#and that fictional band is my life
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twins on da bass
(only one knows how to play and its the short haired girl)
#JULITOCS#i mean fuck i doodle so much i only have art of this quality rn#not like i post anything anyway lol#hope u like siamese twins because thats what these two are#theyre also in a band#and that fictional band is my life
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i apparently don't know spanish that well bc I'm trying to find a cute love song in spanish for agathario to have played for them by a mariachi (preferably one by selena quintanilla) and I'm learning that all the songs I thought were love songs in my childhood were, in fact, breakup songs and songs about domestic abuse
my childhood is a lie
#selena quintanilla#agathario#suburban magic#what is my life#bidi bidi bom bom might be a contender#i don't wanna make a mariachi band play a song in english#even a fictional band
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very real very canon information about Peter strahm that was revealed to me through psychic visions->
Peter loves collecting vinyl, especially divorced dad rock bands and is an absolute asshole about people's music tastes. Like the kind of guy who only asks you who you listen to so he can immediately insult the band. Unironally asks the "name five of their albums" question to fans. Gets extremely snarky about the digital v vinyl debate.
Mark creates a new hobby where he'll wait for a lull in conversation before saying he thinks one direction has had a bigger cultural impact than pink Floyd so he can watch Peter try and drive the car directly into a tree
#hes insufferable he's twice divorced he's my babygirl#peter strahm#at this point ive just completely made up like 90% of strahms backstory bc saw couldnt be fucked to and i believe my assumptions about#him like gospel#like for example his fav movie is Heat. Hes a cat person. His dad was in the navy. He cannot cook to save his life. He's trans and has endo#he likes to read old pulp fiction scifi novels. he says his favourite band is pink floyd but its joy division. he loves mark deeply#mark hoffman#doing a backflip off the top of cringe tower and landing in whatever the fuck this is#hoffstrahm#mark asks peter if fleetwood mac is a rapper and peter threatens to call the FBI
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friend sent me this.
which honestly i think is fucking hilarious. "creepy" bitch its queer people existing. this is tame. disrespectfully, you couldnt handle my creepy shit.
this is now a challenge. my art will now be queerer and more 'creepy' .
#also the fact that its literally just. geoff in a dress. and art that i explicitly stated is from an AU.#get a life?#also i do really hate that they posted it to the official thursday facebook because i Do Not Want my fanart shared with any of the members.#i know i do rpf. i draw the line at the real people seeing/being shown the fiction.#its one thing if they were to seek it out themselves. like awsten knight does. it is another thing to post it to a group where theyre active#but anyway. anon get more normal about queer people#thursday band#my art#thursday#also im a man who wears dresses sometimes. do you think theyre scared of me too ?
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ghost fixation came in at exactly the right time ... I'm in rome and will be going thru italy proper very soon .... need to take notes on everything I see so I can write good fics about this
#before anyone says anything YES im foremost excited to have more cultured experiences in my life and i appreciate the arts for what they are#regardless of whether or not i have a fictional man to think about while engaging with it#ok. OKAY#with all that said i will be touring cathedrals and thinking of terzo#through the teeth#the band ghost
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this happened today
#i'm going to try not to be around much still because lol i've been very productive not being around#my life's a bit of a shambles tbh. i got attacked by my neighbor's dog four weeks ago and my car got stolen last week#but this is moving at a good clip which is something. i bet you can guess which band narrative it is a thinly veiled fictionalization of#today i got to 50k words and also noticed something that i feel like was a vote of confidence from on high#weeks ago had written in a reference to 'trouble in mind' by sam cooke as a song that the characters are inspired by#noticed TODAY the 'let the 2:10 train ease my troubled mind' lyric that was definitely the genesis of 'let the 4:19 scratch my back'
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I'M WORKING ON TOM KAULITZ ONE SHOT SO BEAR WITH ME PLS. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING BUT I'M JUST DOING IT.
#tom kaulitz#tom kaulitz 2010#tokio hotel#TOKIO HOTEL#2000s#band#pop rock#alternative rock#rock#fandom#writting#andreaheartscats#andreahearts#writer#writing#writers on tumblr#writeblr#music#music is my coping mechanism#🫦#ily all#i dont know what tags to put#i dont fucking know#idk#what am i doing with my life#i dont know what im doing#ok#fiction#video games#fanfic
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i am so serious i need to find some tips for autistic people to get stuff done when all passion has gone out the window. past exam seasons i haven't had much of a focus for my energy, so whilst it's hard to study like that, i can kind of concentrate everything on work. this time all i can think of is something unrelated (my silly bands) and logically i know that this is my whole degree at stake but autistically i can't get myself to do it. this is so stupid to type out but i'm realising that discipline means nothing to autistic obsession
#is this what a dsa-approved support mentor is for#should i show up to a meeting for the first time and say hey i really like this music which unfortunately has lore and fiction attached#so now i can't do my engineering#help. somehow i expected myself at age 21 to be able to not slip into obsession like this and it's honestly embarrassing to admit that i do#i'm over on my sideblog like 'yeah haha great music and sex/y guy' but it's always so much more than that#like something i want to get lost in completely#ngl i hate the term 'special interest' because it makes me feel like a child#and i've always seen it talked about as something positive#but to me it's really not#going to say something soo cringe pathetic but sometimes i hate whatever currently has my attention in a death grip because i wish#that i cared this much about something real#my education and social life#sports etc#i did part 2 of a medical trail today. had experimental drugs injected in me. that's a big event#got home and haven't thought about it once because i'm just here listening to music and pretending like life is paused#KJHDBKHBSD this site was so great pre-diagnosis for its positivity abt autism but now im like wow it actually sucks (autism not tumblr)#if i were just a little more severe i could be obsessed with electronic circuits like i'm supposed to be#but noo#😭😭😭😭 rant over#... i'm going to look at some band posts
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new ducklings!
i can't believe you have made me sympathize with jamie oborne!!!! the first thing i learned when joining this fandom is we don't like jamie oborne
im glad fictional!matty has some kind of a support system tho!
i looooled at him thinking about whether george noticed his ass
(george pov next ch? george pov next queen?)
very excited for whats coming up next
Yay!! Thank you so much for reading and also taking the time to send me this ask. Like seriously, thank you so much!! I have completely given myself a complex that I have gone in the absolute wrong direction with the new chapter / the fic and I am so completely grateful to hear that you have enjoyed it! Since I don't have a beta reader anymore, I get myself completely freaked out when no one comments / sends any asks - I worry people have hated the update and are just too kind and polite to say so (even though I am open to constructive and KIND not bashing or hateful criticism!) So thank you again for just... letting me know that maybe what I wrote wasn't the worst!
LOL I know IRL Jamie Oborne isn't the greatest BUT wow does his Fictional counterpart have potential lol I love my fictionalized long suffering version of him- it's my way of being like "ta-da I fixed it!" Fictional!Jamie was just trying to make some money and somehow ended up with the train wreck that is fictional!Matty as his bonus son lol
Fictional!Matty has gotten to the point where he is pretty sure he just wants HIS Fictional!George back (even though he's not sure if he deserves it) and if he's gotta shake his now existent ass to get it, he is going to! (Fictional!Matty has never had an ass before okay, he's excited about this development and he really is hoping that Fictional!George notices and is also excited about it)
I am so excited about the next chapter you don't even know!! 😈 I kind of went off outline for a while there and lost direction but there is a bit of direction coming up and I am very excited about the next few updates - I hope you guys enjoy them as much as I have been enjoying outlining and working on them!!
Thank you SO MUCH for reading and SO SO SO MUCH for sending in this ask!! You have literally, metaphorically, talked me off a cliff by sending this ask and I am forever grateful for that!! I hope you continue to enjoy Ducklings and that you not only had THE BEST Tuesday, but that you ALSO have the very best week! Thank you again!
❤️Ally
#allylikethecat#ask ally#anon ask#fanfiction#keep it kind#gatty#matty fic#fanfic#make way for ducklings#mpreg#im sorry for being so dramatic about the comments / feedback thing#i think im feeling extra needy and delicate being i am sick and being dramatic about it#regardless i appreciate this kind ask so very much#and also im glad you're enjoying my fictional!jamie because i have been having fun with him lol#he is just like when i signed this band i was not anticipating that this would be my life#also how is this my life lol#poor fictional!jamie#thank you again for reading!!#and this ask!!#i hope you have the best week!!
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Sometimes I feel like I’m such a BTS dark horse…I stream the hell out of their music, I buy all their albums and a lot of official merch and watch all official content. They’ve been my top artist on Spotify wrapped for 6 years straight. Yet I hardly ever talk about or post about them anywhere, and I don’t really keep up with them or their lives.
Like I’ve just never been apart of the “fandom” but I just really love BTS so much. They mean so much to me but honestly I think most people don’t even know how into them I am. I talk about them more irl than I do online lol
#mott txt#their fandom is just too much for me personally#and I’ve never been into ‘stanning’ irl people tbh. BTS is the only band I’ve really loved like this#but I still try to distance myself a bit. bc they’re real people not fictional characters#if any of that makes sense#the amount of hours I’ve listened to BTS in my life must be insane .#these men do in fact have a chokehold on me. I just genuinely love their music#and all their Solo albums? they slap. so talented#I like other kpop groups too but none are like BTS for me
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gays will have silly little dreams where they meet the mechanisms (the actual immortal pirates from space) and get a lil flirty with at least one of them
#i mean tim obv#in my case#i never have dreams where they appear as the real life actors its always as if the immortal pirates were just real#and in like 90% of those dreams theres a vaguely awkwardly flirty vibe between me and tim#like its always kinda. he is this almost inhuman being that also happens to be in a band so hes aware that people will get celebrity crushes#and im the one with a celebrity crush on him#and you could say this has fanfic energy with how im allowed to like flirt w him without being perceived as a stalker type of fan#yknow#its realistic in how this is never taken seriously and im very awkward but its very unrealistic in how its just okay for me to do#and unrealistic in how its reciprocated for shits and giggles and his ego or whatever#i love having gay little dreams#lmao#i mean i guess its pretty tame in my case#like im assuming that aa lot of people have more like. serious dreams? yknow i mean actually dating the celebrity/fictional crushes#and all that#honestly im not sure if ive ever had a dream where i was actually with my celebrity/fictional crush#it always has that lil bit of realism where i know its not possible to be w them and im always almost as shy and awkward and anxious as irl#and honestly i prefer it that way#y'know with the way my brain works#how i often feel like the people i think about can see my thoughts and all that delusional bullshit#so its nice that even in my dreams where i have 0 control over anything i still dont really cross any boundaries#so i dont feel guilty afterwards i dont feel like i violated anyones boundaries#i know that dreams are absolutely not my actual thoughts im just sayin that its good for my paranoid brain#its just that in my dreams the celebrity/character likes me in some way and thats pretty much it#anyway i love making a meme shitpost thing that can be enjoyed by everyone and then in tags i say things that i should only tell a therapist#hhshdjdjshxbsjnd#the mechanisms#bee buzz
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omg I just realized Tumblr cut off my tags on my reading log because I had to do it on desktop since it's impossible to access my original post on mobile because of that dumbass update and desktop doesn't tell you you've hit your tag limit so my tag review of beyond the story is gone I'm going to commit mass murder in the Tumblr headquarters
#>:( fucking hell im so pissed off#I gushed about beyond the story#because truly I just. guys. I have such a genuine love for bts and this book was so insightful#and and and 😭#like it's not a cringey thing it's genuine I am so grateful I have them in my life#I really hope that this book opens up some people to giving them a chance when before they wouldn't have#I just. I love them so much#with this past month being my whole family falling apart#they've been such a source of comfort to me#anyways take this as your sign to go check them out! don't be afraid! try something new!#it was life changing for me idc#anyways take two things way from this: Tumblr is dumb and needs to stop making this site worse#and BTS are the greatest band in existence idk#amazing how a non fiction is one of my top books of this year <3
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all the boys i have ever loved have been digital
i've been a guest
on a screen or in a book
you may have been made for love
but i'm just made
#nobody has ever captured the hopeless feeling of lovin fictional worlds better than owen pallett in this song#i found his old band final fantasy back when i was in high school and when this album and song dropped#it was super validating as a young person who (for like 18 years at least) only ever had feelings for fictional men#so for a long time i assumed i was a lesbian bc I had only ever had crushes on women in real life#but ya. this song made me feel Valid Asf#and I still like to listen to his music here and there and remember dem feels#i found him around the same time i discovered joanna newsom and it just launched my love for like... orchestra folk#Youtube
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I was perfectly fine not going back to read the prequel just cause it's been 10 years since I've read the books and I'm okay with leaving the story as is, but THIS... this post might have changed my mind.
Suzanne collins wrote a trilogy where a main media propaganda strategy was to market a horrific act of violence as a love story to distract ppl and then it got adapted into a box office breaking movie and ppl made it all about the love triangle. so then since they didn’t get the point the first time Suzanne collins wrote a prequel story about the main dictator and she makes it so that you as a reader want it to be a genuine love story so badly even tho it’s so very clearly not and instead feels extremely unsettling to make her point even more meta which then gets adapted into another box office breaking film and now ppl are making romantic snowbaird tik toks. do u think she’s gonna write another book that’s somehow even more blatant or just give up and start executing ppl? hard to say but I wouldn’t blame her for the second one
#i should read more#well#besides fan fiction#maybe that ebook i downloaded might help#man but nothing can beat those overnight weekend reading sessions huh?#just the book the bed and my night lamp doing numbers#the smell of the paper#the crinkle from that stupid ass laminate they put on hardbacks sometimes#purposely putting a hand over the next paragraph during a crazy section so that I didn't accidentally read too far ahead in my excitement#pretty cool a lot of the books I read ended up with movie adaptions too#the gurl has TASTE!#I might not have liked a lot about my life at the time but I'm forever grateful for the enriching escapism reading provided back then#i needed something especially when band slowed down and that was it#oh the worlds you can travel the lives you can live all through the magic of pen
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shit dawg, my loneliness has gotten back to the point of "i see other fans enjoying the thing i enjoy, which "hurts" me cause I'm the (content)creators bestie, only me"
i need to see my therapist again, and fucking soon, ohmygod
#i don't want it to get even worse to the point that i feel like this towards fictional characters#I'm also just so tired#i used to have a life wtf man#what triggered this??? oh just seeing the ink band at their scream con in a video#it's like. god. bad habits die with a fight. that's what I'll say#the only solution is to create but I'm so fucking tired#i want weed but i know that won't help#dork.txt#parasocial behavior#parasocial tendencies#like. when i was a kid it physically pained me that GG interacted with fans that weren't me#i can't remember how old i was. but i tried to send in my own art for. i think. the first GG zine? with Dan in it?#and like. they got a physical copy of it. and it hurt that my art was apparently not good enough.#weird thing to have stuck to my brain to make my parasocial tendencies even more agitated#the only solution is to like. interact with people irl but like. i hate doing that#is this an autism thing? is this that rejection sensitivity?#I'm jumping everywhere#what i meant by that was i didn't realize some people didn't wanna be around me and or found me annoying so it was easy to pick on me#I'm fucking 26 now. i graduated primary school in 2017. all this shit about being abandoned by friends was all the way back in-#-elementary school. i feel i should be better now but I'm just. not.
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please help me- i used to be pretty smart but i’m having so much trouble grasping the concept of diegetic vs non-diegetic bdsm!
gfkjldghfd okay first of all I'm sorry for the confusion, if you're not finding anything on the phrase it's because I made it up and absolutely nobody but me ever uses it, but I haven't found a better way to express what I'm trying to say so I keep using it. but now you've given me an excuse to ramble on about some shit that is only relevant to me and my deeply inefficient way of talking and by god I'm going to take it.
SO. the way diegetic and non-diegetic are normally used is to talk about music and sound design in movies/tv shows. in case you aren't familiar with that concept, here's a rundown:
diegetic sound is sound that happens within the world of the movie/show and can be acknowledged by the characters, like a song playing on the stereo during a driving scene, or sung on stage in Phantom of the Opera. it's also most other sounds that happen in a movie, like the sounds of traffic in a city scene, or a thunderclap, or a marching band passing by. or one of the three stock horse sounds they use in every movie with a horse in it even though horses don't really vocalize much in real life, but that's beside the point, the horse is supposed to be actually making that noise within the movie's world and the characters can hear it whinnying.
non-diegetic sound is any sound that doesn't exist in the world of the movie/show and can't be perceived by the characters. this includes things like laugh tracks and most soundtrack music. when Duel of Fates plays in Star Wars during the lightsaber fight for dramatic effect, that's non-diegetic. it exists to the audience, but the characters don't know their fight is being backed by sick ass music and, sadly, can't hear it.
the lines can get blurry between the two, you've probably seen the film trope where the clearly non-diegetic music in the title sequence fades out to the same music, now diegetic and playing from the character's car stereo. and then there are things like Phantom of the Opera as mentioned above, where the soundtrack is also part of the plot, but Phantom of the Opera does also have segments of non-diegetic music: the Phantom probably does not have an entire orchestra and some guy with an electric guitar hiding down in his sewer just waiting for someone to break into song, but both of those show up in the songs they sing down there.
now, on to how I apply this to bdsm in fiction.
if I'm referring to diegetic bdsm what I mean is that the bdsm is acknowledged for what it is in-world. the characters themselves are roleplaying whatever scenarios their scenes involve and are operating with knowledge of real life rules/safety practices. if there's cnc depicted, it will be apparent at some point, usually right away, that both characters actually are fully consenting and it's all just a planned scene, and you'll often see on-screen negotiation and aftercare, and elements of the story may involve the kink community wherever the characters are. Love and Leashes is a great example of this, 50 Shades and Bonding are terrible examples of this, but they all feature characters that know they're doing bdsm and are intentional about it.
if I'm talking about non-diegetic bdsm, I'm referring to a story that portrays certain kinks without the direct acknowledgement that the characters are doing bdsm. this would be something like Captive Prince, or Phantom of the Opera again, or the vast majority of bodice ripper type stories where an innocent woman is kidnapped by a pirate king or something and totally doesn't want to be ravished but then it turns out he's so cool and sexy and good at ravishing that she decides she's into it and becomes his pirate consort or whatever it is that happens at the end of those books. the characters don't know they're playing out a cnc or D/s fantasy, and in-universe it's often straight up noncon or dubcon rather than cnc at all. the thing about entirely non-diegetic bdsm is that it's almost always Problematic™ in some way if you're not willing to meet the story where it's at, but as long as you're not judging it by the standards of diegetic bdsm, it's just providing the reader the same thing that a partner in a scene would: the illusion of whatever risk or taboo floats your boat, sometimes to extremes that can't be replicated in real life due to safety, practicality, physics, the law, vampires not being real, etc. it's consensual by default because it's already pretend; the characters are vehicles for the story and not actually people who can be hurt, and the reader chose to pick up the book and is aware that nothing in it is real, so it's all good.
this difference is where people tend to get hung up in the discourse, from what I've observed. which is why I started using this phrasing, because I think it's very crucial to be able to differentiate which one you're talking about if you try to have a conversation with someone about the portrayal of bdsm in media. it would also, frankly, be useful for tagging, because sometimes when you're in the mood for non-diegetic bodice ripper shit you'd call the police over in real life, it can get really annoying to read paragraphs of negotiation and check-ins that break the illusion of the scene and so on, and the opposite can be jarring too.
it's very possible to blur these together the same way Phantom of the Opera blurs its diegetic and non-diegetic music as well. this leaves you even more open to being misunderstood by people reading in bad faith, but it can also be really fun to play with. @not-poignant writes fantastic fanfic, novels, and original serials on ao3 that pull this off really well, if you're okay with some dark shit in your fiction I would highly recommend their work. some of it does get really fucking dark in places though, just like. be advised. read the tags and all that.
but yeah, spontaneous writer plug aside, that's what I mean.
#I found their original stuff while I was researching various waterhorses and their folklore for no reason#because one of the characters in their original work happens to be an each uisge#and then it turned out it ALSO included a lot of figures from welsh folklore in general#so yknow if you happen to have my incredibly specific hyperfixations you'll love it but even if you don't it's great#I didn't mean to bring up phantom of the opera so much it just happens to be very relevant to a lot of my talking points#I haven't actually seen it in years
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