#and literally fucking psychotic

[inoghmia]

You. You get it.

Heya, Im just confused so im gonna ask in hope u can clear this up for me, do you actually hate hate Jax or is it more of a hate-hate Jax in an affectionate way? I see you draw him being tortured a lot(which I love actually, he deserves it and its funny) but because ive seen many others artists saying they hate him and then actually loving him too(love-hate kind of situation lol) I was wondering if that would be your case or you just really hate him

Anyway, in any case, as an Jax stan, please torture him more /lh

I have mixed feelings about him tbh haha, it’s a “I love to hate him” type of deal, he isn’t a completely horrible person that I genuinely despise, but whenever he was on screen I was mostly like “WHAT AN ASSHOLE”

I appreciate his character greatly from a writing perspective cause it’s fun to have a character that is actually just that, an asshole, there’s no “he’s sarcastic”, “he doesn’t mean it”, this mf literally does not have a shred of empathy it seems and imo acts like a 14 year old edge lord who just read death note for the first time (“ouuu violence 😈🤓☝️”). He gives off the vibe of being the guy who says “look at this funny video I found” and it’s a live leak video, which makes me feel absolutely no guilt at all when I draw him trip down a flight of stairs

I do think some people romanticize his actions to a delusional degree which doesn’t personally bother me, you do you, but I just hope they keep his character in Tadc the way he is now and don’t change him up to seem sympathetic for audiences sake

[chaos-in-one]

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[mrmeepsmadmind]

i love when ppl draw bumblebee like the happy little creachure he is but also i love when people draw bumblebee like he's had 500 beers in the last 1 hour and still the pain won't even ebb

[translilithlesbian]

it shouldn’t be a fucking radical take to say that calling people delusional as an insult is bad and that disability is morally neutral in a punk space

[spidehpig]

i haven’t even attempted a raphael fic yet and i literally have 3 cod fics i need to work on right now but i got hit with a deranged urge to write some weird psychosexual cannibalism thing with raphael & tav

[soullessjack]

actually i think Jack’s whole psychotic meltdown after killing Mary makes a lot more sense when you remember that this was one of his worst fears:

i don’t have the exact scripts but suffice it to say, this is not the first time michael has insinuated that jack is his only equal/match/rival in terms of power, and it’s also not the first time he’s insinuated that jack would simply outgrow his sense of humanity and turn on everyone that he’s claimed as family; the fact that jack is even human to begin with is more or less a glitch in the system to all other angels. it’s “just a phase.”

and then on Jack’s response, all it says is that he doesn’t want to admit it could be possible. i feel like in most other scenarios like this, where the Hero has some connection to the Villain that’s used against them, the Hero usually just dispels the Villain’s claim of connection with some easy shit like “you’re wrong! i have confidence in myself to stay by my friend’s sides forever!” the villain is then defeated and the hero’s connection to them (and all that implies) is never brought up again. but here, with jack and michael, jack is clearly doubtful of his own humanity—I mean, he has been for a while, he’s just afraid to admit it to anyone because it holds too much risk of losing everyone he cares about.

jack has pretty much dedicated his life to proving that he isn’t evil, that he is trustworthy and safe and that he isn’t like Lucifer. however, while he and Mary are in apocalypse world you also get the sense that he now has to prove he isn’t like Michael—despite them being equals. but his dedication and determination are very much rooted in/responsive to fear, not just of losing everyone he loves, but for his True Nature to ultimately be evil and of his father.

so, of course killing his mother figure causes jack to spiral out of control and into psychosis, because he hardly understands what’s happened—he’s literally debating whether or not he intended to kill Mary while at Rowena’s flat—and he’s very jarringly faced with the potential reality that he had finally lost humanity and turned on everyone just as Michael had said.

and despite his literal subconscious telling jack that he’s as good as fucked, he can’t come back from this and he can’t call the Winchesters or the Bunker his home ever again, he obsessively tries to fix it and desperately denies that he could have actually wanted Mary dead or intentionally hurt her (remember he tells Rowena he just wanted her to “be quiet”) because how is he ever supposed to be seen as trustworthy again after possibly-deliberately hurting Mary (and later with Duma, the “nonbelievers”) when the entire reason he wasn’t trusted to begin with was the fact that everybody saw him as something dangerous/truly evil and merely choosing not to act on his true nature, and now if he can’t fix it, then he’s inevitably back in the pigeonhole of a dangerous monster, and Michael was right.

[winepresswrath]

Armand's simpering little "and I never have" has taken on new dimensions for me. Technicality king and also I think very in keeping with his whole malign fairy creature deal. You can tell him not to hurt the bae, but you should really specify what "hurt" entails. Is chopping someone's hands off really hurting them? If they have annoyed you very much I mean.

-questions Armand might pose to Lestat that inspire him to leave the country

[brokenmachinemusings]

“lu guang doesn’t care for cheng xiaoshi” look at me. look me dead in the eyes. did you watch link click? no, don’t look away. look at me. did we see the same character on screen. LOOK AT ME

[kaboom--bitch]

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychosis

Dude legitimately this is the funniest anon hate I've ever gotten. Yes, we're very open about having psychosis, wow you're so right. This is literally nothing new to us. You literally couldn't be bothered to even come up with your own words you just linked a wiki page oh my god.

[bisexual-birdy]

i am patiently waiting for allison and patty to kiss

[irrealisms]

what is even the point of having a big fandom for a seriously mentally ill character if y'all aren't going to actually write abt that

[ID: Screenshots of the number of works in AO3 tags. They are "3 Works in Wilbur Soot Has Delusions", "9 Works in Wilbur Soot Has Psychosis", "14 Works in Bipolar Wilbur Soot", "17 Works in Wilbur Soot Has BPD | Borderline Personality Disorder", and "1-20 of 22 Works in Paranoid Wilbur Soot". End ID]

oh right! it's the ableism

[ID: Another AO3 screenshot, reading "1-20 of 1,513 Works in Insane Wilbur Soot". End ID]

now to be clear i am in favor of reclaiming "insane". i myself deliberately do not identify with psychiatric diagnoses and instead call myself insane & crazy. but this is a character who Deliberately Disidentifies with the terms "insane" and "crazy", bc of how they are Used Against Him Due To His Experiences, and who specifically uses the word "sick" for himself and his experiences instead. WoG on how he identifies is that he sees himself as "suffering intense paranoia and delusions". and most of the fics in Insane Wilbur Soot...aren't abt "in this fic wilbur identifies as insane". they're abt "in this fic wilbur is an Evil Villain with no interiority beyond being a creep and/or chaos slasher joker archetype". it's fucking disgraceful. do better.

[lavenderwitchxxx]

Not so friendly reminder that people who demonise antisocial personality disorder, narcissistic people, personality disorders, psychopaths, sociopaths, people with DID, people who are clinically insane/psychotic, people with schizophrenia, etc, can fuck right off and are not welcome here. No disorder makes you an inherently evil person, and the people you're demonising are human beings who deserve basic human treatment.

Not only that, friendly reminder those people are welcome here, and this is a safe space for disorders considered "scary" and "dangerous" bc y'all are fucking human beings.

[oursharedprison]

ELLER LOREJUNK RAMBLE UNDER THE CUT CUZ ITS A LOT💥‼️

ill be so real i havent totally worked out her backstory [why she was created, etc] but the idea is she was a virus made from lotsa different bits n bobs of code, frankenstein style :3c yes her creator was just fuckin around n findin out lmao. neways she infects stuff thru emails n popups ^_^ instead of linking to what they *say* they are they make u download malware 🫶 heavy insp from the melissa worm virus how it sends itself to 50 or so of ur contacts thru email :3 oh and goggle.com as well i suppose!

but! reason shes even here in the 1st place n not back home on her creators computer is bc they went offline for a real long time no headsup no nothin & she assumed they were all abandoned 💥 so she left thru an email she sent to a random address [she did NAWT have any sort of plan considerin she woulda been like. round 10 at the time. she left her siblings behind so she'd know where they were & wouldnt have to fret abt finding them n makn sure everyones here once she got back. did i mention her siblins already? she has a lot :3 theyr p much clones of her code but sliightly 2 the left /silly] NEWAYS💥 she fnds her way inside the rry2k program & is lookin for something to help her blend in & thats when she finds the scrapped ai she now has as a host & stole the name from :3

[soullessjack]

Amara: I brought your mother back to show you that she isn’t just the perfect mother image in your head and is actually a whole complex flawed human being with her own life

spn fans: oh my gawd mary is such a terrible mother why doesn’t she love her sons immediately and want to just be their mom again she’s literally worse than john

[gstringsurvivor]

tbh the only reason i dont wanna move to a big city is because im afraid im gonna be miserable since everyone is jerking off to success but at what cost you dont even need to be earning more than 5k dollars a month to be happy none of it matters like as long as i can freely travel and go to the restaurants regularly im already extremely satisfied with my life at the end of the day you just need to get through it with people that you like and resonate with but only sometimes and maybe be able to swim in the sea at least once every 3 months im so glad im never on degenerate tiktok and ig reels like im so alienated from my peers (this is what i go through whenever i force myself to post pretty things on insta to remind myself that life is in fact great) its ALL so polyester to me and god thank me for learning how to enjoy my company and not giving a fuck about impressing strangers and semi acquaintances i dont even realize most people dont do it until i talk to others what do you mean youre anxious to walk around alone and have to post right away and every time you leave your house…. what about revelations while you listen to naughty girl by beyoncé and obsessing over the energy of your playlists bc it gives u an ick instead of filling a void by getting wasted with the guy that only wants you carnally and doesnt actually give a fuck about whats on your mind (experienced it too and it didnt help)

[hotmess-exe]

it's not my story to tell, so i won't be writing it, but i sincerely hope to see an interactive fiction someday where the protagonist is a felon. specifically, i'd like the protag to be someone who has served their full sentence and just gotten out.

there is so little respect and empathy for that perspective, so i just would love a well-written IF about it