#and its also flaring like so bad
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no1s mad i drew more konbart right?
last drawing is nirvana au // also i gave up on the 1st drawing mayb? i might return 2 it
#i realized im starting 2 feel insecure bc ppl my age r drawing muchMUCH better than me so i tried 2 do things i dont usual do kinda idk#trying 2 prove im not *that* bad @ art lol#which means i tried 2 draw kissing y tf did i try this I DONT I#USE TONE INDICATORS U BITCH!#nirvana au#nirvana!kon#kart#konbart#my fujcing wifi freaked out on me & i drew all of these#so thats fun!!#also i worked on my sketchbook bc NOTHING WAS WORKING sts yestefay was so boring :(#my sketchbook is exploding its more junk then sketch#my junk book#puppee art#i love nirvana!kon oh how k love them so theyre so pretty ((imo))#i drew like 3 sidelrofiles im dying#ALSO IGNORE HOW LAZY I AM DRAWING SUPEEHERO SUITS LOL#IDRC…IDK…I DIDNT WANNA DRAW THE FLARES OR THE PATCHES PLSSSSS#ive drawn sm kon in the last like week?#bc of etsy its honestly great i have like a lil collection of those ty cards i make#uhm#i need 2 stop rambling gn#y am i saying gn???
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making a collection
making another collection with a threatening aura
#davy back fightbpart 3 letsgo#HOW do the three big guns get wasted on the eating contest... horrible plan.... luffy is fine bc well... but not sanji and zoro like damn.#luffy DOESNT WANNA EAT??? CALL THE NAVY!!!!#what was i saying.... bad idea putting the three beasts there#FRANKY FRANKY FRANKY!!!! they captured the two princesses :(#one sided beef squashed between luffy and foxy. friendship ended with random ex marine guy. now luffy is my best friend#usopp and franky bonding time hell yeah. throw usopp by the head once more pelase#nami with zoros swords just like holding them looks so cool like she should get a few swords too... nami three sword style oda drawing pls#i think this man underestimates nami and luffys power together he doesnt know about shiki#luffy saying he knows its a trap and sorry for being late.... lets go on an adventure all nine of us.... usopp yes anding his lie..... omg#cant believe nami isnt there yet. she could take this guy. oh there she is!!!!! she does look cool with the swords and jumping to get luffy#zoro screaming in agony from luffy getting shot omg THIS FUCKING GUY OF COURSE!!! this looks like its so over#zoro and sanji must feel so useless rn. they didnt even get the chance to fight like damn#komei-kakka??? more like come caca. boom#luffy face down dead on the floor akdjkaa chopper have you tried looking at the wound to see if it harmed him idk#it hit the face akdjskn usopp that was coom also#was robin flirting with the other guy and zoro caught her and she told hum to shut up???#'your friends got the best of me but you are still in my arms an-' 'HEAT EGG!! ALSO YOU'RE ON FIRE!'#flare maneauver that was so slay also luffy and nami in the same frame so twins of them. my children. birthed them one right after the othe#zoro and sanji fighting back to back. back to back to back to you i dont wanna fall right back to us maybe you should run right back to her#that is such a bop song. also post wano zosan. and post wci. see the recurrent theme#fighting in water.... being on top of the sword that was a slay... red hawk ace i will never forget you it seems#foxy liking his jolly roger omg nami fooled him ahdhsjs i think they should have pirate game event every year they yearn for contests#now since this experience foxy should make monthly multitudinary pirate games olympics hoping the strawhats join them a la gatsby#the faces at the mushroom akdhaksjs#talking tag#watching one piece#watching one piece movies#kinda loved how robin betted on franky against usopp.... i will take the crumbs
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Trying to avoid illness like you're dealing with onset vampirism (broths heavy with garlic and iron, increasing your sunlight/vitamin D, salt baths for body pain, hide your face from strangers w/ so they suspect nothing and it doesn't spread, fight insomnia by sleeping all night and we see the sun, etc) all cause two doctors visits in a week feels like divine punishment
#i just have to make it to the 16th. next Thursday#then I see my regular doctor for everything and she can also handle what is likely a routine bronchitis flare#it's not as bad as usual between masking and the new inhaler but the last three days its been building till its hard to breathe deep#which is always a telltale#esp once my sinuses get fucked#I woke up this morning unable to breathe so this weekend might get gross#heres hoping we get actual snow#another round would be lovely
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#void fnf#evil art#firecracker#i love them so much#i need to stomp on them like small bugs#i wanna render more of flares skin casuse its meant to reflect like a polished stone#like obsidian#but like to a lesser degree it doesnt show reflectuons very well#its just kinda shiny#also its meant to glitter slightly like sun stone#i want flare soo bad#i love woman...
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Hi I'm still surviving yay
#i am going to make it throughthis year if it kills me etc#anyway just went for a walk in the first snow of the year#and texted back all the people who texred me for the first time all month#and know im gonna go home and have hot chocolate and butternut squash soup and crusty bread w goat cheese and balaic vinegar and olives etc#and also danggg its ok that km losing it a bit so far this year i have:#lived overseas for 3 months (culture stress loneliness language learning etc)#dealt w reentry#graduated college#started my first proper grown up job#moved & rented my 1st solo appartment#broke up w my boyfroend#and dealt w my chronic illness flaring pretty bad#oh also visited another like 6 countries in there somewhere?#and enrolled in a 2nd BA degree that im now working on#damn.
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I just realized I never posted what the hood vent looked like when I was posting ab removing the paint and then having to paint it.
This sucker has not been properly cleaned in at LEAST 30 years. I tried to clean it with Goo Gone and a spray on degreaser. Well they both (in two separate spots, I was testing them) ended up just taking the entire paint off with them. Got the gunk off though! So I just decided to remove the decades old gunk and paint and figured we'd paint after.


Left is when I stopped half way through and went "oh god what have I done..." (which is when I was posting ab having a breakdown) And right is the last picture I took before painting. Mom and I removed the remaining paint, except the top part bc I had been at this for 4 hours and was DONE.
We didn't prime the surface, nor did we think to check that the paint was rust proof. So there's specks of rust on the vent, but imo it makes it look like we CLEANED then vent and just didn't fully remove every stain and not that we painted over it. ;)

It probably could use another coat, but it's far better than it was 👍
#marquilla#i had a breakdown when we were painting bc it got where it wasnt supposed to and mom painted over the manufacturing information which we#could have used for replacements but its fine. and i was freaking out ab how it looked like the paint wasnt fully covering/that the texture#from the brushes and roller made it look bad but you really cant tell. i think it was just my ocd flare up getting to me tbh#ANYWAY it's so much less of an eye sore and it looks really really good with our new oven so yay#oh i also used a butter knife agdgdgdgdgdg i forgot to mention that#and a brillo pad i soaked in degreaser THAT worked fucking great like mwah
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#(( ooc. ))#negativity tw#venting tw#sorry for bad vibes on the dash today again#will delete this in a sec just lemme vent#so. i bought all the food for thanksgiving....#i cooked it all. his only contribution was rinsing half of the potatoes. peeling 2 carrots. and opening a couple cans for me#even the turkey that was supposed to be his to handle i ended up doing#bc he severely undercooked it so i had to step in to fix that and make sure it cooked properly#and then he said 'okay. you did all the cooking. i'll clean up.'#................... nope. guess who handled that too#while he was just sitting at the table after he was done#i'm the one that put all the food away. wiped down everything. filled the dishwasher#and got it going. gathered up all the other dishes and put them by the sink to wash#so to recap. i bought all the food. made all the food. and cleaned up after the entire meal#if i sound bitter its because i am#when i pointed out that i was having to clean up everything when he said he would his response was just 'sorry i'm such a useless hubby'#i mean yeah kinda#couple all this with the fact that i'm also the one who was up until midnight last night. on my bday. and on my period and exhausted#doing a ton of housework that he was supposed to handle. including cat litter which flares up my asthma when i do it#but i didn't have a choice. just masked up and did it myself bc its not fair to the fluffy bbys if i just let it slide and wait#for him to do it. bc that might be a few days.#sorry to bitch on the dash like this but just. the last couple days especially have been disappointing#between him flubbing my big 30 bday yesterday and now this today......... i'm really over it#gonna be lurking here and pretending i'm not pissed off
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the only thing that keeps me going in the school year is academic validation
#i am nothing without praise from teachers/my talent search woman officer thing#and my parents#last year i was crumbling because i kept getting sick and my grades dropped so much#not this year#i cannot do that again#god i always feel like my mental health is better during summer#i just get so bad during the school year#tw for relapse in this last bit don't continue if that's something you can't handle rn 🫶#also i always end up relapsing in the school year#with everything#my ed flares up so bad during school and my coping mechanism for that is not any better#im just trying to stay positive but its kinda hard when all of my thoughts are fighting in my head#bugs junk#vent#sorry guys#like#really sorry#i know i try to keep in positive and funny here#ill be fine soon my posts Will be normal again and sharks/mlm stuff again
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am finally back home and can say without a doubt that i am just fundamentally not built for long distance travel however the train was much nicer than planes
#that being said. pressurized cabins drive me insane a little bit#and also it gives you pretty intense sea legs for a While#like. the ones from the first trip hadnt gone away by the return one. so. might be stuck with that for a few days#we shall see#also ajr live fucks severely#the albums were already incredible but that was a goddamn religious experience#like. idk the way i think abt it is theyre more djs than a regular band esp w their performance showing the making of way less sad#like their music is very electronic‚ theyre making mixes of their own sound effects more than singing in one go#so like. the vocals were a teeensy bit rough at times#notably times it has taken me Literally Hundreds Of Hours Practice to be able to consistently sing along with#and times ive found its literally physically impossible to like. no matter what#idc how big your lungs are‚ there is no human on earth who can do that final run of karma in one breath#much less to An Entire Stadium After An Hour Of Jumping And Dancing And Singing Loud As Fuck#so like i dont blame them for that‚ you dont go to live shows expecting it to be 100% perfect anyways jwbdjsbfksb#the trumpet however. well she was certainly playing sometimes. and was very enthusiastic about her flares.#however. in most of their songs they use midi trumpets to my ear at least#meaning she was likely an addition specifically for live performances and in my personal band kid opinion#prooobably was not in any of the like. higher tier bands? idk just. a lot of the mistakes she was making were hitting as stuff that got#taught out of us the instant we joined any band beyond regular concert#so i would guess she was probably just like. a friend who happened to play trumpet in high school or maybe even just middle school#and they knew that the trumpet parts in their pieces were big and distinct enough that like they /had/ to get a live player#and just kinda. didnt anticipate the audition -> performance gap#like. her tone was really fried the whole time like she was playing as hard as possible#which. she was mic'd. have the sound guy turn her up.#the way they did it made it sound like she was using a mute but not. like she only got the bad parts of a mute from it yknow#her tempo and timing were. bad. theres no nice way to put that one it just Was Bad‚ like the trumpet runs in ajr songs arent. complicated#like. quite literally if you handed me the sheet music right now i would have it down perfect in a week at absolute most#and better than that player on sightread. like. we did so many sightreading drills.#like ill share my band kid creds if anyone cares but i need to emphasize this isnt me being braggy like. they genuinely just arent hard#fuck im out of tags. w/e i think only like one of yall also listens to them anyways so i can leave it there
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*kicking my feet, twirling my hair* so there's this giiiiiirl
#havemt had an opp to talk to the irl i want to about this#letting it out here#i think shes really cool id love 2 make out withher#nothing serious bc in yhe words of loss campesinos romance is boring#but i am down a little bad and letting my autism flare up in hopes thay she kisses me#nervousnervousnervous i want it to go well sooooo bad#and she invited me to the beach the other day and she gave me songs to listen too and aaaaaa#feeling like a bit of a fag atm and its sooooooo#alsoalso shes trans too and weve spoken gender a bit before and it wasnt much then but now im thinking about it and aaaa im so gay#talking about gender is such a love language for me actually like omg let me affirm your gender#im just#eeeeeeeee#just a crush but not i just like her a little its not that deep#havent felt like this for a girl in ages tho so its very 😳😳😳#i was just being playful at first but now i wanna kiss her so bad#shes also talller than me and its fun and silly and i just aaaaaaaaa#ramble
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I’ve been trying to get Enya’s y8 lore down for the last 3 days but all I’ve managed is to stare at this blank draft KSKDKSKS😭
#like its not that I don’t know what to type in fact its the opposite😭#its just getting started has been tough…😭 and also the 10000 other ideas at the same time#also working on commississons too so it’s been blank for a while LMAO#and I have to do Leo’s ref…😭 but I always end up getting a new Enyao idea or see a pretty ref I wanna do#plus a bunch of other WIPS#AAAAA I’m just ansty… and need to refill meds again… I’ve had awful focus sjdkdkd#monster has helped at least :’) but only for maybe a day and we’re back at square one#AND MY ALLERGIES… MY BIGGEST BEEF RN#even now I’m sneezing and it gets so bad I can barely get any thing done#I just end up fatigued and congested bc of it…💀#on that note does anyone else who take SSRIS and ADHD meds get a reaction when you go without for a bit…?😭#I mean besides the brainzaps for me its like I end up getting an allergy flare up#maybe once I square the next payment away I should talk to my perscriber about that😭#okay I was going to brainstorm more but ended up talking to the Zhaobot instead…help
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listen ‘ere boy there is a voice in ur head telling u ur fine and you don’t need to go to therapy tomorrow and that voice is a f u c k i n g liar don’t listen to it boy don’t fuckin’ listen to that rat ass bastard it does NOT have ur best interests at heart
#vent in tags etc etc#aim losing my mind over here#it’s fine#see the thing is I’m so deeply lacking in like. the emotions edition of object permanence. I can have a massively heartbreaking reaction to#smth and then once I’m out of that moment and even slightly distracted it’s like nothing ever happened ??#so like yk I was nearly [radio static noises] over talking to my therapist abt the young csa thing and I’m meant to be starting emdr tomorr#tomorrow* except like for the past two weeks I’ve overall been fine regarding that?? instead it’s the ed and other traumas flaring up so ??#idk how Specific emdr is I honestly don’t know much about it yet but like yk now I’m wondering if I should delay starting that in favour of#talking about the other badtimes tm rearing their heads atm. todays in particular was unexpected it happened this morning and it’s only just#like. hit me and started biting and it’s ?? also dumb cuz like on one hand I’m pretty okay but on the other hand the other half of my brain#is spiralling hysterically to the point where I’m very glad I’m already in bed and like I know [redacted] won’t help but it’s like my brain#is just so lost about how to hold these things and what to do at all so it’s just pulling out the bad coping mechanism and insistently#thrusting it in my lap and waving its arms like it wasn’t even That Bad tm of a situation today but it Was some very specific factors which#are holding hands with Other specific factors and then The Location Of The Events is just#yea okay maybe I will talk to her abt this / these things instead if I can#ah the joys of heavy personal responsibility at a very young age and the severe guilt that gets bred from that and the fantastic experience#of things being so far out of your control and almost destined to fail and the absolute wonder of The Actual Person(s) To Blame Having No#Consequences For Their Actions and ending up feeling like you failed and you’re a complete fraud cuz no good you do will make up for that#one situation and yeah okay I’m gonna go sleep#ugh
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It's insane to me that the company that produces zzz, a game that has some of the best animation work I have seen in an action game; also produces genshin impact, which has some of the worst animation work I've ever seen in an action game.
#idk maybe genshin has gotten better since i played it last like 4 years ago but back then it was bad#combat clarity was atrocious#none of the animations brought any personality to the characters#there was absolutely no flare or anything#it was purely functional and barely even good at that#also the run animation was so bad#but zzz is like hey we heard you wanted animation work with personality and character#also combat clarity is amazing and it feels so fucking satisfying#i feel like i could talk for hours about it#just crazy that one company hit both of these bars within the span of 5 years#maybe its project scope and clarity#or maybe they just hired more talented artists but goddamn they really improved a lot between these games
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#I've been having an awwwwful pain flare the past few days. Like struggling to move around and shit bad#except ive been masking it while babysitting my siblings which suprise! Has made it worse#and I just really really want to draw but its 4am and I cant sleep#because my head is pounding and my joints are burning and my spine is screaming bloody murder and a billion other things. Sigh#I will get around to more reunion killugon art I promise#I also have several fic ideas in fhe back burner in my brain...#I struggle writing and articulating my thoughts in compelling ways but I have so mnay ideas !!! Drawing is so much easier uhg#anyway sorry foe the vent. art will be back whenever my body decides to get its shit together for a minute#vent#rambles
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You ever just feel like you are stretching yourself too thin
Cause thats me rn
#i have so much fucking things going on at once and its driving me insane#i have 4 reports i need done in the next few weeks#i have to get started with going thru private hrt process soon (cus i keep pushing it back bcs its so busy)#ive got friends i need to keep in touch with. on tumblr. other parts of the internet and irl#i also have my girlfriend who thankfully understands why im not as active in talking but i feel guilty for doing so#and i have my cosplans which i desperately want to do but theres no place to put them#AND FINALLY THE PROBLEM THAT IS NOT FUCKING HELPING#ive been having a really bad flare up of my chronic fatigue and i have had like -20 energy everyday for the past week#i just.. i just want to be able to rest and not worry about consequences#i might try to take a break from here for a bit soon so i can allocate my energy a bit better
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“tch, what are you doing.”
“hugging you.”
“i’m not stupid. why are you hugging me,”
sukuna grouses, his entire vast frame growing stiff. it was always like this with you. every few seconds, you’d be talking to him about literally anything and out of nowhere, your human arms just wrap around his waist. the demon stands still with the most repulsed poker-face, yet he doesn’t attempt to pry you off. for whatever reason, your warmth was surprisingly .. comfortable. you’ve got the cutest smile contorting against your features. burying your face into the center of his chest, the demon sighs, flicking your forehead. “oi brat, i asked you a question.”
playfully wincing at his gesture — you have a tiny pout. “you looked like you could use one,” and your arms briefly tighten around his slim torso. “also, usually when someone’s hugging you, you’re required to hug the other person b-”
“don’t tell me what to do,” and you gasp, feeling strong arms pull you in close. with an oof, you land right into his soft padded chest. your cheek tenderly rubs against the various ancient markings that paint and decorate his skin. the ‘hug’ only lasts for about three seconds before he pulls away, pretending to feel ill. a mere drama king. “disgusting. got me participating in such a revolting, humanly act. think ‘m gonna be sick.”
“oh, don’t be dramatic,” you tease, leaning into his touch. you’re met with a crimson-red glare but you could spot the vague pout forming against his lips if you squinted. out of all the pesky humans he’s encountered, no one was ever tolerable or worthy for his attention.
no one except . . . you.
a simple gesture as hugging makes him feel mushy ‘n soft inside and he hates it. loathes it, that dumb carefree grin that cheeses against your lips, the cute glimmer sparkling in your eyes. so irritating, so . . adorable.
as you rest your chin against his chest, you let off a tiny huff. “do demons not hug each other?”
“not in this way,” he murmurs, feeling an awkward lump brew in his throat. sukuna’s eyes suddenly avoid yours and you grow curious. not only that, but his body language changes. your softness was making him nervous.
he swears a plethora of inaudible curses under his breath, remaining rigidly stiff and refuses to move his beefy arms another itch. your arms wrap around him again and a huffing sigh makes his tense shoulder lower. with a grumpy grunt, his eye twitches and a single fang bares below his top lip, a sign of cute stubborn annoyance. “ack, you’re squishing me, human. release me at once.”
your chin swiftly rubs against the soft fabric that made up his personalized kimono before deadpanning. “not until you hug me back.”
“i am hugging you back.”
“no you’re not,” you giggle, burying your face inside between the opening slit of his clothing piece. his body heat tepidly radiates against you and you’re engulfed with his loud natural scent. the demon’s almost always naturally warm, your personal heating pad. he shoots you a vexing glare, nostrils flaring up in exasperation before his arms awkwardly pull you closer. “hey, not s- so tight, ‘kuna.”
“now you wanna complain? you’re gonna take this hug,” and you giggle, feeling him gingerly shove you into his broad chest, squeezing you tight.
sukuna sassily rolls his eyes at the audacity,
he’s never been one to participate in such ludicrous, but if it was with you, maybe it wasn’t that bad. sukuna stares down at you, a weird soft feeling pooling its way into his heart — after a while, he unwraps his arms from your body, ruffling your hair. “stupid.”
with a cheeky grin, you wrap your arms right back around his torso, nuzzling against his chest like you were a kitten. with a gruff groan, his arms suddenly mirror you, slinging around your waist, pulling you close tightly. how annoying, he’s starting to enjoy this little thing called ‘hugging.’
sukuna slowly adapts to the warmth of your body against him, a faint smile creeping on his face at your next adoring words. “love you ‘kuna.”
“you’re gonna experience a deadly cough in five days, brat.”
“huh?”
“hmph. i said . . i love you too.”

#★vegasbaby.#idk i felt softuhhhh#sukuna x reader#sukuna x you#sukuna x y/n#sukuna fluff#ryomen sukuna x reader#sukuna ryomen x reader#jjk fluff#jjk x reader#jjk x y/n#jjk x you#jjk drabbles#jjk imagines#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jujutsu kaisen x you#jujustsu kaisen x reader#jjk fic
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