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TW: Self Harm Mentioned/Implied
AN: next update our ladies will have a proper reunion but first tree farm tree farm! (Even though only the poor kids- and Bob- are the only ones super excited about it)
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Nancy Narrates: [All those years Iâve spent yearning, wanting, my whole self calling for herâand now sheâs here]
Nancy Narrates: [This isnât a dream. Sheâs here. I can feel the warmth in her cheek]
Nancy: I- Iâm sorry! I didnât mean to- I donât know why I did that. I shouldnât have-
Vanessa: [laughs] Itâs ok, Nancy! Itâs good to see you too.
Vanessa: Wow, look at you. Youâre all grown up, arenât you?
Nancy: I- I-
Vanessa: Still filled to the brim with tears too.
Nancy: [softly] Sorry. I thought.. I thought Iâd never see you again.
Vanessa: 16 years is a long time. I was worried you would have forgotten all about me.
Nancy: I could never forget you.
Vanessa: Iâve come all this way to see you.
Nancy: Have you really?
Vanessa: I know itâs been years, but I was hoping we could reconnect. Iâm staying at the Fyres Hotel. Maybe we could have dinner there tonight. Catch up?
Nancy Narrates: [I had to physically restrain myself from saying yes. I realized, after all these years, I still would have followed her anywhere...but it canât be this way. Not anymore..]
Nancy: [exhales] I canât. Iâm sorry. I had plans.
Vanessa: Ah! Well. I did pop in last minute. Maybe some other-
Nancy: You could come with me! I mean, If you like? Weâre supposed to get a Christmas tree for the house; trying to set new traditions and what not.
Nancy: Itâs silly but itâs important to them- my sons. I have two boys, by the way. I have to do this for them but- youâre here and I donât know if I can see you leave again. God, am I rambling too much?
Vanessa: You want me to go tree shopping with you and your children?
Nancy: [blushes] Will you?
Vanessa: Lead the way.
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Malcolm: Whatâs taking that lady so long!
Jonathan: Should we try and call mom again?
Geoffrey: [hums noncommittally]
Malcolm: Heâs not even listening!
Bob: Hellooo? Earth to Geoffrey?
Bob: Iggy say, âwhatâs eatinâ ya, Uncle G?â
Iggy: [coos]
Geoffrey: Heh, sorry! Sorry. I guess I got alot on my mind right now.
Eliza: Is everything ok?
Geoffrey: Oh, yeah! Yeah, yeah- well...I guess Iâm thinking about Nance?
Eliza: Whatâs wrong with Nancy?
Geoffrey: Iâve been thinking about what happened on our anniversary trip.
Bob: Yeah? What was it?
Malcolm: Mommyâs here!! Mommyâs here!!
Malcolm: Er, whoâs that with my mommy?
Bob: Well, Iâll be damned! Talk about a throwback!
Eliza: [whistles] Oh, wow! Who is that? Is she a model?: Well, Iâll be damned! Talk about a throwback!
Geoffrey: Vanessa Villareal?
Nancy: These are my sons, Jonathan and Malcolm.
Vanessa: Oh! Oh, Nancy, they are beautiful.
Malcolm: Who are you, lady!
Nancy: Donât be rude, darling. Vanessa is- was- sheâs my..
Vanessa: Iâm your motherâs best friend.
Jonathan: Iâm Jonathan, but call me Johnny. This loud mouth is Malcolm.
Vanessa: Johnny it is. You must get those cool, blue eyes from your momâs brother.
Jonathan: You knew my Uncle Nathan?
Vanessa: No, but I saw a picture once, a long time ago.
Vanessa: [turns to Malcolm] And you look just like your mother.
Malcolm: Are you a movie star too?
Vanessa: [chuckles] No, Iâm not a movie star.
Malcolm: Then who are you lady?
Vanessa: Iâm your Auntie V. You can call me that, if you like.
Malcolm: Aunt V, are you gonna pick out a tree with us?
Vanessa: You bet. You should know, I have a keen eye.
Nancy: Sorry Iâm late..
Geoffrey: Better late than never. I see you had an eventful day.
Malcolm: No more talking! Letâs go already!
Jonathan: I want to find our tree with mom!
Malcolm: Well Iâm taking daddy!
Bob: Alright! Long time no see, VV! Man, itâs been a while, huh?
Vanessa: Just V is fine. Billy, right?
Bob: [sighs] Itâs Bobby. This is my wife, Eliza and this cool guy is Iggy.
Vanessa: [sheepishly] Right. Nice to meet you. Wasnât there another one of you?
Bob: [chuckles] Cassie. We still keep in touch. Sheâs a travel blogger now. And Iâm sure you remember olâ Geoffrey here.
Geoffrey: Good seeing you, Vanessa.
Vanessa: Likewise.
Bob: Heck yeah! Let the festivities begin!
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Jonathan: This one! This is the perfect tree, right, Mom?
Nancy: Mhm. Yes, thatâs nice- Iâll be right back.
Jonathan: Oh..
Bob: Alright, whatâs going on? You can tell me, itâs just us guys now, and Iggy here is great at keeping secrets.
Geoffrey: Nance was so sad on our trip, sadder than usual. I havenât seen her so low since- well, since Vanessa left. And she kept apologizing to me.
Bob: Youâve mentioned before she gets in a mood sometimes, right?
Geoffrey: Well, yeah... thatâs not all. I saw these bruises on the inside of her thigh.
Bob: [eyes widen] You think sheâs hurting herself?
Geoffrey: Is that it, you think? At first I thought they were- you know, hickies?
Bob: Whoa. Hickies? On Nancy?
Geoffrey: [snorts] Thatâs crazy, right?
Bob: You should talk to her. If she is harming herself, you should get her help, bud.
Geoffrey: And if itâs not that...
Bob: Then, thatâs another kind of conversation. But this is Nancy weâre talking about. You two have been bit by the love bug since high school. I canât imagine her having an affair with some other guy.
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Nancy: Hi.
Vanessa: Hi.
Nancy: Sorry if Iâm being...odd. I guess, Iâm still getting used to seeing you.
Vanessa: I donât think youâre being odd. I think youâre being you.
Nancy: Is that a bad thing?
Vanessa: [giggles] No, not at all. You havenât changed and itâs refreshing.
Nancy: Ah. Well. You havenât either. I mean..you still feel like my Vanessa.
Nancy Narrates: [All those questions I craved answers for came rushing back to me the more I looked at her. Was my loving her just a girlish memory of our past? Did she ever hear my voicemail? Was it worth mentioning after almost 2 decades apart? After Iâve already married and had children? After Iâve sworn to dedicate my all to them-]
Vanessa: So, about that dinner. Are you free tonight?
#the art of being seen#the landgraabs#tw self harm mentioned#tw self harm#mentioned only#sims 4 simblr#ts4 simblr#sims 4 stories#sims 4#sims
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Precaution
Moon boys x afab!reader
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Summary: You feel like starting to get sick. The boys take action.
Content: Marc being Marc, Jake feeds reader at first, wholesome.
A/n: Felt like getting a cold couple days ago but it turned out to be nothing but a stuffed nose and some sneezing. Welp.
You woke up with a throat drier than sand, a full nose and feet as cold as ice.
Steven was sleeping perfectly fine next to you with his face buried in his pillow.
As bad as you wanted to just shove your feet into Steven's blanket, your dry throat made you want to drink liters of water.
With a soft groan, popping your bones and putting socks on, you got up and headed into the kitchen.
The clock along your way showed 2:45 AM. An ungodly time for an ungodly feeling.
In the kitchen the first thing you did was downing two and a half glasses of water.
Your throat was feeling so much better with all the water, but your nose was still stuffed so you grabbed some tissue and took care of it.
Both nostrils breathing in fresh air. The best feeling.
Just a second later you heard the soft padding of feet approaching the kitchen.
When he came into view, he was rubbing his eyes.
"Hi luv." Steven spoke up with a sleepy voice.
"Hi." you smiled.
Steven went to the fridge, opening it and grabbing the milk. "It's like 3 AM, can't sleep?" he asked, pouring milk in a glass and putting it back in the fridge.
You shrugged, "Woke up with a dry throat."
Steven eyed you with worry, sipping on his milk. "Don't catch a cold now."
You gave a smile. "Nope."
"Did you open the window again? Maybe that's why."
"Yeah... but only for five minutes... well, until I fell asleep." you admit sheepishly.
Steven shot a lazy smirk. "Oh wow."
You shrug. "Anyways, I'm heading back to sleep, you coming?"
He nodded, putting the glass down and followed you back into bed.
"See you in the mornin' love." he smiled, giving you a peck on the cheek before he fell asleep.
You moved closer to him, feeling how so much warmer he is compared to your blanket.
A cheeky smile tugged on your lips, your ice cold feet inching closer into his blanket, immediately feeling his heat.
Wanting more heat, you slipped both feet inside, brushing them against his feet.
He jumped at the cold feeling. "What's that thing!?" it wasn't Steven anymore, instead it was Marc now.
You snort. "That thing is my feet."
Marc turned to face you. "Shit, you're really catching a cold, huh?"
"No, my feet are just cold!" you argue, slipping your feet under Marc's.
Marc pulled his covers up and reached out to pull you close, bringing the covers back down over you. "Fine, let me warm you up."
You immediately melt into the heat he provided. "Much better, thanks."
He pulled you into his arms, wrapping them tightly around you. "You know, you could have asked." he chuckled.
In mere seconds you were out cold thanks to the warmth.
Couple hours later you woke up to an empty bed. Feeling refreshed, you sat up, rubbing the sleep from your eyes and sitting up.
The smell of vegetables was in the air, some herbs and even chicken.
Then the door opened and Jake came in.
"Ooh, getting sick now, sweetheart?"
You blinked confused at him. "Um? No?"
"Dry throat, stuffed nose and cold feet are a mean sign of catching a cold."
"But I'm feeling perfectly fine.."
Jake grins. "Until it comes back with a smack."
"What are you trying to tell me?"
He shrugged. "Precautions, sweetheart."
You smile. "Jake, I appreciate your offer but really, I'm feeling good." you said softly.
"No no no, you will thank us for it, trust me." Jake insisted.
Your nose was stuffed some more. "Pwease, don't work your asses off just because of me." you sniffled.
Jake grins again. "Mi amor, when our girl gets sick we of course do everything we can to get her well fast."
You sniffled again, pouting at him.
"Ay, we're just trying to prevent you from getting sick." Jake walked over to you to pinch your side playfully.
"Jake!" you threw an exaggerated pout, watching Jake proceeding to the door.
"You wait here, we bring everything when it's done!" he smirks over his shoulder before disappearing again.
About 10 minutes later, Jake returned with a plate of soup and steaming tea.
"Sit up sweetheart, you're getting fed." Jake smiled, putting the plate down on the nightstand, sitting down on the edge of the bed.
"Jake please, I feel awful with you pampering me." you chuckle.
"Ah-ah. No complaints." Jake playfully wagged his finger.
You sat up against the headboard. "The soup smells delicious." you smile.
Jake spooned up some soup, blowing a bit and moved it close to your lips. "Marc and I made the soup." Jake smirked.
Parting your lips, you leaned in a bit, allowing Jake to guide the spoon into your mouth. "You and Marc are a dangerous compilation." you chuckle as Jake moved the spoon out.
The herbs mixed with the vegetables hit your tastebuds, the chicken lingering in your mouth after swallowing.
Jake chuckles, "But it's good, huh?" he got another spoonful of soup to your lips.
"Delicious." you parted your lips, letting Jake feed you.
"Oh and Steven made the tea. Green tea." he grins, pulling the spoon out, spooning up soup again.
You made a face and parted your lips. "Ugh, green tea."
"Don't worry, he put honey in it so it won't taste that gross." he fed you again, then put the spoon down and got up.
"Now, eat that soup and drink the tea. And don't fool us, or you will get sick." Jake smiled, flicking your nose then left the room.
You ate the soup in peace, feeling warmed up well and full.
Later, Steven checked in on you, seeing the soup and tea already empty.
"All done, luv?" he smiled widely.
Nodding, you pulled the covers up your chin. "Yes, I already feel better, thanks." you smiled contently.
"That's wonderful. Now since you're feeling better, how 'bout we just lounge around on the couch, watch your favorite show?"
"Can we rewatch The Mandalorian?" you grin.
"Of course." Steven smiled.
You followed him into the living room, sitting down while Steven went into the kitchen.
When he came back, he brought some snacks and set everything up.
You immediately knew Marc was back.
He flipped the remote control in his hands as if it was a blaster, doing the same pose and motion of Mando shooting.
"Alright, who's ready for some Mando action?"
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Belated VVW24 Contribution #1: Prompt- Surprise
You hum to yourself as you finish preparing your dinner. Youâre looking forward to a relaxing night in, vegging out on the couch in front of the television.
You turn towards the living room and nearly jump out of your skin.
âVincent! My god, you scared me.â
He inclines his head. Whether in greeting or apology, you canât tell.
You take a steadying breath, adrenaline still coursing through you. Itâs a wonder you didnât drop your plate. âWhat brings about this surprise visit? Youâre not exactly known for social calls.â
âI was hoping to sleep here tonight.â He doesnât meet your eyes. âIf it isnât too much trouble.â
âOf course- wait, how did you get in here?â Your mind suddenly catches up to the fact that Vincent is standing in your living room, having somehow bypassed the normal custom of being greeted at the door.
He casts his eyes briefly to an open window before answering, âI let myself in. I didnât want to disturb you if you were resting.â
âDid you come in through the window? I live on the third floor⊠you know what? Nevermind.â You set your plate on a nearby counter. âLet me set up the guest room for you.â
âDonât trouble yourself with that.â He glances to the television and then your plate. âCarry on with your plans. Besides⊠I was⊠rather hoping for some company.â With that he sinks onto your couch, seeming to melt into a reclining position.
âOhïżœïżœïżœ um⊠sure.â Youâre pleased at this side of Vincent heâs trusting to show you, but itâs certainly unusual. You felt that the two of you grew relatively close on the journey together to stop Meteorfall, but he still maintained a mostly aloof demeanor and was clearly still a lone wolf type. Youâre mildly worried at this sudden change in behavior. âIs everything alright? Can I get you anything?â
His eyes stare blankly at the television. âI just⊠need some time away.â
Away from what? You wonder but decide not to press. His eyes have already slid shut.
You eat your dinner, watch your shows, and occasionally glance over at your unexpected house guest. You get the feeling heâs not really asleep, but heâs lying there with his eyes closed, so youâre not sure what company he was exactly looking for.
Vincent wearily comes to consciousness on your couch, morning light streaming in through the windows.
He sighs as his mind immediately returns to chewing over the latest distressing turn of events in his tragedy of an existence.
He hears rustling above his head and he pushes himself onto one elbow to look at the other side of the sectional, perpendicular to his section.
There you are, bundled in blankets with your normally tied back hair unkempt, though no oneâs hair could be as wild as his locks, neglected for decades. Whenever he was unfortunate enough to glimpse his reflection, he thought he looked decidedly bestial, but you looked endearing this way.
You stir and startle for a moment, he presumes in momentary shock of waking up somewhere besides your own bed.
âGood morning, Vincent,â you greet him warmly. âDid you get that sleep you were looking for?â
âYes,â he answered. âDid you⊠sleep out here on my behalf?â
âYep,â you chirp.
He canât help a small smile. You had always doted on him from the moment he joined the party. He never understood why, and for a while had resisted the undeserved kindness, but nowadays he found himself craving at least occasional companionship. Your patience with him defied any logic, but he was grateful.
âGil for your thoughts?â you ask cheerfully.
âHm⊠Iâm⊠thankful.â
You blink in surprise. âOh?â
âFor⊠you.â
You half-cover your face in a gesture of flattered embarrassment. âOh, wow, thatâs sweet. Iâm thankful for you, too.â
He snorts. That was the sort of nonsensical tenderness you seemed to have in endless supply, enough to waste on him.
You sit up. âYou want anything to eat? Or drink?â
He sighs, debating on whether to take you up on further hospitality or to get out of your way.
âVincent⊠is something going on?â He looks to see you studying him, brow furrowed in concern.
He hesitates. He doesnât want to burden you with more of his problems. You often had a way of getting him to open up, and he always felt guilty afterwards. But would you worry more if he left it up to your imagination? âNo,â he eventually answers. âNothing in particular.â
You look unconvinced. âWell, let me at least get you some tea.â
He internally curses himself. Once you started insisting on caretaking, it meant you were very worried about him.
âItâs about Lucrecia,â he blurts. Maybe you would find the truth less worrying than the unknown.
You tilt your head. âWhat about her?â
âIâve been investigating her research for the WRO. And⊠I found out thatâŠâ His mouth grows dry. âMy condition is not only the result of experiments performed by Hojo.â
You are still and attentive, silently urging him to go on.
âLucrecia⊠used me to prove her thesis. On Chaos.â He knows you would know he meant his most monstrous form.
âSo⊠she tested on you, too?â
Vincent nods, words failing him.
âDo you feel betrayed?â you ask slowly.
âYes,â he murmurs. âThough I donât know why. She was willing to use herself and her own son for experiments. Why would I be any different? Iâm hardly special.â
âYouâre special to me,â you say solemnly.
He sighs. âAgainst all odds, yes, that seems to be the case.â
You stand up. âLet me get that tea. Black or ginger?â
He gives in to your care. âBlack, please.â
You start to walk away but he stops you with your name.
âYouâre special to me as well,â he says, hardly above a whisper.
You give him a dazzling smile before whisking away to grab a kettle.
#vincent valentine#vincent valentine x reader#dirge of cerberus#ff7#final fantasy vii#final fantasy 7#ffvii#ff7 vincent#yeah I'm like a month late... c'est la vie
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-Unspoken Desires- part 1
Y. JW
Read this first before reading this chapter because you might not be able to get it. a quick drabble!! â @12connect on Tumblr
word count: 1.750
summary: You and Jungwon haven't spoken for about 4 years because he moved away. Since he was coming back and will be going to the same college as you, you guys had to be on good terms. What will the future hold in? Does Jungwon still wanna be friends?
This is not proofread so if there are mistakes...my bad. Feedback is always appreciated because I'd love to improve! There is no smut yet in this chapter but there will be in the following chapters. Enjoy!!!
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You quickly got changed into a cream white dress that hugged you in all the right spot, put on earrings, sprayed on your signature perfume and went downstairs. "Wow, I am lucky to have such a pretty daughter!", your mom said. You went into the kitchen smiling as you helped your mom set the table. She made all sorts of korean foods such as tteokbokki, galbi, kimchi jjigae and your and Jungwons childhood favorite kimchi fried rice. You could not be happier right now!
The table was set and it looked stunning. You quickly called your parents and your little sister to the table. Once they were all seated the doorbell rang. "Oh oh, here we go." you said before slowly opening the door. "Hii Y/N!!!! I missed you so muchhh." Jungwons older sister said while hugging you tightly. "You gave a kind smile to Jungwons parents as they entered your house. Jungwon didn't even look at you, something was wrong with him..."
Everyone was seated at the table, except you. You grabbed some soda and joined them. Sitting next to Jungwon as it was the only seat left. You guys exchanged a quick glance before diving into the pile of delicious food placed in front of you.
During dinner Jungwon seemed oddly uncomfortable, was it because you guys haven't spoken for about 4 years or something more. What's up with him today? Isn't he atleast a little bit happy to see me? His 'best friend'..I guess not.
After dinner Jungwons sister offered to help me clean the table while our parents were catching up and Jungwon was playing games with your little sister. "I've missed you so hard Y/N, how have you been?" "Uhm I've been doing pretty well, just a little stressed out for college. That's pretty much it hahaha:)" "Oh don't worry about college, Jungwon is going too. You two won't be alone, you've got eachother. So don't stress out." "To be honest Jungwon and I haven't spoken for the past 4 years, since you guys left for Korea...I don't even know of were friends anymore. He seemed so uncomfortable sitting next to me earlier, I'm not sure what to expect." "I didn't know about that, I'm sorry. I think you guys didn't speak because he got a new number, it's just a guess. I'm sure he'd be happy to talk to you again, he just has to get used to being back. Hopefully things will be like they used to before you both are off to college." "I hope so too. Thank you."
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Soon the Yang family left your house. You went to your room and thought about everything that had happened this evening, or didn't happen. Then you suddenly got a message from the person you hoped it to be, Jungwon.
Jungwon: "Hey, Y/N. Do you have a moment to talk? Thereâs a lot I think we need to catch up on before college startsâŠ"
The message took you by surprise, but also filled you with relief. It had been a strange day, and his sudden distance had left you wondering. Now, maybe, youâd finally get the chance to understand what had changed.
You: "Of course, where do you want to meet?"
Jungwon: "The park near your house? Iâll head there now if that works."
After letting your parents know, you quickly slipped out and walked to the park. It was a cool, quiet evening, and you found him sitting on a bench near the swings, looking deep in thought. When he saw you, he gave you a small smile that reminded you of old times.
âHey,â you greeted, sitting down next to him.
âHey,â he replied, glancing at you before looking away, as if he were searching for the right words. He took a breath. âI know today was⊠weird. I didnât mean to act like that. Itâs just, seeing you again after all these yearsâright before college startsâfelt⊠complicated.â
You studied him, sensing there was more he wasnât saying. âI get it. I felt the same way. We were so close, then suddenly we stopped talking. I always wondered if maybe you didnât want to keep in touch.â
He shook his head quickly. âIt wasnât that. When we moved back to Korea, I thought itâd be easier to just⊠let things fade. To make a clean break.â He paused, fidgeting with his hands. âBut honestly, I never forgot about you. I think thatâs why today was so strange for me. Itâs like everything we left behind just came rushing back.â
Hearing this, a part of you felt relieved, but another part felt the weight of the years youâd spent apart. âI get it. I missed you, too. I just didnât know how to reach out, especially after so much time had passed.â
He looked at you, his expression softening. âMaybe⊠maybe we can start over, now that weâll be at the same college. We could make up for all the time we missed. Just like we used to be.â
A small smile broke out on your face. âIâd really like that.â
You stayed at the park for a while, sharing stories about high school, laughing about all the little things youâd missed. Jungwon still seemed a bit guarded, like he was holding something back, but he seemed more at ease, more like the friend you remembered.
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As you walked home that night, you felt lighter, like a piece of you had finally been restored. You werenât sure what college would hold for the two of you, but for the first time in years, you felt hopeful about what lay ahead.
The next morning, after a night of tossing and turning with thoughts of what had transpired, you woke up to a text from Jungwon.
Jungwon: âHey. I was thinking about last night. Iâm really glad we talked. Itâs like weâve both been holding onto something for a long time. Letâs not let this be the last time we do this before college.â
You smiled, your heart warming at the thought. Maybe you werenât sure what would happen once you both started college. Youâd be on different paths, living your own separate livesâbut that was something you were willing to face together, as friends who had finally found their way back to each other.
You quickly typed out a reply.
You: âI agree. Iâm glad we talked too. Letâs make the most of this next chapter. Iâm looking forward to whatâs ahead, with you.â
After you sent it, you felt a weight lift off your chest. Things wouldnât go back to the way they were immediatelyâmaybe they never wouldâbut it didnât matter. What mattered now was that you had the chance to rebuild, to redefine your relationship in a new context. And, maybe, just maybe, the two of you could find something more than just friendship, something that had been lying dormant all these years.
As you sat down at the kitchen table for breakfast, you realized that despite all the uncertainty ahead, today felt different. It felt like the beginning of something new.
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I know isolating yourself can be very unhealthy but wow does it call my name more often than not
#so glad I have a therapy appt tomorrow#cause Iâm not feeling it anymore#today was actually good too :/#and then everything just catches up to me and wow#peepee poopoo feeling#I just wanna be alone sometimes bc nobody expects anything from me#I can just be a blob and read my little fun stories and daydream about being loved eternally#is that too much to ask for#âin store chit chat! đ«#tw: vent
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For your reblogs milestone requests (congratulations!!) If this pings you, I'd love to see Hitsugaya + Hinamori + CAMPING. Good trip, bad trip, planned, unplanned, business, pleasure... Any kind of camping and any kind of tone!
how to start a fire
Rating: K+
âHinamori, youâre imagining thingsâgo to sleep.â
âI am not,â she hissed, with a little more bite than intended. She was still bitter about their squabble. âI know thereâs something out there.â She turned to her backpack, fumbling around in the dark as she searched for the flashlight. âDid you read the information pack that Hisagi-san had sent? Apparently, this used to be a habitat for bears.â
âYes, and I read the amended version Ise-fuukutaicho sentâthe local bear population has become endangered. The only thing weâre in danger of is losing our sleep,â he grumbled.
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Momo is sent to train Toushiro in the World of the Living in combination kido.
Word Count: 3670 words
Setting: after the Bleach Anniversary Hell Chapter
Prompt: @hitsuhina-week Gift Exchange 2023 for @whipplefilter
"maybe we didn't argue, but we don't agree"/ "Hitsugaya asks Hinamori to teach him her kidou-weaving"/"HitsuHina from unexpected/outside POVs"
Authourâs Note: This is SO LATE IN ALL THE SENSES. Firstly, because Whipple sent this request in like, summer. And then I was matched with them for the Gift Exchange which I thought I could make! but holidays! & falling sick! (are we really ever as productive as we would like over the holidays??)
(Thank you @rays-of-fire-and-ice for being understanding!)
When I saw the prompts that Whipple sent, I immediately thought of their initial fic request & thought it was such a perfect thing to combine! Unfortunately, I couldn't get in the Hitsuhina from an outside POV but maybe one day in the future!
I had a lot of fun trying to flesh this out and was really happy to go back to writing after so long! However, I believe much like the rest of the fandom, life is going to get busy in the coming months for me and I won't be as active in writing as I would like to :( I hope to still participate in events but it does really inspire me reading everyone's work when I come back to try to write on my own!!
Happy New Year everyone! Here's hoping 2024 is one with happiness and laughter and fun for everyone!!
I hope you all enjoy this!
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Momo dropped her duffel bag and began to rummage around it, pushing overnight clothes and toiletries aside. âHereâs a clearing: we can proceed here.â
Toushiro looked around skeptically, noting the abandoned fire pits and wooden pavilions in the distance. âWonât we be disturbing the humans?â
âSoutaicho had reserved the whole camping ground area while the Twelfth Division set up a barrier that would send any human that would walk towards the training facilities, confused but turned around.â She swallowed the gikon pill, feeling her human body leave her as if she were shedding a coat off.
The tenth captain raised an eyebrow. âShouldnât the Kido Corps have facilitated that?â
Momo shrugged, though she admitted she wondered about the ethics of the research division sometimes. âAll the training leaders were assured that they wouldnât be harmed. Nanao-san also reiterated that each cell would be allocated a parcel of the forestâso we donât have to worry about anyone else while we train.â
With the new frontier of Hell on the line, the Gotei 13 were implementing new training tactics to prepare for the unknown battle. Each division had received a list of candidates for leaders of the cell groupsâspecific internal training groups to provide targeted instruction on skills soldiers may find lacking. Momo had been selected from the Fifth Division to lead high level kido proficiency, specifically on combination spells. The leaders ranged in rank, from captains to lieutenants and even high ranked seated officers. She had heard later from Matsumoto, Ikkaku had been selected to lead swordsmanship skills, Isane for healing during combat, a fourth seat in the eighth division for defensive spells among many. The cell groups would then be volunteers from across the Gotei 13 that would train with the leaders in World of the Living on a reserved human camping site.
Momo had been flattered (even when her captain had bemoaned jokingly why he hadnât been picked) but was also left feeling disconcerted at the letter.
A few weeks ago, there was an expedition team sent out earlier to understand the spells and mechanisms that opened Hellâs Doors as well as scope its initial terrain. The list was short and concise with only a few captains and lieutenants selected. Renjii & Rukia were on the list as they had already prior experience in the hellscape. Momo had been keen to go, as she heard her name was nominated by Rukia to help with kido to break down the entrance. However, the day before the mission, her name was taken off the list with a curt note saying that her kido services would no longer be required. During the prior lieutenantâs meeting Renjii looked at her with a regretful glance, squeezing her shoulder sympathetically and she later received an apology Hell Butterfly from the Thirteen Captain before the expedition team left.
Momo had walked back to the Fifth Division in a daze, feeling a bit bereft at the sudden change in plans. The shock must have been evident on her face as her captain immediately took one look at her before bringing her to the couch and placing a warm cup of tea in her hands.
âHitsugaya-taicho seems to have requested you for your first training session.â
âWhy?â Momo asked. She had been reviewing the list of volunteers who wanted to train with her and was surprised at the number of people. If she were to spend time with each one, she would have to remain in the World of the Living for at least a month.
However, she had not seen Toushiroâs name on her initial listâmuch less expected him to volunteer. The tenth captain was quick on his feet in battle and she never assumed his skills were lacking.
Hirako-taicho shrugged. âMaybe he wants a brush up as well? I know he had gone on the Hell Expedition Team & him and the little Kuchiki realized there was some reworking off spells to be done.â
That got Momo to pause as she was sorting through the files. It had been a couple of weeks since the team had returned from Hell. âHitsugaya-taicho had joined the expedition?â As far as she knew, he was never a candidate for the expedition, and he hadnât mentioned anything like that to her.
Her captain stilled, his eyes avoiding her questioning look. âI believe he was the last-minute changeâŠâ
âHirako-taichoâwhy did Hitsugaya-kun go on the expedition?â
He sighed in quiet exasperation. âI heard from Abarai that Hitsugaya-taicho requested you off the mission,â he said reluctantly. âAnd when there was no other candidate to go, he volunteered himself.â
âAnd why would he do that?â she asked quietly, still processing what she had heard.
Hirako shook his head, his bangs falling away from his eyes. âHe never brought it up at the captainâs meeting. He went directly to the Soutaicho & the expedition team.â
The news sat with Momo as she prepared her training plan and packed her bags to go the World of the Living. The unease festered inside of her, leaving her with feelings of self-doubt and anxiety. She found herself unable to sleep well and only when she stepped onto the campgrounds and breathed in the fresh air, could she feel the tension loosening in her shoulder.
Momo had an earlier departure time and was preparing the grounds when the Tenth Captain dropped in, much later in the evening when the sky was hedging into dusk. It had been the first time they had seen each other in a long while, and Momo was still feeling unsettledâso introductions were short, and she immediately led him to the training area where she was now beginning a demonstration. If the boy noticed anything unusual, he made no comment and followed suit.
Momo slipped into teaching mode, something she had learned while part-timing at the academy to help compartmentalize her life as a lecturer separate from a lieutenant.
âWeâll start off with one of my prior combination spells in battle: from during the Winter War era when Rangiku-san and I had to fight the three arrancars.â She avoided looking at Toushiro for she knew much after the fact that he hadnât approved of her coming onto the battlefieldâwhich apparently, things still hadnât changed between them. âLet me show you first.â
The girl lifted her hands in front of her, demonstrating as she spoke. âThe strength of the spell also comes from the foundation of the pose. I know after we graduate and go into battle, itâs very easy to skip this step as weâve become comfortable with the incantations.â She moved her hands as if they were framing a triangle. âHowever, as we introduce combination spells, I find that thereâs strength in using combative stances with defensive spells and vice versa.â
Her student nodded along, with a furrow in his eyebrows that Momo knew he was mentally taking notes.
âIt started off with Hadou 12 Fuishibi: I had used it as a defensive base before obscuring it with a concealment spell.â
âThat was Kyokou, right?â Toushiro piped in.
She nodded in affirmation. âYesâthat was the key to catching the arrancar off. Otherwise, I wouldnât have been able to blindside them in the initial attack.â
Toushiroâs eyebrow raised slowly, almost as if he were impressed if Momo had to guess. âThatâs quite commendable that you were able to weave that many kidou togetherâespecially for your first time.â
Momo had to stop herself from reacting openly to that. She hadnât remembered telling him that it was her first attempt, a decision crossed in between luck and adrenaline. However, she had a lot to proveâand evidently, there were still people that doubted her.
âHowever, the key is finding the right igniting spell: Shakaho is a common one and it doesnât matter how proficient you are in kidouâitâll still give you the right amount of power you need.â
She beckoned with her head, her arms still held in front of her in stance. âYou can follow me for now and then we can try separately on our own, Hitsugaya-taicho.â
When he mirrored suit, she started reciting the incantationsâpausing in between lines to explain the steps.
âYou start trying to imagine a series of lines, crossing each other. Imagine the intersection and focus on that. Personally, for me, it helps to visualize the centers becoming brighter to build a stronger net.â
âLike Bakudo #4, Hainawa?â
Momo winced, sensing the kidou web pull away from her. âNot really. Itâs the foundationâitâs not the main goal. Youâre setting up trajectory for the blast to follow.â
âIs it necessary to recite the full spell?â
âSort ofâI find it helpful to not focus fully on the incantation but instead what it represents. Breaks down the rigidity of the tradition and make it more malleable in combining different spells.â
âHow do you control the scale of the net?â
âItâs all in the visualizationâyou need to imagine it,â she responded quickly as she felt herself faltering. The net grew dimmer and wilted, like a flower causing Momo to repeat the previous line again. She wasnât used to being interrupted so often.
âWhen do you switch hand positions?â
âHold on Hitsugayaââ, Momo could feel the net pull away from her like a storm wind catching hold of a kite. She proceeded forward and, in her haste, she skipped two lines ahead in the incantation. Â Â
The effects were immediate with the strings of the net burning brighter and brighter. Momo faltered, immediately stopping the incantation but it was too late. The net hummed in power before it exploded, sending sparks back at the shinigami & the wooden structures.
Momo could only watch as Toushiro immediately called a cool wind forth to snuff out the embers, leaving just a sizzling trail of smoke as the remains of the misspell.
âI think we better call it for the night,â he said with a measured tone, evaluating the scene.
The slip back into their gigai was so quiet and routine that even the shift of corporeal bodies couldnât cut the thick tension between the two. The moon was hanging high & alone by the time they had returned silently back to their campsite.
Momo immediately started collecting broken branches and twigs to start the fire. She kept her head down, repeating the recent events in her head over and over. Even though Toushiro had been peppering her with questions, she knew she was accustomed to that from teaching new recruitsâand inwardly Momo knew that it was her earlier feelings towards the young captain that made her mess up the incantation. There was a strong part of her that was ashamed for getting her emotions get in the way of teachingâsomething she had promised herself she would learn to keep professional and private matters separate.
Momo sighed deeply, walking back to their clearing, and dumping the wood into the firepit. As she rearranged the pieces into a tented position, she could feel Toushiroâs eyes on herâmuch like earlier, observing quietly and learning.
âItâs to help structure the flame,â she explained quietly. Momo pulled some newspapers she had brought with her and began shredding them over the pit.
âHow do you know how to do this?â
âHirako-taicho and I went on camping trips as a way to get to know each other when we first started working together. The other Vizards would also join us as well.â
Toushiro rolled his eyes. âIt still amazes me how he can circumvent rules to do it.â It was an offhand comment, nothing out of the ordinary for the young captain. However, at that moment it deeply grated at her nerves, and it struck raw.
Momo snapped a branch in her hand. âHirako-taicho completes his work as necessary. He also doesnât cross the lineâunlike you Hitsugaya-taicho.â
He raised an eyebrow. âWhat are you talking about, Hinamori?â
âYou pulled rank and took me off the Hell expedition,â she said curtly, yanking out the matchstick box from her pocket and snapping the match strong against the box.
There was a pause where Momo could only hear the friction of the match. âYouâre not ready,â Toushiro said carefully, as if he were approaching a skittish creature. âThere are far too many unknowns, and the risk is too great.â
âYou had no business deciding to do so.â The match didnât catch, and Momo cursed under her breath as she flicked it to the ground. She pulled another one out and began again.
âOther lieutenants were pulled off as well, it came down to essential personnel only.â
âNo, Hitsugaya-taicho, you are a captain of the Tenth Division and were overstepping your bounds. Kuchiki-san had requested me on that mission for my skills and you decided to pull me off.â
The match ignited brightly in her hands. Momo dropped it into the pile of wood where it immediately spurred into large flames. She looked up to see the fire reflecting in his turquoise eyes, resolute.
âIf I had to do it again, I would,â he said solemnly, holding his ground across the fire from her.
âWell thatâs the difference between us, Hitsugaya-taichoâI would be honest with someone if I didnât think they were good enough.â
âThatâs not what I meant and you know it,â he sighed.
Momo straightened her shoulders back and stared firmly back at him through the flames. âI am a lieutenant of the Fifth Division, I have earned my way to serve the Gotei 13âwhether you like it or not.â Â
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Dinner was a quiet tense affair with the two of them eating their packed meals quite far and separated from each other. Momo had already started to feel awful from such negative feelings, but on principle she held her ground, quickly scarfing down her onigiri.
They had changed in silence to their sleeping clothes, each taking turns to watch shift before tucking into their respective sleeping bags across the fire pit. In the absence of a âgood night,â Momo felt remorse, and found herself consciously holding back from asking if Toushiro was awake.
When they were younger, theyâd climb up onto the thatched roofs to stargaze during the night. The hay would itch at bare skin and it would always take the two of them a while to get settled, but when they had found their spots, it was like the world quieted again and they lost themselves in counting the constellations. Sometimes she would speak and Toushiro would respond, in either one sentence responses or noises of affirmationâbut always honest. And when it became too quiet to speak, the two would just lie in silence. It was those peaceful moments that would ground Momo whenever she was away studying in the academy; where it felt like possibilities were endless, but home was right behind her, keeping her grounded and safe.
But that felt like a different lifetime with too much death in between to tie them to the same life.
A loud rustle startled Momo from her stupor.
She pushed herself up off the ground. âDid you hear that?â
There was another sound, a creak.
âHitsugaya-kun,â Momo called out, a twinge of fear creeping into her voice.
âIâm trying to sleep,â he groused.
She persisted, sitting up and listening carefully. The fire crackled and hissed, and Momo strained to hear through the crackle of the fire. Internally she felt at lost without being able to detect the rieatsu of whatever was out there.
âHinamori, youâre imagining thingsâgo to sleep.â
âI am not,â she hissed, with a little more bite than intended. She was still bitter about their squabble. âI know thereâs something out there.â She turned to her backpack, fumbling around in the dark as she searched for the flashlight. âDid you read the information pack that Hisagi-san had sent? Apparently, this used to be a habitat for bears.â
âYes, and I read the amended version Ise-fuukutaicho sentâthe local bear population has become endangered. The only thing weâre in danger of is losing our sleep,â he grumbled.
âI forgot how grumpy you get when you donât get your sleep,â Momo murmured.
âWhat was that?â
âNothing.â
A rustle was heard and Toushiro shot up, his eyes much alert. âI think thereâs something approaching.â
Momo fought the urge to roll her eyes as she fished out the flashlight. âThatâs what I was saying.â
A twig broke and immediately Toushiro slipped a gikon pill in, his human body falling back onto the sleeping bag.
âIâm not going to use Hyourinmaruâthe weather changes will alert the humans nearby.â
Momo rustled through her duffle bag, pulling things out rapidly. âI canât find my gikon pillsâI must have left them at the training site.â
Toushiro stepped in front of her sleeping bag, his stance defensive as he mimicked Momoâs earlier pose from the training session. âIâll handle it. Iâll use the kido weaving to stop whatever it is in its tracks.â
That got Momo to pause. âWait, Hitsugaya-kunâIâm not sure if youâre ready.â
He started to chant, slow and steady as the noise picked up. Momo could only focus on her heart racing that she almost missed the slip of incantation: Toushiro had skipped a lineâa very crucial line.
âHitsugaya-kunâyou forgotââ
The threads burned amber, casting a bright glow against the surrounding boundary of trees before they began to constrict against themselves. The woven net grew and expanded, closing in around the two of them instead of pushing outward. Toushiro realizing his error, quickly turned around and crouched over Momo as the net imploded into great sparks, rivaling a fireworks show.
The rustling noise got louder and two of them could only look up as the bush rumbled and rustledâbefore a bunny slipped out. It stared comically at the two of them, cocking its head to the side before hoping through the campgrounds as the two childhood friends watched.
A bubble of laughter escaped from Momoâs mouth which earned her an exasperated look from her friend above her. Toushiroâs hair was mussed with grey soot streaking the spiky edges; he looked like the human confection of a burnt marshmallowâwhich made Momo laugh even harder.
âThis isnât funny,â he grumbled, swiping away at his face with soot coming off.
âIt kind of is,â she continued to laugh. âIâm sure when you get back into your gigai, itâll go away.â
Whatever previous tension that was there before, disappeared and now there was a lightness as the two young shinigami cleaned up the area. The campfire that had been blazing strong before had calmed down to a dying ember, its small spark still burning bright against the night.
Momo cleared her throat, sheepishly looking down. âWould you mind if we pull these closer?â she gestured towards the distanced sleeping bags.
Toushiro shook his head. âNo, not at all.â
After rearranging the bags, the two settled in quietly, lying on their backs and looking up at the stars. Momo sighed in content, feeling a lot more at peace than before but still wanted to clear the air about one more thing.
âHitsugaya-kun,â she whispered.
âHmm?â
âIâm sorry for yelling at you today.â
There was a long pause and she had wondered if he had heard her. âI deserved it. I apologize for not being transparent with you.â
Momo raised an eyebrow. âThe great Hitsugaya-taicho is apologizing to me?â
âOh, shut it.â Even though it was dark, she could hear the eyeroll in his voice. âAnd Iâve done it before,â he added softly.
âI know.â Momo remembered it well, especially after the Winter War. âBut those for things that were out of your control. This is for something you deliberately did.â
The young girl heard him sigh deeply. âItâs something Iâm working on,â he conceded.
âRangiku-san put you up to it?â
âSomething like thatâŠâ he drifted off.
âWellâŠâ Momo tucked the blanket around her tighter her shoulders. âThank you.â
When he didnât say anything back, she continued on, speaking softly. âYou need to trust meâI understand youâre worried, but you canât go around making decisions on my behalf without talking to me.â She turned onto her side and faced him. âI can take care of myself, Hitsugaya-kun.â
He sighed. âI know you canâI donât doubt it at all.â
âThen what makes this different?â Momo whispered.
Toushiro was silent for a while before turning to her. âItâs what we donât knowâeverything weâve been taught feelsâŠupended.â He grimaced & even in the dark she could see the storm brewing in his eyes. âUkitake-taicho, the SoutaichoâŠtheyâre all there now. It feels like the rules have changed and things are out of control.â
Momo smiled sympathetically before reaching a hand across, and gently placing it on his shoulder. âI know. Iâm scared too. Iâm scared for everyone at the Fifth, for Hirako-taicho, Rangiku-san.â She paused and stared into his eyes. âIâm also scared for you.â
His eyes widened slowly. âHinamoriâŠâ
âBut I wonât let that stop me from wanting to protect everyoneâto protect you.â She squeezed his shoulder. âThatâs why I became a shinigami, right?â
Momo could sense his inner storm abating and smiled in relief. âSoâtrust me, okay? Like I trust you to stay safe.â
He sighed deeply and stared back at her. âOkayâI will try.â
She chuckled quietly. âThatâs all I ask.â
Momo let her hand fall in the space between them. âNow letâs go to sleep. We still have to finish training tomorrow. I canât send you back not knowing how to do one combination spell.â
âThis will definitely be an experience I will never forget,â he said softly.
She smiled, her eyes already closing shut. âGood night, Hitsugaya-kun.â
Sometime during the night, Momo felt her hand being pulled, and held tight. That even if they drifted in dreams under the stars, she was grounded and safe, held tight to home.
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Authour's Note: Again, this happens late at night because I am a sucker for late night conversations. I had a lot of fun trying to write Momo's teaching methods for the kido (as if I know anything lol) I also just love that something doesn't go splendidly well for Toushiro (though I wish there were more people to witness it hahahaha)
Until next time everyone :)
#canariie: my fics#only takes a snowstorm for me to get my bearings together and catch up with everything that's piling up#including this fic#i definitely felt rusty but it was like also refreshing to open a doc and be like#oh wow i just had this idea sitting here for so long???#hitsuhina#momo hinamori#toushiro hitsugaya#bleach fanfiction#hitsuhina gift exchange
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well. i finished ch 17 of hi3. but at what cost
#avil plays hi3#tbf majority of me playing through hi3 just looks like This.#yes the acheron trailer made me get up and finish ch 17#i. :(#the fight between kiana and mei was so painful :(#ok also i suck ass in the combat and i was so scared of having to restart#BUT I THINK I HURT MORE THE FACT THAT KIANA JUST REFUSED TO GIVE UP ON MEI#BUT MEIS ALSO DOING THIS BECAUSE SHES TRYING TO SAVE KIANA#AND THEY WERE BOTH FIGHTING TO STOP AND TRY TO SAVE EACH OTHER#MEI YOU SAVED KIANA BUT LIKE..... DONT YOU WANT TO LIVE ALONGSIDE HER.... MEI PLEASE#tbh. the way i was going through ch 17 for hi3.#kiana and mei remind me a lot of oz and gil's relationship back in pandora hearts but#now it makes me want to hit my head on a brick wall because#'wow. i really just gravitate tO THE SAME FUCKING MEDIA EVERY DAMN TIME AVIL STOP IT FFS'#also idk i was thinking about it too#mei tried earlier to use the herrschers powers to try and protect kiana but it wasnt enough. she failed that time#and with no other option to save her she just HAD to and it makes me HURT that this was her only option#IN HER HEAD. I BELIEVE IN YOU MEI I THINK THERE COULDVE BEEN ANOTHER OPTION HERE (IDK WHAT BUT I AM SOBBING)#sprawls on the ground#at least i can have an emotional break for a little bit.... hsr update so i can chill w that#and then when i finish catching up w that. then i go back to being hi3's punching bag#can i get off this train now? why'd i sign myself up for this (welt yang doomed me and then i got fucked over by everything else)#idk also the way that both mei AND kiana resorted to using their herrscher powers to stop the other. two stubborn people....#but its done because they just... they just care so much and want to save the other#okay yeah we did beat each other up about it bUT STILL#MEI I BELIEVE IN YOU YOU CAN TURN THIS AROUND đđđđđ#anyways. glad i did. i have the worst stomach ache rn so i was Going through it#but my brain hit a reset so i feel normal now. save for the crying
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seems like my heart does nothing but break lately
#oh my god dont read the tags. it breaks for everyone :( but on a more personal level#for my gf whos sinking deeper into something n i cant even help bc im a wreck myself but i am so so scared to lose her#still havent even been able to book a psych appointment n i rlly dont know where to go with all these ..em*tions#Guys i rlly dont understand one thing. how come one random freak whos in ur life at some point can derail a whole person like eons later#jeopardise their whole future just by crossing some lines for funz i really dont understand this#not fair not fair at all this is evil#and becasue u got unlucky someone wanted to be disgusting u have to carry the consequences#i rly still cant even say it i still cant even write it#i dont even know how . irl the only perosn i told in some capacity#is dealing with her own trauma and i hate that jsut being understanding is not enoughlike#Wow Lmao Its just Funny How it Shapes You. & U Can Never bury it forever becuz it will always catch up to youđđđđđđ#AND THE PAST CAN NEVER BE ERASED đđđđđđđđ«đ«đ«đ«đ«đȘđȘ#at least my gf has been taking steps to deal with it for.3 yrs and i just never even#LOL i feel like such a coward but the sh*me and the g**lt associated with the Thing..r so overwhelming i cant even admit it#what would i even do at the psych appointment like straight up what am i gonna say Lol#hai iam here to process something i dont actually remember probably becasue i was a child but imnot sure. n id rather#kms than tell u how i know đ. So thats also why my heart breaks. for that little girl who was a ball of shame i guess and no matter#how much i cognitively.like rationally know its not my fault the ball of shame n guilt is still there#n it swallows me every time i vaguely start 2 think about acknowledging the Th*ng#or whatever. And thats just my end of the deal but my gf has it worse genuinely bc she remembers everything n still has to see the freak#n it went on for yrs n her family doesnt know n heres the worst thing hes a beloved family member a sweet boy with struggles of his own#well i hope he walks into traffic for doing what he did to her
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pkmn soulsilver babbles c:
i have reached the tag limit writing my thoughts help. im not even done but ig ill just leave it at that AHAHSHSHSH
#since i collected all johto/kanto badges my next goal is to start grinding extra harder for red +#my decision to try to catch as much legendaries#so the first thing i did was make sure that poliwhirl and misdreavus actually evolved - so i went around to find the stones#along the way i happen to find a dawn stone - i frowned thinking like. man if only i could use this on kirlia > gallade#i went to goldenrod to buy some tms and as i left the city i accidentally walked on grass (speeding up the emulator lmao) and FOUND RALTS#i was so shocked because AYO RALTS? IN JOHTO MF#it was male even so i was so excited to grab it - i did and then later i was like âwould be cool if i could get a gardevoir tooâ#âmaybe i can breed the ralts with a ditto'#âbut I don't have a ditto :[â#AND THEN I WALKED ON THE GRASS AGAIN TO FIND A DITTO RIGHT AFTER THAT AKSKSJSJSJSJDJSSK#i caught it IMMEDIATELY#i was like. wow this is too good to be true. i kept walking on grass again and then i found a female ralts.#now the ditto wont be necessary anymore but i was happy to get one#my next concern was like - 'aw man they're hella underleveled tho - oh yeah! daycare. where's that dayca-#LITERALLY JUST 3 STEPS AWAY FROM ME. THE DAYCARE. BECAUSE DUH. IM IN GOLDENROD CITY THEY'RE NEXT TO EACH OTHER FLDJFKFLFKDKDK#I WAS JUST MADLY GIGGLIGN TO MYSELF LIKE GIRL DAMN EVERYTHING CAME RIGHT TO ME RGRGDHDH#so yeah my other side quest is to get both gallade and gardevoir. probably super obvious but yes they're my fav lines aksjsjsj#there's also another bit i discovered where once i collected all 16 badges - i have to visit the sound designer in celadon's apartments#he gave me a Gameboy device that plays the entire game out but in the Gameboy ver aka the og games and#idk i just... really appreciate that bit? you can tell so much love was poured into this#i enabled the device for a bit too simulate how it would sound like if i played the gb versions. it's so cool#immediately jumped to pallet town and new bark town's ver - it's so sweet sounding#i really appreciate that small bit! as someone who didn't play the og games this one is just a nice way of giving me a tasteof it#anyway - right now im trying to level the team the best i can + evolved with stones and im also trying to look for the other gym leaders#to get their phone number to rebattle (and level up again)#.... i was flustered to get morty's number first...#at the bellchime tower of all places???!?!?!! damn. damn. in the pretty autumn trees smh morty are you setting me up.. slash ro-#EITHER WAY I GOT A LIIITLE EXCITED OVER THAT SMDNDBDBBDLFLF anduhhhmayhapsfunneideasgrgfgf#hi sarahdontlook at meee HEVDVSVEBSBSBD#i forgot morty pops up there and. WHEW. kinda thankful i forgot my first gameplay its like I'm playing it again weheeh
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When will I learn that I donât actually like bnha that much
#I was like âhey Iâll finally catch up on the new seasonâ#and literally the entire time Iâm like âthis sucks and is boringâ#and that has happened likeâŠ. the last three seasons#I havenât actually enjoyed watching this series since I was like 17#maybeâŠ. I should stop lying to myself and just accept I donât like it#I literally only pay attention if shigaraki dabi or toga are on screen because they are the only ones I care about at this point#except even with them everything post the dabi being Touya reveal I am just mad about how theyâre being handled nfjfkdkd#shigaraki especially Iâm like âwow!!!! you donât deserve a character like him and are fucking him up!!!!â#anyways#yeah I donât think I like this series lmfao#but then againâŠ. I hated naruto even more and watched all 700 episodes so I donât think this realization will keep me from watching it đđ#kaz rambles
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any time anybody asks me if i will do character playlists i always um and ah about it (i honestly donât think my music knowledge is good enough, overall) but the deciding factor is always that. this particular piece of music canât be found on spotify and it would Have to go on Twilitâs playlist so. even if i ever did any they wouldnât be Complete đ
#posts from the mortal world#RO: twilit#catch me shamelessly loading every single illidari song onto malkorath's playlist#and all the nazjatar stuff onto lithiana's#anyway sorry i know this is random but. i'm In It at the moment friends#my laptop. coughed her last and died#and i didn't lose any writing because i backup Obsessively (back up your files kids!)#but my twine save somehow got corrupted... and i have to re-code the entire chapter#and i'm feeling very. lying facedown on the floor crying. about everything but especially the prospect of redoing so much work#and my usual goto when my brain is in Weeping and Wailing is to play WoW because it regulates the brain juices easily#but without my laptop i Can't. so i've just been listening to music#but it's not helping in fact it's making me miss it more#so... feh#emerald nightmare my beloved it's so totally Twilit in vibe#the weird. wet breathing noises?? impeccable#ny'alotha wishes it had what emerald nightmare has#hell some Horror Games wish they had what emerald nightmare has#it sure is a Shame that wow never got any expansions after legion but at least it went out on a high note it could have been Much worse
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gbf Oh my god
#đ.rambles#[ gbf. ]#i rmbered when i went on discord rq in our server w the yk updates bot n#WHEN I SHOWED APOLLO THE SANDALPHON VALENTINE THEY JUST FROZE ! IT WASNSO FUNNY AHAGJSHFS#n then twt đ„ș he's so lovely.. apollo's reactions r so endearing too lmfao <3#WILNAS CAUGHT ME SO OFF GUARD đ#OH MY GOD I WILL CATCH UP WHEN I GET HOME N ALL#.. ngl wilnas i am enjoying that wilness art but you don't see me writing this okay đ#his smile is so precious yk !!!! aahahhalgjdhfjs#I WILL RLLY HAVE TO CATCH UP LATER THO OMG?#saw some screenshots of the trailer n#i really need to catch up in general w everything gbf that i haven't been up to date to aaaa ><#I JUST REALIZED THEYRE ALL BASICALLY NAKED IN THE UHM SS OF THE TRAILER#i am looking Respectfully bcs they're so. beautiful. wow#i hear lucifer uncap which means i will respectfully also be dying#new illustrations.. hflsjfksjfjs HE IS MY HEAVEN#out of gbf context that'll be so funny to say#yk technically i'm low on sleep today but i'm srs not feeling it#school onsite again tmrrw đ ILL SLEEP EARLY TONIGHT BUT ILL REST <3
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iâm scFfredscsfed scatsdww scared
#i just wanna embrace my mania but i have work in 4hrs n i barely slept over the last 4 days n pulled an all-nighter last night#like ik itâs not smart to work a 12hr shift without sleep but Fuck i just wanna!! b awake!!#actually iâm lying down in the dark rn n itâs kinda making me sleepyish#but now iâm worried my body will want to catch up on +56hrs of zero sleep n iâll sleep thru my alarm uvhhhh#i had work yesterday and did surprisingly well despite the all nighter i pulled ??#i got all my IV sticks!! n im getting better at burping the saline bags!!#my only issue is iâm kinda slow but idk i just get caught up talking w the patients or their families#like i like spending time w the kind ppl and joking with them and taking the time to help educate them abt their ailments#but i work i the ED so i gotta pick up the pace!! but also manic me loooooves chatting n thatâs where i fell kinda short yesterday lol#but a ptâs grandma was so genuinely grateful for me taking the time to explain everything we were doing to help her grandson#she said âgod bless youâ and her genuinity was real i felt she truly meant it#she even said âand god bless the woman who put you here on this earthâ n i was like#;-;tyvm iâm actually here doing this bc of my mom!! she passed away when i was 16 n the woman said a little prayer jsut basically telling#god to Reallh watch over me n im not religious at all and i hate god but my mom was v religious n i have no problem w others beliefs#but idk i was really touched i guess like wow maybe iâm not that annoying/horrible of a nurse bc iâm kinda unprofessional when i talk?#i just like to make light out of things to help ptâs feel heard and validity and i want them to know i care and want them to feel as safe#w me as possible during the#time theyâre in my care#ik i probably just shouldâve been a psych RN from the start but i rlly felt a calling to the ED??#also thereâs a Lot of psych in our ED sooo 2 birds 1 stone !!#also the grandma told me she really appreciated how i spoke with them so openly and teach them things abt their loved ones condition#she said ânever change that. your soul is beautiful and one of a kindâ or smthin like that n it was incredibly validating to me#cuz i felt like an idiot talking so much or maybe explaining things more than they wanted to know?? but the o grandma was soo appreciative??#i know i need to practice reigning myself in but with certain patients itâs just so easy to see them as another human being than a body#ok iâm kinda tired now but iâm fuxk dd bc if i fall asleep iâll o my get 2.5hrs MAX n imsooo scared of not waking up on time!!#ok ok okimvinn finn big gonna go#ramblings
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#void echos#vent#putting this in the tags but.#having a terrible time i've just been sitting for four hours trying to will myself to work but i just. i can't. i fucking can't.#i'm exhausted and i just wanna sleep but this thing is due tomorrow and#i just. i'm so close to just giving up. it's maing everything worse and i thought i was getting better but#all it takes is one physical health issue taking me out for near two weeks and suddenly my mental health takes a nose dive#like wow!! thanks!! the suicidal thoughts are coming back and you want me to fucking. focus on an assignment???#i'm sorry i've worked myself into the ground doing work i've missed due to physical health issues and catching up on lessons.#i'm sorry i've gotten severely ill because i'm not sleeping much or well and i'm not eating much and my immune system is fucking dying#i'm sorry i can't fucking be perfect. i was mean to get extra time. i'm meant to have an ehcp. i'm meant to get support and i just. haven't#cause the college didn't get the fucking thing i need and i can't have time to be out of commission or else i'm pulling everything down and#i can't deal with this
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anyway i need to hang out with my brother again he is the one person who i am pretty sure knows literally everything about me so he's the only person i trust that i can absolutely not disappoint. nothing i can do could be worse than the sum of everything i've been doing to that poor man (and him to me) the past 19 years
#especially now that im back into literally the only interest we actually share on a deep enough level to enjoy it together LOL#i mean we were also both into hannibal but thats just not an enjoyable show to watch together its too much effort#but wow that time we read das boot slash fanfic on the bus together that was awesome#and the time we wrote fanfic together lol LITERALLY WHY DID WE STOP#he has only gotten cooler and more comfortable with his gayness since then we need to write fanfic again âŒïž#anyway i feel sorry for every person in my life but i dont think anyone ill ever know could ever have as close a relationship to me as him#were platonic soulmates lol but like not in the spiritual sense bc its pretty obvious that its not some supernatural bond#its juuuust shared trauma haha and the fact that our trauma is so complex and layered that only we will ever truly understand each other#there has been a really rough patch where we practically did not talk for 4... 5? whole years im serious. maybe on the weekends sometimes#while we were stewing in our own shit. but now were inseperable i think it actually pisses off the rest of our family because every time#theres some event where we meet again (we live like 5 hours apart) we only hang around for like an hour before we get in his car#and drive somewhere and hang out there for the rest of the day and night and only return at like 3am drunk#in a sense i guess were catching up on all the missed time#to be honest we both had some horrible shit going on in our heads me with the transgenderism and toxic relationship#him with his anger issues and (what he calls) psychopathy. like ill say this much he was not a good person as a child he was a devil#he was quite literally what some describe as born evil like u know those satans spawns kids that cut off babys fingers and dissect rabbits#all that yk. and i was his first and most frequent victim due to availability lol and my parents did not know any of it and if they did#they ignored it. so yeah u can imagine the relationship was a little strained and for a long time i lived in fear of him#also due to all the death threats and attempts on my life HAHA its kinda funny because i can say all this all detached now#but i think to anyone else this sounds mad as hell. like im not talking roughhousing or being mad at each other#he was always scarily calm and hyperintelligent he was actually diagnosed with some form of like super high intelligence that#makes kids capable of being really manipulative and thats what he used at every turn. everything was always calculated that was scary#if he was nice to me i would question if he was trying to lure me somewhere to hurt me yk?#anyway. sometimes those old thoughts come back when were hanging out alone but mostly i know hes changed and worked on himself#sorry oversharing oh wow
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deadpool!
âŠ.as your boyfriend.
description: deadpool as your boyfriend!
pairing: deadpool x you!
contains: 18+, mentions of sex!
|an: just saw deadpool & wolverine.. couldnât help myself.
- awful with emotions but always finds a way to make up for things whether through humor or sex.
- speaking of humor youâre never not laughing with him, or bickering, or fucking
- youâre the only person he can actually feel vulnerable and comfortable with, he cherishes that and he loves you so much for that.
- youâre his person, he would genuinely kill for you if it meant he would lose someone so important in his life.
- if someone makes you sad, mad or uncomfortable oooâŠnot his babygirl.
- he usually doesnât keep people or friends in his loop often, they could find him annoying or over the top but not you.
- you love absolutely everything about him, his outlandish humor, his extroverted personality, his big olâ mouth. you think itâs so hot.
- so hot when heâs mean to you so hot when heâs soft with you
- you literally bicker like two teenage girls all the time and he always somehow clocks your tea itâs ridiculous but you also find it impressive that he always has something to say that you cannot come back fromđ
- god you need to pray that no man ever even has the thought of coming on to you⊠heâll experience some banter with your boyfriend before itâs lights out.
- not only are you his but heâs yours! heâs super loyal and if he canât get someone to back off , you sure will!
- youâre always having fun with him date nights are some of the best times of your life, he always finds a way to entertain you no matter what youâre doing.
- always gotta hand somewhere, your ass, a singular cheek, a titty, somewhere. how could you expect him not to! youâre all his.
- you literally have him wrapped around your finger, heâd do absolutely anything for you.
- also always bullying you he is so straightforwardđ
âhon that has got to be the ugliest shirt iâve ever seen on youâ
âwade-â
âi know you got better in that closet that i snoop through and try on all your clothes when you arenât home now go!â
- heâs so tall so if youâre short oh wowâŠyouâre never catching a break
âsoooo howâs the weather down there.â wade said, placing his elbow on the crown of your head.
âprickâŠâ
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âyeah thatâs enough of that dirty mouth!â your boyfriend had announced before bending down and wrapping an arm around your behind, throwing you over his shoulder and positioning his palm on your ass.
âgod, wade put me down!â youâd laughed playfully hitting his back.
âdonât make me have to spank you!â he said, lighting pinching your ass.
- do not get an animal bc it will quickly become his center of attention and he will defend it over you.
âwade, weâre having my mom over please put it in the roomâ
âughâŠsheâs so mean isnât she sugar?â heâd said stroking your pet, followed by a âyes she is yes she is!â as the animal licked his face.
sigh.
- good lord we got a cuddle monster on our hands!
- absolutely adores any type of affection and practically begs you for it 24/7. he loves being little spoon specifically. also loves it when u scratch or message his back, bc that also gets him going..
- speaking of, you got this guy rock solid 24/7
âhungry for seconds?â he joked, hugging you from behind and pressing his hardened cock against your ass.
âwe literally jus-â youâd started just to be interrupted mid sentence.
âso! cmon baby throw a dog a bone.â he muttered, hand already gripping your inner thigh.
youâd sighed, god you canât resist him.
- it doesnât matter what youâre doing he finds anything you do hot i stg
- a M-U-N-C-H! for life, literally came in his pants from eating you out once! he loves making you feel good.
- a goofball during sex he cannot do shit seriouslyđ he be talking you and your pussy thru it!
- again, if youâre petite god help you bc he is large.
- babe, you better match his freak because yall doing anything.
- trying a new thing every night multiple times bc that sex is never vanilla and that dick is never tired! at some point heâs just making positions upđ
#deadpool x reader#deadpool#wade wilson#deadpool and wolverine#ryan reynolds#deadpool x you#marvel#mcu#wade wilson x reader#wade wilson x you#deadpool headcanons
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