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LADS Men & the type of cats they are
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RAFAYEL (Nyafayel)
đž picky eater, will not eat dry food and will make a yucky face at canned food, wants you to cook proper meals everyday, and wants you to diversify the meals
đž will knock over every article from your work desk, bedside table, kitchen counter, etc. while looking right into your eyes with his most defiant and naughty âtry meâ expression đ
đž usually chill but will want all your attention in the presence of others; be it cats or humans..clingy af at night..will howl outside your roomâs door until you let him in and let him sleep with you in bed..
đž also the type to wail when you leave him alone at home to go to work, and immediately smothers you with licks and rubs the moment you come back
đž hisses at water, will accidentally scratch you when you try to give him a bath..yet at the same time, enjoys being pampered..he's the type who sees you doing makeup & wants you to put it on him as well đ
XAVIER (Catvier)
đž a lazy cat (cats do sleep around 16~18 hours)..one of those who fall into a deep slumber and you're just left shaking and calling him, concerned..and then he just lazily yawns and looks at you with the most innocent, confused gaze đĽş
đž slow blinks at you at random moments to express how much he loves you..also rubs his head against your legs and purrs, wraps tail around your leg,..kinda territorial, hisses if you smell like someone else..
đž loves food, is kind of a glutton..you need to stop feeding him..just because he meows sadly at you every hour doesn't mean he's hungry
đž does those weird cat things like sleep in awful postures, might stand on two feet and stare at you n do other weird shit lol
đž hates being toyed with but will immediately jump at the laser pointer lol..really sharp at spotting house lizards and mouse..will immediately catch them (topple alot of stuff in the process) and bring them to you as gifts
ZAYNE
đž is a gentleman and doesn't disturb you..sits nearby while you work so he can easily climb into your lap and offer comfort if you start feeling stressed or tired
đž not very vocal but there are days when he really wants affection, and on those days, he silently approaches you, headbutts you and meows softly, patiently waiting for you to pet him đĽş
đž not a talkative kitty but responds to everything you say..you call his name and he'll meow with affection, you ask if he's hungry and replies with a soft yet prolonged meow, you ask if wants to play and he meows cheerfully
đž very well-behaved, loves self-grooming but also never bothers you when it comes to bathing and grooming..sits like a good boy even when you're trimming his nails
đž does the most perfect loaf, may climb onto your belly when you're lying down and loaf onto your belly lol..is a baker kitty and will start kneading when he's feeling extra affectionate
SYLUS
đž an outdoor kitty, sometimes disappears for a day or two and just when you start feeling a little concerned, heâs tiptoeing back in through the flap in your door..may be covered in dirt or even small nicks and cuts from fights he picks with the strays
đž makes you chase him around the house the moment he realises you're going to give him a bath..but the moment he's put in the tub, he's actually enjoying it..might cozy up there for far longer than necessary
đž very confident..do not yell at him for anything because he will growl and snarl back..doesn't like it when you scold him..also the type to catch mice n other small animals but he likes toying with them for fun đ
đž there are days when you come across him meowing along to some tune..he's a talented singer, also likes to sing his meows when you're preparing his meal
đž will not let you pet him much..like he'll let you stroke his fur for a while and then suddenly when he gets overwhelmed by it, he will bite your hand lol (my cat does this sometimes đ) actually likes play-biting
i couldn't think up any good kitty names for Zayne and Sylus, so if y'all got any, please drop them in replies đ n iâll add them
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#love and deepspace#xavier x reader#zayne x reader#sylus x reader#rafayel x reader#xavier love and deepspace#zayne love and deepspace#sylus love and deepspace#rafayel love and deepspace#love and deepspace xavier#love and deepspace zayne#love and deepspace rafayel#love and deepspace sylus#lads zayne#lads rafayel#lads xavier#lads sylus#lnds zayne#lnds xavier#lnds rafayel#lnds sylus#l&ds xavier#l&ds rafayel#l&ds sylus#l&ds zayne#love and deepspace headcanons#xavier headcanons#zayne headcanons#sylus headcanons#rafayel headcanons
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request for a logan x reader where logan comforts the reader after they come home from a mission all bloodied up? i see a lot of reader comforting logan fics but im curious to see how itd be the other way round :)
me? responding to a request like three weeks later? it's more likely than you think. also sorry it's so short. originally it turned into smut but i didn't know if you'd want that given the request was for hurt/comfort. (if you guys want i can publish the alternate smut version of this fic too).
solace
summary: you come home from a mission gone wrong and logan helps you through it.
warnings: death (offscreen), blood, non-sexual intimacy, nudity, reader has hair, pet names (logan canonically calls his love interests "darlin'" and this is me pushing that agenda), english is not my first language so please do not be rude
word count: 1004
youâre splattered in blood and grime, grey ash streaking your skin from the fire created by a little boy lashing out at the world. he had set his own house on fire, his parents dying in the most brutal of ways, burned alive.
âoh princess, câmere,â logan pulls you into his arms. youâre in too much shock to argue, letting him manoeuvre you like a doll.
you donât like going on missions, donât like hurting people. youâre only ever sent on the easy ones, the non-violent ones, where you try to convince mutant kids to join the school. youâre good at talking to children, at getting them to admit their fears to you, at soothing their worries. but even the easy missions donât always go well.
charles could sense that this particular child was powerful, and far worse than that, he was angry. heâd lashed out when heâd seen you, screamed in anger when his parents expressed a desire for him to go to xavierâs school, to learn to control himself before he came back home again. his parents were frightened too, scared of what might happen if things continued the way they were.
theyâd all died in the explosion of his power.
he was so scared. he never meant to hurt anyone, you could see it in his eyes when the fire continued to burn despite him letting go. it was out of control, no longer a part of him that he could control like an extra limb, but something with a mind of its own.
it reminds you of yourself when youâd first discovered your abilities, scared and alienated from the rest of the world, from the non-mutants around you. you see yourself in every kid you save, and in every kid you lose.
you stay in loganâs arms for a long while, the only sound in the room his steady breathing contrasting with your ragged, choked out sobs. his chest rises steadily against yours, a rhythm that you try to imitate but you canât, and with every failed inhale you feel your frustration grow, your panic increase.
he picks you up easily, and you instinctively wrap your legs around his waist, clutching onto him so as not to fall. he would never drop you, you know that, but itâs always a slight surprise when youâre not expecting him to lift you from the ground.
he leads you to the bathroom where he helps you strip out of your clothes, so gentle with your shaking form. his hands trace each new sliver of skin revealed to him, keeping a firm pressure on you always, grounding you, reminding you of where you are. not in a burning house watching a childâs corpse go pitch black from the flames, but in the house that logan bought the two of you, not too far from the school but enough to give the two of you privacy.
in the shower, the blood rinses off your skin, pink rivulets swirling down the drain. yet you can still feel it, thick and sticky and warm. you want to scrub at your skin until its red and blistering, until you have to grow a new layer of skin, a fresh one that hasnât been touched by death.
logan doesnât let you. he catches your hand and whispers, âlet me take care of you, darlinâ.â
you lean into his bare chest and he massages shampoo into the roots of your hair, over your scalp until it foams, and then rinses it away. he runs your conditioner - the one he always claims is too expensive and why would you spend so much on hair products - through your hair, tugging gently at the strands when he notices you disappearing into your mind.
afterwards he pats you dry, and kisses every inch of your skin, reverent, on his knees before you. and then he rises to his feet and finally presses his lips to yours, soft and intimate, not rushed or heated, just reassurance that heâs here, heâs got you, and heâs not going anywhere.
âdo you want to talk about it?â he asks eventually.
you shake your head, âhe was just a kid.â
âi know,â logan says, rubbing his large, rough hands over your arms, up and down, âbut itâs not your fault, you know that. you canât control what other people do. dâyou blame storm for what happened?â
âno!â you exclaim, eyes wide at the implication that one of your best friends could have caused the boys death.
âbut she was on the mission with you,â logan comments, and you shake your head, âif you donât blame her, you canât blame yourself. neither of you knew, you couldnâtâve stopped it.â
âmaybe,â you say. you donât really believe it, but logan knows itâll take you time to get back to your usual happy self, and heâs fine with staying by your side, whispering praise and reassurance until you start to believe him again.
afterwards, he puts on your favourite movie. he spends the whole time making fun of the characters and their decisions, grumbling about how movies will base their entire plot progression on actions no real, rational person would ever do, until you giggle wetly and slap him in the arm, telling him to shut up and let you watch the film.
you lean back into the circle of his arms and he holds you tight, occasionally wiping stray tears that run down your cheeks. thereâs less tension in your muscles now, but youâre not quite relaxed, so he shuffles the two of you around until he can massage your shoulders and back.
you moan at the feeling, sinking into the sensation of his large hands working at the knots, until youâre putty for him. you feel warm and fuzzy by the time his hands start to stray down, massaging your thighs.
âfeelinâ better?â he asks as the end credits roll, pressing a kiss to your hair.
âyeah,â you sigh, âthank you for taking care of me.â
#logan howlett#logan howlett x reader#logan howlett x you#logan howlett x y/n#logan howlett fanfiction#wolverine#wolverine x reader#wolverine x you#wolverine x y/n#wolverine fanfiction#logan howlett x fem reader#logan howlett x fem!reader#wolverine x fem reader#wolverine x fem!reader#james logan howlett#wolverine logan howlett#logan howlett headcanons#logan howlett drabble#logan howlett oneshot#wolverine headcanons#wolverine drabble#wolverine oneshot#logan howlett fluff#wolverine fluff#logan howlett angst#wolverine angst#the wolverine#x men origins wolverine#x men 2000#deadpool and wolverine
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For Your Own Good: Intermission
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If you don't know what this post is about, "For Your Own Good" or tagged as "Early Amnesia AU" on tumblr is a dialogue-only Gravity Falls fanfiction I've been working on that kinda-sorta follows a Mystery Trio -esque timeline, where Ford doesn't build the portal. To sum it up, the whole fanfiction boils down to:
Researcher Ford: I told you I never wanted to see you again.
Mullet Stan: Dude, I don't know who you are or WTF you're talking about right now, but I'm leaving this town and never coming back. You are never seeing me again after this. I'm probably going to forget you in like five minutes.
Researcher Ford:
Researcher Ford: *immediately kidnaps him*
You can consider chapters 1-10 to be Act 1 of the fanfic, and Iâm taking a break for at least a week, most likely longer. The chapters so far were already written out in advance, and so was a huge reveal, but I still need to tie things together.
Hereâs some authors notes/extra stuff about it, some of it might have already been put in the AO3 before or after notes. These are in no particular order:
This takes place 10 years after Ford and Stan were separated, currently they are both 27 about to be 28. Fiddleford is slightly older than them, being in his early 30s.
Ford is unironically the only person who finds Stanâs really dumb jokes funny.
Ford is the one who displays the most behaviours that would be seen from Mabel and Dipper decades later. Like Dipper, he views washing clothes as a waste of time, and like Mabel he ate an entire tube of toothpaste (granted, it was on accident)
While Ford is the more likely of the two to display traits that later present in Mabel and Dipper, it still happens with Stan as well. Stan has a similar nervous-chewing habit that Dipper displays in the OG series, but his only comes out when heâs particularly anxious. In this case, it was because he had nicotine cravings.
The 'That motherfucker is ugly' line that Stan used on Ford can be considered extra ironic because of how much the Stan Twins look like their dad.
Bill Cipher was originally supposed to speak in Times New Bastard (which is Times New Roman except every 7th letter is jarringly sans serif, a meme from tumblr), but AO3 and tumblr donât let you change the font.
Stan goes out of his way to avoid using Ford and Fiddlefords given names- but this isnât because he doesnât know what they are. In the few times he has used their names, it was a sign that he was being sincere.
If you want to wonder whether or not Fiddleford likes Stan back, consider the fact that he could have walked away at any point, and either washed his hands of the whole thing, or just outright reported Stanford to the authorities.Â
Bill is more like Discord from MLP - heâs just chaotic, often to the detriment of others, but he isnât outright malicious (anymore), and heâs too busy SIMPING to cause any real harm. Basically, Bill is Fords patron for studying weirdness - he helps Ford in his research, but the cost that Ford pays is that Bill is able to possess him when he sleeps, and has unlimited access to his brain.
If Ford knew Rick Sanchez, why didnât Rick see how similar Stan looked and put 2-and-2 together? Easy; Rick didnât give a single shit about Ford, so he never committed his face or name to memory. Ford himself only remembered Rick because Rick was such a massive, egotistical asshole. If anything, Rick would think Ford is the lesser version of Stan.
Chapter 10 was the first concrete proof that the Stan weâve been following likely is Stanley Pines and not some similar conman named Stan Malone. The last time Ford saw Stan would have either been when they were teens, so other than Stans commercials for his failed products thereâs no way Ford would know what an adult Stan would even look like, and heâd have to use himself as a reference.
Stan has given some insight on his Thalassophobia (fear of the ocean / large bodies of water). In Chapter 10, he told Ford a number of things he escaped, including the trunk of a sinking car, and cement shoes. Cement shoes are either when you tie someone to a cinder block and throw them into a body of water, or when you literally incase their feet in cement, wait for it to dry, and then toss them into a body of water, so theyâll drown. Presumably, these are still things that would have happened to him even if he didn't lose his memories, so why would it give him a fear of the ocean now? Stan Pines in the OG still had a lot of positive memories associated with the ocean - he grew up on the coast, and had a lot of his hopes and dreams tied to the ocean. But without his childhood memories, he has no positive associations with it, only memories of times he almost drowned.Â
Ford himself is not a touchy guy. The reason he hugs Stan even though it isnât reciprocated is because from his perspective, this is his twin brother who is in pain and has been suffering all by himself for a long time. And Stan - at least how Ford remembers him - had a very touch-based love language. Fords doing it because he thinks itâd comfort him.
Stan seems pretty calm and chill for someone whoâs been kidnapped by a âstrangerâ. This isnât because heâs an overall chill guy because of amnesia, no heâs super pissed and the second he knows heâs free he will let them know that with his words, and incredible violence. Heâs remaining calm because heâs been imprisoned and kidnapped enough times to know that pitching a fit or lashing out at his captors wonât do him any favours.
Fiddleford is still married to Emma-May and they do have Tate. But it's one of those lavender marriages (they're both gay and mutually bearding each other)
#for your own good#early amnesia au#mystery trio#fords evil basement sub-lab#ford isnt a mad scientist hes a sad scientist#Stan calling Ford anything but his name#gravity falls#cross posted on ao3#fanfic#fanfiction#stanley pines#stan pines#stanford pines#ford pines#fiddleford hadron mcgucket#fiddleford mcgucket#bill cipher#rick sanchez#past stanchez#fiddlestan
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wisteria tour
h/ualian modern au snzfic, INTERLUDE (/part 4)
fandom: m/xtx t/gcf rating: M word count: ~2000 contains: possibly-unreasonable levels of pda allergic!h/ua c/heng & fet!x/ie l/ian semi-public sneezing one (1) in-text illustration on ao3 The perils of good landscaping when you have allergies befall H/ua C/heng, much to his dismay and X/ie L/ian's delight.
>> read it here on ao3! <<
see posts for: part 1 // part 2 // part 3
#snz kink#snz fet#snz fic#sneeze kink#catte snz fic#great news for this story: it gets to be part 4 again#because chronologically it comes in between the last one and the next one#and is longer than most of the other extras#but shorter than the mains. and lacks the development that happens in the mains lmao.#started work on the next one so i feel like i'm finally allowed to post this one#it has been sitting around finished for So Long. but the illustration gave me fits. pls appreciate it#t/gcf
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Im too lazy to hunt for the screenshots AND I recognize that its happened at earlier parts of the story BUT
Laois protecting Marcille from the falling icicles is just the EXACT reason her and Chilchuck stayed despite everything (besides Falin for Marcille of course). Despite the two of them not understanding him, despite them being put off by his mannerisms at times, despite their varying levels of discomfort around monster food they KNOW at the end of the day Laois has their backs.
He will do everything in his power to keep his party safe with zero hesitation or convincing and he does so because he genuinely cares about them. He might not know how to time a Morale Boosting Speech for when people *dont* have a mouth full of food, but they know he'll be there for them when they need him the most.
#YES Im including Chilchuck#Marcille was/is more extra with her dislike of monster food#especially in the beginning#but for most of her opinions that she had. Chilchuck was mirroring them in a quieter way#PLUS#Do you think his Union Ass would've stayed one second longer than necessary in that party if he didnt need to???#he's sticking around because he knows a job with a leader like Laois is rare and he doesnt want to give that up#so yeah anyway#obviously this is more of a direct reminder for Marcille but Chilchuck definitely factors into this too#as the other og member that stayed#anyway I could rant about this for a while#but in short. your honor they care about each other. they may not understand Laois but they Do Like him#as my friend put it#dungeon meshi#laois#Chilchuck#marcille
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Fellas can you take this somewhere else. Maybe. Just not in the fucking halls. Thanks đŤĄ
I couldn't resist drawing out these tags I wrote on a dif post LMFAO
Moe just has...... SO many problems.......
Close-ups of my fave shots!
The elusive LĂf...
#fire emblem#feh#i'm like. split between feeling proud of this and feeling So Over It LMFAOOOOOOO#which is why. lighting could be better. but i don't care enough to put in more work than i already have LMFAOO#LIKE... ONE COOL PART is this could be my first fully colored comic piece w completely original dialogue???#where like. i didn't quit at any point of it. EXCEPT. skimping on the backgrounds. but again. more effort than i'm willing to put in#but i think it still counts bc my only real plan was to have the askr pillars/walls as framing/backdrops#ALSO the characterization... in the panel where lif walks into frame. it's SO fun to me#they both look at lif. but moe is Not subtle about it. looking directly at him. while alfonse side-eyes him.#and the most IMPORTANT detail. is that alfonse and lif are making the same kind of face. like đ¤¨#there is SO MUCH POTENTIAL. in alfonse and lif sharing facial expressions. in having the same knee-jerk reactions to things.#and it's espppp fun to figure out bc you're only working w half of lif's face. it's all in the eyes/brows and SOMETIMES!#SOMETIMES!!!! it's in the nose! in this illust he is more relaxed/resting so you don't see it here#but i'm TELLING you. adding some scrunch to the nose can add soooo much expression-wise#this took longer than i expected it to. also. which is why i'm so over it LMFAOO#but i do think the extra time was worth it... first run of the last panel was too lighthearted/jokey#capturing some conflict between moe/alfonse was the right choice. in how intensely this starts off (tonally)#AND! in showing how they do butt heads at times. in fact sometimes they clash REALLY badly!!!!#which is actually so huge bc i've wanted to capture this since the beginning. how they're so similar but also so opposite#that a lot of times! they understand each other deeply and cover each other's basis. HOWEVER.....#other times. it's just catastrophic. like it isn't That intense here but you can probably see how it goes horribly wrong.#i am... always thinking about it.... and only occasionally stressing myself out about it LMFAOOO#fe alfonse#fe lif#moe tag#summoner oc#my art#my comics
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Hey if youâre still enjoying and engaging with Harry Potter in any capacity you can unfollow me đ please and thank you
Like. I get it. I was super into it as a kid too. I did not have the social context to pick up on the antisemitism or transphobia or sexism or fatphobia or bioessentialism or racism or anything else. I also picked up on surface-level language of Fighting Back Against Evil and ascribed my own values onto what that meant and thought we were all on the same page. I remember when the original kids who grew up with the books started becoming adult fans and picking up on the (blatant!) antisemitism and everybody was still mostly willing to give JKR the benefit of the doubt on it. (âShe was writing kids books!â They said. âShe didnât know she was penning a global phenomenon! She picked a common literary trend in European fairy tales (antisemitic caricature) and didnât examine it closely. Itâs a mistake anyone could make,â we said. âShe would probably do things differently now. After all, she word-of-god confirmed the vaguest hints she dropped that Dumbledore might be gay,â we said.) There was actually a span of several years where biases inherent in the actual real content of the Harry Potter series were coming to light and even the people pointing them out still seemed mostly to think it was an unfortunate accident.
That time has passed. Years ago! We are long past the first months of âmaybe she doesnât realize this seemingly-feminist tweet she liked was made by a noted TERFâ and then âhow could she not realize that these many veiled TERF-y things sheâs retweeted have implications for the many queer fans of her workâ and finally âoh wow okay JKR just dropped an entire transphobic manifesto on twitter. I guess the transphobia was the point.â
Yeah, there were a few months after that where people were still processing and still working through how they felt about Harry Potter and all of its flaws with the context of the now open transphobia of the creator. I was there for that. Remember how I was one of the kids who built it up into something noble and worthwhile based on my own beliefs about what messages it was probably trying to convey? Turns out it wasnât trying to say any of those things, and when you take the time to examine all of the terrible shit that made its way into the text whether JKR intended it to be there or not, the whole series falls apart. Itâs weird to discover that thereâs a room in your house thatâs rotten to the core, but eventually you figure out you canât live like that, still going in there and holding your nose and pretending itâs still the same room you thought it was when the termites were only inside of the walls and hadnât yet started chewing their way through the furniture. Because whatâs going to happen is that they are going to infest the rest of your house. If you decide you can ignore transphobia and antisemitism and everything else just because you liked the color of the wallpaper, the rest of your principles are going to crumble too. You get rid of that fucking room. You put those books on a high shelf in the back of your closet behind other outgrown clothes and interests and you move the fuck on.
JKR uses the money made from her transphobic antisemitic childrenâs books to actively funding hate groups and to lobby for legislation that will and has actually affected the actual lives of trans people in an entire country. We are past the point of grieving something you were wrong about in childhood. Kids are wrong about a lot of stuff. You grow up and you learn new information and you change your behaviors based on it. You have to choose. It is transphobic to pretend there is not transphobia where there is. It is transphobic to support the work of someone who is using those funds to take rights from trans people with every fucking dollar. It is hateful to continue to engage positively with a story that at its very core is rooted in hate and bigotry and prejudice. You can choose to do all of those things but you cannot claim ignorance of them and you cannot choose those things and still pretend that choosing them upholds the values we convinced ourselves that Harry Potter stood for over a decade ago as uninformed children. You cannot choose to do those things and pretend to still support your trans and queer and Jewish neighbors. I do not want you in my neighborhood. Leave.
#mine#Harry potter cw#yeah I donât want to see or think about this shit either and Iâm sure most of my followers are on the same page of just like. letâs wipe it#from the public consciousness and do our best to just completely ignore it and forget it existed and in doing so take away JKRs platform and#influence and also stop the continued harm the series will do by propagated hateful biases in people who continue to read it#but despite heavily culling my feed over the course of the past several years and thankfully mostly not seeing HP fandom things anymore#Iâve been seeing a lot of responses today to people defending it and honestly I forget that there are still people out there doing that who#think they are just fine and normal fandom people with non-hateful and terrible interests and it makes me so angry#maybe more so because like. I was there too! I was annoyingly obsessed with Harry Potter from the ages of idk seven? up until whenever JKR#started being openly transphobic. I have so much fucking knowledge about this book series that will never leave my brain. and yeah it was#weird and hard to have to rethink things and realize that no actually it does feel bad and uncomfortable to continue to be a fan even#passively of these books. it was a big part of my childhood and several of my friendships. I fully get it. I was the weird kid also.#it was weird and hard to say oh actually this sucks and I donât want to be a part of it anymore. but I did it! I got there! because it was#more important to care about real actual things and people than it is to fondly remember a book series for children.#and at the time it felt like maybe I did hang on a little longer than I could have and was a little later than some people and figuring out#my feelings and moving on from the whole thing. but it was still fucking years ago. and youâre still here?#because you like the color of the wallpaper in this shitty rotten broken down tacked on room? because we used to spend time there together?#buddy the room was giving us lead poisoning the whole time and the rest of us have accepted that and we are all outside doing other things.#you will find connection and community in so many places in your life. I promise. get the fuck out of that terrible awful room#and for gods sake stop bring out handfuls of mold you found under the floorboards and shoving it in our faces#nobody fucking wants this. we did it. weâre done.#so yeah I think I have an extra level of disdain because I know from personal experience that itâs not *that* fucking hard to care more#about real life trans people than about antisemitic childrenâs books.
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30 Day Fictionkind Challenge Day 14
Q: What are shifts like?
A: Before I begin, I'm strictly speaking about my personal experience here, and in no way does this post serve as a universal definition. Think of this like a diary entry, not an encyclopedia entry.
Anyway, what they're like can vary wildly based on several factors. Two big ones are the kintype in question, and what prompted the shift. Generally though, a shift almost always comes with strong feelings attached, and in its own way, each shift feels like coming home.
Because this blog is for discussing my identity as Luca, I'll focus on that kintype. However, it's a bit hard for me to describe, because more often than not I'm in a Luca shift. I consider it more of a "default" state of being, for lack of a better term.
Anyway, how a Luca shift feels depends on what prompted it. In my personal experience, kinshifts are always prompted by something, and never come randomly.
Most of the time, shifts are prompted by music. Sometimes it's music that resonates with me lyrically â the words metaphorically "bring me back" to my source. Other times, it resonates with me melodically. The sound scratches my brain in a "Luca" way, and/or is a song I would've liked in-source. Sometimes, both the lyrics and the melody take me back.
Other common triggers include (but aren't limited to):
Lore drops (particularly about my backstory or time at the manor)
Any other official drops that I consider relevant to me
Fanart that aligns with my memories/noemata or otherwise touches me in some way
Analysis of my source that aligns with my own perception, or that prompts new introspection
Unrelated creative works that resonate with me from a Luca perspective
Random posts/memes on the internet I find relatable or that cater to my sense of humor
A common denominator among all of these potential triggers is that they are all callbacks to my memories and noemata. For example, my birthday reveal prompted a Luca shift, because it affirmed my suspicions about what my interests, likes, and dislikes were.
Another example of something that has happened to me several times is finding a song that reminds me of someone important to me, so I ruminate on my feelings and memories about that person, which prompts a Luca shift.
A final example I'll give is coming across a post on my dash that I feel captures my "essence" as Luca, so I sit and think about it and any specific memories or noemata it may have reminded me of. Or maybe I just find it relatable (or funny!) without necessarily being reminded of specific aspects of my source. Both cases can prompt a shift.
My response to the shift and how it feels depends on how I feel about the memories and stuff attached to it (positively or negatively). Generally speaking, whether my feelings are positive or negative, I'll probably feel pretty intensely going into it regardless, and spend the next while dwelling on it.
My negative memories/noemata associated with this kintype hold a lot of resentment and anger, so those are the most common emotions I feel during a shift prompted by stuff like that. I may also feel sadness for what I've lost or what I've been through. Or, I can feel frustration at what I didn't know then and don't know now. Feelings like hate, obsession, and grief are no strangers during these shifts.
Shifts fueled by negative emotions can feel like a stab in the chest, or sometimes it can get especially bad and feel like I'm burning from the inside. Either way, I like to make use of outlets so I'm not just stewing in it. Music is my main outlet, but I may also draw, write, or talk it out if I feel up for it. Redirecting my focus to something else entirely also helps.
From the outside, I might appear withdrawn and low-energy so as to not needlessly dump my problems on others, or misdirect my feelings. If it's nothing too serious though, I probably don't seem any different. Just preoccupied at worst.
My positive memories/noemata associated with this kintype...can honestly be few and far between (having a horror source is great /sarcasm). But, they still exist, and can still prompt shifts just like negative noemata can. Most of the time, shifts prompted by positive emotions are fueled by my love for the people I was close to in my canon (or even just amicable acquaintances with). There's not a lot about this source I can be wholeheartedly happy about outside of my cherished interpersonal relationships, so I can't think of any examples of purely positive shifts off the top of my head that don't revolve around my friends and peers. Maybe I'll come back and try to think of some sometime.
Shifts fueled by positive emotions can feel like a flower blossoming in my chest; it feels full, yet ticklish, like the petals are gently brushing against my flesh. It's comparable to the feeling you get when you're about to laugh. It can also feel like a spurt of energy too big to let out all at once, or simply a tranquil, warm fondness. Usually, I don't feel the need to make use of any outlets, and prefer to sit and enjoy the feeling. If I do use any outlets, though, they're the same ones I use to process negative emotions.
From the outside, I have no idea whether or not being preoccupied with positive noemata affects my behavior. I imagine I don't act differently, but if I do, it can't be anything bad. Perhaps the worst that can happen is that I become a bit more chatty.
Then, there's the grey area between positive and negative: nostalgia. It fits there perfectly, like a puzzle piece linking the two together. Nostalgia is a very common trigger for kinshifts for me, and feels like a potent mix of both pleasant and sour emotions. There's no way for me to describe it concisely. It's deserving of its own post, honestly.
I guess it's just a mix of the positive and negative, period. I feel nostalgia when something reminds me of or when I think about the places, people, and things I loved in my canon. Things I took pride in, as well. It's bittersweet, because while the love I hold is still just as strong today, the key difference between then and now is that what I love doesn't exist in this world. Not to mention the things I loved and lost in my canon, not just the things I lost when I began the life I live now.
Both kin and non-kin alike are familiar with nostalgia, so it feels redundant to explain or describe, but for the sake of consistency and archiving my thoughts I'll do it anyway. Shifts brought about by nostalgia feel like something twisting and wrenching in my chest. Like an itch that can never be scratched, or reaching for something that feels so close, but never so much as brushes against your hand. It's a love for something that no longer exists how I knew it. It's either forever altered, or gone altogether.
Nothing stays in perfect stasis for eternity, as much as I like to deny it. Places and times changing and ceasing to exist altogether are inevitable, so it's inevitable that your love will change, too. Don't get me wrong, it brings me great joy to reflect on the things I love, but the longing comes with the love. It's a package deal.
I suppose that's all I can say on the subject for now. I'll ruminate on this a bit more, and see what else I can write about the subject in the future. Hopefully this is coherent to anyone other than me, and isn't too redundant/repetitive.
Honestly, I went on much longer than I expected to. I thought I'd be in and out, but ended up rambling a bunch. It almost made me give up altogether with how long it dragged out for, but I powered through! If you read this long, thank you for taking the time to listen, and if you wish to share your own experience or want to ask me questions, my notes and inbox are always open. Take care!
#fictionkin#30 day fictionkind challenge#kin stuff#kin shifts#idk how many non kin follow me but i imagine the word âkinshiftâ rings a few bells for most people on tumblr LOL?#basically (at least for me) it's a period of time (long or short) where one's connection to a certain kintype and/or its memories/noemata#feels extra strong. and/or stronger than other kintypes one might have#for example if i say âi'm in a luca shiftâ it just means i'm luca as always but like. at the moment i'm really in tune with that kintype.#but i'm sure the definition varies based on who you ask. that's just my experience#may 2024 tags:#JESUS. i was stuck on this draft for months and months because it was longer than i expected#because it went on for so long i started to dislike it + second guess myself and took multiple breaks from writing it#decided fuck it and finished it just now. huzzah#anyway yeah here. hopefully this coherent because i don't have the attention span to proofread and edit more than i already have
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yâall this is getting out of hand im sketching a trobed reunion and iâve got like ten layers that are just different hairstyles for older troy i cant decide betweenâ
#soni rambles#troy barnes#trobed#community#this is what happens when i get the freedom to give characters different hairstyles than the ones they canonically have#ok. weâve got the classic slightly messy curly hair the short dreads the slightly longer ponytail dreads#the dreads with a sailing cap and a short dreads with short ponytail#i already narrowed it down and now canât decide cause theyâre all cute for him#might just do the natural cause thatâs the most recognizably âtroyâ look but save the others for extra sketches
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Love the idea of Kae getting used to eating consistent meals bc of a significant other or even a friend who made it a point to always eat with him to ensure he doesn't forget, and even gaining a little weight as a result, even with his metabolism.
#â â ( .ooc. );#//Him playfully protesting that he hates the couple extra pounds and 'blaming' his other for it#//Meanwhile first chance he gets; he's happily observing his figure; and relieved he's at a healthier one than he was before#//Smth smth abt the healing process and him no longer being so stressed/distracted to neglect to take care of himself in that aspect#//And many others; bc a s/o who goes through routines like that with him (like naps) DEFFO helps him keep on top of that shit#//Or even going through their own routines and him doing smth in parallel play sorta helping remind him of his own shit#//Deffo was sickly thin as a kid; then got better with Addie's care; then his eating routine went OUT the fucken window when Luc left#//Bc he couldn't stomach much with his stress and guilt eating away at him instead#//And then leaving her care it got WORSE; bc then he was too busy/stressed to worry abt himself save his own appearance#//ALL his spoons went to Investigations; Knight Duties; and Beauty routines#//Hence why Noelle bcame so dear to him; when she came into his life; she likely picked up how busy he was and helped him out Lots#//His newer routine of bugging Luc at the tavern actually helps him remember to eat#//Bc he /hates/ drinking on an empty stomach; but typically doesn't care. With Luc; however; going to see him; he gets an urge to front mor#//And snacking means he's less likely to make faces when the alcohol doesn't sit right with him/he drinks too much#//So Luc's less likely to deny him drinks. Charles; Kae can just charm more out of him regardless. Luc takes more convincing#//Drinking at Cats Tail helps too; bc Margaret makes SURE he's had smth before drinking. She understands him in that regard#//Typically makes him eat smth that ends making him sleepy like soup so he heads home & promptly passes tf out hitting the pillow#//He's not actually caught on to the fact that she does this on purpose in the entire time he's been a patron with her#//He keeps chalking it up to how relaxed the mood there is that lulls his body into some sense of security#//bc he DOES gets sleepier around ppl he trusts for that very reason; is why sometimes he pulls away from them#//If Addie manages to get her hands on him before he skeddadles out of the Winery; she'll have him tucked away and sleeping in no time#//And actually having the MOST restful sleep he's ever had in AGES; up until he startles himself awake and realizes Luc's home#//And has to book it TF out of the Winery bc he doesn't want to deal with the man & bicker so soon after waking#//He's already made vulnerable by Addie's care; he doesn't need Luc to carve him right open if their bickering goes too far. Not like this#//It'd be all too easy#//Is also why he likes staying awake and watching people he cares for sleep. Bc if HE sleeps & wakes w them; he shows a MASSIVELY vulnerabl#side to himself that he REALLY doesn't want people seeing; and for hella good reason. It's an open shot at his heart; after all#//Wow; SO many points where it veered jdfbgf. And this was supposed to be abt healing & self-care jdkjfg
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every other professor whenever there are final presentations/performances/speeches/whatever that everyone has to do: hey presentations start on this day; weâll take volunteers and try to get through as many as possible in one day, so thisâll probably take about 2 class periods if all goes well
this one professor: there are 6 groups that need to present. the presentation should be about 15 minutes. this class period is 50 minutes. therefore instead of doing 3 presentations per class period and getting through all of these in 2 classes making it so that yâall can get out of here an extra 2 days early we will schedule 2 presentations per class and stretch this thing out all the way until friday because i just know iâm the last thing keeping you here. it is locked in. also you cannot leave if your group has already presented you have to stay and listen to everyone elseâs. i value your time a lot
#like ok i kinda get it .? but 3 presentations that are each at most 15 minutes would total 45 minutes we could handle that in one class#sheâs the kind of person who always wants class to get out early she never likes taking up the full 50 minutes which is valid#except in this circumstance i feel like a LOT of us would rather just cram these all in and take a bit longer each day#because the payoff of leaving early at the end of the semester is very appealing to a lot of us#however i canât really complain about her because this is the same prof who graciously agreed to move our final online#that otherwise wouldâve been on the 16th which REALLY wouldâve been the last thing holding me here#for an extra week and a half. after today. for no other reason#like iâm already getting to go home way earlier than i should but still! it wouldâve been nice#although perhaps i shouldnât be saying this because i am one of those two groups thatâs going on friday lol#and our presentation isnât quite done yet so we couldnât have gone today even if she wouldâve let us#but yâknow if we had been told we were presenting earlier we couldâve gotten it done hey#weâre just not gonna do the work until the last minute we have to right#peach rambles
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the funniest discourse i think everyone was obsessed with for like a week was the âwatch me make a grown woman her milkshake at 6 in the morningâ starbucks employee video. such passion from both sides that we forgot that it was a) over a starbucks drink b) the opinion âi like a sweet coffee drinkâ from a customer and âi am annoyed with customers who order a labor intense drink when i am tired/it is busyâ from an employee can actually both exist and in actuality harm nobody.
#thoughts#people were ready to die on their chosen hill LMAO it was given extra context by me working at sbux at the time#i donât get why the employee filmed it cuz that feels like an easy way to get fired but maybe they really wanted out LMFAO#frapps were a major pain tho. no i donât think anyone is a bad person for ordering the#but they are the most labor intensive drink you can order which can be stressful if you work at a location that really emphasizes getting#drinks out fast. they would take significantly longer to make than any other thing in the menu#because there are a lot of steps. fun to make when itâs dead tho#but once again itâs fine to be annoyed with customers as long as you arenât assholes to them#you can be annoyed at anybody in your head and nobody gets hurt
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My daughter is in a screaming phase. She just spends the whole day shrieking and screaming and I have had the most terrible headache. The last night's she cried for a Minimum of two hours because of the teeth and today everything was fine. I did everything I could and it was fine. We fell asleep. I wake up 45 minutes later to her screaming again and I just can't take it anymore. I've had too little sleep and I've been around her for the last 3 days... Even when I was interacting with her she was still in the same room screeching. My husband complained after two hours and honestly next time he does I'm gonna tell him to shut up about it. I haven't stopped crying for an hour cause now I can't sleep again cause I'm so agitated. I hate mother hormones. I hate not being allowed to sleep. I hate headaches. I don't want to get up and finish all the chores.
#ignore me#somehow all of this is going to a very toxic direction and i dont think my husband even notices#i cant stand his whining about free time and wjatever other shit he complains about#I'm stuck with the kid for days snd even my days of are hakf days at best where i sleep a few extra hours and he spend the rest of my free#time around me or i do shit for the house#i just wann die#at this point i wanna die#and all the people I'd ask are too busy or i know that she wojt saty for longer than an hour with them#i screamrd at her to shut up cause i couldn't take it#i cant do this anymore#she spits out her stupid pacifiers and then cries about it not being in her mouth#i had to hold it with a little force so she would be able to suck on it and get back to sleep#i pass out while breastfeeding cause i am too exhausted#I'm gonna have to take care of all the new clothes that will arrive soon which will be an extra day of work and honestly i dont have a day#i barely have enough time for me#there sre says i dont eat so i make everyone else happy cause i just feel like i dont matter#now my brother needs help with resumes and i know nobody else will help him but he needs something soon or it will fuck up his life#my parents are getting older and it sometimes tests my patience that i have to baby their feelings again#and my sister's health is so bad i dont wanna ask her#also most of my friends are busy or sick themselves#well anyways gotta go clean and prepare everything for tomorrow
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Finalllllly through ch 12 of rebirth oh my god that was so much stuff fuck
#like Iâm happy for the amount of stuff but jfc a lot of the harder levels in minigames and what not should have just been like new game+#I didnât even DO everything and it still took significantly longer than any of the other chapters#also for me (or at least how Iâve been playing it) the game kinda has some problems keeping momentum and tension going#and 12 reallllly struggled with that#like there were so many plot things being set in motion directly followed by âoh yeah go finish off this extra stuff and new levelsâ#like the side quests for the most part were fine but then there would just be so much extra stuff#like the audible grown I let out when it was to the protorelic boss and instead of just a boss fight you had to refight all the summons#like I was just happy to get through with it and fight this guy for the thrid time but then it was so much extra#those dual summon fights were cool tho but also EVIL#but also could have just been a after you beat the story combat trial#donât get me wrong I love it but also âI am so happy to be in the endgame and more plot heavy stuff tho#oof this turned ranty sorry#rant#ff7#ff7 rebirth
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So Venus is my favorite planet in the solar system - everything about it is just so weird.
It has this extraordinarily dense atmosphere that by all accounts shouldn't exist - Venus is close enough to the sun (and therefore hot enough) that the atmosphere should have literally evaporated away, just like Mercury's. We think Earth manages to keep its atmosphere by virtue of our magnetic field, but Venus doesn't even have that going for it. While Venus is probably volcanically active, it definitely doesn't have an internal magnetic dynamo, so whatever form of volcanism it has going on is very different from ours. And, it spins backwards! For some reason!!
But, for as many mysteries as Venus has, the United States really hasn't spent much time investigating it. The Soviet Union, on the other hand, sent no less than 16 probes to Venus between 1961 and 1984 as part of the Venera program - most of them looked like this!
The Soviet Union had a very different approach to space than the United States. NASA missions are typically extremely risk averse, and the spacecraft we launch are generally very expensive one-offs that have only one chance to succeed or fail.
It's lead to some really amazing science, but to put it into perspective, the Mars Opportunity rover only had to survive on Mars for 90 days for the mission to be declared a complete success. That thing lasted 15 years. I love the Opportunity rover as much as any self-respecting NASA engineer, but how much extra time and money did we spend that we didn't technically "need" to for it to last 60x longer than required?
Anyway, all to say, the Soviet Union took a more incremental approach, where failures were far less devastating. The Venera 9 through 14 probes were designed to land on the surface of Venus, and survive long enough to take a picture with two cameras - not an easy task, but a fairly straightforward goal compared to NASA standards. They hadâŚmixed results.
Venera 9 managed to take a picture with one camera, but the other one's lens cap didn't deploy.
Venera 10 also managed to take a picture with one camera, but again the other lens cap didn't deploy.
Venera 11 took no pictures - neither lens cap deployed this time.
Venera 12 also took no pictures - because again, neither lens cap deployed.
Lotta problems with lens caps.
For Venera 13 and 14, in addition to the cameras they sent a device to sample the Venusian "soil". Upon landing, the arm was supposed to swing down and analyze the surface it touched - it was a simple mechanism that couldn't be re-deployed or adjusted after the first go.
This time, both lens caps FINALLY ejected perfectly, and we were treated to these marvelous, eerie pictures of the Venus landscape:
However, when the Venera 14 soil sampler arm deployed, instead of sampling the Venus surface, it managed to swing down and land perfectly onâŚ.an ejected lens cap.
#space#space history#venus#NASA#Venera#spost#I will talk all day about venus#ask me about venus floating sky cities#unpopular opinion venus > mars#this is probably my favorite space history story#the surface of venus is made of lens caps#don't try to tell me the universe doesn't have a sense of humor#well#I guess its more that people have a sense of humor and we happen to live in the universe
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the look of love ŕł
how to describe a loving gaze
⸠eyes darting all over your face, trying to figure out which part of you they want to set their eyes on the most (it's impossible)
⸠gazing at you like you're miles away only when you're a few feet away, standing with another person. their stare is hard, intense, but also melting and blank.
⸠a featherlight touch to your arm with their eyes softly peering up at you. they can't believe that you're allowing them to touch you like thisâso innocent, so softly.
⸠late nights where its just the two of you in a car. they turn over to look at you but immediately turn. for the safety of the both of you, they can't stare at you any longer
⸠when you're teasing them, they have to bite down extra hard to not release that smile from their lips. their eyes are squinted more tightly than usual. still, they're glued onto you.
⸠meeting their eyes from across the room, and the two of you have the exact same thought. you turn away first to hold back your laughter, but their eyes are pinned onto you.
⸠a softened gaze in a random moment. there's no reason for them to be looking at you like thatâwith slightly hooded eyes and parted lipsâexcept for the fact that they just love seeing you
⸠you're twirling around in your new outfit, showing the 360 angle. their pupils look like they're completely taking over the iris of their eye. suddenly, breathing becomes a lot more faster than they remember.
⸠tears run like thrashing rivers on your face, dripping onto your pants and soaking the sleeves of your shirt. but they don't care. even when wiping your tears, they still can't get over how you look absolutely angelic like this.
⸠eyeing you in the middle of the night, feeling incredibly lucky that they are the only one who can look at you in this state. a smile dawns upon their face as they trace the shape of your jaw, press their fingers in your cheekbones, and kiss you on the cheek.
⸠a make-out session that seems like it will never stop until they pull away, and the reason being, "i needed to look at you like this," with swollen lips and a red flush.
⸠laughter dying down into silence. looking at each other and bursting into laughter again.
⸠being completely bare in front of each other after a long night. shameless admiration where their eyes move up and down your face and body. there's a mix of lust and adoration in their eyes.
⸠watching you storm off, and all they can do is stand there, focused on your fleeting figure. their face is contortedânot in an angry wayâbut a look of concern flashes across their features. did they just lose the one they loved the most?
⸠getting food with the other person and realizing that this is all it takes for you to be content. this is what happiness feels like, you think.
⸠a gripping hug that makes you feel so seen. that one second during the embrace where you two both look at each other, and time stands still. you want to frame the expression on the other person's face.
⸠seeing you, and a beaming smile immediately breaks out of their face.
#keyotosprompts#fluff prompts âËâżË°#writeblr#writing#writing prompts#otp writing#otp prompts#imagine your otp#about writing#romance writing#story prompts#prompts#love#i've been obsessed with no1 party anthem i fear
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