#and that sucks i think. i want to be supportive of the people who are wronged but i also want to tell the racists to go suck an egg

[stargatesg-1obsessed]

As someone who has only started writing this year, I feel this. I feel the pressure of feeling like I have to write just as good as some of my really good writer mutals or like the books i read, but in reality, they've been doing it for years, and I've just started. I don't need to be as good as them because I'm just going to end up critising myself for being a beginner writer and not having all the talent straight away, and that's just stupid.

All the feedback I've gotten on my fanfics has been wonderful. They're all really lovely people, and they're supportive even if the writing sucks because that's just what you do. It someone's writing is bad, don't point it out. If it bothers you that much, don't read it! I personally would much rather have one less hit on a fic than have someone be hateful in the comments. There is just no need for it. If you want to give them some tips, go for it. But don't be rude about it, especially when that person isn't a writer but is still judging them.

The whole point of fanfic is to have your own creative freedom, with the characters you love. And if your writing isn't as good as someone else's, or it doesn't sound as good as a book you've read, it doesn't matter!! All writers have off days, even the really talented ones with really popular books/fics. No one should critise you for your writing. They don't have the right. The only time it is semi acceptable is when you ask someone to beta a fic for you. And even then, it's not for critising. It's for helping out with any mistakes, typos, ooc dialogue, etc etc. You're not there to judge them, you're there to help them.

So please, if you see a fic with writing, that could be better, either support them, or just don't say anything. Because I know that writers need criticism sometimes, but what we really need is support. And if there is something you want to point out, say something simple like; "Loved this fic! Really loved how the characters interacted!! :D Although I think I saw a little typo towards the end when it says "the entire planet," I think you meant to put "the entire plane,". But it's not that big a deal, and we all make mistakes :))".

That's based on a comment I got from someone on AO3 who helped me out majorly with a typo. It changed the entire sentence and didn't make any sense otherwise. And they really saved me there.

But if you're going to say something rude like; "at the end, when you put "the entire plane," instead of what I think you meant to put which is "the entire planet," it really messed up the fic and it makes no sense." Then just don't point it out because I'm sure someone else with kinder words will.

Fanfic writers don't need to be as good as professional authors!!! Just have fun and create what you want, and what makes you happy. Don't be scared to post something because it's practise. We all do it, and we'll all improve if we have practising. Don't let someone else's harsh words stop you for doing what brings you joy.

At some point "fanfic can be as good as professional writing" became "fanfic should be as good as professional writing" and that's caused major damage to fandom spaces.

[kkayyerr]

Safe Place.

Summary: The interviewer makes reader uncomfortable and Drew Starkey is there for her when she unintentionally regress.

Warnings: Age regression, talking about sexual stuff and reader being uncomfortable with it, slight angst, fluffy end!

Author’s note: My first cg!Drew Starkey work, hope you’ll like it!🫶🏻🥹

You weren’t a big fan of interviews. Especially when there was a tone of weird and uncomfortable questions that you didn’t want to answer. Today’s interview was one of the most stressful and uncomfortable interviews that you ever had. You and your coworker Drew Starkey were both sending disgust glares to each other each time the interviewer would ask another awfully weird question, making you both want to leave immediately.

 

„I would personally like to see more of you in the revealing outfits.”

 

The interviewer said, looking straight at you, as if he were trying to provoke you. You tried to ignore that comment, even though this time you sent Drew more of a scared glare. You were very uncomfortable, and he knew that if the situation turns out to be stressful enough for you, you’re probably going to unintentionally regress, like it had happened a couple of times before on the set, when you were getting too overwhelmed. You clearly didn’t want to regress in front of the camera, so you tried to hold it in as much as you could. The interviewer didn’t seem to care about your discomfort, continuing with his game. 

 

„Your body just made for those sex scenes; you were phenomenal.”

 

Suddenly, you realized that it was too much. It was already hard enough for you to film in those scenes, and you were not sure that you could’ve done it without Drew’s support. Hearing about it again made you feel dirty and smaller, just from being talked to like that. 

Your gaze became blurry the second before Drew caught your hand, stopping you from sucking on your thumb right in front of the camera. You saw him standing up, letting the interviewer know that both of you are about to leave. He immediately understood that you had regressed, and he wasn’t blaming you for it; he knew how disgusted you might’ve felt just because of those words. You also stood up, almost immediately giving him your hand. You didn’t care about what people would think if they saw you and Drew holding hands in front of the camera; you finally chose to care about yourself too. 

 

„Where are you going? We’re not done!”

 

The man tried to argue, but Drew was just calmly heading to the doors, checking if neither of you had forgotten something in the studio. You still were staying close to him, squeezing his hand even tighter. It was a signal that you were very overwhelmed right now and won’t handle another minute here without throwing a tantrum. He turned around before leaving the room, knowing that he had to give the interviewer an explanation.

 

„We’re done. Your questions don’t sound professional to me, and you clearly make me and my college uncomfortable. We won’t be staying here and letting you talk to us that way, sorry.”

 

Just like that, both of you had left, and you almost sighed with relief when you were finally free from that asshole and his sexualizing questions. Drew stood right in front of you, giving you some time to calm down. You just cuddle up to him, immediately hiding your face in his neck like you did every time you would regress in public. 

You couldn’t let the world see you like that, but for some reasons you didn’t want to hide from Drew; instead, you would just let him hide you from everybody else who you knew wouldn’t understand and except you like that. 

He was your safe space.

 

„Dada, can we go?”

 

You asked, and his brows raised from hearing your words. You never called him that, and you never regressed that small either. It seemed like his actions today made you more comfortable with him, and maybe it meant more than that, but those were adult conversations. Right now, he was just happy to be there for you.

 

„Of course, little one.”

 

He said, carefully cupping your face in his hands. He knew that eye contact would usually calm you down, or at least that worked all the previous times. 

 

„But maybe we should get you an ice cream first?”

 

He chuckled as you aggressively nodded. Drew was ready to buy a whole fucking ice cream section for you, just to make you forget about today’s awful experience.

Taglist: @tinylilacbun @aew-regression-cove @rafecameronsloverrrrr

[derpydoteddrake]

Viktor is under some kind of influence, but at first glance it's hard to tell the exact nature of it.

But I believe its more simple than one would think.

The core is basically jingling keys in front of him and telling him to look at them.

But I believe its more simple than one would think.

The core is basically jingling keys in front of him and telling him to look at them.

Firstly, why is the sky hallucination sus? could it just be his own mind?

Her guiding him to her book and later showing up next to the shimmer addict could be explained as just his conscious.

However, he also woke up to her screams and it was her voice that guided him to the addicts, both things go beyond what could manifest only from his own perception of things.

Not only that, this is the exact place where he later cocoons himself again. So it's no accident he ended up here.

It's also good to note how Viktors saw her differently then how she was, he sees him as a more idolised version of herself, which is als a good indication that she is not real.

But then in act 2 she appeals completely harmless, she doesn't push him into anything, and it looks like she offers some sense of emotional support.

And that's the point, it's feeding into viktors weaknesses as a person, all it needs to do, is give him the illusion of company, and keep him in his head.

Viktor was always a loner, but he also seeked out second opinions and he was in fact very lonely and wished for company.

This is exactly what the core is giving him the illusion of. A second opinion and company.

By herself “sky” does not offer any new information to viktor, she is either stathing things he is already aware of, things viktor thinks she would say, or reassures him.

“She liked me, she would be concerned about me!”

“I remember telling her that once!”

“She was caring, she would be upset at someone's death!”

In fact, it might even try to distract him from the important things, we don't see a lot of it, but the moment Viktor starts to wonder what's up with Jayce, she attempts to move his thoughts elsewhere from thinking about what is wrong with him.

Viktors perception of the world is fundamentally changed, this is already pretty isolating but now he has a mind buddy! He's Not alone anymore, there's someone who talks to him, who cares about him, who he can share ideas with,

someone who loves him.

I'm going to concede, I do think their relationship has a romantic undertone, if for nothing else it's because viktors perception of sky is pretty heavily defined by her love letters to him.

Regardless of your reading (how much do you think he reciprocates that), it is giving him the company he wished for.

Why is that bad?

It's because it keeps him docile, and so far up his own 4ss that he doesn't realise how messed up what he is actually doing is. He is stuck with his own regurgitated thoughts.

The only thing he ever gets is reassurance that what he is doing is in fact good, he doesn't have an outside perspective on what's happening with him or around him.

He doesn't have the head space to self reflect cuz something always chimes in, always keeps him thinking, solving problems, solving puzzles.

We never once saw him actively trying to talk to any of his followers, the only people who he does are not affected by him, and come to him directly, he didn't even bother seeking out Jayce himself.

The only way he communicates with them is when he wants to do his creepy puppet thing and if the only thing left in his followers head is gratitude towards him and he never examines what it did to them as people, no wonder he doesn't notice a thing.

He just unquestionably spreads the core's influence.

No wonder the first awful idea anyone gave him in who knows how long that isn't his own stuck with him.

He always had a tendency to get sucked into his work and dont bother with people (ironically that is one of the reasons sky got dusted) and don't bother with anything else, and now the conditions are orchestrated for this to basically keep him in his own head.

He doesn't really care about his followers either, he watched one of them get smashed and didn't give a damn.

He doesn't care for them as people, they are more akin to problems he can solve and move on. He was barely even bothered about Jayce's condition, probably assuming he will come to him and he can fix him right away.

We can see this in his visions of how he conceptualizes himself, he looks very human, and yet he got these unsettling yellow eyes. He is blind to the ways he changed, just look at how he acts in them.

At first glance he appears a lot more emotive and it also tells us that he is fairly enjoying himself and his new perception of the world but also the main thing we see of him is his endless curiosity about things, not his empathy towards them.

He is well meaning of course, but he doesn't/cant reflect enough to see what he is really doing. Namely taking away the things he saw in these people, their dreams.

And he constantly has problems to solve, we saw how many people went to him, he always has something to think about, and he always has someone to talk to about it without needing to waste precious time on seeking out a second opinion.

In s1 he barely reacted to the beginning of a civil war going around him, now people depend on him and in the middle of a civil war he doesn't have any way of protecting these people.

He barely gives a damn about him slowly deteriorating. He doesn't live in reality anymore. He cannot see the forest for the trees. (though he might have had some plans we don't know of, since Salo was gathering materials for him.)

And his guilt just amplifies this.

From s1 one of his strongest traits was how much he believed if he gets the right tools, and the opportunity, he can help people.

“Do you think my life ambition is to be an assistant?”

“If you are going to change the world don't ask for permission.”

“All I did was believe in myself.”

This is what skys death puts into question.

This is why he almost jumped afterwards, this fundamental belief in himself was put into question. He got the chance to do what he wanted and someone died.

This is where his guilt comes into play, he isn't making his own dream a reality, we saw that what he really wanted is to give people tools that they can use to create, but that's not what he is doing.

He is doing what he believes Skye's dream was.

It doesn't even look like he invents things anymore, he just mostly uses his powers and studies botanics. (tho we saw Salo steal some stuff for him so he might have some plans that we don't know yet?)

This is even the context he brought her up to jayce: she had such dreams.

From her notes we can assume she hoped to help make a zaun that is cleaner and more connected to nature.

This is the reason why he is so receptive to skyes positive affirmation, its because in his head he is correcting his wrong, her affirmation and forgiveness gave him back the belief that he can still do good.

Now he has the right tools and the opportunity to do it, so he won't fail again.

He is literally wearing her symbol on his clothes.

He is doing this out of some kind of repentance for his sins.

So the way he sees it: he is helping these people, who on they own free will just happen to stay here cuz its nice and he conveniently can puppet them if needed, he doesn't question that cuz he never bothers to talk to them and skys happy and she talks to him so why bother when no one sees the world like he does.

What he doesn't realise is that he is pretty much meant to die there.

There's a reason why his palace was builded here, he literally got told to build it there. It was there so he could die and cocoon himself again.

When he first saw jayce and encountered the singularity, he was literally describing himself.

“self annihilating and replicating” That's him, this entity is connected to him, he is meant to die and be reborn over and over again. He might not completely embody it yet, but he is a product of it. (and he will probably gonna try to harness it, that's what the beginning of ep 6 set up.)

I don't think he expected jayce to shoot him, when he saw what he was going to do he looked pretty shocked, but he was intentionally kept docile by the core basically guaranteeing that even actually he will die out.

And then he had the audacity to conclude it must have happened cuz people just suck.

He tried nothing to prevent this and he is already out of options.

To his defense he was probably really lost in the sauce at this point.

This is also why he was making his following, he was supposed to draw power from them after he dies so he can be reborn again.

This also means that singed and ambessa are probably interfering with this process.

It would explain why he looks so wrong in the poster.

In conclusion, the core keeps Viktor in a mind state where he is docile enough not to question what's happening around him using his already existing flaws against him in order to spread itself.

One last thing I would like to add is that I don't think this will be his final transformation, I believe the final one will either happen at the top of the hex gate or at the bottom of it.

[daddyd0nt]

I don’t disagree with a lot of what you are saying and I feel your heart is in the right place. And unfortunately violence against AFAB people by AMAB people is common enough that we need to segregate first by sex. Even if you are intersex (I am technically intersex myself) you are in almost every case designated either AFAB or AMAB (medical intervention to correct this and make an intersex body fully resemble one sex is usually abusive and medically unnecessary but almost always the person will have the traits of one sex more than the other). I’m not at all against another split and normalizing 4 spaces or having more gender neutral options than sex specific ones but AFAB people need to have their own space to maintain safety. Again these spaces are not organic or natural, they are something we put in place because AMAB people proved they couldn’t be trusted in mixed spaces.

And it sucks like I genuinely know it sucks but there is no completely safe way to allow AMAB people into AFAB spaces. Even if it results in 1/1000000 AFAB people being attacked by the one bad AMAB apple in the bunch, any more than 0 women is unacceptable as a sacrifice to validate AMAB identity/feelings. I spend a fair amount of time institutionalized and having the general spaces be mixed is scary enough I would never feel safe in a high security psych ward if I had to let them give me drugs to sleep at night and I would be left in the room with somebody who could not only theoretically rape but possibly impregnate me. AMAB people have spent all of human culture making their penises into weapons, I’m not overreacting to feel like in that kind of situation an AMAB person is armed but I’m not, I don’t feel any better about a possibly criminally insane person sleeping next to me with a penis than a knife even if I’m confident that they won’t use it to hurt me the fact that the opportunity is there and I can’t defend myself or even hurt than as bad as they could hurt me is enough to make it totally unacceptable.

Also as a masc presenting/gnc AFAB person I’m terrified of the prospect of forcing trans men into AMAB spaces especially hospitals also and prisons AFAB trans people have a greater chance of being abused especially by AMAB people than AMAB trans people do. One of the biggest factors in my detransition was the face that I was regularly in and out of institutions and also involved in a fair amount of flying too close to the sun legally for a while so the threat of being locked up in an AMAB space due to my gender presentation was really real to me.

I agree that most of our problems are due to capitalism, but patriarchy exists even independently of capitalism just like racism and ableism do.

But honestly our hearts are in the same place I also want to see everybody succeed and feel good and spend the vast majority of the time looking for similarities and opportunities to bond with each other and fight together for common causes. I think trans and cis women can fight 99% of our fights together and love each other and genuinely be comrades. I’m absolutely in support of trans people creating their own trans-specific safe spaces that is wonderful I couldn’t be more behind wanting a safe and comfortable and validating space for all my wonderful trans siblings. But we cannot throw away something as material as the physical safety of AFAB bodies to validate something as nebulous as AMAB feelings. I’m really not coming from a place of hate or even dislike at all like I said I fully support the creation of safe and validating spaces for trans people but that can’t come at the expense of the safe spaces AFAB people have fought for.

"OP is a terf" is a thought-terminating cliche meant to keep you from questioning the status quo and keep you afraid of being labeled a heretic should you come to your own conclusions about anything.

[velvetvexations]

I have nothing against op but "sucks that trans women are having to support trans men :/" is just wild. When 90% of posts about transmisogyny end with "and that's why trans men suck", who is really putting the conversation about transmisogyny on hold for trans men? Probably the people who keep making transmisogyny about trans men??

Queer discourse always sucks, it sucks that members of our own community always have to defend each other against each other, but it's also kind of our responsibility to defend each other and anyone who's not a complete asshole will get that. So to be like "I'm sorry that you with your higher concerns have to debase yourselves for little ol us" is weird!!

I get your point and agree with it, but I do think you're reading a bit much into the post. I understand that they were framing it as it being a burden trans women are shouldering, taking away time and energy that could be spent on their own specific issues. You read that correctly. Nonetheless, I feel there's a broader context to take into account.

Transmascs are bombarded with messaging that makes quite a lot of them need transfems to have to tell them that no, they're not misogynistic for existing, and those transfems then have to use their relative authority in the discussion as the people claimed to be the Most Victim to shoot that shit down. I don't consider that a burden on me, but rather an exhausting and frustrating situation to be in for transmascs having to rely on the transfems vocally in their favor to tell people to knock it off because their own voices are diminished and it puts them in a very demeaning position.

So I think all that plays a part in the OP's feelings which I find understandable and coming from a place of more than just "it sucks trans women are having to show solidarity." It sucks having to go to your sister and ask her to get your bullies to leave you alone. It makes you feel guilty for relying on her and it makes you feel less powerful for not being able to do it yourself.

I think in retrospect I really regret not having added anything to it because you are right that solidarity should be the default expectation and I don't want transmascs to feel like their problems are a burden. I love my brothers and it's my sincere pleasure to advocate for them.

Truthfully, if not for this discourse I would be just about useless to the world. I can't advocate for my own issues, not only lacking the circumstances to even attempt doing anything IRL if I wanted to but also being horrifically triggered engaging with the outside world unless I ignore it as much as possible. When I used Reddit as my primary social media outlet I literally had lowkey PTSD from how many times I was accidentally exposed to news stories and had to be very careful to avoid them.

But so many people tell me I have a positive impact on them and their life. As much as I hate these circumstances, I'm happy to have found something I can do for others, and there's nothing wrong with needing your sister's help. <3

[rolfedewolfes-uglytoes]

WARNING: HORRIBLE STUFF WILL BE MENTIONED IN HERE

if you are under 18 then I recommend you probably shouldn't look at this post

I'm making this post because I don't want to interact with this person AT ALL and I'm showing you WHY.

(I'm saying sorry here because I genuinely have a hard time making long posts. If I sound weird or I don't make any sense just dm me or comment.)

TO THE PERSON I'M TALKING ABOUT: I don't care if you see this or not. Just don't interact with me.

This will have nsfw art of Mitzi and Beach Bear so yea...

WARNING: I AM SHOWING PICTURES AS PROOF

I don't know if people have made a post like this but I remembered those posts a while ago about how we shouldn't idolize creeps in the fandom just because they have a big collection or they're popular.

I didn't want to put this on my main because I didn't want one of my muts to be triggered by this post.

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I don't know how to start this so I'm just going to jump right into it. (WARNING I suck at spelling so there will probably be tons of errors)

Back when I was 17, me and this other person (who was also 17 who I don't wanna mention for privacy) had a conversation about weird people in the RAE fandom on discord. We talked about how there were so many creeps in the community and they brought up CavitySam. (CS) Then they basically showed me what I'm gonna show you. I've only thought about making a post like this today because I've just been thinking about it a lot. So I went on a search for that disgusting picture (it wasn't hard to find) I was 17 when I found out about all of this stuff so I didn't think it was a good idea to say anything. Now I'm 18 so I feel like I should say something.

(I believe CS goes by she/Her because I've seen people refer to her as such so that's what I'm gonna use.)

SO NOW I'M GOING TO SHOW YOU WHAT I'VE FOUND

I was shown this picture of Beach Bear and Mitzi... and as you can see the artstyle of the nsfw art matches with CavitySam's artstyle.

Here is massive evidence: on the page on the nsfw website there was nsfw of Kedamono that was basically an nsfw version of CS's sfw art of him.

It wasn't some horrible edit. The lewd part matched right with the other line art perfectly like it had always been there.

I do have a Google doc I can link to anyone who wants to see the half censored Pic of Kedamono, Mitzi, and Beach Bear for more proof.

I not trying to say that CS is a full blown ped0 (bc I can't say if that's true or not. I know people have said on other platforms that she is but i can't say for certain) but SHE STILL MADE FULL BLOWN NSFW ART OF BEACH BEAR AND MITZI. THAT'S DISGUSTING. I know a lot of people in the rae community on here. I know that you guys don't support this disgusting stuff.

If you wanna defend CS idc. There's no way that this isn't her art. They look so similar. I would be absolutely shocked if it wasn't. And in all honesty I don't want it to be. I really wish people wouldn't make nasty stuff with Mitzi in it. I believe CS made art for Aaron at one point and knowing that just makes me feel nasty.

I don't really know how to end this.

I'm sorry for such a serious post but I feel like it's unfair to people who don't know.

[nachosncheezies]

In defense of late-canon x files (including the revivals)

I was thinking about this poll after I commented on it, and I kinda want to be brave and say more.

Short answer to the poll's question before I go any further: If you're a new fan and a sensitive sort who thinks you'll struggle with your blorbos Really Going Through It and you really need a happy ending, I suggest you stop at the end of season 8. Do not pass go, do not look at spoilers. Disregard this post entirely, close the internet, and go look at something that makes you happy. (Also fuck every part of society that characterizes sensitivity as inherently weak and bad and some kind of personal failing, you are valid.)

That said, "quality" as a concept is entirely subjective, and the question of whether or not there's a decline in quality for any story is wholly subjective, too. In the case of x files? I'm not convinced there is a decline. I am going to be upfront that I haven't yet watched past season 8, though I am almost completely spoiled on events after that - and the reason I haven't watched yet is not because of how I know events are going to unfold, but simply because I don't want it to end!!! Ohh, the tension between "I CAN'T WAIT!!!" and "Nooo don't be over D:"

When I first came to txf fandom on tumblr and gradually became spoiled about what happens in late canon though, I was often left uncomfortable and tbh kinda queasy about it. As I said in my comment on the poll, the hate for especially the revival and IWTB, or to a lesser extent even seasons 8 & 9, is very well documented. But! There are other takes to be found here on tumblr if you figure out where to look, and my feelings have changed!

The thing is, I have yet to find myself in any fandom where there isn't a vocal subset of fans who dislike the story after a certain point. I am not joking when I say that no one hates the things they love as passionately as sci-fi and fantasy fans. In my experience, it often hinges on the extent to which a viewer has strong notions on where they would like the characters to end up. In particular with series where shipping is a dominant component for the bulk of a fandom, I have almost universally found that there comes some turning point in the story where "let them be happy you cowards" is the dominant view, and things that compromise the attainment of a degree of romantic stability and/or domesticity are, to many fans, annoying at best and despicable at worst. But! As one tagset on the linked poll said:

and I think for any fandom, that last tag especially is so so so important. (I think that's harder for people watching a weekly series live, bc you have so much time to analyze and speculate and dream before the next breadcrumb drops, but I digress.)

So why am I saying this and how do I apply it to x files? Well, I eventually found that there are also a subset of fans who find redeeming things right up to the very end and actually quite like the whole thing! The things that I had seen people rage and ventpost so much about honestly never quite sounded to me as "out of character" or "untrue to the story" etc as those same ventposts made them sound. And I've discovered I'm not the only one who felt that way. Do I love that the spooky squad had to go through all of those things? No, those poor guys D: Life is hard and they have been through so much trauma. But do those events and their choices make sense to me in light of everything that came before? Yes! And I honestly can't wait to see them fight to overcome those things, breaking, healing, always learning, always growing, always getting better.

So if you're wondering "where does it go wrong"... well, I'm a completionist, as many people who've answered that post are, but also my personal opinion is that I don't think it does go wrong. If you're new and interested in exploring why I've gone from "vaguely queasy" to "excited" about the whole thing, or want to maybe balance out the impressions you're getting about the later seasons before deciding whether or not you want to see the whole thing, I'll put a few blog names in the comments.

Final admission: even once I started feeling a little more confident in the possibility that "actually ok maybe I'm not crazy, maybe this all kind of is in character and does make sense", there was one big plot point that I was NOT looking forward to and I thought I would never be comfortable about. In hindsight, I think my discomfort came from the negative responses being SO seemingly universal that I hadn't stopped to let myself truly consider other possible interpretations on that point. (I mean my initial instinct when I first read about it was, why are we mad about this?? CSM is literally the most unreliable narrator in history???? it's obviously fake news?????? this must be either a fever dream someone's having or it's a misdirection ploy against whatever shadowy forces might still be lurking?????????????? but for whatever reason I guess I had halfway written that off.) Happily, just last month there's a new post-s11 novel out, and although reviews for the book as a whole are mixed, it seems to have laid the groundwork for resolving that plot issue in a way I think most fans would be broadly happy with. If you're interested in being spoiled about that and seeing how, I recommend searching #perihelion on @agent-troi who liveblogged reading it with receipts, scroll back chronological-style to the first post on the subject and see how it unfolded. (And never forget that Dana Katherine Scully is the queen of denial as a coping mechanism lol)

Everyone's mileage will vary. Each person can feel however they want! But for anyone new, I wanted you to know that the very many ventposts you might be seeing are not all there is to this show or its fandom. Some of us love it despite - or even because of - all the things that went "wrong". I think we just don't talk about it as much.

[froppy-butterflyfan2000]

Magic users or people make contact with devil to achieve their desires. Only to get their souls tainted by corruption or they have no soul as a result of the contract.

Travis would never make a contract with demons, especially if it were the devil. He recommends everyone not to do this. However, Janaya is not one of them. He have been to the Underworld before and spend a long time there communicating with demons, whether his mom is on duty than in the surface talking to humans. He did learnt demonic attribute fire magic when honing his fire magic by his godfather, Thomas Lucitor.

In the forest, he stood beneath a tree in the middle of a clearing, having left the safety of the old pine tree, Janaya draw a sigil on the moist ground with a stick. He hold a knife to carve the palm of his hand, freeing the blood and make contact of the sigil. He placed a candle at each of the cardinal points. “Tabi Tabi Po,” Janaya chanted for himself as a protection when starting to prepare to contacts a demon. As he turned to each direction, he bowed, lit the candle and whispered the name of the spirit guarding that direction. Finished he stood tall, arms at her side, hands open wide, head tipped back and facing the sky above.

“I am yours to command. Come to me, whether you identify as a lady or lord, let me know you’re here.”

It is mandatory for demons (except for imps & low ranking succubuses and incubuses), especially the ones in the Mewnian Underworld to be called Lord or Lady when casting an innovation. Always. Status and wealth is what society is obsessed with. Despite this, the Lucitor and Butterfly Kingdom gave up most of their wealth to give support to others and to pay damages in other dimensions. The magic summoning sigil is formed and a burst of flame appears, revealing a demon. Janaya covers his face with his arm to protect himself from the flame, as he put down a bit of his defense, he saw the demon he summoned look like.

“Who there to summoned me?” the demon purrs. “Cause, I am at your service!”

Janaya could tell that this demon is cat demon but more human-y. It clearly obvious that this one is definitely a Mewnian demon. The Lucitors took half of the Mewman population during Lyrics’ reign of the Butterfly Queendom, the Lucitors could have been trying to assimilate them and their people to Mewnan standards to protect their descendants when the mewmans try to wipe out monster kind. Imagine that you are a mewman just chilling and you're suddenly sucked into the Underworld. An old tactic that previous mewman leaders use to breed out the demon race.

The cat demon narrowed her eyes looking at the wizard, then she saw the branded tattoo on his arm.

“You works for the Lucitors? Then that means… You are that Ordonia’s spawn.” Said the cat demon, quickly realizing who summoned her. She smirked, thinking she just hit the jackpot. She cannot wait to obtain bragging rights. “Why is The Butterfly-Lucitors’ Prized Seer summoned me here?” She said arrogantly.

“You know what, I should find another demon to summon to make a pact with.” Said Janaya, flipping the pages of his Demonlogy and Spells book throughly.

“Hey! Don’t you dare! I do want to help Princess Nebula’s best friend on a problem he wants to solve.” She said.

He narrowed his eyes, glaring at the cat demon for calling Nebula a princess because she isn’t royalty. A dark pit in his stomach is form from regret in summoning one of the noble demons, Thomas Lucitor, Nebula’s dad have to keep an eye on.

“I can smell your desperation right away.” She said, coming out of the sigil to walks up to him. Her tail is wagging and then flick his nose. Janaya grumble, rubbing his nose.

“Watch it.”

“Make me.” She said. Then she bends down to his ear. “Or I will force myself to lend an ear.”

Worst decision ever.

~~

Ten minutes before Janaya make a demonic pact, and at the Bishops’ Cabin, Hannibal at his desk, is telling Travis, sitting at his own desk, intel on Janaya.

“Aster said that Janaya been acting strange,” Hannibal said to Travis, all while filing in the inventory management form for the Bishops on Excel from the Synonymous laptop. “I told you that giving them to him is a good idea.”

Travis rolled his eyes, taking a sip of his protein shake. There he goes, The Mad Wolfhound convincing him that his idea is not nuts.

“Oh come on! Aster watch like a hawk. He saw him scooped up dog’s solid wastes and keeping them instead of dispose them,” Hannibal continued.

“It is probably by your bad influence,” Travis remarked.

‘Disposing them’, that is something that Hannibal would say, but shouldn’t say that here. Wait, Hannibal is talking about Janaya not disposing of excrements, not Hannibal’s attempt in disposing Aster. Where did Travis’ mind run off to? Travis shake his head and takes in on the informations. What is up with him lately? Then he realizes what he just said to Hannibal. He looks at Hannibal to see that Hannibal is offended.

“I’m sorry, I was focusing on my own agenda and you distracted me,” said Travis, he yawned. He rub his eyes in a circle motions. Hannibal takes a deep breaths to calm down. ‘It is not worth it,’ Hannibal thought to himself, knowing full well the idea of why Travis is like this. He is just tired. Tired of boredom because he need to heal from sustaining a broken wrist bones. Tired of disciplining the fiends he took in. Worse of all… waiting for the right time to apologize to a certain camper. He cannot help but feels…. Sympathetic towards him.

“It is fine. I understand. You already have enough plates in your hands. I shouldn’t have given you more. I honestly don’t know what going on inside Janaya’s head, all I know is that I am not the bad influence here. Right now. It is either Duchess or Eugenia…”

Travis look at Hannibal. He sigh.

“Ok. How about this, I will be heading back to the monitoring room, so just stay where you are,” said Travis. “I will inform you about anything.”

Hannibal nod. The Monster Hunting Bishop head to the Monitoring Room, while drinking his protein shake. As he got there he saw that camera pick up something. Travis spit out his drink and his eyes are bulging to see Janaya preparing something big when sneaking out of his dorm that night. By sneak out as in “shadow-walk” his way out of the dorm. His horrors came true as a demon revealed, glitching the footage and undergoes a malfunction.

“Fuck…” Travis let out, realizing that it was Eugenia all along. Eugenia tutoring Janaya in demonology. He dashed out of the Monitoring Room and alarm Hannibal back at the cabin, causing Hannibal to be very confused at the alarmed Travis.

He need to stop Janaya from going further and further into the taking the route. There is a different way into becoming the greatest wizard of all.

“Hannibal, find out what is Eugenia’s motive. I will talks Janaya out of this mess.” Travis instructed.

“Huh? Whaa….” Said Hannibal, and next thing Hannibal knew is that Travis left.

Travis imagines Janaya already shaking hand with a demon, forming a demonic pact, and complete the pact, as he found Janaya in the dormitory, walking back to his dorm room.

“Janaya, can I… No… I need—,”

CHOMP

Travis yelp in pain, and looks at a creature bite his hand. Travis’ eyes are widen and his eyes landed on a blue dog. Janaya halts his steps and turns to face Travis. Janaya grumbles as he is facing Counsellor Mystery. “Get that blue dog off me!”

“Gaspard, get off him.” Janaya commanded.

The dog let go and shift his guard dog mode to a happy go lucky mood. Janaya’s shadow rise up and form a chair for Janaya to sit down on.

‘Since when did Jan have a dog? He is more of a cat guy than a dog guy.’ Travis thought. ‘Worst yet, the demon.’

“Is that a fiend or a spell?” Travis asked.

Janaya looks at Travis with a smile with half of the upper lip tighten disconcertingly the monster hunter. “Neither,” Janaya answered in a flat tone. Travis is somehow relief. But the fear still linger. That could still be a demon! Or….. he off his bonkers, because what if that this dog thing is just a dog?

“So it is just a dog?” Travis asked.

“Yes, Counsellor Mystery. Duchess introduced me to this breed.” Janaya answered.

Gaspard bark, letting his tongue out, and wags his tail.

Travis is ok now. He is relief. So this dog thing, that magically appears out of no where, is actually just a dog. He is not buying it. Plus he mentions Duchess, is she working with Eugenia? Eugenia and Duchess. Eugenia, he is suspicious of, but Duchess would never do this. She wants to be involved in anything demon-related. What are they, separately, plotting?

“You want to kills him or you wants me to kill him?” Janaya continued the conversations, catching Travis off guard.

Travis tensed up when Janaya said that. The monster hunter shake his head quickly. He would never let anyone to murder an animal.

“No! Jan. Geez.” Said Travis.

Janaya narrowed his eyes, but still keep the smile, but shifting it with his lips close to hide his teeth and the eyes are not tightened up anymore, leaving no crow’s feet. There is no sparkles in his eyes as he smile.

“Only my friends call me Jan.”

“Okay fam.”

‘Lower your cringe level.’ Janaya thought. “Travis, I’m not your friend.”

Janaya is still sitting there, on a chair made of shadow, not listening to a thing Travis said. “I’m trying to help you because I am astute to certain areas and I know what making a pact with a demon do. I seen it before. You will give and give, until you have nothing left but your soul. I do not want your soul to be taken, or the very least, not get you kick out of Camp Synonymous!” Said Travis.

Janaya’s eyes are widened then frowns at Travis. Is this what he is all worked up is all of this about? Then again, Travis does have the intolerance when it comes to people using supernatural knowledge for ruthless reason…. And reckless reason. “I know. Why do you thinks I made a pact with the demon, supervising by Counsellor Maximoff,” Said Janaya. “A Mewnian Demon.” He corrected. “It was the best option for me. It is less the risk because the demon is an American law bided Mewni Underworldian civillain.”

Travis blinks. “Excuse me?”

Janaya let out a sigh because it is a lot to explain. He get up from the chair and is disperse back into his shadow. He open his book to pulls out two grading sheets. He gives it to Travis for him to read. Each grading sheet is from a different instructor, One is Duchess and the other one is Eugenia and the permission is granted by both The Queen and The King.

“………..This Shadow Magic wielding Mewnian Demon follows the laws in America because the Mewnian Underworld, which I am knowledgeable on and astute on this area because I am a citizen there, is down below Echo Creeks, and I only forge this pact as an assignment due at today’s nightfall. As a part of building a network in the supernatural world. And for me to keep my shadow magic in check because it have a mind of its own sometime.” Janaya explained. “And that breed is a Belgian Waffle Slobber-Barker made by me for a project because I was intrigued in the foods in Marzipan City….. All I can say to you is that they were taking an initiative in supporting me because I was holding back all this time and feel under-appreciative.” He says.

Travis wants to says more. But Janaya stop him there; “I just feel tired right now. Tired of you and others judged me for what I am. I should have just accepted that the fact that I am a dark wizard. And after all maybe being a dark wizard and a hero is not so bad for me. Despite the fact I never want to be a part of the superhero public in the beginning of receiving an invite. Just please don’t put Eugenia and Duchess in the mix.”

The words came out of his mouth, Janaya could feels himself spiraling. Janaya wonders if he made the right decision to give himself a chance to relearn demonology because Travis caught him and looked mad and concerned. Travis see that Janaya is worked up, and try to tell him to breathe, but see magic is leaking out of him as fire blazing in Janaya’s hands and Janaya’s shadow went wild. Travis looked at Janaya with conflicting emotions as he witness Janaya’s state and dreaded and the fact that the situation is dreadful than he believe in as there is this tension between them. Well ‘there was tension between them’ actually because Janaya is now gone with the acceptance of defeat. It is a lose-lose situation in the end. He just wants to help him and fear of Camp Synonymous losing a bright student. That could be why Eugenia and Duchess did what they did, because they saw potential in him in demonology, summoning magic, and kitchen witchery. That was reckless but at the same time, reck and ruth enough to risk this. And Sandra has faith in them. These two have faith in him, just like him. Faith that he has a bright future ahead of him. Telling him the dangers of making a pacts to demons, yet he do it anyway because he is aware of the risks and take it to prove what he is capable of. He will make mistakes because he is a human being. And human beings will become monsters as their mistakes become crimes because they will never learn and keep on doing this just to get different results. Leading to humans hurting each others. After all, he did said hurtful things to him and told him to murder Blessed. Blessed was a deer of some sort that Janaya never given up on. All and all he still regrets it. “I just want to sincerely apologize for pressuring you to destroy your spell. Most importantly, labeling you a dark wizard, especially now that I can see you are hurting and doing things that you don’t want to do because of that label,” said Travis. “I should have treated you better. Especially when you works hard at the top of your camp activities and almost not cause any troubles.”

He put his hand on Janaya’s shoulder, then his other hand hold his burning hand, letting it burn. “I have my own issues to mend. So do you. Even with the faults and shortcomings we have, we can improve ourselves. I and The Roundtable will be right here to support you. If you to continue on demonology……. I am okay with it. Sooooo, yeah.”

A hyperventilating Janaya back away, his burning hand slipped away Travis’ grasp, and the fire extinguished. He did not say anything and is about to sink into the shadow, but Gaspard grab a hold of him by clutching the fabric of his jeans with his jaws and dragging him out of the shadow. Travis took a moment to calm and looked crestfallen. He takes Janay to the sensory room.

Travis Mystery belongs to @ej-cappy-universe

Janaya A. Bloodworth-Thomason, Gaspard, Aster (mentioned), Eugenia Maximoff (mentioned), Duchess/Tiara, and Hannibal Demerest belong to me

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[waitineedaname]

hiiii lily what is this ‘orv’ i have been seeing…..

HIIII MIKE. SMILES. orv is Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint! it's a webnovel with an ongoing webtoon adaption and it is making me Fucking Crazy. basically the premise there's this really unpopular really long webnovel called Three Ways to Survive an Apocalypse, and for years, Kim Dokja has been the only reader. when the novel finally ends, the author sends him an email with the txt file of the whole novel, and then suddenly the novel is wiped from the internet and in that instant, the events of the novel begin taking place in Kim Dokja's world. the apocalypse begins and humanity is subjected to cruel scenarios and challenges livestreamed for the entertainment of these powerful entities called constellations, and as the only one who read the story to its end, Kim Dokja is the only one fully equipped with knowledge of how this story goes (or at least, how it originally went)

it is SO good. it lures you in like "ooh this is a normal reverse isekai" and then ends up being CRAZY. it deals with questions about the boundary between characters and Real People and whether that distinction really matters, and it's one of those stories that looks the audience dead in the eye and dares you to look away first. literary devices are made Real (oh fourth wall we're really in it now...) and it plays with narrative voice and pov and unreliable narration in such fun ways. it is ultimately about the value of stories and the value of being a reader and the choice to wrestle with the story that's been written for you in favor of the story you really want to tell. it's also about Kim Dokja having something Deeply Wrong With Him skdlfjlksdjf the journey i went on with him was "okay he's a reader insert who reads novels as escapism, i get it" -> "oh actually he has something wrong with him" -> "oh he has something Wrong With Him" -> "WHAT. WHAT THE FUCK. HELLO. WHAT WAS THAT." I'm obsessed with him.

I read the webtoon first which I think is a pretty effective onboarding point! some of the art had my jaw on the FLOOR it's so cool. the webtoon has adapted roughly the first third of the whole novel so far, and if you want to read the novel just dm me and I'll hit you up with the epub file lol (not just mike but anyone who is interested!)

[edwinisms]

I know how it sounds at first, but I really gotta feel bad for the boys that sacrificed edwin; I mean even the term “sacrificed edwin” paints them in a more sinister light than they really deserve– considering that wasn’t really, actually their intention.

they were bullies, they were homophobic (and/or were self loathing gay boys themselves taking it out on edwin, or were equally likely peer pressured into acting a certain way), they planned something stupid and mean to do to an innocent, anxious boy with the goal of scaring the shit out of him, all because he was effeminate and an easy target. but they didn’t know or expect any of the ritual stuff to be real. they were all laughing and joking during the ritual because it was just that to them– a joke. a cruel joke, but a joke.

teenagers can be mean and stupid and they usually regret it as adults and grow out of it / grow from it. they were stifled the chance to grow out of it, at least while alive. none of those boys deserved to be instakilled and sent to hell; they’re really not that much less deserving than edwin himself. they were all just kids, after all.

[officialsollux]

Donation post

I have some severe health issues and have been homeless or in emergency housing unable to afford rent or food for months (and in similar situations for years). I am in quite severe pain and traumatised by some horrible things that have happened to me, and I am just at a complete breaking point that I cannot push off anymore. I have reached out to every possible public resource & have a case manager, but these issues have completely trapped me in ways I can no longer compartmentalise off. I would love it if anyone could share this link for a donation post or dm for my main where I have revolut / venmo. Obviously I get people aren't always in a position to help but having people show support and share would be very meaningful ❤️

[fortunatehazelnut]

I do sympathize with this guy but oh my god it is SOO telling that the 3 groups of people he listed were cis men, cis women, and trans men...

[jinxofthedesert]

I recently got out of a toxic and unhealthy friendship on here. I had to be the one to end it; hopefully the other party decides to leave it be and not smear my name due to realizing it wasn't healthy and that I had to end it because of it.

Basically, if someone makes you start feeling like shit, from your life, to your goals, passion, and everything else, then it's not a rewarding friendship. And it's hard to sometimes see it in the moment. Because you want to think the best of peeps, especially ones you care about.

But sometimes the healthiest thing for You is to know when to put your foot down and end it, even if it hurts you and them. At the end of the day, you matter and what you're doing matters and no one has the right to make you feel shit for who you are when you're just living your life. Life is hard enough without adding peeps who make you feel that way or question how you live when, prior to them showing up, you were happy with all of it.

To anyone in a relationship or friendship like that, I hope, like me, you are able to take a stand and realize you deserve better.

I knew I was being manipulated but not how much until I talked to others close to me. I pray you all never have to experience such a thing because damn, you know you did the right thing, but feel so fucking guilty at the same time.

But your happiness matters. You matter. Please remember that.

[hoshizoralone]

How did you first get into Nier? And who is your favorite character(s) in each game?

was over at a friend’s house early summer in 2016 and they asked “do you want to play a game about a hot single dad” and that’s how it all started.

my favs are dad nier, yonah, weiss, a2, and 6o :) here is a bad picture of my dad nier shrine on my bookshelf

[lonelypersonhere]

i wanna give a shout out to all the queer people and lgbtq people and anyone who as ever been outed.

it can feel really lonely, especially during pride month, but you aren’t alone. there are people out there who support you and are just like you.

you aren’t alone <2

[chickpea0]

Thinking about everyone in Gaza right now. Every Palestinian adult, teen and child whose lives are constantly being changed right now. I know this community is very apolitical and soft and safe, which really it's like that for a reason, but I think it's good to keep events like these in our hearts. Especially when considering that this community is based on tauma- most often childhood trauma- and feeling unsafe and or unsecure in their own homes.

I know what it's like to have your world turn upsidedown as a child and lose someone very close and I just cannot imagine what going through that would be like if I had lost my home, town, pets and any other kind of normalcy. So many people are being forced to be resiliant and to grow up faster than they ever have. That is something people here can connect with, right?