#and their mutual abandonment issues

[notfeelingthyaster]

a weird part of the fandom tries to make louis the victim of both armand and lestat, as if they aren't all mutually toxic and louis didn't spend years playing hot and cold in both of his relationships

[crustycrackhead]

Gideon always liked the way Kremy looked when he smoked, but like in an ironic way, of course. Noticed how the burning embers perfectly reflecting in his golden eyes, Gideon Nathaniel Coal, was never a man of flowery poetry… but for Kremy, his buddy ol’ pal, he can’t help but think he’s as beautiful as a sunset in autumn.

Kremy and Gideon make me miserable and sad and I cry at nights for them— I don’t need them to have sex, I need them to be like… okay 😭, like damn, bitches can never win, I hate them, I hate them (I love them but they make me suffer)

Also this drawing started because I was inspired by this one author on AO3: Never_Eat_Sour_Wheat, @pedal-mail , I love their writing sm! They inspired me to draw this lil Drabble lol 🚶🚶🚶

[stagefoureddiediaz]

I’ve been wondering if maybe Ortiz’s plan to split up the 118 will actually play out in some fashion - that after Eddie leaves we’ll see the 118 being divided up in some way (perhaps Gerrards cast iron plumbing isn’t so cast iron and causes the 118 to flood and need to be refitted so everyone gets temporarily reassigned) and Buck doesn’t take this well - on top of Eddie leaving. So instead of reverting to Buck 1.0 who sleeps around, we actually get the Buck 1.0 who went travelling - that he’s going to literally run in an attempt to escape the feelings he’s feeling - that his abandonment issues will manifest in him abandoning his firefam and actual family (as in the Hans) before they can ‘also abandon him’.

That we’ll see buck on the road and that will lead to him realising he’s in love with Eddie and end up with him turning up in El Paso - without a plan but needing to see Eddie - and confessing his feelings.

[arighmaa-dataq]

“Don’t go…”

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[jonathanbyersphd]

I need to finish finals so I can get back to posting about my boy cause the misrepresentation is going crazy tbh

[katyspersonal]

Rare Tumblr L when you and the bitch that hates you share a mutual and after you casually interacted they do the possessive boyfriend shoulder grab thing by instantly sending them something after you but with very obvious interior motive, so you gotta show them you aren't scared and send this mutual even MORE love, and so you have passive-aggressive "communication" like this to assert your place while clueless mutual is DROWNING in attention and love as a result and thinks how lucky they are 😔

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

wow okay i just had. an idea. (ty brain)

SO LIKE imagine if childe and foul legacy are like actually two separate identities/personas and physically as well as mentally. two parts of a whole.

but they are simply so different!! sometimes they don't get along!!

childe is the trauma holder, so the lack of light in his eyes. he doesn't understand why foul legacy is so affectionate--doesn't he know? doesn't he know that attachment only leads to hurt?

he only carries the burden of what happened during his early years. the pain of separation from his loved ones, acceptance that he would never see them again, and then escaping, scarred both mentally and physically. since that day, he'd sworn he would never let such a thing happen again. he would always become stronger, push his limits, so that nothing of the sort would ever happen again.

sure, he's got a flirtatious nature, but he's not seeking a relationship, nor a company. it's a dangerous line of work, and he couldn't bear losing someone else. all he wants is a little human connection, a bit of understanding here and there, and then to disappear again. just so he can't get too attached. just so no one else can hurt him ever again. not even the abyss.

foul legacy is the trapped affection and love that childe never lets surface. he is simply so loving!! he assumes the best in everyone and falls in love easily and always wants to talk to people.

when he meets you he is ecstatic!! you are so enthusiastic to meet him, so happy just because he's him, and so fun to be around. you make him want to fall in love with you out of spite, just so he can show childe that not all attachment ends in tragedy!! he adores the way you mess with his mothy fur and bury your face in his chest for fun.

when you're upset he wants nothing more than to help you feel better and will do anything for you. did someone hurt you? how dare they hurt you, he would murder them if they were dangerous enough<3 no matter the cost, foul legacy would want to make sure that you are as safe from pain as possible.

in fact, he's almost like your puppy!! enjoys when you give him headpats, likes to nuzzle you as if he were a cat.

if you keep it up he might not even be able to help himself from falling in love with you anyways >;3

after all you're just too sweet and caring and loveable<3

Izzy every single time you send me something my day immediately gets 10 times better, thank you SO much for this!!! this immediately made me think of childhood friends AU so hear me out-

you remember the day you found Ajax out in the woods. it was three days after he went missing and sent everyone into a panic. you were but a child then, but when your best friend suddenly vanished your heart had dropped in worry- no one, besides his parents, looked for the young boy as much as you did, and when you finally found him looking blankly at a small blade in his hand you almost cried from happiness. his parents had been overjoyed to have their beloved son back, and everyone quickly settled back into life like nothing had changed

but Ajax had changed. instead of the sweet boy from before, now he was cold, even cruel to you. every time you tried to reach out you were only pushed away, your heart breaking more and more until it eventually shattered. so you gave up. you stopped trying to visit Ajax, making excuses anytime his parents asked if you'd like to see him and outright refusing your parents' encouragements to visit. once you were old enough, you immediately moved away from Snezhnaya to Liyue, wanting to put as much distance between you and those painful memories as possible, and for a little bit you found some sort of peace

until the Fatui came to Liyue, and Ajax, now Childe, followed. you knew to stay far away the minute you saw that familiar head of ginger hair, but just a few nights after Childe finds you, although not as himself

when your gaze lands on Foul Legacy standing in your room you immediately shriek in fear, scrambling away into the farthest corner as the monster hastily raises his hands to show he means no harm. your eyes widen as he slowly approaches, then snap shut when he's looming over you- this is the end, you're going to die here and nobody's going to care because you're not worth caring about-

something bumps against your chest, and you open your eyes to see the beast nudging his head against you, letting out delighted purrs and croons. he's been looking for you for so long- ever since he first laid eyes on you years ago, when Ajax crawled out of the Abyss. it broke Foul Legacy's heart to see you despairing as his host shut you out to protect himself, pushed the shining light that was you away so he wouldn't feel pain. Foul Legacy snuggles against you, purrs rising in volume when you begin stroking his soft hair- surely, this is what heaven feels like, no?

Childe will awaken with no memories of what his Abyssal half did the previous night, only aware of the vaguest sense of a promise, a promise to visit you every night as Foul Legacy and protect you in anyway that he can

[empty-blog-for-lurking]

I think it is genuinely really funny that of all the Lance's from my different aus, the most chill one out of all of them is the one who got violently murdered and came back as an unperceivable eldritch horror whose first act after coming back was vengence on the guy who killed him and then steal his house.

[skiddlecat]

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[leechloach]

My best friend of uhhh since I was 11 so that's 15 almost 16 years....... Is dumping me because I said that I dislike how grossed out he is by snot and spit (insanely stupid. Who needs this conversation. I blame myself) and he didn't like how I worded it. no indication he was mad btw he just waiting a day to try to confront me about it but got scared, deleted the message, I saw the message preview and read it, etc etc our last like 4-5 fights have been about how he doesn't like how I phrased things i.e. Semantics it is. So. So. SOOOOOOO stupid. It literally reminds me of fights we or like our friend group would have when we were fucking 14 but I guess people can only take so much huh!

Literally I feel like a dog with behavioral issues that snapped at someone's hand one too many times bc they didn't understand my "I'm scared, leave me alone" signals. One Too Many Times. So im getting dumped in the fucking woods for it. but don't worry, the person dumping me feels guilty about it

[talldecafcappuccino]

Can't believe everyone on the east coast and in europe went to bed and I'm left to spiral on the internet by myself.

[beauty-grace-outer-space]

It's selfish time!

[tokifanclub]

PSA

[novelhater]

i love me some toxic yaoi but damn there is definitely a line you cannot come back from and if the ml starts pulling that shit forget breaking up he just has to die lmao

[selenoplexia]

logging back in just bc this is my only private diary

[phoenshire]

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