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#dearmodern#dear modern#feng shui#fix it#I love these shorts of his#he's so sweet and uplifting#and it's a good reminder for my ADHD#don't stress out...fix it!#Slowly but surely my office has become my space and it's getting more well decorated and more homey and makes more sense#and I'm less frustrated at chaos and boring white walls#Frustrated? FIX IT
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Cool awesome reminder that you don’t need amazing technical skill to be a good artist/storyteller
#I still compare myself to other people but also like. Damn. What if I don’t need to#That’s literally what working with other people is for . so you can fill in for eachother and make an awesome thing :)#Reminder that Toby Fox is not a skilled visual artist LOL he makes concept art in mspaint#Ik He’s more of a composer / character writer but you know what I mean. He works with other people to bring those ideas to life#You don’t have to be good at everything !!#Txt#art#I say this because rendering pieces of art takes me dozens of hours and it’s literally so much work and I hate it sometimes#Ok then make a simple stylistic choice instead of doing a giant painting !! it will still carry the same or maybe even greater impact#I still want to make awesome giant beautiful pieces of art (illustration) but alas I don’t have infinite energy#I usually only make sketches instead and that doesn’t mean they’re unfinished. Maybe that’s just all they’re meant to be#Until I change my mind at least 🩷#Adhd#Honestly anything that gets your idea across is good enough. Depends on the idea
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when your main characters start dating after years of writing so they finally get to be like this
#rare WIP preview from me#this is in like. 10 episodes. lmfao#its been really hard working this far ahead#my editor isnt giving me any feedback and my friends are very busy so it's felt quite lonely#which is fine! for my friends I mean. but its my editors job to give me feedback...#but the webtoon editors are extremely extremely extremely overworked and my series is set to end so I understand its low priority#its not her fault its webtoons fault. however. its still demotivating...#oh well l m a o#I should be much further ahead ngl LMFAO I want like 12 done but I come back in 2 weeks.#we'll see#when I get really stressed out I go full gamer mode#and usually I'll sink like 60 hours (like 5 days) into a game and then I'm good and move on#but this recent game that grabbed me is. its too much actually#bit uncontrollable ngl I think its an ADHD thing I mostly have just quit playing videogames at all#cause its like yeah being stressed cause theres too much work to do is not going to be helped by losing a week and a half to a game...#and yet.#anyways the game is satisfactory#my friend bought it for me and we've been playing together#and our shared file has. 100 hours on it. and we still havent beaten the game#we're close to beating it and it's not like we're rushing or anything#cause its fun to fuck around and zap eachother or whatever#but it's got me doing math. the exact kind of math I love to do. optimization#and its reminding me yeah in another life id have been an engineer#I'm glad I'm an artist but its always weird like yeah this is easily a path I could have gone down#'artists hate math' speak for yourself doing math calms me down! I love math!#I love math and I love business. I'm almost the perfect artist but I hate advertising so. we can't have it all#anyways theyre so fucking cute its sickening. I love them so much. I could cry#WIP#lineart#time and time again
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god forbid the person i become if someone or something prevents me from writing tomorrow... i have an itch i can not scratch. if i don't write i will get hives. you know like when you're hungry and you don't know it yet and you get so bitchy and then you eat and you're like "ohhhh that's what it was" that's me but with writing. they try to stop me and i will bite them
#this is about the potential adhd#but mostly about the sheer amount of shit I've had to do this week#erinwantstowrite#living up to my username#in other news my goddaughter slept through the night for the first time ever#gotta put smth good on this post so i can remind myself to be chill#and nothing is more good than my beautiful angel sunshine goddaughter#she's literally perfect and can do no wrong#you wish your kids were as amazing as mine#leap of faith ao3#anyways chapter 16 is coming soon and by soon i mean by next week or i will scream#chapters 16 and 17 do not forsake me
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[1] Richard Siken, Portrait of Fryderyk in Shifting Light [2] Being Human S1E5 [3] Clint Smith, When people say, “we have made it through worse before” [4] Being Human S3E8 [5] Guillermo del Toro at the 2018 Golden Globes [6] Being Human S1E6 [7] Allie X, Fresh Laundry [8] Being Human S1E5 [9] Christian Wiman, The Parable of Perfect Silence [10] Being Human S3E8 [11] Hanif Abdurraqib, And What Good Will Your Vanity Be When The Rapture Comes [12] Being Human S2E8 [13] Allie X, Fresh Laundry [14] Heidi Priebe, To Love Someone Long-term Is To attend A Thousand Funerals of The People They Used To Be [16] Being Human S3E8 [17] Christian Wiman, Flight
#being human#john mitchell#being human uk#ok enough business tags. behold my magnum opus#according to my notes i started making this in fucking DECEMBER last year. it is now JUNE#it took me six fucking months..... this is truly a disease but i am so happy w it#webweaving as a format is so perfect for me bc its just the adhd experience of going wait this reminds me of--#anyway can u tell im a tragedy enjoyer. i love a good downfall#i also have so many thoughts abt george and annie and i have a whole idea abt the bt20 arc#and tbh i rlly wanna make one abt what the concepts of monstrous and human mean within the context of the show#but uhhhh exam season incoming so! see u in six months i guess rip x__x#i will come back to this and add alt text dw i just dont have the spoons rn#words#poetry#cavetext#caveweb
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discovering their gun kink
how i think you would discover tokrev men’s gun kinks
characters: sanzu, naoto, mikey
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cw/tw: gn!reader, guns, gun kink, pet names (once; baby), slight talk of kink, suggestive but not nsfw, you can interpret this as a romantic relationship qpr fwbs etc tried to keep it ambigous but what’s established is that you’re fucking
☆—`sanzu
he’s known about his gun kink for a while now
has even lived out the fantasy with someone before you two started fucking
so he’s wanted to tell you for a while
he’s not insecure or embarassed about it at all but communication is kind of hard for him, which is why he thought he could maybe just hint at it. which didn’t work at all
one day, the two of you are on a party hosted by the haitani brothers
somehow, you end up playing truth or dare, and sanzu gets asked what one of his biggest kinks is
he admits that he has a gun kink
later, when you’re in private, you tell him that you’re surprised but certainly open to try it out sometime
he grabs your face and hungrily kisses you right then & there.
☆—`naoto
he hasn’t discovered his gun kink yet.
as a detective, he has his own gun. he decides to show it to you one day because you seemed interested
he lets you hold it and all that, but he unloaded it beforehand for safety
so you jokingly point it at him, slowly drawing closer
naoto doesn’t react at all, which is why you decide to only stop walking right in front of him. you lay a hand on his nape and hold the gun to his temple
so close to him, you can see a blush spread from his cheeks all the way up to his ears
he stays still, no signs of moving away. ,,y/n, can you put the gun down, please?’’, he asks, voice raspy
you do as you’re told, lowering your hand with the gun. ,,why’s that, though? i can see that you’re enjoying it, you know...’’
,,i just- i didn’t expect to get turned on by being held at gunpoint’’, he admits, not looking into your eyes
,,oh? if you want to, we can explore your newly discovered kink’’, you offer and smile
his blush gets even darker, and he nods. ,,please put it back on my temple’’, he asks shyly
,,of course, baby.’’ you shove him against the nearest wall and comply.
☆—`mikey
i feel like he straight up tells you tbh
you’re coming home after work, and see him standing in the kitchen, reaching for his beloved taiyaki
obviously, you decide to sneak up on him and hug him from behind. it earns you a surprised yelp
,,y/n! now you made me drop my food..’’, he complains, but doesn’t make any attempts to leave your grasp and pick it up again
,,yeah, yeah, love you too.’’ you roll your eyes, though can’t help to smile
mikey leans back into your touch, tilting his head back to look at your face
you gently kiss his forehead
,,more..?’’, he asks, and grins
you like kissing him anyway, so you comply, spinning him around to face you first
he immediately leans in to kiss your lips, trying not to smile too much to ruin it
after a few kisses, it starts to get more and more heated, and mikey’s clinging to your body, trying to find naked skin
you shove him against the counter, taiyaki long forgotten
,,y/n? could we.. try something a little more extreme today, maybe?’’, he asks against your lips
,,like what, exactly?’’
,,well, you know. i have a sort of gun kink..’’, he admits, looking right into your eyes. he isn’t ashamed of it
,,hm... sure, if you’d like that!’’ you smile, and cup his cheeks, pulling him into another passionate kiss.
#tokyo revengers x y/n#tokyo revengers x reader#tokyo revengers x you#mikey#sano manjiro#sanzu haruchiyo#naoto tachibana#mikey x reader#mikey x you#sanzu x reader#sanzu x you#naoto x reader#naoto x you#tw gun#have the most self indulgent hcs i could possibly write#remind me to never directly write on tumlr in mobile again bc you can’t copy shit so i had to count the words by hand.#suddenly got hyperfixated on writing x reader stuff instead of normal fics like i usually do ??#idk. might post more in a few days might not idfk how my adhd brain works#i really wanna write smth for kisaki rn tho i just need a good idea
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I recognize a lot of ADHD symptoms in Nightheart too.
The thinking everyone hates him is a big thing, taking rejection harder than it should be,
You're right... the Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria... I am Nightheart's therapist and I am slapping him with so many mental illnesses.
#ALSO FOR THE RECORD I DONT HAVE BPD#I just have people I love who do#And take a sincere and adoring interest in how their minds work#I do have ADHD though. Recently diagnosed.#But I've known my entire life.#But anyhow#I just like BPD I think it's neat. It reminds me of people I love. And loved. It's so demonized and I hope that I can help ppl understand#It's just an emotional regulation disorder. There is no 'bad person' disease.#People with BPD can be good or bad.#Btw I plan to do this with NPD too at some point. I did a leetle research and know where to start now#But I haven't picked a cat to get it#And I have personal close experience with BPD so like. That's why it comes up so much. I feel confident in how I portray it#And I get super good feedback from people who have BPD so I think I'm doing good#Also inside joke lmao; Bird Perception Disorder#Because for SOME REASON I keep using birds as a BPD metaphor#And partner found that hilarious#The birds are being perceived#bone babble
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being someone who craves connection while my toxic trait is self-isolation and avoidance is so cruel
#like yes it’s from ✨trauma✨ but god dammit i am TIRED#i’m sure the adhd doesn’t fucking help either#i’ll have one or two good days where i’m talkative and responsive and then…#my brain just randomly decides to shut down and there’s nothing i can do about it#which then makes people think i’m disinterested in what they’re saying which couldn’t be further from the truth#and the holidays don’t help bc i’m just reminded of what i don’t have#ignore me i’m just venting#personal
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I overshare online because I need constant validation that every thought and action of mine is Good and Okay and Normal. Surely this is a healthy coping mechanism
#something I'm trying to work through#comes from a hard mixture of autism (not knowing if what im doing is Normal behavior)#OCD (guilt loops that last for days weeks months on end)#ADHD (rejection sensitive dysphoria)#being raised christian (always being reminded that bad thoughts and actions will send you to hell)#and trauma from being heavily monitored as a teenager (very used to having every thought & action over-analyzed)#i have a constant craving for validation because of all of those things#which leads me to being a very self-absorbed person#i feel like if people aren't consistently telling me that im a good person then i must be horrible#im putting my emotional work onto others when i do that#making it THEIR responsibility to make me love myself#it's not healthy for you or anyone around you#you can't truly improve yourself if you're always relying on other people to verify whether or not you're okay#especially since everyone has different opinions & biases#if you never learn how to validate yourself you become completely reliant on others#and if you lose that outside validation everything will fall apart#even though i know these things i still haven't broken out of the habit#but that's another thing you have to give yourself grace for#you can't expect yourself to instantly adhere to new expectations#so you're gonna be hypocritical at times#you can't hate youself for that either it takes time to break habits#you need to find the line between self criticism and self hatred#love yourself Or Else. literally.#.bdo
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something i'm grateful for about Wally is the representation for people who love eye contact. we're underappreciated smh
#its very fun to see a character who Looks Intently bc he Likes It and thinks its Polite#eye contact is so so so so good but the majority of people hate it and Whyyyyyyy#it makes being around people so difficult#i naturally stare into a person's fucking soul when holding a conversation#so i have to constantly remind myself to look away periodically or look somewhere else entirely#and then my thoughts turn into 'youre making too much eye contact. now youre making too little. stop looking over there.'#'make eye contact WAIT NO NO ok great we just awkwardly glanced at them. fuck. what are they even saying rn we stopped listening'#and then if i make eye contact with someone in passing / a stranger#its immediate panic like Oh Fuck What If They Think We're A Total Freak Now. Shit Shit shit#or the equally terrifying What If They Think That Was An Invite To Interact#but otherwise. let me stare into your souuulllllll pleaseeeeeee#Without it being weird or making you uncomfortabllle#i am trying to CONNECT and show that i am ENGAGED i am LISTENING#absolutely unprompted#shoutout to all my adhd/autistic homies who looooooove eye contact#we're rarer than a unicorn stg#if eye contact is a sliding scale its the only binary im participating in#i think this might be why i like cats so much. instant staring contests. prolonged comfy eye contact#yeah physical contact is great but have you ever held casual Eye contact with someone
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after all the "pre work" work I did, it's finally time to start writing the discussion of my thesis (aka actually analyse all the shit I said I was going to analyse and write "think pieces" on it) and Im gonna start pulling hair out
#I CANT FOCUS#I DO MAYBE 2 MIN OF WORK AND I REACH FOR MY PHONE OR OPEN A SECOND TAB#IVE OPENED TUMBLR LIKE 6 DIFFERENT TIMES NOW#PLEASE SAAAAVE MEEEEE#I need to at least start on one of the topics until friday so i can show my advisor and... well be advised on it#theres not enough coffee in the world capable of helping me#think i need to go old school and start doing cocaine (haha funny NOT haha weird)#funny how everytime i have to Sit Down and Work my brain ties itselt into a knot and I feel dumb and useless and unprofessional#I WANNA BE AN ACADEMIC#LIKE AN ACTUAL ACADEMIC CAREER WITH RESEARCH AND DOCTORADES AND SHIT#AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH#bi yearly reminder to get assesed for adhd cause THIS HAPPENS EVERYTIME WITH EVERYTHING#*takes a breath*#its okay my advisor said I write academic papers really good and I SHOULD pursue an academic career#its okay im fine#ill start going to college earlier so I can work in the library and get “judged” into actually working#love body doubling :-:#it actually works but it makes me feel like a child#like of course I need ADULT SUPERVISION to actually get any work done#accidental vent#like wow we got real personal on this one huh
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There’s not enough discourse in the paranormal fandom about those of us who are such space cases that we could walk into the kitchen and find all the chairs stacked on top of the table in a manner that defies physics and either a) not notice, or b) notice and think, huh, I don’t remember doing that - maybe it was the cat?
#that poll reminded me of this#like good luck trying to haunt me with strange noises and shadows and so on#a shadow person could do the Macarena in my living room at 3am and it would just#blend into the background noise of golden girls on the tv#I have long wanted to write a story where a person lives in a haunted house#but they are adhd and also middle aged and tired#so they don’t notice the haunting#and the ghost who had been haunting this place for like hundreds of years#just does not know how to deal with this so they get really invested in the haunting#and the paranormal activity just steadily escalates to the point of absurdity#the main character will walk into a room and see shit like#‘get out!!’ scribbled on the walls in blood and be like#‘… uh. the fuck?’#and the ghost will be like ‘FINALLY JESUS CHRIST IVE BEEN TRYING TO GET YOUR ATTENTION FOR A YEAR AND A HALF’#and the narrator will be like ‘…. so are you gonna clean this or? bc I’m not losing my security deposit’#and the ghost is like ‘oh yeah sorry about that - the economy amirite?’#and the narrator is like ‘you have no idea’ and the ghost is like ‘yeah I do I’ve seen how you live’#anyway#this has been a quality post#paranormal#the Charlotte Lennox diaries#adhd artichoke
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wondering why im so fucking sleepy for no reason then remembered I forgot to take my meds for 3 days
#how did i live in this world unmedicated like#i have always been this sleepy and tired all the time i just thought it was a personal flaw#taking adhd meds actually made me so#idk when i first had it i coulsnt stop telling my friends how awesome it was to be awake#its like theres no longer a heavy cloud over my consciousness 80% of the time#i could actually read books without dozing off it was amazing ..#so why did i forget...idk i just forgot. i have the forgot disorder#tbh a few months ago id know if i forgot my meds bc I'd just suddenly get sleepy in the middle of the day#these few days i just attributed it to academic stress and lack of sleep and what not but it only just occured to me like#uh#5 min ago#that this is how i feel without medication#cool. cool. i forgot about my brain condition and accidentally slept my whole morning away instead of writing my reports#its actually crazy to me that i need external influences to function normally like i need my awake pills#caffeiene doesnt even do shit for me#i need my stupid fucking cocaine#sorry im just angry at myself again for 1)wasting away hours being sleepu#2)forgot my meds made me remember my debuff. a reminder that i cant ever be normal#adhd is fun except when its not fun then. it fucking sucks#its only good for yapping
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Me: "Why do I have a headache"
Also me: Forgot to drink anything since waking up despite that I first opened my eyes and then had to peel my tongue off the roof of my mouth like it was stuck there with fly tape, whole body shriveled up like a sad crop during a drought
#the gnat rambles#good thing my brain works and I never need reminders that I have a physical body#:|#stares into the camera like I'm on the office#How did I forget I was so desperately thirsty?#Well you see#I had another thought that happened after “holy shit I need water” and it cleared the previous thought cache#ADHD sure is wild#please hydrate lmao this is your reminder
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my phone is poisoning me i need to put it down
#idk why my adhd suddenly magnified by like 1000x in the past week but i Need to fix myself until this semester is over#guys if im a little less active than usual on here its bc im trying to be a good girl and live my life#<- don’t worry though because it wont work and im terrible at that#but please cheer me on and remind me to get the hell off of this site when im on here 😭#i wanna practice good study habits and i need to study ahead early for my finals agghhh#it just sucks bc im so tired of taking notes man. why am i spending an hour typing shit i won’t remember about a topic i don’t need to know#anyway this is a bit of a vent post i guess#im just starting to feel worse catholic guilt over my tumblr addiction bc finals week
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dating an art student was so crazy I'm just thinking abt that one birthday I had where my ex got me stickers from the etsy of the person they were cheating on me with....
#they made them address the thank you note to me and everything ajskfjfkfb. i didnt know they were cheating at the time but wow...#every time i break out my sticker collection and see them im reminded of it. but i cant throw out the stickers theyre deltarune ones 😭#like they were a rly cool artist.... just unfortunate that happened 💀#the drama was insane. my ex only wanted to sleep with them but they (other person) wanted them to break up with me so they could date#but my ex dumped them rly harshly for suggesting that i guess 'romantic' cheating was a step too far even for them lmaooo#i heard abt their breakup secondhand and god could they be cruel sometimes. they made fun of the sex theyd had w them#to all their mutual friends n everything i actually felt so bad for the other person when i found out. at least our breakup wasnt that bad#i only finally got that cruel side of them directed towards me like a year after when they wanted us to stop being friends#but yeah. its also funny in a way bc my ex only suggested i had adhd bc the other person did too + struggled a lot with rsd#which i guess they found out when they broke up with them. and then looked at that and thought huh my gf is kind of similar...#and this was like. 2 years before i even considered i had adhd myself and sought diagnosis ahdkfidjcjdjfjfjfkdbfnf#this made me go look the other persons art page up on instagram + then i recognised some of their friends/flatmates art pages and i found#their (my exs that is) grad year film which is still being shown at animation festivals... good for them good for them#i dont think they have an art page themselves tho cuz they were always v shy and weird abt sharing art on social media#like everyone else except them is tagged on things... shame i wouldve liked to see what they were making now. even if we're not friends#also one of their old roommates made some REALLY similar squid game fanart to mine like a month after i posted it huh..#not mad abt it or anything i think its cool i just didnt realise they showed my art to their friends. thats cute#ah this was years ago anyway. getting my head out of the rabbit hole#im gonna go play some elden ring and then maybe do smth fun in my sketchbook we shall seeee#.diaries
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