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i think maybe something people tend not to want to talk about is like... social media and how tiring it is specifically when it comes to world events
think of why you use social media. to connect to others? to see art? to talk fandom? to post about your day? maybe vent a little?
do you open it when youre bored? do you open it when you have free time because you like seeing whats there? are your friends on there?
i cant imagine we all signed up for social media with the intent of being confronted with atrocity after atrocity hour by hour day by day. i know i didnt.
not that we shouldnt talk about these things, but... fuck, dude.
i dont want to be honest about it because i know people could get mad, but its kinda made me wanna avoid this stuff altogether. i open tumblr to see fanart and headcanons and memes, i open it when i wake up and before i sleep, i open it when im eating...
i dont open it with the intent of hearing about how the world is falling apart this time
its just making my brain feel like fucking mush. this cant be healthy. i mean, social media generally isnt considered the healthiest, but the endless stream of horrors thats become near inescapable...
again, this isnt me saying to stop talking about this stuff, its important that we do, i guess im just venting in a way, wishing things could be different
at the very least i wish people would properly tag things instead of posting horrible things without tags
#my post#'just blacklist the stuff you dont wanna see!' trust me i try#tumblrs blacklist system isnt the worst but its for sure flawed#and again. the amount of times people have posted horrible things completely without tags#blocking them doesnt feel like enough. it gets on my nerves#i was so dedicated to stuff when i was younger. you know how teens are when it comes to activism#they put their whole heart into it because theyre learning about the world and they think it should be better#and theyre right to! i dont blame them. i was them!#but i burned out and its been years and i still havent unburned out entirely#i think the constant stream of unavoidable talk isnt letting me come back from that burnout#like i keep trying to take a deep breath and catching smoke from someones cigarette#and the way people make you feel guilty for the way you do activism really doesnt help#it feels like the only way to make a change is to go to the streets or donate money or something and i cant do either#and the fact i cant do either is a crime to some people and like. theyre the ones in the wrong but it still gets to me#all i can do is reblog shit and try to correct the people in my own life and that feels so... fucking useless#and i dont want to turn my blog into a serious topics blog either. this is meant to be fun for me#this is one of the few ways i connect to the world#its such a big topic and one that people are obviously opinionated about. im always so scared to talk about it because of that#because people think that not dedicating yourself to it means youre actively letting it happen#as if i want people to be dying or suffering horribly#theres so many people who are working against this stuff and they can do so much more than me#i cant drive i dont have money i cant even talk to people without being on the verge of a panic attack at this point#im so tired.#i wanted to make some kind of point with this post but it ended up being a mess. whatever#my point is uhhh properly tag your posts and stop guilt tripping the people that youre trying to get to help you <3#what a fitting time to click on the song 'welcome to the internet' lol
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Still very wild to me when people try to gotcha Jason with the whole "if you can kill other people for being evil why can't they kill you" when jason is like. One of the most passively suicidal characters I've ever seen. What if man
#augh i dont want to cw this because im just talking about The Character and i feel bad when i do it for characters but i probably should#suicide mention#ask to tag#while im here i do absolutely believe hes been suicidal since jaybin times. maybe even before just in different ways. but like#going into that building with shelia? yeah#now. i DONT think he was aware of it and if youd ask him hed say no fully believing thats the truth#but like if a ghost jaybin had some introspection time i think he'd maybe eventually be like yeah#his outcomes to him were have a loving parent or die and hes a very big fan of ultimatums like that.#but he doesn't fully see it like that as jaybin because oh hes a hero and saving others when no one else can is what heros do :)#ramble. ivee been feeling it lately yknow how it is#ive once saw a post saying jason was planning to die after the joker was dead in utrh and yeagh i can see that#he puts A BOMB in his HELMET#suicidal characters in the context of hero stories are so fascinating to me. the self sacrifice.#the not caring about your own safety as long as you save someone else. the pushing yourself#the way itd be so easy to make it look like they just fell in battle. to be considered a hero in the end#anyway ive been glancing at suicidal jason todd fics. how bad is it that im still getting mad about characterization#because theyre not killing him right#AND ANOTHER THING. since im here and i try to avoid making posts about The Character like this so might as welk get it all out#think about suicidal jaybin as well as the fact 80s bruce very much considered suicidal people/people attempting like#weak and lazy? yells at them? i think thats about it. Very Much. je seems to straight up just hate them#again very much feel free to ask me to tag this one ^-^'#and i hope no one thinks im being callous here im very worried about that. i just its a very important part of his character to think about#and its fun to explore as someone who is passively suicidal myself#jason todd analysis#anyway no one look at me i am in my corner just rotating him#WAIT to clarify i dont think jaybin fully realized Just becauceof the heros sacrifice thing. i made it sound like that i believe#anyway. if you read him as suicidal since jaybin times and go to ditf with that lens like i did. well. the post death victim blaming..
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The thing where a korean fan will say something stupid and then international fans will jump on it viciously and immediately just be saying the most transparently xenophobic shit never fails to shock me, and I've seen it a lot of times now so it probably shouldn't shock me, and yet!
#its the way they immediately go to ALL KSTAY every single one of them#and im just like ?????????????????? so one girl making a questionable post now represents every single korean fan? seems fair#also theyre always like YOU PEOPLE which again. Think about how youre phrasing things jesus christ#but then theyll be like How dare you not obsessively stream them to keep them on melon for longer WE keep them on billboard blah blah#and im like. thats what youre taking issue with? not the airport mobbings or trucks demanding weird shit or whatever else- you choose /that/#lmao#also again. i have seen terrible behaviour from all corners of the planet so how is it fair to throw them under the bus but not the others#some american woman was lying and p much riling up a harrassment campaign last week but i dont see any All American Stay Are EVIL so.#also the only other time ive seen this is with Jstay and Cstay so lol Kinda interesting that... perhaps a pattern#like be for real a lot of international fans are jealous of the fanmeets fansigns and popup stores japan and korea get#but thats the company? like you cant blame the fans in korea or japan for getting these events? they are a korean group?#sure some korean fans can be zenophobic right back or entitled but you cant paint everyone with the same brush#very weird behaviour#also like other korean fans were jumping her so seeing all the Every kstay replies was crazy#girl theres kstays in here insulting her in ways youd never understand be quiet
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mental health so bad im fighting real demons not to start mentally ill posting like i did in 2021 so far they are winning
#that era was so terrible but i desperately needed support and attention sighs#or just maybe a place to vent#sighs idk how to describe it#everything is so horrible for me chat#i genuinely have nobody to turn to for anything because i am noones first choice#i dont have a best friend and i dont have people in my life who care about me anymore#what the fuck are my online friends gunna do?? they live across the country#atleast i can see them in august#but i have fucking no one#its so horrible and its my oen fault for personality mirroring that stupid evil twink#i dont go to school anymore so i never leave the house and i dont have people i can talk to because of everything thats happened#i dont have a chance socially#im so lonely#i hate it so much. i hate feeling alone and i hate feeling like everyone hates me#the one person i felt i could be open with doesnt text me past needing something from me and whenever i message them they dont reply back#i dont blame them. im not mad im just tired of feeling like a tool#i cant stand to feel used#idk if its cause of my trauma or what?? idk#but i just feel so horrible all the time#HASHTAG SUFFERING!!!!!#i yearn to be loved in any shape or form but ive been such a horrible person that i feel like im unlovable and unredeemable#im glad im not a bad person anymore but im also tired of people acting like a 14 y/o cant get better. im not irredeemable.#im a teenager#its a huge time of change and character development#you have to make mistakes and be in the wrong to get better#im tired of the people around me pretending theyre absolutely perfect. im not morally dubious im just human#and im tired of everyone i surrounded myself with acting like theyre above me for that#i just need someone to tell me if im right or wrong because i cant fucking tell anymore. i think and i think and i think but i dont know#idk guys#eddie yaps
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eughhh i feel dumb
#one of my best friends is coming over and ive been ghosting them (like pretty much everyone) for a couple months#and i think im reading into it too much but it seems like shes upset with me? idkk but i don't wanna ask bc if she IS mad at me that means#we have to talk about it and im Not in the right state for that atm#she has every right to be upset just like everyone else but i really dont want her to be#both bc i love her and them and i don't want to hurt them and bc i honestly don't wanna have to answer for it#'yeah every time smth even remotely resembling obligation comes up my skin feels like it's gonna peel away from its body and scuttle away'#like. i should not be terrified of it but it's like my tendons are splitting and i can't close my fist around anything#it all just slips through my fingers. but i still feel like it's my fault#selfishly i just wish they wouldn't ever bring it up. me taking forever to respond and stuff#i don't really like being teased about it but i can't just hurt them and then ask them not to bring it up yk#even if i don't super feel in control of the whole responding and socializing and functioning thing#i am. really really burnt out i think#but i don't wanna make my friends feel guilty for wanting to be around me bc 1) thats normal 2) thats an honor 3) theyre not doing anything#wrong by like. texting me. it's not their fault it feels so bad#especially since im not telling them bc that is itself an obligation#every reminder of something i have to do has felt physically painful more and more#everything from doing dishes to answering texts to cleaning my room to reading a book my dad likes#every day there's a dozen reminders of how im letting the people i love down and it looks to them like i just don't care enough#and in reality my friends are and have always been understanding. i know that. im just getting really in my head about it rn#it's been building a lot this past year. i thought i was getting better but im just.. really stuck rn#ughh i wish i could cancel. and i hate that bc i miss her and i know she's gotta miss me too but we have to talk about the foster turtle#so i cant back out now. aughhhh it's so dumb i feel so helpless and useless every time i think about anything but what's right in front of#me. ive been running from everything much more consciously lately and it's fucking embarrassing and stupid and basically im just feeling.#really really lame. shitty ass body and shitty ass brain and i don't think anyone really believes me when i blame them and not me#i just have to trust in the goodness of my friends more than the badness of myself for hurting them. two titans clashing#ughh anyway. whatever#i wanna talk to one person in particular bc they don't really make me feel that obligation as much but then im like if i respond to them i#have to respond to everyone else. it's dumb. ugh if you read this acm im thinking of you sorry my brain is being difficult <3
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they should make a life that is easy
#brauughhh i want to throw up.#i hate it when i cant do things i know would make me feel better bc 'other people' exist.#couple of days ago the horrors were talking iykyk. and i knew it was bc it was 2.30 pm and i hadnt had lunch (12pm usually)#but bc im with my family we went to a fucking museum or something and. it wasnt fun.#i know the solution right now. the solution for me atm is to not rot in bed.#but i will NOT be walking around a place i dont know without any data or clue what tf im doing.#if i was alone i could. but theyre out there and if i want to go outside i need to find them.#which wouldnt be THAT big of a problem. IF MY FUCKING DAD COULD SAY WHERE THEY AREE RN.#i get it. im blaming other people. i am glad im here. its awesome im here and ive already done so much cool stuff.#i just.#i dont want to rot in bed right now. it will not help. but i cant do anything else.#sillyposting
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i Need to draw more clemviminnie shit but how am i supposed to do that when minnie only exists alongside them for 2 episodes then dies
#its why i alive her for some post s4 stuff just so i have more to work with 😔#but i dont Love doing that....she sealed her fate..she was lost in the sauce...#but theres so much there..............#the way minnie was concerned for vi while betrayed!vi and clem were fighting in the cell she def still had feelings...#they still wouldve been dating if she was never taken like......#ITS SO MESSY I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#like while i Do think there was some tension in their relationship somewhere bc that line in the woods didnt come from nowhere#no matter how changed she was by the delta that sentiment had to come from somewhere. maybe she could just never say it#but idk if they wouldve broken up over it and there was no reason for violets feelings to change either. she just grieved her 'death'#vi says the real minnie is gone and that she'll do what she has to to keep everyone else safe but like....#theres no way shes not still conflicted on some level like you can see it on the boat she cant leave her. esp since she kinda blames hersel#minnie being clems dark reflection but clem is minnies reflection just as much (obvs) the tension is palpable between them#clem being the part of herself that she killed when she killed sophie...the symbolism of killing your own twin...#and how much does clem remind her of sophie too like whos clem Really mirroring here#THERES SO MUCH MEAT THAT IM CHEWING ON THIS IS A GRAND MEAL#and i cant fucking do anything about it 😭 seriously how do i work within these constraints#there isnt even a 2 week jump like there is in ep2 theres no unaccounted for time in eps 3 and 4 ITS KILLING ME#i bet in a betrayed!vi route minnie was glad to see her when they made it to the boat. and vi feeling betrayed by clem was a perfect target#totally susceptible. minnie gets in her head that its safer to give in instead of fighting back... and now theyre together again...#vi betrayed by clem falling right back into minnies arms OOF girl get away she is Fucked Up..theyre both fucked up 😭 clem u broke her#betrayed!vis reaction to hearing minnies confession about sophie..girl must have been so emotionally fucked in that cell#mmm toxic yuri mmmmm :)#god clemvi really has it all..............................................#why would i need anything else...when clemvi is here#twdg#it speaks#still cant believe my fave girlie really got it all :)
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guys i made a mistake.
#aka i scrolled through the entire becker siblings tag again on a whim and now im shinjichairpose.png#i dont even have specific thoughts theyre just rotating in my brain now#theres like. very small tidbits that i have stuck in there currently#like their weird thing with control(because i am thinking about that 24/7)#cyrus who needs control vs fawn who defers to it vs river who hates it#how they did that i dont know but im going to take a wild guess and say that its Very unhealthy#and also their relationship to both ortegas#i guess thats only tangentially related to the becker siblings but also like. the ortegas talking about the siblings together#getting drunk and grieving together and trading stories and blaming eachother for letting them die#getting out of their posthb messes because they dont have any (becker) siblings to depend on anymore so theyll have to settle for eachother#also in the survivor!river au im specifically haunted by the fact that river 'does not include ricardo in the package' when julia-#becomes his sibling#the resentment from All sides there??? holy shit#thats gotta blow up eventually right#like i can see ricardo feeling extremely guilty about river but at the same time???? him getting Angry#that river has the Audacity to steal his sister and not even treat him any better for it#so what if he lost his siblings? doesnt mean he has the right to have ricardos#Really funny fucked up reflection of fawns beef with julia but this time its the other way around#.anyway. <-experiencing normal thoughts and emotions#cyrus becker(s)#nmoc: fawn becker(s)#nmoc: river becker(s)#keeping up with the beckers#pulp speaks
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am finally back home and can say without a doubt that i am just fundamentally not built for long distance travel however the train was much nicer than planes
#that being said. pressurized cabins drive me insane a little bit#and also it gives you pretty intense sea legs for a While#like. the ones from the first trip hadnt gone away by the return one. so. might be stuck with that for a few days#we shall see#also ajr live fucks severely#the albums were already incredible but that was a goddamn religious experience#like. idk the way i think abt it is theyre more djs than a regular band esp w their performance showing the making of way less sad#like their music is very electronic‚ theyre making mixes of their own sound effects more than singing in one go#so like. the vocals were a teeensy bit rough at times#notably times it has taken me Literally Hundreds Of Hours Practice to be able to consistently sing along with#and times ive found its literally physically impossible to like. no matter what#idc how big your lungs are‚ there is no human on earth who can do that final run of karma in one breath#much less to An Entire Stadium After An Hour Of Jumping And Dancing And Singing Loud As Fuck#so like i dont blame them for that‚ you dont go to live shows expecting it to be 100% perfect anyways jwbdjsbfksb#the trumpet however. well she was certainly playing sometimes. and was very enthusiastic about her flares.#however. in most of their songs they use midi trumpets to my ear at least#meaning she was likely an addition specifically for live performances and in my personal band kid opinion#prooobably was not in any of the like. higher tier bands? idk just. a lot of the mistakes she was making were hitting as stuff that got#taught out of us the instant we joined any band beyond regular concert#so i would guess she was probably just like. a friend who happened to play trumpet in high school or maybe even just middle school#and they knew that the trumpet parts in their pieces were big and distinct enough that like they /had/ to get a live player#and just kinda. didnt anticipate the audition -> performance gap#like. her tone was really fried the whole time like she was playing as hard as possible#which. she was mic'd. have the sound guy turn her up.#the way they did it made it sound like she was using a mute but not. like she only got the bad parts of a mute from it yknow#her tempo and timing were. bad. theres no nice way to put that one it just Was Bad‚ like the trumpet runs in ajr songs arent. complicated#like. quite literally if you handed me the sheet music right now i would have it down perfect in a week at absolute most#and better than that player on sightread. like. we did so many sightreading drills.#like ill share my band kid creds if anyone cares but i need to emphasize this isnt me being braggy like. they genuinely just arent hard#fuck im out of tags. w/e i think only like one of yall also listens to them anyways so i can leave it there
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I would just like to thank you because your post on the subject of proshipping was what allowed me to firmly take a stance against proshitters. My blog is non confrontational and I don’t want to argue with people so I unfortunately had to remove the tags and block replies on my post when people started replying to argue with me but still it was your post which gave me the confidence to make this post in the first place and for that I thank you.
Although I've been particularly avoidant to any sort of discourse lately, I am glad I could have helped you (or anyone in general) have confidence to express themselves and try to speak out on issues that constantly infect fandoms and make unsafe spaces for basically anyone. Sorry that your post got dogpiled by a bunch of chronically online people LOL! Trust me, those people got literally no argument that they werent CONVINCED into believing LMAO.
#ask#I've been less actively bitchy about it but my stance has stayed the same#adults into that should not be allowed in the internet and they are backhandedly gr**ming children into embracing that creepy shit#and then children (who i dont blame for being into that stuff its not usually their own fault) desensitize themselves and actively LOOK -#-for creepy pe/do//ince//sty ships to ship because children just have a natural desire to “fit in” -#-which some children find that in following a contrarian crowd#so when they see art they like and dont yet understand the issues with it and then see the artist getting flack for it they jump to-#prxshitty defense and then that just causes them to grow up embracing that shit bec they think it makes them cool or unique or something!!!#and then that causes a spread bec then obviously impressionable minors attract other impressionable minors T_T#trauma response I dont doubt is true to some degree and i pity those for that but 1. keep that shit private im sorry but venting doesnt-#-excuse romanticising that shit and basically CONVINCING other impressionable children that its fine when you must KNOW its not okay if you#-KNOW its based on trauma and thats all you have to validate it#and 2. like thats unhealthy on its own right...... but like ok.....#((though i dont promote harrassing kids or telling them to hurt themselves like that doesnt rlly do much esp if theyre already traumatized)#I believe young people like that should try to strive to at least keep that stuff private esspecially if theyre an adult because idk how-#-adults DONT see the gr**my aspect behind it (bec from what ik most adults dont care about being surrounded by minors T_T)
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#im done spiralling at least for right now#i double dosed on ambien bc tbh i probably need that good sleep#i have a beluga plushie i got from mystic. ive named him steve#i also have a jellyfish plushie i named peanut butter bc i think im hilarious#theyre both here. theyll help me with sleep#im so sorry for the past few days#ive been just.#this breakdown has been coming for a long long time#the summer is cruel. i want it to be fall#i can blame some of this on my period i guess#but deep down im just a broken person who takes things way harder than they should#so when bad things happen i dont always handle them well#july was cruel to me. i buried family and friendships.#im started to want to be buried too.#and that doesnt scare me like it should.#but it doesnt matter. bc ill eventually feel better. bc im supposed to be fully recovered and have dbt skills.
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Apparently I timed my quitting perfectly
#work tag#the new manager is absolutely awful and since hes taken over nothings been done properly#the managers that are left are sick of everything they barely do anything on shift the slackers are worse than ever#the newbies dont take anything seriously or have any common sense whatsoever so its just completely downhill#we had an EHO visit last week on the boss' close had lost a star on our rating as a result so the area manager came in a couple days later#he bollocked our boss for the way hes been acting but then he went right back to being a prick#so apparently after i left last night the district manager visited and they had to shut the store early for cleaning#but this was after my manager told me that the boss has been blaming everyone for the state of things but#when they offered to close the store and do a deep clean he refused because of money#the district manager was not happy he pulled both managers aside and now theyre gonna have to close the store for a deep clean#but they might also have to shut down temporarily to get everything sorted but the thing is since this new guy took over only about#half of the closing cleaning tasks have been being done because close is usually made up of the slackers and they just dont wanna do#anything properly its been an ongoing issue for months now and now its catching up with them cus theyve got in the habit of not doing it#one of my managers has kept saying he doesnt think the store will last until Christmas but everyone else is sure were gonna be shut#well before that point like its gotten the bad its part of why i quit#anyway i just got the rundown from my coworker who was on close when this all went down last night
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i think im just gonna delete their reply and maybe block them dhdkdl it is entirely possible (and likely) they just have no idea this guy's incredibly racist because UNFORTUNATELY white ppl have taken this spirit from Algonquian culture and twisted it and now everyone only knows of it as a """cryptid""" unless they're like... active in indigenous spaces or spaces where ppl actively care about racism fhdkdl, but I just don't really feel like trying to carefully word things to educate a random 19 yr old this morning bc i have a headache and now my nervous system is all fucked up fjfkldl
#im not ... angry w them. potentially i am upset w them but more likely im just upset in general at the situation#i dont want to be angry at someone who simply just doesnt know#ignorance isnt always malicious fhfkdl often it is just ... not being aware bc u haven't been in the right spaces to become aware.#which is a whole other issue but moreso an issue w society rather than on an individual level. maybe. idk#my head hurts and i feel very nauseous but bottom line im not blaming this random basically-still-a-teenager for their blunder here#mostly im just worried now that ppl are gonna think from my last post that im like ''oh this stranger is an awful person''#nah man. theyre freshly out of highschool i assume and probably have no fucking clue abt the racism of this white man of the month#this is... unfortunately just the way things go#i think sometimes im too patient and kind to ppl but fjdkdl I'd much rather be that than the opposite#anyways im gonna skedaddle outta here before i stick my foot in my mouth any more than i potentially already have djdkdl#this was just an unpleasant thing to open up tumblr to fjfkdl big ol sigh but alas and alack we must move on from it#vent //
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Why do I say things like this. Like what was the need. Why do I feel the need to jinx myself. What was the reason.
#lol just looking thru my drawings and i saw that tag#and im like YOU! ITS YOUR FAULT IM BURNT OUT! I BLAME YOU(catie from that specific day)#anyways trying to draw nando and ITS NOT GOING WELL YKNOW#i still really struggle with drawing real people#seb is okay bcs ive drawn him the most and like have stared at his face for hours so...familiar...yeah...#and i do in fact look at a fuckton of nando pics BUT GOD HIS FACE IS SO DIFFICULT#he just has very like odd features i guess. AND HES VERY HANDSOME FOR IT but god they do not lend to easy drawing#i miss oc drawing where theres no accuracy really required since its all from my head#not that im never drawing ocs again. theyre still my beloved but i dont rly have any ideas atm for them :<#wanna draw rüß as an f1 driver tbh bcs ive been maladaptive daydreaming about that for the past few weeks#but as you know im somewhat allergic to drawing racesuits 😭#also im wondering if drawing chibis so much fucked up my sense of style bcs now i struggle sometimes w proportions#i just. dont want to be burnt out anymore. i know its something you cant really force yourself thru#and also that you shouldn't force yourself cause it just makes it worse but#idk. i wanna draw so badly 😭 and i do it and sometimes it works out and sometimes im just staring at the screen like. oh.#i want to also finish the pt 2 to the boy king ficlet. i always randomly add a few paragraphs to it#blah blah anyways just thinking. i feel a bit frustrated and unfufilled atm i guess#like that feeling in your chest of tightness. its the worst. i wanna throw something or break something i guess#PLEASE JUST LET ME DRAW MY PORTRAIT OF KING NANDO IM BEGGING#he'll be so pretty okay 😭😭 i just cant get his fucking face right#ignore me ignore me. catie is: going through it#i miss the sense of urgency that drawing before my flight gave me#i like having that sense of incentive and deadline. like: you genuinely need to finish this right now.#if not then its me creating meaningless deadlines in my head that actually make me have worse burn out 🙃#i love how before texas im like i am going to finsih all my wips!! anf then finished exactly: zero#catie.rambling.txt
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in physical agony lads im 2k into another fic plan with six journal articles on historical wound care open in my browser
#malarkling is going to be the death of me i CANT#someone save me#i blame the War Room scene#if i dont put them in Situations Right Now with uncomfortable secxual tension im goin to Explode#also the Amplifier Lore TM is driving me to the brink lIKE what do you MEAN#theyre both mythical power-ups claimable-by-death and somehow this never is a plot point between them??#like they have Amplifier Plot with alina but not each other??#ESPECIALLY when amplifiers are (sorta)canonically alluring to grisha in borderline supernatural ways#the potential for aleksander to have a Very Strange attraction to Mal is RIGHT THERE#aleksander who has always experienced the amplifier-grisha thing from the perspective of the amplifier#experiencing the draw of a Powerful human amplifier from Mal#baghra doesnt count#im LOSING MY MIND#ALSO?? MAL CANONICALLY BEING ABLE TO FIND MOROZOVA AMPLIFERS?? so could this extend to other morozova amplifiers like. oh i dunno#aleksander morozova#sab
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Im watching mitchell vs the machines and its hitting too close to home
#i love katie#even though my father is very supportive of my artistic side#im constantly hiding parts of myself and my hobbies i c#in a way that i cant not fear being judged and isolated if i shared them#im katie if katie had hid all the quirky and weird stuff#also i just lowkey hate the dad im sorry#im not a big part of how they are trying to blame her for wanting to get away#she finally found her people a place she fit in a place she wanted to be#and snap no you are my daughter family blah blah family is more important than your happiness’s#the worst part is that i just KNOW theyre going to be like And see that roadtrip was good anyway and if we hadnt gone#the world would have ended#but what the dad did with the roadtrip wil NEVER be right#and yes i have a long rant about this and it#but i cant really finish it before i have actually watched the entire movie#its not the movies fault its just what the dad did and i know that was never meant to be good#i just dont like how they’re painting katie in relation to that#you know about when it comes to screens#screens are a great thing in sooooo many ways let people have them#bc someone uses a screen does make them the bad person#just bc someones best way to life quality is a screen doesnt make them a bad person#just bc someone wants to get away from their family and parents doesn’t make them a bad person#let her live let her be herself#let her be with her people#ofc you should try mending family bonds and work things out with your family#and spend time with your family#but if you bad does something like that#especially without telling or asking you#i would almost consider that abusive ( ofc that depends a lot on what else he does as well but still)#that gets painted as a way less bad thing than it actually is#bc oh look family quality time
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