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Kids! When someone in a fandom space posts or does something that seems tailor made or outright intended to piss you off and/or provoke you to respond? Remember! You can just say to yourself:
And go on with your day without letting Haters into your life!
#kidk says stuff#‘sorry but I’m not hungry :)’#take it from your old (literally) pal kidk—it’s more fun to watch them try in vain to goad you#be sated by the fact of the attempt!#and just ignore them!#((trying to get my attention huh? that’s so fun! don’t bother.))
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hey gale. gale.
halaster? the halaster? halaster fucking blackcloak?
you not only personally know halaster blackcloak --
you chose HIM --
-- as your CAT SITTER??
#he's probably not the worst person in waterdeep but like?? could you not find someone else??#i know you said you have basically zero friends but could you not ask. idk. your mom???#how did that even go down.#fucked up dungeon monsters trying in vain to kill his mirror image projection while it asks for an audience with halaster#“Good evening! I am here on behalf of the esteemed Gale of Waterdeep. He wishes to ask you a favor of great importance--”#does halaster like. owe gale. did gale cash in an IOU#gale your decision making skills are unprecedented. how many fucked up wizards do you know#bg3#gale dekarios
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In bbc merlin you hear all the time about the Old Religion - which implies existence of the New Religion. Only recently i worked out what it's ought to be.
It's Christianity.
#it's bloody christianity#and i'm stupid#how could i not have realized earlier?#christianity and not even a chapel#that's scandalous tbh#you don't even have to comment on it#just put it there#but yeah#king arthur and the knights of the round table were looking for the holy grail#and... i knew it at some level#some but not conscious#hell#which reminds me#how long i've spent trying to come up with things people can swear onto when concepts of heaven hell and (big singular almighty) God+#+are foreign to them#(for fanfiction purpose)#(completely in vain as it turns out)#i... kinda refuse#honestly i'm flabbergasted#merlin bbc#as we're putting unexpected shit into internet's vastness today#the adventures of merlin#merlin#Q
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me the minute i'm hit with over exhaustion: i need to die bc nobody needs me and im tired of pretending to be capable of being human
#screaming at my brain to go to sleep bc this is a feeling that you sleep away usually#and then it gets bwtter#i honestly wish i had someone close enough to comfortably tell this to rather than posting on here#i really need someone to put me to sleep#i really want to be someone for somebody that they enjoy putting effort for#but im incapable of intimacy .....#no matter how much i try ....my efforts feel all in vain. the best i get at is pretending i can be emotionally intimate w someone#but then i just dip.... because it all feels unfamiliar and scary and .... scary#im such a coward i cant look at myself i dont know how to live with myself honestly#im so annoying for myself#my brain feels like mush#no rather my brain feels exactly like the ending parade in satoshi kon's paprika#everything just happening all at once every line blurred#; words generated by me#vent tw#tw vent#suicide ideation
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I’ll never forget how once my ex joked I “live under a rock” and when I asked how he showed me a Snapchat reel of “hot celebrity gossip,” after which he pointed out I don’t keep up with any of it. I really dated that that’s so embarrassing
#If anything I’m trying to get AWAY from that#I don’t dislike keeping up w pop culture but at this point id rather be reading a book watching documentaries learning something new#Idc if it sounds pretentious bc it’s true#I don’t like using the term “low vibrational” bc i don’t have to be spiritual not to consume what’s essentially brain trash#Do I judge people for being too invested NO you do you. But beyond very popular pop culture headline I really would rather be out of the#Loop#id just rather be consuming healthy brain food#And it amazes me how he full chest thought that keeping up w vain stuff like that is him being in the loop. Never again <3
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i like how you can tell the minute sasha takes over answer duties matthew just- i think its safe to say matthew feels secure enough to turn off his brain for a bit and succumb to his inner bird if you will
as you can tell matthew was very much paying attention to whatever was being said and agrees with everything wholeheartedly and absolutely not distracted by showing off his tatas and making sure the girls have some breathing room (i wish i was lying when i said it seems like everyday he becomes more and more a caricature of himself)
the final nod at the end so everyone knows he agrees with sasha...
post practise interview | 6.23.24 (x)
#aleksander barkov#matthew tkachuk#florida panthers#2324#playoffs 24#im sorry its very hard to take any presser with these two involved remotely seriously#sasha trying to take this seriously meanwhile matthew#whos a pretty bird matthew? whos a pretty bird??#“no that was perfect yeah that was good GREAT” said with the cadence of a man who absolutely was not paying attention and has nothing to add#“this is for both of you guys” oh you mean only guy will have to have a though provoking answer while the others goes yeah what he said 👍#sasha this is your wife#shes beautiful if not a little vain#but its hot#yeah i get it
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your honor, I love these fuckheads
#also we look like a boyband#you aaare my fiiiire the one desiiiiireee#shadowheart reminds me of my 16 year old self#such an edgy queen i love her for it#meanwhile astarion trying to pick up the scrambles of his dignity#shadowheart just likes dropping bombs then leaving the room#she just wanted to be sassy but he is just too vain#its ok tho i understand#also i love how chill 3/4 look and then there's burning karlach#yes i too love the irony of making shadowheart wear that dark justiciar armour though she defied shar lol#feat the worst 5 sec photoshop (you cannot call them) skills to get rid of the minimap#baldur’s gate 3#fun#bg3#shadowheart#astarion#astarion bg3#shadowheart bg3#karlach bg3#mystic carrion bg3#baldur's gate 3
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*WOE SELF INDULGENT AU ART CATERED SPECIFICALLY FOR MYSELF BE UPON YE*
#bg3 au#bg3 Astarion#bg3 durge#bg3 oc#Vaine#Astarion#Nebbles Art#literally spent like. the entirety of May trying to sketch and line this shit#got way too frustrated with it and just said fuck it. clean up the sketch and slap some color and details on that bitch#i thinkg the image in my head was waaaay more complex than what i wanted on the canvas#so. yknow. fuck it. do it shitty if you have too lmao#ik ots probably not all THAT shitty but. perfectionist. so. yeah lol#have my extremely self indulgent mermaid au <3
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just thinkin' about what if Red had come home in Episode 5 after nobody answered the phone because he knew something was big time wrong
and also what if he was still too late
(I like to think Duck would've appreciated the gesture anyway, y'know if he was conscious.)
Alternate version under the cut:
#dhmis#don't hug me i'm scared#tw gore#tw blood#my art#fluffybird#i mean. it's not NOT that.#it's romantic to have your friend try in vain to rescue you when your orGäns are spilling out everywhere <3
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man the thing about beauty standards and being ugly and being pretty and being insecure is that ultimately you do just kinda have to Decide that youre pretty. like ultimately thats how you become pretty, or hot, or sexy. you have to just Decide that you Are. you have to recognize that its made up, its arbitrary, its subjective, and that people might disagree with you about it, and as much as you are able, you need to completely and utterly disregard their opinions on your appearance, and decide that youre pretty now. and THEN.
you need to find beauty in "ugly". you need to recognize that ugly is made up, that its arbitrary, that its subjective, and you need to be able to find the beauty in it all. and this means you cant bodyshame people. you cant body shame shitty celebs or politicians. you need to base your criticisms on the substance of their character and misdeeds and unhinged horrific opinions and not give a shit about what they look like. you cant go calling people ugly for being shitty. you cant go calling people ugly for looking A Way You Dont Like.
and then if you wanna really galaxy brain this shit you start using ugly as endearment. OBVIOUSLY do not fucking call other human beings ugly. that shit is far too loaded, its just Rude. Dont call specific features of people or even characters ugly cos thats also too loaded. as a term it has baggage. but you can see the ugly in tacky, loud, garish clothing, and it can be Good. you can see the ugly in a distinctive, horrible tiny car from the 90s, and it can be good. you can see the ugly in animals that have evolved to look the way they do, without a single thought of what humans find appealing. you can see the beauty and the freedom in "Ugliness". you can break out of this shit altogether and feel nothing but disdain for anyone who stoops to insulting your appearance if they disagree with you about shit. you can get completely out of the cave of these beauty standards. you can find it so freeing to revel.in letting yourself be ugly. in recognizing that the way you look and exist might be ugly to some people, and youre out of the cave enough to simply recognize. thats just your opinion and it doesnt matter. didnt ask.
you can look at ppl arguing about the correct amount of skincare products to use daily, the Correct Amount of makeup, and whether or not its radical to conform to beauty standards or defy them and argue about is it really conforming if visible makeup pisses men off, and you can say, well I dont care about any of that, I recognize the societal pressures of flawless skin and all that but you see,
I just want to look like a silly little clown :o3
#toy txt post#i wasnt gonna end this on that silly note. but then i had to#ugly#pretty#beauty standards#not saying its easy. not saying you have to do this#but like if youre tired of feeling insecure about your face your fashion. you gotta just figure out what you like and lean in#and you gotra recognize this shit is made up and subjective and arbitrary and you shouldnt be doing it for anyone else ever#i used to be insecure about a few features of mine that i feared made me Ugly. and then i Decided to try to find it pretty.#it sounds so stupid and made up but like literally i just. Decided. im pretty now. this is pretty. this shit is made up. why am i listening#to you. you dont know shit. im pretty now. AND THEN i decided. actually. im ugly on purpose now but not in a way that has much to do with#my actual appearance so much as my complete disregard for your opinion on my appearance. you gotta do it for you. you gotta dress for#yourself#ANYWAY#before anyone comes in with how beauty standards are often externally enforced via peer and social pressure:#yea bud im a human being on planet earth. im aware. thats why i said: as much as you are able. i recognize i have a number of privileges in#this regard that not everyone does. the way im given more space and freedom to dress like a little freak as a thin white person etc#but like i still had and have societal pressure to shave my legs and underarms to conform. theres societal and peer pressure to wear makeup#and i just. dont. the legs thing is less noticeable tho ill admit cos i also Hate Shorts but thats a whole complicated can of worms#which also involves i am not exposing myself to ticks like that are u insane#anyway. yea. the other magical thing about this philosophy of mine is that you also just dont have to. like you can just Ignore Me.#you can keep doing what youre doing and thats fine too#but genuinely if you struggle with insecurity about appearance you gotta just. this is the fake it til u make it shit#i decided im pretty now and it got easier to take selfies bc i was pretty then#doing art and exploring different faces for ocs and making them look different from the conventional beauty standards. also helped#and like dont get me wrong theres still shit im vain about appearance wise that doesnt matter. i still like to style my hair before i leave#the house etc. im still looking in the cave sometimes#but perhaps one day i will be as blissfully uncaring about ppls perception of me as a fuckin goby#anyway. anyway anyway anyway#if you do this things get so much easier. but you dont have to. i have no power over you
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best part about season 3 were the flashbacks to season 1<3
#sorryyyy but uhm. i do not get it#sweet home#spoilers#heli liveblogs#rip s1 you will always be famous to me#i do not understand what s2 + s3 were trying to tell#and the one thing i came back for (eunyu hyunsu and eunhyeok)#were so underused#the sibling reunion was underwhelming and then they did nothing with it#eunhyeok didnt even get an arc#eunyu was completely sidelined at the end#sangwook at least got his justice by taking back his agency#but then idk how to feel about the fire thing when the fire was what took away his family when he was a kid....#yikyung was just a womb after all i guess. and she died in vain bc she couldnt even save her daughter#the relationship between the daughter and hyunsu from s2 was nonexistent#and jisu should've survived i'll die on this hill#and ui myeong died and suddenly everything went uphill??#he was a villain yes but he did not have that big an impact#maybe there's sth im not getting tho idk#the only good thing fr was sangwook taking back his strength#via memories of jaeheon and yuri and hyunsu
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Honestly, thank you for calling Messmer a fascist I feel like so much of the fandom just ignore the way he is written for the sake of a more simplified and commodified character they can lust over. Not only is it weird to completely deny such an important part of his character that affects the wider narrative (not even getting into real world implications) it just makes him more boring! This is a Fromsoft game where very few characters are ever even close to morally pure. And yes, Messmer isn’t as pure evil as he was presented in the trailers, that doesn’t mean he’s a good person. A lot of people take away the main twist of the storyline as “the Hornsent were the bad guys the whole time and Messmer was completely in the right” when that’s just not the case. Sorry for ranting in your ask box I just thought you might like to hear out my case lol x)
First not going to lie, frien, I start to have some personal concern because of the messages like this. 😔 I am getting the type of messages like "thank you for doing this Elden Ring thing when everyone else does that Elden Ring thing" + followed by jab at the fandom for not paying enough attention or variants! There was "thank you for actually having positive reading of Nanaya when people portray her as agent of chaos", then "thank you for writing Rellana with her own ideology when people portray her as just Golden Order simp", then "thank you for writing Messmer and Marika as fucked up when people make them wholesome mother-son bond"... now this too
I want to say that I do not blame you, or anyone who sent previous messages I mentioned! And I am glad that you find enjoyment and understanding in how I analyse and write Elden Ring things! Like, yes, I am happy that it resonated with you when by your own admission, it is not something you see often! ...that being said, I really do not fit to be the "face of opposition" if you can even call it that! xD I am very meticulous in my analysis (against my will, autism is just like this) and try to not have any bias but instead fixate on what the writer really wants to say, but I should be more critical with compliments that I accept! Don't want to get my ego bloated with comparisons fshhddhsf I accept the compliments for my posts! Just not the '...unlike the rest of the fandom' part if this can be helped!
^^^ On the subject, Messmer said this phrase even in the first, gameplay trailer, and it already made me raise my eyebrow! Saying that "impure" creatures do not deserve to live is really wild, however, it didn't look to be Miyazaki's average jab at religious crusades... yet xD
^^^ Then THIS stuff in the second trailer. Basically, I was already labelling him fascist before the DLC dropped 🙄
I was actually really... delighted to find out that Fromsoft touched such a huge topic? Even though it is called 'Crusade', Miyazaki's jab at religion leaned more towards Inquisitors of Hornsent! Messmer lived up to my expectations from his character and MORE! He is not even wiser than burning all traces of history and culture, had it not been for his Knights beings better than this! Honestly, Fromsoft raising the topics of fashism and genocide is one of their biggest Ws so far, and something I will always love SOTE for!
Above all I agree that even if you ditch everything about 'subtext', 'media literacy' and 'obvious implications', the story about "justified genocide" doesn't really offer anything interesting narratively! Making a whole nation/race/whatever 'inherently evil' and their genocide as heroic act....? It doesn't offer anything: no meaning, no fuel for self-reflection as society, no awareness of real world parallels, no philosophical debate about horrors of revenge cycle...
Doesn't offer anything interesting, except for.... yeah, making Messmer more approachable to simp for. Well, everyone knows what I think of such characters:
Debate about media literacy and subtexts in Elden Ring is very tricky, and I've learned the hard way when Mohg beaten the allegations! (my confidence was shattered that day fhddhsf) It is hard to draw the line where 'obvious implication' ends and 'but they did not DIRECTLY say it...' starts! So yeah, when logic and reading deep ends, I think feelings can help. Messmer is a horrible, horrible person, and genocide is the worst thing humanity can fall into. Is making one character (maybe two, as Marika is connected) more "likeable" worth larger story with meaning, rising such significant topics? I don't think so!
As for Hornsent........ sighhhh...
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#elden ring#messmer the impaler#ask replies#sorry for struggling with the words I am just yet to find the way to disagree with part of the compliment#you can tell it is not something you did wrong but a reoccurring thing of me receiving this 'type' of compliments!#and I know I am very easily bribed with praise#I try to be careful because if I am consistently compared with others as someone with better reading I'll become vain lol#which would be double pathetic as I am a nobody with no following talents or achievements XD
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really starting to believe that psychic who claimed i’m cursed
#like absolutely NOTHING goes right in my life#i have no friends no social life no partner have never been in a relationship even though i’m almost 30#i still live at home my job has horrible working hours and makes me absolutely miserable#like i can’t name you a single thing that goes right in my life i’m so far behind everyone#i wasted so many years studying and i’ve got nothing to show for it i’m a pathetic excuse of a human#i really wish i could give my life to someone who deserves it way more than me someone who really wants to live#the psychic claimed that my ex best friend’s mother cursed me#and i do find it somewhat silly to blame everything that goes wrong in my life on someone else or outer forces#but our friendship ended VERY poorly and her mother absolutely hated me by the end of it#so it honesty doesn’t seem too far fetched#bc ever since we went our separate ways which i never regretted btw i’ve just been struggling to survive#like if i’m honest i’m intelligent i’m capable i’m pretty i’m kind i’m funny but my whole life is a struggle#i know that my depression anxiety and overall low self esteem closes a lot of doors for me#but it’s just insane how unlucky i am like it can’t be a coincidence anymore#it’s just so heartbreaking when all your efforts are in vain like i try sooooo hard but it’s never enough#the psychic claimed the mother put a curse on me that basically blocks all roads for me#and like i said i haven’t had success or happiness in both my personal and professional life#it feels like every time i take step forward i take 3 back#good things never stay for long and bad things are so excruciatingly bad it’s unbearable#i’m just exhausted with everything… life shouldn’t be so fucking difficult wether it’s a curse or not#i know i also have many things to be thankful for but it seems like all the important milestones are eluding me#☁️
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People compare Fenris to Astarion and. Okay white hair and freedom arcs aside I strongly disagree. Fenris is only annoying with me when I help mages, on account of his pain and suffering being caused by a mage. Astarion is pissed at me if I help kids on account that I should not help the weak :) they are not the same.
#astarion would not nearly annoy me as much if he didnt also expect me to help him#like my dude! youre an ass the only reason I help you is that im trying to help everyone who isnt outright trying to kill me!#like logically if I acted the way he wanted#aka not helping the weak#i would not fucking help him either#anyway he is growing on me and Im enjoying his backstory i just#wish I could bully him and still be nice to him at the same time#like get in loser we're gonna kill cazador but also i should get to make fun of him for being a vain douche#like those things can coexist#anyway#i dont like the comparison i think its a disservice to both their characters#byeeeee#dragon age#baldur's gate 3
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monachan haul has arrived ✨safely✨
#ft. the gigo collab merch that i had proxied s o b s#‘how many albums did you buy m y g o s h’ j-just these 3…#thanks delivery guys for not notifying me when haul pt 2 was delivered lmao now my mother’s mad at me for not showing her what i got :(#‘just show her man’ d u d e she’ll lecture me about wasting my money— wait nvm i’ll show her my lls gk dvd that came in maybe that’ll help#im gatekeeping monachan from my fam idc if we’re related y’all c a n ’ t have her#b u t on another note the mona album standee looks really cute beside the new sena natsukomi standee#mona looks taller than sena in it but they just. look really cute next to each other aaaaa#though. yk. speaking of the gigo merch and stuff… man. i think i went to that arcade last year lmao#i didnt go up to the floor with the food and stuff since i was only there to play crane games and i was too lazy to climb the stairs#but seeing posts about the collab reminds me of the 1000 yen i spent trying to get ena pjsk nui in the mzen crane machine#i had. like. 4000 yen at the time and around 1/4 of it went to that machine… never forgive never forget#‘why didnt you withdraw more money then’ w e l l the debit card was with my bro and i broke off from the family to explore by myself s o—#and that was how i spent my birthday last year. on the 4th or 5th (cant rem) floor of gigo trying in vain to get enananui#that doesnt have anything to do with monachan but i needed to cry about it somewhere ig lmfao#m a n. what am i even doing with my life lmao#o k that’s enough of being annoying for one night see y’all for daily nagisa in a few hours byeeeeeeee
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hey beloved mutual have you picked a fallen london ambition yet. if so which one is it. asking both out of curiosity and out of curiosity
OH!! I'm SO glad you asked bc I finally started the Heart's Desire ambition for Vaine :]
not very far along in it by any means- but I think he is going to have SO much fun with this ambition I feel like a desperate scramble to investigate and participate in the mysterious (and kinda sketchy) card game is just what he needs
though I think he is pretty annoyed at the moment, he is. not having a fun time trying to get all 77 of those first city coins. he is running out of criminal favors and does NOT like that fucking monkey
#nebbles talks#fallen london#the monkey makes him significantly nervous but he is tolerating it. for now#he also HATES how long this is taking but thats fine he needs to learn some patience anyways#im having a blast on the other hand. still trying to figure out how and/or where to get a lotta these items/favors#but i am having such a fun time with it :]#i feel like the epitome of the fl experience is if ur Silly Victorian Guy isnt having a good time then YOU absolutely are#like. we are putting this guy into SO many situations#but yeah! Hearts Desire looks like a lotta fun#and i think itll work very well for Vaine rp wise too#not that he can actually remember exactly WHAT he desires at the moment#but. the yearning. its there for suresies#and he'll do just about anything to fill that great big yearning void in his chest
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