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Itās easy for people to criticize protectors for how we react to perceived threats ā
Some of us get defensive, some of us get loud, or completely freeze up, or run for safety, or suddenly collapse and canāt move, or become mute, or have extreme fawn reactions ā¦ and to the outside, it seems over the top.
Or maybe you think itās not fair that we saw you as a threat because you got angry and yelled. Maybe you think itās childish that we sprinted out of the house or scary that we kicked into āfightā mode.
We had to identify threats fast. We had to do what it took to survive. To protect our system and our physical body and mind.
And we can and should learn to react more proportionally. But our instincts arenāt ridiculous or made to victimize you. They made sense in the traumatic environment that created us. Theyāre the only reason weāre still here now.
We still fall back on that because it worked and we survived.
#actually did#actually dissociative#osddid#sysblr#dissociative identity disorder#did system#actually osdd#sbc system tag: thorn š„#I am the āangryā protector#Iāve been learning how to handle conflict better#I know I canāt just flip out on people#I know trauma isnāt an excuse#for losing control#but right now#someone is mad at me#for identifying their behavior as threatening#and removing myself from the situation#because I knew I was triggered#and I couldnāt control my response#so I left#and then tried to talk about my concerns later#and this person#is PISSED#purely because#I was seeing red flags#and even though I stepped away and left the room#theyāre upset that I was triggered by them#Iāve seen people get upset#when Casper or Lyka run away and hide#saying itās childish
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sometimes
hearing other people talk
is overstimulating
itās ok to take a break
#Inspired by how I get over stimulated#I tend to get pretty irritable#So I just remove myself from the situation before#I snap at someone#rottmnt#rottmnt fandom#rottmnt donnie#rottmnt fanart#rise donnie#rise of the tmnt#I think Iām getting a hang of drawing donnie#Not so much the others#<<<Iāll have to work on that#ALL HAIL#DONNIE WITH EYELINER#mini comic#Jay txt#ā„ļøliteraladhdartā„ļø
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had a blood test
#this is the second time ive drawn myself getting medical attention from a fictional guy who should not be giving anyone medical attention#though mohg is at least extremely experienced in removing blood from peoples bodies. if a little overzealous about it.#but he could remove an appropriate amount of blood for a blood test if he had the inclination. .................#other one i drew was starscream comically large needle covid shot. he should not be doing that. theres no situation he would be good at tha#i basically drew the same comic lmao#scoobposting#scoob scribble
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He said "Fuck this shit, I'm out" I'm crying. Toriyama's Vegeta was so top shelf š¤
(From Neko Majin Z Chapter 5!)
#dbtag#Idk why Toei didn't lean into Vegeta being a version of Piccolo you could put in funnier situations like Toriyama wrote#He's reserved and professional and proud but JUST immature enough to bite down on a gag that Piccolo would readily swerve#But they take a lot of Goku's chaotic comedy away too in favor of Hero(tm) writing and that is why I keep pulling my hair out aklsjdlas#Toriyama was sO funny and it bums me out so much that the anime derailed how lighthearted and straight up silly the humor is#and replaced it with Misogyny Is Funny and humiliation kinks asjklfhadjk and it's not just my complaints about Vegeta and Bulma!!#āGoku is running away from his very reasonable wife because he is a goofy little guy who doesn't want to do his choresā becomes#āChichi is Cruel to Goku who is Trying to be a good husband because she doesn't relate to his passions and vilifies him for having them"#which is not their dynamic at all but dudes in the writing room are like ābeing married is fucking awful amirite fellas hahahaā#but Toriyama was like āBeing married is not for everybody but it can be really great if you and your partner are on the same pageā#Chichi's reasonable! And Goku isn't romantically wired but Goku can enthusiastically consent to sex and still not enjoy kissing#those things can be and are true for a lot of people! And it makes even more sense if you hc Goku to be aspec (and audhd coded) like I do#Kissing can feel gross and can be a sensory overload for many folks. Doesn't mean they're stupid or innocent.#(although Goku CAN still ride nimbus so idk what Pure entails in this universe askljad)#Like I am the FIRST person to joke and drag Goku about his marriage as an aspec myself but like legit Goten is a Last Night On Earth baby#He knows what sex is. But also between how socially removed Goku is and how Shy and Conservative Chichi it's not out of line#to assume the actual words sex and kiss have never been spoken in that house skljdlajdf I FULLY believe Chichi uses code words#Chichi thinks her son being blonde makes him a delinquent and still uses honorifics with Goku like it is fully reasonable to assume#that the joke of Goku's naivetĆØ centers around the fact that his wife is too embarrassed to talk about Certain Matters in a normal way#While Bulma and Vegeta are slutty hedonistic cityfolk who need jesus (according to chichi probably...and me but I support them)#anyway. point is. Toriyama was funny as hell and Nekomajin is absolutely ridiculous and goofy and has a fully amoral main character#which just reminded me that toei is allergic to letting goku be a gremlin and so vegeta's not allowed to be a gremlin wrangler#even though that's been his job since the day he met raditz alksdjaskljd
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when it comes to raise visibility for any cause , I must be careful to never create a post with ' you should ' or ' you shouldn't' type of vibe , not saying I didn't do it before ( especially if it's something I really care about) I'm an emotional person and I will never reject my emotions, however , if it's not about ME but about others , I know it's impossible to send a message properly if I am writing as if I'm yelling in people's face , eventually I gonna regret it because from my own perspective, my good intention will be translated to : I just want to feel good about my superior values
WHAT I'm going to accomplish ? do I have a goal to achieve ? or I just have a big ego ?
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whenever someone posts a bad jaime take, brienne is glaring at them across the common room of the inn in spirit. then she's abruptly retiring to her room
#brienne is like - i will not engage in bad faith discourse about my blorbo - i must remove myself from this situation#twice in two consecutive chapters no less lol#jaime x brienne#*
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Iām gonna back away from the Fear & Hunger fandom for a while because itās stressing me out. Too many stupid takes and misinterpretations of the characters. It doesnāt feel like the fandom is engaging with the actual content.
#please be patient I have autism and things overwhelm me easily#I get attached to things really hard and get irrationally mad when people donāt see it in the way I do#but Iām not gonna bitch at them about it because thatās stupid#it still sets me off though so the best thing I can do is remove myself from the situation
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I take the position on salt that I always have: if watching a children's TV show brings you so much anger and you feel compelled to spread that anger to others, you need to stop watching that children's TV show.
#im sorry but its just. so dumb#i don't care. i just don't care.#if it is so distressing to you that you need to make it MY problem then you need to remove yourself from the situation#don't force me to remove myself#grumbles#ml fandom salt
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I hate the word autistic meltdown, it makes me feel like iām describing a toddler but itās the only way i know how to describe my experience and behavior :/
#Every time i have a meltdown it feels like im horribly inconveniencing everyone around me#but like#sometimes i genuinely have no way of removing myself from the situation before a shutdown turns into a meltdown#iām almost 21 i feel so embarrassed sobbing in public#lesley time#vent#autism#if anyone else has some other vocabulary they use to describe this sort of thing feel free to mention it in the replies or a reblog
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this girl is sort of turning into me and I donāt know what to feel of it š she used to be this okay cool-ish girl but her act just changed after I started being friends with her. liek idk if itās just me but she suddenly has my humour, jokes and personality. im sort of okay with it but itās the way she executes the āflirty teaserā facade and overdoes it just makes me want to coil up into a ball.
I flirt as a joke and only when Iām feeling comfortable and playful to do so but miss girl just takes it to almost every interactions with people (sometimes itās a bit awkward). sheās a good person and very nice to me but sometimes I just cringe so hard when I observe her š
#šššš š š š š£ļø shitposts !!#it got so bad I had to physically remove myself from any situation with her or else I will rip my skin out#I am extremely conflicted about this pls help
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I think the most depressing thing thatās happened in my life over the past couple of months is watching an otherwise intelligent friend descend into paranoia and conspiracy. maybe ex friend now, because I donāt feel all that inclined to talk to him these days, but itās still sad to be a bystander to this who canāt help even if you try to intervene.
#something Iāve been trying to get better at as Iāve gotten older is trying to avoid situations that#spurn incredibly strong emotions in me that impair my social function.#itās not fair to the people around me and itās not fair to me either. i deserve better than treating myself like that#and Iām starting to wonder if how someone answers āhow willing am I to pull my own pigtailsā is correlative with extreme paranoia#social behavior isnāt really my bag outside of being in the world and observing it yknow#but a common denominator here has definitely been seeing someone come to this crossroads#and just choosing to engage anyway instead of telling themselves āI need to remove myself from beingā¦#ā¦so fired up constantly. itās starting to boil my brain.ā they just canāt quit it.#the best kind of evidence ā white hot anecdote#but thereās something about this that does seem functionally similar to addiction. just in how compulsive it is.#is anger addiction possible? I guess thatās the burning question.
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#the ONLY person i actually dislike in my lab. is now working in the same project i am#trust me. im not a hater. i very hardly dislike people because im good at removing myself from situations when the vibes are off#but this girl oh my god#i havent worked with her before but in every interaction we have she manages to piss me off so bad#im dreading life
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#if you lurk my tumblr itās only fair if i lurk your snap#if youāre dreaming about me thatās a skill issue#i have nothing to do with that lmao get an amethyst under your pillow or perhaps a black tourmaline#i ghosted bc you were casting love magic behind my back and without my consent after months of you being manipulative and entitled#i was grieving my dead cat and you had the audacity to demand i pour from an empty cup#but iām the villain right#because i still live in the area#and walk around my own neighborhood that iāve lived in longer than you have#i hope you heal. really i do#because removing myself from that situation sucked.#i didnāt want to have to protect myself from you after trusting you#you violated my body and my spirit#iām not playing games here. iām just trying to live my life. but donāt you fucking dare make yourself out to be the victim here.#i have no interest in this kind of game.#iām literally just trying to avoid you. lest you decide my autonomy doesnāt matter again.
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chat is it self isolating when you expressed your feelings on multiple occasions only to be ignored/villanised by doing so so you end up leaving instead bc ur sick of feeling like an outcast? š¤
#i said what was bothering me multiple times#no one did anything to change#so i left š¤·š¼āāļø#and then they ended up doing the same shit on Twitter too so i left that as well#like idk yall it kinda felt like i was constantly being pushed out#maybe it is just me but eh#i don't want to be around people who treat me like shit#i made it clear that i didn't like ppl flirting with my characters partner ic#and that i also didn't like ooc discussions of other ships w my characters partner#i removed myself from the latter situation#idfk it's hard not to feel like everyone is gaining up on you when ur the only one at fault š¤·š¼āāļø#personal#vent
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I wonder if I could justify doing those fliers on commission for other people's stuff
#the main thing is idk how to make them time/cost effective#the one's I've made for sword night and wwgg are like 6-8 hour jobs already and that's without having to make custom assets#so if I charged something reasonable by the hour it would probably be too expensive for people#but if I charged a lower or flat rate I would be selling myself really short#I feel like I need to cut the time in half for it to be worth it for either party#removing word games would be a big time save but that's part of the fun#there's also the issue of clip art... idk what the rights situation is there#the alternative would be to turn the fliers I have made into templates and then charge some pocket change to customize#which I guess is what the company I was originally stealing menus from was doing
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maybe one day when I can get a hold of a therapist with expertise that fits my particular issues, I can finally address the crippling feelings of jealousy and worthlessness whenever people who's kindness I treasure deeply are nice to others š¤
#hate to admit it but deep inside i am just the absolute worst. jealousy and worthlessness are eating my insides every single day#not as bad as it once was. I've gotten pretty good at repressing my reactions. but i still feel it like a knife twisting in my chest and gut#and i don't think that's normal ā#hate to admit it but this jealousy and the resulting feelings of worthlessness and me wanting to avoid The Bad Feelings#and unnecessary drama: if i remove myself from the situation/person i won't hurt anyone. sound logic when you're in distress. stupid asf tho#has caused the breakdown of a few friendships. and I'm not proud of how many people I've hurt this way over the years.#just wish i could get All Of This under control while avoiding all human contact#but i'm part of a social species and if i'm on my own for too long i go crazy crazy and that's not good either#will i ever get on top of this? who knows#...would that be considered black and white thinking?#like when people i care for and am happy to receive love and attention from give that same attention to others#and it feels like they won't ever give it to me again or that i am not special/our bond means nothing#and it makes me feel this ugly ugly jealousy -> shame -> worthlessness -> shame -> gotta isolate thing???#IDK?????????? i'm just working here (in my fuckdd up brain and body) i don't control the manifestation of my mental issues#anyway confessions at 6am after a sleepless night while feeling delirious from being sick with a cold š#might delete this later idk yet
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