#anyway goodnight. dont even worry abt it

[phagodyke]

and now I'm upset again I fucking give up

why was I fighting for my life trying to stay awake and failing at 4pm in the afternoon and now its 1:30am I cant fucking sleep at all :^/

[addictivewhispering]

a lot of the people who follow one player > one club seem like such weirdos icl

[peppermintbutch]

Sleepover w my probably unrequited crush was NOT good for me

[kroosluvr]

aftermath

ERMMM this takes place after long winter au third semester.... it could honestly vary but i think sometime btwn 5-10 yrs. sumire is abroad, akira moved back to tokyo after finishing hs/college, goro is. around

SORRY ITS 5am again so ill make this quick . again

QUICK DISCLAIMER this is kinda like a lot of me projecting LMFAOSDOGKJSDHFK@#)40 so like dont read into this tooooo much bc idk royaltrio cld be insnanely ooc here but. YEA.

started thinking abt akira constantly calling up goro and sumire even after 1) goro dies (so they think) and 2) sumire distances herself post-third sem. i elaborate on this on my shusumi fic........ sorry subtle shilling

^ tldr i think these 3 kinda drift apart after the snowglobe world crumbles, that false reality that ironically brought them so close together..... back in reality, things feel Different (but this is Our reality right? why does it feel so strange now?) and so. well its just not the same, no amtter what

the. the “the love was there. it didnt change anything. it didnt save anyone. there were just too many forces against it. but it still matters that the love was there” tumblr post

even though they loved each other and knew it too, there was also some sort of looming feeling that it won't last - but it does, still. it exists, in some meaningful sense-

akira sees and thinks about sumire and goro in everything he does, his day to day life, worries about them, wants to tell them about all he's doing, wants to hear about what they're up to. so he does so by leaving voicemails (although in this case sumire changed her number LMFAO. he does it anyway)

in the same vein, sumire thinks about all the things she'd like to tell goro, but with no address to send it to, it's useless. but she writes them anyway - more and more as a solace to herself, conversing with the memory of goro in her head, making him live on in that sense. and with akira i think it's a little more subtle. here she's trying to find a coffee shop that measures up to lebalnc, and of course she doesn't. there's only one leblanc and only one akira. but yeah like in sumire's case she kinda goes these "roundabout" ways in her Missing Them. theres also the added thing of her wanting to be more independent (from goro and akira and kasumi and tokyo and etc etc etc. also elaborated on in said fic)

goro! i think there's smth so poignant about visiting your own grave (i wrote sumire doing htis in another fic. thats an aside) hair cut, mask on, no gloves, he's a different sort of goro akechi but not really in any meaningful sense either. he's just different. sumire leaves the scarf (i think w sumire, she learns from goro like. omg im blanking on the word. LIKE reliability..? thinking realistically? smth like that.) so shes subconsciously thinks oh ill get him something useful like a scarf to keep warm (and a lil more subtle on the love aspect). akira gets him a lovely bouquet, straightforward and honest w his love/adoration, never afraid to spell it out. smth abt goro needing to live a new life now but also he keeps looking back - but this time, there's love when he looks back. there's still love

a kind of "youll always have home with me" sentiment btwn these 3. even if we never return there, youll still have a place in my heart

like "i dont think ill ever have that kind of love again. but i had it once. and even if i couldnt keep it, its still important." THIS IS HARD TO EXPLAIN

anyway tldr theres just some sentiment w royaltrio w Wanting to move on but also holding onto your past, and learning how to reconcile with the horrible parts but also the tender and lovely parts. sometimes there's stuff you gotta leave behind and grow past, grow around, even if it's good. even if it's good, you still have to push forward. <- a lesson that i'm trying to teach myself currently so thats why this is very. projecting. LMFAODSJKHJKSDKW sorry im crnge goodnight

these notes are horrible dont read these.

[sugar-omi]

Hi Naeomi!

I have a Baxter ask, but it might be a bit angst? It's all good if you are not comfortable doing it 🤗🤗

I was wondering how Baxter would react to an MC who is kind, goofy, and easygoing with her friends but not to everyone. When Baxter goes to say, "You dont have to go out with me just to be polite--" MC scoffs, "Please, I would never date a boy I didn't like just to be polite." Seeing Baxter's surprised expression, my nervous MC laughs and goes on. "But I like you, so..." Or Baxter would tell her she's too kind or nice after giving him a compliment or treating well on a date, and she would chuckle, "No, no I'm not."

MC had a hard time in school during puberty (as in mean gossip, boys brazenly checking her out and making comments, and small instances of bullying for being 'different'). That is the MC's history, and she has learned from Liz how to stand up for herself and not let anyone disrespect her--she has instilled a mean girl essence in herself with the most cutthroat comeback that has Cove recoil at her side (she has him cover his ears for this reason).

MC finishes high school with a jaded view of boys (except for Cove and Derek, her standards are high because of how kind and sweet these two are) and developed a bit of a sharp tongue when angry, something she is not proud of. And when MC meets Baxter, her crush from 5 years old, she is nervous and blushy and treats him with the utmost consideration. She worries that Baxter would see her spitting vemon one day and not like her anymore.

crying...... your mc reminds me of myself as well bc I'm also jaded n mean sometimes 😬 I will see your mc's in therapy LOL

anyway here you go anon<333 also I had fem reader in mind but I realize it's not very implied either so I hope that's OK

n i will edit the format a bit later bc I'm on my phone again 👍👍 ALSO NEW HEADER WHAT DO WE THINK it's suppose to be coves tattoo but I shrieked it bc I didn't like how bulky it was but now I feel like u can't tell it's the ocean so.... I try I try

tags: hurt/comfort, ok for fem/masc/nb readers, shy/nervous reader, mentions of bullying/harassment, headcanons at the bottom ft step 4, perhaps I'm using this to tell everyone that I think baxter finds assertiveness/"mean"!mc attractive but we won't talk abt that <3333

the first time baxter hears about the issues you had in the past, it was when your cousin laughed about how you look like a cinnamon roll but you slapped a guy hard enough his nose bled.

baxter took note of how your face scrunched up, and you looked at him to scout out how baxter reacted to the comment.

you mutter something quickly, "he deserved it. anyway..."

the mood was a little damp for a moment after that, the joke not well received because of the new addition and baxter felt bad that you had worries about how he'd take what Lee said.

after your group parted ways, and before you could retreat to your bedroom, baxter stopped you.

"forgive me if my words are unwanted, but... if you ever want to talk about anything, I'm here." his voice was soothing, but his pitiful gaze was off putting...

you did appreciate the gesture, baxter is always so considerate but you didn't want him to feel bad for you. you didn't want him to know how vulnerable you were.

when you were still in school, all the bullying had you feeling like a stray ally cat in front of a pack of dogs.

you didn't want baxter to know about the rougher side of you...

after that, baxter starts to notice your mannerisms even more.

you just nod and thank him, hugging him goodnight.

one morning, you brought him a breakfast sandwich and coffee.

"you spoil me y/n. who knew sunset bird was hiding such lovely people."

you just laugh humorlessly, no shyness or humility in it just a pained expression. "I try, glad to know I'm doing good..."

baxter smiles, trying to bring back your good mood. "you are. that must be why cove gravitates to you so much."

you laugh a bit, thinking about your clingy neighbor. "maybe, but he's the sweetest between the two of us. cove always takes care of me, more than I do him in fact.."

when he's in your living room and you're fluttering around the house with haste and fretting over every detail...

baxter doubts that, thinking about how the stories of your childhood he heard from your family and cove when you graciously invited him on the boat trip.

"no need to be humble. now, shall we eat together?"

when he first showed up, you were in a tank top and leggings, but after seating baxter and leaving him with a bottle of water you ran upstairs to get ready and came back in shorts and flowy top in your favorite color.

not that baxter minded, you were beautiful. but you were comfortable before, and it was the middle of the day, so why the sudden change of clothes?

then it was how jittery you were while making some tea, hovering over the pot and fixing baxter's cup diligently.

"y/n..." baxter decides to approach this lightly.

"yes?" you smile but it doesn't reach your eyes. you look so worried, like you're waiting for the other shoe to drop.

"can we talk about what's going on? I don't mean to intrude, I know I'm only here for the summer.."

the reminder stings you but you listen on.

"but you're still someone dear to me, so if it's something you don't mind sharing, I'd like to know what'd bothering you. I want to help, y/n..." baxter places his hand on top of yours.

you swallow but inhale and prepare to tell him enough to paint the picture, at least.

"i.. don't want you to hate me." you hang your head. "i like you so much, baxter. I'm worried that my jaded view will make you run away..."

baxter nods, choosing his next words carefully.

he brings you into his side, holding your hand and the pressure is grounding.

"nothing like that can make me dislike you y/n. of anything, I like you even more." baxter grins at your surprised expression.

"there's nothing wrong with you for being assertive when defending yourself." baxter smiles soothingly and he decides to bring up a moment of weakness he had early in the summer.

"remember when I was a half asleep mess when we went to get drinks that day?"

you nod.

"its like that, I'm not always so prim and proper." baxter laughs, ignoring the flush of his face as he recounts the blunder. "just like I'm a mess in the mornings, you can be a bit snappy but it's all about the situation."

you grin and let out a watery laugh. "are you seriously comparing your inability to be a functioning human in the morning to me being mean when someone pisses me off?"

he grins shamelessly. although with the blush on his face, perhaps bacter feels a bit more humble than usual. "perhaps."

you laugh loudly, "you are!"

baxter grins. "it worked didn't it?"

you nod, wrapping your arms around him, allowing yourself to melt into his body as he hugs you back. "yeah.. yeah it did. thanks baxter..."

baxter loves when you stand up for yourself

seeing you snap at some douchebag hitting on you at the bar even though you said you have a boyfriend and he's right here?!

finds it hot when you're angry

always reassures you that you don't need to bring him breakfast in bed every day for the rest of his life just bc he saw you snap at some nosy Karen after she made a nasty comment about your outfit

it's a beach, what does she expect people to wear???

don't verbally or physically beat someone in front of him bc he Will kiss you

"fuck off! I'm not interested asshole!!"

baxter, heart eyes: "please kiss me, do u wanna get married?????"

[goldenrobotgondoliers]

if i kissed trexel. i didn't kiss him bc i did. no i didnt 💜

[prenvii-moved]

*lays down* dream whyd you have to give techno a bad rep

[cassyapper]

Apart from Jotaro and Kakyoin (unfortunately) what are your other favourite jojo ships? I’d love to know

OHHHH POST YOUVE OPENED A CAN OF FUCKING WORMS LET ME GO OFF

i have a disease that makes me invested in the joestars’ happiness to an absurd level so bc of that a lot of ships i enjoy involve,,,one joestar,,,but there r others i swear let me just start rantingi

jonaeriwagon is soooooo so so cute it involves the most wholesome and purehearted jojo characters and it makes me smile so wide. erina and jonathan r childhood sweethearts and erina helped jonathan back on his feet after he lost EVERYTHING in the first fight against dio at the mansion. jonathan and speedwagon are best FRIENDS OKAY!! SPEEDWAGON LITERALLY CHANGES HIS ENTIRE WALK OF LIFE BECAUSE OF JONATHAN AND THE KINDNESS HE SHOWED HIM. i know erina and speedwagon didn't interact a whole lot in part 1 but like they're BEST. FRIENDS. in part 2, so much so joseph thought something was going on between them. i bring this up bc then it’s proof that this ship is full of ppl who just care for each other so much. they just adore each other and love each other and I'm crying

caejoseq is my FAVVV OKAY they're so stupid and in love. i love love love love imagining caesar and suziq falling in love slowly when he’s first training as lisalisa’s student and like they never do anything about it cause they're both so shy (yes caesar is shy bc these feelings r more genuine romance rather than sexual, unlike his other flings) but it’s obvious enough they both understand to a degree the other knows they like them sjkd;dn cuties. but then JOSEPH BARGES IN with his stupid hamon-breathing mask and his stupid blue-green eyes and his stupid lax personality combined with the moments he takes thing seriously during which is works hard as fuck/smart as fuck. he just completely sweeps them off their feet they had no fuckin warning whatsoever. so after a bunch of messy and intense pining from the both of them they eventually sit down and are like okay. we should do smth about feelings actually. so they Do and it ends with the polycule and I'm (”: smiling so wide they loved each other do u understand

AVPOL!! DO NOT GET ME STARTED OKAY it’s the survivor’s guilt and cherishing and longing for me sis!!!!!! I'm just saying both have pasts (araki said avdol’s backstory was so sad he didn't wanna put it into sdc so that’s where I'm drawing this from) that leave them focused on things other than their direct happiness/their own futures but then they connect and even though they're so fucking different they are SOOO different they're still the same on this level and i think!!! that would be everything for them finally someone who understands...listen I'm ging to go insane do you hear me. avdol loves this stupid fucking Frenchman so much because said stupid fucking Frenchman just cares so much about everything. meanwhile polnareff is in love with this fuckin god of a man who’s patient and kind and funny and a skilled enough fighter it’s stated explicitly in canon “oh avdol’s the one we need to worry about most not jotaro” like fuck polnareff is ENAMOURED WITH HIM!! AND I DONT FUCKING BLAME HIM!! and just dude. when pol thinks avdol came back to life and he starts crying tears of joy and hugs him so tightly and avdol just laughs but hugs him back imfmfjfj help. help. help. help. help. POLNAREFF LITERALLY ASKS HIM OUT ON A DATE THIS IS FUCKIN!!! CANON!!! i cant do this stupid fuckign idiots i love them

JOSUYASU!!!!!! TWO GUYS BEIGN DUDES WHAT MORE COULD YOU WANT??? like listen we have such a SLEW of wholesome moments between these two the opening to the tonio episode is literally just them going on a date OKUYASU WAS GONNA FEED JOSUKE AND JOSUKE DIDNT EVEN FUCKING QUESTION IT OKAY THAT’S KINDA GAY THAT HAS ROMANTIC FUCKING UNDERTONES!! and them fighting against shigechi idk man i just love their dynamic it’s such a pleasant bro relationship and i love them. but even beyond the wholesome moments when okuyasu fucking dies josuke loses his SHIT!!! DO YOU HEAR ME HE GOES FUCKIGN INSANE!!!!! HE’S SCREAMING AND CRYING AND BEGGING OKUYASU TO WAKE UP AT THE EXPENSE OF HIS LIFE FUCKIGN HAYATO HAD TO SHRIEK AT HIM TO MOVE HIS ASS OUT OF THE WAY OF KIRA’S BOMB LIKE!! listen the recklessness and furiousness of josuke’s tactics after okuyasu “”died”” haunts me. he didn't want to live in a world without him and meanwhile okuyaus LITERALLY TRIUMPHS OVER DEATH BECAUSE HE DOESNT WANT TO LEAVE JOSUKE’S SIDE HELP ME GIRL FJKF;NDJN FUCK. fuck. so yeah i lvoe them

fugionara... any combination of this ship makes me go nuts okay okay. the dynamics in the bucci gang will forever leave me in tatters but THE ONES BETWEEN THESE THREE IN PARTICULAR. FUCK ME UP. it’s the healing it’s the animosity it’s the regret it’s the trying to figure out your own mentally ill self while also the world ur in with these ppl u love so much and I'm going crazy okay okay okay. idk how to quite put my feelings for them in worlds i just have a lot of them and they are fuckin. overhwelming. just narancia for example meant EVERYTHING to fugo as evidence by purple haze feedback (literally every other paragraph is a flashback) and the only time giorno cries in the anime is when narancia dies. meanwhile fugo saved narancia’s life and giorno knew when to take narancia seriously as opposed to a joke. and then THE WHOLE DISCUSSION ABOUT GRIEF FUGO AND GIORNO HAVE IN PURPLE HAZE FEEDBACK? listen something about these three make me go insane and feral

foolymes like okay. okay. I'm shaking like a dog trying not to go overboard on this justification just listen to me. hermes and jolyne first find someone to trust in prison in each other. jolyne cares abt her enough that she first learns how to use stone free’s string-on-a-telephone ability bc she wanted to watch over hermes. hermes loves nd respects jolyne that after she wakes up from getting a stand shes like “hm. wonder where jolyne is” and goes to find her before all that bullshit happened just hey okay LISTEN TO ME!! and then they get foo they save her it’s just like fucking kakyoin they give her another chance and they show her what relationships are supposed to be like (fulfilling) they enjoy her company and make her laugh and she makes them laugh in return ohmy god EVERYTHING FOO FIGHTERS DID WAS FOR JOLYNE AND HERMES DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME!!! the marilyn mansion debt collector arc. the kiss of love and revenge arc. foo fighter’s death. I'm going to eat rocks in an attempt to stop feeling oh my god JOLYNE DIDNT EVEN BELEIVE FOO FIGHTERS WAS DYING AND THEN SHE GOT HYSTERICAL LIKE “BUT WE CAN JUST REMAKE YOU RIGHT WE HAVE YOUR STAND DISC??” SHE DOESNT WANT HER TO GOOO HELP ME HELP ME. I'm in tatters these three girls loved each other so fucking much they just wanted each other safe and they DESERVED to be safe and happy together but araki is fucking evil

jotaweather I KNOW THIS IS A CRACK SHIP I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW DONT FUCKIGN LOOK AT ME JUST HEAR ME OUT. jotaro and weather r both of similar demeanor that is quiet soft-speaking intimidating strong big aura of sadness coming from them. both have powerful stands and both had real fucked up luck in the love department. i also hc both to be autistic so that’d be another similarity. i jus think them settling down together after everything went down in a stone ocean au would be very soft and sweet yknow? they wouldn't even necessarily start it off in a romantic sense but they just take the time to try and heal with each other and eventually it just kinda veers that way. yeah

gyjo for OBVIOUS reasons like are you serious? gyro changed johnny’s fucking lfie from the SECOND they first interact johnny begins to push himself and tries to reach further/go further. and in turn johnny shows gyro you cant always be a wet blanket you need to take a stand this both helps his resolve to save the kid AND helps him to take the measures necessary to get to his goal. like gyro would not have been able to find johnny in the “who shot johnny joestar?” arc if he hadn't gone through, say, the ring roadagain arc with johnny first. listen man their relationship is literally the catalyst for this whole part it’s the driving force i just. they love each other they love each other thank you goodnight I'm emo

yasugap is just so so so so sweet it makes me so happy,,like okay josuk8 literally has a daydream where all that happens is he gives yasuho some candy and she eats it and is like “aw josuke this is so good thanks!” and she smiles at him and that’s IT THAT’S THE DAYDREAM 😭 listen they just love each other so much and i am emo. they literally SAVED EACH OTHER OKAY LIKE yasuho pulls him from the dirt and like she mentioned during the flashback chapter with the hairpin and her dad, it was also the other way around....saving josuke also saved herself and just LISTEN TO ME. THEY LOVE EACH OTHER. it’s a very sweet and healthy relationship and i hope to god araki makes it canon please sir ill bite you

anyway yeah these are the main main ones ? that i ship ship. like you'll get me excited if u mention them. anyway this post has gone on long enough so I'm gonna end it here by saying i really do have a thing where the relationship focuses on healing/helping one or both parties to save/improve themselves

[cowboyjimkirk]

its 23.40 n I gotta be up in abt 5h for work but I cant sleep bc my brain Sucks im so tired but nooo we're gna think abt Life and the Future instead apparently. anyway therapy was. decent? not spectacular not terrible. but like, I dont know what I want? I dont know how 2 explain things that r wrong I feel like he thinks its like "oh u had a lot on ur plate this year :)" when in reality its like "I have a suicide plan and I'm 2 consecutively shit days away from using it" yknow. idk. it's my birthday on wednesday! I'm gna be 19 :0) my parents didnt even write my name on the envelope that has my card and I'm spending it in lockdown. they dropped presents 4 me off at work yday and didnt even seem upset that I was gonna be alone! fun great love it. drinking warm milk 2 try n make brain go sleepy mode. that was a lot fhdbf I love u goodnight - trans anon

happy early birthday! i would spend it with you if i could!

it’s a little bit of an understatement to say that i’m worried about you. and i have to be honest, therapy was never going to be spectacular. it takes a lot of work and a lot of honesty. i know i suggested that you start things off slow in your first session, but it sounds like it’s time to be blunt.

we expect our therapists to do a little bit of mind reading (at least i know i do), but there’s no way for him to understand how much you’re struggling unless you tell him. and if he’s genuinely not listening, you need to tell someone else.

i don’t want you to be alone. i don’t want you to hurt yourself. i love you so much and please, please take care of yourself. make a safety plan if you don’t already have one (and if you don’t know how, i can help). and just know that there are so many people who are rooting for you and who love you and you’re not alone

[phagodyke]

well.

[slasherparty]

Hey can I order a Brahms Heelshire with a s/o who just immediately adopts him after he comes out of the wall? Like “weird adult child with a tragic backstory emerges from a mirror? Guess this is my son now.” I crave fluff.

this is real sweet :’) thank you for requesting brahms, i don’t get to write him too much (also i got ur other ask so dont worry abt ur phrasing, i totally got you sksghgf)

you’ve always been the token “parent friend” of the group. always looking out for your friends, no matter if you were younger or older than them. you were there when they were upset or confused about any little thing.

maybe this is why you became a sitter to begin with. you liked looking out for everyone, kids just happened to be the demographic most people hired others to look after. sometimes you laugh to yourself and think you’ll try out nursing homes in the future just to balance it out.

being a sitter was a relatively easy job, and you were happy with it… up until you were hired by the heelshire’s. their situation was challenging, but your parental temperament shone through. some folks lived different lifestyles and if they wanted you to babysit a doll, so be it! 

of course this all changed when the senior heelshire’s left, and you met their real son. 

okay, no biggie. fully grown man wearing a doll mask comes crawling out of the fucking wall? alright. you can deal with this. it’s just gonna take some getting used to. besides… you’re all he has. you aren’t going to abandon him just because this new dynamic was a bit overwhelming.

brahms is kinda surprised when you aren’t frightened by him. all the nannies and sitters he’s had prior to you had either been terrified or just hadn’t been up to his standards. but you weren’t like them at all. you were able to look him right in the eyes and reintroduce yourself, as if this were a normal meeting between two long-time acquaintances.

“it’s nice to finally meet you, brahms. the real you.” 

you didn’t want to treat brahms like a charity case because it was clear within the first week of his first appearance that he was able to handle himself quite well. despite being a bit reclusive, he had a method to his madness and was strikingly skilled at keeping a schedule. after all, he’d been on the same one for nearly two decades. 

he might be good at listening to rules, but he was stubborn as all hell. you realize growing up in the walls probably stinted his personality development, even if the rest of him had continued growing.

he’s receptive of your willingness to help him with daily tasks, and your patience with him when he’s angry or upset doesn’t go unnoticed. because of you he starts to spend more time outside of the walls.

eventually, his trust in you grows enough so that he’s able to take small walks with you outside on your daily trips to empty the rat traps. 

“the fresh air will do you some good, brahms!” and that it does. his skin becomes less pallid, his energy goes up and his mood improves. 

brahms hates to admit that he enjoys being cared about so directly. for years he’s had to live vicariously through a doll, but now he can clearly hear someone talk while he’s being read to, feel them next to him while he eats, actually experience a goodnight kiss, face to face. 

he’s never felt more at home in his own home with you around. he thanks the cosmos that you’re you, or else he’s sure you would have left ages ago with his tantrums and fussy attitude. he can’t help but react poorly to things sometimes… he hasn’t been socialized very well, or at all in fact. 

over time you begin to see brahms as less of a brat and more of a companion. it might help that he’s learned a lot from directly interacting with you, but you also think him getting outside more has let him come more into his own. 

you’re happy when he’s around because he’s always looking to learn new things and spend time around you, even if sometimes he just wants to lay on your lap and avoid chores. 

(god i hope this is okay, i always do bullet points just to keep my head straight but they end up sounding like one conjoined thing anyway;; ahem! i hope this satisfies what you were lookin’ for, friend!)

[baekhvuns]

hi

-🍤 IS THIS THE SHRIMP EMOJI IDK I HAVE A NEW PHONE AND THE EMOJIS R DIFFERENT HELP

HI 😭😭😭

oh my i just checked qhen my last ask was and IT WAS A MONTH AGO OH MY im not even sure if that was actually my last ask..😭😭😭 my typos are back now bcs i cut my long precious beautiful nails bcs.. i had to😔💔 NOW I CANT FuNCTION PROPERLY WITH THESE STUBBY FINGERS

JFBWKDHWK IT FELT LIKE UR ASK WAS LAST WEEK !!!! omg how tf do u write with them nails 😭😭😭🤚🏼 doesn’t the tick tick bother u 😭😭 YOU SHOULD GET ACRYLICS or those press on nails 👁🤚🏼👁

HOW HAVE U BEEN BFF MY LOVE MY SWEET BABY MY BFF MY HONEYPIE😭😭❤️ I HOPE YOUVE BEEN DOING FINE,,  I FORGOT TUMBLR EXISTED I WAS BUSY WITH SCHOOL😭

HI BFF IVE BEEN VERY WELL FINISHING UP MR BODYGUARD HWA !!!! NO WORRIES HOPE UR SCHOOL WAS GOOD AND U HAD GOOD GRADES 😭😭

anyways HOW ARE YOU? hope youve been taking good care of yourself, dont skip meals and ofc stay hydrated! not too hydrated bcs that could kill u... but u get what i mean

hello mother, 😭😭 im very well !!!!! i have not skipped meals fbwnd i had miss rona but im all better now hOW ARE YOU???

THIS WAS LIKE.. LAST MONTH I THINK BUT THE POOL PHOTOS OH LORD GOD DID I TALK ABT IT HERE I DONT REMEMBER BUT IF I DID GODDAMN😔💔 sannies tiddies are just.. too big his shoulders cant even fit the screen anymore ALSO PARK SEONGHWA OH MY🥵🥵🥵

BFMABDKAXBM YES THE POOL PICTURES YES WE DO NOT TALK ABOUT THAT HERE ABSOLUTELY NOT BFNSFK stop no mr choi’s shoulders are MASSIVE

THE TRAILERS NWISKAKSJA TRAILER 1 WAS WOW BUT TRAILER 2 WAS WOW WOW LITERAL GOOSEBUMPS WHILE WATCHING THE TRAILERS FOR THE COMEBACK ATEEZ ARE SO COOL their lore is so well written and well planned i cannot comprehend🤧🤧

NO LITERALLY THE BUDGET AND EVERYTHING THE SCREEN AND THE CGI AND THE ARTISTRY 🤌🏼🤌🏼🤌🏼🤌🏼 we absolutely need a published book of their lore bc it’s so massively mind blowing

THE CONCEPT PHOTOS OH LORDDDDD GOODBYE /// I SAW THIS ONE EDIT OF SEONGHWA RIDING A SKATEBOARD JWJSJWJSJA LIKE THE PIC FROM THE RECENT PHOTOS LIKE THE RED OUTFIT YK WJIDKAJSA HES SO HOT GODDAMN GOODBYE

THE ORANGE VERSION HAS THE BEST PHOTOS THOSE RACING OUTFITS AND THE HAIRS AND THE ANGLES AND THE CONTACTS??? THEIR DESIGNER BETTER GET A RAISE FOR THESE

also.. mingi oh lord MINGMINGIMINGIMINGI HIS PHOTOS ARE JUST.. HE JUST KNOWS HOW TO POSE FOR THE CAMERA

HES A MODEL DISGUISED AS A IDOL his hair???? 😮‍💨😮‍💨

ALL OF THEM LOOK SO COOL and ik there are probably hidden items in the photos that is a spoiler for their lore but im too dumb for that shit SO WKDJAJHSHA /// ALSO WHAT AM I READING HERE WDYM BODYGUARD HWA TOMORROW.. HAVE I BEEN GONE FOR THAT LONG😭😭😭 OH MY QJJSHAHAJA

THEY REALLY DO LOOK SO COOL & YES BODYGUARD TN !!!!!

dont u even think i forgot abt boxer san pls im begging🧎🧎🧎im kidding ofc its up to u what u want to write.. BUT BOXER HWA BOXER SAN 😩😩😩😩

anyways HOPE URE HAVING A GREAT DAY MS BAEKHVUNS ILY AND I ALSO MISSED AENDING U ASKS THAT IS JUST FUL OF TYPO ERRORS AND A BUNCH OF EMOJIS😭😭 stay safe and healthy!! mwuah im going to sleep now its 1am here HWUSHHAHAHAHHA

HDKWHDKS I HOPE UR HAVING A GOOD ONE TOO !!!! PLS TAKE CARE FBWNDH pls take care and eat loads and hydrate and also sleep well!!!!

2/2 OH also.. i had a lot of things i wanted to share to you but i forgot..😭😭 i was like "ooo ms baekhvuns would want to hear this" and smth along those lines BUT I FORGOT IM SO WJDJAJJSJAA anyways,, it was probably like idk smth abt a wooyo au I DONT REMEMBER IM GOING TO CRY.. i might remember it someday😞💔

BDMWBDKS WHEN UR DO RMR SEND JN AN ASK !!!! a wooyo au 👁👄👁 hUHHHH DO SEND PLS DO

-🍤 this shirmp emoji looks.. pale frail weak and anemic in my phone lmfao alright im going to sleep now (real) BWJSJAJNA goodnight/morning ms baekhvuns!!❤️

LMFAOOOO WHAT PHONE DID U SWITCH TO PLS 😭😭😭

[drunkjaked]

i know i already sent two asks in today (so sorry) but i just wanted to share some good things that's happened to me recently if thats okay ??? if its not please do ignore i just wanted to share with you !!! ( ^^ ) so .. i got more into these two groups recently & they have been bringing me so much happiness & calmness in hard times 💭 on another note T__T its been so-so but i feel happy bcs i get to be free of stress soon!!!!!! i also have been (trying ><) to come in terms with myself and that kinda gives me relief <3 just its been good for the past week nd im hoping it stays good for a long while ~3~ my anxiety is still at peak sometimes but its better than before so it's such an achievement for me ). . ( i just felt to share that with you! u're so homely so i feel safe talking to you???? im sorry its so cringe to say that and i don't mean to make you uncomfortable ☹️ you always manage to make me feel important hhh o_< sorry for dumping that on u but thank you for everything! anyways since i wont be able to send a relatively ... gross ... ask (also please pick between 1-4 so i can decide what ask to send first bcs yes 🤍 i do pre-write before i send the asks to u :( just want the best impression!) until friday ??? please do take care (im sorry i always say this) and make sure to drink plenty of water <33 (i dont know if this will work but when im on my period i drink so so much water and it stops my cramps and sometimes even shortens my period) ++ eat your three meals & rest well 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂 im writing this at night so im going to bed soon but whenever you see this i hope you're doing fine <333333 sweet dreams sax !!!!!! U__U

from: 🐰 <3

p.s ... im sorry for all the () action i just have so much to say but so little brain energy TT also feel like i overshared im sorry if i made or make you uncomfortable please do tell me if i do so i know what better way to say things thank you for listening to me! goodnight really this time 💟

don't apologise u can send me as many asks as u want i love chatting w u, i promise! that's fun to hear, do u mind sharing what groups they are so i could check them out too?

i've been so worried about u since ur last ask so i feel so relieved to hear that you've been feeling better lately, thank u sm 🐰 for the update!! it definitely is an achievement so i hope u do something to celebrate it - it doesn't have to be anything big.. even if u treat urself to a good read or show or smth else u enjoy, just make sure to acknowledge all of these things even if they may seem small in the grand scheme of things <33 im rooting for u always

you feel safe talking to me??? ohhhhh my days that is so so so so kind of you to say and im so glad to hear it because i want that for everyone who interacts w me, i really want this blog to feel like a safe place and for me to feel like a friend so i will work harder in the future to maintain that for u and everyone else <33 agh ur so sweet and i only make u feel important bc u are important!! im always gonna be here for u and u can tell me anything u feel comfortable sharing! i have a twt acc and a discord if u would ever wanna chat w me outside of asks, but only if u feel comfortable doing so! im more than happy to chat w u in asks but just incase u ever want smth more private <3

hmm i pick number 3 bc today the 30th day of the 3rd month! it's so fun that u write ur asks in advance but it makes sense now that u say it, u always write so well and clearly that i can tell u put a lot of time into it ! take ur time sending those there is absolutely no rush on that!!!

im really bad w drinking water but i'll take this advice!! it's my last day today so hopefully it should be alright, i don't normally get such bad cramps idk what was going on this month 😭

sweet dreams right back to u 🐰!! i actually just woke up about an hour ago but i slept very well <3 im sending u all the love in the world and i really hope to chat w u soon!!!!

and dw abt that i love reading ur thoughts in the brackets i tend to thAt a lot so it’s nice seeing ur brain kinda working as u type 😭 and remember u can always tell me anything

from: sax (always ur buddy) 💌🫀

[doctormage]

So blessed, so proud, so honored to have been a part of the largest demonstration in American history today. It's honestly a miracle I didn't cry even tho I came dangerously close but tbh that was prob bc I was running on 3 hours of sleep lmao anyway my limbs don't work anymore and I can barely keep my eyes open but y'all can BET YOUR SWEET ASS ILL BE MAKIN SOME EMOTIONAL POST TOMORROW ABT THE MARCH DONT WORRY YALL but yea I'm gonna go sleep for like 13 hours so goodnight all u nasty guys and gals and non binary pals xoxox

[thankyoumskobayashi]

Guardian Hybrid au

aka, this is basically canon but more self-indulgent

The Yashou tribes (Crow, Snake, Cat, and Tree) are basically hybrids & forest spirits who look down on humans for their overall mistreatment of hybrids. Due to genetic mutation from contact with the surface, some Dixingians are hybrids as well, although hybrids are more accepted as people there. It is not uncommon for hybrids to own businesses or get married, whereas on the surface they hope for a good human who will take care of them.

Zhao Yunlan's mother didn't die in this au, she's a hybrid who moved out on her own and supported her human son as he grew. She divorced her deadweight husband and finds a fulfilling life helping rescue other hybrids. Zhao Yunlan grew up with a deep compassion for hybrids, that's why when he was blackmailed into being head of the SID, he specifically sought out a team involving them.

Dajing, his lieutenant, is from the Cat Tribes and was recovering from a head injury with the help of the kind old man when Zhao met him. Zhao noticed him plotting how to steal the most fish from a vendor and offered him a job immediately. From there, the two set up the SID. They found Wang Zheng, a nekomata, asleep in the mountains and took her in as the receptionist/secretary. Zhao is a messy person by nature and Dajing is too lazy to clean anything beyond his own fluffy ears, so the office was getting to be a mess.

Zua Hong was the next to join, partly to escape being bored by her fourth uncle and partly because she was inspired by Zhao Yunlan convincing a witness that humans can learn to be kind to and respect hybrids. After he was done interrogating, the snake woman dropped into the chair opposite him and said "I will lend you my faith, human, but you alone. Do not fuck this up."

Zhao Yunlan smiled and said "I should compensate you for your help, then. Do you need a place to stay?" And he helps her choose an apartment close to the SID that she feels safe staying in. She's officially hired the next day.

The next person to be hired is Li Jing, the scientist. He's a nerd and very eccentric but also really cute. He's the puppy of the SID because there's too many cats and we need to balance it out.

I'm leaning towards Chu being a dragon which is just a regular hybrid, not one of the Yashou types like Dajing and Zua Hong.

Sang Zan is a wolf hybrid, an ancient one sorta related to the Yashou like Wang Zheng. However since he loves Wang Zheng and is glad the rest took care of her, he isn't as arrogant towards the regular hybrids as one would suspect.

Guo Changcheng is probably just a regular human. He got assigned to the "furry dept" because of his uncle's influence.

Shen Wei, in addition to having near limitless magic, is a senri, a Chinese leopard yokai. He is highly independent, as Dixing hybrids are, and doesn't understand that Haixing hybrids live with humans for their own safety. However, once he joins the SID, he gets a confusing crush on Zhao Yunlan. He starts scenting Zhao Yunlan's office. Zua Hong smells it and smirks; she KNOWS he's got a massive crush. She takes it upon herself to tease Zhao Yunlan about his natural charm which attracts such powerful hybrids ("Surely you must not be speaking of yourself," Cho tells her in an unintentional roast; he genuinely doesn't pick up on the romance in the air.)

At some point, Zhao invites the entire dept, the hack reporter (who is a chameleon hybrid) included, to celebrate the festival at his mom's house. His mom is pleased to meet everyone her son works with and makes sure to have a heart-to-heart with each of them during the night. If there are any concerns with Yunlan's leadership, she will address them directly.

The only person who doesn't upen up to her a lot is Shen Wei, who only describes Yunlan in painfully accurate detail. As the night goes on, she notices Shen Wei's scent on Yunlan and Realizes. If she was oblivious at first, Yunlan must be even more oblivious. She asks Shen Wei to discuss something with her and then asks him if Yunlan knows he likes him yet.

Shen Wei just sighs and murmurs he doesn't care if Zhao likes him back, all he cares about is protecting the human anyway and it's good enough that he's alive. (Oh yeah side note: in addition to magical powers beyond the purr-heal Yashou cats have 9 lives.) Zhao's mom nods and grooms his ears anyways, wishing him luck with whatever he has planned for her son. She is a good judge of intentions by now and Trusts Shen Wei.

After making sure everyone else gets home safely, Zhao walks Shen Wei to his apartment (not far since it's the apartment across from his) and tells him goodnight and to take care of himself. Shen Wei promises he will as long as Zhao does too. Zhao grins that flirtatious grin he always has and Shen Wei's heart does flops in his chest and he rubs his cheek against Zhao's hand. Zhao smiles, and scritches behind Shen Wei's ear for a glorious moment, before he turns around to his own apartment and disappears.

Shen Wei thinks about what Zhao's mom said to him that night. Across the hall, Zhao drinks because he Knows Dixing hybrids don't need to live with humans but he wants to invite Shen Wei to live with him anyway. He's always been a punk who didn't care for rules but now he worries there may be some unspoken rule about Dixing hybrids, similar to the unspoken rules for the Yashou tribes: just don't invit them ever. Unless a.) for some crazy reason they already trust you or b.) they dont trust you and you want an ass-kicking.

Yunlan is woken up, hungover, by a phone call from Wang Zheng saying they have a case. He staggers into the office, trying to make it look like his everyday swagger, but no one is fooled (except Guo). Shen Wei is there to catch him when he can't keep his balance anymore.

(OH! I almost forgot!! Jiu Zhu is definitely a Dixing cheetah hybrid. His Dixing powers compliment his magic kitty powers, which is why he gave even Shen Wei a hard time.)

I have more hcs but they're abt stuff that happened earlier in the show than this and I don't want this outline to feel disjointed so i will stop here.

[llo0p-blog]

00:11

Right now i’m sitting on my new carpet for my floor bc it’s reaally slippery, listening to various artists on youtube. and I just remembered how I used to stay up until 00:00 (12am) because i got this msg that was basically being sent to everyone. anyways, it said that if i didnt do this and that before a certain time had passed i’d get killed at 00:00 (12pm). I was soooo scared and the first night i literally cried until i fell asleep and it was way past 12. and I was like 10/11 years old lol.. jeez, now all i worry about when i sleep is my neck bc every position is so dang bad for yourbody. 

plus.. ugh. there’s a bunch of boy stuff atm. I dont really allow myself to think about it bc it’s too frustrating. so basiclly a few guys likes me but only one of them actually talks to me, (on snapchat). well, i keep hearing from people related to him that he really likes me. but i feel like it’s all a joke bc the way he texts me are like super “i dont care abt you”-ish. so i was going to block him cause i just dont need that kinda negativity in my life yknow. but then later at night (i had forgot to actually block him) him and some othr ppl txt me and im like dead scared bc like wtf i was abt to sleep and i actually missed like 1 & a half hour of sleep bc of that. anyways, one of my other friends told me that they are the kind of ppl who makes rumors about ppl, so im actually rlly happy that i didnt block him. 

GAHHHH I DONT EVEN LIKE THE HUMAN RACE. I just really want a cat and a nice insta feed. but neither of those things are ever going to fucking happen. 

goodnight tumblr thanks for listening to my 00:11 08-10-2017 complaint abt my life.