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rosetterer · 4 months ago

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sometimes I still can't believe they are real

#bucktommy #bi evan buck buckley #what do you mean he is canonically bi????!!!!#what do you mean bucktommy are real???? buck is dating a man????!!!#sometimes i wake up and remember its all true #and sometimes im like.... am i sure that actually happened??#and it did #buck got kissed by a man and then he called him a beast and kissed him and then there was the whole daddy issues thing and-#this is enough to kill a victorian child #911 abc #evan buckley #tommy kinard #911 on abc #tevan #kinkley #911

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goosologist · 1 month ago

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#im sorry communism daddy disney’s dick is just too enticing #i was gonna do a bunch of these but then i realized i am gonna Die at my lectures tomorrow if i do #this is like late uni AU like year four of med school and joy has been involved in a bunch of student activities and is like #a Well Known Presence #a term or two above anx #and anx had a Giant like celebrity crush on her but like could not even conceptualize them i. a conversation like in her mind this is like #idk kristen stewart hot gay gets-shit-done undeniable main character socially intelligent #and sometime year four she ends up in anx class and like Immediately has a friend group bc she knows everyone but also Immediately HATESanx #bc anx asks a lot of questions and wants to make sure she gets things right but is also just an Intense people pleaser #joy mostly dislikes that she disrupts the flow of the lecture. but they get into arguments in assigned discussion groups and that #NEVER happens for joy (actually it does a lot but it’s usually easier for her to defend her self-righteousness)#eventually she has a breakdown after a hospital placement bc she has some Serious issues w OCD and had to redo a whole term #they never really start ti hang out. but they do have wayy too unfiltered conversations in the maternity ward breakroom at 4am #art tag #inside out #io2 #joyxiety #i know it sucks but im fucking knackered #inside out joy #inside out anxiety

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lynxfrost13 · 1 month ago

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Maybe I’ll finally Wanze post soon

#as in a more official lore post like holt awol and sonderbar got #ALSO IM SO SO SORRY I STILL AM GONNA ANSWER THOSE INBOX ASKS J SWEAR #Wanze is on the mind there is bugs in my brain!!! wow just like holt huh #their relationship is wild to me they go from barely knowing each other (occasional hallway acquaintances)#to Wanze essentially having the equivalent of a bag of bricks dropped onto her head #which needs a little or a lot of patching up and Holt does that for her #actually hmmm I wonder if I should more visibly leave some marks of The Oopsie on her face #apart from the permanently broken biores crystals #gotta think on that…#anyway I was especially Thinkin about how Wanze really does resent Holt for a while #it’s complicated it’s not completely Holt’s fault #like she can’t control what happened she can’t bring back her bioresonance she’s a medical eule not a miracle worker #she’ll never really understand what it felt like to be part of that mind link #and that leads to some insensitivity on Holt’s part bc she’s really trying to keep Wanze from decommission here #and Wanze! why are you moping you gotta act normal!! Come on Wanze!#neither of them really get each other bc they’re both not stopping and listening like they need to #but they eventually do #also fun Wanze fact but post head trauma fixup she still has to/wants to go to the kolibri library #for stabilization yknow (she’s a nerdddd <3)#however it’s weird and she hates it bc her fellow kolibris are there.#she does not sing the same song anymore and sticks out like a sore thumb when they’re together now :(#she goes at really weird hours when no one else is there to make sure she doesn’t have to see them #Holt sometimes is able to get ahold of books for her #consider them cuddling together reading #that is all #blorbo tag #wanze #holt #Kolibug

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bookishjules · 3 months ago

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i don't care how big a company is, the response to an employee asking for an advanced warning before they are affected by changes made by the company should never be "get used to it."

#my new manager on duty (bc apparently we have that now) said that there's gonna be a lott of changes happening around the shop..#and she expected me to just be like yay cool great lets get started?#like she was surprised when she came back and my face was kinda downcast?? as if i hadn't been driven to tears by the suddenness of this?#sometimes im like wow i really am not suited to funtion in society #but this is just one of those things that like.. why is this something i have to get used to when it makes so much more sense to just #warn people #giving people time to prepare can only have positive results? and its so not hard?#(i even asked point blank why our hours were changing. which was part of this whole shift. and one of my managers gave me ZERO actual answer #like she dodged that question like the plague and didnt even address the fact that she was after i repeated the question two more times.#like is it really that bad to give reasons??? surely reasons only make employees feel more responsible for the company they're working for?)#idk ugh #i just needed to rant sorry #jules talks (and talks)

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faaun · 3 months ago

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ok let's catch up quickly

#so i went on a few dates w this guy. long hair beautiful face kinda looked like a girl (good) said yes ma'am when i told him to do smth #(also good) film student great at photography including candids. made a sheath of leather for a sword pin i have . et cetera.#he asked to cuddle and i was like iggg and then i felt Nothing and i was like ohhh yh ok ok yep lesbian #like he meets almost all my criteria but. yeahhh no . also at the end of that date he had some weird takes. anyway broke up w him and told #him actually im p sure im a lesbian (again) and he was like yk thats the second time this has happened to me this week but its ok bc ive #fallen for this girl from berlin. and then we cooked together. anyway . met a beautiful butch lowk in love w her. weve been on (1) date.#have two exams in a few days havent studied enough going to like end it all basically. my research partner kicked me off our research #(expected(it was always skinda sketchy)) which was devastating + it happened in a lidl 15 hours into a journey from bordeaux #to go back to the UK. my friends were kinda busy paying for baguettes but also they heard this whole exchange and are kinda mad at him #my friend of 10+ years is coming over in a few days. my evil ex situationship person that i decided to stay friends w because i kept #insisting they are a good friend and not evil and also extremely beautiful? turns out shockingly enough they were evil. tried to fix them #and then i realised due to their entire friendship group being ppl like me (Every Single One of their friends are ppl they met on dating #apps then led on then dumped and proposed staying friends w) and are collectively extremely attracted to them and not over them they #keep validating the most diabolical shit they say/do to hace a chance w them. they broke up w their ex and the way they keep leading #this poor girl on and making her heartbeeak worse and saying that they want more power over her and want her to beg for them back etc...MY #JAW HAD DROPPED esp bc i didnt even know the ex was in the picture BECAUSE ME AND ONE OF OUR FRIENDS (that they also dated) HAD JUSR SLEPT #NAKED TOGETHER IN THEIR BED W THEM. GIRL. anyway that is the least of the diabolical stuff they said but no we are moving onnn #this was b4 the beautiful butch btw. anyways . i have a mitski concert tmrw i think?? idek anymore #i used to have a crush on this guy very briefly and then it disappeared and then i realised if he fundementally changed everything abt #himself then maybe id like him but ofc i didnt tell him that but i still think abt it sometimes but anyway thats irrelevant now bc 99% sure #even if he did id still not find him attractive (lesbianism). please recommend good overnight moisturisers btw i have super dry skin #right. the friend of 10 yrs. we had a hard convo abt why she essentially bullied me in year 8 and it made me highly bitter but i also love #her and ik things are diff now its been like . Many Years . and shes going to stay a while I HAVE TWO EXAMS I DONT HAVE TIME but i love her #its fine. i think i might just switch into medicine and do the whole become a neurosurgeon thing (which was my plan B) bc plan A is looking #kinda impossible rn. I WANNA TALK MORE ABT WHAT THE EX SITUATIONSHIP PERSON SAID but i wont bc i dont wanna be too mean but also . MY GOD #i had a conversation w a philosopher friend about whether i have a moral responsibility to try to fix them bc unleashing this on society #feels wrong and he said 'probably but...run' so yeah im not talking to them atm. second date w beautiful butch on monday btw IDK WHAT TO #WEAR. she said she likes fems. im just gonna wear the shortest ralph lauren skirt i have w the cute leg warmers and hope 4 the best #its 1:15 AM im abt to drink coffee and start studying bc what the FUCK man. also almost finished watching the boys its very good #one of my best friends is struggling rn it is breaking my heart i want to take the burden from her i miss her very much

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b4kuch1n · 2 years ago

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dip pen ink comm second round for in order R. Burry, @sega-bass-kissing, and Solaris

#bakuspecial #commission art #and thats round 2 concluded!#once again sorry it took a Lot longer than round 1 lol #its just. sometimes there are things up here #which is why (mentioning this again in an actually relevant post lol) I'm gonna leave my next week off from this!#round 3 will open sometimes AFTER this sunday. my rest of the week will be for other business I gotta take care of #tbh what I'm doing with ink here is kind of the equivalent of like. picking up someone's dog and running off #nobody knows whats going on or is gonna happen. but I am doing it nonetheless #now tho. maybe I should nap for a bit more. itd help #thank you again to folks who've bought a slot thus far! hope everyone's enjoying whatever the hells Im doing dskjfhdsjfh #I sure am uh. figuring it out. it is fun but then I'm the one with the dog in my arms #have a good night! maybe u should have an animal of choice in ur arms too. would recommend

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hella1975 · 1 year ago

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my mum: you've been doing really good lately. every part of your life is really stable and you seem genuinely happy, it's great to see :)

me, who's felt like ive been going actually crazy bananas insane for months now: yeah haha

#sometimes i forget that 'being in total control of my emotions at all times' isn't just my cringe lore & is actually something im good at #like wdym my MUM said this. girl im experiencing horrors over here!#i got really offended by it? ilke i just smiled at her and agreed but inside i was like HELLOOOOO CAN ANYONE HEAR MEEEE #i just genuinely feel like i am so detached from myself and im entirely manipulative and i micromanage every facet of my personality #and change it day-to-day person-to-person and not in the Normal Human Way but in a crazy insane I Am Manipulating People Way #& it's a CONSCIOUS thing & like. idk who the real me is idk if there is a real me idk if id like her if i saw her idk if im a good person #but i look like im doing fine. i seem really stable and happy atm according to the person who knows me better than anyone #like that's the extent of my control on myself. even my mum cant tell. HUH #idk i feel like im being dramatic bc last week and this week ive definitely been feeling a lot better #and like maybe i was just having some sort of months-long episode but that doesnt negate the fact that while i was IN it no one could tell #not even the closest people to me that see me every day in the same house where im most vulnerable could tell #that's like. worrying surely. maybe. i think. whatever im just saying shit at this point #i always do this tho i go 'i fundamentally base my self-worth on how little i share vulnerability with people #and it's been a constant part of my personality since childhood that i dont talk about my feelings' and then i get SO pissed off #when people dont realise im going through shit. like girl what did you THINK was gonna happen. look inwards #hella goes home

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screechingsandwichhologram · 2 months ago

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my uninformed american opinion is that i will be calling it derry not londonderry because im american and therefore will always support ireland if its ireland vs the british.

(i wasn't even going to post this but i wrote a whole essay in the tags so i don't want to waste that)

#i feel like i'm getting into very controversial waters here idk if i should say any of this #also. what do the actual people that live there call it bc i think that should be the end of it.#i saw on tiktok that the only foreign alliance that could make america turn against the uk would be ireland and i fully agree #(i live in new england. uhm. almost everyone here is irish) (irish american i suppose.)#i could talk about ireland and american relations. maybe i will.#here's my understanding of irish-american relations as someone who has never studied the topic in particular #but does have an interest in american history #first off. yes america is very good allies with the uk but culturally it's like. a bullying sort of thing. leftover resentment from the rev #i'm sure it's somewhat similar to everyone's resentment of america. maybe idk im not european #anyway america is built on underdog stories. thats like the foundation of our national culture. the american dream #and these stories started showing up innnnn .... the mid to late 1800s!!#do you know what also happened in the 1800s?#yup! irish people started fleeing their homeland to a better life (cough cough the americas)#so! in the time when stories about immigrants coming to america (the american dream- the most important part of us culture)#a ton of immigrants were irish! wow. do you see where i'm going with this #anyway about 9.5% of america is irish. which is A Lot (3rd most prominent ancestry)#and here in america bc being an immigrant and coming from immigrants and etc is kinda A Thing here #people typically hang on to their non-american identity #i mean i do. you can catch me talking about being french canadian a lot on tumblr.#another thing! even if you aren't irish american sometimes places r so irish that it kinda. blends into ur identification with a city #cough cough boston. cough cough massachusetts.#anyway . so. to recap #ireland and america share a common sorta not really enemy : the british. also they r the underdog which makes us sympathetic #And a lot of america has irish heritage and bc it's the us there's heritage actually matters (sorta)#and therefore the usa will always like ireland A Lot. or at least the people will.#rereading that i hope it makes sense #once again i am not a scholar and have not studied this topic these are just my inferences and observations #rain feathers talks #i will not be tagging this

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toytulini · 2 months ago

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it is baffling to me that ppl keep insisting "if its not sprite then what IS it tho?" and seemingly do not...retain the recipes that are being shared. like you dont have to memorize them its just repeatedly "is lemonade not sprite though? how is it not sprite?"

"its lemon juice, water, and sugar"

"is it not the same as sprite?" no we just told u. does that sound like sprite to you. does sprite give you the vibe of juicing some lemons on a hot summer day? the lemonade version closest to Sprite over here, in terms of Being Lemonade, is still Notably Different from sprite, or any other soda, is probably Minute Maid, a highly processed branded lemonade that you can occasionally get from soda fountains (DESPITE! NOT BEING CARBONATED! similar to how they somehow dispense iced or sweet tea from soda fountains) it sometimes comes in a can or 2L bottle similar to soda, in the soda isle. and its Not Soda. its not Carbonated. its Trying To Pretend So Hard To Be Real Lemonade. it tastes like lemonade thats a bit sad. it is far more lemonade than SPRITE will ever be. if yall were simply insisting that lemonade is carbonated, that it was like, fizzy minute maid, that would be less offensive than calling sprite lemonade. which is Insane. good god.

#toy txt post #it is a beverage simple enough that *I* could make it #you could Find Out #you dont Have To. but its right there #see Here its easy even if you dont want to Juice Lemons cos they sell powdered lemonade that is so so decent #countrytime my beloved. im sure Real Lemonade drinkers might shit on me even for that #and YES god Victorians did get crazy with the fizzy lemonade they had those like glass bauble things to add bubbles that sometimes just #exploded. but the fact that you got so removed from it that you're calling sprite lemonade 😭. youre calling FANTA lemonade? surely not the #orange soda??? at least call it orangeade or some shit. it would still be wrong but like. christ alive these are different fruits #the idea of calling VIOLENTLY orange most artifical shit ive ever tasted in my life soda lemonade is just. sending me #like i Like An Orange Soda. thats Extremely Not Lemonade #idk like we have Processed ass lemonades. i tend to have those cos im lazy. but i Could Make Real Lemonade #my Favorite processed lemonade rn is the calypso brand. its so flavorful. im also susceptible to the cute glass bottle unfortunately.#i really like the strawberry lemonade and the blue one #sigh #this is probably akin to saying that apple juice is the same as cider. or smth. except no its still worse #also our ciders are different bc alcoholic or Hard Cider is not considered the Default here but i understand its the default elsewhere #anyway. sorry to all my non american friends about bringing up Lemonade Discourse Yet Again #if we ever visit. in either direction. i will have to try to make you some proper lemonade so you can understand how egregious it is #to hear it called 'sprite'#and also so u can have some yummy lemonade #it hits so much better on a hot summer day than sprite fr #sneaking premixed strawberry lemonade over in those little alcohol bottles they allow on airplanes. i am arrested at customs for trying to #impose Big Lemonade into what is clearly the territory of Big Sprite #anyway i think if travelling americans recieved Actual Cloudy Lemonade that Happened To Be Fizzy they might be like oh shit! why is it #fizzy! did you mix sprite in it or something? it would still be DISTINCT from sprite. the fact that yall think theyre the same.....#thats some real. mint chocolate chip ice cream tastes like toothpaste shit. No The Fuck It Doesnt what are you on #for one toothpaste is sharper and stronger usually. unless youre using the mild mint ones i guess. i Dont. for 2 it leaves you mouth #feeling fresh and clean. mint ice cream is yummy for sure #but it does not leave my mouth feeling clean or fresh or even give me minty breath or anything. smh

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carcarrot · 4 months ago

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am i allowed to have not great teeth if i just ask really niceys

#re: my teeth theres one specific part of my gums between two teeth that sometimes gets really oof ouchie and im worriedddd #for the past . idk man few months? longer? ive been making sure to floss well every night #i KNOW i should be flossing in the morning or probably more accurately sometime after lunch however i cant do either bc #i don't have time in the morning but really actually maybe i should make time . eegh .#and i cant floss after lunch bc my eating schedule is fucked and i dont actually sit down and eat everything at one time #wish i could! but alas my fucked up eating schedule related to my job #anyway maybe ill start flossing in the morning too idk #im just so . eugh . i have a dentist appointment in a little over a month from now #and im supposed to get x rays which i already am Dreading bc theyre so Awful for me #but im worried theyre gonna find that ive got gum issues or something and like good god man i dont want surgery #also knock on wood i dont think this will happen but im hoping i don't find out i need my remaining wisdom teeth pulled or anything #dont wanna go through that again but oh well just more pinpricks in the tapestry of life. but ive gotta say my hand is sure hurting

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bakatenshii · 2 years ago

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ok not to get more deeplore and i know i just said i wasnt gonna take this seriously oopsies (I’M NOT I PROMISE) but

#baka bants #im a liar im a pussyi only feel safe in the tags still #so here i am in the tags #anyways Ive brainvommed this all to rae already but to be like. bcos this is basically my glorified (extrahorny) diary #i think i was just suffering from fomo and wanting to make sure i was posting when everyone else was because it was so active #and it was the height of all activity and like i didnt wanna miss out on the new wave of the new fandom or WHATEVER #or wanting to constantly be involved in everything/have a head start #and then i was dreading the inevitable deathof tumblr again once quarantine lifted and everyone went on with their lives #(which it did happen obvi) but i guess coming back and seeing that #people are still here? like the fandom still exists albeit the majorit tof people moving on or out of tumblr #and it feels?? like just(???? home??? in a calm chill way like #my friends are still here and even tho its not like a million things happening every day #its calm and chilled and i gues all im teying to say is #i was scared of being left still here when everyone moved on so i moved on first but people r still here so #it makes me feel?? secure #i ??? DOES ANY OF THAT MAKE SENDE #IM JUST EXTRA VULNERABLE ON A WEDNESDAY AFTERNOON I GUESS #BASICALLY WHAT IM SAYING IS SOMETIMES I THINK ABT HOW SAUSAGE PARTY HAS A VERY REAL AND ACTUALLY ACTIVE FANDOM #AND IM NO LONGER WORRIED ABT MY ANIME FANDOM DYING OUT #(but in all actuality like;; the hp fandom and evedy superwholock fandom is still VERY much alive and well)#(so im just being a pussy tbh and emotional for no reason)#(ifbuou have resd this im so sorry for this moaning and being emosh for no reason HAHAHA I LOVE U THANK U FOR PUTTING UP WITH THIS)#EX OH EX OH #!!!! <3333

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piplupod · 5 months ago

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sometimes i worry myself sick over thinking i might have a victim complex because i (understandably) often struggle with being a functioning human person due to lifelong abuse, and then I come onto tumblr dot com and see the way some of the people on here act and I realize "ah. no i'm okay actually."

#especially white queer people. uhm. holy moly lol #sorry i have just seen like five well-written nuanced posts about some queer stuff in the past couple days #and in the notes there is always ppl doing the whole piss on the poor thing to make themselves the victim #or to claim OP was saying smth completely different from what they were actually saying #also obviously this is not smth that only exists on tumblr fsdjkl this is just the place /i/ exist online #if i were on twitter im sure i'd see it happening over there too. hell i see it happen in pinterest comments sometimes LMFAO #also. i do regularly check myself to make sure im not being a shithead and hypocrite and doing this stuff fdsjkl #im not just going ''well i was abused so i can be this way!'' lmao i am actively working on myself constantly and apologize when i mess up #okay enough disclaimers fdsjkl i could add like five more onto here but i shall refrain #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

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dandyshucks · 6 months ago

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ppl complain about ~The Community~™ a lot but genuinely I have never rly had people support me and my art and creations as much as I have in this place fhfkdl like I keep getting almost scared by how nice everyone has been DBFJDL

i think maybe the community at large is difficult to be a part of and has issues but I feel like if you just find a nice circle of mutuals and friends to stay in (while maybe occasionally venturing outside of if thats smth u want to do) then like... things are good actually. i am constantly amazed by the support ppl show to each other in this circle I've found myself in !!!

all this to say: i am so glad i found my way here !!!

#the last time I've ever had ppl show such support for anything I've made was like grade 5 or 6 LOL #i read out my story i was working on as i worked on it after each creative writing session in class fhdkdl #and pretty much the entire class was like... actually enjoying it ??? i still feel like i dreamt that up bc how tf did that ever happen #and then the teacher wanted me to type it up and email it to her the next year so she could read it to her new class 😭#INSANE !!! anyways i am just. constantly baffled by how nice ppl are here DBFFHDKL #i just see a lot of complaints (well-warranted I'm sure) and it makes me feel lucky to have found such a good group of ppl here #and i wanted to express that gratitude!!!#its so silly that i get scared by it sometimes but its just bc of past experience fjfkdl #it feels foreign to me and therefore frightening bc its kind of unknown fjdkdl #im not used to it at all LOL #dandy.cmd

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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