#anorexia-recovery

[thepersonalwords]

Eating disorder recovery becomes possible when you keep making the next right decision over and over. With time, these decisions become automatic.

Brittany Burgunder

[cockroachmotherfucker10]

Do it halfway. Take one piece of trash out of your room, throw one dirty shirt into your hamper. Go to one class and miss a different one. Start a drawing without pressure to finish it. Give yourself space to Be without the expectation to Become, and do small things to make the Being livable.

[desultory-suggestions]

It's okay to be scraping by. Even if you would rather be doing better, even if you technically could be doing better. Sometimes the weight of things just pushes us down. Keep moving forward, even if is slow. In time you will be back where you want to be.

[catgirl-kaiju]

me: hmh getting hungry

adhd: u can't eat rn you're already doing something

autism: there is nothing in the house that u like

anorexia: like u even need any calories

trauma: u've barely done anything today. you don't deserve to eat

little anime girl: burg her

me: burg her...

me:

little anime girl:

[andstillwelove]

happy two years in REAL recovery and at this point, fully recovered. I sincerely hope this doesn't trigger anyone, but it obviously still might.

I'm posting this to confidently say that things don't get easier losing a coping mechanism, they get harder. But consequently you learn to practice genuine emotional and physical strength, which is far different than the perverse sense of strength you get from destroying yourself, which is not legitimate...It's just glorifying being self-destructive.

I still very much identify with the person I was when I was deeply struggling. We share a lot of the same passions and personality. Only I am now that person, expressed to her fullest, not enshrouded by a mental illness. You don't lose yourself but gain back the person you were meant to be, in full pigment.

Physically recovering is not the hardest part. Accepting yourself without comparison afterwards, is.

There is no 'sick enough' and people struggle long before it has physical ramifications. I am aware the issue with posts like mine is it portrays the idea of needing to reach a certain physical state before being 'deserving' of recovery. This couldn't be more false. There is nothing to be proud of by wasting more of your life, only more regret and rumination.

healthy is beautiful and looks different for all.

[recoveryposting]

a little while ago i was talking to a friend about my ed and i dont remember the context but she said to me "I LOVE CARBOHYDRATES!!!!! I LOVE CALORIES!!!!!!" and i stopped and stared at my phone because i had genuinely never heard anyone say they love calories. like, even implicitly theres this messaging that lower calorie = better and that we should enjoy of food despite the calories it contains. and i was just floored that this was the first time i had ever heard anything like that and it made me feel so comforted. anyway appreciate your friends they are some of the most important people in the world

[paloma-ascends-into-hellfire]

eating disorder harm reduction

no one ever compiled this so that it what we are doing today. for people with eds and people whose loved ones do. please note: i’m not a doctor. this is a compilation of things from books and ed resource sites.

for people whose loved ones have an eating disorder:

try to make sure they know these things.

try not to force them to eat, they might feel uncomfortable eating in front of people. also, risk of refeeding syndrome.

if their life is in danger and you are seeking help for them, consult the person beforehand to make sure they will be safe and give them a heads-up so that they aren’t startled (especially if they’re neurodivergent! giving them notice will aid control!)

offer them ways of controlling things aside from food - practice consent, include them in conversations, don’t talk about them behind their back, compliment their makeup or hair.

be patient. the person may be irritable from lack of sleep, feelings of depression, worthlessness, etc., or malnutrition.

keep in mind that you can’t tell if someone has an eating disorder by looking at them. people of all weights do - only 17% of anorexics are underweight - and also, men and non binary people can also have eds.

general:

drink lots of water, especially if you’re drinking lots of caffeine.

drink some electrolytes at least once a week - gatorade, electrolyte tablets, coconut water, doesn’t matter, just get it into your system.

if you are getting dizzy or flushed and can feel your heart beating, quick carbs will raise your blood sugar - sweets, bread, fruit, juice, non diet soda, whatever. keep snacks around pls.

your brain uses 400-500 calories daily. eat more than this.

take your supplements!

you still need protein, have an egg or something.

don’t take adderal or insulin unless you are actually diabetic or neurodivergent, because you are raising the price by buying them and denying access to those who need it.

throw a towel over the mirror. it’s not worth it if it’ll cause you anxiety.

try to limit disordered behaviours like body checking, purging, and weigh ins.

practice good dental hygiene.

put your scale somewhere where you have to actively look for it to weigh yourself.

avoid social media and for your sake don’t go on pro ed tiktok or tumblr or twitter or insta.

get a buddy who also struggles with the same thing if possible to support each other.

get regular medical check ups (if you can afford it)

practice things within your control - makeup, hair, clothing, etc.

push your rules - eat 5 minutes before your time, or 50 calories over your limit.

for people with restrictive disorders (e.g. anorexia):

do weight and resistance training at least twice a week to prevent musculoskeletal conditions such as osteoporosis.

don’t drink on an empty stomach.

try to put gaps between fasting periods.

don’t fast for more than 72 hours.

wear lots of layers to keep warm.

eat an extra 100-200 calories on your period if you menstruate.

have a metabolism day.

take care of your hair.

as horrifying as this is to many people, please go to the hospital if you’re experiencing heart problems or if you’re passing out for more than 30 seconds.

for people with purging disorders (e.g. bulimia):

if you would like to purge, wait 15 minutes first.

after purging: drink lots of water - the emptiness you feel is dehydration. don’t brush your teeth but rinse your mouth out, preferably with an alkaline mouthwash or baking soda mixed into water. do something you want to do, like reading a book or watching a show. don’t smoke. don’t have anything acidic. eat a banana or some chocolate or a rice cake to keep your blood sugar levels in check.

if you vomit blood or your vomit looks like coffee grounds, this is a sign of internal bleeding. you could be drowning in your own blood from a hole in your esophagus, essentially. go to the hospital or call 911/999/the emergency number in your area.

stay safe everyone. i hope this helps. also, i do not use these tags - i have them blocked - but i am using them so that people on these tags will find this because they need it most.

[nwarrior777]

if you want a little bit of hope and positivity:

today i did my first laundry all by myself. i am 26

today i went for a shower. and yesterday i did it too. going to shower was a thing i was skipping for months.

i also bought myself new, clean clothes. two shirts for home. i've never had home-clothes, went on street one i wear at home and in bed. in childhood i could sleep in jeans. under blanket. and i lived in a place with a lot of dirty snow.

few days ago i said in conversation with friends, that i want to be fat and want eat more to keep myself "fat and juicy". i had anorexia all my teen years

i've never thought i will have like. life. feel simple joy of life. it's not a post with advices, i didn't figure out how to describe my path to this, in this post i just want to show that Things Go Better can happen. it's easy to forget it at our times.

just feeling good and. wanted to share

[queervegancryptid]

please help, i haven't had a meal in four days (current as of 10/25/2024)

i'm in early recovery from anorexia and have basically been nonfunctional for months. i'm also disabled and get about $925 per month from disability and SSI, combined. i usually get food stamps, but this month, i didn't, because i never got the letter telling me i needed to recertify. so this has been a really rough month.

i'm more stable and feel stronger now than i did a few months ago. i'm even able to start back on a low dose of my ADHD meds, which i had to quit because i was having some scary heart issues.

the improvement i've had has been largely due to drinking meal replacement drinks. which i cannot afford now because i don't have any money and don't have food stamps.

i'm literally starving. i'm working on a gofundme because of the situation with my eating disorder and other things, but this is an emergency. we need help NOW.

please consider donating and/or boosting the post. thank you to anybody who does either/both.

As of 10/27/2024, this is still VERY URGENT. My partner can't work for the next few days, so things are about to get even harder for us.

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[sunsetsandhope]

daily reminder, food is not your enemy, the number on scale doesn't define you as a person, the size of your clothing has nothing to do with your personality, and if you struggle with ed, recovery, body image issues or body dysmorphia, i hope it will pass and one day it will become a distant memory for us.

[pearlofthesea03]

Affirmations for EDs. Even if you don't believe them now, say them and work towards believing them one day

1. I do not need to have an excuse for being hungry

2. Eating will let me enjoy life

3. Eating will help the people I love

4. I do not deserve to feel pain

5. Just because this amount made me feel good yesterday doesn't mean it's enough for today

6. 'Being good' is not how long I exercise or how little I eat

7. Starvation does not protect me

8. Being thin won't fix my struggles

9. No one needs to be perfect

[desultory-suggestions]

You deserve peace. You deserve love. You deserve patience.

[fuck-your-proana-blog]

There is no "good" and "bad" foods, especially in recovery. "Clean eating" is bullshit.

[iwasntborntobe-a-skeleton]

I have a tummy now. Round and soft and always there. It’s incredibly hard to love most of the time. Three years ago, looking at how I look now would have made me spiral into shame and self-harm and relapse. It’s still hard to look in the mirror most days.

But sometimes I can hold my round little tummy and know that it’s a sign of me enjoying life, of eating what I want and loving food and my friends and my life. My girlfriend holds me and kisses me and tells me I’m beautiful and I know she means all of me, including my fat and my softness and roundness.

I know I will always be in recovery. I know it will likely always be hard. But I also know that I can do it, and that slowly I am becoming more able to genuinely not care that my body has changed, is changing, will change.

I’m still alive. And I’m so grateful.

[recoveryposting]

wanna know the number one thing that helped me get out of my ed? getting rid of the numbers. deleting my calorie tracking app. stopping weighing myself. stopping counting out nuts or weighing food or whatever. i cannot reccomend this enough.

dont just stop doing it - make it impossible. have someone hide your kitchen and bathroom scales, or get rid of them. scratch nutrition information off packaging. get rid of those numbers.

[whsprings]

but you aren't a lost cause and you do have the time.