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WHAT DO YOU MEAN OFFICIAL HENRY COLLINS CHARACTER PLAYLIST DOESN'T HAVE "THREE DAYS GRACE - DROWN" IN IT

writing "make animation to prove that its perfect song for him. one day" in plans, now have the thing i was drawing listening it on repeat

what do you mean official henry collins character playlist doesn't have "Three Days Grace - Drown" in it

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Commission!

By the way! Commissions are open!

Here is some other examples!

And here is price!

I finally started my active stable job search, i was in preparing phase before - collecting organizations, websites etc but now i am in search in linkedin, local organizations and etc (if you have advice of how to get job in disability sphere i am all ears!)

but it is long path, and rent pay day is here again. I live at friends but i need to pay something, cause it is becoming kinda awkward

Pау Platform i managed to find as working in my situation:

Hipolink: https://hipolink.me/nwarrior777 (paypal works as payment method in this one and i think cards too)

DM for taking commissions slots and details

also you can donate which is very wow and thank you

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me: i like them so much but their thing is, like, "they are poetic gays" what i can do about it

me, second later: OH MY GOD their thing is "they are poetic gays" i can do SO much about it

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"Did you see that new guy?.. I swear, his face looks like ceramic mask, and i swear i see it's cracking" - Tim Stocker

Starting new year with putting Knife in Martin K(nife) Blackwood

The fanfic with the quote from Tim above is not written (yet?) but i have one about Martin Knifing Elias - here is ao3 link

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Sir,

Saw that you are out of the hospital. Welcome back!! Just in time to enjoy the last month of this year and prepare to greet the new one. Hope that you are still treating yourself gently even as you re-enter the choppy waves of everyday life. May the tides carry you safely to the places you want to see and to all the people eager to meet you along the way.

Fair winds and following seas!

in a cold cold place inside forest needles trees there was a village grey grey grey white void sad sad sad sad image there was a girl in that village in that cold that girl went once to event in big big warm coat in big big big coat and in mother's dress the girl thought it would be fancy event but it was just school new year party everyone was there because there was nothing in that cold cold place besides this to go

no one else wears dress

girl felt

she's alone

it was awkward time

but the girl moved on

turned out the girl

was not a girl

but a something more and this still go on big big wolf is barking but he's not the only one who has claws and fangs trying byte my hand - it's too far, i've never shake it with him trying byte my neck - i have chocker on with spikes trying byte my head - horns grow more and more every day and night bark bark bark on papers with the endless no no no if i broke the paper by existence then my life is riot i go with it 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 26 years like this how how how i did it how how how did i survived? where was something in me all this time fire burning trought me keeping life well i wouldn't call it life more like of existence but one bark was special and i said myself "i am done with this"

here i am year pass since the escape and i can't believe

where i a now, what's this place... in that cold cold place there was a girl who was often crying she was thought "i will never never never will be flying" "i will never travel world" "my word never will be heard" "i will never will be loved" "i will never meet new people" "i will never make it happen" "i will never leave this hell" "i will never have beginning my all life is just the end"

in a warm warm place besides ancient leaves there is ancient town full of love there is me here now

i am sitting in the bar and then go on with a guy i say hey guy look they have concert in a hall he says let's go lady i say whaaaaat he buy tickets and we at

the ball

well it actually was concert but rules says no cameras in but i loved to be just there

seeing all this happening

to me

to that

girl

in the dress

in the cold cold

place

which is far far away

thank you people

for today

it was you

for all these years keeping fire in my heart

thank you people for the chance after all this years

to start

With Love, Kris 🖤🖤🖤

p.s.

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☝ agreed

in our times just being alive is fucking badass move if you read this you did well and i am so proud of you yes YOU love you bitch

There will be a lot of posts soon from people sharing how much they achieved in 2024. But in case someone needs to hear this, it's okay if the only thing you did this year was just get through it.... It's ok.

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i guess my Christmas tradition is to Deliver Cat People

Meet Cougars

(also yeah first one has palatoschisis. palatoschisis on cat people - yay or nay palatoschisis havers pls say your word, i don't have this medical condition so my opinion doesn't counts /i_mean_it 🙏)

literally could have been so cunty if they didn’t change the proportions…

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i should say having dandy fashion guys as roommates definitely helps with drawing all these The My New Show Obsession About 129 Wet Kittens But They Are Gentlemen Going Through Fucked up North Expedition at The Year Of 1700

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Holidays Season starts in days so!

Christmas donations time!

If you like my art and want support it by donation, It would made my Holiday season much happier Link to donations: https://hipolink.me/nwarrior777

Not gona lie, i go through hard times - i am dictatorship country (russia) escaper, and for a year i try to live in new country.

I've never been outside of russia even for vacation before and rushed my escape after one of horrific laws, which made me think "okay that's my last drop". I learn how to live adult life, how to live immigrant life, how just live life all together.

At the same time i am anticapitalist and i don't want to monetize my art - it just feels like then i try even a little in long term art monetize, money is poisoning it. So only thing i monetize is commissions, cause you guys commissioning exactly what i want to create - representative art, so it feels fine. I try to get to looking for stable job but it's kinda. complicated (don't know local language, first think options like delivery guy is no because my health, etc).

I will open commissions again soon, but

yeah

If you like my art and want support it by donation, It would made my Holiday season much happier

[i live in country where christmas of 25 is not much big deal, but i used to celebration on eng internet, here New Year Night is more important, so, i think by Holiday Season i mean 25 Dec -1 Jan]

thank you again, guys, for staying with me in this hard times!

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"The Deal" The Terror fan comics

he knew it will work cause he tried it on crozier

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what do you mean official henry collins character playlist doesn't have "Three Days Grace - Drown" in it

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the parallels of collins Thoughts and The Events which he didn't participate in at all is driving me insane

it's tozer out of all characters with him cause i have Daydreaming Fanfic-if-i-was-more-into-fanfic-writing-Idea with them about This

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The "Fat fetish" Panic is starting really annoying me, and today i am furious enough to talk about it

It's really long post

Here is the conclusion. But i very recommend to read the whole one especcially if you disagree with the conclusion

It is okay to be angry that there is no much alternative image of fatness, that we don't see a lot of fat characters in not kinky or in not offensive images. But the problem here is not in "too much fat kink images" but in "not enough good fat representation".

You will not create more good representation by being angry on people who have fat fetish, draw fat art or love fat art. Fat fetish panic is not making media more representative. It's just producing hatefull atmosphere

Fat kink is just one of kinks. And kinks is normal part of sexual/romantic activity. And choosing from all the kinks the one only because of fatness element to be cringe - it's just fatphobia, which people learn from society rules but a lot of not even try to question it

and first question you need to ask here is - where is word "skinny fetish" if it is so much about "fat fetish"?

fat fetish. mhm. where is skinny fetish when? have you even heard a phrase "skinny fetish before this post, m?

maybe such thing doesn't exist because being skinny is sexy by default is society rule! somehow going all 🥵🥴🤤 in comments of some skinny model and being horny for 6 packs torso of some guy is totally fine, and not considered as kink! but same with fat - oh! ew! fatfetishist!

but fat is unhealthyyyy - dystrophy is medical diagnosis! anorexia is medical diagnosis! didn't people hear about it? and don't tell me that it's something out of social norm too - i had anorexia! beat it completely! it's possible! but then i had it i *loved* then people told me i am too skinny and it was compliment to me. also my weight now go up and down because today i can afford delivery, tomorrow i don't have money for rent - and guess what i get in my worst times then i literally starving, on stress, or getting sick to the point of loosing weight? COMPLIMENTS. "oh wow you loosed weight!" - dude i didn't have money for food to the point of going to charity food box donations, TWICE in a year, and didn't go for more only because the place doesn't do this now! am i suppose to see aftermaths of it as smth positive???

also, don't see hate comments on every photo of guys who drink alco and energy drinks, smoke sigaretes and vapes and etc!

you, if you smoke, and i ask cause seems like everyone around smoke or vape now

have you been recieving hate letters? annoying endless advices in comments to go on anti addictive therapy? annoying endless advices to go to hospital on check your lungs? m?

mmmm oh that tons of hate on that image from that cyberpunk film with smoking woman, or under any image of smoking in tender scenes, yeah, so many hate on this unhealthy everyday human habit which people do much more than meals times- except of course there is no any hate about it anywhere whyyy becaaause smoking considered sexy as society rule! kinda start to see pattern here!

in a lot of country you can even smoke on streets there is no law to stop it! remind me, i just don't read this type of bullshit posts much, but, they do write smth about "unhealthy fatness propaganda" like you can transmitt fatness to someone. bitches literally smoking right to my face on street, at home, literally making me unhealthy, and everyone is fine about it, and even i , non smoker, expected to be fine about it, people get * surprised * that i don't like smoke of sigaretes and vapes. the fuck "dangerous fat propaganda making people fat" these fatphobs are talking about?

so yeah, narrative about care for health in discurse about fat fetish [fatness in general, but we are about fetish today] is of course total bullshit. and people should stop pretend that it has any logic under

so first point is - skinny isn't fetish, unhealthy things considering as sexy, but the sudden hell fat is fetish.

but!

even if it is sometimes kinky! why the sudden hell from all the fetishes this one is bad?

some fetishes include fat praise, or something connected, like * gasp * stuffing ( oh no, having big tasty dinner with your lover, what a horrifiing concept! ). so what? people find it more weird or more dangerous than some other kinks? hmmmmm. intresting, let's see that kinks we have on list

[for the record - kinks are fine. *all* . and, if you not familiar with concept of kink sex play - consent of everyone involved is part of process, its so obvious i will not even stopping to elaborate on it]

sooo! what do we have

bdsm things. the core is kind of agression-domination part involved. mmm! sounds dangerous! oh, sorry, dangerous looking guys with slapping thing (idk how it is called, not into it) getting all theirs 🥵🥴🤤!

ah and art! especially with fantasy scenarios. all those vampire characters biting neck of people, blood all around!!! aaa, danger! no? somehow it's even more 🥵🥴🤤? hmmm strange! why! it's bite, it's blood! still 🥵🥴🤤 oh what if i add

a fat to this! fantasy scenario, vampire took too much blood and now fat. and its still kinky art! oh, now it's ew and kinda cringe. well, not so cringe if fatness is not the focus of sexyness, mhm. if skinny hands of vampire in focus, all in blood, and the blood is focus, and the fangs and all this, yk, not so safely shit in focus its fine and 🥵🥴🤤. back to our gained weigh vampire - if clothes is tight, and focus is on his body, it's cringe? mhmmmm

soooo whatever dangerous dominating shit is happening it's fine [btw biting, to the bloodmarks, is not so much fantasy kink] but if the focus of kink art is character getting fat, it's cringe. why it's cringe when character on kinky art got fat? it's dangerous kink - nope, with skinny bloody vampire everything is fine and its 🥵🥴🤤. getting fat is unhealthy - 1) nope, look above 2) getting sucked blood almost to death (or to death! yes i watched compilation with that astarion scene where he could kill you by his bite! any hate? guess!l doesn't sound like smth very healthy. like smoking which is also 🥵🥴🤤 in tender scenes!

oh we are connecting dots here are we

so why is vampire sucking blood in very detailed art with blood all around and bite and fangs is sexy but this + fat is cringe?

yes, because in society rules fat is cringe element! math!

btw about cringe. what over fetishes are "cringe"? mmm. foot fetish? that director bitch in Hollywood made carrier out of that. furry? well someone find them weird, but if we will include them to discussion we will need to explain much more and open whole new world to the guys, so sorry dude who is still confused if trans man is someone who wants more masculine body or vice versa, you are not invited to the conversation today. so furry - everyone fine with! [not my thing but big regards!]. that new (?) thing with pool toys - don't see hate about it! and blow job, which is well, not much logical thing to do with each other body is not even considered as kink thing at all!!! oh, eating genitails, where your piss comes from? mmm not weird at all it's such usual thing, we can even show some jokes about it on television! well, kinda in 😉😉😉 way, but! like, the f-?

and from all of it - what is weird? fat

???

playing with the fat body, weight gain scenarios. bdsm is fine, but, what lesson we learned? right bdsm + fat is weird!

i hope you saw the pattern too!

So to the conclusion

It is okay to be angry that there is no much alternative image of fatness, that we don't see a lot of fat characters in not kinky or in not offensive images. But the problem here is not in "too much fat kink images" but in "not enough good fat representation".

You will not create more good representation by being angry on people who have fat fetish, draw fat art or love fat art. Fat fetish panic is not making media more representative. It's just producing hatefull atmosphere

Fat kink is just one of kinks. And kinks is normal part of sexual/romantic activity. And choosing from all the kinks the one only because of fatness element to be cringe - is fatphobia

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oh wow tumblr says this acc is 10 years old today ( 16 december 2024)

wish i could celebrate or draw smth but i am sick (who thought that connecting electricity to warming up system is good idea. so if electricity is off, your warming up system is off and you can't turn on the warming up electric thing. who was it. didn't have electricity all night in december, slept in my outdoors pants and jacket, under 2 blankets, got fever, what was that, 0/10)

but want to say smth anyway

this blog is very dear to me. this place. it was literally my window to the world, cause i was born in hell place - russia. russian village even. (yeah, that thing with electricity here is nothing to compare to problems there)

i learned english on tumblr. learned other mindset. my feed is basically global news newspaper, but in meme form. and of course, i met you

my followers, people who watch my posts, like it, reblogging, writing comments.

thank you so much.

i am getting so much love from you. so much support in most dark times. this blog once was more artsy, with rare text. but now it is as messy as my life and. a lot of people still stay. i feel so much love.

art is more rare here now but i am happy that i found myself in art, my art goal and theme - representation. drawing people who are underrepresented, sometimes not represented at all. destroying all those strange cages artists! put themselves in, and bringing Flame of Freedom, Strive and Love back to art. Spreading kindness.

I am warrior and this is my field of fight. Of course i am human in real life, and can do mistakes, say something wrong do something wrong. But i want to strive to Love Care and Kindness. It is my Ideal

and it was 10 years of going to this point. i am so grateful for you being with me on this road, if someone is new - welcome, is someone is oldies - very hello.

Thank you all. I hope i will continue this path, and you are more than welcomed to join.

With Love, Kris, NWarrior777 🖤

upd: oldies, or maybe new ones - tell in notes some cool stories which you remember about me on tumblr. maybe your fav post or some important moment. it would be cool to have it in ask but if i will answer asks it will all in text again ahah. but, if you want to be anon you still can send ask. i read all of them, but i am not sure i will be able to answer on asks today. lets have fun in notes

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commission for @wrenandpaper with their epicly slaying oc!

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hello kris! is it okay to tag you in my bodyposi drawings? or anything at all? thank you for reading my ask :)

omg sure!!! i will be very honored :3

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hiii i love this show. i am on board, hehe! :3 * daydreaming the angstiest hurt comfort hell out of it, shaking all new 129 blorbos like it's squish toy *