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she makes me so (circuits breaking noise)

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(thinking again) maybe royal trio is also about the horror of needing someone. the imminent knowledge that "oh shit. i can't exist alone." no matter how much you want it. no matter how much you try. you find these people and now you want them and you need them and oh GOD it's horrifying

the whole thing abt royaltrio for me is the good ol "sometimes the best act of rebellion you can take in a world who wants to beat you down and see you fail is to simply be happy" but at the same time theres the glaring truth (in my case, at least) that happiness is not a conscious state. i.e. as soon as you realize "oh i'm happy" yeah its over for you the jig is up say goodbye to your peaceful life etc. so royaltrio is that tumultuousness to me: held back from happiness by grief, guilt, anger, desire for revenge, "i don't deserve it,", "this can't be real," ......etc. and how to cope with all that. and how to forgive yourself and the people around you. and how to achieve, first, safety. comfort. these things that they should have had in the beginning. etc. or whatever

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Day 3 of posting Katsuya Suou

Bonus:

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junocord!!!

pings for my kittycat vtuber will now go here!! https://discord.gg/W3uG5dMcgG

and as always, if you wanna be in celecord (commission pings, kofi member benefits, me screaming abt vtubers and persona most of the time) it's here!! https://discord.gg/sEGnjCfzhv

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IN ANY CASE thank you deeply frm the bottom of my heart everyone who comments nice things abt my stuff in replies or tags or dms or my inbox IT WARMS YMY HEART SO MCH nd gives me the inspiration nd motivation to keep going........!!!!!!!!

it might just be seasonal depression moment frm me but i feel more and more lost these days..................... im not sure where i want to go with my art really

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eeeeeeeeek looking thru my art stresses me out...... i think there's nothing i really "specialize" in if that makes sense so i feel like my stuff hardly stands out.,

ofc that doesn't really matter as a hobby but im kind of thinking if i were to lean more into art as a job/freelance sort of thing i dont really have. idk. something really COMPELLING that would make people choose my art over others'................... ........

UE i just have to work harder but like eeeeeeeekkk EEEEKKK im stressed abt it kinda

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SUMI WITH SHORT HAIR SUMI WITH SHORT HAIR AAA

THANK YOU SO MUCH ANON AAA IM SO GLAD!!! I NEED TO DRAW HER MORE!!! my hc is that she snips it all off after 3rd sem ehehhehe and also i just love the look of straight-cut bobs... so sleek so pretty so elegance

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aftermath

ERMMM this takes place after long winter au third semester.... it could honestly vary but i think sometime btwn 5-10 yrs. sumire is abroad, akira moved back to tokyo after finishing hs/college, goro is. around

SORRY ITS 5am again so ill make this quick . again

QUICK DISCLAIMER this is kinda like a lot of me projecting LMFAOSDOGKJSDHFK@#)40 so like dont read into this tooooo much bc idk royaltrio cld be insnanely ooc here but. YEA.

started thinking abt akira constantly calling up goro and sumire even after 1) goro dies (so they think) and 2) sumire distances herself post-third sem. i elaborate on this on my shusumi fic........ sorry subtle shilling

^ tldr i think these 3 kinda drift apart after the snowglobe world crumbles, that false reality that ironically brought them so close together..... back in reality, things feel Different (but this is Our reality right? why does it feel so strange now?) and so. well its just not the same, no amtter what

the. the “the love was there. it didnt change anything. it didnt save anyone. there were just too many forces against it. but it still matters that the love was there” tumblr post

even though they loved each other and knew it too, there was also some sort of looming feeling that it won't last - but it does, still. it exists, in some meaningful sense-

akira sees and thinks about sumire and goro in everything he does, his day to day life, worries about them, wants to tell them about all he's doing, wants to hear about what they're up to. so he does so by leaving voicemails (although in this case sumire changed her number LMFAO. he does it anyway)

in the same vein, sumire thinks about all the things she'd like to tell goro, but with no address to send it to, it's useless. but she writes them anyway - more and more as a solace to herself, conversing with the memory of goro in her head, making him live on in that sense. and with akira i think it's a little more subtle. here she's trying to find a coffee shop that measures up to lebalnc, and of course she doesn't. there's only one leblanc and only one akira. but yeah like in sumire's case she kinda goes these "roundabout" ways in her Missing Them. theres also the added thing of her wanting to be more independent (from goro and akira and kasumi and tokyo and etc etc etc. also elaborated on in said fic)

goro! i think there's smth so poignant about visiting your own grave (i wrote sumire doing htis in another fic. thats an aside) hair cut, mask on, no gloves, he's a different sort of goro akechi but not really in any meaningful sense either. he's just different. sumire leaves the scarf (i think w sumire, she learns from goro like. omg im blanking on the word. LIKE reliability..? thinking realistically? smth like that.) so shes subconsciously thinks oh ill get him something useful like a scarf to keep warm (and a lil more subtle on the love aspect). akira gets him a lovely bouquet, straightforward and honest w his love/adoration, never afraid to spell it out. smth abt goro needing to live a new life now but also he keeps looking back - but this time, there's love when he looks back. there's still love

a kind of "youll always have home with me" sentiment btwn these 3. even if we never return there, youll still have a place in my heart

like "i dont think ill ever have that kind of love again. but i had it once. and even if i couldnt keep it, its still important." THIS IS HARD TO EXPLAIN

anyway tldr theres just some sentiment w royaltrio w Wanting to move on but also holding onto your past, and learning how to reconcile with the horrible parts but also the tender and lovely parts. sometimes there's stuff you gotta leave behind and grow past, grow around, even if it's good. even if it's good, you still have to push forward. <- a lesson that i'm trying to teach myself currently so thats why this is very. projecting. LMFAODSJKHJKSDKW sorry im crnge goodnight

these notes are horrible dont read these.

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aftermath

ERMMM this takes place after long winter au third semester.... it could honestly vary but i think sometime btwn 5-10 yrs. sumire is abroad, akira moved back to tokyo after finishing hs/college, goro is. around

SORRY ITS 5am again so ill make this quick . again

QUICK DISCLAIMER this is kinda like a lot of me projecting LMFAOSDOGKJSDHFK@#)40 so like dont read into this tooooo much bc idk royaltrio cld be insnanely ooc here but. YEA.

started thinking abt akira constantly calling up goro and sumire even after 1) goro dies (so they think) and 2) sumire distances herself post-third sem. i elaborate on this on my shusumi fic........ sorry subtle shilling

^ tldr i think these 3 kinda drift apart after the snowglobe world crumbles, that false reality that ironically brought them so close together..... back in reality, things feel Different (but this is Our reality right? why does it feel so strange now?) and so. well its just not the same, no amtter what

the. the “the love was there. it didnt change anything. it didnt save anyone. there were just too many forces against it. but it still matters that the love was there” tumblr post

even though they loved each other and knew it too, there was also some sort of looming feeling that it won't last - but it does, still. it exists, in some meaningful sense-

akira sees and thinks about sumire and goro in everything he does, his day to day life, worries about them, wants to tell them about all he's doing, wants to hear about what they're up to. so he does so by leaving voicemails (although in this case sumire changed her number LMFAO. he does it anyway)

in the same vein, sumire thinks about all the things she'd like to tell goro, but with no address to send it to, it's useless. but she writes them anyway - more and more as a solace to herself, conversing with the memory of goro in her head, making him live on in that sense. and with akira i think it's a little more subtle. here she's trying to find a coffee shop that measures up to lebalnc, and of course she doesn't. there's only one leblanc and only one akira. but yeah like in sumire's case she kinda goes these "roundabout" ways in her Missing Them. theres also the added thing of her wanting to be more independent (from goro and akira and kasumi and tokyo and etc etc etc. also elaborated on in said fic)

goro! i think there's smth so poignant about visiting your own grave (i wrote sumire doing htis in another fic. thats an aside) hair cut, mask on, no gloves, he's a different sort of goro akechi but not really in any meaningful sense either. he's just different. sumire leaves the scarf (i think w sumire, she learns from goro like. omg im blanking on the word. LIKE reliability..? thinking realistically? smth like that.) so shes subconsciously thinks oh ill get him something useful like a scarf to keep warm (and a lil more subtle on the love aspect). akira gets him a lovely bouquet, straightforward and honest w his love/adoration, never afraid to spell it out. smth abt goro needing to live a new life now but also he keeps looking back - but this time, there's love when he looks back. there's still love

a kind of "youll always have home with me" sentiment btwn these 3. even if we never return there, youll still have a place in my heart

like "i dont think ill ever have that kind of love again. but i had it once. and even if i couldnt keep it, its still important." THIS IS HARD TO EXPLAIN

anyway tldr theres just some sentiment w royaltrio w Wanting to move on but also holding onto your past, and learning how to reconcile with the horrible parts but also the tender and lovely parts. sometimes there's stuff you gotta leave behind and grow past, grow around, even if it's good. even if it's good, you still have to push forward. <- a lesson that i'm trying to teach myself currently so thats why this is very. projecting. LMFAODSJKHJKSDKW sorry im crnge goodnight

these notes are horrible dont read these.

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The audience was awaiting the famed Detective Prince and the one-and-only Kasumi Yoshizawa who ended up no-showing... but two new skaters suddenly step onto the rink and make it a show to remember!

a fabricated stage... made for the detective prince and kasumi yoshizawa, filled with slogans and empty seats and mirrors that remind them that this isn't their stage... HOWEVER!!! THE SPOTLIGHTS ARE STILL ON AND THE RINK IS STILL ICECOLD SO ITS SHOWTIME BABYYYYY they throw all that expectation out the window and do their thing regardless AND WHAT A SHOW IT IS!!!!

i thinkthe fact that all the seats are empty is funny as fuck. no one came to see them...... but they got some fans throwing roses at the end!!! (in my head it's joker especially if this showtime is developed during long winter au so their Only other teammate Is joker.) (i havent rlly thoughgt abt When this happens tho teeheebonk... up to ur interpretation...)

i noticed in the other showtimes theres some that have like.. logos?? slogans?? namely the ryuji/yusuke makoto/haru haru/morgana and akira/goro ones so i DEFINITELY wanted to include that in here (i feel like most of the showtimes have stuff incorporatingtheir pthief names except for a few??? they hsld have included it in all ofthem its so cute)

figure skating... physically intensive and demanding sport that requires a lot of precise maneuvers and finesse which suits the two of them quite nicely!!

i wanted to include the "sayonara suckers" line. atlus why did u cut that out its so cute.

i think for these two you could def do a more serious showtime or a sillier/cuter one like this but since crow already got a pretty serious one w joker (and violet also w the flashback of kasumi and all) i went for Sillycute.... tho this could also be a little depressing if u think abt the premise KJFHKASDHAKSJ

goro is carrying her on his shoulder or something on the last page! i imagine after the slashes on pg2 he scoops her up nd spins her around and then the camera pans in on her then she waves but yeah. HEHEHEH

thinking abt it more the joker/violet and joker/crow showtime r kinda like acknowledging their past while this one acknowledges their future :’)))

edit: srry ikeep remembering more stuff . i think the idea of them performing on an empty stage, in a field (figure skating) that isn't either of theirs, yet enjoying it and havign fun regardless of how good they are, is super important to me KASDHAJKSDHA as long as its theirs, thats what matters...!! as long as they]re wholeheartedly THEMSELVES...!!!! who cares abt audience expectations or Who they want you to be or What you look like in the mirror!! you're still you!!!

this goes out to royaltriodaily on twt I HOPE U SEE THIS SOMEHOW UEUEEE UEEEE

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grief

sorry i dont ahve a better title ALSO ITS 5AM let me make this quick

i think all the time abt sumire not knowing goro is a dead man walking. goro wouldnt tell her himself bc he likes her knowing him As he is, without any strings attached, nothing abt his past w shido, black mask, his betrayal, his sacrifice. she knows him as crow-senpai, then akechi-senpai, then goro-senpai, and that's it.

akira wouldnt tell sumire because he thinks he HAS to be the one to shoulder this grief. he doesnt want her to hurt the way he does, knowing that goro is one foot in the grave. he wants her to enjoy the days with him without the looming knowledge that it wont last, it will never last, no matter what.

also i want akira to snap at sumire a little bit (and vice versa) teehee silllyyyy

and ofc sumire's self-sacrificial complexes... she would do Anything to save/preserve her loved ones.. anything.. akira knows that too. ofc both of them have this same sorta Thing going on but he wanted to Protect:tm: her... but now after this comic he sees damn i should have relied on her + the people around me damn.

srry sumire's "i wish i knew" HURTS UE UE bc ofc she wld want to know that goro was in trouble. maybe she could have done something, yes, but its more likely it would just hurt her in the long run.. so akira did what he thought was right.. :')

(re: 4th page) but there is ONE THING sumire could have done, and that Only Sumire could have done (given long winter AU scenario specifically): and that is to be a shoulder for akira to lean on in his darkest moments...!!! especially since she doesnt know abt goro's sacrifice, she wouldnt Get the Idea the way the other pthieves would. theres smth poignant abt that i think .... if only he let her in earlier so it wouldnt hurt so bad now...!!!!! right!! right!!! yeowwwch!!!!

also i think some anons were curiosu abt my comic scripts so here was the initial concept:

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happy long winter sunday

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I found your art awhile ago after i finished transistor and i love love your transistor stuff!! Recently got into persona 2 as well and I'm living for your persona art. Love how you capture the characters from both those games ^_^

thank you so much! here... you'll understand my Vision

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rabbit rkgk

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look back (celeste version)

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nix comp

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EEEEP LONG TIME NO PERSONA FANART promise i’m cooking a comic my wrist is just killing me lately so even this comic looks rlly intimidating …. focusing on comms and stuff for juno first