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pokimoko · 2 years ago

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I have had it with these motherfucking spam bots on this motherfucking site.

#personal #tumblr stuff #vent post #spam bots #i've been getting like 1000 spam bot followers a day for the last few days and blocking them all is getting--dare i say--TEDIOUS #wake up. block 300 bots. go to work. come home and block 500 more bots. spend evening checking tumblr to block bots. it's becoming a chore #it's starting to feel like I offended the tumblr gods or something. this is ridiculous. but like hell will i let them win #i won't let my follower count be 50% bots. i feel like a deserve a tumblr badge or something for fending off so many bots.#tribble #the trouble with tribbles #a very apt metaphor i think for these bloody spam bots; block one and five more come to take its place #but upside: the spam bots are helping me compile a Rosetta Stone for the word 'Untitled'. woo #also if you just joined tumblr and want to follow me: for the love of god personalise your bloody blog #i don't care if you have a icon or a summary. if your blog and likes are empty i'm blocking you #because i don't trust empty blogs and i really don't have the time to sort out who's real or not right now #(though if the blog's offering free mp3s 'just click the link!' or is advertising US keto gold coast gummies i know for sure it ain't real)#but hey! good news to people who followed me in the last four days who haven't been blocked; you passed the blog captcha test #anyway just had to get this frustration out of my system; gonna go block some more bots now i guess. i'll be very happy when this stops

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savage-rhi · 9 months ago

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MagentaaaHHH

#LET ME TAKE THE SEX CLASS OR THOU PERISH #i finished the core classes i needed so i can take one of my 2 electives #why is it a big deal with me taking an elective in fall when im gonna finish my degree at the same speed and time regardless?#it doesn't throw a wrench into the requirements #they know me well enough that i work my ass off on assignments #AND one of the groups I'm primarily going to serve are LGBTQ #heck im already doing that with coaching #so taking a class in multicultural considerations toward human sexuality is gonna be important AF for me #they might not even offer the course until next summer or ever depends on the cohort request on electives #and I'm burnt out and damn it i need a class to look forward to after my summer break #imma fighting this #expect an apa paper on why you should let me do my thing #and a permisson slip that says “I can do what I want” a la Ron Swanson #magenta #magenta is my vent word #safe word for venting

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ravenekrops · 3 months ago

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so many things to do and so little energy and time and focus to invest in all of them at the same time all the time

#chatter #cons of being a good person(i guess??): everyone wants to be with me all the time #i legit don't have enough time to spend with everybody who wants to interact with me #and i have a very finite amount of attention i can give to people so i can only talk to like one or two people per day #and it's not enough. it's not enough #i need to study i need to work on assignments but i also need to balance it out with socialising and hobbies and things i like #but even things i like are slowly turning into tasks and obligations i have to do to keep me sane through school #and that means i enjoy them less. and that i need more free time to recover from working and socialising #but everything and everyone wants more of me because i can only allow myself to offer so little of me to them #it's hard to be satiated with just tiny drops or a small snack. i know #and i forget about people. i forget about hangouts. i forget about promises. and people are let down. and i don't want that #no i don't want that for anyone. but i can only stretch myself so far #this. isn't really a vent? or at least i don't feel actively stressed about it #i think it's just a wish. a wish to be more #divagando en la niebla

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medicinemane · 10 months ago

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#I get tired of people trying to explain what lens I should view the world through; what way I could think that would make everything better #forgive me but I don't care; I do what I do and I do what I can and you don't see the work I do under the hood #I don't want advice on self validation or whatever; I want... I want someone to hold a mirror up so I can actually see myself #by which I mean I want input on how I'm doing; if it's good enough; if it's worth anything; if anything I make is good #everyone things I'm nice; everyone has always thought I'm nice #but given nice leaves me profoundly isolated I don't think I care #not to mention in my opinion what nice in this instance means is that I'm capable of listening #it's mostly that I have manners rather than some quality about me #I'm well behaved and polite and can listen; and that's perceived as nice or even sweet #and it's not like I'm offended by people seeing me that way; but maybe you can get why... I can't do anything with that information #but if I'm doing enough... if I provide any value to the world... I might have heard that less times in my life than years I've lived #that's where I'm totally blind #people don't tend to offer any input; and also people don't tend to let me know what they're thinking #and I in fact am not a mind reader; I can often accurately infer things; but no of that means a thing till it's confirmed #and... well... hopefully no one reads the stupid shit I say and especially not the tags so this is safe and hidden #but truthfully people just like to hear that stuff they're doing is wanted and matters #and I do not #I don't know... gotta go do more cleaning cause I need to #and I have no idea if... I've got a reason for fighting so hard to clean; but I get very little input so... I expect... well...#and thankfully I don't think they read my tags so I can say this #but I really expect they won't take me up on my offer to come out here and get away from their parents; so there will be no pay off #not that I blame them in the slightest... it's just the only possible pay off for this cleaning would be helping someone I like out #and a scrap of company #but then again... in many ways anyone coming out to live with me is the worst thing they could probably do #sorry... I have a rather bleak outlook on many things surrounding myself purely cause of what I infer from the past #there is never pay off; only more shit I need to get done #I will never be loved; I will never be wanted; I will always just kinda be an afterthought that's occasionally worth venting to #no one will ever be particularly interested in anything I'm interested while I'll chase their interests or at least try to #certainly let them talk about them when they want #...though I take that over my normal total isolation... better to at least be permitted to follow in someone's shadow than have nothing

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bitchapalooza · 5 months ago

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I'm sorry for my posts today, I guess the stress from the entirety of September was piled too high and is collapsing onto my head. I'm just so tired y'all....

#the dentist office in town offers walk ins so i COULD go tomorrow but two peoblems #i cant afford to do a payment plan. after sending rent and bills im left with barely enough for any groceries needed.#i can get maybe 5 things if im lucky #also im scared. im scared to go alone. its too short notice to ask my friend to pick me up and take me. i cant do that to him.#so do i just wait until i can afford the 120$ insurance plan and risk the infection getting worse or spreading #or do i go and risk not beinf able to pay the bill and get into yet another debt #i dont think i even wanna do this for me #all i can rhink about is my niece and how is she supposed to have a good like when im the only one with decent credit #thst could get a house with a yard and her own room #whos gonna be the one to take care mom amd dad if i bite it yknow? because thats my biggest responsibility #taking care of two disabled adults bc one cant works bc hes legally blind and the other cant get approval to work from her heart dr #their ssi could decrease or lower at any point in time as demonstrated multiple times this year alone #so yeah im only doing the right thing and at least TRYING to see a dentist for their benefit and not mine #my benefit is i continue to live with slightly healither teeth? no because id rather let myself deteriorate into nothing #but i dont the choice because i have people depending on me financially and i cant fail because if i fail things worse for them #and if things get worse for them its just another one of my fuck ups #sometimes i wish i just burned in the house fire in 2008 #talkies #vent

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cynicalmusings · 10 months ago

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‘the most crucial skill that a good drinksmith needs is listening… drinksmithing is all about having conversations with your guests’

tea house owner!reader energy for real

#my mind shot straight there when siobhan said this in the hsr event #hey guys #what if i just steal the concept of the event and write a continuation?#the reader does spy on people and accept bribes for jobs blah blah blah #but they also offer free therapy over tea!#(but only if they like the person if course) (everyone else is getting eavesdropped on)#…i started writing this as a joke but hey it could be fun #if i ever write a continuation of that fic i might do something like that #high cloud quintet members coming for therapy after baiheng dies #reader helping couples talk through problems in their relationship calmly #i’m a sucker for characters who are very elusive and sneaky and cold but when it comes to it have a heart of gold #‘yes i will expose your enemy’s business blah blah but hang on let me help this lost child find their parents first’#‘oh you’re not being patient? you think your rivalry is more important than this child? actually you can keep the money and leave thank you #[turning to child] ‘now tell me where you last saw your parents’#and with their connections from the various dealings they’ve had around the xianzhou they’d be really good at dealing with these situations #and with regards to the jing yuan aspect of things i firmly believe he needs somebody with kindness and warmth in them to fall for them #reader can’t all be bribery and dodgy deals #imagining him coming to the shop one day to get some information they’ve gathered or whatever #and they’re like ‘shush not now i’m hearing this girl vent about her shit partner’#or doing something nice #and he falls even harder #sorry i have gone on an absolute tangent here #i don’t know what demon possessed me #maybe i will write a part two who knows #that reader would certainly be a fun one to flesh out #r’s random thoughts

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prismatica-the-strange · 9 months ago

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Nope, I'm still crying

#i wish literally anybody from school remembered me #literally only 2 people i was friends with hace talked to me in the past four years #i had the realization tonight that i was never given the choice to nurture most of my friendships #everytime i tried outside of school hours including trying to join clubs my mom would make me leave halfway through then lecture me #that she didn't have time to drive to town and get me #but as soon as my brother wanted to join junior air force she suddenly had all the time and energy in the world to devote to that #so what I'm getting here is that my friendships and interests weren't important enough or worth her time #i wasn't interested in Junior air force 1 cause it wasn't offered to me and 2 I'm not a boit licker #no #i was interested in the video game and board game clubs cause my friends were in them and they WANTED me to join #but after not getting to stay for more than one full session after a month i left the board game club cause it wasn't fair to the others #and i only went to the video game clu once and i don't remember much of it cause i was too anxious that she was gonna flip on me #i kept waiting for her text but instead she showed up at the classroom and made me leave #so when the same teacher that ran the board game club asked if i wanted to join the chess club cause he knew i liked chess #i told him i couldn't cause i was too busy because i didn't want to deal with begging my mom to let me join #she would have said yes but would have continued not letting me stay and being super passive aggressive #I'm not even in the year book for the year my friends graduated #the one thing she did let me do was drama and i hated every second of it. it was genuinely a bad experience for me #yeah i had friends in drama but it's not the same as hanging with my nerdy guy friends playing a star wars ttrpg #the worst part is she gets so defensive when i bring it up and won't give me a reason outside of 'I guess I'm just the worst parent'#it's in those moments i really remember she's the youngest in her family #OH!! it gets worse! she told me when i was younger that she had to be an honorary cheer leader cause HER MOM absolutely refused to #let her join cheer and she's alsways been bitter about it but then she turns around and did basically the same thing to me ffs #at least she was allowed to hang out with people after-school i wasn't allowed to do that either #no. instead i spent the hours after shcool alone most days and my weekends home alone in my room. and she wonders why my social skills are #maybe if I'd been allowed to work on my relationships outside of a classroom i wouldn't have felt so abandoned when everyone i knew #graduated without me. maybe if i didn't have to start back at square one socially again and had people to text and hang with after class #i wouldn't have dropped out. and i think only atlas knows i dropped out. idk how to text these people without spunding like I'm looking for #sympathy when they ask what I'm up to. like yeah I'm stuck at home with an anxiety disorder and unemployed trying to get on disability #prisma vents

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gregmarriage · 11 months ago

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#mainly i’m just offering a place of no judgement where we can talk #a friendly ear ya know?#it can be on anon i’m not forcing ppl to expose themselves or anything #i don’t wanna make ppl uncomfortable #it’d kinda like a shitty version of group therapy i suppose?#i see all those blogs and i’m like should i have one?#not that im the sort of person you should be listening to but like i can at least listen if i don’t have good advice #sometimes we all need someone to listen and i could be that person for you #if i actually make this blog #i’m looking for feedback and if people are actually gonna send stuff #honestly it doesn’t have to be major #talk about small annoyances just to vent if you wanna #i’m mainly thinking of it as a way of like idk i’m been through bad times and i know life in general sucks and i wanna help people #and make them feel better even if it’s only a little or in a small way #idk let me know?#i would also need to think of a name for it if i actually do end up making it imao #gwen rambles #gwenposting

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rememberedbyamark · 8 months ago

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Literally why the fuck did he say that??

#my friends are busy so im posting my bs again #but anyway im flying home rn and i don't have a ride or anything set up and im jusy hoping i can get a lyft #but the weather is going to be bad so im a little nervous that i won't get one #and i was telling the guy im seeing all of this #mind you i never asked him to pick me up (the airport is a 15 minute drive from his house)#even though i feel that its a perfectly reasonable request because i wasn't sure if he even would #and so I'm telling him that i don't know if there will be lyfts around #and he texts back 'just let me know how the ride situation goes. i don't mind helping this time even though #i usually hate it. im in a good mood today'#what the Fuck is that??#like i didn't even ask you but youre making sure i don't ask again just in case??#we were joking around before that so it could be a tone thing that was lost in text #but im actually so offended by that #like you never even fuckin offered to help me out before this even when i was supposed to be there earlier #and then you're making sure i don't ask for help in the future if i need it #like i get that we're not dating. hes not my boyfriend #but hes the one that said he cares and is committed to this #so i guess my definition of this whole fuckin thing could be different #or maybe even my definition of friendship because i would help any of my friends who needed a 10 minute ride home from the airport #god i am absolutely going to have to ask him about this in person because otherwise i will resent him for that #vent post

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ii-zi · 1 year ago

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Love how obvious it is when something trends organically vs bot activity just looking at the trending tab

#also kinda embarrassed about hititng tag limit in that last post lol sorry about that #feel free to feel like im offering you my diary to read even tho i never kept one and idk if that's a thing w diaries #like sure they're supposed to be private but like that's it? or is it like a sort of self/auto pen pal thing that you show to #those who are the closest to you?#do ppl exchange diaries? like in that one manhwa with karno and the pastry chef princess?#i have what my sister calls a junk journal that i fill with what little bits n pieces i can #it even has a little mirror! bc her friend broke the oreo sandwich themed mirror hair brush thing i let her borrow lol #so i took the loose mirror and washitaped it to the lil notebook #and a top loader with a lile sticker?? draken polaroid a friend got me from a sort of themed event in an anime themed café or something #and a lot of post its with my doodles lol #and one doodle my sister made!#it's a round frog heehee i put keropi in another smaller note under it and a han (skz #skz like his little mascot thing) underneath ith #personal #vent

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bitter-sweet-coffee · 1 year ago

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putting wavouge on the same list as espilver, aka “i don’t trust the fandom to do this properly so if you make any content of it whatsoever i am fagblasting away from you so hard”