i will tomorrow (while also doing my stupid homework 🙄)

#purrs #i really hope im not being overpaid lol. because if i am being overpaid that means i can’t afford to move out 😍 but my paystubs #are saying thats how much im making every week and it is… significantly more then im supposed to be making which is absolutely not a bad #thing i just don’t understand why it’s happening + want to make sure it’s supposed to be happening so that i don’t depend on an error that #would devastate me when remedied yk. but yeah. also i haven’t factored car stuff into any of this yet sooooo erm. we’ll see what happens #anyways uhm this is kind of crazy like. i am really making a concerted effort to try to move out. SOON. and my family doesn’t know.#chuckles im in danger but also….. tess pepprs epic girlboss redemption arc i think. i am doing big scary things and i can do them. fuck yeah #like. i don’t have to live like this anymore. i can change it TODAY. i have that power. i have done my time. i’m ready to fly and no one can #stop me. i will not be held back anymore. i’m going to live the life of my wildest dreams and i’m on the brink of beginning it.

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dysaniadisorder · 11 months ago

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i hate how normalized military is in the us im gonna rip my hair out

#i just. was talking w friends today #one of them was talking abt how he was almost convinced by the recruitment lady to join the navy and i was like. dude #and i was talking about how messed up it is that they send in people like that and catch kids like him #and my friends were like. you cant really blame her for doing her job. its her JOB like yes. it is her job. its fucking Bad #my best friend got all angry cuz his dad was in the navy. babe idc if he didnt actually fight he shouldnt have done it ♡#''people get drafted'' you have to dodge the draft.#''thats illegal'' yes. this is a requirement for if you are drafted. you Have to just not.#no one said action would be comfortable nor convenient. in fact it is going to be almost none of either #you are gonna have to face that the military murders human beings and your dad is not any better #and people who its ''just their job'' to do it chose that job. and they know #''you cant get mad at the worker woman; you have to get mad at the institution'' no im mad at the individual woman too #just because its your job to manipulate kids and kill Arab people doesnt mean its okay #''not everyone in the military is actively fighting'' no! they arent. but they are helping those that are.#they are not complicit but actively helping. you have to do anything and everything you can to just Not Fucking do that #ANYONE in the military has failed being a decent human 101. being in any part of the military means you are okay with centuries of genocide #and encourage even more. its not 'just your job' you are OK and more for relentless murder and i wish you harm #anyways. sometimes repeating & internalizing the things ur parents say means watch our for road traps and the beatles are good.#sometimes it is US propaganda and just because it is in your own house and coming from a loved one doesnt mean you cant not fall for it #edit not to mention him saying this the day after aaron bushnell died. dude #unethical jobs exist. it is everyones job to bring them down #''its just her job'' was Bushnells sacrifice not fucking enough for you??? and the millions of dead Palestinians????? christ

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walkman-cat · 1 year ago

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i actually have to get the portfolio done today if it kills me and i will do it !!

#i'm about halway through editing but also i do have only about three hours left of today #and its due tomorrow #anyways tomorrow im going to see the touring production of life of pi for exam reasons with school and i'm veryvery excited #the puppetry and set design are SO COOL #bouncing up and down because of them for the past two weeks #that's all for now i'm going to get this finished and then when i'm done i'll have a treat #maybe squashies #i am playing the wordcount equivalent of yarn chicken #2000 words max anything over won't be marked #and i'm currently ~1900 words #which means it's a constant game of adding and deleting phrases and rewriting things #and this is with most of my work being in picture form so the wordcount is less #joy of joys #hhhhh #con rambles

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what-are-even-humans · 2 years ago

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So on one hand I got to participate in extubating a patient today but on the other hand I did get an E on my thesis which my advisor told us was "A or maybe B material" and that we were genuinely quite proud of.

#so all in all a Great! and also a Very Bad! day today #studyblr #medblr #isak talks #we called the advisor when we found out and she was absolutely shocked. i was real mad at her at first but now im just hoping #the appeal process will be quick and bring some change.#i mean fuck id honesty rather have an F than an E. at least that way we get to rewrite whatever parts dont actually work.#but seeing as our advisor is shocked too im hoping itll be bumped up cause of the appeal.#also honestly fuck my university for forcing us to change our entire thesis - problem statement and all AFTER the halfway point.#we had already gotten the go ahead! they told us time and time again we wouldn't be penalised for writing about a #relatively rare (but important!) condition. that it was innovative of us to chose a subject where theres been done few high quality studies #and then literally several days after the halfway point they go oh well actually no. you cant do that.#[redacted] university Get Your Shit Together challenge #anyways i love intensive care! pulmonology is great! i made a difference on the ward AND I got to be a part of the extubation team!#which is a great day! (if you ignore my uni being full of shit (as usual)).

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weezerlvr228 · 4 months ago

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