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soooo would any of my good omens mutuals be willing to check out an edit in progress for me to give me thoughts/opinions?
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BRB, making an online course that helps men become more secure in being submissive so they have a better chance at getting matched up with the femdom of their dreams.
#Am I joking?#Maybe...but also maybe not...#nyxrambles#Okay but would this be something any of you guys want? Because I might be joking but I might also be completely serious?#Considering how often I get approached for advice and how often I see this on reddit...#Specifically talking about men because of internalized man stuff but obviously this could be gender-neutral as well.#IDK am I insane here đđ Feedback is appreciated!
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FABIAN!!!! ARAMAIS!!!!!!! SEACASTER!!!!!!!!!
wasn't planning to finish this today, but the spirit of fabian compelled me.
#fabian seacaster#fabian aramais seacaster#d20 fantasy high#fhsy#fantasy high#dropout#my dramatic boy#dungeons and dragons#if anyone has any feedback on the hair i would really appreciate#like the shape seems to mimic references ive seen but the finer details? despite being highly stylised... im insecure abt it#i spent so much fucking time on his shoes#ribbittrobbit#SPRING BREAK I BELIEVE IN YOU
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So, you've been sent bait: A Guide for Internet Posters and Readers
Disclaimer: I am simply an autistic internet poster with a special interest in human interaction, abuse patterns, and internet culture. I am not a scholar and I do not have a degree in these things. While I have done research into the topics of cancellation, online abuse, and harassment, I am far from an expert.
Introduction:
I've seen this happen dozens of times before. A semi popular blogger will suddenly seem embroiled in a controversial topic, receiving harassment and accusations of some pretty terrible things. It goes on for about 24-72 hours, and then poof, it seems to be completely over, (however, of course, it can be brought up again without warning.) This can be emotionally damaging for the blogger, for the supporters of that blogger, and for the shock waves it will undoubtedly send into the greater community. This also further spreads discourse and popularizes harmful ideologies to people who might have previously never heard of them. The targets are almost always trans women, (with transmisogyny doing most of the cancellation legwork) and it seems to always have the goal of turning fellow trans people against the target. (Though, of course, I've seen this done with autistic creators, nonbinary creators, ect. Trans women are just the most popular target.)
Now, the goal of this guide is to help people understand how this happens, be able to recognize the patterns of a targeted harassment campaign, and be able to try and prevent it in the future. I'll be writing this as a guide to the target, however, I think it's important for lurkers/readers to also be able to recognize these patterns so they too can avoid being manipulated into falling into these pitfalls. A large portion of this harassment initiative is to use "useful idiots" in order to do most of the legwork. As a reader, you must avoid becoming a useful idiot, (which I'll be referring to as fools from now on) and you must be able to tell when other people are being used in this manner as well. This is the most effective way to protect people from unwarranted harassment campaigns.
Section 1: Bait
Types of Bait:
You've been sent bait, but you aren't sure if it is actually bait, or a genuine question from a fan. You don't want to ignore someone's valid concern, so you answer it even though you might not be sure. This is your first mistake! If you think it might be bait, it's best to treat it as such. Think of bait asks as toxic waste. If you aren't sure, it's much better to be safe than sorry. If you receive a bait ask, your best bet is to delete it and not respond at all. Yes, it will probably rattle you, and you'll probably feel bad about deleting the question, but you need to understand that it doesn't matter. If this person was asking a genuine question, they would understand if you don't want to answer. If they get annoyed or angry at your lack of answer- they were likely asking it with the intent to hurt you.
The first type of bait is bringing up a controversial topic.
While certain topics (like queer rights, abortion, Palestinian freedom) do actually matter in the real world and I would believe are worth responding to or making your position clear (as long as it is something you do have an opinion on) this does not mean all controversial topics are equal. Many topics that are "hot debates" online do not matter in the real world. (for example, proship vs antiship). Regardless of the validity of the debate, if it doesn't matter in the real world, it likely isn't worth publicly stating your opinion on those things. That is why people who are active in those movements try to make these things seem like they have real world consequences- to try and make their debate more valid and easier to pull more people into. The real goal with many of these topics is not to try and have a reasonable discussion. The goal is to try and pull as many people into them as possible. If they can successfully get ANY response out of you, then they win. Their debate is now broadcasted on your platform. Their thoughts, arguments, philosophies are now spread to thousands of people instantly. Even if you respond with an answer like "huh?" "what?" or "what does this mean???" they still win. Your acknowledgement of the debates existence at ALL is a win for them. They get to publicly platform their beliefs on your profile. If you respond at all and express even the slightest hint of an opinion, then they will have an entire section of fools that can now send you messages about this topic. Death by a thousand paper cuts. This is the most common type of bait, and the reason is simple. Internet debates can suck in people and can quickly rot peoples brains. Like sleeper agents, people will automatically start trying to chime in the moment they see the hints of any debate. If you fall for this debate, the best thing to do is delete everything, block main players and wait it out. With any luck, it will be completely forgotten by the end of the week.
The second type of bait is an accusation.
Again, while some allegations or accusations are worth responding to, if it is completely false, not responding will be your best bet. If you do respond at all, the allegation and your name will be linked in peoples minds. Even if you deny it, people will be confused as to why it was brought up at all. They might even think that you are lying or deflecting. Responding to the accusation at all is treated as a confession. If this accusation is something you've heard before, it would be worth looking into the source of the claim- someone might be spreading lies about you. However, if this accusation is something you've never received before, it is almost certainly bait. They are trying to make you look bad. Just delete them. If this is something you are receiving from a specific person, ask them about it privately. Never respond to false accusations on your public platform unless you know the source of the accusations. If you have to respond to them, you need to link to the accusation in full, not vaguely describe them. When you vaguely describe them, then you are putting the duty on the readers to find the accusation- they'll read it on the accusers terms- putting the ball directly into the accusers court. If your reader reads it directly from the accusers, then it will automatically make your refutation look dubious by comparison. Make it easy for the reader to see the full accusation and point out the absurdity of the claims. By laying out all of the information clearly, the readers will be able to easily figure out that the claims were bogus. In future confrontations, your supporters will likely even respond to the accusers for you, now that they fully understand the arguments against you. Supporters love to correct people, and this can help you significantly- just as much as it can hurt. It's a double edged sword, so if you point it in the right direction, it can help protect you against false accusations.
The third type of bait is confusion.
This type of bait is a bit harder to spot, and it's usually blended with the other two types. This type of bait is deliberately confusing. The confusing nature is what makes it such effective bait. A vague message can be read a thousand ways, and as long as one person can spin it in a way that makes you a "horrible person" then that can quickly become the narrative. If you receive a question that you do not understand, you have no reason to answer it. If you can't answer, simply not acknowledging it at all is the smartest thing to do.
How to deal with bait:
As I've stated in the previous sub-sections, the first time you receive any type of bait, you should ignore it. The intentions of the bait may differ, but they all need to be treated in the same way- with no respect at all. Anyone who tells you otherwise is someone who wishes for you to be hurt or a fool. If you receive it more than once, try blocking the person. If you continue to receive it, then that means that in all likelihood it's more than one person sending you the bait, and it might not be bait after all. However, you should proceed with extreme caution. You do not respond to the bait- you figure out the source of the questions and answer it on your own terms. Simply making a post like "Hey, for the record, I support dolphins." will go over a thousand times better than a post that goes like "'Why do you hate dolphins?' I don't." If you are receiving bait, another way to deal with it is by turning anonymous asks off and looking into the blogs of people sending you the bait. Search terms relating to the question they asked. If it's something they seem to get into a lot of internet fights over, block them. The approach you must always consider bait with is that all of the bait asks you receive are sent by one person trying to seem like a group of people. This is on purpose- they want to intimidate you into answering. This is why blocking and turning off anonymous asks can be useful tools. It forces them to unmask themselves.
Footnote 1: The response by these bait people is often "keeping on anonymous asks allow people to feel safe in asking these important questions." Your safety is more important. This is just trying to guilt trip you. Fools will also often respond similarly. After all, it can sound compelling. However you are not a publicly traded company. You do not need transparency. You do not have body guards or multiple employees. You are a singular person with a right to privacy and safety.
Summary
In this section, we discussed the main types of bait: controversial, accusatory, and confusing. We also talked about the best way to deal with each type, as well as the pitfalls of responding to each type, and how to deal with a larger harassment campaign.
If you personally have fallen victim to any of these techniques, either as a fool or a poster, I can understand how you might feel- however the important aspect of these types of bait is that they can and do trick people. If they didn't work, they wouldn't be used. It is not your fault for falling for it- it is completely on the perpetrators of this abuse. However, I hope this guide can help people to protect themselves or recognize when these things are happening to them.
#long post#so you've been sent bait#this is a series im writing on dealing with harassment and bait- im doing this partially because#ive seen this used to harass many people i respect#and also because i think it might be nice to have a tumblr specific guide using tumblr internet culture#many of these types of guides are specific to twitter or less anonymous social medias like instagram#i would greatly appreciate any feedback or reviews! this is a work in progress and i want to make sure i cover all bases
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La LibertĂŠ ou la Mort! Acrylic on canvas. Somehow managed to exceed my own expectations.
#My art#Les Miserables#Les Mis#Based on the 2012 film set. On that note: I've heard that there's going to be a re-release.#Spent six or seven hours on the damn thing. Would appreciate any and all feedback.
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Snap (part 1) - Deception
(Part 2)
Vox brainrot entry #1.5
Follow up on entry #1
A/N he falls to bits, but they take care of him in the end, I promise. He def deserves it though. If this is bad, I apologise, I've never shown the smut I've written to anyone for feedback lmao.
Probably should have done a word counter for this - it's pretty long.
Cw: 18+ NSFW fic below cut, degradation, edging, punishment, biting, overstimulation, voyeurism, switch (but ultimately bottom) Vox, domtop! reader, AFAB reader - gn pronouns, also feat my nerd ass's knowledge of flower language lmao
Idk if there's other things I should CW in here sorry (advice/correction in comments appreciated đ)
- It didn't take you very long to start noticing how he seemed to know what to do perfectly; gifts, gestures, dates. Even if he always played it off as a master at lying through his toothy smile, you weren't an idiot.
- You do curse yourself that you let it slide and treated it as an afterthought for several months however. It begins to become more of a conscious thing on your mind though.
- So you bait him with something so very specific that it wouldn't ever be a consideration normally for someone trying to woo you - as he had been doing for several months at this point. After you know that he's off work, you sit on your phone scrolling and click onto a post about flowers, sprawled across your lounge lazily.
- You smile at your phone and say out to the empty room as if just casually talking to yourself. "Ooo, snapdragons." He fell for it hook line and fucking sinker.
- The next morning, there is a delivery of beautifully wrapped red snapdragons at your door with a note taped to the side of it.
- You felt a mixture of disgust, anger and betrayal rise in your chest at the confirmation that he'd been violating your privacy by looking at you secretly like some fucking stalker. You push it down though, smiling for the camera (literally) and decide that you'll confront him about it later. For now you'd just act like you didn't know he was looking at you, and later on you'd be punishing him for it.
- Your sex life with him hadn't exactly moved that far due to both of your hesitation to move to become more seriously involved, not wanting to fully ruin your friendship with one-another in case it was unrequited. Only being FWB sometimes having sex essentially. But, you decided you would be getting back at him real good for this. You would be much like the flower you had caught him out with.
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You groaned into the mutually hungry lust-drunk kiss as your lips melded against his, tongues roughly fighting for control against the other as your back was pushed against the wall by Vox who grunted deeply against your lips.
The demon's monitor provided the only light in the house as you arrived home, it serving as the most common secret rendezvous for you two to be together like this. His claws gripping at your sides slid down your thighs to grope at them before picking you up and bringing your crotch up against his steadfast arousal.
You pulled back from the kiss with a gasp at the stimulation and wrapped your legs around his hips to grind closer into one another. "You're very quickly excited just by making out as per usual." You teased him, kissing his face where his cheek should have been.
He let out an embarrassed growl as he glared down at you, the blush on his cheeks making it not hit all that hard. "Shut the fuck up."
You laughed at him as you watched him give a sharp inhale, tensing up at the way you ground your clothed pussy into his dick. You could tell by the way that his claws dug into your hips that he intended to be in control of the situation, and you inwardly grinned in satisfaction as the plan you had been sitting on for a while was finally going to be executed.
Vox slammed his lips back onto yours as he walked to your bedroom, pushing the door open with his foot impatiently and falling forward on the mattress with you gripped against him.
He sat back to begin removing all the layers he was wearing, it taking a long time as usual as he didn't like creasing his jacket or shirt - him wanting to preserve his appearance to the world outside your doors even when his hands were shaking with anticipation of what he thinks is going to be the usual fuck session for him.
And this is where you choose to shift the power dynamic, while he's expecting you to take off your shirt and lay back, you're pouncing on him and slamming his back against the bed the second his shirt, jacket as he finishes shedding his layers.
He looks up at you with surprise as the bed squeaks under the shifted weight, and then annoyance which flickers onto his features but is quickly replaced by a strained smirk. "Haha, yeah, no. That's not how this is gonna g-" you cut him off by moving to straddle him, pressing your lips against his and rolling yourself into his hard-on again. He let out a loud groan into the kiss which teetered into a slight whine.
You could feel the way he tensed up at the embarrassingly submissive sound you'd pulled from him and he moved to try to reposition himself as being in charge again, you didn't let him however as you held him in place under you.
You rhythmically began setting the pace for the two of you, and you felt him begin to relent begrudgingly and give in to his pleasure, one claw gripping your hip as he tried to alter your pace to match his, while the other came up to grab at your chest as your tongues moved against each other in a dizzyingly hot way which added to the growing arousal you felt.
You could feel your wetness seeping uncomfortably into your underwear as Vox's erection rubbing against your cunt at just the right angle sent stabs of pleasure through your body despite your pants.
You parted momentarily to let out a soft panting moan before diving back in. Vox seemed to take this as his chance to try put you under him again, gripping both hands against your sides as he turned the two of you over again, him moving to push you firmer into the mattress but you not letting him as you flipped back the other way and pulled back to look down at him. Observing his frustrated expression and slightly parted lips which were moving as he panted excitedly.
Shaking your head, lips pouted, you shook your finger at him as if scolding a child - patronising him. "Now, now, Vox. You and I both know that this is not about to become where you inevitably fall apart on top of me. Not tonight." He tried to rise from to mattress, opening his mouth to protest at the extra mean way you were addressing him. You put a hand on his chest and pushed him back down.
"You are going to just listen to me and take it how I know you damn well enjoy it despite all the usual whining and bitching." You commanded, eyes narrowing.
Vox went light blue at the cheeks, moving once again to try and change your postions. "What the fuck has got you so damn worked up today?" He growled. You looked down at him while finally allowing the rage you've been feeling for days to seep into your voice.
"Snapdragons." You look down upon him with utter contempt, and watch as his smirk fades and confusion and a bit of fear flickers across his features at the sudden shift in your attitude. He clearly doesn't understand what you mean.
"Wha-" he asked, eyes squinting up at you.
"'Snapdragons'," you repeated, "Are what I said to myself while I was home alone, and then found on my doorstep the next morning. Or at least, when I should have been home alone." You give him an absolutely evil grin laced with anger as his face begins to recognise what you're saying and shifts to utter horror.
"N-no I just guessed truly, you know I'm too busy for that kind of thing anyways! I own Voxtek, it's a non-stop business and you know tha-!" He goes to try and immediately make the usual bullshit excuses. You don't let him as you cut him off, hands moving to grip him by the writs and pin him down to the bed.
"And," your eyes bore into his red ones. "How you'd be sweating nervously as fuck the day after I'd be giving myself some.. self love the night before, after a certain time, which I believe matches up with when you start to knock off of work." You hissed through clenched teeth.
You were ready to give more examples but didnât have to as Vox's face turned fully purple with embarrassment. You watched in satisfaction as his excuses turned into horrified, growingly rapid spluttering nonsense as he glitched and jolted under your gaze with utter humiliation.
"I-I'm. I-! I- hf, I just- stop looking at me like that!" He let out a horrified mumble which petered off into a whine, eyes looking away but ultimately coming back to yours as you glared at him unwaveringly.
He'd never seen you this pissed off at him and it honestly scared him. The heavy feeling of self disgust set in on him as his activities which he'd been brushing off for a while now came crashing down in on him. As he looked into your eyes, feeling his wrists being gripped hard in your hands, he did something which he normally never does; apologise genuinely.
"I-I'm," he blue sceened in the middle of his sentence as humiliation made his voice crack "--orry. 'M sorry I won't ev--r do -t aga-in!" Pixelated tears had begun to form at the edges of his eyes as he allowed his embarrassment at his actions and being caught by you finally take over.
Vox hated himself for putting on such a pathetic display, but he hadn't exactly liked himself over how much he craved spying on you in general, especially in the more intimate moments he knew he particularly shouldn't have been seeing.
The burning hot anger inside of you began to dissipate slightly as you watched the way he was so openly expressing remorse for his actions, however your punishment for this shit was far from over.
You stopped glaring at him as hard, and rather fixed your face with a blank expression instead as you leaned forward towards him and gently gripped the side of his screen. "I--m -orry I'm sor-ry.." He repeatedly whined again and again. Vox sniffled loudly as he looked up at you with a somewhat hopeful expression, hoping it was enough to stave away the rage he had seen in your eyes.
"You're going to be." You said coldly as you reached downwards to begin undoing his belt. You didn't miss the way he jolted in surprise. He was going to be getting sexual punishment from you? This was certainly not something he was expecting, and he felt an extra layer of embarrassment at the excitement he felt at that prospect.
You took his dick in your hand and looked at the way it twitched with quite a bit more vigor then usual. "You're joking. Does the prospect of me punishing you over this really excite you this much? You're a filthy fucking pervert." You insulted him with a look of distaste, smirking inwardly.
"N-no no!" His eyes widened as he glitched out, voice coming out mortified.
You shook your head as you moved your face to the space in between his shoulder and neck. "Your body is much more honest than you are." You murmured, relishing the way he shivered under you as your breath fanned across his neck.
You moved your hand down to grip firmly around his dick, stroking it as your teeth sunk deep into his throat. Vox jolted under you, letting out a strained moan due to how he was tearing up before, just starting to compose himself with his guilt, embarrassment and the weight of your gaze just a minute ago.
You began tormenting the twitching and tense demon under you. You pumped his dick in your hand while kissing his neck and shoulders, leaving marks as you went, putting him in a pleasure filled haze that was dizzying to Vox.
"Shaking under me like some common fucking slut." You laughed against his skin where you pressed your lips against his chest, prompting a huff with teetered off into a moan as you sped up your hand on him.
Whatever calming down he'd been doing was undone quickly as his first climax began to approach after all the attention, coupled with the various degradation you were giving him.
He let out a loud groan coupled with words that were barely orders at this point and were much more begs. "Ugh, l-like thaat." Vox moaned, arching further into your touch as sticky precum began flowing in large amounts from the flushed head of his dick.
Just as it was obvious he was going to come the next second, you took your hand off of him and brought away any stimulation you'd been giving him all at once.
He let out a disappointed grunt at the loss of contact, looking up at you and trying to tug at your heart strings to allow him release. He could tell you weren't going to however by the way you looked at him though. He already regretted it, but it was clear you were far from satisfied.
Once again, you began kissing him.
Your lips made their way downwards, agonisingly slow to get him further uncomfortable and bothered.
Vox watched you with rapt attention as your lips left dark grey/blue hickies on his skin. For the first time in his life, it seemed the demon was truly speechless.
He knew he'd truly fucked up as bad as he probably could if he was getting this kind of treatment from you of all people. You certainly weren't some yes-man pushover, but the usual layer of sweetness covering your words and actions as you interacted with him even while pissed was gone.
Vox arched with a whine as your lips finally wrapped around his already overstimulated cock, and then began a barrage of agonisingly pleasurable, contradictory torment upon it that had him giving out broken sobs by the end of it.
You edged him again several more times, skilfully sucking on him before taking your mouth off again and again as he almost orgasmed, all the while giving him criticism each time he failed to orgasm.
By this point, Vox was well and truly crying with the overstimulation and now painful arousal he was experiencing. His ego was in tatters, and he didn't have the fucks to give about hiding his desperation at this point.
"You truly are a shameless fucking pervert." You growled against the inside of his hip as you sunk your teeth into his skin there as he came down from halted release. You relished the sound he made, a loud and glitchy whine which didn't even try to negate your insult this time.
You leaned over to once again begin sucking him off, pausing before taking him in your mouth. His claws gripped into the sheets for some kind of consolation, as he had already tried to seek comfort in gripping at your hair to pull you further onto him, and you'd swatted his hand away with a hard glare up at him.
The demon's tear filled red eyes and purple face watched you desperately above as you wrapped your lips and tongue around him once again, you looking up at him with blank contempt that shattered him inside further.
You looked down away from his crying face as you swallowed an uncomfortable amount of precum. Pulling away from Vox in the middle of abusing his dick yet again. He let out a broken sob at the loss of contact again, eyes squeezing shut hard.
At this point, he was unable to even deny how much he just wanted release and a break from the relentless harsh words you had been giving him the whole time. The rare event where Vox wasn't being as bratty as possible was truly a shocking one.
His screen at this point was mostly just flashing blue with an error message alongside his whines, which had begun to sound less humanised and more mechanical. You didn't read it fully, but it was something along the lines of: 'Remove subject Them.exe (I'm s_rry I'm sorr_ pl--e pleas_) to prevent further error.'
You hummed somewhat sympathetically as you observed the way he trembled with overwhelm; skin covered in goosebumps, sweat, and a patchwork of your bite marks and hickies. You could tell at this point you had given him enough, and anything further would just be cruel.
The rest of the road to full forgiveness for his bullshit would be outside the bedroom. He was truly wrecked at this point.
You got up and stood up on the bed over him and quickly moved to undo your pants.
The man on the bed looked at you with desperate eyes as you finally revealed your contrastingly touch starved sex.
"Please- I'm sorry, so so sorry, please, plea--, pl-eeash." Vox whined quietly, pleading with you.
You got down on your knees over him again, gripping his hand and guiding it between your thighs as you shushed him softly. "I know, I know, hon." You leaned forward and gently kissed him on his lips, trying to calm him down. "It'll be over soon."
He mumbled out relieved nonsense at the fact you weren't being so mean, and the confirmation he'd be finishing finally. Vox took up the non-verbal cue and began gently touching in between your thighs.
You moaned softly as the kiss you were sharing began to become more passionate, his claw carefully pushing inside of your neglected pussy to avoid hurting you at all.
Your hands moved to gently cup his neck as you pushed your tongue into his mouth, forcing the taste you'd been dealing with the past while. You heard him gag on the taste of his own precum, but he still didn't try to push away as his disgust melted into a throaty groan.
You pulled back from the kiss as you jolted at the feeling of him brushing his thumb over your clit. "Good boy." You praised him breathily. God that did something to him. Vox's brain had been messed up from all the torment, but the sudden praise made it feel like it was turning to mush as warmth flooded his chest intoxicatingly.
You softly laughed at the way he seemed to be so happy after hearing that, arching a brow at him. You leaned back to look down at him. "Don't think you're off the hook here. You're still a disgusting voyeur," his face fell again as more tears flowed from his eyes. "Though," you leaned forward so your lips were barely off of his screen. "I suppose you are my disgusting voyeur because I'm feeling so nice about all this." Vox let out a little relieved huff at the reassurance, relaxing again and focusing more on trying to pleasure and prepare you.
Vox leaned forward awkwardly in an effort to properly kiss your neck in a way that made you comfortable even with the way his head was shaped as he began trying to match his fingers' pace inside of you with what you usually wanted. It was very rare that he was this obviously eager to please you. Showed just how absolutely fucked up he was.
As his tongue ran over your neck, it brought up goosebumps at the strangely wet yet static electric-like sensation his tongue had. You sighed, gripping at his shoulders as you rocked your hips down on his fingers.
Vox's eyes softened with love-sickness where you couldn't see as he heard the sounds of your sighs and murmured praises, tasting the salt of the sweat on your skin and feeling your walls gripping onto his fingers with desire with a satisfied groan.
He was utterly relieved that you had started treating him better again; even though he was absolutely aware in every fibre of himself that he did deserve it and more. The fact that you hadn't broken off your strange situationship with him the second you figured it out was truly a blessing.
You prompted him to lay back into the bed again as you were prepared enough to take him. He didn't fight you as he flopped back onto the mattress, his eyes admiring the way his fingers dripped with your sticky wetness as they pulled out of you with a lewd squelching.
"You're not going to come instantly inside me." You said pointedly to him; not a request but an order. He nodded quickly as he gave you a look like he would never ever do that. You wouldn't be surprised if he did with all the attention he'd been getting despite the pause, but you hoped not.
You slithered one hand downwards to position him to slide inside of you, the other cupping the side of his face.
You let out a relieved sigh as he slid into you with little to no effort - the precum he'd been leaking for so long at this point was significant lubrication along with your own.
The pace you set was quite quick from the get go as you pressed yourself down onto him at the right angle to hit where needed to be hit inside of you.
Vox's claws moved to grip at your back with clear desperation. You let him cling onto you this time. You smirked down at him, observing the fucked out expression he was showing alongside an error message that was just showing keysmash alongside a heat warning that was displaying on the right side of his monitor, flashing climbing temperature.
You leaned forward to give him an absolutely filthy kiss, open mouthed and drooling as you two shoved your tongues into each other; both of you moaning loudly into it.
The room filled with the sounds of the two of you fucking messily, your sweaty bodies rubbing harshly against one-another creating extremely loud slapping noises alongside your moans and the whining cries of Vox who had seemingly found his voice again.
"-on't stop! Don't st -- op! Fu-cking he-ll!" Vox yelled as he dug his claws painfully into the skin of your back, likely leaving scratches. The pain of it didn't yet kick in as your own sky-high arousal and growing pleasure hit into you in hot waves that had your knees shaking as you rode him.
"Not happening- fuuck." You groaned out, voice teetering higher at the end.
Ecstacy began to climb quickly, and the rhythm eventually began to fall apart as you began slamming yourself onto his dick in a frenzy to stimulate yourself.
"This what you wanted spying upon me, huh?" You teased on top of him, observing the way he so clearly was so close to finishing from the way you were clenching around his already over stimulated cock. "Such a gooood little bitch." That sent Vox screaming over the edge with an extremely loud yell accompanied by mechanical whirring as he hit his peak.
The feeling of him filling you up was fucking heavenly as you slammed down on him one last time and arched into the claws that had dug long scratches down your back that were now weeping beads of blood in places as your orgasm overtook you.
As you panted, feeling your pleasure hit into you in waves, you watched as Vox glitched badly below you, face looking up at you with a fucked out expression that read as if he was looking at some sort of deity - before switching off under you, leaving nothing but a black screen which began flashing a 'we'll be right back' message as well as a 'critical temperature error 121 degrees' in bold red.
You cursed, getting off of him shakily and quickly walking to go get an ice pack. As mad as you were with him right now, you didn't want to actually damage him.
As you came back with the ice pack, you noticed that he'd switched back on on a very low brightness, face looking as he was sweaty as all hell and it was obvious he was still coming down from his prior release. The red number was flashing 102 now as it began climbing downwards.
You breathed a sigh of relief while shaking your head in slight annoyance. You walked over to the edge of the bed and sat on it, pressing the icepack on the side of his neck where you'd first bit him. "You're so damn dramatic." You scolded him, only half seriously insulting him.
Vox had somewhat gotten his bearings back, and he looked away in embarrassment with a sour look on his face. "Shut the fuck up." You rolled your eyes, and went to fake getting up.
"Okay, I guess I'll just leave then if you don't want me here, asshole." You snorted as you watched his bullshit crumple so fast, him looking back at you and gripping onto your wrist pleadingly.
He grumbled again when he realised you weren't serious and relaxed against you as you moved to lay on top of him. Your chin rested on his chest as you looked up at him with growing fatigue expectantly as the temperature bar quickly dropped from red to orange, and his flushed purple face began to turn the usual shade of blues he usually had.
He sighed as he somewhat seemingly struggled to say what he knew he had to. "Listen, I... I am sorry. Really. I know it was wrong, and I... won't do it again." He looked away from you with clear remorse in his exhausted voice.
You stared at him for a few seconds before nodding. "You're not off the hook yet. Tomorrow, you will tell me where the things you've been watching me through are, and I will be you-proofing them." You said very seriously.
Vox went to bite back the usual level of snark but figured he'd be bratting far too close to the sun after what you had already done. "Fine." He said enunciating the 'f' as if it took everything to say it.
You hummed in satisfaction with his answer and buried your face into his chest. Vox sighed heavily, looking at the vase full of now wilting snapdragons that had started all of this with annoyance as he loosely wrapped his hands around you.
"You're lucky I love you so much." You murmured tiredly into his skin. What.
You startled as you realised that you'd just said that out loud. Opening your eyes with a shocked expression and slowly finding Vox, whose red eyes were looking at you with equal shock.
The silence in the room was all-encompassing.
A/N If you got the metaphor, I love you so much đ (hint: snapdragons mean deception)
Oh my fucking God it was like the world didn't want me to write this one. First copy get screwed into nothingness because my reception got cut due to mfs doing work on the phone towers in my area, then after I got back home and had WiFi I got absolutely killed by a migraine that would not leave me tf alone.
I got so into writing this that I physically went outside and touched grass afterwards đ
#vox#vox headcanons#vox x reader#vox hazbin#vox fanfiction#vox x reader fanfic#i didnt intend initially to have this be multiple parts but my dumbass decided to at the last minute#so chapter 2 of this will be in my sights#also any feedback would be appreciated#may rewrite this with an amab reader as well bc i havent seen any amab reader stuff
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this drawing took longer than i expected, but I'm glad how it turned out
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hi hello
shortly after i watched season 4 i doodled five and i recently stumbled upon it again
and uh
quite a mess we got goin on here
i actually drew it before i forced myself to overcome my tiny fear of drawing digitally + started studying anatomy and clothing structure so the poses are super awkward, the proportions are off, and it looks just kinda bleh
so i redrew it
and iâm trying to decide if i should color it or leave it as it is ..
#laur draws stuff#laur says stuff#also if anyone sees anything that could look better i would appreciate tips!! <3#iâm absolutley still learning and iâd appreciate any advice?#i think iâve improved..? i think i like the digital one#any feedback / constructive criticism would be appreciated !!#my art#artists on tumblr#the umbrella academy#tua#umbrella academy#five hargreeves#hargreeves siblings#tua s4#number five#tua season 4#tua five#tua s4 spoiler#tua s4 fanart#tua s4 trailer#tua s4 speculation#tua s4 spoilers#tua s4e6#maxâs deli#maxâs diner#maxâs delicassen#number five hargreeves#tua number five#five#number five fanart
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so uh. would any of you potentially be interested in seeing the claws in action???
#lemme know if u are interested#bc im not sure if itâs something a lot of u would wanna see???#any feedback is appreciated#i also feelâŚ..kind of like a bad lee today so đĽł#itâs just one of those second guessing everything days ig#wallflower speaks#wallflower poll#tickle blog#tickling blog#tickle community#tickling community#tickle#tickling
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I'm sure you get loads of these but heck I said I'd give it a shot anyway!
Your artwork is so inspiring and beautiful. I recently graduated from art school with a degree in Animation Production but I've decided I'd love to be an illustrator some day. Your work really motivates me and gets my brain juice buzzin. Keep it up!!!
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#oh thank you! I'm glad you did!#first off as a general rule I think it's always okay to message any individual independent artist/creator#and tell them that you like their work#you may think they probably get lots of positive feedback and such and another one doesn't matter#but I would bet money that the actual amount is almost always smaller than you'd think#so every kind comment has the potential to cheer them up and inspire them#and motivate them to continue creating and posting their work online for people to see#messages like that can linger at the back of your mind for ages#I regularly think back to the nice things people have said about my art over the years#especially when I'm struggling with art block and feel like what I make isn't worth anything and that I'm bad and my stuff is bad#this got a little long winded and I'm probably preaching to the choir#but what I wanted to say is don't be afraid to let creatives know if you like their work it's always appreciated#I'm flattered to hear my dog doodles motivate and inspire you!#animation and illustration are both good choices imo#I wish you all the best on whatever you end up doing#answered#starfruitwyne
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E.M. Little Mermaid AU
Chapter 1
Eddie Munson x reader
Summary: Three days after Eddie Munson dies in the Upside Down, youâre called to make a deal with the not so dead Vecna. One where your boyfriend will be brought back to live a long and healthy life, but after the next three days, you need to receive true loves kiss from him. The only problem is Eddie wonât remember you... and youâll have no voice. You, and the rest of the party, have three days to make Eddie fall in love with you all over again; especially since you donât know what power youâve given Vecna by making a deal with him...
(Notes: Plot loosely based on both movie versions of the little mermaid. Refs to Vecna having a âspecialâ interest in reader, esp in this chapter, but only em/r. Cw: references to character death and trauma)
3 days. It had been three days since Eddie had died in the upside down. And youâd been able to do nothing about it except hold him as he passed.
You had apologised to Steve for slapping him, right after he threw you over his shoulder and dragged you out of the upside down himself because you were still clinging to Eddie. Just wanting to stay with him, uncaring if that sealed your fate too or not.
Steve had of course forgiven you. He was a good man. You could tell he was upset not being able to save his friend also.
But Eddie was more than your friend. He was your soulmate. Your everything. Your future. What would you do now Eddieâs future had gone? Where was your part in the world now?
Nancy had taken the gun out of your hands the moment Steve landed your feet back on the grass and soil, over where the entrance had sealed closed, a gateway through the woods near Eddieâs home. She followed you when you stumbled behind a tree a few steps away. But all you did was hunch your back over, and vomit up your insides onto the ground.
Robin had caught you before you could fall onto your knees into it. And sheâd been holding you as Steve held Dustin. You didnât know what Robin was saying to you. You caught glimpses of what was happening around you, but you werenât really paying attention.
Eddie was dead. And he wasnât coming back.
You tried to save him. Youâd thrown yourself over him. Your arm had shielded part of his torso as the demobats ripped his stomach open, but it wasnât enough.
Joyce stitched up your wrecked arm, but you didnât feel the pain.
Eleven had tried to talk to you. Tried to tug on her older sibling figures shirt. But your eyes remained misty and dazed.
Right up until the moment you burst into tears.
And you hadnât stopped crying. Not for two days, all you did was cry and scream and choke. Youâd had to tell Wayne what happened. He cried with you. But separately.
It was the third night now. You were in Eddieâs room, Robin and Steve staying over today. Wayne couldnât handle it tonight, he was staying with a good friend, just to sleep.
The first night no one had slept, youâd cried all night in the room where you told Wayne his nephew- his son was dead.
The second youâd stayed in Eddieâs bed. Face buried in the dirty laundry that still smelled of him all over his pillows and covers, sobbing as you looked over the pile of his trinkets and collections all over his room. His room had once been your entire world, because it was just so Eddie. You couldnât bare the thought of any of it being gone, Wayne moving any of it, because you couldnât deal with the fact Eddie was gone.
You kept the necklace Eddie gifted you close to your heart, as you had since the moment heâd clasped it around your neck. Pressing a kiss to your ear as he did so - you could still feel the tickle from his laugh, his lips against your ear, his hands warm and always so loving pressing on your shoulders, after his fingers daintily brushed away any of your hair that may get caught, in case you got hurt, twirling your hair around his rings.
Eddie told you you could fill the locket with anything you wanted. Heâd even offered up the thought of chopping off a lock of his shaggy mullet, a thought heâd have once been mortified by. Now you wished youâd taken up the offer, but you still liked what it held instead.
Opening the pendant up, at least you would be able to still see that picture you took of Eddie. Smiling, that smile he only ever gave because of you, one that anyone upon looking would immediately be able to sense the love radiating from him in the photo, from the moment it was taken. His big doe brown eyes, those ones you missed staring back at you so much, looking right at the camera, at you every time you looked at it. It felt like he was looking into your soul, even when he was still... And with this you could hold him to your heart, always.
Right now as you lay motionless, unable to cry much tonight, you looked over at Eddieâs vast collection of guitars. Electric and acoustic. You always thought he was so musically talented, and you told Eddie so.
You werenât nearly as good. Although there was one song youâd always sing to him. You didnât have the words, but it was a melody. You couldnât remember if youâd heard it somewhere before, if it was a lullaby, or a song youâd made up as a child, but- but youâd always hum that tune to Eddie when he was sad. It made him feel comforted. That small chorus of notes. Youâd sing that melody to him every time Eddie needed it. Your throat felt dry thinking you may never sing it again.
Youâll never see Eddie again.
Youâll never see Eddie again...
Youâll never see Eddie again...
You didnât remember closing your eyes, you had been so exhausted not even the last three days, but all the time spent trying to help Eddie before you failed him. But suddenly you were dreaming. Well, you thought you were at first. But then it all felt so real.
âEddie?.. EDDIE!!!â You run over to where you see Eddie walking towards his trailer. Wayne is standing by the door, well worn cigarette dropped on the floor in shock.
And Eddie, your Eddie, is turning around, looking all over, confused, but unharmed. âY/n?â
You cheer silently, a gasp leaving your massive grin, as you run over to Eddie. Feeling so soothed the moment he wraps his leather clad arms lovingly around your body, his ringed and clean hands immediately burying themselves in your hair, as Eddie always did... does.
Your face is buried into Eddieâs dark curls. A whimper leaves your lips. Eddieâs conditioner smells just the same, and you can catch his sweat, but no grime, in his scent too, pressing your nose and lips to his neck as your chin rests on his black leather jacket, eyelashes fluttering against his mulleted hair that tickles them. And youâre happy.
Eddieâs back! You have to tell everyone!!
Your hands tighten around Eddieâs waist. And while he pulls you in closer, he still doesnât hurt you with his grip. Ever tender with you, his love. You press a shaky, teary, kiss to his neck, tasting your own salted tears over the small hairs there, and you sink into Eddieâs embrace, ready to look back once more at your boyfriends gorgeous face.
Only to find he doesnât have one.
You fall back to the ground with a scream caught in your throat, your hands hitting the stone hard dirt as you look at Eddie, pale, faceless, a blur of nothing, just a shape behind perfectly familiar curls, standing above you aimlessly.
The flash of his face, that face, only lasts a moment. And youâre remembering how it felt having Eddie back. The need to tell everyone he was alive still so pertinent.
That need still, the sound of your thoughts, âEddieâs back... you can see him againâ echoey but not unpleasantly loud. The knowledge of Eddie being in your arms just a small step in the future away, they all stay deep in your gut, as demobats swirl above you. No blood on their mouths like the last time you saw them. The sky just red and blue, as it had been down there three days ago. As the same voice you thought you defeated calls to you, to let you know that he promises what you intially experienced just then was real...
Your whole body jolts on Eddieâs bed, finding yourself still facing the side, only a minute or two having passed on the dragon alarm clock you bought Eddie four months ago.
Steve and Robin were still in the kitchen, you saw the light through the slit in Eddieâs door. Wayne still gone for the night. And with everyone out the room, you knew what you felt, what he told you was real.
Vecna had released you. And you can still hear him.
When his voice tells you to follow the bats, you peek outside Eddieâs worn out curtains, and find two demobats, out of place in this world, and in their nature, sitting idly on Eddieâs front lawn. Just waiting for you. Even though theyâre what killed Eddie, you still follow.
Still wearing regular clothes, one of your favourite shirts of Eddieâs on your torso, your necklace under it, you quickly slip on your shoes by his bed without even looking, and make your way to the open space of his trailer.
Steve and Robin immediately stop talking, both turning to you with that same look theyâve had for two or three days now. Not that youâre looking much place else other than the door.
âHey!.. Hey y/n.â
âHey man.â
Steve and Robin both greet you, quietening down as their bodies relax while talking to you. Just wanting you to be safe, and knowing right now you need their support more than ever.
You give them a quick nod, but you know you canât go out there and follow those demobats without getting Steve and Robin uninterested in your comings and goings.
Your friends were eagle eyed looking out for you at the moment, all of them. And you were thankful that your friends were so loving, but right now, you knew you had to get out there.
And so you turned to your biggest target first, Steve, before your eyes had to look anywhere else, to not see all the emotion swimming in his soft brown ones. âIâm just taking a walk. I need to stretch my legs. Get some fresh air in my brain. I donât think Iâve been feeding it anything else.â
âWe- Weâve got pizza!â Robin offers, bringing over a half eaten pizza box from lunch. As theyâd all been trying to find quicker ways to eat, to shower, to sleep, because dealing with their traumas right now was time consuming enough.
âYeah! Let me make you an energy smoothie or something, get some pizza with Robin, like she said.â Steve enthuses, pressing a hand to Robinâs shoulder and giving her a nod, one she gratefully returns; both turning around to do their tasks for you in sync, before you interrupt them.
âNo Iâm fine. Seriously guys, I just need, like, ten minutes of walking.â It would probably be longer than ten minutes. But you needed them to let you out the house. And they couldnât exactly be mad at you for lying to them with what you were going through right now.
âWe can go with you! Or just one of us, silently.â Steve says enthusiastically, although that last part directed right at Robin. But you shake your head before he can go on, your eyes flitting to the closed curtain on the trailer door as you try to see if theyâre still waiting.
âNo, guys, I-â your hand goes to your chest, breathing stuttered. âI just need some time alone with my thoughts. Please. I promise theyâre not the self destructive kind. I just need to think.â You looked to both of them, eyes serious.
Steve looks nervous. His eyes a little wider and his lip more bitten, like he already knows he wants to say no, but heâs not sure how to do it without upsetting you any bit. Until Robin surprises him by pressing her hand to his wrist, and stepping up. âOkay. Ten minutes. Try and stay in the trailer park, and like, yeah, if it gets over ten minutes weâll come to find you, but thatâs okay. Just yell if you need anything, alright?â
You were too grateful to be leaving quicker than you could say a thank you, too quick out the door to see Steve giving Robin a look like he wanted to intervene, before she shook her head. Moving towards the window silently, to peek open the curtains, and Steve immediately understanding her.
Inside the park or not, Steve still needed to reassure himself over your safety, so did Robin. Getting his shoes on and kicking Robinâs towards her silently, both grabbing their makeshift weapons still by the front door of the trailer, just in case, Steve too protective not to right now, they both followed you out the door quick enough to see your back moving through the dark trees of Hawkins.
You had stopped dead in front of the demobats, waiting to see if theyâd rip you apart just like they did Eddie.
Especially now they were intruding on his home, right after theyâd stolen everything from him.
But instead theyâd just... looked at you. The feeling was odd, making your skin crawl. Before the nearly identical demobats looked at each other, then chirped nightmarishly before swooping into the sky, gliding at a slow pace above you, to make sure you followed along.
Settling your heartbeat in your chest, at hearing that cry again, the last time you heard it being as Eddieâs own cry joined the chorus, you tried to steady yourself as you followed them. The vision of Eddie, back in your arms, back home - and his voice still looming in your head - causing you to follow.
You went through the woods, following them the whole walk until they took you to a patch of land closeby you knew well from experience was an opening. The one youâd narrowly escaped from three days prior. Leaving Eddie down there.
Robin and Steve had followed along, silently, even as they saw the demobats. They were just glad theyâd brought their weapons. They stayed tight knit with each other, not knowing why you were following, if you were under Vecnaâs trance again or something, but sneaking along to make sure you would be alright. They knew how ruined you were after Eddie. But they wouldnât lose you too.
It was only until they saw where the ground had opened up underneath the swirling demobats, and saw you watching the creatures, before looking in the hole, that they yelled.
âY/N NO!â
You jumped. And Steve and Robin screamed.
They ran right up to where you were, and without a second of hesitation, gripped onto their weapons and each otherâs hand, as they leaped into the opening to the Upside Down behind you.
Following the demobats, you shivered as you walked through the upside down, the hellscape you thought youâd all defeated just a few days ago. Not that you could care too much that it was still here right now, not when you were too caught up in having lost your everything to attempt to do so. Now it seemed like it was all for nothing.
The demobats flew slowly so you could carry on at your pace, gliding above you as they lead you. Such a different temperament to when they were all... descending.
They were going to lead you past that spot. You knew it was coming up. So you had to do all in your power to keep your head down, and have your eyes still following the shadows of the monsters in this dim and hellish world. You couldnât see Eddie like that. After three days. With all those wounds. You gently stroked your healing arm, nervously. And if you did look and he wasnât there... You didnât realise youâd been hyperventilating until you heard your own breath.
The noise finally louder than your own thoughts, upon noticing you quickly fought to regain control, a hand on Eddieâs necklace pressed to your chest as you sped up a little, it giving you some bravery as his picture, his gift, reminded you of why you were being brave, and following the demobats as you focused on breathing. Theyâd already destroyed his body when he was alive, you didnât want to think of anyone hurting your boy more even after his suffering was supposed to have ended...
Steve and Robin followed close by, weapons ready, bodies never not touching each other, wanting to stay side by side to not be separate, so their platonic other half wouldnât be hurt. Keeping them safe. Following you silently, as they scanned the place you were heading.
Truthfully, Steve and Robin donât know what they would do without each other at this point. Theyâre the only one who... They almost lost each other, so many times the last couple of weeks. It really seemed like they could never rest, now they were back here again. Arms brushing even as they try to stop their weapons from clanging. Theyâre going to get each other, and you, out of here, together.
They make that promise to themselves each time they make eye contact with their best friend, while they both follow you covertly.
Your breath became a little stuttery as the demobats swooped closer, more at your shoulder height now, and you were lead to an opening, like a rock formation, maybe even a cave, in the woods. Not like the one Eddie used to take you though. This one was bigger... and youâd never felt frightened being with Eddie.
Not until the end.
Now as you saw who was waiting in the entrance, youâd never felt fear like it. Again, until you remembered how you had with Eddie. How nothing could be worse than that memory. And you felt rage, as you were face to face with the human, and smiling, form of Vecna. Alive, and waiting for you, with patience and intrigue.
âHello y/n.â
You wanted to scream. Thatâs all you wanted to do. Your anger, your fear, your guilt from your entire life, the way youâd lost Eddie, how unfair it was for him to still think of himself the way he did when he died, when he was one of the best people out there, the way Eddie had died, a hero, just to help defeat this man. This monster. And here he was standing, smiling at you. Both alone.
You wanted to run over there and punch and claw and kick at him until your lungs were raw and your tears made you blind. But better instincts kicked in, and even with all your rage, you knew what was happening here was not right. Your feet took a step back on the, now vineless, rocks, but a woosh of wind from those monster creatures behind you pushed you forward.
Instead of cruelly thinking to yourself how these mutts would be the death of you just like your love, you kept moving forward. And you stood in front of Vecna, Henry, 001, Peter, whatever, you stood in front of him, and you did not falter.
âWhy arenât you dead?â
A smile blossomed through his teeth, and the demobats stayed quiet, behind you, by the entrance. As Vecna circled a position of stones laid by his feet, you circled too, never wanting to let him get you off guard.
âWell thatâs a lovely greeting. And here I was wanting to be your friend.â
Robin held her hand on the back of Steveâs, seeing him bouncing in place ready to burst in and tear you out of there, as they got to the entrance upon hearing voices. Both of them felt nearly as awful as you did, seeing Vecna back, alive, smiling. But they stayed put, waiting to see what was happening, even though it killed the both of them to watch him close to their friend. The trauma locked away as they determined to stay strong in this moment for you. They knew youâd need it.
âIâm not going to be friends with you.â You spat, your teeth grit so hard in your mouth you were starting to taste blood. That or the memory of this place was bringing back old senses falsely alerted.
âOh no? Well thatâs a shame. Not even when Iâm here to give you a gift?â Vecna cooed, his head tilting, still never taking his eyes off you.
You stopped walking now. Blinking, you took in his words. They were of course teasing, but the actual meaning didnât seem so to you. Youâd met this more human version of Vecna in visions heâd given you before. When you were all at war with him. This seemed like some sort of form in front of you, not just in your mind, although you knew Steve, Robin and Nancy destroyed his physical body. But here was what was left of him. And you could tell his words had some truth behind them.
âWhat would you have for me?â You questioned, knowing there was only one thing youâd want. Knowing, you didnât know enough to be able to tell if he could actually give you that, in any way, at all.
Until his words worked with your thoughts, perfectly.
His eyes shone, and his smile never once faded, as Vecna answered you âThe only thing you truly want.â
Your heart thumped, a ticklish feeling in your chest like electricity. Feeling it was hard to move your fingers, or your feet, or even to move at all. Just stood there in the face of Vecnaâs proposal.
âEddieâs dead.â The words hurt to say, but you couldnât afford to be weak around him.
âMm, right now yes, Eddie is.â Vecna tilted his head, some spark of delight in the conversation. A twinkle of knowledge. âAs dead as all the others you and your friends lost. But Eddie doesnât have to stay that way.â Vecna could practically feel your emotions rushing hot through your body. And he loved it. âWhat if that were to change? What would you do, to bring Eddie back?â
You tugged Eddieâs shirt further down your shoulders, trying to wrap yourself in it, hoping heâd protect you from this cold chill you werenât so sure was just to do with the Upside Down. âYou canât do that.â
âOF COURSE I CAN!â Lightning boomed and struck wildly outside. You gasped shrilly as you span to see it, the red and white flashes like claws striking the sky, the two demobats flying and squawking up above the cave like formationâs high ceiling, in place. Unable to see Robin and Steve ducking down, cradling their weapons and each other at this display.
Youâd noticed the lack of vines, only two demobats here, but the lighting, his form being here... Clearly Vecna was back in business. If not slightly stunted by you and your friends escapades. By Eddieâs help. Maybe thatâs why he had âdevolvedâ to making deals with you.
Vecna calmed as the storm did, a tonal blue outside, even if still dark, as he smoothed back his wavy blonde hair. Smiling at you once again.
You took a step closer, your eyes squinted and questioning on him, but your mind only swirling with Eddieâs face again. Not the vision Vecna had shown you, but your own thoughts. Eddie right back at home, with you, as he deserves to be.
âWhatâve you got to lose?â Vecna asks, his voice a soft fry. âI know why Nancy Wheeler took that gun off you so quickly when you got back. Surely youâd do anything to bring Eddie back, where he rightfully belongs. So young to be torn away.â
You swallow. Hands trembly, but body firm, as you remembered the past three days of torment. Knowing how you wouldâve give your life for him, right then and there, but you couldnât go back and change things. How you mightâve even been able to live with yourself tearing the whole town apart, if only Eddie had survived it. And if Vecna has even a chance of what he says he can, what wouldnât you give?
âYou... Can you really do that?â Hope, for the first time in three days, is layered in your voice. Deep under your show of strength, and concerned distrust. But itâs there enough for Vecna to be able to discern it immediately. He knew itâd be there anyway. You really were so easy for him to get.
âMy sweet soul, of course I can. Why would I invite you to my home if I couldnât do what Iâm telling you?â His hand goes to his heart, and yours clench tightly by your sides. âYou know youâre special to me. Of course Iâll help you out y/n.â
Steve and Robin move forward, weapons in hand, only to be shocked into silence as the demobats swoop out of nowhere in front of them. No squawking or biting or anything, just blocking them, which to your two friends, was infinitely more scarier once they realised.
Especially once they saw that smirk on Vecnaâs face, like he knew. And as he took more comfortable steps towards you.
âThink of it as me turning a new leaf. Helping the miserable, the lonely, and depressed, such as yourself y/n.â He smiled charmingly.
Your jaw flexed to the side as you frowned. Your eyes never leaving Vecna, not that he wanted the opposite, as he stood happily close to you now, explaining finally why heâd summoned you here.
Maybe helping to bring light to why youâd followed so willingly, also.
Itâs true you were all those things, but you didnât think Vecna was turning around so quickly.
Vecna alluded from explaining for a few more seconds, instead pacing in front of you with a coy smile on his face, his finger tapping at his chin. âI know I havenât been... the loveliest to you y/n. You or your loved ones. They werenât kidding when they called me, well, a bitch.â He chuckled softly.
You almost could too. You made some kind of sound. Remembering how common a nickname it had been for your party. At least, for a little while. Before.
âBut I mean it. This once.â He held his finger up, in front of his nose. âCall it what you like, a change of heart, mending my ways, repenting for my sins, seeing the light, all that shit.â He swivelled sharply, standing still in front of you, hands behind his back, head leaned forward to you.
You stood your ground. Even though his smile reminded you of how... close Vecna had seemed to like to get to you in the couple of visions he gave you. You were surprised when Nancy said heâd acted slightly differently towards her in her vision. Eddie had chimed, more like feared, that maybe you were a âfavouriteâ of his. Which is why he picked you to have those visions a little more than the other four young adults around you.
But now it didnât matter. Not if he could help bring Eddie back. You were listening to every word intently.
âI can bring Eddie back to you. Fully. The way he was.â
You folded.
Your knees went weak. Having to catch yourself before you could visibly stumble too much in front of him, but also so uncaring to that, now heâd said what heâd said. âReally? You really can? Bring Eddie back properly? Not like a... a zombie, or a possessed âpuppetâ of yours or-â your voice was wobbling.
âNo just like he was before. Exactly the same Eddie as you know, that is for certain.â Vecna nodded. âOf course, thereâs a few caveats to that.â
Your breath flew out your lungs. You didnât trust Vecna for a second. But the thought of Eddie actually being able to come back... To be brought back to life again...
Steve and Robin dodged through the demobats at hearing this, hearing your voice and knowing what it meant. But they only got a step before the monstrous creatures were back again, this time their wings outstretched in front of the two, and snarling dangerous looks on their faces as they hissed.
âCaveats?â You asked, your eyes tracking Vecna widely as he circled around the pebble grouping on the ground, looking up from them, before motioning you closer with a beckoning finger.
âI can bring him back for three days. The same amount of time he was gone. But donât worry! Besides anything else, I personally assure you, that if you agree to this, and do everything you need to, that I tell you to do, no matter even if you donât fulfil the contract in the end, Eddie will stay alive for the rest of his natural life. As if heâd never been so brutally ripped apart alive and murdered in the first place.â
You shivered at his words, and you saw his teeth glimmer in response as his lips stretched further in a smile. But he seemed serious, at least, about that part being true.
âWell, heâll have a long life granted if he doesnât, I donât know, get hit by a car while drunk, or falsely shot for a crime he didnât do, Iâm not making him immortal. Just bringing him back. To you.â
You couldnât even care about how those last two words were practically crooned at you by Vecna. A man who, you hadnât really figured out, before he was âkilledâ. You knew Hopper had come back as Sheriff to clear Eddieâs name, although too late, even if it gave some peace to Wayne. But what Vecna was offering...
âHowever, Eddie wonât have his memories of you.â
This shot your head straight up. Your eyes bulging and your heart stuck in your throat, as you received this information.
Yes, you would do anything to bring Eddie back. And he said just agreeing and doing what he asked right now would mean Eddie would stay alive even past those three days. But the thought of him not knowing who you were... if you werenât in this situation, with this monster, tears would surely be in your eyes. Vecna wanted to explain his plan it seemed though, so you never got too long to ponder over certain specifics he said.
âBy the time the sun sets on the third day heâs back, you need to receive something off of Eddie. Something which will bring his memories back of you, and let you both live out the rest of your lives, as if none of this... nastiness,â Vecna held your hand in both of his, patting, before stroking over the fresh scar across your forearm, âhad ever happened...â
You, slowly, pulled your hand away. Still listening, but not wanting to piss off Vecna. His blue eyes shot sharp into yours the moment you even started to pull away however. And even though it did make your heart jump, you held your own hand instead, putting it down by your middle, and carried on trying to get all the information you needed for Eddie. âWhat do I need to get from him?â
Vecna smiled again. You werenât sure if it was because he was closer, so you could see him more, but this smile felt different. And as he spoke, his voice was so much more softer, as he practically whispered to you âTrue loves kiss...â
You shoved his chest, backing up a few steps. Vecna looked offended, brushing off his white shirt, while you felt nothing but loathing rile up in you. âAre you serious? How old do you think I am, six? What-â
âStop talking and listen y/n.â He snapped coldly again, his lips thin, and face sharp.
You did as he said. Closing your mouth, but continuing to stay those few feet apart. Your distrust and despite for him growing more and more.
âWhat Iâm saying is true. Iâm experimenting with some new power. And who better to try it on than, you?â He sighed, and the way he looked you up and down made you sure heâd be stroking your cheek right now if he was still so close.
âYou poor, desperate, thing. Willing to do anything for your poor Eddie, even make a deal with me.â He sighed folornly at you.
Youâre unsure if youâve ever seen him actually almost enjoying himself. Even while still seeming annoyed he wasnât controlling all your outcomes like youâre sure heâd love to. Although with how close you were to killing him, you guess him being so close to oblivion might have shaken things up slightly.
âWhat would you get out of bringing Eddie back?â You ask, genuinely curious because surely he doesnât expect you to think heâd do this out of the kindness of his heart. Heâd never shown any liking towards Eddie. He and his bats were the reason he was dead. He killed him.
Vecna paced one more step, before turning to you, and a dark look youâd seen in his eyes too many times in your short experience with him, flamed once more. âChaos. Power.â
You inhaled sharply, holding that breath as Vecna walked closer, his mouth rambling along with his twisted mind. âPutting everything out of place for once. Changing human nature so itâs not so destructively and uselessly linear.â Vecna riled up, talking faster and darker and louder and confident. âThe chaos of putting someone living again back on the earth who wasnât before, whoâs body was going to rot in this place, bringing him back to live his life on that ground again, doesnât that show my power?â
You werenât sure you were supposed to answer. You just watched him. Eventually, a small curl upwards of his lips caught your attention. âOf course, using âtrue loves kissâ as an end all seems quite powerful, for someone like me to do also. Although thereâs another reason that is part of the seal.â He partly explained, and you retained it to memory to make sure that was answered later.
âBut itâs not just what I get out of it, itâs what I need before I... allow you and Eddie to be my show of power, and I give you this gift.â He smiled charmingly.
A sick feeling crawled through your veins.
âOf course. I canât believe we got this far into talking without discussing payment.â You rolled your eyes, your arms coming to cross over your chest, even if your mind and soul was open to what he was saying right now.
But you know Vecnaâs tricks. You know his soul. If he even has one. And you dryly chuckle, nodding slowly. âI got it, my life for his, right?â You shake your head, biting your lip, with still some sort of smile on your face at the twisted irony.
You wouldnât go down to Vecna. For the sake of Eddieâs memory.
Not unless there was absolute certainty...
Because while you would, you would do anything for Eddie, in a heartbeat you would trade your life for his, you do not trust Vecna to uphold his end of the bargain, especially in a situation where you canât check if he has or not.
âNo no no thatâs childâs play.â Vecna says quickly. Easily brushing off the notion, which you thought was a stickler. You are surprised, and it definitely keeps you listening, with the thought of you and Eddie being back together seeming not so much like a dream anymore.
âThatâs childâs play,â he repeated, spat, âswapping one life for another. I told you y/n I want to show power.â
âEddie, Eddie, Eddieâ
Itâs all you can think about. It was louder than your own thoughts. But you tried to make sure none of this was a trick, although you were sure it was in some way. You knew what he was like, what he had done to El, what he could do to you, you tried to be smart enough to make sure Eddie would come back alive, or youâd be able to kill Vecna right here right now.
âOkay. So what do you want?â
Vecna takes those steps closer in your personal space now. You stand strong. But when his eyes slowly linger, down to your throat, and his hand twitches large by his sides, you canât help but gulp. Your anxiety actually making it worse. Your veins fluttering in your neck as your eyes tracked his from staring at it, to slowly trailing back up to your own, and his lips spreading into a smile as he spoke up, loudly and clearly.
âYour voice...â
You lean your front back, your neck and head extended that way too, as your own hand comes to rub tenderly over your neck. Realising now as you tried to speak, just how hard it sometimes could be. âM-My voice?â
He nods, his eyes flipping from your hand on your neck, back up to yours. âJust for three days.â He poses. As if itâs that simple.
You werenât the only one struck by this revelation though.
âY/-!â Steve and Robin tried to call out for you simultaneously. Their weapons pushing back against the demobats, even if they were still several feet away by the entrance.
They were quickly shut up though, as the few withering vines that were left snapped to attention, and coiled themselves throughly over Steve and Robinâs mouths. Wrapping around their bodies enough so they couldnât fight back, as the ends twisted and turned to shut them up.
Both friends facing each other, terrified, and looking back to you, who still hadnât noticed your friends who wouldâve talked you out of something so dangerous, having followed you, to help you. Terrified not just for themselves but because they knew what you were going through. And that you were fragile.
Luckily for them the vines didnât squeeze. They just held them there. As if they themselves, were focused only on waiting for your response.
You kept rubbing your neck, thinking about how your breath sounded, how you used to chat and sing and laugh with Eddie. Why Vecna would need or want that. All these thoughts flowing through your head, that and still âEddie, Eddie, Eddie!â, but you had to use your voice while you can, and ask him at least one thing importantly.
âBut without my voice, how will I get him to remember me? Or- or fall in love with me again?â
âYouâll have your looks!â Vecna says, in a way that sounds oddly unlike him, but also as if heâs mocking you, which does seem slightly more in character.
âThat pretty face will do wonders...â He hums, his lips pressing together at the end of his sentence as he looks at you.
You feel that chill in the air again.
âAnd who needs words, y/n? Iâm sure you can attempt multiple methods of yours. Eddieâs kind, isnât he? Thatâs what youâve been trying to teach all the others, in your backwards town, in that ignorant world.â Vecna talks, as if spreading a teaching to you.
You definitely know how he feels about the majority of humanity. Having only interacted with few in his existence, he may be more inclined to inform opinions on those he has met. Including, to varying degrees, you and Eddie.
âIâve watched you, youâre smart, youâre resourceful, youâre... peppy.â The way Vecna enunciates that last word seems to contain a meaning you canât be bothered to decontstruct right now.
âIt will hardly matter if you and Eddie are truly soulmates, will it?â Vecna asks you, as if he is serious which you know he is not. He seems to twist into showing his discontent for yours and Eddieâs lovey dovey semantics as he moves on, with a smile. âBesides, even without dialogue, Iâm sure you can use some body language to entice Eddie back.â
You look at Vecna with disgust. Eddie is not like that. He isnât, not was you still think with relief, with hope, even as you scowl at the monster who was the reason he was dead. Especially when the way Vecna said it, how he looked you up and down, how this was one of the few times any of you would ever see him smile, it made your skin crawl.
Youâd say you knew what men could be like, but you would not call Vecna a man. Not even when he was before. Heâs always been a monster. But Eddie is not like that. He wouldnât see you like that, he didnât. And your Eddie is not a monster either.
Vecna has that look on his face again. The curious one, where he tilts his head. Even when he seems like heâs trying to be âplayfulâ, he just always looks full of anger to you.
âOh come on y/n. Iâve seen it up there. You donât need your voice. I mean surely, not for Eddie right?â Vecna twists and twists his words. His eyebrows raising as does the corner of his lips, revealing those shark like teeth, whenever he sees you being pulled in by him.
âMen up there donât like the girls who gossip and yap and bore, at least, thatâs what I heard.â He squints his eyes, smiling as he takes another step forward. You think his eyes are shark like too.
You know he doesnât know Eddie. Itâs very clear especially with his words. Eddie and you used to talk, and talk, and talk. You both loved having someone to just talk to, about anything on your mind, for hours at a time; someone who understood what it was like to want to, someone who listened.
When you took a step back, Vecna changed up his method.
âEddie though, now he never avoids conversation, he is impressed with how you keep up with him, how you can listen and entertain, how you two fit so well even when talking together unendingly, donât you love that about him? Do most men live up to Eddie Munson?â Vecna asks you, as if heâs curious for your answer. Not just trying to manipulate you.
You notice he uses the word âisâ for Eddie. But you also notice the word âliveâ. Your head feels like itâs burning, everything feels so confusing right now.
Robin and Steve struggle to yell behind you.
âBut even Eddie would think you were cute, how could he not, still? He would dote on you just the same as before. Knowing Eddie, he might just trip as he fawns over you being so... quiet.â Vecna purrs, leaning forwards again, so close he can afford that last word to be mewled quietly. And with him breathing down at you, for you to still be able to hear him perfectly.
âIf you hold your tongue, it may just save your heart.â
You gulp. Feeling like youâre about to choke on your own tongue.
Vecna lifts one thin finger, and so so gently, brushes it down your pulsing neck, right from the centre of your chin, down gentlemanly to the beginning of your collarbone. Removing his hand afterwards. âDonât you want to win your prize y/n?â
You hate that your breaths are shaky. Because Vecna can hear them, he can probably feel them on his skin. If he really is here, which you suppose now he is, in some way, since you could feel him too. But you donât want to gulp either, not this close. So you keep on breathing. Until you have enough air in your lungs to speak again.
âEddie will remember me.â You say confidently. Certain in your meaning, although your voice not sounding quite as harsh as youâd want it to, although still induitible. Still confident, about Eddie, in front of Vecna.
âSure.â Vecna squints his eyes as he nods. Backing up again, as he paces around his cave.
For a moment youâre begging to yourself that you didnât piss him off. Because you need Eddie back. Then you find yourself pissed at not wanting to piss Vecna of all people off. But you swallow your emotions, with a gulp now heâs not looking, because Eddie is more important to you than anything.
You hate thinking this, but you would probably do anything Vecna asks you to do right now, all if it meant bringing Eddie back.
âI need something from you.â Vecna turns, his eyes not on you, but body pacing closer.
A shiver runs down your spine. But you force yourself to stay in place, for him.
âSomething from you and Eddie. Parts of you.â
Your body completely freezes now, apart from your heart plummeting to your stomach.
You blink tears out of your eyes, ignoring the tickling of your eyelashes to keep your form strong in front of Vecna, even though now youâre presumably to be faced with your worst fear. Which was definitely not him...
âWhere-â you swallow shakily, your spit feeling vile in your own throat. âWhereâs his body?..â
âNo no no.â Vecna tuts at you, his finger shaking as he finally looks at you again, with that condescending narcissistic look youâre more used to seeing on his features.
âYouâre darling. Not like that. I need something physical from you two, from when Eddie was alive of course. I presume youâve heard of DNA by now?â
You had. Especially with all the snooping through files at the Creel place, youâd started doing a lot more scientific research then you ever wouldâve done at Hawkins High. Especially when planning on how to prove Eddieâs innocence as a back up plan once youâd saved the town. Ultimately it didnât end up saving him anyway.
You know what it is. The fact Eddie is currently dead you know all too well also. But Vecna canât be asking the impossible of you this early on.
However when you start to ask, your jaw moving open in confusion, Vecna moves in again, just millimetres from you.
His elbow nearly brushing against your torso as he raises his hand. His eyes trained to your lips. While his hand moved upwards, and gently grabs your chin. His touch cold, but body presence emanating onto yours. Vecnaâs thumb slides, caressing up your chin... but stopping before he can touch your lips.
Almost like he doesnât want to contaminate them.
âThereâs still traces of Eddie with you y/n. They will fade soon. Then so will Eddie.â
Your heart beats, trying not to suck in your lips, your body warming in thought you still have Eddieâs touch you on, his live touch. His last kiss still lingering with you, living on, even three days later. Even now he was gone.
The mix of your fluttering emotions tingling throughout your body doesnât change the fact Vecna is still so close and grasping you, still looking to your lips with wicked desire.
Desire for his plans youâre sure. Although youâre not sure what else your lips may hold of interest to him.
âAnd thatâs why our kiss can also break the seal?â You ask, chin upturned, mouth barely moving with his hold, but your eyes nonplussed at him, except for determination of your goal.
âTrue loves kiss.â He interrupts seriously. Moving his eyes to you, from your lips finally, although his fingers still graze under your chin. âTheyâre very different things. I need that to prove my power, love defeating death and all those things you donât need to know about. So thatâs what will break it in our little contract.â Vecna finally letâs go of you.
You rub your jaw with gritted teeth, while Vecna backs up a step, not before you take a breath.
âWhy? Just for power?â You ask again. He did seem a lot weaker than before. Especially if he was just... talking to you like this, making a deal like he said. Then again, you thought he was dead. But if anything could bring Eddie back.
Vecna nods, but with a tilt in his head, hands held in front of him. âThere is one last thing yes.â
He doesnât need to take a step forward this time. He only leans in.
âIf you donât succeed, you belong to me.â
Robin and Steve barely have time to glance into each otherâs panicked eyes, before their wrists and legs are fighting at the vines. Robin trying to grab a weapon from Steveâs bag even with her arm ensnared, Steve trying to kick a rock at one of the demobats hissing in his face, even though heâs terrified of the thing. Especially after seeing what theyâve done, taking a bite out of him, seeing Eddieâs body.
But no matter their panic they are clawing at the vines, Robin trying to stamp on one of the demobats tails, just to try and get your attention with the noise; Steve trying to bite through the vine coiled over his lips, while enticing a demobat to attack to hopefully bite at his restraints instead.
The set of best friends yelling furiously into the vines only smothering their cries, not aiming to kill them this time, which partly makes matters worse.
Panic pumps through their body like ice cold blood, dread oozing in their stomachs, fear causing both of them to strain towards the other, their eyes desperate as they look at their best friend, because they know what your answer will be if neither of them get free.
Itâs not a question of what you say. Itâs if they can stop you in time.
They need to get you to see them now, to get you away, to do something. Both fighting hard for you, like they always would, how they try to. If one of them can just save you, after they failed to save Eddie.
Looking directly at Vecna, lingering in the silence of his offer, you take two steps back. Finally able to breathe, where he wouldnât be able to draw you in even more. Breathing air not surrounded by him, taking steps back so you can come back to your reality, to what youâre actually surrounded by.
You followed demobats, monsters, the creatures that killed Eddie down here. To the Upside Down. After having a vision, like the ones he gives people before he kills them. Youâre in some kind of cave surrounded by skies that are too blue with red lightning. And here you have the devil himself offering you a deal, in front of you. Surrounded in this nightmare place, seeing clearly you have been lured into the dark by the monster youâve been fighting so hard against; with no Eddie in sight.
Even taking in your surroundings, the back of your mind only knows itâs not right because Eddie isnât here with you.
âI donât know.â You take another step, then two, back. Looking at Vecna as suspiciously as you were before he pulled you in. Dread seeping in your own stomach, your hands twitching by your sides.
You could imagine he was tricking you right now. That Vecna couldnât actually do this. And why would he want that if you do fail? Or maybe that is to motivate you to absolutely not do so? Importantly, if you do complete everything he asks, what would he do with his growing power, if all went well?
Youâd sacrificed Eddie for this town once... you didnât think youâd do it again. That part wasnât a problem in your mind, not after youâd lost Eddie once.
You feel bad for thinking it, because you know Eddie wouldnât want you to, God, fuck, you know Eddie would be shaking you awake, screaming at you right now to fucking run, to not be a hero, to not let anything happen to you. Maybe he was yelling it right now somewhere, banging at whatever gates were keeping you two apart. You could almost see him in front of you, see his hands on your shoulders, those dark eyes in yours as he screams at you. But thatâs an almost, Eddie isnât here, you canât see him. But if you knew Vecna would truthfully bring him back - youâd do anything right now right here with him.
Vecna sighs.
Youâre not sure if you blink, or keep your eyes closed so dissociated in your mind from the moment you lose time, but you open them with a start when Vecna is suddenly stroking your cheek, his blonde waves tickling your temple as he coos to you.
Drawing you in as your knees weaken towards him...
âOhhhhh poor confused little y/n. A life so full of tough choices. Everything so much harder now you donât have your Eddie by your side...â
Tears trickle past your lips, ones you hadnât even noticed in your eyes. And you hiccup quietly a little as Vecna helps lift you steady, just with that one cool and long palm cupping your cheek.
âBut I know what you want.â He whispers softly to you, his voice a rumble.
Your cries are small, in nature and in volume. But with Vecna this close, helping you stand, a lock swats at a warm tear on your cheek, brushing it coincidentally away.
That, for some reason, is what pulls you back.
Tears stopping, even with shiny eyes, you pull back silently. Not stopping walking back this time, noticing the surprised look in his eyes as he watches you retreat. And you donât stay longer. You lean to turn around, continuing to go - you have to get back. Robin and Steve are waiting. Dustin canât lose you too down here. All your friends have already dealt with too much trauma. Joyce has been working so hard to save you. Wayne needs someone to mourn with. Your family. Eddie!
âYou- youâre tricking me.â You say, voice weaker than youâd want it to be but youâre not controlling your emotions anymore. Your thoughts are finally catching up. As your eyes shine in distrust and guilt up at Vecna.
âTricking you? No- no I donât trick. Iâm trying to help you right now y/n- I am the only one whoâs helping you! Truly doing what youâve been begging someone for, to listen to what youâve been screaming for.â Vecnaâs head twitches as he tilts it. Confused and irritated over how no one ever seems to believe him. Or understand his ways. Heâs helped you, and Eleven, and people always, always-! âI promise.â He speaks. But his voice carries that indignant vex from everyoneâs disbelief in it still.
Your gut riles and tightens. âThis is wrong.â You say, turning further as you walk, shaking your head of the mourning thoughts of Eddie making you numb to common sense, to that anxiety in your brain thatâs been screaming at you to run away this entire time.
Thunder roars above you, and you keep your head down, huddling yourself as you keep walking, your skin crawling at the fact you can feel Vecnaâs anger behind you.
âFine y/n! Forget about the world, and love!â He sneers, the air howling without fresh wind. âGo back âhomeâ to your âfriendsâ without him, and never see Eddie again!â
Those words makes you shoot around.
Vecna smirks. He knows heâs got you.
The two demobats swoop out, clearly they were just ahead of you, in the dark close by, but you turn quickly to follow their direction, not seeing what they were distracting you from as youâre turned around. Facing a much bolder Vecna than youâd seen yet.
âGo on and decide y/n.â He sneers, only turning into a smirk as your legs carry you back towards him. âAll it will cost is your voice.â
The way Vecna describes it... Eddie is more important than your voice. Youâd give anything for him. Even if you were to be without him, if you made this deal, no matter what happened to you, Eddie would be back.
There is no other possible way your Eddie Munson could be alive again.
Vecna stands close to your side, pulling out some kind of contract on a folded piece of paper for you. You raise your brows, even though your mind is fully on Eddie, a twinge of disbelief is shown on your face. âA contract? Seriously?â You ask, genuinely unsure.
Vecna simply shoves it into your hands. He seems to get some type of glee when you hold it. âI need to get that DNA of yours and Eddieâs again, so it was either using this, or...â
His hand running across your cheek, fingertips stretching past your ear gets you to look up from the words on the paper, into his eyes. Unfortunately, theyâre back on your mouth.
You can tell itâs purposeful this time though. Vecna seems to delight in making you wriggle. A toothy smile stretching beneath his pink lips when you shrug out of his hold, placing his hand back to his side.
Easily doing so. Your quickly rising and falling chest is for every other reason. As your eyes bore into the paper in your cold hands, knowing in it was the only possible future for Eddie Munson. Rising falling rising falling rising falling, as Vecna talks and talks and talks, while you read and breathe and beat.
âWhat happened to Eddie is sad. But it happened. Your boyfriend is dead. If you want a miracle to happen youâve got to pay the price and let me help you y/n. Take a deep breath. Look at it. Whoâs around you here to help?! No one! Eddie would be here! But he canât! You let him die!!!â
You screw your eyes closed. You canât listen to that you canât think you canât not do this you canât leave Eddie again you canât do that to him you have to do this with him you have to you canât not see Eddie again you canât abandon Eddie to die you have to save him you have to help him now you have to listen you canât stop listening you canât let him die.
Vecna smiles up to his demobats, raised above you both in sharp victory.
You have to listen to him you canât let Eddie die you have to do this for them.
His hand snatches out and grabs your necklace from your collar, throwing it to the ground. It doesnât break, but opens, to the image of your Eddie, so clear even on the ground like this, smiling up at you. At you.
âThis poor-â
Your eyes stay on Eddieâs face.
âPoor-â
Your eyes move to the paper.
âSoul.â Vecna coos.
You donât realise Vecnaâs calling both of you this same thing.
You quickly sign the contract, scribbling your signature on it fast, your blood pumping as you make the choice to be brave. You will bring Eddie back no matter what. Even if youâre giving him to the world, and not yourself anymore. Youâre not thinking about you. You canât even see the words, only Eddie. You need to save Eddie.
You press a kiss to the end of your signature, the wet ink moulding with the spit of your lips. Quickly pulling back the contract and looking at it all. Noticing your wavy signature, not realising until youâd actually looked at what you were writing, youâd signed it with red ink. Until you saw the splotch where youâd kissed it at the end of your name.
Vecnaâs eyes had not left you once.
As youâre staring wide eyed at what youâve just signed, your mouth opening a little in shock, red dotting your lips, immediately a hand is around your neck. Youâre cut off with a choke as Vecna grabs you.
He pulls you in close, his nose bumping into your cheek as you panic to stay on your feet, gasping as you feel your neck expand in his cool hands. Your own going to his wrists, feeling the material of his white shirt, his cool skin, the little hairs on his arms, as you try to dislodge his hand a little. Not fighting back as much as you should, one because he was letting you breathe, but mostly because you were willing to let anything happen for this to work.
Suddenly Vecna grabbing you by your throat isnât as much of an issue, especially since heâs not actually cut off any oxygen, just held you in his grasp; because now youâre distracted by the room spinning, and that definitely isnât from lack of air flow.
Looking down at your feet you can see the both of you are spinning, and just like Max did, just like Chrissy did, youâre up in the air. Only this time conscious, and with Vecna.
His eyes leer in close as you both raise some inches, continuing to move, his face serious, as his two demobats screech above you. The sound ignited you with terror, panic and trauma from associating it with the sound, the smell, of Eddieâs ripping flesh; and yours under your bandage. But these bats now, they sound like a song out of order, thereâs chaos and melody to their shrieks.
Each time you get closer to the sound of their yowls as they fly in the air though, they just raise some more. The storm of the upside down blocking much of your view as you donât even feel the movement anymore, although that may just be to do with your heart lurching as you go along with this plan, and your eyes held tight on Vecna now.
You feel weird about whatâs happening, managing to grab your necklace off the ground without even looking, before you were raised any higher, the winds in the place you thought wouldnât have any helping you, as you manage to thread your finger through the clasp, small pebbles scratching your arm. You hold it tight before your lose it, the pendant with Eddieâs picture in grasped protectively in your palm, because you know things are happening now.
Your eyes back on Vecna, not fighting his hold on you anymore, just fiercely gripping your necklace of Eddie, you gasp. Breathing deeply as you commit yourself to everything youâre doing right now, planning all this that definitely is trouble, but for Eddieâs life, for whatâs right, for the chances he was never given in life and you were fighting to give him now, even though you know whatâs happening is wrong, your determination to keep going outweighs any fear thatâs howling. Eddie always liked you being a hero, until his final day.
Vecna pulls back distracting you from your head full of Eddie, as you watch his blue eyes move further. His grip loosening, causing you to squeeze onto his wrist. Even as he fully letâs go, you stay in the air. And your breath finally comes back to you when he orders âSing.â
Words escape you. The only thing you can think of, the only song that seems appropriate in this situation, melancholic, hopeful, and full of meaning and memories of Eddie, is that tune you always used to sing to him.
So you follow Vecnaâs instructions.
You sing the melody of the tune you sang to Eddie so many times. When youâd stroke his dark bouncy curls on the couch, once full of life. When heâd hide his face into your chest because he felt safer crying there. When he couldnât sleep because he was afraid someone would find him and hurt him. When he was afraid of the world. When he was afraid of not being able to show everyone who he really was, before he died.
âKeep singing!â
Vecna yells over the noise inside the rocky structure, noise youâd barely even noticed with your mind so full.
Your focus on the song that was always for Eddie, being for Eddie is such a different way now, as you put your whole chest into it. Raising your voice, and trying to remember the notes just right, even if they didnât matter to Vecna, they mattered to you and Eddie.
You squeeze your pendant of Eddie tight, willing yourself to be strong enough to do this properly, to be brave for Eddie, like you always were when you hummed this tune for him, to make sure the world didnât let him down again. You need him to stay strong, you hold onto your necklace with everything youâve got.
Suddenly thatâs when you see it. In the darkness of the Upside Down, of the dark blues and grey clouds and black shadows of this place, you see a ball of light. And as the light moves from your body towards Vecnaâs greedy gaze, youâre hearing your own voice getting further away, but feeling your vocal cords move in time. It gives you this sick feeling.
Like something unnatural is being lost, that you canât produce anything. A sick feeling in your throat, but nothing coming out. That what youâre doing right now, is effecting over there instead. That light should be in your body, and itâs, youâre, moving towards your worst enemy.
Vecna snatches your necklace from your hand, leaving you horrified. You need it back. The picture of Eddie laying close to your heart always, smiling like he was before, looking right at you, from the gift he gave you. Vecnaâs hand burning cold on your skin, the chains cutting into your palm, as he steals that away from you.
But then you see your light with your voice going towards Eddie, instead of him, and suddenly, you feel more okay...
Vecna snaps the pendant shut, and you immediately start to feel dizzy.
A rush of dark smoke and red and blue lightning suddenly make outside the cave like structure so crazy, youâre even looking away from Vecna. But when they swirl around you, the smoke and the demobats flying around both you and Vecna in a close loop, youâre looking back to him with horror. Nothing matters but Eddie, but this power floors you, even if you already understood what youâve signed yourself up for, and still do. Vecnaâs using it all on you, he and Eddie are counting on you.
The demobats horrible screeches donât outweigh the crash and rumble of the hurricane of smoke and lightning youâre trapped in, with your nemesis encaptured right with you. His smirk not on you anymore, but down at your necklace he flips between his fingers. You can only hear the demobats, seeing only smoke and lighting, and Vecna, when the demobats come swooping closer to you both. And then everything is black.
Steve and Robin are horrified as they watch on. The vines immediately withdrew once the smoke started surrounding yours and Vecnaâs feet, and everything was too loud and far for you to hear.
Steve helped Robin up, and they grabbed their weapons and they just watched in awe. Weapons ready and pointed, but no sight of you in the powerful haze of elements.
Nothing had attacked them yet, and that left them strong enough to do this, to fight for you if you wouldnât. But that meant they had to find you first. And now you were trapped up there with Vecna. Robin and Steve couldnât even hear each other screaming your name, with the booms of thunder and rumbling of this whole world surrounding everything. Let alone you being able to hear them, and know youâre not all on your own.
Until finally, the smoke clears, and youâre only a few feet off the ground, compared to where Steve and Robin were searching up for you before. Luckily enough time for Steve to dive and scrape his barely healing back to hell as he catches you. Landing you on top of him as you fall, which he accentuates with only a cry.
Robin immediately grabs at you, yelling for Steve, as they both hit your cheeks. Robin standing atop with a weapon in hand, and Steve heaving beneath you as he leans over, with you snagged on his chest. Both increasingly hitting you, and shaking you, thunder still quaking as they quickly try and scream your name.
âLetâs go! Steve letâs go!â Robin yells out, red light filling the sky more than the blue cover, shadowing their faces as she helps fireman lift you off of Steve, just to get you up, before heâs on his feet.
âIâve got them! Letâs go Robin!â Steve yells to her, both of them squinting their eyes from the flying dust and howling wind, as they lean their faces in close to yell. Their hands on each other, and on you, as they yell close to hurriedly plan their escape.
Steve throws you over his shoulder from where Robin was keeping your unconscious body up, and while he secures you quickly with his arm grappling your thighs, they both search around. Robin duel wielding, as Steve manages to hold you over his shoulder, and still hold his axe in another hand.
They canât see Vecna. Thereâs no sign of him around. But theyâve got to get you out.
âThe wooded path, we should go now!â Robin grabs Steveâs shoulder, both still squinting to see each other, and their way out, before she goes first, slightly lighter on her feet. While Steve still defends her sides, and your back.
Reminded of the time just three days ago he carried you out of the Upside Down like this. Thrown across his shoulder, but this time not kicking and punching and screaming, this time silent. That was worse for Steve. He didnât think he could feel much worse, but the dejavu of three days ago, in these circumstances, was a lot for him. And this time, youâd managed to do something incredibly dangerous for Eddie, before your friends could stop you...
Both their faces looking to you occasionally, passed out over Steveâs back, your hair slightly obscuring you from Steveâs view, but Robin managing to assure/scare both herself and Steve as she repeats youâre still just out cold. With Steve at least able to feel your breathing over his shoulder, as his arm keeps tight hold of your legs draped on his chest.
Both of them keeping their weapons out in full battle mode as they rush to the exit you entered through, silencing their check ins with each other as the âweatherâ down there stops, and the eerie quiet of the Upside Down loudens in a way, the closer they get to the exit back home. In a place like this, it shouldnât be quiet. The two keeping hushed where they can knowing they canât alert anything out there to the intruders in their space, especially with you unconscious in Steveâs hold.
Whatâs strange though, is that while they did miss their opportunity at seeing Vecna, nothing attacked any three of you on your way out either.
It let you pass.
#please lmk your thoughts and if anyone would be interested in pt2!#Iâve worked so hard and for so long on this so any feedback would be rly appreciated :) đ hope yâall enjoy!#Eddie Munson/reader#little mermaid au#Steve Harrington#Robin Buckley#Vecna#Eddie Munson#platonic stobin#Eddie Munson x reader#Eddie Munson fic#Eddie Munson angst#my fics#stranger things#Robin and Steve r in the middle pic bc itâs mostly them and Vecna in chptr1 bc itâs abt bringing Eddie back haha#I promise Eddie will be in all the other chapters after this this is just the set up đ#11.8k
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Pairing: John Entwistle/Pete Townshend
Rating: explicit (sorta not too much sexual stuff)
Word count: 1k
Was introduced to the idea of feeder towntwistle but with swapped roles (Pete being the one getting fed) and I couldn't stop thinking ab it so...
John noticed that Pete hadn't been eating much lately, he was too consumed in his most recent project to remember. It made him dissapointed to see Pete so thin and sad looking he had to fix this. Walking up to Pete casually he decided if Pete wouldn't eat on his own then John would make him.
"Have you eaten today?" John asked, staring down at Pete, who was bent over some sheet music.
"Hmmm -" Pete was about to say he was fine, but he was cut off by a loud growl from his stomach. Maybe he was hungrier than he thought.
Seeing the way Pete flushed in embarrassment made John want to laugh. "C'mon, you should have something, I can cook for you"
Pete seemed a little surprised by John's offer, but he accepted, being cramped in his tiny home studio was starting to make him claustrophobic. Letting John help him up off the floor, they went down to the kitchen. Immediately, John started rummaging through Pete's cabinets, trying to figure out what to cook. Pete decided to just sit down and watch. He wanted to comment on how cute John looked, but he kept it to himself.
John made sure to find the biggest pan possible and choose the most calorie dense ingredients. Luckily, Pete had a lot of unused food lying around since he didn't cook much. It was making Pete anxious just how much John was preparing, I mean, he assumed that John was making it mostly for himself, right?
It didn't take long for John to finish preparing and slide his creation into the oven. Pete could practically smell how greasy and fatty whatever John had made was, he was off put but didn't say anything. He could tell that John had put on weight recently, and this was probably why. Not that Pete was unhappy about that. He just wasn't interested in picking up those same eating habits.
John set a timer and then joined Pete at the table. Looking Pete over, John could tell he hadn't washed his hair or changed his clothes in a while. Reaching over John started to comb his fingers through Pete's hair trying to make it look a little nicer.
Pete flinched, John felt a bit guilty for not warning Pete beforehand. "I'm just trying to make you look pretty for dinner," He grinned. Pete tried to keep calm as John ran his hands down his torso, smoothing the wrinkles in Pete's shirt. He could feel the warmth in John's strong hands. Leaning back, John gave Pete a once over. "Looking good," he nodded. Pete couldn't help but blush even if John's behavior was a little odd.
Suddenly, they were interrupted by the timer John had set. He set dinner down on the table and scooped a large amount onto Pete's plate. Instead of eating, Pete just poked at it with his fork, trying to make it look like he was interested. He couldn't eat this, but on the other hand, he didn't want to make John feel bad. Also, he was fully aware he hadn't eaten anything for an unhealthy length of time. Unfortunately, John noticed his reluctance.
"Is my cooking not good enough?" He asked, trying to get sympathy from Pete even though he really didn't care what Pete thought.
"No, no! It looks fine...I'm just not very hungry, " Pete shrugged, trying not to meet John's eyes.
John had an idea. He picked up Pete's utensils and cut off a large chunk of his messy food. "Open wide," John asked as he held the fork up to Pete's mouth. Pete struggled to conceal his grossed out expression, John couldn't care less, though.
Hesitantly, Pete parted his lips just enough for John to fit the fork through. Pete was shocked that it wasn't as disgusting as he thought it'd be, but he wasn't sure if he'd be able to eat much.
John smiled at Pete's compliance. "Good boy," he always had the overwhelming urge to praise Pete for everything. For some reason, John's words made Pete want more. It made John happy, so maybe it wasn't so bad.
Pete enjoyed the attention and the feeling of a warm meal in his stomach after barely eating for longer than he cared to remember. It was clear that John was loving feeding Pete and watching him eat.Â
After finishing his first plate, Pete already felt full, but John seemed so eager to feed him, and he'd made so much food a little bit more couldn't hurt. Without saying a word, John pulled the entire dish in front of them, Pete wasn't aware that John intended on making him eat the whole thing.
Pete only realized just how much he'd been fed when he felt like his pants were about to pop. He could've sworn they'd been too loose just a second ago. Either way, he wasn't interested in stopping. It disturbed him that it felt so good to be stuffed to the point of not wanting to move.
John reached down to press his hand into Pete's swollen belly. He couldn't stop picturing how adorable Pete would look with a little more weight on him. Maybe he'd have to make a habit of cooking for Pete. He moved his hand to squish Pete's expanding waist, Pete groaned and leaned into John's touch. Humiliation made Pete want to pull away, but John's hands just felt so amazing.
"So cute," John muttered, then picked the fork back up.
It was obvious that Pete was starting to get too full to do anything, but John didn't seem to mind he was willing to take care of Pete for the night. John continued to shovel food into Pete's mouth. He couldn't help but stare at how the buttons on Pete's shirt were barely holding together, parts of his pale belly visible through the gaps.
Soon enough, John finished up feeding Pete everything he'd made, Pete seemed slightly relieved at this he didn't think he could fit anymore in his stomach. John placed a kiss on Pete's tummy and squished it tenderly. Pete hiccuped and blushed. He was horribly embarrassed by his current state of helplessness.
John was still able to lift Pete up with ease despite his increased weight. Holding Pete tight, he brought him to his bedroom and laid him down on his back. Once he started to undress Pete, John noticed that he was rock hard. His eyes widened he couldn't just leave Pete like this.
"Awwww," John cooed pawing at Pete's crotch "would you like some help with that?" He made his voice sickly sweet.
Pete didn't have the energy to form words, but he moaned and pushed his erection further into John's hand. Slowly, John undid Pete's pants and slid his underwear off tossing both articles of clothing aside.
John gripped Pete's cock and tugged on it roughly. Pete couldn't help but let out a loud whine. It didn't take long for John to find just the right way to touch Pete, every stroke of his hand had Pete gripping the sheets and whimpering. Pete's panting got louder as John squeezed and pulled harder. It was embarrassing how quickly he came but with how tired he was he couldn't hold back. Hearing Pete moan his name made John so proud, nothing felt better than giving Pete any form of pleasure.
John bent down to kiss Pete's soft belly and sink his teeth into it. He adored the sight of his own marks on Pete's squishy body. The idea of showing off and worshipping Pete's belly made him excited. He'd have to remember to do that. It didn't matter to him that Pete would hate it. To John, Pete was the prettiest boy in the world and deserved more attention.
Feeling too tired to support himself anymore, John slowly lowered his body on top of Pete. At first, Pete seemed nervous, but John's heavy weight felt surprisingly pleasant. Despite not being able to move, Pete was completely comfortable underneath John. It was also comforting to know that however large Pete got John would always be bigger. John just tucked his face into the crook of Pete's neck. He was satisfied to know that Pete was finally getting the food and rest he needed.
#positive feedback would be greatly appreciated#if you have any đ
#ive been a litte insecure ab my writing as of late đ#john entwistle#pete townshend#townwistle#my fics â¤ď¸#đ°
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NEW KAIJU OC?!?!
Well, yea technically. Basically i was interested in figuring out how id go with making my own kaiju. At first i wasnt sure where to go for designing one. So i chose to base it off another existing kaiju for inspiration. I kinda wanted to go for a dragon type kaiju (i like dragons) and the only thing i could think of was Ghidorah so i went with that (now that i think about it more, I couldâve maybe used Manda too prob but oh well, Ghidorah was still a good option). I added some different details to mine that make it unique to the og Ghidorah
My idea was that it could potentially be a relative to Ghidorah (being of the same species) but still far apart from one another to the point they arent all that aware of the other existing (theyre in for a shock when & if they do encounter each other lol). This version actually relies on cosmic energy derived from such sources like stars & generally anything that produce some form of energy within the vast universe (basing it off how Ghidorah themselves originally came from space & this variant being much more dependent on that factor). It stores that energy & relatively stays in a dormant stage for an extended period of time until when faced with the challenge to defend itself or fight off those it deems as a danger. Then it would release all that ginormous amount of space energy that manifests itself as a rapidly expanding glow of extremely bright light. Enough to cause extreme damage & bring down the opposition. It can gather energy by using special crystals it can grow (took that also as inspiration but from Space Godzilla) & become as some form of attracting & absorbing the energy. In a way, the energy is like its main source of food & energy to maintain itself (right after releasing a lot of it during its final attack of using that glow, it would be put in a highly vulnerable state if not recovered by regaining some energy back soon enough). For the most part, they mostly sleep (being lazy 24/7 just like me fr lmao) to keep all that energy but can be potentially dangerous if disturbed or provoked in some manner
(Hereâs a better closer look at their faces. Realized the canvasâ too big to properly see each of them-)
The name of this kaiju you may be wondering???
Itâs Ryudorah
(Yea i know im the most creative person out there. I combined another nickname i use for myself and just added the end part of Ghidorahâs name to make it clear itâs related to the other kaiju. I couldnât think of anything else im sorryđ)
And also each head has its own individual name:
Do, Re & Mi
(Named after intervals in the musical scale (ex: Do, Re, Mi, Fa, So, La, Ti, Do)
Did i mention this kaiju can also technically sing too :)
I did have a lot of fun with coming up with the concept for them (tho it honestly took longer in designing them due to a busy schedule ive been put in as of late & finding the time to finish it) but im glad to finally be able to share this with you all. Hopefully I can share more about them soon (i have a whole google docâs worth of lore lmao) & probably draw them again (tho maybe a lot more simplified by then). Didnât wanna overwhelm ppl with the huge amount of info so Iâll prob slowly reveal more over time.
[Another thing too is that i still am new to the fandom (tho with more knowledge from getting to learn more from the source material) & most of this i gathered from already know stuff i knew. Tho im also open to feedback & maybe some ideas to add onto my own kaiju. So id very much appreciate it if thereâs any suggestions from you guys ^^âď¸]
(Iâll only be taking constructive criticism btw. Anything hateful will obv be ignored)
#godzilla#kaiju#kaiju oc#my very first kaiju oc!!!#oc artwork#oc#I feel like both this guy & Ghidorah would have a rough first encounter#i love how i also made them the lazy ass who sleeps all day & only wakes up to tell others to shut up when theyâre being annoying#i really tried with making this#i think theyre really cool so far#appreciate any feedback on this#i should probably draw a Ryudorah & Ghidorah interaction just for fun some time#youre also free to do fanart of this guy if ya want#i love them very much
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experimence (i have not drawn in over a week)
#sonic fanart#sonic idw fanart#tangle the lemur#sonic the hedgehog#knuckles the echidna#still so sad that the bit of purple in tangleâs design is never brought in or played up#sonic gets green goggle lenses for his green eyes#would tangle not look good in purple?? (spoilers she looks really cool in purple)#not settled on any of these colors but they work for the concept#knuckles has blue claws and markings which could be played up for contrast like sonicâs colors#or sonic toned down to match more of knucklesâs and tangleâs deals#i have been told my lemurs look kinda doggish so feedback will be appreciated
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Incomplete Fiber Art
I tug at ends of yarn
watching you unravel in
all your secret thoughts and doubts and passion
of every word you wrote me â pilling into clumps
sat atop you to make a gorgeous textured thread
i cannot wait to detangle â watch as the
tight outer parts unfurl to reveal a saggy tired center
of cold noodles
that hold no distinct shape
as it slithers and writhes and I consume it and you gag
drooping and whining,
scraping against the metal of my hook â cold from disuse
I work on this new project and let you nestle up inside me and inside
your brand new form.
the friction of my hook snags on your frayed edges
as I work, warming up my heart chambers
sparsely decorated â you notice as you wander around inside me
in this incomplete form i've now created for you
yarn ends trailing behind
still tangled and clumpy but at least you can walk around in
this exhibit I designed â hopefully
It distracts and entertains as you
locate my tapestry and
with your unfinished claws and loose jaw
rip apart my delicately placed seams.
you're not sure how to properly unravel me
in the same way I unraveled you
but you take the shreds of the form I wove inside myself
and construct yourself a nest upon which you can
rest inside,
your lumpy shape reveling in the warmth of my remains.
maybe when i fix the mess you made of me
I'll be able to finish you and sew all your parts together
to make you whole
and maybe then you will be free of me
crawl back up my esophagus and catch at my heart â escape me
so that I can repair my chambers and clean up
the yarn fuzz you shed and left behind.
youâre a work of art
in all your unpredictability and pain
my incomplete fiber project.
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